daydreaming-since-2001

[daydreaming-since-2001]

All I ever wanted was peace.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

The best feeling is realising that they were projecting.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Something must be wrong with me because I don't feel like I belong anymore.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Sometimes talking to friends when having ADHD is difficult. I've caught myself interrupting people the past few days and I hate it because I can't stop it. I feel like after I've interrupted people multiple times and even apologised for it they shape a negative first impression of me.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Comments I have heard from people when I talk.

-Why are you shouting?

-Speak up!

-You talk much

-You do not talk at all.

-Why are you talking so fast?

-You are repeating yourself.

-Why would you say this? It is not a joke.

-Do not interrupt.

I am criticised for talking, I am criticised for not talking. I am tired changing myself with the excuse that I annoy others. I want to be myself without judgement.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Just to make something clear. ADHD is a different process of thinking. I am sick and tired of people trying to fix us or making us feel like we need to be fixed. I am sick and tired of people shouting at us because we forget things or because we do stuff differently. Have you ever asked ADHD people how bad they feel when they interrupt but cannot control it or when they speak without thinking sometimes and cause trouble? We feel guilty everyday and overanalyze it and then get depressed or we dissociate from the world.

We are not sensitive we are just overwhelmed sometimes and we have to cry to get our frustrations out. Even though I am covering only ADHD since I have had experiences with it, please respect neurodiversity in general and try to support people instead of indicating what they should do or judging them.

Yours truly,

A very overwhelmed ADHD brain.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Sometimes living with ADHD is very hard.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

To all the people out there who want to do stuff but for whatever reason they cannot. You are not alone.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Recently I started a new job in another country. I do not know the language and I feel so isolated. I am still learning but until I am proficient enough to speak it, I will not be able to communicate because most of them don't even speak English.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

When you are in a dark room alone, your mind takes you to places that you thought you would never revisit again.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Mood: Bonding with fictional characters who live in your head 24/7

[daydreaming-since-2001]

I wish I was brave enough to not depend on others

[daydreaming-since-2001]

People just want to ruin your happiness.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

When they just leave you because they are tired of you but you've always been there for them.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Humans are selfish. They create happy memories and when they are over, they want more.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

I was returning home with a taxi after doing my grocery shopping. We had just arrived at the destination and the taxi driver asked me if I was going back for Christmas. My answer was no and he replied that it will be boring here without any pubs or bars open. I have never felt more alone or sad in my entire life knowing that I can't celebrate Christmas with my family and friends.

[daydreaming-since-2001]

Starting conversation #2: Am I the only one feeling alone in a big group of people ?