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remember recent events: 🤨😐😒🤮😩

remember events that happened more than 10 years ago in extreme detail and quality: 🙏💋❤️‍🩹😝😁

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The kind of crazy person that people are skeptical about, but simultaneously, can't stay away from for long.

Making a tag game cause I can

Rules: post 4 fictional characters you relate to and assume something about the person you reblogged from based on their characters

No pressure tag! @sidneyoftheblackwoods @mqstermindswift @stars-and-birds @zenilvar @forever-chained-to-myself @themidnightarcher @skeelly @thepencilsnameissteve @thislove-taylorsversion @thislifeissweeterthanfiction @swiftieannah @a-pessimistic-swiftie @catastrxblues @jellycanon @what-about-wendy and anyone else who wants to join<3

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“You never gave any signs”

also me in every game pretending to be a cis boy and compulsively playing only with male characters:

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This guy is disgusting.

Trump basically declared disabled people ‘unfit to work’ as he put it by revoking the Equal Employment Opportunity Law of 1965. It means employers no longer have to legally give accommodations to disabled employees. This will render so many Americans jobless and barely anyone is talking about it because disabled people like me are treated as expendable.

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It's strange to think that practically 90% of my personality is formed by my autism and ADHD (along with traumas and personal experiences) and I don't even realize it most of the time. Only after I stop to think about it.

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I like seeing some people deny my neurodivergence JUST based on the fact that I’m very opinionated, straightforward and have no-little tolerance for disrespect/manipulation, when all they expect is for autistics to be gentle, harmless, “:3 kawaii” creatures.

No bitch. I'm not a pliant, malleable pookie bear. I'm an adult grown-ass man, and if you try to fuck me, i'll fight back.

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I create such complex sentences in my head, but I can't form a sentence with more than seven words verbally. Life is crazy. 😂

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when a powerful figure is reduced to kneeling. when the lord is forced to bow. when the exile stumbles into an unwelcoming bar. when the “beast” is chained by their horns. when a god is dragged behind their enemy’s chariot, a captive and trophy. when the loyal “guard dog” character is muzzled and the silver-tongued thief falls silent in horror.

that’s the shit

it’s about the contrapasso. the reversal of roles and the sudden, plunging terror of being unable to hide.

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I like seeing some people deny my neurodivergence JUST based on the fact that I’m very opinionated, straightforward and have no-little tolerance for disrespect/manipulation, when all they expect is for autistics to be gentle, harmless, “:3 kawaii” creatures.

No bitch. I'm not a pliant, malleable pookie bear. I'm an adult grown-ass man, and if you try to fuck me, i'll fight back.

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Honestly, why do some people think they are being more morally correct and mature than me when they see me expressing myself by swearing or intensity? 🤨

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It's amazing how most of my anxiety attacks happen at night. Because I know I'm gonna have to be around my aunt without my mother around — ‘cause she’s working —, and the thought makes me sick. She never listens to me when I'm having an attack, she always downplays what I'm feeling, makes it seem like I'm just being dramatic. That I'm just overreacting. That calming myself down is much simpler than she thinks.

I've had to take my mother out of work several times ‘cause of this. Not only is she unable to take care of herself, but she also has to drag others along with her in her misfortune. She thinks I owe her respect because she's older than me for totally unreasonable things, completely forgetting that I'm a human being with opinions and I have every right to ask questions about anything. When all she did my entire life until I realized I had to start standing for myself was disrespect me. And you know what makes this clear? I feel great when I make her feel bad. When I can throw something I've always wanted to say in her face. When she realizes how trashy she is and that she urgently needs a psychologist. How relieved I am that she has to work all day and how much better I felt when I was away from her in another house — just as much as I felt worsier when I had to see her again (involuntarily).

Sorry mom, sorry grandma, sorry cousin. But I can't stand that woman. I want her to die — for real. I’ll never, never, ever have any sympathy for her.

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Me in public: (I think I'm doing a good job masking! I'm probably passing off as somewhat neurotypical!)

How I look:

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a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

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Stop masking.

Stop running away from who you are. Stop hiding behind a socially acceptable and pleasant mask because that's what you think is right for you to get along with people.

You don't owe anyone sympathy. You don't owe anyone well-being. You don't owe anyone happiness. None of this should be forced on you when you know that everything around you is a mess. But that's what you learned, isn't it?

That fitting in is easier. More rewarding. Let me tell you what’s truly rewarding: embracing your true essence. Stop explaining yourself to others. Stop telling them why you do something in a way that is different from what they expect. Stop explaining why it takes you so long to process things, why you don't want to go to college, why you don't practice basic hygiene, why you don't do that — that doesn't define who you are. Whether your future is bright or not, whether you have potential, or whatever the fuck you're worried about.

Just because they can hold their masks longer than you can doesn't make you a failure. Because in the end, we're all human. We're all different, and I want you to understand this:

Stop demanding more of yourself. Your life? Your rhythm. Your choices. Your desires. You may not be following the same path as most people, and fuck all that. Because this is your thing.

Yours. Only yours, and anymore else.