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Okay, it’s really easy to just say “If people in your life don’t accept who you are, there not worth having in your life!” however, this isn’t simple at all for certain situations, including if you’re dependent on people due to a disability. I’m an autistic adult woman and I can’t live alone (This likely won’t change ever). I need support emotionally (I have bad thought spirals that get worse when I’m alone, I need help breaking through them) and for basic tasks (Money management, cooking, cleaning, driving to places, etc.). If people don’t accept me, I’m very vulnerable to being abused because I’m known as a “People pleaser” (Usually a person who has trouble saying no and bases their worth on how others view them). If all people decide one day I’m not worth their time? I’d be screwed! A big fear I have is that exact situation! My family tells me not to worry because they have plenty of individuals in place to protect/care for me if something happens to them. I try my best to be a voice for other people who need support, there are many people like me who require help and caregivers in their lives! Autism doesn’t go away after 18! IQ doesn’t equal support need levels! Nobody should have to go through this alone! ESPECIALLY if they need help with daily activities! Give autistic people compassion and respect because every single one of us came into this world with our entire existence on a “Hard mode” setting. Sure, individuals are affected differently but autism is a disability! We’re not going to be ignored! The biggest regrets of my life was not speaking up about how I felt because now I found out many other autistic people felt similarly! We’re not all the same but we all have our struggles and emotions regardless of if we can speak or not, if we went to a regular school or not, if we can advocate ourselves or not!

🥑In conclusion: Some autistic people are potentially quite vulnerable if they need supports from others (It’s something we should all consider), speaking up for ourselves is important as heck and all autistic people have the right to be existing in this world (Not everyone can speak for themselves but we’re all worthy of the supports we need!)

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New dress!🤍🤍🤍

I love my cute, big, soft body (And nobody is going to change that😘🫶)

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We got her from DogGuides Canada (A nonprofit organization) my Mum went away for a few weeks to train with her in Ontario, then came back to Manitoba with her. I’ve had multiple service dogs but the one I had at the time was Viva (Now I have Eevee). Viva was okay but what happened was unacceptable, she honestly usually stood there and took it (Doesn’t make it better though)

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When I was in high school (Special Education specifically) I had multiple bad experiences that I thought could’ve been avoided, at least somewhat. To clarify, I loved my school and I still visit occasionally but these were definitely not my favourite memories of it:

The abuse my autism service dog endured. There were quite a few moments where students hit my service dog, pulled on her leash and one even kicked her! Again, I’d never think my school was ever okay with those incidents (They’d never ignore it) but it mostly happened when certain students didn’t have a suitable educational assistant, some needed more than one person because they were violent and/or unpredictable. In every incident where this particular student was involved with kicking, hitting or whatever, they were missing a second EA! Clearly they needed at least two! For their safety and for ours. I know understaffing is an issue in schools but that was just plain dangerous! My poor service dog (As well as the whole school for that matter) had less safety

The “Problem MAKING staff”. The majority of staff I’ve known in my high school were fantastic! However, there were a few that probably had big issues. There was a bus EA that told me to be quiet because I didn’t say “Hi” to her a few minutes before, I started crying and she said “Be quiet! There are other people on the bus!” but that TONE! My goodness! She sounded miserable! There was another EA (I’ve mentioned him before on here) that was rude, mean and cruel to his own student because he (The student) was overweight. The student being mentioned here was a friend of mine, he was nice, respectful and friendly, basically everything his EA forgot to be when dealing with him… I spoke up lots of times but he never changed his mind. Obviously the solution to these isn’t just one singular thing, maybe a good talking to, a seminar, etc. because we don’t want to just start firing staff that we don’t have enough of already. But if they do something unforgivable, I think it’s fair but it’s probably more rewarding to fix the problems the staff are having than to be firing them. I wonder, if they “Hate” dealing with special needs students so much, why on Earth would they take this job!? That’s just cruel to everyone involved!

This isn’t a comprehensive list of EVERYTHING I went through but it’s good for now! Questions are okay!🧸🧸🧸

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Okay, so Pokémon is my biggest special interest in terms of its longevity and intensity! However, there have been some smaller special interests that I’ve obsessed over (Again, not as much as Pokémon but I thought I’d make a list of ones that come and go every so often):

🐅Scooby Doo (I’m currently watching the live action movies again along with the Mystery Incorporated show from 2010, my favourite character is Velma)

🐅Wicked (Probably my newest addition to this list, I loved the broadway musical and the first movie. I’m trying to get a Wicked themed bedroom design, with lots of pink and green! My favourite character is Elphaba)

🐅Harvest Moon (I’ve played a few of their games including A New Beginning, Trio of Towns, The Tale of Two Towns, Pioneers of Olive Town and Story of Seasons. My favourite character is Neil from ANB)

🐅SpongeBob (This is my go to, sad mood show. I always put it on when I’m feeling down, it’s usually also on when I can’t decide what to watch because it’s a safe bet. My favourite character is Sandy)

🐅The Simpsons (This brings back memories of hanging out with my Dad, I quote the lines a lot when I’m being goofy. My favourite character is Lisa)

If you have any questions, just ask😁

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Okay, most of you probably know about my old high school teacher. She did 3 things (At least) that bothered me during my years attending the school:

🐌She banned me from talking about my special interests! I wasn’t allowed to talk about Pokémon during school hours because apparently it “Hurt my focus” (She even told my Mum to prevent me from talking about it at home!). A special interest isn’t a hobby, if the individual isn’t allowed to engage in their special interests (Even for 1 day) the effects are often terrible, it can literally cause distress in an autistic person! That was a hell-ish year…

🐌She hurt my old friend. I had a friend in my class that was on a weight loss program (The school was actively involved). Once after the winter holidays, he came back and had gained a bit more weight, this teacher told him he must’ve “Done no exercise and ate like a pig”. Teachers are supposed to make students feel safe, I was disgusted because saying horrible things like that aren’t going to help him. He looked so sad and humiliated. He was a good guy, his “Slip up” shouldn’t have affected how kind she was to him!

🐌She took some pride in the fact that a few students were genuinely scared of her! I remember her conversing with an educational assistant after she retired, she essentially said “You see? They remember me” when she pointed out a student’s nervousness after she came to visit our classroom. Being in charge is one thing but a good teacher wouldn’t have been so proud of a rocky relationship with any students

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My outfit for the Pride Parade this Sunday in Winnipeg!!! 🏳️‍🌈😘

(For those who don’t know my identities:

✨Orchidsexual-Lesbian✨)

I just bought my service dog a cooling vest to go underneath her official vest, that way we’ll be able to stay longer

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(I wrote this based on what I know, so if something is incorrect in information, just let me know)

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A family of geese came by the house yesterday and I forgot to post!💚

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💖Happy Mother’s Day💖 to my Mum and my respite worker! (She’s like a second mother).

🩷My Mum: “You’ve fought for my brother and I so many times throughout many years, you’ve never given up on us even we had meltdowns, or even when we made you angry. I know you love us and I’m proud to be your daughter, love you so much Mum! You went all the way from Manitoba to Ontario to pick up our service dogs when we got approved, you are so amazing!”

💛My Respite Worker: “You helped me in school and continue to help with my education today, even after graduating! Like my Mum, you’ve never given up on me or my brother despite having your own kids and us having challenges due to our disability, we love you too! You are as close to us as family!”

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Eevee and I went shopping at the mall. I bought 2 lovely pairs of jean shorts! (Top image is of my service dog, second pic is 1 of the new shorts). We went on a very busy day (Some kind of event was happening outside the mall, they were selling food like hotdogs and cotton candy)

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Okay, we found an old camera today. It had a video of me when I was much younger (A child) where I interviewed my infant little brother and provided a tour of my home (I still live in the same house at 23). I asked my brother his favourite colour, shape, number, etc. (To which he responded with baby babbling, I would answer for him). I also asked our cats some questions, sang to my fish and read several books, all on video! (It was hilarious, I didn’t remember any of what I did but I’m so saving this!). I won’t show the video because it had my grandparents and brother on it (My brother in particular doesn’t want to watch it, he wants it deleted but it’s full of memories for us). I was laughing so hard because it was so cute and exactly what other autistic kids I know now, do sometimes. I guess I’m not one to judge them (Not that I really did) because I was an odd child too, lol😊

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My goals for now and future years❤️

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🌷Dear people who bully,

I’m not going to be afraid anymore. I’ll be honest, you have affected my mental health in a negative way but you won’t silence me living my happiest life or my advocacy work! I’m very sorry that you’re most likely having problems of your own (People who bully commonly have very life altering issues) but being rude/mean isn’t the answer, it doesn’t matter who you are, not acceptable. I wish I could help you understand there’s always another way. For my own mental health, I’m going to my family doctor soon, I’m getting to decorate my own room, etc. My service dog has had her work cut out for her these days (I’m often in tears from stress, anxiety and depression) but we’re managing! We’re going to a new church actually (I wasn’t forced, it’s okay if that’s not your thing though). There’s a song called “Letter to Me” (A country piece) that talks about hard times and how you often don’t know how much you’ll enjoy in the future, until you’re there! I’ll stick close to my dreams of autism advocacy and writing itself! I know I’ll have new friendships, achievements and experiences as I grow older, I just know it! I hope your journey gets better as well (Despite the things you say) so we can all live more peacefully❤️‍🩹

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- Maggie (eeveeas123)

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Viva was an amazing service dog. One of our most happy set of memories took place in Ontario:

Viva is actually from Ontario (She’s from the Lion’s Foundation of Canada DogGuides) so that’s where her final training took place! Admittedly, we weren’t our amazing Viva’s first family when she became a service dog, she had a few problems with some earlier placements. Viva has separation anxiety due to how often she was moved around (She was also moved around during puppyhood because of certain laws). Anyway, after years of working together, my family went on a plane to Ontario (We live in Manitoba) to visit Viva’s foster family (The ones who raised her). We went to see the “Headquarters” of the organization she’s from, meeting lots of other awesome dogs, both in training and currently working. We went to a few tourist interest places, including a museum, several restaurants and a lake that Viva absolutely loved (She’s definitely a water dog). We stayed with her foster parents in their house for a few days (We consider each other close family, after all). Overall, we loved that trip (We went to a fancy hotel during the days we weren’t sleeping at their home, we took a train ride, etc.)

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Girl let's be honest you're way too comfortable on here nobody should know about your family drama and your horrible living situation. Imagine someone you know irl finds this account. Imagine you get famous and people find this.

I’m just trying to survive at this point. I have to tell myself on a daily basis that I will eventually find my people, the people who won’t leave for a job or whatever (No disrespect for those who did but I never really see them anymore). I’m telling you, one day, stuff like this probably won’t matter because I’ll be in a good place. My life is in the process of getting better (I’ll get my own room) but right now it’s the working part of the process. I won’t give up! It feels a bit better when I vent (Even online), I’m doing everything I can, and yes, I’m still having meltdowns and anxiety attacks but I can’t give up hope! All this work is gonna mean something someday🥹

Also, having family troubles is a common thing, it’s not like we’re the only household that has issues. I’m just trying to survive until my respite worker gets back from her trip to Japan

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Okay, my household family (Consisting of my Mum, little brother, Gran, Poppa and Aunt) have been very stressed lately. They are yelling, screaming and crying almost daily. Today, there were arguments about money (My Mum pays rent, grocery bills, etc.) as well as space (As I’ve mentioned before, I don’t have my own room, I sleep on the living room couch, my brother shares a room with Mum and there’s lots of clutter). We actually need professional people to help us with tidying up our house (We called a service). I’d like to think we aren’t hoarding items but we probably are considering how much stuff we have all over our home. I need a personal bedroom or at least a place to go when I get overwhelmed (Noise is sometimes a stress trigger, especially when I’m trying to sleep). Anyway, the argument was so heated that I actually had a major panic attack (Mum was arguing with her sister, my aunt). I didn’t feel safe, at that moment, I wanted to flee! But I couldn’t. I’m considering moving out but with the way my disability affects me, I’d still need to live with someone. For now I’m stuck here. I love my family but, Poppa is getting sick (Lung problems, possibly dementia), Gran is doing so much but is getting older too, my Aunt has anxiety issues, Mum has stomach paralysis, POTS, etc. (She’s sometimes in the hospital) and my little brother is also autistic, has anxiety and is dealing with school stress! I can’t take anyone’s side over someone else’s because they all have a reason to be upset or even miserable! I just wish I could fix it, I feel sad, angry, afraid and frustrated at this current situation. And our poor dog, she is my service animal but at home she’s everyone’s dog, she checks on us and goes to whoever needs her most. She’s feeling the tension too

I’ll survive but sometimes it feels terribly challenging…