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Mood.

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More cat shenanigans on our channel. 🥰

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Naps on Naps on Naps

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“They always said you should thinks twice… I … I don’t even thinks once.”

Check out our channel on YouTube! ❤️

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So like if anyone wanted to attack mine and my husbands kitty YouTube with love, likes & comments it would 1,000,000% make our day! 🥰

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The gasp I gusped at the end 🤣🤣🤣

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Spirit, I am still them.

I am a chrysalis hanging on the tooth of a bat. Ready or not I rip myself open and expose my fresh and fragile wings to the wind that carries me. Eyes still shut I breathe in the smoke from beneath, drifting farther from your light.

Spirit, come into me.

Why have you given me the name of your prophet? You’ve been cleaning the soot from my lungs bit by bit while breathing new life into me. I wonder what you have planted in the garden of my soul. Whatever you’re preparing me for spirit know that my garden is yours to tend. Even if it’s just to be a butterfly born upon the smoky wind.

-Elisha Alexzander

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Been roller skating!

A lot of ideas coming into focus. Something that blends PokémonGo & my very queer fashionable self. Also been making videos on YouTube, who knows where that’ll go. Social media is weird now days. 🤣

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Some have asked and I want to clarify.

I am not religious. I believe in the light of spirit. I don’t know “God” but I am aware that many people know spirit as “God” and that’s so confusing right?

For me “God” has always been religious. It’s been the Christian word used to describe this man in the sky made up idea of spirit.

I am of spirit, like the sun and the moon, the earth and all upon it.

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Tumblr I still don’t think this was that cute of an outfit but yall ate this up! ❤️🙏🏻😇

-Elisha Alexzander

Pale.

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I learned to write cursive in third grade by god I’ll learn to write like this for the rest of my life! 🤣

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No but like… fr.

-Elisha Alexzander

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Though the richest man in the world, Elon is not immune from producing queer children nor capable of keeping them from speaking out against him, and they have. Thats the real reason Trump said that and Elon paid him to say it, as a “Haha” to his queer offspring.

At least that’s what I’m telling myself because most of what we see online is more often than not a lie or otherwise slightly fabricated version of the truth etc. So in other words, that’s my opinion but I can’t verify any of it.

I am thinking of leaving the country. From my perspective there are better places for my husband and I to thrive, we would miss our home and family though. My spirit comes from this place, and it doesn’t want to leave as much as my mind does.

I understand queer Americans being scared, as we should be. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, there is no shame in running or hiding from persecution if you can. Also no shame in preparing if you can’t.

How? It’s something I’m learning with my friends and family along the way, while also keeping a bag packed with passports and enough cash to purchase a plane ticket ready to go. Knowing someone abroad helps a ton, but adapting to a new country alone even might be better than staying home soon… that’s the truth for queer Americans from where I’m sitting. I believe there are already countries preparing for an influx of queer people but I’ve only heard this, I have no sources yet.

To those who are scared that’s okay. It’s okay to be scared. Take time to have those feelings but don’t let them consume you. When you’re ready to fight or ready to fly, it’s up to you and don’t let anyone judge you for it. Personally idk if staying home is an option for me, but if it is then I’m gonna be a prepared queer. I’ve never in my life thought about nor felt the need to know anything about or exercise my American right to bear arms. But I do now. My partner and I both want to take responsibility for our own ability to protect ourselves and each other. Things can change and quickly. I may be a soft and fragile transfeminine queer but I can learn how to protect myself, and I am.

-Elisha Alexzander

Ain’t no way Trump just said the government would establish two genders: male and female, in his inauguration speech, and people are still trying to say that queer folks have no need to be scared 😭 fucking losing it

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This year, one day is NOT ENOUGH!

So to kick off Transgender Day of Visibility early, alongside Women’s History Month I encourage you to learn about Lozen, the two-spirited transmasculine warrior who loved and won the heart of Dahteste.

The love story of Lozen, a female bodied warrior who those closest to them would describe as more masculine than the men in the tribe. Never married, Lozen fell in love with another female warrior named Dahteste who although married and had kids, openly loved and fought alongside Lozen. Dahteste outlived Lozen and is described to have mourned Lozen till death. There is one photo I can find of them together, and they have been captured after the U.S. Army negotiated the surrender of Goyatla, a.k.a. Geronimo.

I’m still learning, all month, about historical women and transgender people of the past. Let’s learn together. ❤️

Here are some good reads/references where I’ve been learning about Lozen & Dahteste.

My personal Fav: https://leeparattner.org/learn/lrmahome-online-programs/womens-history-month-2021/

Happy Women’s History Month and Happy Transgender Day of Visibility! ❤️

-Elisha Alexzander

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Correct.

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Still the person I was.

Still the person I am.

Still the person I am becoming.

It runs in my blood.

I can change my style, change my hair.

Move away from all I’ve ever known.

I can change my name, change my body.

Escape from all they told me I was.

I can change my understanding, change my … mind.

I can change.

But I’ll still be the person I was.

I’m just being the person I am.

Still becoming the person I’ll be.

To have freedom of self and spirit, you need only to choose it.

What point does one stop trying to run?

Perhaps when they recognize it’s themselves they’re running from.

When I shaved my head I was at this point of my youth where I realized I would never be societies idea of a man nor would I ever be societies idea of a woman without pretending to some extent and I had no interest in pretending for anyone. Learning about the history of the land I call home, the land my spirit is connected to, taught me that the way I feel is exactly as it should be and I should love and live that truth. Embrace being like both men and women and also embrace being nothing like them at all. Do both, all at once and all the time. I practiced that teaching, and now it runs in my blood.

I am still, them. The ancestors of my spirit.

-Elisha Alexzander

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Wardrobe. If you are upset, angry or uncomfortable with me over the clothes I choose to wear… I am not the one who needs to change. But perhaps you need to reevaluate your feelings and why my personal style is contributing to your own dissatisfaction or discomfort. Do not chastise me because I like to wear skirts and make up. Do not rebuke my existence because I look damn good in a dress. Do not reproach me with your concerns over my wardrobe because I do not get dressed for my day with you in mind. You can berate me as much as you like, but I wont change. There was a time when I had no choice but to conceal my true self to continue living alongside someone or multiple people. Thankfully, I am past that point in my life. If you have yet to reach a point in life where you feel 100% free to be yourself, now is the time to figure out how you can change your life in a positive way that allows you such freedoms. For younger individuals, this is the hardest because all you can do is wait it out until you reach an age where your parents can no longer control you and society can’t stop you. I know what that is like, I have been there! Remember, I am only 22 years old! It wasn’t until about 3 years ago when I obtained such freedom for myself. Never give up on yourself though. Never forget the person you want to be when you finally get the chance to. I sure didn’t. Xoxo -Elliott Alexzander