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There are a lot of differences between Adam Scott’s characters in Parks and Rec. Vs. Severance, but one thing both Ben and Mark have in common is that their whole lives changed when they met their wives at work.

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And Mark becomes a version of Orpheus so drowned in his grief that he stops at the river Lethe to quench his pain with the briefest reprieve.

And in doing so, he forgets the very reason he has entered hell, and even when reminded he is not the same man that first charmed his way through the horror, he’s different now.

Eurydice is dead, and he is chasing a ghost. Gemma is gone.

Im not sure if this makes any sense, im just thinking of Greek mythology and dystopian work systems.

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I feel like it’s worth promoting my fic because I’m actually kind of happy with this one. It’s just a head cannon/scene I’ve had on my mind for a while.

Young Aelwyn Abbernant facing the challenges of fear and comfort.

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I’m thinking about siblings on the opposite sides of a war trope again

I’m thinking about Sirius Orion Black dropping a newspaper, speechless, as he stares at his baby brothers obituary, wrenched from the fantasy that even if they fought each other forever, that still meant he’d get to see Regulus forever.

I’m thinking about Aelwyn Abernant clutching her sisters corpse in the battle of the nightmare king trying to contend with how they could be pulled apart again so soon. How even when Adaine comes back, Aelwyn doesn’t live with her for more than a few months before moving out.

Im thinking about Vi swearing she’d protect Powder, and then being torn away for seven years. The next time, she’s stuck seeing the shadow of her sister in the eyes of Jinx, the monster she created, at the other end of a gun.

I’m thinking about my little sister. I hope she knows I love her.

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Martin called it from the start

the bitey tape recorders are hilarious to me i love the thought of them becoming semi-living and very temperamental eldritch pets

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a reunion

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yilfa snorgelsson // on earth we're briefly gorgeous

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Late night (for me) rant because I’m catching up on fantasy high junior year.

Baron from the baronies is such a perfect interpretation of the aro ace experience and (in my opinion) the young, closeted experience.

Everytime I see them on the screen I want to scream at Riz to use Baron as an opportunity to explore his identity, to discuss it with his friends.

Instead, Riz litterally runs away from this imbodiment of internalized acephobia. He lets Baron drive into those friendships HE CARRIES BARON WITH HIM ALWAYS AND CONCEALED IN A BRIEFCASE

My heart aches in recognition of a younger version of myself, terrified my friends would run off without me when they first started dating, clinging to lies of fake crushes like they could make me “normal”, and refusing to take the time and bravery to look that lie in its face and dissect it

So, you just carry it with you, you laugh when your friends joke you’re dating someone because at least they think that’s something you could do and be happy with, you let yourself believe that everyone will leave you because that’s what happens when you can’t conform to those goals you put in place.

Baron from the Baronies is a reflection (literally and metaphorically) of what’s left when you can’t find a way to speak about your identity, he is at his core isolating, deceiving, and yet always there (and you can get used to that “oh, that’s just Baron being Baron”) it’s almost a comfort.

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Been a bit obsessed with fantasy high lately

Lyrics from “Cassandra” by Florence and the Machines

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“Cassandra, daughter of the king (…), exhausted from practising, is said to have fallen asleep;(…) when she prophesied true things, she was not believed.”

(A bastardisation of Hyginus’ Fabulae)

text under the cut:

This is your fate, Cassandra, You, who are cloaked in mystery: To be a god that knows fear, To live begging for believers

You will call out to them, But they will be deaf to you You will stand before them, And they will not see you

This is your destiny, Cassandra To have only hidden altars, For your only song to be silence, To dwell in the deepest darkness

You are for the doubtful and uncertain, Those who search and do not find, At the mercy of your prophet, A mere child, who chose you

This is your lament, Cassandra, To weep and to rage, For your greatest mystery is to never know Whether today you live or die

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I feel insane about Cassandra and Kristen if you can't tell. The name! the mystery of religion! the conflict of belief!! the hard sell!!! I lay in bed and started writing in verse!! I don't write in verse!!!

But I did grow up with a lot of latin and catholic liturgy so that's probably where the structure comes from? bec i do not remember any classics despite having majored in liberal arts. (my classics professor sucked)

aight. there you go. catharsis and melodrama.

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The Litany of Saint Kristen Applebees

St. Kristen Applebees, Prophet of Cassandra, The Seeker of Truth, The Ever-Changing, Patron of the Lonely, Solace of the Forgotten The Resurrected The god-saviour The god-killer

(being catholic means very rigid liturgical structures embedded into your brain, great for poetic reasons)

I am not normal about them at all

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I need dyhard to be canon because I actually can’t comprehend a reality where Alice hopelessly pines after Sam as he and Celia learn to be happy together.

I can’t sit here and watch as Alice isolates herself to “help” Sam.

I can’t listen as Sam and Alice refuse to communicate and their relationship is torn apart and Sam has Celia, but Alice has nowhere to go to. She is alone, parents dead, Sam in love with someone else, Gwen a rival. NO NO NOPE NO, I need dyhard to be cannon

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How did Lena know Gwen would get the Bonzo statement? How much more does she know? Did she know it would be a talker?

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Everyone ready for my saddest TMAGP take yet? I was thinking about how canaries DID used to go underground, miners would bring them down because when the canaries stoped singing it was a sign of a gas leak. So they were a living alarm, the miners would abandon them and make the escape (leaving the canaries to die). Now I’m thinking about Sam and Alice, and how Alice keeps warning Sam, and how she’s getting more serious, I do not like the connections I’m making.

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Everyone ready for my saddest TMAGP take yet? I was thinking about how canaries DID used to go underground, miners would bring them down because when the canaries stoped singing it was a sign of a gas leak. So they were a living alarm, the miners would abandon them and make the escape (leaving the canaries to die). Now I’m thinking about Sam and Alice, and how Alice keeps warning Sam, and how she’s getting more serious, I do not like the connections I’m making.

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Crack Theory (kinda) you’re getting followed Alice? Feel like you’re being watched? DREAMING OF THE INSTITUTE?! everyone in the fandom jokes she knows shit, but have we considered she Knows (capital K) shit?

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TMAGP: Anyone else notice the sound of (what I think is) spiders crawling around 27 minutes into (Spotify recording of) episode 10?