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When will y'all be playing this gem again? 💎🍿

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Death is the road to awe… The Fountain (2006) | dir. Darren Aronofsky

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tulpa?wprov=sfla1

I'm a huge fan of simply recording the TV with your cellphone, bypassing the copyright scan, and then uploading it somewhere (a bold & funny move to pull off in this digital age of streaming wars). This clip pertains to Tim's mention of the Tulpa, as it's the only place I recall hearing that term:

Familiarize & add it to your lexicon, for sure 🤙🎉💫

#Tibetan #Mysticism #Paranormal #Psychological

#EsotericKnowledge #OccultKnowledge 👽🛸🔦

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So, here's the deal: my social feeds are in desperate need of a cleanup. But here's the thing, I couldn't care less. 🧐🤔 As Kurt Cobain once famously said, you can play as sloppily as you want, as long as it's damn good and oozing with passion. But let's be real, my day 3 bender blackout autopilot shit posts won't exactly make history. They'll probably just fade away into the abyss of irrelevance. So, should I bother? Meh. In the grand scheme of things, these posts are as significant as a hill of beans. So why not embrace the chaos, revel in the absurdity, and let the world witness my unfiltered, unapologetic mediocrity? #SloppyButUnashamed #ShitPostsForTheWin #DontTry

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WHATS UP MY NAMES PRESTON I LOVE DUBSTEP AND I LOVE CRYING IF U DON’T FWM I DON’T FWU SO FUCK OFF

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“I don’t think that anybody on Twitter means anything they say. I don’t believe that anything they say. I don’t think a single tweet is really sincere. It’s just a calculation of what’s this gonna do, and it’s based in fear and hope, which are both dumb things. But it’s not really like a sincere ‘this is how I feel.’ Right?"

- Louis C.K.

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REAL LOVE ♥️

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Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

Franz Kafka

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"Tyler lies back and asks, "If Marilyn Monroe were alive right now, what would she be doing?"

I say, goodnight.

The headliner hangs down in shreds from the ceiling and Tyler says, "Clawing at the lid of her coffin."

- Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

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Trying to determine what content will resonate cross platform. I'll have to test the water a bit. Tumblr is mostly text based - so I'll try to stick with that. I want to post fun shit for people to vibe with either way.

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"Screaming like a demon in the Garden of Eden"

- Why?, Sod in the Seed

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So, I'm still getting the hang of this app's format. I used to be quite active on Tumblr, staying up all night writing Buffy the Vampire Slayer fan fiction. Now, I want to dive back into blogging because I see the potential for more meaningful connections. I'm here to engage with people on various levels and topics.Occasionally, I might post something a bit blasphemous for shock value, just to see if anyone's paying attention. It's challenging to find platforms where you can freely express yourself; Facebook is becoming overly sensitive, and Twitter isn't my thing. On the other hand, I have a blast creating goofy TikTok videos when I'm feeling lively 🔥—seriously, don't knock it until you try it!Giving Tumblr another shot seems like a good idea. They used to be pretty chill about content, but I'm not sure if that's still the case (not that I plan on posting a lot of controversial stuff, just good to know). If anyone has tips for a newbie like me, I'm all ears and welcome constructive criticism and feedback.

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I don't know how to explain this. Whatever happens to your brainwave state when it alters and shifts as you drift into sleep... I was drifting and Death Note style voice (keep in mind, I don't really watch this show often) popped into my head and showed me a moment from when I was 16 and my youth pastor came to see me in the hospital after trying to take every pill in my house to try to unalive myself. The voice is saying, "I'm a demon. I've known you since this point. He knew too, he just didn't want to say anything. We're here to have fun forever." This wasn't my voice. This wasn't my subconscious. This sounds pretty corny and cringe like disgruntled teenager's reddit post, but I'm just trying to recall this montage as sequentially as it happened. It sounds like the gritty backstory for a really shitty marvel movie.

This youth pastor told me that I was saying NO in an otherworldly voice getting my stomach pumped at the time. This is a real life thing that happened. Did I come into the world this way? How does this work karmically? I could've picked up a dark passenger. Maybe it can only talk to me in that natural altered brain wave state. It sounded calm like Death Note. It was alarming and calming. The fact that it was calming is what freaked me out. Dude, I don't know where I came from - none of us do really. But I had some milestones of existentialism at early ages and when I was a teenager I was really pissed off that I was incarnated. Really pissed off that I had to be here. Like I was here to crash a party.

Is this news to me as a possibility? Or motivation to make things as good as I can possibly make them. Demons torment. This one sounded comforting. There's not exactly a guidebook to consult for something like this. Especially not in the south.

What would Jung say? Even he supposedly had his fair share of occult-like experiences - being inhabited from forces of another plane ✨ (you're going to be all like, 'stoppp trying to normalize daemons and make them sound cool like you do with beer when you lie to yourself fammmm). I've seen some crazy stuff in your eyes too - so you were probably waiting for me to come to this realization too. The demon is probably pleased that I have enough willpower to take care of myself rn). I'm going to get some ultimate perspective with the lifestyle discipline.

"You're not going through it, it's going through you

And once it's all gone, in will come the new you

With a different perspective, from the same point of view

Fully unaffected by the old truth you once knew

Connected at the roots to the trunk to the branches

To the leaves and the way they fly away in wind dances

A frantic seesaw; free-fall in midair that represents

The floating folly of us all being here

We are complicated creatures, huh?"

Anything or anyone that tries to take the wheel from you in your life is not your friend tho. Demons are deceptive. They might be here to have fun and have a good time, but they're here to use your temple for their bidding while you sit idle in the passenger seat and peace TF out. I'm the perfect host. Mental illness and wrecked with insecurities to feed on.

I'm going to question everything for a little while.

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“To make the right choices in life you need to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of.”

— Deepak Chopra

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“Never be afraid to fall apart because it is an opportunity to rebuild yourself the way you wish you had been all along.”

— Rae Smith

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Happy Discordian Easter 🐰