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[feyti-odinsdottir]

Maybe you're all living in a digital streaming hellscape in 2025, but not me. I'm living in the golden age of media consumption. I have a $50 walmart dvd player and a $10 VCR and I simply hit up the thrift stores every payday and load up on all of my favorite movies and tv shows for the one-time price of 1.99 each. And they all just sit in my apartment. No recurring payments to continue access to them. All the physical media is so cheap now because everybody switched to streaming. God forbid if I lived in the pre-streaming era when I had to pay full price for all this media. And when spotify goes to shit, I will have my stack of $0.50 cds and my dad's cd radio from the 90s. Be like me. Deny the hellscape. Buy dvds from goodwill.

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In my mind we are still 16. And we still go to walmart every day. And we are both so fucked. But at least we still have each other. And we still laugh in walmart.

We still dream about our futures. But we never grow up. Maybe this future will be kinder to us. Maybe we will never grow up. Maybe this time, we stay the same. Maybe this time we don't stay young and dumb, or get old and fucked. Maybe we live in a perfect moment forever. Laughing in a walmart.

i miss you

by FLH

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I can’t stand people that don’t let me speak hyperbolically. If I can’t respond to a minor inconvenience that someone should get shot in the fucking head for it then what’s the point of it all.

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there’s something so magical about sitcoms…..they bring me so much comfort….whoever invented sitcoms thank you for your service I literally don’t know what I’d do without them god bless

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The cuts will never be enough

The blood will never be enough

You will always need more

More pain

More cuts

More razorblades

Where will you be in a year?

Still hunting down razorblades,

And wearing long sleeves?

Still drowning yourself in pain and regret?

Running away from the pain in your past?

Running to something that won't ever last?

You'll never be free

You'll live in your chains

So look at your life

It's time for a choice

You don't have to run

You don't have to bleed

You just need to get down on your knees

Let go of your pain

Let it spill out

Ask for the grace those cuts never gave

It's time to be free

It's time to move on

There's no room for blades

In your new life of grace

- just little bits of poetry

i wrote this two years ago

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"You've taken everything else

At least let me have my tears"

-just little bits of poetry

don't tell me to stop crying

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"As a child, I liked to bake. I made many recipes that had nearly all the same ingredients, and yet the results were entirely different desserts, simply depending on the arrangement of ingredients. As a child, I liked to bake."

"As an adult, I realized I was a bad chef. Suddenly the ingredients were not flour and sugar, but instead, the shame and regret I used to create my life. My recipe book filled with sad stories, my cupboards full of the ingredients to bake them. A pinch of shame, a cup of fear, a pound of trauma, and a whole box of regret. As an adult, I realized I was a bad chef."

"What tender mercy that the Lord took the same ingredients I would have used to bake a suicide story, and instead he created a redemption story."

"Only such a love as this could turn the sourest of ingredients into nothing but a recipe of hope and joy."

- just little bits of poetry

Psalm 34:8

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"It is truly devastating that so many allow themselves to bleed and die, when that debt has already been paid in full. How stubborn are we, that we would rather bleed out of a broken heart on the Healer's doorstep, than call out and subject ourselves to the discomfort of healing."

- just little bits of poetry

my 17 year old heartache

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My mother wanted a nice girl

My father introduced me to She's So Mean by Matchbox Twenty at a young age and has since regretted it

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Shadow Girl

by F.L.H.

What does it make you

When everything good about you

Is nothing more than a disguise

What does it make you

When compliments only define the lies

Are you anything more than a shadow girl?

Living in your shadow world?

Hard work is a virtue

When seen within the light

But only shadow girl can see his angry words

The sting of the words that fuel her hard work

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I don't know what is worse

Losing it forever

Or letting it come back different

-just little bits of poetry

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They told me they stared

'Cause I was the star of the show

But the show was a circus

And I was the freak show

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I am unique, and yet I am not. I am just like all the other girls, and yet, I am nothing like them. My life is cottage core, dark academic, kidcore, and grunge. My mind is an emo, a clean girl, a mob wife, and a van lifer. My clothes are the 80s, my shoes are the 90s, my hair is 2015, and my jewelry is 1910. My piercings look like 2010, and my mind looks like a victorian housewife. My hair grows long, and then it's a bob. Yesterday I was grunge, today I am everything. My life does not fit within the boundaries of society, the boxes of the internet. My life is massive and all encompassing, it does not fit in the barriers of aesthetics and fads. Life is not a box to fill with pretty things, the colors and choices that everyone likes. Life is a kaleidoscope, don't waste it doing what everyone else does in the little screen. Life is more than the aesthetic it seems.

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Really hoping this exchange between me and my sister last night reaches the target audience

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“Thin brows are back in” “skinny jeans are back” “wolfcuts are out” “this style of eyeshadow is soo trendy right now” “big asses are out, slim figures are in”

Hey do you guys ever make your own decisions or form your own ideas on how you would personally like to look that’s not based around what’s currently being sold to you. Is that not possible

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People younger than me: *getting married* *buying houses* *having children*

Me: and for my next piercing *throws dart blindfolded at my face*