im just a girl playing pretend. i wish i was normal. i wish i could've been normal. but im just a freak.
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I have this really weird trigger now. Whenever i smell a certain body wash i really want to cut, and i start feeling like im going to cry.
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OH MY GOD LIKE 3 WEEKS AGO I TOLD MY MOM I WANTED TO STOP DBT THERAPY AND JUST NOW SHE TOLD ME I HAVE A SESSION TOMORROW AFTERNOON???
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idk i dont really wanna live to my next birthday
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i feel like i should be hospitalized. i really am a danger to myself
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i want to like just be able to not do anything. like i should just be allowed to just be. not being constantly bothered or reminded of how much of a fucking failure i am. i just want to have one moment where someone else or myself is absolutely just making me want to kill myself
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i dont even have a therapist anymore. idk where to find a new one. i need one desperately.
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i dont deserve to be alive i fuck everything up. i just turn genuine friendships into dumping my problems on them because theyre the only person i trust. i hate myself for it. i hate it. i just fuck everything up.
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well bye bye to 3 weeks clean. they werent even that good of cuts. like some mid styro. maybe i’ll cut again tmrw and get some beans
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i cannot take this oh my god
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time to relapse and cry in the shower
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i cannot remember what my legs looked without scars on them.
i cannot remember the way it feels to not be addicted to self harm
i will never be able to forget the way the blood drips down my arm
i will never be able to forget the sting of hot metal against my skin
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im ready to die. im ready to be done with everything. i cant take it anymore
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im going to relapse later i can tell. maybe i'll finally go deep enough to kill myself
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i am so fucking irritable right now fuck
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