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[forsean]

Pastel Winter:

You couldn't stop turning your head,

Flustered meetings and blood caressing

my cheeks get darker, they're turning red,

A crimson fire ablazed by your staring.

How I want to make you mine this Winter.

And I still remember you and I sitting by the water,

And I still remember how your glasses fogged as you got warmer,

I wish I got to know you when it was still december,

When the leaves weren't there, and the trees were bare,

You could see your breath as it got colder

I'm glad I can hold you for the rest of winter.

You charmed me with your shy smile,

So I asked you to keep in touch with me,

My heart pumped further, ran away for miles,

A nervous wreck ablazed by you; the sparky,

So why didn't you talk to me all Winter?

I still remember you and I sitting by the water,

And I still remember how your glasses fogged as you got warmer,

I wish I got to know you when it was still december,

When the leaves weren't there, and the trees were barer,

You could see your breath as it got colder

I'm glad I can hold you for the rest of winter.

But i know I will never hold you,

We never walked down the river,

I've never touched your face,

Or held you body an inch closer.

You're longing stares,

Were just empty thoughts,

You're charming smile,

Just friendly taunts.

I should've got the hint,

But I kept making excuses,

That aligned with the lies

that I fed myself with.

So I will remember sitting by the water,

I will remember your hands holding mine.

And i will remember long walks within nature.

Cause right now that's how I feel fine.

I won't hold you in this pastel winter,

I won't catch your eyes.

I'm to busy living in my mind forever,

I've accepted I'm falling behind.

But in some delusional romantic way,

I get to hold you for another day.

[forsean]

Car Crashing Just To Feel Something:

It's the A-Two-One-Seven

It's the old mighty mile.

It's a road that I know every inch, every turn, every roundabout.

It's a childhood landmark,

It's full of memories.

It's the home to the farm we broke into at the dumb age of fifteen.

But now I'm twenty one,

I don't know who I've become.

Car crashing just to feel something.

I kinda love the smell of fuel.

Though it smells very different when burning into CO2.

Car crashing just to feel something,

Crush my delicate insides.

Turn my emotions into unpenetrable fortresses,

That I can shut off like my mind.

What am I supposed to do

When my time nearly feels due?

How am i supposed to feel

when the idea of living feels like a deal?

An agreement with a force,

unbounded by my head,

A terror like no other fear,

Like the ruthless grasp of death,

I've never felt this before.

I wish I felt no more.

It's midnight; a saturday

Of july twenty-fifteen

It's a night so vivid, the stars our guardian angels,

They're watching us.

It's one of many midnight cries,

A point of defiance and grunge,

It's how we'd convince ourselves we're the only agents of our freedom.

But now I'm twenty one.

Is this who I've become?

Car crashing just to feel something.

I kinda love the smell of fuel.

Though it smells very different when burning into CO2.

Car crashing just to feel something,

Sooth my torn apart mind.

Turn my skin into armour; I'm a mindless soldier,

Obeying orders, fuck my sorrowful climb.

What am I supposed to do

When my body keeps falling through?

How am i supposed to wait,

when I'm running towards a helpless fate?

In a world built from a force,

A violence that shakes me to the core,

A terror like my only fear,

A terror of my final tear.

What am I supposed to do

When my brain cannot compute,

When my body feels like falling,

And my mind's disintegrating?

I've never felt like this before.

I wish I felt no more.

Can you get hold of air-tower control,

I think I've messed up the landing.

Can you get hold of air-tower control,

How do I cope when time's are changing?

Can someone dial air-tower control?

I don't know how to stop us from crashing.

Can someone call up air-tower control?

I don't know who I'm becoming.

I'm crashing just to feel something.

I kinda love the smell of fuel.

Though it smells very different when burning into CO2.

I'm crashing just to feel something,

I don't think I'll reach twenty two.

One final blow took me out, here we are, lost alone, through and through.

[forsean]

Echo Chamber

A little bit hypocritical aren't you?

You say we're locked in an echo chamber,

As if you're not encompassed by a jailor.

As if you're not influenced by outsiders.

You take a swig of your whiskey,

You try to keep your drinks 'manly',

Objecting those unworthy,

In your perspective only.

One too many shots, perception gets up, slams the door,

Too tired to catch up, turn around, but you're not done.

You grab her by the waist, lips on lips out of the blue.

How dare she back away, is she frightened of you?

You go in for the kiss, another one, two, three four, five,

Until you catch onto her drift, another three shots down throatwise.

You make a mess of your persona, before you mess up her bedroom decor,

Leaving traces of you behind inside of your dark echo chamber.

You said 'that is an ad hominem',

When I attacked your constitution,

You may as well have called me a scarecrow,

Too busy straw manning arguments.

You take one look at my sentence,

It's my callousness you disagree with.

You cried over 'bullshit' evidence,

My moral high ground's too combative.

One too many fights, perception gets up, slams the door,

Too tired to catch up, turn around, but you're not done.

You type your little heart out, jargonistic words out the blue.

They know about you now, about the English major in you.

You go in for the kill, another one, two, three four, five,

Until you catch onto their drift, another three paragraphs, time flies.

You make a mess of your persona, before you mess up their sleep schedule.

Leaving traces of you behind inside of your dark echo chamber.

Your ego's unmatched,

You think you're better than that,

Your ego's unmatched,

You can't accept the facts but

How's it feel to know you're one of them?

One of those you ran from.

How's it feel to be one of them?

One of the group you desperately fled from.

How does it feel to know you failed your job,

In your mission of avoiding bombs,

instead you became the grenade launcher.

Attacking those of the opposite gender,

Kill all those who never surrender.

You're one of those who tried to hurt her,

Whilst she was trapped in her echo chamber.

You'e had to much to drink, like your father did before,

Too traumatised to capture the effect of your thoughts,

You grab her by the waist, drag her out of the room.

Of course she pulled away, she's terrified of you.

You come a little closer, another three, two, one steps backwards

Until her backs against the door, of course he's stronger,

He makes a mess of his persona, and now his reputations under

The bed, in a box, hidden away in his dark echo chamber,

And now he'll live forever in her lonely echo chamber.

[forsean]

Hypochondria

I should have trusted my gut feeling.

I know I really hate myself,

I don't know my self worth,

But it isn't worth losing control

Over something that's not happening,

No proof of purchase shown.

Oh no.

Who said they wanted me to suffer?

I'm struggling with hyper hyperchondria.

I'm scared shitless of the monster,

His name is mister hypochondria.

Hypochondria,

I'm a hypochondriac,

What do you expect of that?

Constant fearing at a feeling I've not welcomed back,

I'm a hypochondriac,

And I'm terrified of that,

I don't want to die, but I'm scared of life.

I'm scared of the emotion.

Don't know what these tears are for.

I don't know what I am mourning,

But my esteem is pretty poor.

I just really feel like crying oh (oh no)

I just really want to make it.

But I'm panicking, I'm struggling

To see me turn thirty years old.

Who said they wanted me to suffer?

I'm struggling with hyper hyperchondria.

I'm scared shitless of the monster,

His name is mister hypochondria.

Hypochondria,

I'm a hypochondriac,

What do you expect of that?

Constant fearing at a feeling I've not welcomed back,

I'm a hypochondriac,

And I'm terrified of that,

I don't want to die, but I'm scared of life.

Hypochondriac.

Hypochondriac.

Hypochondri-

-it almost seems like I'm running out of time,

I always want to hug my family goodbye,

What's the point in being on my best behaviour,

If we'll all end up under ground without a saviour?

What's the point in changing for the better

If an ache or a pain is deaths first prowler?

I'm hiding behind walls, undercovers, listening for the roar,

I feel a hand wrap round my throat, is this the end of the road?

I guess someone wanted me to suffer.

I'm struggling with hyper hyperchondria.

I'm scared shitless of the monster,

His name is mister hypochondria.

Hypochondria,

I'm a hypochondriac

(I'm psychosomatic)

What do you expect of that?

(What can I do about it?)

Constant fearing at a feeling I've not welcomed back,

(Worst worrying over unsightly, unlikely timings)

I'm a hypochondriac,

(I'm psychosomatic)

And I'm terrified of that,

('Cause and caused by stressing)

I don't want to die,

(My emotions are alive)

But I'm scared of life.

(And I'm scared to die)

[forsean]

He Said, She Said

He Said, She Said,

I don't care what they said.

Could be good, could be bad,

Could talk shit about me,

If you think I'd be mad

You should get to know me.

Although I let people's thoughts dictate how I feel,

I don't care about you, let us just be real.

You went away, asked Jess what she saw,

Turned to the people who may share your thoughts.

Surely you see how that's controversial?

Surely you know you didn't leave your portal?

He said, she said,

I don't care what they said,

Why would I give two shits if they supported a dickhead?

He said, she said,

Didn't think you were so dense.

When did I ever tell you that I would respect your virtues?

He said, she said

La La La La La La,

La La La La La La,

La La La La La La

He said, she said,

I don't care what they said.

You should close the door as you leave the room,

don't forget your shoes.

For worse or for better?

For one hell of a bed wetter.

I don't know how you thought you'd

convince me through a letter.

Manipulation tactics like you're on death row,

You asked me how I felt and I thought that you should know.

You ran away, asked Grace of her thoughts.

Defensively cursing at her heart.

Surely you see how that's unconventional?

Surely you see how you're so loathable?

He said, she said,

I don't care what they said,

Why would I give two shits if they supported a dickhead?

He said, she said,

Didn't think you were so dense.

When did I ever tell you that I would respect your virtues?

He said, she said

La La La La La La,

La La La La La La,

La La La La La La

He said, she said,

I don't care what they said.

You should close the door as you leave the room,

don't forget your shoes.

You left them by the door last night,

Gave you a reason to come knock one more time,

You took your shoes, but left an indent,

For you to fill when you barge in again.

The mud from your boots made a mess of the hall,

You said you wanted to clean it all,

But you tracked dirt in the living room,

That was your way of trying to resolve it.

So I throw out your shoes,

Leave them out in the drive,

Zero more thoughts of you in my room,

I hope tonight there's rain in the sky,

And I hope you realise that you are not kind,

I hope you realise I see that you're sly,

I hope that you listen to what...

...he said, she said,

You should work on your head.

I want you to care more about seeming like a dickhead,

You know I said

To educate yourself when

You said you didn't think it was fair to have to change when

He said, she said,

You always think you're correct,

Insinuated that I ended up insulting in-depth,

He said, she said,

You are not of value,

I just said what I saw, why did it personally offend you?

You lost your cool,

You should close the door as you leave the room,

don't forget your shoes,

Unless you want them soaked through like my shoulders that you cried on to?

I ditched my cool (pronounced: Michael),

You should close the door as you leave the room,

don't forget your shoes!

[forsean]

I need Hits Different on Spotify ASAP!

[forsean]

The Nobody:

Am I lazy, am I tired?

Is my back aching cause I've walked a couple miles?

My eye is straining, my head it pounds,

But I won't take painkillers to calm it down.

Not motivated, energy gone.

Something simple seems so complicated before the momentum,

Simplicity, and easiness

I'm content with doing nothing or the bare minimum.

If it means I finally find a way to be happy

I'm broken physically.

If being stress free, means being nothing,

I guess I'll be the nobody,

Who stays inside and rots away,

What is life but a state of slow decay?

I'm living the life of a nobody, nobody,

I'm the nobody. I'm the nobody.

Am I crazy, am I wired?

But does that teapot seem aware of my presence?

I'd rub it sideways a hundred times,

Until the unlucky Genie inside,

3 wishes, don't try and cheat,

Invisibility is my first choice,

Make me so skinny I can hide at any point, 

Give me all the pennies that make up the web of corruption,

so I don't have to live a life of depressed self destruction.

I don't know how to function.

This is of course all in my head.

This is how it feels when you live in bed.

If being stress free, means being nothing,

I guess I'll be the nobody,

Who stays inside and rots away,

What is life but slow decay?

I'm living the life of a nobody, nobody

I'm the nobody. I'm the nobody.

How I wish that real life had myths,

How I wish I could say that life was fixed.

If only someone stronger and smarter

posessed by body, I'd be the saviour.

I couldn't tell you much, but I'll tell you this,

I'm living the life of a nobody.

What am I supposed to do about the Arctic ice?

How can I help the bees in the trees?

What is there that I can do,

To mark the world with respectful residue?

Am I meant to raise Bangladesh into the sky,

Or alkaline the oceans until corals find life,

I search 'how to make an impact?' online,

6 billion replies, yet none answer mine;

If being stress free, means being nothing,

I guess I'll be the nobody,

Who stays inside and rots away,

What is life but slow decay?

The answer's obsolete,

And that's okay,

I'll stay a nobody for the the rest of my days.

I don't know much, but I do know this,

I'm a nobody that somehow exists.

I'm the nobody walking into the mist.

I'm a nobody who wouldn't be missed.

I'm the nobody. The nobody.

[forsean]

so pwetty

Squidolus [Day:1984 Hour:12]

[forsean]

Familiar:

(Previously 'Predator & Prey', but I took the original short poem, and made it into a longer song)

Here I am again,

Talking about the lack of life I've been living in

Never moving, never changing

Time passes by

My heart pulses like a preys

Running from the beast

A million miles an hour or so it seems

That i cant catch a break

From the warzone in my mind,

Im being shot at from behind.

Theres no pity, theres no grace

For my low, pathetic state,

Too scared to even leave my room,

Too scared to find a room for two,

My heart shatters when I feel left out,

But ill make any excuse just to be left out

Cause being the prey is so familiar,

To me.

Here I am again,

I'm so surprised that it's already November,

Darkness comes sooner now,

Time speeding by.

I feel like I'm being hunted by

An hourglass counting down the hours

Until my death becomes apparent.

With every sand particle,

dropping like a kamikaze pilot,

I'm being targeted from above.

Theres no pity, theres no grace

For my low, pathetic state,

Too scared to even leave my room,

Too scared to find a room for two,

My heart shatters when I feel left out,

But ill make any excuse just to be left out

Cause being the prey is so familiar,

When you feel like you don't matter.

There's no limit, there's no waste,

For the shrapnel in my face,

Too scared to open up my eyes,

Too scared so I stand like an Icicle,

That shatters when it's nerves,

Reach a point of no return.

Cause everything's a predator,

When being the prey's so familiar,

To me.

Oh, to me, oh.

There's no pity, there's no grace,

When you're standing out of place,

What did you expect

Without a camouflage effect?

When you cower away from fear,

The predator grins from ear to ear,

There's no limit, there's no waste,

When you're stuck in one place,

You're terrified of getting weaker,

As my body decays, my heart sinks deeper,

Cause being the prey is so familiar,

Letting myself down is so familiar,

Someone put me down, can you do it quicker?

I need to change like leaves in the winter,

I don't want to stay something familiar,

For me.

[forsean]

Dark Age:

You wished me happy birthday,

I forgot the date of yours.

You abandoned a best friend,

Cause another gave you more.

You asked me what was wrong

We had argued before,

But you're far too narcissistic,

To question your thoughts.

I used to look up at the night sky,

Your name like a pattern of stars,

But now all I get is a good night,

A morning that i never saw,

You cut me off with a cord.

You were part of the dark age,

Your men couldn't be flawed,

You rule over the castle,

I wish you fell off the pedestal.

You were part of the dark age,

I wouldn't be shocked,

To found out you hung those,

Who ever questioned your thoughts.

Cause you're part of the dark age,

Second guess my morals,

You might be good with your words,

But I've shot your high horse.

Overloading my system,

Get me out of your fort.

Get me out of your dark age,

Can't take it anymore.

Instrospection as you promised,

Ran away like a cat,

Startled by commitment

that you couldn't take back.

So instead of making changes,

You span the light round,

Pointed fingers, accusations,

Like you're the victim now?

I used to think I was so lucky,

Your hair golden, like a flame.

Awoken by the burning,

hidden stars hide your name

In the daylight, that's such a shame.

Now I realise it's fools gold,

I was tricked like a fool,

You're just like black mould

Infecting my walls.

You think you're a gift from god,

Your face crafted by angels,

But you weren't sent from heaven,

You're still unforgiven,

Blinded by narcissism.

You were part of the dark age,

Your men couldn't be flawed,

You rule over the castle,

I wish you fell off the pedestal.

You were part of the dark age,

I wouldn't be shocked,

To found out you hung those,

Who ever questioned your thoughts.

Cause you're part of the dark age,

Second guess my morals,

You might be good with your words,

But I've shot your high horse.

Overloading my system,

Get me out of your fort.

Get me out of your dark age,

Can't take it anymore.

Get me out of your dark age,

And into the sun rays,

You must be the reason,

You saw the creation

of generalisations

when you thought you were convicted,

a delusion of punishment,

By having to act decent,

It's like you hate women.

Your mother, your sisters,

They're not reliant on you,

When I mentioned Andrew,

You counteracted with Drew.

Do you not hear the ignorance,

Coming out your damn mouth,

Yet you claim I'm a bastard,

Because I pointed them out.

So go ahead and cry some more,

Like a little child at a grocery store,

When his mum wouldn't buy him the toy he wanted,

And wouldn't play into his victim complex.

You claim to have changed,

But unless I am blind,

You're in the dark ages,

In your twisted mind.

You are part of the dark age,

Your men couldn't be flawed,

You rule over the castle,

I wish you fall off the pedestal.

You are part of the dark age,

I wouldn't be shocked,

To found out you hang those,

Who ever questioned your thoughts.

Cause you're part of the dark age,

Second guess my morals,

You might be good with your words,

But I've shot your high horse.

Overloading my system,

Get me out of your fort.

Get me out of your dark age,

Can't take it anymore.

Get me out of your dark age,

Can't take it anymore,

Get me out of your dark age,

Can't take you anymore.

[forsean]

Tess d'Urbervilles:

Run away, run away,

From the vicious life and death cycle way.

To escape, to escape,

Let my vicious hanging delay.

Evacuate, evacuate,

Conviction tracks her like she's prey.

Shut the gate, shut the gate,

Lock my responsibility away.

As my married man lays still,

I see the life leave his eyes,

And my heart begins to fill,

With joyous celebratory cries.

And I wrap my arms around the man I love,

Fleeing from the trials, the intervention.

I don't want to help myself, I want to run to Brazil,

Become one with the tree roots, sheltered from the fields.

And I wrap my arms around the man that I love,

He says 'Tess, you'll always be enough'.

Locked away, locked away,

But this cell is big enough for the two of us,

Everyday, everyday,

Waiting for the time I disappear.

Anything, anything,

Is better than farming my fields of despair.

I lost track of the time,

Like I lost myself out there.

As I'm shut away from the world,

I see your face in my mind,

Alienation hit me first,

Before my sanity ran off line.

And I wrap my arms around the man I love,

Fleeing from the trials, the intervention.

I don't want to help myself, I want to run to Brazil,

Become one with the tree roots, sheltered from the fields.

And I wrap my arms around the man that I love,

He says 'Tess, you'll always be enough...

You'll always be enough for me'

Behind my blood soaked knives and your wandrous eyes,

'You'll snap back to reality.

Because I'm right here, back from my Rio year,

I've learnt who I am meant to be!'

And all it took was a year long trip,

And an investigated murder scene.

It was at that point, I forced the dots,

I won't be your priority,

I won't be jumping into arms that I love,

I'll be swaying in the wind, silently.

And as the crowds disperse, back to their livelihoods,

Fleeing from the square of death sentence,

I regret losing hold of the man that I loved,

I just want to run away, to the streets of Berlin.

And start all again, learn a new language,

Instead of fixing my damage.

I regret losing hold of the man that I loved,

From the green, across seas to the far Brazil,

In his distance, half my happiness sailed away,

So I let my anger out by causing a man disarray.

And I wrap my arms around the woman I've become,

I did what I could do to be enough.

And I'll gasp for oxygen that never comes,

As I sway from the tree, shoved by the gust,

I know that for you I wasn't enough.

So I'll let my reputation lay to rest under tuff,

Miss Tess D'urbervilles now gathering dust,

Engraved in stone, 'Tess was never enough'.

[forsean]

Galaxy:

Say you still care, say we're still friends,

I need you here, this can't end.

Say you still care, tell me you'll stay,

cause without you I might just dissapate.

I care like a dove is innocent,

flying away to the arms of an angel,

flying high above the sea level,

I know that for you I'm the devil.

I held you back, I locked my hands,

I'm sorry that I took command.

When I'm between a rock and a hard place

my mind drifts to you, as I head into oblivion, when I can't see round the corner,

or stand myself in anger,

I miss the feel of your fingertips holding my hurt,

I'm sorry I wasn't compassionate.

I know to you I'm nothing more than a meteor,

but to me you're a galaxy I never explored.

Say you forgive me, say you still need me

Your smile always caught your beauty,

Say you forgive me, tell me there's no hard feelings,

Cause my idea of hell is you disappearing.

I care cause my death is imminent,

When in my life you're not prominent,

When we caught eyes for the last moment,

I know that for you I'm the coven,

Cursing my death bed back in Salem,

I'm sorry I threw away our chance.

I'm sorry my voice was your danger alarm.

When I'm between a rock and a hard place

my mind drifts to you, as I head into oblivion, when I can't see round the corner,

or stand myself in anger,

I miss the feel of your fingertips holding my hurt,

I'm sorry I wasn't compassionate.

I know to you I'm nothing more than a meteor,

but to me you're a galaxy I never explored.

This is my last page, there's nowhere to go,

It's like I'm wandering down an endless road.

In your memory all I am is a murderer,

I'll play my last card, of course I'm the jester.

I have a last chance, to settle the score,

but there's no chance I'll win cause I'm greedy for more.

You give me one last look,

full of shame and lost hope,

I say my last words, I say them alone.

When I'm between a rock and a hard place

my mind drifts to you, as I head into oblivion, when I can't see round the corner,

or stand myself in anger,

I miss the feel of your fingertips holding my hurt,

I'm sorry I wasn't compassionate.

I know to you I'm nothing more than a meteor,

but to me you're a galaxy I never explored.

I know that for you I'm the devil.

I know that you never stooped to my level,

I'm sorry I threw away our chance.

I'm sorry my voice was your danger alarm.

I know that for you I'm the coven,

Curse my death bed back in Salem,

I held you back, I locked my hands,

I'm sorry that I took command.

[forsean]

Dartboard:

When I see my hatred,

Darting towards me,

Speed incomprehensive,

Why is success cloaked by invisibility?

I didn't think the last 6 weeks,

Would be in my ability,

But here I'm standing,

Taller than a tree.

I could fly to the moon and back,

I could swim the whole sea.

But god, I won't see the pride of my capabilities.

I wont ever be enough for me,

I could every day, for ten months straight,

I could manage a family of three,

But when I'm my own worst enemy,

I become a pro at stabbing

darts in the dartboard,

An eye for an eye,

I'm my own worst enemy all the time.

Oh, all the time.

Oh, all the time.

I never let myself have fun,

Always too scared of the outcome

Always too anxious to let go.

Why does it matter if I'm lost like Atlantis?

One hundred years time,

Buried with your thoughts and minds,

Sunken in the ground.

I could fly to the moon and back,

I could swim the whole sea.

But god, I won't see the pride of my capabilities.

I wont ever be enough for me,

I could every day, for ten months straight,

I could manage a family of three,

But when I'm my own worst enemy,

I become a pro at stabbing

darts in the dartboard,

An eye for an eye,

I'm my own worst enemy all the time.

Oh, all the time.

Oh, own worst enemy all of the time.

One day I'll lay dead,

Not a thought in a head,

I'll be done and forgotten,

Long gone, grave rotten.

So while I'm still here,

With my brain and my beard,

Why do I succumb to fights,

Internally within my mind?

I still can't let go of,

The person I dream of,

The person that I want,

To see in the mirror.

I could fly to Pluto and back,

I could swim to Hawaii,

But god, I won't see the pride of my capabilities.

I wont ever be enough for me,

I could every day, for 10 years straight,

I could let everyone be free,

But when I'm my own worst enemy,

I become a pro at stabbing

darts in the dartboard,

An eye for an eye,

I'm my own worst enemy all the time.

Oh, I am the dartboard,

I let you throw darts all night until three,

I deserve nothing, 'cept all the blood gushing,

When you're throwing darts at me.

The darts in the dartboard,

An eye for an eye,

I'm my worst enemy all of the time.

[forsean]

No Fuss:

When the wallpaper's new,

Pull the curtains closed,

When there's nothing more to do,

We sit together in our shared clothes.

When the moon stops rising,

And the sky is dark and blue,

When the midnight moment pauses,

All my light is found in you.

Just us two,

Stood under the moon,

A touch normally invasive,

With you, I don't feel nervous,

My fossilised heart,

You dug so fast,

My saviour in the dark,

With you there'll be no fuss,

No fuss, no fuss, no fuss, no fuss

When the sun holds our skin,

As we stand, so paper thin apart.

When the spark within

Portraits your face like a painting.

So the Earth stops moving,

And you flower with brighness,

When the sunrise permiates,

And love radiates between me and you.

Just us two,

My shoulder like a pillow to use,

I know your body's aching,

I'll stay right here waiting. 

If the sun doesn't rise,

No more sunlight holding us in place,

I know with you there'll be no fuss,

No fuss, no fuss, no fuss, no fuss,

No fuss, no fuss, no fuss, no fuss.

When your car is out the front

and I'm waiting for you on the couch,

Waiting for you to come and grab me,

Come and take me out.

The air is crisp and calm, you're fingers glide towards my palms,

As we cruise down motorways and watch the streetlights pass.

We pull up to a field, I question what we're doing here.

You said 'hang on, just wait and see', his grin reaching from ear to ear.

We started walking quicker, out into the open grass

You look into my eyes and ask to take me to the stars.

You tell me I'm your favourite piece of art.

My words escape my lips,

Before I talk we share a kiss,

The emotion rips me at the edge,

You're racing ahead inside my head.

Oh my, oh my, oh my, oh my,

I love when you stand by my side.

Oh my, oh my, oh my, oh my,

You're the first person to stand by my side.

Just us two,

My brain like a chasm of fear,

I know my minds debating

You reassure me that you're here

in the field, next to me breathing.

No thought troubles our love,

I know with you there'll be no fuss,

No fuss, no fuss, no fuss, no fuss,

No fuss, no fuss, no fuss, no fuss

[forsean]

Heartbreak Happens:

Noticing you'd stay the same for every reply,

Or how you'd compliment me just to keep me on a high.

There were never any outstanding red signs.

But that meant your personality was hard to come by.

Heartbreak happens so I guess I'll take the loss.

I'll risk the pain and protection of your arms, I'll risk how much it costs.

As my tears flood your bedroom,

and I smash your windows in,

Heartbreak happens and I'll get over it.

I'll get over the sleepness nights,

I'll get over all the crying.

What would it take to feel your hand

From the grave as we're dying.

I'll get over my fright

From the lack of fighting,

Where has your energy gone?

Heartbreak happens, but now it's ending.

Our conversations never seem to change,

Working towards nothing cause you're so far away.

I thought I'd finally found someone,

Who was inticing, who wanted to join my fun.

Heartbreak happens so I guess I'll take the fall.

I'll risk the hugs and harmfulness of your heart,

Let's see how this takes a toll.

As my fears paint your kitchen,

and I rip your clothes to shreds,

Heartbreak happens and I'll get over it.

I'll get over the sleepness nights,

I'll get over all the crying.

What would it take to hear you shout,

From our coffin when we're burying.

I'll get over my spite

From the lack of fighting,

Where have your emotions gone?

Heartbreak happens, but now it's ending.

This is the end of the story,

I wish I could say I'm sorry,

I wish that you weren't so boring.

I don't think there'll be a sequel,

It wouldn't make any sales,

Maybe this chapter failed,

I'm not writing off your presence,

Your words to me - still kind like presents,

But I'm so bored in this element.

Heartbreak happens but I survived the crash.

I risked my truth and tenderness for your time,

Let's see how I recovered so fast.

As I help you fix your home,

The cut heals without scars,

Heartbreak happens and I'll get over it.

I'll get over the wasted time,

I'll get over the recycled replying.

What would it take to turn my head,

In my mind I'm midst cremating.

I'll get over all the bites

from your dogs - you 're fantasising.

Where did this carelessness form,

Heartbreak happens and I'm fine with it.

[forsean]

The Hospital:

White walls and sunken-in eyes,

Tired of losing life,

Scarlett scars from the mask paint their faces red.

The light shades of blue,

Hiding bodies as they slave until their shift is through.

They say they want to help us,

But in this state it's helpless,

A catacombe of atonement

where smiles fade, they feel forbidden.

A constant beeping,

The constant cleaning,

With constant fearing,

That you'll forever shut your eyes.

An instant panic,

With distant manic,

Something Satanic,

Might take you away from life.

In this place,

Where life begins.

Where problems fade in and out again.

In and out again,

I'm scared In this place,

Sadness from within,

That you'll never come out,

There's always been a doubt

if the ring will hold,

Will it stay a circle,

Or will it crumble into sharpened shards.

In the hospital?

The hospital,

The hospital-all-all-all.

In the hospital,

The hospital.

The hospital-all-all-all.

White walls, must sanitise.

Your bloodstained eyes

Don't seem to recognise my face as I walk in.

Violins serenading,

You're fading back and forth between loss and life.

You say you'll be fine soon enough,

But you can't even force a cough,

A bed turned to a coffin,

The next patient is unknowing

Of the quick forgetting,

The quick cascading,

The quickest fading

Of your memories and history,

Sudden confusion,

No sudden movement,

A sudden fragment

Fragmenting all your life.

In this place,

Where life begins.

Where problems fade in and out again.

In and out again,

I'm scared In this place,

Sadness from within,

That you'll never come out,

There's always been a doubt

if your mind will hold,

Will you keep your sanity,

Or will it tear into a thousand pieces.

In the hospital?

The hospital,

The hospital-all-all-all.

In the hospital,

The hospital.

The hospital-all-all-all.

Is this the end?

Is it over?

The medication gave you permanent amnesia.

Please stay for us,

Stay for Annie.

This isn't how we saw your love story ending.

The white walls

aren't stimulating,

But the doctors and the nurses promise they'll do almost anything to save this.

To save you.

From this place

Where my life began.

As I've grown I've come in and out again.

In and out again.

Don't forget my face,

I won't forget your grin.

You've just got to keep on pushing,

I know it might be wishful thinking.

If your body holds,

Will your strength return,

Or will you be forever weaker

In the hospital?

The hospital,

The hospital-all-all-all.

In the hospital,

The hospital.

The hospital-all-all-all.

The hospital,

The hospital,

The hospital-all-all-all

This can't be where you're memories pass by

Rooms you used to work late nights

and time and time again you try

to give your daughters the best life,

well I would say you did it well,

now my mums grown and I can tell

that you were great and

I can't wait to see you out the hospital.

The hospital

The hospital-all-all-all

Out the hospital,

The hospital

The hospital-all-all-all

Out the hospital.