govangh

[govangh]

To how many people do I owe an apology?

And how many do I owe to my own reflection?

- govangh

[govangh]

What a pity when you finally see yourself as you are.

Am I really this body in this room?

Is that truly my life?

Is it the one I wanted?

Do I still want something?

Why can't I cry anymore?

The tiredness of the world weighting on my shoulders.

- govangh

[govangh]

I wonder

If I can leave

Like you passed

Through the door

- govangh

[govangh]

Is here a god outside

Waiting for me to die ?

Will I ever be able to fly ?

Will I ever stop to cry ?

- govangh

[govangh]

😴

“What if I slept a little more and forgot about all this nonsense.”

— Franz Kafka

[govangh]

Skin to skin

Hold my hand

Like you did

That day

- govangh

[govangh]

It's crazy how the thing I've been learning more and more about these past months is how the word 'adult' means nothing sometimes.

Adult doesn't mean they know everything. Adult doesn't mean wisdom nor maturity. Adult doesn't mean right choices, altruism nor impartiality.

I was, and am still constantly deceived by adults. Yes, they have more experience in life than me, but experiences is one thing, what matter is if you've drown lessons from them. You can be an adult and being a total dick. You can be an adult and never truly reflected on yourself and your actions.

When I understood that, it was as if a weight's been taken off my shoulders. Adults make mistakes too. They're humans after all. Breathe, and know that it's always interesting to listen, even if you learn that they have nothing valuable to offer to your soul. But keep in mind that you're not inferior, never.

Be humble toward yourself and draw your lessons. Don't let them weight on your mind.

It'll be a lot easier, I promise, and you'll gain self-confidence.

- govangh

[govangh]

- I've never truly felt like I belonged to.

- Do you need to belong ?

- Don't we all belong there to something or someone ?

- I don't want to belong to anybody.

- That's why you don't like yourself.

[govangh]

Some days are like. I just opened my eyes. Again.

[govangh]

God is like

A father

And I'm

The daughter

Who does

Bad choices

To be seen

- govangh

[govangh]

I've been searching

For my name

Everywhere I went

I found fragments

Of a forlorn soul

- govangh

[govangh]

I wounded

Myself first

So others

Would not

I think

I can believe

In myself

Even if

Others

Did not

- govangh

[govangh]

Alabaster statue

Immobilized in time

Inhuman grace

Pretty crier

Foolish men

Crawling at

Your feet

- govangh

[govangh]

Moon

You watch me

In silence

I feel seen from

The infinity

[govangh]

I am 1% human and 99% tired

[govangh]

I'm sorry if I act childish

I just feel sad that I missed

So many years of little bliss

All you know, I'm not used to this

I gotta go, please forgive me

I should go, but never forget me

The leaves fall from the trees

You've lost that smile I liked to see

We hold on goodbyes

I hate the way I always try

To laugh as if my throat wasn't so tight

To live as if Mom never cry

Do you also feel alone when comes the night?

I do all the time

- govangh

[govangh]

Should I tell God that I live my life as a joke or does he know already