haybabe09

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this (art and quote) is so beautiful

art + lemony snicket

x x x x x

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chapters 36-38 of heartless

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I can say I’ll move on, but does anyone really? It’s been a year now, but the pain hits just as well. I had lived on broken promises for so long.  Now that I’ve been taken off of life support, I don’t know how to be.  All I remember is your lies.  All I know is your smile. And I will never have either again. I’ll watch life pass me by,  And watch yours through photos. Finally, when everything seems okay, I tear out the stitches and start fresh again. I enjoy the painful torment, in a way. It’s the only way I get to see you now.   I really shouldn’t be surprised.  A year past forever, and I’m still bleeding out. When will it end? When can I forget? Should I?

-h.j. comet

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ea-nasir chappell roan: 𒌨𒆸𒑚 𒀫𒆸𒑚𒁇𒆕 𒀫𒆸𒈹𒂅𒁇𒀀𒁹𒋻 𒀀𒊒𒆸𒑚𒈦 𒀫𒆸𒂅𒂅𒀼𒇲 𒊒𒀀𒇲𒈱

(translation: “you could complain about copper bars”)

[haybabe09]

when gracie abrams said "you were the best but you were the worst as sick as it sounds i loved you first" and when sabrina carpenter said "how am i supposed to close the door when i still need the closure? and i change my mind but its still on you" and when hozier said "i'm almost me again, she's almost you" and when taylor swift said "dont call me kid, dont call me baby, look at this idiotic fool that you made me. you taught me a secret language i can't speak with anyone else" and when conan gray said "can't be your friend, can't be your lover, can't be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love" and when chappell roan said "here come the excuses that fuel the illusions but i'd rather feel something than nothing at all" yeah.

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the old saying goes:

"it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

so when my only reason to wake is the promise of sleep at the end of the day

because then i can once again hear your voice

and see your eyes glow amber from the sun once more

before the pain washes over me again.

when i scream at the hollow cavity you used to fill and nothing echoes back,

i'm supposed to believe that that's better than me going on with life as if you were never in it?

i can't decide.

would it have been better never to have known your face at all

than to despise it?

-h.j. comet