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Lain is Lain and I am me.

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i just wish i didnt lose myself along the way

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When I don’t know how to regulate my emotions I always default to making a new tumblr account ;-;

[httpsflesh]

Though our bond transcends far beyond your meaningless relationships with others, It's about ownership. And I want to own you, body and soul. Every moment you spend with others is a moment you're not spending with me, and that's unbearable.

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i'll FLAY MY OWN SKIN, EXPOSE MY OWN BONES, AND WRITE OUR LOVE STORY IN MY OWN BLOOD. every letter, every word, every sentence will be a scream of devotion, a declaration of my eternal obsession. i'll be a living, breathing, bleeding testament of our love.

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I get embarrassed by my own words, when writing I hide. Though thoughts I have everyday, they are so intense, so intimate.

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I don’t want to sleep I don’t want to eat I don’t want to get out of bed I just want ot think about you. It’s debilitating really

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Often I mute my phone and just stare at our contacts because everytime someone texts me my heart spikes, thinking it’s you, only to be let down.

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I wonder why I exist. I wish to disconnect from all these I talk to already I don't want to be tied down to human life. I want to fly

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As I change, I have to go back and consume the content that comforted me, that understood me and made me feel safe. I forget it so easily, I forget why I was content in the first place

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Whats the point in going here if I'm just going to feel empty with people I don't feel anything for? I wish for someone

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I keep getting farther and farther away from humanity and its so isolating. My heart feels cold and I feel so empty, I didn't know someone could feel cold inside from feeling so empty.

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It genuinely feels like someone is screaming inside me and its so weird. I thought it was just a figure of speech.

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I want to become quiet; just stop talking. I don’t like to talk, I don’t like other people, yet their pestering questions keep me from stopping.

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Everyone hates me and I’m just so fucking annoying I’m so annoying I’m so annoying

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I always revert back to this obsessive feeling. Will I ever change? Will I be free to have a stable identity? I go to sleep and wake up hoping for something permanent

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The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful