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Arthur Morgan of RDR2 forever has my heart @xmischapotatox on instagram if you’d like to follow me 😇

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Wonder if tumblr will ban me for that one…I swear it’s just a study guys, I haven’t drawn any naked bodies in ages.

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My hand slipped- I am 300h into the Baldur’s Gate 3 🧛🏻‍♀️

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😂

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He just thinks out loud

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I drew my favourite vampire manwife 🩸

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Hi you all roleplaying folks! Searching for Astarion (BG3)

I am 24 yo female writer searching for someone willing to play Astarion against my OC/Tav. I am roleplaying for 5-6 years with on and off tendency. My writing is literate and I like longer paragraphs and attention to detail. I usually spend some time in analysing my responses to give you the best outcome. I can be understanding partner and teach you couple of things as well, as long as you are passionate about the subject of writing just as much as me. I live in UK and search for someone with similar time zone.

Lately I started playing Baldur’s Gate 3 and completely fell in love with it and characters included. I adore the romance with Astarion in game, however I wanted to write something more detailed, including his thoughts and emotional nuances. Since Astarion is multidimensional man with trauma, I would say slow burn romance will be perfect! I am open to any requests.

Edit: I do not double up.

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Non-ascended Astarion my beloved

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Gale is a cat dad and Astarion IS a cat

Inktober Day 23: Cat People

Drawing fluffy cats brings me so much happiness 💕

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I love thinking about the fact that when you romance Astarion, like, actually start to romance him, you don’t have sex with him. At all. And it comes up in other interactions later on, like if you get propositioned by Halsin, Astarion checks if his lack of participation is a factor in your consideration? And if you mess with Mizora, similar thing. So it’s clear that since he confessed his true feelings, that part of your relationship pauses, as he requested. Because he’s got trauma and needs a gentle loving space to work through that to be intimate in a healthy way that doesn’t repulse him or taint your bond.

And I love that he gets that narrative because it’s such a rare option for a masculine character to experience sexual abuse and trauma and be allowed a chance to work through and heal from it. Especially if they’re young and gorgeous and virile like he is. He’s only 39 at his death/turning, he was so young, and Cazador treats him like a boy in so many ways while simultaneously using his adult sex appeal as a lure and a weapon to control him and destroy other lives through his body. It’s such an integral part of his abusive enslavement and I appreciate that choice for his story rather than a simple one of monstrous violence, murder, etc which is a more common trope for male characters.

So he’s coming from that place, and then he meets you and his default setting is to fuck you to secure his safety, his worth in your eyes. But if you show him true love and care, he starts to see a way to return that which is something he’s never been able to do before, but the sex complicates it suddenly. And you can just back off from it, give him the space he needs, make him feel safe to trust love and security isn’t bound to what he can offer you physically. It’s not bound to his body, his functions. It’s his personhood that you desire, his essence without strings attached, and he gets to learn that and trust it and grow it without pressure or judgement. Even the times after where you ask to kiss him feel so sweet, to check in with him on such a simple act of intimacy, where he gets his autonomy to consent.

And then, at the end of his storyline in the graveyard, when he’s reclaiming his life in symbolic and literal ways, that’s when he feels the most safe and in love with you, trusts you the most to care for him completely, and that’s when he initiates physicality again. And I just fucking love that for him. So much.

As a person who’s struggled with physical intimacy and learning I could have boundaries and need to take my time with stuff and my partner wouldn’t abandon me over it? Would stay even if I couldn’t promise to ever fulfill that part of our relationship again? The safety of that reassurance is everything, and it helps you find a way back to your body again, to loving it and wanting to share it with another. Because you get to choose when and how and anything offered is received with pure gratitude and admiration. And I love that Astarion gets that chance because he deserves to heal and feel whole again, to live fully without barriers. And you get to help him find that. It’s beautiful.

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being abnormal about that old man is an olympic sport. and brother im bringing home the gold

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one bloody boi

when he trusts you and starts healing and letting down his facade, and you realize Astarion actually naturally has the roundest eyes

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she was my bi awakening along with Jack, couldn’t decide between her and him

Keira Knightley as Elizabeth Swann

Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

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DEPPHEADS, HOW ARE WE FEELING?

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Random thought for today

Link from Legend Of Zelda actually has it worse than Ken, because he does all the dirty work and his franchise is still named after his female love interest.

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BARBIE (2023) dir. Greta Gerwig