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it pisses me off SO bad how transphobes have so effectively used sports to launder transphobia and misogyny to people. like does nobody remember like ~5-10 years ago when it was a MAJOR feminist talking point to argue for desegregating sports and going by skill level instead of gender separation??? and now, because so many cis people hate trans people so violently and think we should be excluded from all aspects of public life, you’ve got a whole bunch of women who call themselves feminists laundering misogynistic talking points about how “women are just inherently weaker and worse at athletics than men :(( it’s just biology and women are inherently inferior :(( this is definitely not misogyny that’s unsupported by science, women are just weaker and worse at things :((“ like girl open your ears and listen to what you’re saying!!

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Something that literally changed my life was working with a friend on a coding thing. He was helping me create an auto rig script and was trying to explain something to me but his words were just turning into static in my brain. I was tired and confused and there was so many new concepts happening.

I could feel myself working toward a crying meltdown and was getting preemptively ashamed of what was about to happen when he said, “Hey, are you someone who benefits from breaks?”

It broke me.

Did I benefit from breaks? I didn’t know. I’d never taken them.

When a problem frustrated or upset me I just gritted my teeth and plowed through the emotional distress because eventually if you batter and flail at something long enough you figure it out. So what if you get bruised on the way.

I viscerally remembered in that moment being forced to sit at the table late into the night with my dad screaming at me, trying to understand math. I remembered taking that with me into adulthood and having breakdowns every week trying to understand coding. I could have taken a break? Would it help? I didn’t know! I’d never taken one!

“Yes,” I told him. We paused our call. I ate lunch. I focused on other stuff for half an hour. I came back in a significantly better state of mind, and the thing he’d been trying to explain had been gently cooking in the back of my head and seemed easier to understand.

Now when I find myself gritting my teeth at problems I can hear his gentle voice asking if I benefit from breaks. Yes, dear god, yes why did I never get taught breaks? Why was the only way I knew to keep suffering until something worked?

I was relating to this same friend recently my roadtrip to the redwoods with my wife. “We stopped every hour or so to get out and stretch our legs and switch drivers. It was really nice. When I was a kid we’d just drive twelve hours straight and not stop for anything, just gas. We’d eat in the car and power through.”

He gave a wry smile, immediately connecting the mindset of my parents on a road trip to what they’d instilled in me about brute forcing through discomfort. “Do you benefit from breaks?” he echoed, drawing my attention to it, making me smile with the same sad acknowledgement.

Take breaks. You’re allowed. You don’t have to slam into problems over and over and over, let yourself rest. It will get easier. Take. Breaks.

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ok im done with this one for realsies this time

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So far in LA an Australian news reporter has been shot in the leg by a rubber bullet, a British reporter has been shot by a sponge bullet and sent to the hospital for emergency surgery. A NY Post reporter has been shot in the head with a rubber bullet and went to the hospital for a large bruise on his forehead, whiplash and neck pain, and CNN reporters were handcuffed and escorted away being told to not come back or they will be arrested BECAUSE they are reporters.

It seems like all reporters there to give the real story are being targeted by police/ICE/military in LA.

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It really is wild that some politicians can stand there and say "yeah we're getting rid of a program that keeps quite literally millions of people alive specifically so we can cut taxes for people who are already richer than god" as if it's a normal political stance and not so cartoonishly evil I'm legit shocked perry the platypus doesn't break through the nearest wall the minute the words leave their mouth.

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Jason's day off

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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fanfic is for the fandom and doesn't need to be at a certain level of writing to be worthy of existing guys

At some point "fanfic can be as good as professional writing" became "fanfic should be as good as professional writing" and that's caused major damage to fandom spaces.

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If you do want to go toe to toe with cops don’t do it at the main protest in your area. Start shit across town and split the cops’ resources. “Open a second front” so to speak and take some of the heat off of the people they have absolutely no qualms about harming. Split up and open up a third front, a fourth. Keep moving and keep them moving.

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reposting from the author of Red Hood 2025’s bluesky. the book will not be copaganda. it won’t change the fact helena canonically hates cops and that jason very likely also hates cops.

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Neil sees Kaitlyn on Aaron’s background on his phone and thinks about it. Then he notices Erik on Nicky’s phone and finally gets the courage to ask him why.

Nicky just shrugs.

“I like seeing his face every time I look at my phone.”

Eventually when his phone finally breaks (he can’t bring himself to buy anything new at least that’s what he tells himself) (Andrew knows he’s upset and won’t buy a new one so he buys a new one then he also buys himself a new one and he won’t admit but he really likes having matching phones)

At first it’s either a shitty picture of the printed out photo in the lounge of him and Andrew at the airport when he told him his middle name.

Or he manages to find a professional picture of Andrew done on the court.

It takes him a while, but eventually there’s a canid picture of Andrew on his phone staring ‘bored’ into the camera

He holds it and stares at the screen all the time when Andrew has graduated.

After he graduates he’s a lot better about keeping his phone charged.

He’s no longer the rabbit.

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just did a quick scroll through felker-martin's bluesky and considering her politics, i don't think we need to be that worried about jason being pro-cop in the new red hood series lol

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Impact

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this is a book series that will have you rocking back and forth and ripping your hair out and bashing your skull into a wall but then you have to look someone directly in the eyes and say yeah it’s about a fake sport with fake drugs and also the yakuza is involved

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not to be a bitchy little queer but. TJ Klune having a character introduce another by saying, "That's B, and they use they/them pronouns, so that better not be a problem" is like. so annoying to me. I can excuse the declaration if someone made a mistake and was corrected, but like. just right at the intro.

Nora Sakavic didn't do that with Cody and Jean, and there would actually have been cause to do that--Jean came out of a cult and English is his third language, so it would have been reasonable for another character to explain they/them pronouns to him (and therefore the audience). If someone does, though, we don't see that, and we just get that those are Cody's pronouns because the characters use them.

I also have beef with Klune for straight up having Arthur be like "do you all know what intergenerational trauma is" and i'm like BESTIE you need to show and not tell this. show me arthur worrying about being like his old foster parents, or slipping into something they did and correcting himself.

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