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the faint light of tomorrow

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We’ve all heard it before, “the world is a ball.” But, what do you do when your world throws you curve balls?

Here’s what I’ve learned…

Evolving Hope: The World is a Ball by Kandace Miller (itsablankkandy)

Evolving. Present participle of evolve. Verb; to gradually change in development often starting from a much simpler form and manifesting into something greater.

Hope. Noun; a feeling of a lingering expectation or desire that people often favor to happen.

Look at the reality around you. How does your perspective of your surroundings make you feel?

The world is always changing. Reality, always shifting. Your environment is always influenced. And you… are you adapting along with them as you experience the waves of life? Or do you stand stagnant as the shift in life’s tides overtake you?

Somewhere in the world, a ball is being thrown. Some time in reality, the ball is always moving through space. And whether you expect it or not, the ball will land in your court. When that ball comes, and as often as it comes, what will you do then? What do you hope to do then?

The ball often landed in my court. I was young at the time and I often found myself bored, as bored children are. So, I played with the ball. I didn’t care if it was over-inflated or slightly deflated. I didn’t care if it was dirty or dangerous. I paid no mind to whether it would hurt me or if it benefited me. All I knew at a young age was that it was a ball that kept me entertained for a while. Afterward, I got up, eventually, and left the ball there on that court.

That was when I was young.

As I grew older, as we all do, more balls entered my court at an increased frequency. These balls were all different from each other. Some different colors; some different volumes; some different levels of pressure; some different levels of danger; and some different levels of buoyancy.

The younger me would have played with the majority of them. Then, like the first ball that entered my court, I would have left them in that court. That was what the younger me would have done.

As I have found with age, my attention to the latest ball influenced my behavior compared to when I was younger. You see, this time I stayed. The balls, the court, and myself. I stayed. And the longer I stayed, the less entertained I got playing with the balls. The longer I stayed, the more observant I’d become. I started noticing and overanalyzing every ball. I started comparing.

I noticed some were beneficial. I noticed some were harmful. I even noticed that most were distracting. And that’s not good.

You see, there were far less beneficial balls than harmful balls or distracting balls, which were plentiful. Even in my old age, they affected how I felt.

So the logical thing to do would be to leave the court and the balls.

But somehow, I didn’t. I chose to stay on that court with those balls. And by this time the court was starting to show its age.

Time came and went. I continued to stay, for as long as I did, the more confused and depressed I got.

The distracting balls were now compiled in overwhelming numbers compared to both the beneficial and harmful balls.

I lost my mindset to adapt. I lost my hope. The consequences were already showing their effect. I can’t switch courts anymore.

I chose to stand stagnant as the shift in life’s tides overtook me. I’m drowning.

But you know what, I knew those beneficial balls would come in handy. Before I knew it, the hope already instilled in those beneficial balls was inflated enough to where they kept my head above the tides.

I’m drowning, yes.

But how can I drown if I was always on a court?

With one blink back into reality, I realized the court had become a sea of balls. I am in a ball pit and I’m currently fighting my way out.

I now know my status. So, I ask you, what’s yours? The ball is in your court.

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Hi, I’m Kandace! I just want to say thank you for reading! Feel free to participate in the discussion by expressing how you would interpret this reflective piece of writing in the comments below or through video! I’m excited to hear about your“balls” and what your “court” looks like.

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Few things. First, the dark skinned guy wearing the green sweater at the beginning reminded me of Clark Kent from My Adventures with Superman. Second, the cherubs were in child restaurant style booster seats when they were with the D.H.O.R.K.S. And Third rewatch the scene with Blitzø and Fizz and pay attention to Fizz entering numbers into the keypad. 😂😂😂 that’s all I have now.

—Helluva Boss season 2 episode 8

Edit, I forgot to put that Stolas’ top eyes cry too.

Edit 2, Stolas put the crystal on Blitzø’s left wrist. Does this mean it’s foreshadowing a wedding in the far future??? I mean, Stolas literally put a ring on it.

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“Welcome to Hell, BITCH!!”

—Moxxie from Helluva Boss Season 2 ep. 8

“I think so very highly of you, Blitzø. I didn’t realize you think so low of me. Good-bye, Blitzø.”

—Stolas from Helluva Boss Season 2 ep. 8

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But am I wrong??? 🧐

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An analysis on how Sir Pentious' character design represents his personality and development perfectly (beware of Hazbin Hotel spoilers)

Let's get this out of the way: Sir Pentious is a snake, an animal mostly known for generally believed negative traits such as poison, deceit and betrayal. We don't know WHY he's in Hell, maybe he was a "snake oil salesman" considering he comes from the Victorian times and he's into hyping up what he does, or maybe he was into war. Thing is, he's a Sinner whose design just scream "Evil".

(BTW, a snake could also represent "fertility": looking at you, Egg Boiz!)

He always had eyes all around him not just because of a stylistic choice.

Sir Pentious always felt like he was watched, and had to watch out for any danger.

"Everyone here is too nice: obviously it must be a lie! I can sense they are planning to kill me, but when?! HOW?! I must be PREPARED!"

Sadly, he's been constantly berated by other demons, far more effective in destruction, status, cruelty and charisma. Alastor won't ever bother to remember him, Cherri always ones up him, and the Vs, the ones he admires to most, won't care less about him.

To the point that Vox sent him as a spy without the intention to save him if things were going to fail. Heck, he even openly tells him to die while calling him a failure.

So of course he's got reasons to have trust issues, or taking everything so seriously, being constantly reminded of what he can't accomplish. So he puts an air of grandure that may be very flamboyant, but is VERY frail.

But, if we have to be frank here, his biggest source of insecurities... is himself.

He has eyes on his tail (his softer, more vulnerable side, which is ironically made even MORE lieable to getting hurt because of how sensitive those organs are), and inside his hood, so he could look out better for danger when on alert mode.

Heck, even the mark on his hood kinda resembles one eye.

Problem is, when you see his hood folded, when he's at ease, neutral or sad, those are not looking at outside sources.

They're looking at him, at his back. A constant stare that happens everytime he lets his guard down and shows how vulnerable he is. A gaze that can sense all of his weakness, his struggles, his insecurities.

And it's all him.

Pentious constantly believes that his inferiority complex will fade away once he'll accomplish something grand that will make others accept him. But he is his biggest critic, his worst enemy: HE is the one who believes he's a failure, that he'll never gain approval from others.

This show takes place in Hell, but this is Sir Pentious' personal Hell: insecurity born out of self hatred. Doomed to feel everyone's gaze upon him, including his own. Believing the danger to his self esteem is from others, when it's really from him.

But then he's accepted at the Hazbin Hotel: Charlie forgives him, he bonds with Angel, Husk and Niffty who don't care a bit about what he's accomplished or not, or what he's done in the past.

He feels more comfortable in showing his vulnerable side, and no one judges him for how easy it is for him to get emotional.

Of course he's still very insecure, considering how he struggles to confess to Cherri, but notice how he stops building machines or planning to attack others as soon as he starts bonding with the others: he doesn't have a reason to destroy or attack, now that he knows he's loved.

And his final design, when he goes to Heaven, shows how much he's changed, yet stayed the same. He may have died a hero, but he's still the same awkward snake we've come to love.

Speaking of love, let's talk about that!

No more eyes on his tail, now it's just on his chest (showing he's opened his heart), his glasses are now heart shaped, and even the markings inside his hood resemble kiss marks more than anything else.

And look: the mark on his hood is now heart shaped!

Why all these hearts? Why did all the eyes disappeared from his body? Even his eyes that were looking at his back?

Simple: love. Love defeated his insecurities and self hatred. He died for love.

He died protecting his friends, his new family, his new home.

He confessed and kissed Cherri knowing full well he wouldn't have made it, and yet he went anyway.

The usually cowardly and timid Pentious actually faced a great danger with courage and determination: he acted selflessly by putting himself in harm's way, he didn't steal (naturally) and by going against Adam he did indeed "stick it to the man"!

He used his weaponry knowhow and battle experience not to conquer, but to save his loved ones.

His only thought up until his demise was: "I'll go down protecting them".

And he's been rewarded not only by becoming an angel, but also being spawned directly in front of Emily and Sera, two Seraphim, the highest rank for an angel to have, who have also been depicted as snakes of fire throughout history! Sir Pentious, the lowly demon considered a failure by everyone, actually has been noticed by the Seraphim! He's come so far!

He's now come to represent the REAL symbolism of a snake: the duality of death and rebirth, transformation and immortality (ironically a reference to the fact he's been around since 1888 without ever dying from any Extermination or blessed weapons).

And isn't so poetic that a snake, the "source of the original evil", was the first sinner to ascend to Heaven? Or that this episode was released on February 1st, or National Serpent Day?

And of course, as the Bible itself says:

"Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends."

(John 15:13)

And knowing him, I'm confident in saying he'll keep helping his friends even in his new position, like the soft hearted noodle he's always been, but was to afraid to show it up until now.

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I predict Lucifer is going to put the rest of the demons in their place once they start to challenge the throne.

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So did Alastor ask for one favor? Or multiple favors?

At first he sets it up like it’s one favor, then he said “just one favor at a time, for my choosing.”

I don’t trust deer boi!

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I want it to be BURNT!! SLOW, EXTRA CRISPY, and BLACK AF!!!

Hazbin Hotel Spoilers for episode 8

This... THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT BABY!!!

You can completely feel the chemistry between these two now, of course you could before but I was VERY nervous these two only stay as close friends, it is now no secret that they will develop a deeper relationship over time.

And this? This is exactly what I was wanting, you can finally see the attraction Husk feels towards Angel. The deeper voice, the way he looks him up and down, the only demon in a while that is into Angel because he's just him, not some famous porn star with the nice body.

He's attracted, but he still doesn't go off and try and get in bed with Angel, even if they might die after fighting the angels, even if this will be the last chance he'll be able to do it. He is just... SUCH A GENTLEMAN!!!

The same goes for Angel, which speaks so many volumes. He says it outright, that they can live the night however they wanted, but he chooses to sit there and drink with him. AND FUCK!!! The way he looks back at Husk?!

PLEAAASE!!! When was the last time he's ever looked at someone like that? With nothing but affection, no hint of wanting to get down and dirty.

I am SO so happy they didn't have them get together by the end of this season, they deserve more build up, more moments, and I am so genuinely excited to see what's in store for them. Angel and Husk deserve a slow burn!!

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My Favorite Quote from Hazbin Hotel Season 1

“You come at me, and my daughter. Don’t forget, you’re in my house, Bitch!” —Lucifer MorningStar

We Stan a short king!

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Hazbin Hotel Spoiler

Okay, but I wasn’t ready seeing the “ki”blade being wielded my Lucifer Morningstar. He is worthy of the keyblade! I wonder if he is a master??? 🤔🤔🧐

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Sera: “Not every thing is spelled in ink” This is an underrated line because this sparks the idea of religious text represented by Adam’s list being a flawed grey area in a bad way.

Like people are quick to quote their religious book, but many go “well I don’t actually do that thing because it (ie life and being human) is not that simple.” I just love the hypocrisy of this line and how it relates in the real world.

For example, war. If I’m quoting the Bible, Thou shall not kill. Nations are quick to say “this is Gods land but war is necessary so let’s get our soldiers (or anyone who isn’t us (ie higher officials)) to kill for us.” Then when you go like, “If this is a Nation backed by God, why do you go against the first commandment?”Then the Nations go, “well that’s different. We need to defend. So sometimes killing is justified.”

Like bro what?

I think what humanity really needs to learn is how to get along harmoniously. I know that is cheesy and cliché, but I think that is one of our major homework assignments. Life doesn’t HAVE to be this way. We CAN have a better future. But because people are so impossible to talk to and take pride in being dead set in their ways that they absolutely won’t give and take ideas and whatever equally, makes it so f***ing hard to even have compromising and cooperation be a freakin’ option before more greed and lust for power and control take over.

I think Charlie and Emily (and maybe Lucifer) know this and is trying to make a future everyone can live happily in. Man I love Hazbin Hotel. They actually freakin’ get it. They get what the actually tea is. They are starting to open up meaningful conversations that will make an actual difference. But people need to be ready to accept conversations like this and grow from them to benefit not only themselves but others too.

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I like how his hands aren’t fat sausage sticks. 🥰🥰 Ah, so refreshing~~~

💫 BABYGIRL 💫

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I was so confused at this scene. Lol I was like, “did he forget that it was a “PUSH” and not a “PULL”? ‘Cause honestly same.”

But then I remembered I’m watching something that depicts that he doesn’t have strength control learned yet, so I shouldn’t think so much of it.

I’m gonna go with a mixture of both of them though. I think it’s in character for him. But this had me 🤔🧐.

— My Adventures With Superman "Adventures of a Normal Man Part 1"