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Don't Care

I just don't care anymore. I don't see my life going anywhere. I'd much rather spend my days on tumblr or watching television than go out and try to do well in school or find a job. I'm very intelligent, but I have no drive. I know I'm screwing myself over, but I just can't stop being a lazy ass. 

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First Kiss

Whenever I think about getting my first kiss, I get massive amounts of butterflies in my stomach and a desperate sense of want. I'm 16 and a half and have never been in a romantic relationship. I feel like I'm missing out on something. It's not that I feel insecure about not having anyone special in my life, I just want to know someone out there cares for me and wants me. Just that feeling that I make someone else feel special, too. I'd really like to be kissed, now. 

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ADD

I was just told I have ADD and im scared to tell my friends. I'm scared to admit I get depressed. I'm scared of life. I wanna cut, but I'm too scared for that. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up; just dream the life I want to live. Plus, if I take the meds for the ADD, it would maybe make me lose a lot of weight. I'm happy about that because I am a bit overweight, but if I lose too much weight they'll take me off. 

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Secretly in Love

I've been in love with the same boy for almost four years. I want to get over him, but it just doesn't seem possible. I wish that I had the guts to just tell him... just to see his reaction. But honestly, I'm just to afraid of rejection.

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Never Been Kissed

I'm sixteen years old and I've never been kissed. I've never had a date and I'm pretty sure nobody has ever liked me. It's not that I'm hideous, but I'm not a drop dead beauty either. I feel so left out and without any experience. It makes me nervous for the time when I actually will have a boyfriend. How wants to date a girl who hasn't even been kissed before and will most likely suck at it?

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Mother

My mother is a horrible person and I'm scared that one day, I'll turn into her.

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Too Far

I have a tendency to allow guys to go to far with me on the internet. On days when I feel really self conscious and some random guy tells me I'm beautiful, it makes me feel wanted. I let guys flirt with me and say things to me that I would never feel comfortable about in person. I almost feel like a whore. I just like the feeling of being wanted and I just can't get that in the real world.

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Girl

I think i'm beginning to develop a crush on a girl I go to school with. It's scary. My whole life, I've just kind of thought of myself as straight. But now, I'm not so sure. She's wonderful and funny and smart and creative and generous and I can't get her out of my head. I just want to know if what I'm feeling is true, or if I'm just "going through a phase" or something. She makes me really happy. 

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Crush

I have a crush on a boy who already has a girlfriend. We met back in March and have been talking ever since. He never told me he had a girlfriend. I only found out in October. We haven't been doing anything, but now I feel a little betrayed that he didn't tell me and I don't want to cause turbulence in their relationship. But I can't help my feelings for him. It's so hard.

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Drinking

I had my first shot of alcohol the other day when my parents were out. I just needed to try it out and see if it would help me escape from the world i'm in. i think i'm going to do it again. i need help. i want to escape reality and live in a dream world. My parents heavily stocked liquor cabinet will help me get there.

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Attention

I talk to some guys for the sole purpose that i like the attention, but i still don't get as much as i want.

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Obese

i'm fat. and i'm so damn tired of it. i don't eat much and i exercise, but i can't seem to lose weight. it's embarrassing.

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Losing Friends

i am losing friends so fast. i don't know what i did wrong. but i feel like i'm all alone in the world right now. it sucks.