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Art of my silly DnD Character Flynn!

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I have been seeing a lot of people misinterpret Bob as having DID~ it’s very important to me that they understand that Bob, Sentry, and The Void are not separate people or personalities.

Bob has Bipolar disorder, and Sentry is an outward expression of his manic episodes and the void represents his depressive ones, however they are still all Bob.

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god I hate being a good omens fan to this extent because wdym I'm writing a 15 paragraph essay??

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Today in an English Lit class a student asked the professor, “If they [The School] catch us reading and being taught books, are you going to get fired?”

her answer? “Not if I can make really good excuses, tell them I was confused by the curriculum.”

she was being serious.

in an English Lit class.

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I think Thunderbolts in 2025 has the power to be what avengers tower was to the tumblerinas of 2015

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Preparation for Thunderbolts* Film List (Chronological):

Captain America: The First Avenger (Bucky Barnes)

Captain America: The Winter Soldier (Bucky Barnes)

Antman (Background knowledge for Antman and The Wasp)-incredibly Optional

Captain America: Civil War (Bucky Barnes)

Black Widow (Yelena, Alexei Shostakov, Taskmaster, RedRoom, Valentina)

Black Panther (End Credits Bucky Barnes and background for Wakanda Forever)-Optional

Antman And The Wasp (Ghost)

Avengers: Infinity War (Bucky Barnes)

Avengers Endgame (Bucky Barnes)

What If…? (All of stated characters)-Optional but extremely recommended

Falcon and The Winter Soldier (Bucky Barnes, John Walker, Valentina, Supersoldiers)

Hawkeye (Yelena)

Wakanda: Forever (Valentina)

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Psychoanalyzing Alexei Shostakov (AKA. The Red Guardian)

So I am incredibly excited for Thunderbolts*! You haven’t the foggiest. I count the seconds down until I get to witness more of that masterpiece and all the lovely characters tied to it (We love to hate John Walker here). But I really want to focus on Alexei for a second. Because I need to know why he is the way he is, using all the information we’ve been given of him throughout the MCU (excluding Comics for a second here)

TW: Some pretty heavy feels and mentions of self hatred.

See, as much as I know it can be annoying that Alexei talks to much about being The Red Guardian, and is so obsessed with it~ but like. I don’t blame him.

Taking what we were given in What If Episode 3 Season 3: He was a nobody~ he didn’t have anything important about him growing up, but he was given an opportunity to become someone important, someone who could help and save others! So he took it and they made him Russia’s first and only Super Soldier. Most likely assuming he would get to go on liberating missions and become a hero, helping those in the same position he was once in(Perhaps he did for a period of time, because there are action figures of him and he did have a super suit). But you see wether on not he actually had hero days The Red Room grew tired of not being able to control him, so they took away his freedom without him knowing, pulling him away from the public eye, making him do bad things, that he didn’t know were bad because he never thought to hard about it (“Russia’s greatest Super Spy” not Hero, like he was promised) Alexei didn’t let himself think too hard about what he was doing, to justify it to himself.

And he was also a coward~ he was scared of what would happen to him if he went against The Red Room so he kept doing their dirty work.

Eventually they send him to a deep cover mission in Ohio and he becomes a nobody again~ Bob Toledo, Data input manager. And he hates it~ he wants to do things, speak up for what he believes in, save people, be a hero!(‘HE HAS SUPER POWERS FOR GOODNESS SAKE! WHY IS HE HERE WHEN HE COULD BE DOING SO MUCH MORE!?!’) And then once the mission is over, The Red Room decides that he is a liability and put him in prison~ where he rots away.

So of course he talks about his “Glory days” a lot~ he’s trying to convince himself that all the bad he did and all the bad that happened to him were worth it~ even though he knows it’s not and he hates himself for it.

And the thing is… it wasn’t worth it. I wasn’t worth it at all. Virtually no one knows he exists. Flacon and The Winter Soldier is all about Super Soldiers~ they talk about Steve and even Isaiah! But not once is Alexei mentioned. Most of America and its hero’s don’t know Russia had a Super Soldier.

Which brings me to my second point, that in order for him to heal and forgive himself he needs to come to terms with the fact that the Good he did does not outweigh the bad.

And I think the thing that will truly make Alexei understand that is shock for him being a super soldier. When Bucky or John is surprised by him exiting, it’s going to shatter his little heart because he will feel as though… everything he did good amounted to nothing. He is nothing. The people he hurt outweighs the people he helped.

But knowing that will help him heal and become a better person.

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NO ONE HAS EVER TAKEN THIS MAN TO DANCE!!!

Completely unacceptable. No one has even taught him how! Come here, beloved, let me teach you. Let your feet trample over my own, clumsy but determined like a newborn fawn. Look not at your feet, darling, look at me. I care not for your apologies, let us simply giggle and hold one another close. You’ll get the hang of this eventually, my love. For now let us clumsily dance in the living room while the record player sings slow songs. They aren’t quite waltzes, but they will do.

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I don’t believe in Hell or things of the like, but If I go to some place of evil at the end of this life, simply because I Loved, it will have been worth it.

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Realized I never posted this here hehe~

GO Final 15 according to Crowley (Tw: bl*od):

vs. The Final 15 according to Aziraphale:

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Please admire this incredibly remarkable, amazing Snow-Bear my beloved @lixxtheyapper created:

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Alexei and Bucky~

I love them so much and I CANNOT wait for Thunderbolts*!

bonus:

they hold hands <3

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Watched Marvel’s ‘What If…?’ Episode 3 Season 3

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Don’t you understand?

The more Love I give away, the more Love I have.

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Good Omens Ao3 wrapped is here! It's a bit of a long post but it goes quick:)

Drumroll please!!!

Shoutout to @feiandart for all her work on this piece!

But of course, there's more! It's been a long year for the fandom, and we all processed a lot of feelings about things. Here's how we coped:

Reminder that as a reader, your comments often mean the world to writers! Fandom is a community first and foremost<3

You can click here for a more in depth explanation of the math and the raw data! This assessment is pulled by hand from the Good Omens (TV) fandom category on Archive of Our Own.

Image credits: Unsplash free images for the art and Canva stock images. Image credits in order where available:

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Average adult reading rate as cited is 240 wpm found on ScienceDirect.

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