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I’m so fucking desperate to be loved and I always think that if I can get a guy with my body then I’ll be able to get him to love me. But im realizing that it just doesn’t work. Two different guys have ‘fallen’ for me after we have had sex then we started dating and they both ended up leaving me once I fell in love with them.

But I’ve learned; a guy will call you if he wants to call you, he will take you on dates if he wants to, he will talk to you whenever he can about stuff other than sex if he wants to. If a man is in love with you he will make an effort to be with you and spend time with you. Make you happy.

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🩷🤍🩷

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“Stories are for eternity, when memory is erased, when there is nothing to remember except the story.”

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The guy I’m with said he likes fluffy girls… am I cooked??? What does fluffy even mean

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Is it weird that I actually really miss when I was super deep into my 3d. I miss the community, the passion, striving to be better. there was something so comforting about it idk

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I don't know how to not be sad

Ive realized I have lived in this state of sadness and melancholy for so many years and at such an impressionable age that I don't know how to change or even if I want to change to be happy. Thats terrifying. Imagining that I will be in this state for the rest of my life is so scary but I might be more afraid of what it is like to not be like this. This is the most lost and confused I have ever been. I don't know what to do.

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Blogging??

Guys how do I start blogging, I really wanna start cause I really do not do anything with my life and I'm so bored.

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does anyone know of any discord servers for eds? I deleted discord a while back and lost all of the ones i had :(

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I need this.

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I’ve missed this website so much

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I’m backkk!!!

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Shout out to my dad for keeping me on track to losing weight! He just always has something to say about my body! 😂

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Guys im changing my mind. Im not recovering bc i need my arms thinner. I just saw a picture of how thin my arms were and i need that again.

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Im starting getting back into fasting cause i saw what j lookrd like when i wasnt eating and it was gorgeous😂😂 im so unbelievably disgusted with my body now i have to fix it!!