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unhinged and caffeinated

happy thursday

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That moment when you come out of an unhinged spiral (anxiety/depression/whoknows) where you barely slept and could get nothing done

She lasted several weeks. we don't know her.

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My greatest fear in every drive-thru window.

The girl next to me on the treadmill at the gym is reading ao3 like I wouldn’t recognize that font twenty miles away and half blind

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i love fictional murder couples so so much because they're always like sorry nothing personal but i have to blow up your house and stab you to impress my evil wife

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my partner's face as i talk about a problem with the plot for an hour and a half until figure out how to fix it

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i'm in this photo and i'm tired

go to sleep 

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edit.insomnia.exe

yo-yo - let's outline a book

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More Hamilton thoughts

This is so fucking RAW man.

"Moments when you're in so deep, it seems easier to just swim down"

Just, god. That hits so fucking HARD to my little depressed, traumatized ass.

jesus, I'm definitely watching like at least one more time tonight. sleep is for losers.

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Watching Hamilton and....

Uhhhhhh, so I'm back on my Hannibal shit and I was watching Hamilton and.....

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Things I said while watching Fruits Basket Final Season Episode 8 with my sister

- Oh god here it comes, fml, I'm not ready!

- Intro is STILL dtf

- Solid Kyo trauma

- FUCK Kyo's dad, just, fuck him

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Me: You know, the AU we need? Kyoko never dies but she does end up meeting Shishou and they fall in love and adopt all the tortured Sohma kids in the neighborhood. Kyo and Tohru don't even have to get together, I mean they can I guess, but it's odd, maybe she ends up falling in love with Momiji if they don't end up adopting him too, because they would, you know they would, that poor little bastard. Anyway, so then the next thing that happens is that the car ended up swerving and somehow killing Kyo's dad,

My sister: Jesus.

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- There goes Yuki being a bad creeper, dude we can see you in the doorway

- Oh god Kyo, just, just, just!

- You go fix it Yuki! You go be a good person! Fuck yes, solid Yuki moment

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*Akito staggers onto the screen* Me: Oh look here she comes, the face of instability herself.

Also Me: Hey, you know, the real villain of this story is that crazy maid. Poor fucking Akito, she literally never had a chance.

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Fruits Basket rant

As a reader of the Manga I am hoping they did not skip out on the most wonderful side-story with Machi and Kakeru and Yuki. If you are an anime-only baby, just sidestep to chapter 110 of the manga and do yourself a favor.

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Fruits Basket

The new fruits basket opening theme is DTF.

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does anyone else kinda love writing super wealthy characters, not because you don’t get the struggles of being poor, bc that’s all I know, but really I just don’t want to languish in them? 

I don’t enjoy writing about that helpless feeling when you’re looking at the money in your account and the cost of something you NEED, not want, but NEED and they don’t match. 

Like, i get that through struggle there is strength and all that, but fml, sometimes i cannot stand to write another character that feels so much like me. idk. 

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Things all writers agree on

1. fuck an intro

2. seriously, unless it comes to you right away it’s going to take twice as long as every other part of the thing you’re writing

3. save that fucker for last 

4. even when it’s good you hate it

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Random

My therapist: Let’s pay attention to our emotions this next week before the appointment. See if you notice any patterns or things that activate you. 

Me the still overachieving child: okay, I will do that, that’s homework and I will do it. 

My brain:  

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Ever feel like two people?

Not in like a DID way, no disrespect, I mean like you’re two separate versions of yourself at the same time? Not two distinct personalities necessarily, but sort of? It’s so hard to explain. 

The introverted version of me, the extroverted version of me, my wants and desires that are conflicting existing all at once and making it so hard to know what I actually want. I am not explaining this well. 

I think all people have some conflicting feelings/wants/needs, this is more of an overwhelming feeling that stretches over all the BIG parts of myself. Like all my big pieces, if that makes sense?

Idk, maybe this is not a thing? gonna talk to the therapist about it. Probably going to lump it in with the other #TRAUMA symptoms.

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Im starting Stardew Valley. Heres my thoughts so far.

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Were going wildnerness farm fuck it!

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Omfg gpa this is dark. Wtf.

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im getting flashbacks to my time in the call center omg.

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Lewis is precious and must be protected at all costs.

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Wait wtf gpa i thought u were dead what do you mean your return?

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Fuck you Morris.