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“My Mind is a Million Pieces” - original art by Kat E 🫥

“My mind is so filled with otherness that I can’t seem to remember much else. The reality I live in glides and ebbs, moving at a slower pace than the world in which we exist. Why can’t I fit myself, as a puzzle piece, into this strange realm of existence?”

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Imagine, can’t you see it? The beginning of everything. Nothingness, darkness, an empty space of possibility. And then what happened, can picture it now? The void became an opportunity. It’s important to remember that it didn’t happen all at once. That is the human in us to forget that these things take time. We always want perfection to exist now, to be instant. But it’s a process, a curve, a journey.

And just look around now. Do you see the wonderful things we have been given because of how patient we were? The wind rustling through the green grasses, sun shining on the clear water as it laps at the warm, soft sand of land. The trees that grew from the Earth, the abundance of fauna and flora, all existing in this vacuum as we glide through time on a massive rock. To think, we’ve come this far in our existence.

But you must not forget, as many of us do, it’s quite possibly only the beginning. There is so much we have to do, things we can accomplish, places we can go and lives we can change. And then, maybe then, you’ll see where we are going and what the end looks like. Oh but isn’t that the irony of time; for like celestial clockwork, we are the music of the universe as our concluding notes become a new song.

We are everything, and nothing, and to exist is the absolute best gift we have ever been given.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, Oblivion of Our Humanity, 2024

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You can learn quite a bit about what is going on in someone’s head. You just have to stop and listen. It’s so important to listen when someone, someone you love is talking. Be present, see the way they crinkle their nose and smile awkwardly. See their gestures, facial expressions, and body language. By existing in a space with them and absorbing their actions and how they present themselves, you’d be surprised what you learn. And just watch how much your feelings turn to love, and appreciation.

Loving is amazing; endearment, adoration, gentleness, caring for a person or being so entirely with a ferocity that is endless. I could love a thousand people a million different ways and never stop learning who that soul is and what their beauty lies in.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, Listen, 2024

Mihaïl Zablodsky

"The Fatigue"

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Your soul knows. It will tell you when it's time to distance yourself from those who no longer align with you mentally, emotionally, physically, or energetically.

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i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

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It feels like every day I’m getting closer and closer to translating the pieces of my brain into a fully formed picture. I want you to see it. I want you all to see it.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, lost and found, 2024

William Vanderson. Platform at Blackfriars Southern Railway station covered in thick white frost. London. 1946

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She felt overwhelmed at that moment. The overflowing love and warmth in her body coated her being in a sense of joy and happiness. It was as if the moment he pulled her back to his body, she knew he would never let her go. He pulled her back and kissed her, deeply. A kiss that conveyed more than words could in that moment.

It was odd, she always felt that words could say more than most other things. Words could bring reality to the pain she felt, to the hurt she endured. But this was different, this feeling was unlike any she had ever experienced with anyone ever. It was new, frighteningly safe, and overwhelmingly warm; a comfort in a person she had never known until now. A safe space in someone she had felt long ago was familiar, and never really got to know until about two and a half years ago.

The love and endearment she felt towards this person, it was amazingly clear, sound. She understood this person as well as she understood the back of her hand; and she stared deeply in his eyes every morning and evening. To love another soul so deeply was risky and vulnerable. But that’s the thing right? When you fall, there’s no coming back. You only have down to go, and once you are at the bottom, you are either alone and wondering how to move forward in the darkness; or cushioned by a soft embrace, one that is never to be experienced again in this life or another.

“To the one who takes my soul, forever yours”, by Kat E🫥

“Latina”, 2018 by Norman Engel

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“Eternal Ties” - original art by Kat E 🫥

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“Monster’s Web” - original art by Kat E 🫥

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Last night I had a revelation. I saw it all, the way I am, the reason for my existence. I am the link, between the universe in which we are and the future that we could be. I see everything; the beginnings, the ends, the space where nothing exists and the future that lies ahead. I see the possibilities, both good and bad, the reason for everything and anything. I am the connection between these two ethers of reality.

My struggle lies in the inability to translate what I know into an idea that people can see and understand. I know I am a link between these planes of existence and the branches that connect these worlds, but I can’t even begin to fathom how I can utilize this tool I’ve been given.

Where should I put my energy? Is it art, music, writing, a creative outlet? Is it science, math, physics, the study of the world around? Should I help people, use my empathy for the good of the world? How do I know where to put my strength to allow the world to see the things I see?

-Excerpts From My Stupid Brain, Revelation in E minor, 2024

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The idea of juxtaposition, that is what makes me curious and want to be alive. The idea of life and death, opposing things always in a balance. The yin and yang of existence. All things in life have another side to the coin, each apart of the other. It’s beautiful, and haunting, and lovely, and sad, and mad and crazy. Everything in life is amazing if you experience it the way it’s meant to be lived.

But that’s also so scary. To always be taking a risk in being alive, for your abundant joy could easily crack and make room for maddening unhappiness.

The balance of these things; these emotions are the tricky part of it all. And when your brain is so in tuned with the emotions of others, how can you possibly navigate your own head.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, Quips & Musings, 2024

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God doesn’t exist. Because, if he did, he wouldn’t let us live in this unfortunate existence that we live in.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, what God(s)?, 2024

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"is this too cliche?" who cares? bro, write what you have fun writing. stuff your manuscript full of your favourite tropes. the same themes you love. all inspired by things you grew up with. do it all. go off. load. it. up. be freeeee

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Feeling existential dread lately but trying to remember my soul lives forever in my love for others. I am a water source in a wasteland, life in death.

At least, that’s what I tell myself.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, Decomposed, 2024

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Learned this the hardest way possible in the past two years. It’s okay to let go of people who don’t support your growth.

“Accept the fact that you will grow apart from people you’ve had significant relationships with. Understand when someone no longer positively affects your life. Let them go. Don’t hinder your growth.”

— Lyjeeria