moonsydracoryf

[moonsydracoryf]

Reminder to anti-endos that pro-endo and endogenic blogs are not for you.

If you want your asks to be included on a blog so badly, chances are, there's already a anti-endo version.

Get the fuck out of our spaces.

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when ur sysmates are watching your daydreams in the background and you finally notice them;

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i made my character a human fighter who’s a housewife/empty nester seeking adventure and wholesome fantasy violence after discovering that her husband is having an affair

is this……

is this how you dungeons 

is this how you dragons

[moonsydracoryf]

Thank you, @isuggestplural

For saying those words that changed our life:

"There's never anything wrong with looking at yourself with a plural lens"

I can't find the exact post, maybe we paraphrased it in our mind.

But was the last push we needed. I don't know if words can express how much joy our systemhood has brought us. I love my headmates, I love how much they've helped me, how much we've helped each other. I love them all. We are companions closer than flesh. I'm so glad to know them. And I will carry on the mission that brought me to them.

So, dear reader(s), try it! Talk to yourself, love yourselves, name your 'parts'. Write notes, delegate tasks, talk to a trusted friend about it if you can. You are hurting no-one by thinking of yourself as plural. If it helps you to identify that way, then do it. When I worry we're faking, or that I'm not really plural, I think "if I wasn't plural, what would I be? A person who hears other voices in her head and works with them to live our life/lives together? I think there's a word for that." So, go for it. You have nothing to lose by learning who you really are. Look through that lens, and maybe, things will look clearer than they ever have before. Whatever truth you discover, we want you to know: you are not alone.

[moonsydracoryf]

You are not a fake system because you can't hear your alters, most of us can't! Most people with DID have very limited communication between alters in general.

You are not a fake system because you don't know your headcount, or you don't know your alters names. That can take years! For some people, they need a long time in treatment to even get that ball rolling.

You are not a fake system because you don't know what other alters are doing. You don't need to know who dressed you this morning or who bought the food you're allergic to, high amnesia is normal.

Don't feel like any less of a system because of expectations set by the internet. You don't need to present the same way as people on the internet. The presentation of DID on the internet can be pretty atypical, so don't spend your time comparing.

[moonsydracoryf]

what if we just started treating fakeclaimers like creepy old men. how about that.

like helloooo why are you trying to figure out if bad things happened to me as a child??? why do you want to know about the results of how my childhood affected me???? ummmm that's kinda weird ngl.

[moonsydracoryf]

Frequently Asked In-System Questions #10

"Why? Did you just say that to her?"

"Fellas, what in the fuck has just stumbled out of our mouth?"

"Whomst the fucketh hath the control over the speaking hole just now?!"

[moonsydracoryf]

Before I got professional help from a DID specialist, I was a very violently anti-endo sysmed. Ironically, pursuing help and taking my medication regularly helped me open up to the idea of non-traumagenic systems.

Before I had access to professional help, I was angry at the world. I was angry at the doctors for not accepting my insurance even though I so desperately needed their help, and I was angry at the endogenics for seemingly getting the "easy" and "fun" parts of my disorder. It was insecurity. I blamed them for how people outside of the community treated me, I blamed them for making us look bad.

I held out hope for the definitive "medical truth" to validate me, I wanted someone to look at me and say:

"I know EXACTLY what is wrong with you, and I can fix you."

But sadly that was just a dream. After cycling through a handful of specialists and settling on my current one, I realized they're learning from me as much as I'm learning from them. Every single specialist had a wildly different definition of what DID looks like, and even is. What it's caused by, and what it's not. Some specialists were open to the idea of endogenic systems existing, some were not.

DID/OSDD medical information is a footnote in a medical textbook. So many of the terms that diagnosed traumagenics use are not decided upon by a medical consensus. Even the specialists are extrapolating heavily based on the very limited information there is about this disorder.

That's when it hit me.

The doctors don't know shit. The community dosent know shit. So damn it all to hell I don't care anymore.

Traumagenic and Endogenic systems are in the same boat. We are all still discovering what it even means to be plural. There's no set definition, even within the sysmed community. So why are we so desperately trying to invalidate each other's experiences just to try to convince others, and ourselves, that our lived experiences are real?

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being friends w systems is nuts cuz youll have a guy in the friend group that goes away for a bit and comes back like "i got out of the nightmare loop" or "sorry i was gone i got put in the torment nexus" and its not even an exaggeration they really were in the nightmare loop or the torment nexus for a week and are forced to be normal about it

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say hi to salp / salad or he’ll bite off your fingers

[moonsydracoryf]

ISSUE HAVER．   ➷

pt: issue haver. end pt.

DEFINITION ⠀✦⠀ a flag for when you have fucking issues. can be a joke flag, but if you want to use it genuinely, feel free to; let it be known that this flag was given to me in some fuckass prophetic vision.

pt: definition, a flag for when you have fucking issues. can be a joke flag, but if you want to use it genuinely, feel free to; let it be known that this flag was given to me in some fuckass prophetic vision. end pt.

TAGS．  @radiomogai @sevvys @angeltism @zoeynovie @boingogender @knwight @pupcoins @monarchenwinter @the-astropaws @flutteringwings-coining @acronym-chaos @idwl @catboy-autism @hysangel @fangpunk @somniabyte．  ➷

[moonsydracoryf]

Because TikTok does not work in the US anymore as of today and we've heard tell of what systok was like, just gonna bring these back for a sec..

[moonsydracoryf]

I feel like Honeycomb has been around for a long time.

I feel like they first came out while our father was hitting us, so maybe we're mixed origin?

[moonsydracoryf]

Intupsychhorror

(intu(sui) psych(ological) horror)

an intusui term for when one's internal selfs can be best described though the concepts of psychological horror. This can go under multiple intusui umbrellas.

inspired by @the-silent-fellowship 's terms.

0 1 . — @kiruliom (testing if u like psychological horror), @khaenriahplurals, @boingogender, @monarchenwinter, @rwuffles

0 2 . — @radiomogai, @intusui, @horrormogai

[moonsydracoryf]

Being pro-paraphilia, to me at least, isn’t about encouraging people to become pedophiles or zoophiles (not that I even think that’s possible), nor supporting abuse, nor is it about supporting the idea that all paraphiles need therapy and should aim to get rid of their paraphilias. It’s about being against shame and self-hate and repression.

I think paraphiles should definitely get therapy if they need it, for example if they feel they’ll harm someone, but not every paraphile needs therapy. Anyone with any paraphilia, yes even the bad scary ones, can know that abuse is wrong.

And paraphiles shouldn’t be forced to keep their fantasies or attractions private. There is no getting rid of paraphilias, there’s only repression. I support paraphiles being able to be open about their attraction to get help if they need to. If a pedophile feels like they’re going to harm children but feels like they cannot be open about it, they may not be able to get the help they need.

I also support paraphiles being able to be open just because. Hiding a part of yourself can be horrible and isolating, especially if the part you’re hiding is important to you or is a big part of who you are.

Being pro-paraphilia doesn’t automatically mean being pro-abuse. And telling paraphiles that they should be ashamed and hide or ‘get rid of’ their attractions is not the great help you think it is. Repressing paraphilias doesn’t make them go away and doesn’t make you any less likely to harm anyone. Accept them and learn how to live with them.

[moonsydracoryf]

facagenic

[pt: facagenic /end pt]

A headmate or system that formed from a facade or created persona. This can be any kind of persona, false front, fake personality, character that was created to be played in certain situations, etc and can be used for any reason.

Its role equivalent is facade.

[flag id: a rectangular flag with 5 wavy stripes and a pair of comedy masks as a symbol. the stripes are dark purple, purple and light purple and mirror at the center. the comedy masks are an even darker purple with the same light purple as a border. on the top and bottom there is a simple lace pattern that is the same dark purple as the masks. /end id]

[disclaimer p1 id: flaming text on a transparent background that reads "NO FUCKING SYSCOURSE" in all caps /end id]

[disclaimer p2 id: flaming text on a transparent background that reads "ON MY POSTS" in all caps /end id]