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nicospen · 3 months ago

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Traitor.

Pairing: Dazai Osamu x Nakahara Chuuya (soukoku)

Mischaracterization!!

cw: blood, slight angst, swearing, mentions of suicide

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Chuuya sighed deeply. He gritted his teeth as sweat and blood dripped onto the cave's floor cold floor. Chuuya pressed on his wounds to stop the bleeding. He closed his eyes as the warm liquid seeped through his fingers.

His stab wound stung, but it didn't hurt as much as the lingering betrayal in his heart. Everything Shirase said was far more painful than anything. It hurt because it was the harsh truth.

“You had no family before the Sheep took you in, Chuuya!” Shirase had yelled at Chuuya.

The look on their faces, the look of coldness in their eyes...

“Chuuya,” Dazai called out to him.

Chuuya slowly opened his eyes, the metallic scent of his own blood invaded his nose.

“What are you doing here, Osamu?” Chuuya spat out like Dazai's name was a curse.

The ginger shifted his position, shifting to a more comfortable pose. He pressed down harder on his wound, teeth grit and eyes bloodshot.

“Since when were we close enough for you to call me by my first name?” Dazai asked, but he had to admit it was refreshing to hear someone call him by his first name.

“Tsk,” Chuuya clicked his tongue.

Chuuya raised his head to look at Dazai. Slowly, he opened his eyes and stared at the boy before him. Skinny, pale, dark clothes, partially sunken eyes, and lifeless eyes.

Lifeless as ever, Chuuya thought bitterly.

“Answer my question you prick!” Chuuya demanded.

“I came to get you, Chuuya.” Dazai stated before smiling. “I can't let my dog wander astray now, can I?”

“Damn you...” Chuuya muttered. “You emo kid.”

Chuuya winced as his wound started to throb once more.

“You're a kid too, and shorter than me at that.”

“Shut it.”

“Dazai,” a voice called out— it was Odasaku. He stood behind Dazai. He snatched a med kit from one of the members and rushed towards Chuuya, med kit in hand. “Don't bully him now. He's still injured.”

Chuuya now stood awkwardly in front of the Armed Detective Agency, or ADA for short. He stood behind Sakunosuke Odasaku, a former Port Mafia (PM) member who defected to ADA. And of course, his defection came with another member, Nakahara Chuuya.

During the past days, some sort of “initiation” test had been inflicted upon him, and it really gave him a fright. Though the others did apologize to him afterwards (he's traumatized).

“Nakahara-san, Odasaku-san.” Kunikida called out for them.

“Er... Kunikida, right?” Chuuya asked.

“Mn,” Kunikida agreed. Kunikida took a deep breath and launched a tirade of scolding. “Nakahara-san it's your first day on the job and you're already late. I'll let it slide because it's your first day. And you, Odasaku-san.”

Chuuya paid the blond no mind. Kunikida was like a wife. He was uptight and always nagging. He stood there silently watching Kunikida nag.

“Oh! Looks like mister fancy hat passed the test!” Kenji squealed as he rushed towards the ginger. “Hey, mister. Do you want to go cow riding with me? It's really fun! All you have to do is—”

It's overwhelming, Chuuya thought. A nice kind of overwhelming. It was a nicer feeling than the things he experienced in the mafia. This reminded him of all those years ago with the flags, his first real friends per se.

Chuuya chuckled as he looked upon the situation he was in now. It was such a domesticated scene. One he would have never thought of happening in his whole life.

For the first time ever he felt relaxed, content, and this unexplainable warmth he was feeling.

Odasaku stared at Chuuya, his expression softening ever so slightly.

“Beautiful, isn't it?” Odasaku smiled at Chuuya. “Was it worth it defecting with me? I mean becoming a traitor?”

Chuuya nodded before answering,

“I would have never expected a scene like this if I was still in the mafia.”

To be frank, he did experience a scene like this at least once in his mafia days.

It was with the flags.

Back then, he was too depressed to notice. Too focused on his work to see that he should have spent every single second with them.

The past is the past, Chuuya thought. Besides, I at least found more friends to fight beside with.

Kunikida led Chuuya to his desk while he was in deep thought. He made Chuuya sat down before dropping a stack of papers in front of him.

“Huh? Uh?” He looked up at Kunikida then looked at the papers before him.

“You can read, right Nakahara-san?” Kunikida asked as he adjusted his glasses.

“Yes, I can. Just call me Chuuya, and my old job also required me to read—”

“Good.” Kunikida cut him off. “Since you're new, all you have to do is sort these out, for now.”

Chuuya stared at the stack of paper before him. He started crying inside. If there was one thing that never changed between working in ADA and PM, it was the absurdly huge amounts of paperwork.

He turned to Odasaku, who was sat beside him doing paperwork as well.

“Odasaku-san, do you ever wonder how Dazai's doing?” Chuuya muttered.

“Oh? Hm... Osamu eh?”

Odasaku pondered for a bit before shaking his head.

“Don't even think about it.”

To Chuuya, Dazai had always been a thought that was often stuck at the back of his head. Even though Dazai manipulated his friends to turn on him, he knew Dazai probably had his reasons.

He didn't know Dazai for long, but at least he liked to think he knew what Dazai was thinking.

He remembered the way Dazai's face drained of color when he confided his departure of the mafia to him. The way the faint light in Dazai's eyes disappeared.

Before leaving, the two even argued which led to some hurtful things spilling out of each other's mouth, and a few physical altercations.

“How would you know?!” Chuuya demanded. “You don't even feel human emotions!”

Dazai was unfazed. He grabbed Chuuya's wrist and muttered, “don't leave me here, Nakahara. You have to stay with me. You can't leave me here. Shoot me instead, Nakahara.”

“No. I already made up my mind.”

“You claim that I don't feel human emotions, then what are you? You aren't human as well. You're nothing more than a shell of a human. A vessel for the chaos inside you.”

Chuuya grit his teeth before punching Dazai in the face. He stared at Dazai who was on the floor with a broken lip. He turned around and walked away. He left without ever looking back.

a/n: This is only part 1 of this stupid ass fan fiction. I'll write part 2 when I have the energy and inspiration.

Tbh I was planning to make this only a one part fanfiction but im already posting ts because im too lazy to write the continuation. SO I'LL WRITE PT.2 SOON (POSSIBLY)

BUT LIKE SKK FANFICTION with barely any skk😍😍

First / Next

#soukoku #bsd skk #skk #dazai x chuuya #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd #fanfiction #fanfic #your honor they're gay! i say as i get dragged to the asylum #wtf did i write #ADA!chuuya #i need sleep #PM!Dazai #did not proofread

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nicospen · 4 months ago

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Shinya's Mistake

Pairing: Guren Ichinose x Shinya Hiiragi fanfic.

cw: angst, slight mention of unrequited love

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"I am willing to drown myself in power to save you."

The last words that damn Ichinose uttered before Shinya blacked out. He hated this. He hated himself.

He hated Guren.

He doesn't understand what Guren just said. It didn't make sense in the slightest. Just what the hell does Guren want? What did he want to achieve? One second ago he was stopping Shinya from interfering with the Seraph (Kimizuki's sister) and the next he was trying to revive the world once more.

Confusing, Shinya thought.

Guren was confusing. Shinya didn't understand how Guren thinks and acts, which makes it more infuriating! Guren was a mystery to Shinya. Back then, Shinya thought he understood Guren the most, but now it seemed like the more he tried to understand Guren, the less he understood about him.

Oh how he missed the days when they were just mere highschool students, fighting and bickering per usual. The days he understood the familiar but unfamiliar man.

Shinya opened his eyes and sat up. His eyes widening slightly. His breathing quickened as a familiar place emerged before him. The highschool he used to go to before the whole situation happened.

"Byakkomaru," Shinya called out as he looked at the scene before him— the first time he saw Guren. "Stop playing games with me. We have to get back to—"

To what? Guren? Yuuichiro and the others? If maybe, just maybe...

No.

Honestly, he had to admit, back then,Shinya did not really care about Guren. He was merely curious of the type of person Mahiru would fall in love with. Especially since Mahiru did say Guren Ichinose was the person she loved, not him. Not Shinya.

So what if he took a little peep (and maybe somewhat test his strength...) at Guren? Maybe a few talismans here and there— but still! Guren came out of that brawl semi-okay. And, it built a solid bond with the two.

It was as if they were meant to meet, to be together.

No. Get your head out of the clouds! Shinya thought.

The scene suddenly changed. Shinya was suddenly somewhere else. He watched as 16 year old Shinya talk to someone on the phone.

Isn't this...

It was that night, the night when Guren called Shinya that he had sex with Mahiru.

Byakkomaru suddenly appeared before him. Shinya just smiled before the demon. His signature and cool smile.

"Byakko," Shinya said, the nickname casually rolling off his tongue. "Why are you showing me this?"

Byakkomaru sighed.

"Shinya," Byakkomaru called out. "Do you not feel an ounce of hatred towards Ichinose? That night, you did not show any hatred... Instead you felt pity."

"Ha!" Shinya exclaimed. "Pity? Why would I pity him?"

"No, Shinya. You do not pity him. You pitied yourself. You pitied yourself endlessly."

Shinya bit his lip, not wanting to listen to what the actual fuck this damned tiger demon was saying.

"Why would I do that to myself?" Shinya asked, smiling.

"Did you not ask yourself? 'Why her? Why not me?'" Byakkomaru stated.

Byakkomaru was right after all. Once Guren ended the call, Shinya stayed awake, asking himself question after question.

Shinya chuckled to himself before saying, "Byakkomaru, you misunderstand me. I'm not the type of person to..."

"I suppose you would not mind if I took over your body and kill Ichinose?"

"That's a different thing now. I consider Guren as family and—"

"Do you feel the same for Norito Goshi and the others?" Byakkomaru asked.

"Yes I do, but—"

"Shinya. You and I are connect in both mind and soul. I know what you feel for that bastard."

Shinya sighed, but maintained his smile.

"You already knew," Shinya said. "And you ask me such questions."

Shinya smiled and looked at the ceiling, before it changed into a scene where rain was falling. Although it was only a part of the demon's ability, it seemed real. All of the memories he refused to remember, all of the things he forced to lock away deep inside him.

It all came crashing back.

"You loved him did you not?"

"No. I love him." Shinya corrected. "Quite stupid of me, right? Falling in love with someone like him... But he's the only one I have left. I understand why Mahiru fell for him..."

Shinya turned to Byakkomaru with a sad smile.

"I made a lot of mistakes in the past. A lot I have learned from. But Guren? He's like a drug. A drug I can't get enough of. I want his affection. I wanted to be his everything. I wanted to be his need. Like how he is the air I breathe, the water I drink..."

He laughed at himself for feeling this way. For being pathetic. For falling in love with someone he can't have.

"Foolish, am I right? Out of all the mistakes I have committed... Loving him was my greatest mistake. A mistake I refuse to learn from."

Back in the real world. Guren glanced at an unconscious Shinya, blissfully unaware of the turmoil happening within Shinya.

Guren lowered his lashes and wiped away at a stray tear that fell from the corner of Shinya's eye.

"Get up soon, m'kay? I'll guard you while you rest." Guren muttered.

a/n: GAH I'VE FINALLY FINISH IT. this shi was so complicated to write since i had to check ONS chapters over and over again😔🙏. Ik im bad at writing but like i finally finished my first ever fic!!! (⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠)

#gurenshin #shingure #guren ichinose #guren x shinya #shinya hiiragi #owari no seraph #seraph of the end #fanfiction #i wrote something #i need sleep #protective byakkomaru #angst #wtf did i write #your honor they're gay! i say as i get dragged to the asylum

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nicospen · 4 months ago

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Shin Soukoku (bsd) hcs (where they live together)

Pairing: Ryunosuke Akutagawa x Atsushi Nakajima

cw: js hcs tbh

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Atsushi fought hard with Gin just to get Akutagawa's coat.

Gin: I'm his sister!

Jinko: stfu its mine now.

When Akutagawa visits Atsushi's dorm/apartment, he doesn't use the door. He uses the fucking window, and holds onto the wall with his ability.

Atsushi always makes sure to have tea for Akutagawa to drink.

Atsushi accompanies Akutagawa to the doctor to get Akutagawa's cough checked out.

Atsushi makes sure to have water beside their bed in case Akutagawa wakes up at night and needs water. (He probably tripped on sumn before thats why Ass sushi takes better care of him.)

They know about each others pasts but won't bring it up to each other.

Atsushi wakes up every time Akutagawa coughs at night because he once caught Akutagawa coughing up blood.

Atsushi makes sure to stay at least ten minutes every time Akutagawa coughs.

Atsushi always leaves medicine in Akutagawa's coat. Always with a little note like: "makes sure u don't forget to drink these. love uฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ"

#shin soukoku #bsd #bongou stray dogs #bsd atsushi #bsd akutagawa #bsd skk #skk #atsushi x akutagawa #your honor they're gay! i say as i get dragged to the asylum #cough man x fury

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nicospen · 4 months ago

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Soukoku (BSD) hcs

Pairing: Dazai Osamu x Nakahara Chuuya

cw: stormbringer spoilers, lab rat chuuya mentioned

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Before stormbringer, Dazai would constantly remind the flags to remind Chuuya to eat with the excuse; "I don't want my dog to starve to death now, do I?" (Ofc the flags wouldn't let Chuuya starve, so they still remind him regardless of Dazai's yapping.)

Chuuya never teases Dazai, that he (Dazai) once lived in a shipping container.

Dazai never lets anyone call Chuuya A5158 or A258.

Dazai hates the fact that Ango calls Chuuya “A5158”.

When either of the 2 cook for each other they both put what the other hates. (One eats with a smirk while the other eats with a scowl.)

Dazai and Chuuya always retaliate to each others pranks/teasing. (Except when Dazai blew up Chuuya's car lmao💀).

Chuuya probably still laughs with Dazai when he breaks into his house (as a joke) and then remembers he's not the mafia Dazai anymore and has to be nonchalant about ts, acting like he didn't just act casual with the effing enemy who blew up his car.

Whenever Dazai sees Chuuya use corruption, he becomes lovestruck. Often thinking that Chuuya is an angel even though Chuuya thinks he's at his ugliest form.

After reuniting, Chuuya and Dazai go at least once a week to the arcade, or maybe have lunch together.

When Chuuya got introduced to Yosano, Dazai will often get calls from Yosano saying that Chuuya was drunk and needed to get picked up. Dazai would most likely respond: "just leave him there lil bro, he can find his way home." But he still ends up picking up Chuuya.

#soukoku #bungou stray dogs dazai #dazai x chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bungou stray dogs chuuya #chuuya nakahara #bongou stray dogs #double black #headcanon #i did this instead of sleeping #i dunno #your honor they're gay! i say as i get dragged to the asylum

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