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Why did i quit university?

You may see this not convincing reasons but to me it’s very contented.

After high school we all want to follow and chase our dreams that we thought we want to be in future. Some are feeling very lost and have no passion, they only want to attend university and take a major that they don’t really care about, because all they want is to follow the RULES OF LIFE.

They start to feel bad and not comfortable because if they didn't do the registration for attending a university or college they may feel shame and they're unwanted. And these thoughts are absolutely WRONG.

Now the reasons why i quit university is not because i have no dreams and passion or that i was lost, yes i felt lost but not during high school because i had a lot of dreams to follow! I found out that i love art, fashion design and i wanted to be a fashion designer then i was like i want to study media because i like taking photos, i want to be a photographer then oh wait! I do love criminal law because i keep watching law series and TV shows related to criminal law.

I attended the best university in my country, they accepted me and i was very happy, my friends keep calling me our future lawyer, my family kept telling me law is not for you it’s very hard and you can't do it! i felt angry and i wanted to challenge them and show them that i can! i was wrong because i didn’t think of myself if it’s really me? do i really belong to this major? is it the right decision?

During that time my head was busy thinking and questioning if it’s the right path. I got the answer after my final exams when i got my grades. Of course not the grades that i wished for,  i got three F’s and yes i got little shocked but i knew that i won’t be able to continue with this major plus i was happy at the same time because i was very close to answer a lot of questions on my head.

I am not a loser and it’s my first time i decide for something like that, related to my future and studies! it was the best decision ever! to QUIT UNIVERSITY. I am not against studying because i love knowledge and it’s essential thing to us it’s how we feed our brain and soul.

FOCUS ON MY HOBBIES.

A 24 years old lady, who just started to chase her dreams now, who just started to live her life the way she want. She don’t want to waste her time not doing what she love in life! LIFE IS SO SHORT.

WRITING.

I won’t wait till i finish studying to start writing my books! Writing also is a job, people won’t say “ Oh we won’t read her books she’s a loser, she quit university ”.

I know a lot of people they're studying and at the same time practicing their hobbies, cheers for those people because they're really lucky. For me it was hard and i’m not that type of creature who’ll study anything just to get a certification and get the best job or making a lot of money. I found out what do i really want to give and get from this universe. Something deeper than STUDYING. because when you spend more time with yourself asking what do you want to get and give you’ll easy find the answer.

Mine is to find and give peace, to be spiritual creature and understand deep and important things it could be “ self taught ” and that’s what i prefer. you may say that i’m crazy because i’m not interested in getting a certification from a university but yeah that’s WHO I AM NOW.

To write and never stop, to plant my own yard, have a house “ separated one ” , to be an artist to study every single thing by myself and to learn from life.

Everything i did in the past, what i’m doing now in present and what'll do in future i will never regret because they're all experiences and i’m so proud of myself that i’m learning from my past and mistakes, that i’m not listening to others but listening to my soul needs and doing what i see right for me because no one is going to live my life.

Most of students when they graduate they don’t get a job that related to their major they only want to get a job thats it! and i don't want to follow this path, i create my own rules to follow not to follow the rules of life.

Quitting university gave me the chance to know myself, to find my path and where i do belong. So the idea of it not always bad and negative.. to me it’s super positive and i’m living happily, my mind is healthier than it used to be.

THE REASON WHY I DECIDED TO WRITE THIS.

It wasn't easy to write about this, it’s too personal to me and i used to feel embarrassed and i always run away from the question of “ Why did you quit university or why you don’t want to study ” people see that my reasons are not really enough to quit and that i’m on my wrong path. But i found out that i’m too brave to take this huge decision.

Today i was watching one of my fav youtubers “ Harmony Nice ” 
she was saying that she's not planning to go to university or college instead she's taking YouTube as a job. Also she mentioned jobs other than YouTube like gardener or florist because she like plants and to own her own shop or business.

Because she was saying this confidently about not planning to go to university here i really felt that i should be brave & say it proudly. Yes thats the reason why i’m writing this now.

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A Number To Remember

Under the stress during your day and the illusion you're living in, have you separated your soul from this world and think once about “ what are those simple things that can make me happy? ”

I got a technique that'll help you to find new hidden things in you. what’s your favorite number? Think of it and if you don’t have any don’t worry you can still choose your birthday “ the month or date ” Or you can think of number that you really feel a strong connection with it! For example: a number that your eyes catch every time and everywhere! specially when you check the time on your phone, you sometimes catch numbers every time you look into the phone such as 11:11 you'll be choosing number 11! or any other numbers. It could be number that you keep hearing somewhere.

After choosing the number, plan every month on that date to do something special! It could be experiences, new things to do or something you like and enjoy doing. One of my fav numbers is Eight ( 8 ) so the next plan is, every month on that date i’ll do something i like.

The reason why i like number eight?

For me it means something so deep, the number 8 it represent the infinite, what goes around comes around and the fact of “ do good to receive good ” so yeah! too many reasons and i think it’s a powerful number.

What do i do during this date?

I haven’t done a lot to be honest but i’m planning to! For today i planned to share this idea with you so it’s something that i like to do “ Writing ” plus to write about something i’m interested in.

To hang out with my best friends, talk about something very interesting or something in process to do or a new thing that we want to experience together.

Meditation! It’s very important to meditate between time to time if you're new to this. To separate your mind from this world and relax, clear your mind from any thoughts. Or to stay focus on one thing you want to achieve.

Ideas for experiences:

- Exploring. - Go somewhere you haven’t been before. - Practice a spiritual ritual. - Meet old friend. - Conversation with stranger.

There are so many ideas and things to do! Very simple and easy ways leading you to happiness. 

Note:

I was in a cafe while writing this, i didn't finished this till i got home. I went to the bookshop as usual, something happened that i didn't expect at all! The man who's working there said “ Hi ” he always see me there, i said Hi back, out of nowhere he started a GREAT conversation with me about books, knowledge and a lot of amazing things that i really do appreciate. It was very deep! Specially that it happened today! my favorite date! EIGHT!

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The Language Of Nature

Humans have a strong connection with nature, when i say “ connection ” i mean our souls, more like what our souls desires.

The more you grow up having your inner peace and listening to your soul the more you'll feel the respect between you and the nature, because you'll be looking for peace and you'll fortunately end up finding it in nature and our planet earth, you'll appreciate it. Others may not understand you because all their focuses on tangible things such as money etc.. they'll find it silly. You'll be focusing on yourself not about what they think of this gold fact. They won’t understand unless they try.

Before this connection begin you should free your soul from a lot of things such as the “ Rejection ” you should be acceptable person with everything literally everything! to be able to understand lots of things around you.

Spring and Autumn will probably be your favorites seasons of the year. When flowers starts to bloom in spring and leaves starts to fall in autumn with a magical view. The texture of it, you gonna feel it not just in your hands but in your soul, you'll feel super happy seeing and feeling them.

Having good or bad day, go talk to trees and plants. Don’t feel crazy doing thing! plants can feel as well. Having secrets that you never shared with anyone and you feel like you really have to let it go? or not comfortable of keeping the secrets to yourself? you can always tell the nature about it, you won’t feel embarrassed at all.

Be always surrounded by nature, even if you are living in a place thats far away from nature vibes as forests for example? buy some plants, decor your house or room with it. plant trees in your backyard, that would be awesome, high positive energy.

Play with herbs! imagine yourself that you're a green witchcraft “ Witches who deals with nature and herbs ” you can do your own little magic by herbs, that kind of healing by natural things. The more you learn about nature, plants and herbs the more you'll understand how to deal with it and build a strong connection. Read more about them and how to communicate with them. Download apps about herbs or plants anything that'll interest you. Buy books or watch videos about it as well. you can type this in youtube:

“ Green witchcrafts ” or “ Nature witchcraft ”

anything related to that, they'll absolutely help you.

Listen to your soul & beliefs not to your body and what others think about any beliefs you believe in. Remember that nature is always there for you.

I recommend this app from “ app store ” for you:

- Herbs Guide

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Places i want to visit & Why ( Part 1 )

Traveling the world is one of my unlimited dreams, and there are too many places i want to visit. I will share with you the most/top places i want to travel to & why i want to.

Russia ( St. Petersburg )

It’s a city with a unique history and the most amazing architecture ever! That’s true i haven’t been there, my eyes didn’t capture the beauty side of it yet but my soul can feel the strong connection between Petersburg and i ! Museums are always my favorite part when i visit any country, so i got a list with a lot of beautiful museum names in St. Petersburg to visit in future. Poets, writers & musicians are also one of the reasons why i choose to travel there! most of them were born and live in Petersburg, even my favorite ones. As a winter person Russia is the right place for me specially the mood of snow.

Greece ( Santorini )

Who doesn’t want to visit Greece? we all know it’s one of the oldest and greatest civilization. The Philosophy came from there, i love philosophy which means Greece is one of my fav country :p Now let’s move to Santorini! if you don’t know Santorini it’s an island in the southern Aegean Sea, southeast of Greece’s mainland. Just imagine you wake up early in the morning with the sound of the sea and cool fresh air from the balcony, great view and romantic. Whenever i hear the word ( Santorini ) what comes to my mind is blue and white.

Norway ( Tromo ) , Scotland , Canada ( Yukon ) , Finland , Alaska ( Fairbanks ) , Iceland & Greenland

The main reason for choosing those beautiful countries is the view of the Aurora Borealis! of course as a Astrophile i would like to visit and watch the beauty of the space Aurora, and i think they are good places to gaze the stars as well with our loved ones. ( The countries have more and more amazing things to enjoy, sorry for not mentioning all the great things )

United Kingdom ( England - Bridford )

Here we are, the most worthy place to visit. Ladies and Gentlemen welcome to the great UK! This country embracing everything i like, history, poetry, civilization, inspiration, autumn, winter, etc.. UK is my first dream country and now i guess it’ll be my last, i’ve loved too many countries and their culture/traditions but my top one will always be United Kingdom for too many reasons specially their accent, i barely melt when i hear them talking! believe me guys i want to visit too many places there but the reason why i chose ( Bridford devon ) cause my current mood really need that place, if you don’t know Bridford, it’s a village and civil parish in south west England. I love countrysides and it’s kinda similar? but it’s more like village, it’s very calm there even the people who’re living there are very kind! ( i haven’t been there but i saw some videos and Zoe the you tuber, she mentioned once that her family are living there and i loved the village so i searched about it )

Here you go the video of the place she went to: 

Austria ( Vienna )

No wonder why i adore Vienna, It’s the city of music. Beethoven, Mozart, Franz Schubert and so many worked there! all kinds of art part of their culture. Museums and Architecture as i mentioned earlier, also what’ll catch my eyes in any country. Nature is part of our life, we are surrounded by nature and i want to be surrounded by Austria’s nature! the green life, mountains and their countrysides! what a peaceful life ^^

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What’s in my NoteBook?

Most of us do write random things in our journal or notebook, it could be a list to do, thoughts, notes, poems or short stories. Who knows?  once i wrote this in my notebook:

“ A writer should always carry a notebook and pen ”

  What do you think?  Carrying a notebook and pen is a total isolation to me, because i will be focusing on what made me write the thing i wanted to! Whatever the thing is, a poem or note to myself maybe, all my attention will be with it. Now if we move to what will make me write, just like that in a sudden way! There are a lot of things that inspire me to write! it could be:

Music: 

Yes music is my friend and i’m an emotional person so it’s easy to me to imagine a scene while music is on, plus it depends on what kind of music i’m listening to, that scene will come up in my imagination then directly to my notebook ;)

Pictures:

Is one of those things that'll take me to another world and i can travel with it. It could be something so deep in one photo, a story, happy or a sad one that can make me write and never stop. 

Sometimes when i’m having my morning coffee in StarBucks with their awesome jazz music i see people, a scene between two lovers, a person smiling while having his/her coffee, workers planing or on a meeting, the smell of coffee, the sound of the coffee machine…etc It can make me write to the non stop level specially that i like watching people in a coffee shop and write. This in itself a meditation for me lol.

Autumn & Winter:

When it comes to my favorite two seasons i write more and new ideas will come up to my mind! Autumn leaves and the vibe of brown/orange colors of the awesome season it’s inspiration to me, to write or even take photos. Winter is something that i really do love, the vibes of clouds, rain and thunders or maybe snow? well i’m in a country, when the winter comes it says hi for few days or month only! so traveling to a foreign country is a good idea.

Fireplace:

Well that’s true i live in a hot country, we don’t really use a fireplace but to get into the mood i search on youtube for a fireplace sound, i chill and start to write.

Library:

 Is a perfect place to write. I will be surrounded by books (which i like the most) 

The old mood of 50’s to 90’s , Vintage life & things. it’s absolutely my mood the entire time :D

Those are some examples of things that inspires me to write, i got so many things..

Don’t you think that you are grateful for those simple things that can at least make you feel in a world that they totally forgot how to appreciate simple things in their lives, they forgot to look around and see how life is simple. So now even if you are not a writer grab a pen and paper then look around you, try also to dive inside you and i promise you that you going to find the real you. Hold that pen and write any sentence comes to your mind, you can write whatever you want, you won’t be shy or embarrassed it’s your own notebook remember that. 

“ One sentence can lead you to another, to the non stop ” - Noufless

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HERE IS TURKEY! ( PART TWO )

If you haven't check part one, go down and check it ^^ Here are some nature photos that i liked.. 

                                                     - Tulips -

In Turkey you’ll find Tulips flower everywhere!  this was in a famous park (Sorry i forgot the name of the park) 

                                                  - Inspiration - 

Somehow this picture inspired me! it’s so peaceful . . you feel like you are in heaven. 

                                                  - The Zoo -

I love animals very much, I wanted to touch them but it’s not allowed! 

                                                    - Snow -

As i said in part one that at the begging i wasn't too excited for this trip but then everything has changed, i visited places that i like such as the history museums, forests & mountains ‘cause i really find myself there . . also those natures places inspired me to write, of course beautiful things will always inspire us. For other people it may inspire them to draw, sing, dance and a lot of other things . . if you didn’t find your own inspiration or path to follow don’t worry it’s not too late, all you need to do is to discover new places. You'll find your path soon or later. 

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HERE IS TURKEY! ( PART ONE )

At the beginning of this spring break i wasn’t too excited to travel! but then everything has changed. It’s my 4th time in Turkey. What i love about this country is their history, I love history v-much. they have a beautiful memorable things in streets & museums. 

I would like to share with you some photos & things i enjoyed.

                                                        BOOKS

Look how books are really important to the world! but the question is do we have readers enough? I liked the idea of selling books on street! I wish if i could understand Turkish i’ll absolutely get them all! lol. 

                                          VINTAGE CAMERAS

Look at this classic/vintage art! and yes it’s for sell. I went there twice ( Last year and this year ) i don’t know why i didn’t buy one? I actually like to collect vintage stuff. 

                                                    WATCHES 

Those hanging watches are so beautiful, each of the designs represent something related to Turkey. Good to keep it as a souvenir. 

                                Typewriter & Telephone

Writing is a big part of me! and i appreciate old techniques of writing, this typewriter is very very old! what i love the most is they kept it the way it is.  you can see the spots on it.    

           Sultan Ahmet Mosque ( The Blue Mosque )

I love this area so freaking much! every time we go to Turkey we visit this place it has a special place in my heart. They also call it The Blue Mosque because at night you can set and enjoy the show of the blue light on it. 

                                                        FIRE!

It was snowing at the top of the mountains, to stay cozy is needed.

                        THANK YOU  . . .  WAIT FOR PART TWO

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Everything related to art will inspire me to WRITE

Noufless

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Wilted

                                                            If you                                                             Look                                                        Into my eyes                                                              You                                                        will see that                                                                  I                                                            Was a                                                         Wilted flower

Artwork

This time i decided to paint my drawing by oil painting which is my favorite! i tried to make the flower wilted lol. 

Somehow, oil painting will always inspires me to write.  I appreciate art so, no matter what i’ll still respect the person who draw even if  he/she not professional. It’s not about being professional it’s about the dream,  propose  and passion. As me! i’m not professional & i won't care about that as long as i’m happy with what i’m doing. I’ll keep practicing my hobbies. 

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Werewolf?

It’s full moon We finally going to meet  It’s full moon i’ll wear my white dress Your favorite one Walking in the forest With a smile of hope It’s full moon  And It’s dangerous out there Walking in the forest With a confidence It’s full moon I finally met myself at the top of the mountain! The only place I be myself. It’s full moon It’s Amethyst the werewolf me Not Eva the girl they know. 

- By me. Noufless-Library. 

Werewolf:

What inspires me to write this? The full moon, I love full moon very much it’s like a holly thing to me. This supposed to be posted when the full moon started to show up. But anyways i wrote it when i saw the full moon. Sometimes i like to explain to you what i write, and i love it when you understand it by your own point of view. So, it’s not important to understand mine, Just let your own imagination work and you can add scenes also.  Eva is a normal girl she never show her other side to people she’s surrounded with, only when it’s full moon she turn her self to her real personality to “ Amethyst ” which is her real name as a werewolf girl. 

Artwork: 

As i told you before, if you read my first post i said that i’m not professional when it comes to drawing but i’m always trying my best. I have a weird taste in art it’s too fantasy and i love it!  well i was trying to draw Amethyst, kind of Wizard/Witchy/Werewolf. lol

                                    Have a nice W E E K  E N D

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Things i’m obsessed with in 2017

- Mugs

Because i’m addicted to COFFEE mugs are so important to me, I do care about the details of the mug plus you can easily notice my mood by the cup i’m holding lol!

- Green Tea

I’ve been focusing on losing weight recently and this green tea is helping me, for me it’s the best brand(TWININGS) of tea specially the green tea. I’ve tried other brands they’re not bad but this one is the best tbh.

- Crystals

It’s my deep real world, Crystals are everything to me i’m collecting them and i’m too serious about it i believe in them and their powers ‘cause i experienced specially talking to pendulums! I’ll talk about this specifically in another post, too much interesting things to tell.

- WITCHCRAFTS & MAGICS!

BOOM, surprised? well i’m a nature person i love witches and their natural magic the way they work to get a perfect result. I’m talking about good witches and they are misanderstood these days, not all of them are bad! also this subject going to be in another post that related to witchcrafts and magic i’ll talk about it specifically.

- Walking

It became a habit, to walk everyday and it’ll be weird if i didn’t! The main reason was to lose weight then it became a lifestyle or an essential thing. Walking can change my mood. To kill time i write while walking, I read or watch my favorites you tubers. 

- Dostoyevsky

If you’re wondering who’s Dostoyevsky, He’s a Russian writer “ Novels, Short Stories & Journalism ” He is my top one favorite writer! I’m so in love with his phraseology the way he writes, the topics he choose & the content! is just too perfect. “ This book is in Arabic version called ( Eternal Husband ) ”

NOTES:

All Photos are taking by me. Sorry if there’s any bad quality in photos, actually the last picture of the book was taking by my iPhone 7. 

Details:

Mug from: Virgin MegaStore  Twinings green tea: Lulu hypermarket  Crystals: Turkey ( sorry i guess i lost their business card! ) WitchCraft bowl+Lavender herbs: Amazon Nike Shoes: NAMSHI  Eternal Husband Book: i got it from my university bookshop

                                       Thanks for your time

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Moon Child

I’m the moon child Lost in the wild Waiting for the light But i’m the night. I’m the moon child Lost in the wild Looking for the night Cause i’m the light. By me. Noufless-Library

Moon Child:

Don’t you think Moon Child & Forest Prince are related?  The same girl who’s looking for something important maybe her prince? wisdom? She says that she’s waiting for light but she can’t cause she’s the night which means she’s the dark side of each of us maybe? But then she says that she’s looking for the night but why? Because she’s the light which means  finally found her self or maybe she’s the meaning of wisdom and the light that guide us. Who knows..? Even  i , I don’t know..

Art work / Drawing:

 Sorry i’m not professional yet! I know i draw like a child but who cares? as long as i’m happy with what i’m doing.  Well that big circle is the moon in case if you didn’t recognize lol!  that child who’s setting, maybe she’s watching her self in future. I mean that eyes inside the moon it may be her. Maybe she got the power to see through her third eye, her self in future. 

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Forest Prince

Under the moon light I’ve been waiting for the forest prince Under the sky of the night Is the riskiness On you i’ll never give up On you that’ll never happen. By me. Noufless-Library

The story behind  “ Forest Prince ”

there is no story behind it! the fantasy world i’m living in gave my mind the chance to turn the imagination to your world, to reality.  it’s not the first poem i write, i’ll post my first one called “ Moon Child ”  i’m loving this kind of poems. it kinda represent me.  Thank you for your time.