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Skipping meals has been real easy since my fish died...I'm so sad

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wI m0t¡v4ti0n quotes day 41

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I'm locking the fuck in

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20-50 cals list :

8 strawberries (medium) ; 45 cals

8 strawberries (large) ; 50 cals

12 cherries ; 50 cals

10 baby carrots (large) ; 52 cals

10 baby carrots (medium) ; 35 cals

broccoli (1 cup) ; 31 cals

apple (1/2) ; 36 cals

40 blueberries ; 31 cals

plain yogurt (70g) ; 41 cals

plain yogurt (90g) ; 53 cals

50 raspberry ; 50 cals (1 raspberry = calorie)

2 boiled egg whites ; 34 cals

1 cucumber ; 45 cals (1/2 sliced cup)

1 peach ; 50 cals

1 kiwi ; 42 cals

7 lychees ; 44 cals

1/2 pear ; 48 cals

10 olives ; 40 cals

25 grapes ; 50 cals

1/2 orange ; 31 cals

1 cup air popped popcorn ; 31 cals

1 cup watermelon ; 47 cals

1 cup pickles ; 17 cals will update !

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Late New Years <3

Just moved into a new house that has stairs, and since no one is ever home, I'm thinking I can use them to my advantage

I also have 3 acres of land to use, which is great because I will be using that to go for runs instead of driving myself to the Riverwalk and running in front of homeless creeps who try to hit on me..

I want to keep the 500-600cal goal I'm at, and at the end of this month, I hope to have lost 15-20lbs.

Long-term yearly goals for me are usually set around events I know are coming instead of on a monthly basis, and so my goals for 2024 are:

- Lose 35lbs before my next friend trip (I think we'll go around March or April)

- Lose another 25lbs before my friend and I's end of semester trip

- Lose 15lbs before me and my friends go on our graduation trip

(My goals are personal, based on the quarterly celebration trip my friends and I take, and losing this much weight will make me the ultimate bonespo im so excited)

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I have gotten better at not binging, here's what I've been doing:

In the mornings I drink plain black coffee to boost my metabolism

I drink lots of plain green tea all day to help curb my hunger. I have a teacher who keeps it in her room so I will get more if I run out

I might have an apple for lunch, just to keep me from binging later in the day

If I get hungry when I get home I will drink more green tea and snack on cashews, I don't like cashews so I never eat much and they usually make me so disgusted I no longer want to eat

Sometimes I will eat dinner, sometimes I won't. My family doesn't eat very healthily so it just depends on if they order fast food or not

I try to have somewhere around 600-700 calories a day, I used to go lower but I noticed it makes me binge. If I eat at least 600 cals a day, I spend most of my day not hungry-so I don't binge.

I have also been taking lots of multivitamin pills just to replenish some of the stuff I'm losing with not eating.

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Thought I was recovering until I was talking to my friend and her shirt slipped and I saw her collarbone

It upsets me so much because my friend has no clue that I am dragging her into my disorder, makes me feel disgusting...like a pervert without the sexual part...

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Today's Food Log ♡

I was wanting to fast today but on my walk to work from school I got super lightheaded and decided it was best to not pass out at work...and of course after work I for some reason couldn't stop eating so today's numbers are higher then I wanted :(

Breakfast: Skipped

Lunch: Skipped

Dinner:

Half a Hot Dog - 330 cals

11 Potato Chips - 150 cals

Dessert:

Peach Yogurt - 150 cals

Total: 630 cals

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Hearing my stomach growl is like a token of success 😍

Except for when I'm in a quiet room with other people

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St4rving myself is so fun fr 😍🫶

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Once I'm skinny....

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I sure put the eating in eating disorder

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•°~♡ Today's Food Diary ♡~°•

Breakfast:

Gum - 5 cal

Lunch:

Cheese Stick - 70 cal

Reese's Pieces Fun Size Pack - 95 cal

Dinner:

Aloe Drink - 110 cal

Gummies - 70 cal

Total: 350 cals

I am trying to lose a few lbs before the end of the year party, it's at the lake and I want to wear a bikini 🫶 Hopefully I can keep this pace until the party 💜💜

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In love

pov: you’re falling in love with the main character

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This is what my current diet looks like, I've been trying to get a feel for it this past weekend since it is pretty low restriction for me, I am going to start seriously tomorrow and then we will see at the end of May if I am at the weight I want to be. If not, I will continue to just repeat these numbers until I am where I want to be. Wish me luck please I hope I can stay on track this time 😭💜

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When you look at his following and it's girls that look like this:( gonna starve myself fr

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Never getting an iced white mocha from Starbucks again....wym a grande is 430cals??? The drink I usually get is 120 which is close enough to my daily limit. I'm gonna sob I didn't know I was drinking so many calories today...like I knew it was gonna be more since white chocolate is usually more cals but I'm devastated 430!!! THATS SO MUCH..guys I'm like kinda freaking out wtf did I do I'm gonna cry😭 I just wanted a treat for water fast yesterday....