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People who constantly unironically brag about being "freaks" or "degenerate" online (to the extent if making it their entire identity) always end up being the most annoying, obnoxious, intolerable individuals I have ever met. Like without fail. They always (to no surprise) have the most horrible, shitty attitudes, like they simply do not know how to be a decent human being. And it's the fact that they take pride in this which I cannot stand. Literal anti charisma. Maybe they think its cool idk but I think it's kind of pathetic and I can't stand pathetic people.

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I had a nightmare ab the people who harassed me. Again. And It really just re-opened all my wounds. Like this has been so traumatizing for me. They made up lies about me. They harassed me on my mutuals posts. They harassed me at my own loved ones funeral. They got me fired, and even now I still can't find a job a year later, because of their lies. They harassed my own mother while she was literally homeless and trying to escape abuse. All over lies. All over made up crap. All over drama from when we were children. And all of my friends decided I was the bad one. They all decided to just ditch me because they were piece of shit cowards who wanted to save their own asses. I can't get over how genuinely evil each and every one of them are. And they tell themselves that they're good people. Good people don't do any of that bullshit. Delusional as fuck. And I can't even talk about who instigated all of it because I know they'll come after me again. Probably going to doxx me and my innocent mother again! Who knows!

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Forever amused by the amount of "progressive" people who preach how it's bad to judge people by the nature of how they are born (sex, race, nationality, etc), or subject them to negative stereotypes, generally treat them poorly for something they cannot control.... But then get pissed the hell off when you ask them to extend this same standard to men.. Literally any masculine individual ever, really. Am I really the only one who thinks that does NOT make any mf sense????

I don't know who needs to say this... But minorities have to acknowledge their own biases, too. Like you need to hold yourself accountable. Not just the people around you. You have to hold yourself to the same equal standard you hold to everybody else. Seriously. . .

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I just need to apologize because I've looked back on my posts and I have literally been on a downward spiral since last year ...... I'll be normal again some day I promise

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Sometimes I feel so gutted and I just want to disappear and I just want the whole world to explode and I just want to hurt everybody and I just want my mom and my dad to hold me and protect me and I don't know why I do it when they're the reason I'm so broken in the first place. I've never had anybody claim to be there for me and truly mean it and I don't think I'll ever be normal because of it

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I really hate the fact that the people who hurt me have semi-larger followings because even after (mostly) leaving social media I still see them everywhere. And it's seriously starting to piss me off... Like can you just stop existing or something

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Leaving social media has been such a double edged sword for me. On one hand, I'm genuinely happier, and I've dropped essentially all of my self-destructive behaviors. On the other hand, it has forced me to realize that I am a completley self-absorbed individual who thrives from thinking of a million different ways the people who've wrong me will be fried in hell. You know, for most people, leaving social media gives them such clear minds. For me, it has only clarified the anger I feel. It feels like a part of me now, how badly I hate some people. It doesn't define me or my life, by any means. All of my days are happy. But my hatred is unwavering. It keeps me focused. Honestly, if I had the power, I would probably be doing everything in my power to make them suffer for what they did to me. That's another thing I've learned about myself, that i love to hurt who has hurt me, without shame or remorse. So, maybe my feelings are a bit of an unhealthy fixation, in that regard. But I keep to myself so i dont care. My anger keeps me sane. It keeps me from returning to the miserable life I had before. Sometimes my anger fades and I just can't function. So it's best If I stay this way. I've stopped biting my nails. And I don't split on my friends anymore. I'm proud of that

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You know ... I never really see any support for people who struggle with violent thoughts that are not actually intrusive at all. Like how do you get help for that without being locked in a psych ward exactly. Or is that something you just live with since you aren't acting on it anyways. Or is it actually just like normal or something

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Winning at bpd by locking myself in the nearest psych ward every time a mutual softblocks me

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I think I am officially done with people. When you think life is good you always learn that people are just liars. You know my entire life I thought all of my friends and family were actors and secretly planning to hurt me, that I'd never live a normal life with them all scheming behind my back, and I'm starting to think that was not paranoia but truth. They can all live with themselves thinking they're good people completing some holy task but the truth of the matter is they're shitty people who get a high off of lying, harassment, and doxxing. You threaten me and my family and convince yourselves I've done something wrong so you can help yourselves sleep at night. I'm tired of it. I don't want friends anymore. Leave me alone

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I think it's best if you don't try to pull this stunt with me ever again.

and sorry for putting this here again, i just want you to know im still here for you and support you and i have all this time

hi!!! late reply but I'd love to catch up.... :] my user is peepawderv if u ever wanna add me....

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Played mouthwashing...liked it a lot....

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Crowfrost

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I think mentally ill characters should be allowed to kill, actually. Mentally ill characters who kill: I love you forever I won't let them get you

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You know a mindset I see in the fandom that will always be curious to me is the idea that just because a character is nice or likeable or fan favored, it's bad writing to let bad things happen to them.

Like do you think X going through it is bad writing because it actually does the intended story / narrative a disservice or do you just like the character and want to see them happy. Do you actually think the changes you'd make would better fulfill the intended story / narrative or do you just want fanservice

There's nothing wrong with that ... But I mean be honest

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One thing about the warriors Mapleshade hate train era of the fandom that still pisses me off actually is how people swore up and down that Mapleshade MUST be an unreliable narrator and so therefore nothing she expirienced or thought could be in any way accurate.

When in reality it was just the fandom making up bullshit headcanons out of thin air and portraying it as canon just so they can excuse Thunderclans blatant hatred/xenophobia, assault of a mother, and banishment of literal babies. Nobody wants to admit the fact that Mapleshade was severely screwed over and had every right to be pissed the hell off! (and don't get me wrong murder is inexcusable but like.... you guys baby so many other murderers in this series please stop playing)

Because outright saying "Mapleshade lying is worthy of assault and/or death" will reasonably earn you a WTF response, so people exaggerate her aggressors victimhood by making up bullshit about Mapleshade being a "baby trapper" or an "overtly possessive toxic girlfriend", and/or crafting some make-believe soppy sad backstory for Frecklewish. All to make Maples decision to lie seem worse than it in actuality was, or actively malicious in nature, and deserving of the recieved "punishment" (assault and death of her children).

Like... I cannot state enough how much it pisses me off when people discredit *the literal POV expiriences of the book protagonist* just to make up random crap about her clanmates and craft some elaborate tale where Maple is the worst and has sucked all along. When we know literally nothing about them, and especially Frecklewish, except that she made a stupid assumption, is willing to beat a mother in front of their kids, and quiet frankly didn't actually give a shit about those kids the moment she realized they weren't blood related. LOL

Like completley out of nowhere people decided Mapleshade lying was the worst crime ever commited in the history of the series... UNLESS you're literally any other character in the series to do it like Bluestar Leafpool Squirrelflight Yellowfang etc etc etc.... When they get flack for lying it's unfair and they were doing what they thought was right! But also it's completely unacceptable for Mapleshade to lie about her children's half-clan heritage in an environment where her peers are violently hateful and xenophobic. Because it hurt their feelings ... LOL

And don't even get me started on the fact that, quiet frankly, Frecklewish and Oakstar were being unreasonable from the very beginning by being hateful and blaming Riverclan for their loved ones death. They literally sent their son/brother INTO BATTLE and are now mad that he DIED? What the hell do they think happens when you send people out to beat eachother up (often to the death)??

Battle and death is such a normal and accepted part of clan culture it genuinely baffles me people dont realize that, as understandable as their grief, their anger/hatred is pretty crazy, even if Appledusk *had* killed Birchface. They were wrong to assume Birchface was the father and they were wrong to project their hatred on Mapleshade and her kits. Not a single action made by them was reasonable or excusable. You don't put that kind of pressure on a single mother who *explicitly avoided stating her kits father* and get all mad when it isn't who you assumed it to be. Like it's next level stupidity