sipsofcoffee

[sipsofcoffee]

I do not have to consent to anything because I feel pressured. I do not have to consent to medical procedures just because I feel pressured. I do not have to agree to go to events just because I feel pressured.

I will NOT consent to surgery just because I feel pressured. No. I will not. Nope. Uh uh. Not gonna happen.

[sipsofcoffee]

Face reveal ig but this was years ago so

Guys I was ICONIC in eighth grade wtf I forgot about this era

A little baby ICON my goodness where did this go I've regressed

[sipsofcoffee]

I ran out of aesthetic photos I've taken so have something from my pinterest board ig

Wednesday, June 18 2025

I'm leaving for a two month trip in three days and I have completed none of the school I needed to and none of the prep I planned to.

So. Uh. Gotta get on that, I guess.

Top Three Priorities

APUSH unit 4

5 lessons of APUSH total, including unit 4's

pack two categories from packing list

Additional Priorities

fold your laundry

pack another category

find extra long twin bed bedding, all of your ortho stuff, and the random skincare items you couldn't find yesterday

Events/Obligations

3:30pm haircut (PICK A HAIRCUT ALREADY DAMN IT)

Strength set B: upper body (be brave you can do it, go to the dumbell rack. The gymbros are riddled with self doubt and embarassment they are not a threat)

lunch with dad (pls don't crash out when he tells you you're failing sociallyyyyy take deep breaths)

[sipsofcoffee]

two people commented on my most recent blog post, fame is exhausting yall.

[sipsofcoffee]

I’m confused about everything all the time. Life is super weird and it’s even weirder how so many people don’t think it’s weird.

nothing makes sense.

[sipsofcoffee]

I completed a fraction of the habits I track and broke my streak, so tomorrow I must restart so that I can eventually reach The Reward (boba with extra boba).

In the past I'd feel bad about this, especially considering the fact I stuffed myself full of red vines and chocolate pie when in fact my body responds badly to both gluten and dairy. But you know what I also did? I babysat a screaming toddler this morning early even though I wake up late and spent two hours walking around a neighborhood with a stroller, which turned out to be surprisingly therapeutic. I played Stardew Valley for hours and felt immensely satisfied pulling up turnips to sell. I watched how to train your dragon 1 and remembered how much I love animated movies.

So actually, today was a good day. The number of habits I complete and my 'percentage of success' is not the only metric by which I determine a day's successfulness. My habits are supposed to enrich my life, not be my life. I am so often prone to seeing my tasks as my meaning, when that's not at all the case.

[sipsofcoffee]

spent like four hours on this

This was harder than it reasonably should’ve been. And I’m over exaggerating with four hours. Maybe two. Also why are 90% of my apps health related and this isn’t even all of them. Yes I have chat gpt but it’s only because I was teaching my mother how to use it (she’s a teacher and is using it to make her content…I’m irritated about it).

[sipsofcoffee]

pictured: my study timer, a handmade mushroom cluster on a stump I got from spain, and an itty bitty cross I got gifted from my friend who went to Israel

Friday, June 13 2025

I've started listening to 4,000 Weeks: Time Management for Mortals and I'm only six minutes in but it's phenomenal. Highly recommend.

Top Three Priorities

3 Unit 4 APUSH lesson

1.3.2 Trig questions

10 ACT practice problems

Additional Priorities

5 SAT math practice problems

Read and comment on two substack articles from small creators

1.4.1 trig video

Events/Obligations

Strength Set B-upper body or hot yoga

Listening to: Minecraft Volume Alpha by C418

Recently enjoying: Stardew Valley

[sipsofcoffee]

lighting a candle at my desk is such a mood!

Thursday, June 12 2025

I did more than I've done in a while yesterday, so hopefully I can continue advancing in my war against my executive dysfunction. It's small but I'm going to celebrate the fact that I did one math lesson and one history lesson. It's been just one (or even just half) of a math one the last couple days, and before that it was nothing!

We persist.

Top Three Priorities

1.3.1 questions

1.3.2 video

4.7 APUSH lesson

Additional Priorities

1.3.2 questions

10 ACT practice problems

5 SAT math practice problems

Events/Obligations

10am dentist (blech)

7:15pm yin yoga

[sipsofcoffee]

guys I started a blog I’m so excited!!!

<3 I did this instead of studying today but it’s fine I promise

[sipsofcoffee]

I just got on the waitlist for a counseling center specializing in neurodivergence and giftedness (I’m both) and it took me so long because I didn't want to accept the gifted label. It felt snobby or like I thought I was better than everyone else. And yeah, people definitely take it that way. But then I read an article about giftedness and felt so called out by every statement, the big one being that gifted people often don’t want to accept the label. So here I am, accepting the label. Heh…I feel like a snob. And a fraud, cause I feel bad at everything, but hey A+ for effort right????

[sipsofcoffee]

This flower I found in my yard is getting bigger by the hour. Super pretty.

Wednesday, June 11 2025

My butt hurts. This is what I get for going hardcore on leg and booty day…the glutes will be popping soon, trust. Until then I’ll deal with waddling around like a duck and almost falling down the stairs (I’m so sore it’s fine). Anyway. Could I at least do some school today??? Please, brain, please, I’m begging you to just let me work 🙏

Top Three Priorities

1.3.1 Trig

1.3.2 Trig

Unit 4 APUSH finish

Additional Priorities

1.4.1 Trig

10 ACT practice problems

5 SAT math practice problems

Events/Obligations

Cleaners 8am-12pm: get out of the house and go somewhere

hot yoga 5:45 or strength set B: upper body

[sipsofcoffee]

Say hi to Juliette, my gnome I've had since kindergarten. Juliette has witnessed many crashouts about school.

Tuesday, June 10 2025

Yesterday I watched a single math video and did a single worksheet. I would like to feel miserable and like a horrible person but NO- I must get over my perfectionism, this is the first work I've gotten done in two weeks.

The cycle is broken. Today we do a little bit, or perhaps a lot, more. I will put less on my to do list because I know I always make them too long.

Top Three Priorities

1.2.2 Trig

1.3.1 Trig

1.3.2 Trig

(can you tell I need to do trig?)

Additional Priorities

3 APUSH section videos and question sets

10 ACT practice problems

5 SAT math practice problems

Events/Obligations

Gym: Strength Set A-lower body

7:15pm yin yoga

[sipsofcoffee]

Monday, June 9th 2025

Dare I make a claim to productivity today? Will I finally be able to conquer my executive dysfunction? Maybe so. I promise I'm a good student I'm just incredibly lacking in being able to self study well.

Top Three Priorities

Get through section 1.6 of Trig

Complete Unit 4 of APUSH

Fold and actually put away the laundry

Additional Priorities

10 ACT practice problems (begin 1st test from book)

5 SAT math problems from pdf titled 'math review'

Events and Obligations

12:30 study group (cancelled)

2:45 doctor appointment

5:45 hot yoga

Current study music is the original minecraft soundtrack. I'm too young to be this nostalgic.

[sipsofcoffee]

It is hard for me to remind myself sometimes that the things I wish I didn’t have to deal with I would yearn for in another life. Imagining a world where I have one path that was chosen for me, one institution to go to, quells the panic in my chest when I think of college. What a marvel it is to have options.

[sipsofcoffee]

cupping my hands together in the shower over my tummy letting them fill with water and spill over pretending i'm a beautifully detailed statue fountain in sicily that was modeled after the sculptor's wife that tragically passed and he considers it his greatest loss and he never remarried and wept while thinking about her every night until he died and an eclectic, sort of geeky and awkward art history student just finished his final about me in which he said that several historians consider me the most beautiful statue fountain in the world, and while that is true, he's also been obsessed with me since he saw a picture of me in a library book when he was young and i'm part of the reason for his taste in women as an adult and he's going to use the college fund money he secretly put away to go to sicily with his girlfriend to come see me because i was the art piece that made her feel beautiful and finally comfortable in her own skin after years of feeling unloved because i look just like her (she is also hopelessly in love with me) and he gently caresses the wedding ring in his pocket smiling gently glancing over at her glowing face as she makes eye contact with me and finally feels like everything is going to be okay. then i get shampoo. in my eye

[sipsofcoffee]

My dentist put blocks on top of my molars to force my jaw into submission (‘correct the bite’) and idk what they expect me to do because I can’t chew, my jaw hurts just keeping my mouth shut, and they changed the shape of my face. I look like a monkey.

thanks a lot, now my smile looks like I’m from five nights at Freddy’s and I don’t want to show my face during the busiest summer of my life. And wtf am I supposed to eat???? Make it make sense.