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i want to cvt so bad but i have nothing to do it with and my bf said he'd tell my mom if it happened again :(

why is the world so unfair

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I don't wanna cvt I NEED 2 cvt

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Emetophobia will be the death of me I will literally kill myself and blame this

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God I'm not your strongest soldier please stop

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I never understood why s/h is so looked down on

People hurt themselves by drinking and doing drugs and people don’t mind that, so why cant I be allowed to cut?

Does that make sense?

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i relapsed again but it wasn't enough. i told my bf (for obvious reasons) and he said if i did it again he'd tell my mom (keep in mind i'm 19, almost 20, i don't think it concerns my mom anymore considering my age and that i don't live with her) then he took my bladee and i just don't know what to do anymore. he asked me why i did it and i said it's because i'm depressed and i was thinking about traumatic stuff. he responded with stop thinking about the past. like mf if i could i would, but it's called trauma for a reason and i don't go to therapy or see a psychiatrist because it's expensive. cvtting is the only thing that has worked for me. i tried coloring, journaling, writing, drawing, playing games on my phone, talking to trusted friends, and nothing fucking works. at this point i might start bruising myself again just to feel something significant

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AAAAAAAA

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i just want to cry in the dark and hurt myself alone

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All i want to do is cut and suck dick :]

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why don’t I ever get to feel pretty?

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cutee :3

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i'm so tired of life

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i just wanna disappear

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i just simply dont want to be alive anymore,

its too exhausting