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Invent milk that tastes like milk for zero calories and doesn’t give me acne

Please i love milk so much…i don’t want to give up my late night milk time

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My brain 24/7:

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past week has been um something.

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will i make it? probably not, but im not really minded by this fast whether i do it or not, i just hope i don’t end up binging after. It would feel amazing to beat my longest time though 🙏

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my scale just said i was 53 kg but im too scared to believe it theres no way.

i refuse to believe that i’ve lost 5lbs so far in the past like what just 3 weeks?

I think now because im actually able to weigh myself and keep track its just harder to believe.

scale proof ?

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longest fast i’ve done in a while and im not even hungry yet so i could go on for longer, but unfortunately i have to end it because im going out to eat soon 😞 i could have beat my longest fasting time (46hr) I WAS SO CLOSE.

EDIT: i know ur thinking ‘46 hours isn’t that long’ I HAVE A HEART CONDITION AND MY BLOOD SUGAR DROPS SO FAST LEAVE ME ALONE 💔 I WOULD IF I COULD BUT ITS A GAME OF LIFE OR DEATH.

my heart rate literally dropped to 34 like an hour ago.

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OH THIS WAS PARTIALLY AN ACCIDENT BUT I GUESS WE’RE HERE NOW?.

i still looked fucking huge in all the photos i took or was in today tho.

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i swear this little shit gets overweight so fast, in order to have him ‘healthy’ i had to maintain an 11k step streak for 10 days.

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when everyone gets the ed with stomach problems but im stuck with the ed that fucks with my heart rate and gave me a heart condition. (THIS IS NOT A COMPARISON POST THEY ARE ALL EQUALLY AS BAD)

but what do you mean my heart rate today as been st a range of 37-56 ALL DAY, 56 being its HIGHEST. EVEN THOUGH IVE BEEN WALKING AND PACING TODAY? Fuck heart arrhythmia bro.

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IM CURRENTLY FASTING AND I WEIGHED MYSELF THIS MORNING AND IM 54KG / 119LBS?? YAY

Still trying to find an excuse for it not being accurate though because there is no way.

AND YES THE SCALE WAS CALIBRATED RIGHT, I TRIPLE CHECKED.

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LEAVERS ASSEMBLY / FAMILY RANT!

an atrocious photo of me before i lost like 20 lbs or something idek when i was at my hw basically got shown for my leavers assembly powerpoint and it was so fucking bad and everyone could tell it was me (they asked our parents to send in photos of us) my mum could have chose any photo of me that shes took recently from being thinner but she wanted to ruin my fucking day and instead showed the fattest fucking photo of me that she could find. Well done, great parenting, showing a photo of ur child at her hw just because you are jealous she lost and you fucking can’t and as a result are going on fucking mounjaro. Seeing that photo has made me want to ⭐️ve myself more because i still feel like i am currently that weight. When i messaged her about it she didn’t feel guilty at all and called me dramatic. Don’t fuck up my final day at school prick. The fact i can tell it was on purpose as well because that was the ONLY photo of me shown? THE ONLY ONE.

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if only i wasn’t 5’2.. </3

but anyway!! finally made it out of ‘overweight’ prison.

but im still in bmi 20 jail 💔

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OH MY GOD I JUST WEIGHED MYSELF, AND WHILE DOING IT I REALISED I HAVENT BEEN CALIBRATING MY SCALE RIGHT SO IT WAS NEVER ON ZERO. I JUST CORRECTLY WEIGHED MYSELF, NOT BLOATED AND WITH THE RIGHT CALIBRATIONS. AND IM 121LBS?? WHO CHEERED! (i thought i was 127 like a week ago or smth)

Here i am crying thinking i’ve only managed to maintain 127lbs while over exercising and restricting.

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last weeks stats and these week stats so far!! <3

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what do you mean i weighed 5lbs when i was born. take me back what ?? 💔 i weighed the least out of all of my siblings

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I’m literally such a hypocrite, like it’s ok if you’re fat but I must die if I’m fat.

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my friend that also has an ed keeps offering me their food, i know what you’re up to. But im in the same boat so please stop.