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dearly beloved

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Ngl the Bungo Stray Dogs fandom is probably the one I hate the most, even though it's my favorite manga.

Like come on, while BSD is literary based, fans are the stupidest people to ever exist. How can y'all be ten times more interested in ships and shit like that when we are reading a manga with so much toxicity and depression...

Y'all are only seeing the characters with a 2d view it's sad asf. I'm pretty sure I could never hate any character of this show (even the "villains") because they all have reasons and different backstory 🧍‍♀️

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DAZAI ANALYSIS

Ok, so I actually thought a lot about posting something like this, because it would mean revealing a lot of personal stuff about me... However I felt like sharing my vision on Dazai, my favorite character, someone I relate to so much it hurts...

To start this character analysis, I'm actually going to analyze myself. Today I know that I am a deeply disturbed person, since I was in primary school and maybe before I was obsessed with sexual relations, I have no idea why, and to this day I don't know where it came from. All I know is that it led me to possess sexual trauma due to some "experiences" ( no r*pe, or pedophilia). One thing is sure,if I had to take my phone back in a hospital, I'd definitely be able to have a s*xual relationship for it.

I also have a severe lack of empathy. Which is weird since I'm a true emotional sponge... I will not understand how you feel, will not know how to comfort you, will not relate or put myself in your shoes. All of that is tiring to me, weird, I simply don't get it.

I was also probably one of the worst bully to ever exist, not physically but verbally. I never treated my "friends" fairly , was always bossy and mean. And you know what's the worst ? It's that I never realized it, not in the sense that I was young and didn't know better, but more like someone took over and talked instead of me. As if I was protecting myself. It made many people hate me and no matter what I do it'll always be like that.

Today, I have only 2 or 3 people I seem to genuinely care about and even then I really doubt they'd stay. I never really showed them who I was, always hiding behind sarcasm and self depreciating jokes.

Basically, I'm a weird mix between pragmatic and emotional. I can't function in society and will probably never be able to. Isolation, and solitude are what I dream of, not because I love these but because I can't seem to deal with others... Many would say I'm a psycho. I think I am.

That's where I relate to Dazai. I'm not a killer, I never tortured anyone, and while I was probably abusive mentally, I was never physically. However I get how he acts. Not having any morals, to be like a virus, someone so different from others that you could never integrate. You still try, because of diverse reasons, but even then you feel like it's not where you should really be.

Nobody knows who you are, firstly because you've always hidden yourself behind a different persona, but most importantly because you don't know yourself who you are. Everyday that passes, you feel empty, devoid of any things that make people's life interesting and bright.

Every time I see a rant post about how Dazai is a monster, it really makes me wanna cry, hide myself in my bed and never get out. Because it's me. Things are not as easy as :" oh he's a psycho, bad bad person". It's not that easy to act accordingly as everyone wants when you don't get it. I know that I could never come up to my ex-friends, look at them and say I'm sorry, just like how Dazai will never look at Akutagawa and say I'm sorry. Not because I'm heartless but because it won't get out. Even though I'm strong at lying, manipulating, even though I do that every day.

It's frustrating to not know who you are. To be a monster in everybody's eyes and even yours. Guess what, I'm deeply, disturbed, probably mentally ill, many would call me broken, and I already do it. I love Dazai, would defend him till the end of my life. He's my favorite character. Why ?

Because he's me.

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Ok so first of all hi lol, very first time posting sm so the tags might be confusing...

But I really needed to rant about something that was bothering me in the JJK fandom !

I continually see tiktoks or fanfic about how Suguru and Gojo left Shoko behind and I don't know why I feel like it's a really simple way to see how it happened isn't it ?

Let me explain myself... I do agree that, indeed Shoko's friendship with the boys was different in nature but I've never felt like she was left behind. That's literally how real relationships works yk ? No matter how idealistic you want to be you'll always be closer to someone, than another, or it can be multiple person idk.

Gojo and Getou were close because they were similar, they got each other etc whereas Shoko often stayed in the school because of what she decided to pursue.

It did not necessarily mean that they did not love her or see her as a friend ! Take an example : you are in a friend group, you love all of them no? But more often that not you'll feel better with one or two person in it, it doesn't mean you do not love the others, it do not mean you wouldn't defend them or sm else, it simply mean that you see yourself do sleepover or shopping with these "special" friends a lil more... There is nothing taboo, that's just relationship complexity ig ?

I mean I even saw ppl saying that Gojo and Getou deserved what happened to them ( chap 236 if yk yk...) Bc they left her behind, and TF ???? Nobody deserve that whether or not they did leave someone behind, which is not even the case here !

But anyway that's why I don't feel like they left her behind ...

And for the ones saying that Gojo wasn't as close of her than Getou I still don't see what's the problem of that lol ???? LIKE I SAID FRIENDSHIP IS MORE COMPLEX THAN THAT EVEN MORE IN JJK !!!!!

I also searched what sparked this whole thing and it's bc of this one sentence Shoko said : What about me?

Please do not take it out of it's context, she says it after Getou explained how nobody was there, so I don't really see the link between her status in this friendship and this lol

She clearly says this to empathize that she's angry Getou did not see her as someone he could talk to . She does not refer to his relationship with Gojo at any point ????

Anyway, it kinda pissed me off yk, cause I'm pretty sure that if the team was composed of Gojo, Utahime and Shoko everyone would laugh their ass off if Utahime banned him from sleepovers or from coming shopping, eating with them, EVEN THOUGH THAT IS BEING LEFT OUT

I swear I'm not trying to be sexist, I'm a woman myself but really this double standard sometimes riles me up lol

I'm not saying my interpretation is the whole truth tho so please do not insult me, I won't respond, I'm not a Shoko hater AT ALL, I love her, it simply shocked me how her fans could exaggerate a situation that even her do no acknowledge as existant 🤷‍♀️

Anyway love you all jjk fans 😭💘

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Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Regulus Black/James Potter, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Mary Macdonald/Lily Evans Potter, Pandora Lovegood/Xenophilius Lovegood, Regulus Black & Pandora Lovegood, Regulus Black & Bartemius Crouch Jr. Characters: Regulus Black, James Potter, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans, Mary Macdonald, Pandora Lovegood, Bartemius Crouch Jr., Evan Rosier, Narcissa Black Malfoy, Lucius Malfoy, Avery Jr. | Severus Snape's Schoolmate, Marlene McKinnon, I can't really remember all of them, TvT - Character Additional Tags: Regulus Black & Lily Evans Potter Friendship, regulus black and pandora lovegood friendship, Regulus Black Lives, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Canon ? What ? What is this ? Bye !, Good Peter Pettigrew, I'm gonna give them a good therapy, I promise!, Angst with a Happy Ending, Happy Ending, Harry is Jegulus' child, but no mpreg, Just magic, Sirius is an Asshole, but he is human, he try, Regulus is independant, Bad Parent Orion Black, Bad Parent Walburga Black, Black Family Feels (Harry Potter), Narcissa isn't bad, but she isn't good, only thing canon, i think I'm done, Ravenclaw Regulus Black, actually I'm not done, Ravenclaw Pandora, Ravenclaw Bartemius Crouch Jr., Friendship Bartemius & Regulus Black, Frienship Evan Rosier & Bartemius Crouch Jr & Regulus Black, Severus is good person with an hard life, Good Severus Snape, Badass Pandora, Angst, But it is Regulus Centric what do you expect ?, Regulus Black-centric, Regulus Black Deserves Better, Marauders Era (Harry Potter), Marauders Bashing (Harry Potter), Just at the start but they get better I promise !, And Peter isn't in the bashing thing, Regulus Black & Remus Lupin Friendship, Peter & Regulus Friendship, I will probably add later some details, oh a detail !, Regulus Black & Sirius Black Brotherood, Sirius is a bad brother, at the beginning, then he try to be a good one, R, Regulus Black & Originals Characters friendship Summary:

Regulus Black will always be the second son, the spare, the one who has to listen and not talk. He will always be the shadow, no matter how he will fight, he will always be the golden boy.

But, does seeing the world in blue can make him realize he is worth so much more? Probably --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- " Let me explain something to you Sirius , I will not apologize 'cause you know what ? I haven't done anything wrong ! "

- No Sirius or James Bashing , just some negativity ... But before they'll got their ass beat by Regulus' crew or

Me deciding that Regulus doesn't need anyone to make his choices and that magic allow men to combine their DNA to make babies.

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I mean, I understand why no one writes a whole fanfic of jegulus just being happy, raising harry, no lily slander, wolfstar and war over, bc like, where is the plot? there is no conflict

THE CONFLICT IS IN MY HEART

the conflict happens when I don't have a 200k fanfic of regulus being the mom of two kids: Harry AND HIS CHILDISH HUSBAND.

give me a chapter in which they move into their first house together

give the second chapter with first day of Harry's preschool

give auntie lily, auntie Mary auntie marls, uncle moony, uncle padfoot and uncle wormy

give me a whole FUCKING CHAPTER OF REGULUS FIGHTING RANDOM WOMEN IN THE SUPERMARKET BECAUSE THEY WERE GAWKING AT HIS HUSBAND

give me the cooking Christmas Dinner chapter

give THE WEDDING CHAPTER

give me picnic at the park with toddler!harry

give me the 1st of September on King's Cross, regulus being fucking stressed and james just trying not to cry

GIVE ME DOMESTIC JEGULUS

give me EVERYTHING PLEASE

don't give me angst

pls

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😭

it literally just registered in my mind that the marauders dont even exist. like james isnt the cute curly haired dork and sirius and remus aren't together bc they're not even real. and to think that the fics that we read and the headcanons that we've agreed on are even more fake. ngl that realization hurt just a bit. but the fact that we can all come together, even the smallest of fandoms and create complex characters and different relationship dynamics, is so beautifully painful.

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Regulus had always been second best to everything. Always in the shadow. The spare.

He got used to it, as he grew older. Got used to being cast aside. Got used to being forgotten.

It followed him everywhere, even as he entered Hogwarts. He was always “Sirius’ little brother” or “Baby Black”.

So it was no surprise when eventually, James Potter surpassed his place as Sirius’ favorite brother. No surprise when Sirius finally ran away, abandoning Regulus and leaving him to fend for himself in the lonely, dark house on Grimmauld Place.

But this, what was happening right now, Regulus could not accept.

“Really? You picked him over me?”

The four year old’s sheepish smile greeted him.

“Sorry, Papa. Dad let me have ice cream.”

“Ha!”

James’ triumphant shout echoed the walls as he victoriously pranced around the Christmas tree.

“See! Told ya I was Harry’s favorite!”

“But that’s bribery!”

“No, it’s called making a deal,” he laughed joyously, easily picking up Harry and lifting him into his shoulders. Regulus narrowed his eyes at him.

“Harry, I’ll let you paint your room red.”

The child’s eyes widened and he gasped.

“Really?”

“Hey, now that’s bribery!”

Regulus childishly stuck out his tongue at his husband and pressed a kiss to Harry’s cheek.

“Who’s your favorite now, sweetheart?”

Harry beamed, looking at both his parents.

“You both are.”

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Jegulus raising Harry au :

Reg being the badass mom

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Sirius when he catches James and Regulus going at it for the third time this week:

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I- ✨✨👌😭

Regulus: Okay, it's my turn now. I'm alergic to peanuts, I'm not a virgin anymore and I've been dating James for the past two years.

Sirius:

Lily: Wait, this is too easy. It's obviously the James one.

Sirius: He's not allergic to peanuts, he's allergic to chocolate. I'M GOING TO KILL JAMES!

Remus: You're allergic to chocolate? You poor thing.

Sirius: JAMES FLEAMONT POTTER, WHERE ARE YOU!?