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This is what I need my life to be and look like from this day forth. And as God is my witness I will see to it that I get it and keep it and focus on it.

there's something so healing and nurturing about being surrounded by plants, by life 🌱💚

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I seem to ALWAYS be doing this shit for evil backstabbing people. It’s time I stop. Stop dealing with people in person, everyone I’ve met by far has done absolutely nothing but disturb my peace and brought chaos and turmoil into my life. I’m obsessing over my refound solitude. I see that this “being alone” atmosphere is keeping me safe from stress and therefore free from the possibility of developing one of the many “autoimmune disorders/diseases”. I’ve forgiven my ex for all the chaotic energy he tried to bring to me and I honestly feel happier now that I’m back to my old self, the way I was before we dated for a year and some change. I was in such peace before I met him. I listened to smooth jazz(just the instrumental, no words) while listening to the rain. I’ve forgiven so called friends who I had to let go of BEFORE I met my recent ex. And THAT took a large amount of strength as well. 🧘🏾‍♀️

Life currently feels as if it’s going through one of those “declutter” videos on YouTube 😁 and I’m here for this kind of energy for real.

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Simply beautiful 😍

Imathia & Pella in Spring, Greece

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I will never become like the ones that fucked me over. I don’t see the point in it. Karma is strong than any of us to be quite honest with you. And believe me when I say, regardless of when the douchebag gets said Karma, it WILL be a beautiful thing. I plan on sitting back with some popcorn and enjoying the beautiful show. And what’s funny to me is how the bad person will be far to stupid to comprehend that they are getting their Karma. The bad person will be to stupid to put one and one together to figure it out. Only you will know that that’s precisely what it is, so it’s enjoyable for you to witness. Smile and snicker to yourself knowing that vengeance is being served and you didn’t even have to lift a single finger and break a nail. 💯😏

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I’m choosing myself this time. Seriously

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Ok so what you’re NOT gonna do is tell me that the company Loungefly doesn’t come through on serving us C.U.N.T on every single thing they come up with…..

This company serves up C.-Creativity, U.-Uniqueness, N.-Nerve, & T.-Talent the blatant high Level of creativity exceeds the bullcrap these high end basic name brands design. (The company’s that everyone gives their hard earned money away to, just for it to be the same ole shaped bag with Only their initials all over it, and in maybe a different color.) …The out right unapologetic uniqueness exceeds any supposed name brand company that simply ONLY puts their initials all over it. The Nerve they add into every single design concept makes me incredibly proud and happy and excited about everything they will wind up sending me via Email! And lastly the mothafuckin TALENT! Whoever is behind the Got damn ideas and concepts for every bag created and put out makes me want to work for this company. I’m a very creative person as well and if a fashion piece doesn’t read “EXTRA” then it’s not going into my closet.

To me there is nothing exciting about bag designs from YSL, DIOR, OMEGA, GUCCI, LOUIS VUITTON etc etc For goodness sake a Gucci Ophidia tote bag in their signature colors will run some gullible fools $1,750.00 😒 when the company Coach created a similar shaped bag as Loungefly makes. They made the backpack a solid black color, and simply added the coach logo on the front zipper pocket. They are asking some basic minded gullible fools to put out $149.00 FOR A BASIC BLACK BACKPACK WITH A NAME PLASTERED TO THE FRONT! Are you guys not hearing me????? THEY WANT PEOPLE TO PAY $149 FOR A BASIC BLACK BACKPACK. IM NOT, I CANT, I WONT! That’s what I won’t do. Yall explain to me why or even what about the bag makes it worth $149? Or how about even the nerve of Louis Vuitton putting bags out on the market for $1,950-$3,450 bucks? So you broads are telling me that you choose to pay that kind of money for a repeat shaped bag in either a black or brown color (repeat colors) that has no pizzazz? Has no uumph, no uniqueness about it that would make it stand out from the rest? Then it really does say a lot about a female’s mindset. It says she rather blend in, and play “follow the leader”, and it says “I’d rather not stand out from the rest, because I’m to shy” but yet you are the same type of female who spends so much time in the mirror trying to get the “right” shot of the same old cliche pose, and practically begging strangers to like your picture. It’s soooo pathetic! 👎🏾🥱😤

But with Loungefly you get real ideas real time and energy put into each creation, EVEN THE QUALITY OF MATERIALS USED is worth every penny they ask for. They add color they add prints, be it bold, neon, glowy, pastels even. And even better THEEEEEMES! They add a theme to every bag completed with a matching wallet!!!!! Look again at the themed wallet that matches or simply goes with the backpack.🎒 And they even had the NERVE to design the phone buttons to be Glow in the Dark! I feel like I will wind up with everything they make and it will be way more than the amount of shoes I own 🙂‍↕️😍😄 And you know what else? It’s for only $80. Loungefly doesn’t ask for hundreds or even thousands of dollars for nothing basic. Everything about this bag can easily be $100 and something bucks for every ounce of time, energy and material used, but they are not greedy like that. And so therefore they have earned my respect and money 💵. So in conclusion….👇🏾

sorry not sorry but I’d much rather spend $80 on a LOUNGEFLY bag as opposed to the price tag chosen for Gucci, or L.V.

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IT'S CALLING TO ME

So last weekend I went down to St. Augustine FL to go to a jewelry shop who is helping me with my pieces, & I decided to look around afterwards, when I came across this really cute shop designed to cater to the Chica's of society who lean more into the Bohemian Chic side of fashion.... the prices for items in the store ranged from $30 & up. But I'm not one to complain much. Because most of the shops I've come across within the past few months up to present day have all been pretty pricey for the long ankle length skirts, & even the girly fru fru tops.... if it's a 2-piece set. So anyway, I learned that the owner of the shop is from overseas (Argentina if I recall correctly), & her & son own the shop together, she handmade MASS MAJORITY of the clothes in the shop, & the stuff in the back is thrifted. & she will teach her employees how to crochet pieces themselves so that EVERYTHING in the shop is carefully handcrafted, & for the thrifted pieces I was told that they will sometimes reconstruct the item to make it look new/something totally different. (& I seriously love that feature & respect it.) However, 1 month ago I made a vow to myself that I will make up for the lost time, money & energy I've wasted on other people, & didn't give to myself. (So far so good too, I haven't felt an ounce of "buyer's remorse" since I made that vow.) So, for me that's a huge 1st step in recovery & doing what's right for me.

Now I currently lost my job, so making my 1st purchase is going to have to wait until I can secure a new job. (Obviously) But what I've noticed is how after I went into that store, I cannot stop thinking about how much I want to incorporate the fashion into my closet. How much I want to physically embrace it with home decor mixed into my love of Goth home decor. I can't ignore my love for Goth. Goth was the 1st alternative fashion I was introduced to in my last year in high school, from a quarterly magazine called "Gothic Beauty". (Now they went digital to save on paper. I totally respect that; I instantly supported them & downloaded the app once I found out they were going to stop making paper copies of their gorgeous perfect magazine.) So, I cannot just simply toss aside my 1st love. Goth fashion has been with me since 2003, so honestly, I've been wrecking my brain, & the wheels have been turning. I want to come up with new ideas on how I can mix goth & Boho Chic home decor in a highly flattering eye candy way, that's worthy of a place in the Pinterest app. :-) but then I thought about the fact that there is something Boho chic fashion has in common with one particular sub-genre of Goth. The witchy/nature loving Goths I periodically see on Instagram. One person in particular stands out to me her name is Psychara/ aka Mara, she's goth but also incorporates her love for nature in her fashion as well as the tattoos she winded up getting. So, if she can give me a that idea/inspiration from her posts and items she owns in her closet, then I know there is a way for me to mix/blend together Boho chic with Goth.

Boho chic has this particular look to me that reads, "I love nature, & the peace it brings." The colors in the outfits reads " earth tone & ocean/Beach tones in some cases (outside of the tie-die prints) I've seen a lot of beads & wooden beads turned into belly chains, necklaces, bracelets, rings, earrings, and even down to the toe rings, just all so beautiful & need to be in my collection. I'm falling head over heels in love with it all honestly... the more I see. Lately it just feels like my interest in it from the early 2000's has circled around to the forefront of my brain, & my soul is telling me that it's finally time to give in.

I must embrace the urges & needs.

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LITERALLY ME!

“Nothing is quite as beautiful as someone who has survived losing everything and still has a tender heart.”

— Unknown

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THAT PART!

“Soon you’ll realize that many people will love the idea of you but will lack the maturity to handle the reality of you.”

— Reyna Biddy

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My bestie who’s had a crush on me for years now, seen this AMAZING blanket online and decided to buy it for me! SO FRICKIN THOUGHTFUL!!! And I just washed it so it smells soooooooooo fresh and NOT like the factory it came from. ☺️ I can now imagine me snuggled up by myself on the sofa with this hiked up to my nose watching NUN Valak there. But remaining calm and poised all due to that fresh laundry scent. 😂😂👌🏾hahaha! (Jean Claude Got Damn! That makeup job on that lady is STUNNING! She’s what they’ve been calling “Nightmare Fuel”! For real for real!😮😳🫣 Nun Valak used to be my screensaver for months last year, so I set my phone up for the pictures to cycle through whenever my phone was charging up. So when I would randomly look over at my phone I would see Nun Valak’s eyes and get the MAJOR HEEBIE JEEBIES!!! 🫣😧🫨 real shivers down the spine. It’s the contacts they put on the actress and then the black eyeshadow to give it that hallowed out look. Whoever the makeup artist is who came up with this idea KNOWS…..HIS/HER…SHIT!!!! Because SO FAR….. she is the ONLY ONE who has managed to give me the creeps when I look at the picture. (And the crazy thing about it is, THE MAKEUP LOOK IS SO SIMPLIFIED AND IT LOOKS LIKE THE ONLY COLORS REALLY USED IS BLACK WHITE AND POSSIBLY GRAY ON THE CHEEKS. And white theatrical contacts. And THATS IT! So it stuns me that something so damn simple can give me the shivers this much when I look at it. ) but what I’ve noticed about myself when I watch horror movies and a character with hallowed out eyes with at the least marble glowy eyes tends to be the thing that gets me the most. Best makeup look ever I think. If it can creep me out like that.👍🏾🙌🏾

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So this is what i see one night driving past a local Winn-Dixie. I cracked up laughing so hard and literally made a u-turn just to go back to the Plaza to take this perfect shot of the sign!!!😆😆😆🤣 The satisfaction of it saying "Check dix since 1925" is amazing!

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So something highly interesting happened to me yesterday 03-12-25. Ok so on the previous evening I went onto Facebook to see if my long lost friend would respond to me since he was so upset with me about choosing my now recent ex over him… I expected him to either ignore me or say he’s not interested in even hanging out. But surprisingly he did respond and he even excepted my invitation to hang out at a local jazz club. So before I went to work yesterday afternoon we hung out and talked and he did something so surprising and unexpected. He leaned down and kissed me. Now this guy is 6’5 so I legit feel like a tiny person standing next to him and I’m 5’5. So to hug me and kiss me he has to bend at the knees to get to my level or lean over. It’s quite entertaining to me honestly. So anywho, we got to talking and come to find out he’s no longer upset with my choice I made 12 months ago and he is just happy to “have me back” and made a statement that he’s not going to let me go this time around. It was endearing to me to hear a man say these words to me when all this time I thought I would end up single until the got damn apocalypse.

I guess it’s safe to say I am now in a new relationship with my friend I honestly should have married 18 years ago. Both of us are mad that soooooo much time was wasted for us. But we also both agree that everything we went through personally in our lives taught us valuable lessons and we have waaaaay better insight on life in general. And we both have our beloved children we do not regret having. ( even though we regret the person we had them from/with, we do not regret our mini humans though) we know we belonged together years ago after 1 month of hanging out.

so my friend/new boyfriend really helped me lift up my mood. Because on the 11th I was making my drive home from St.Augustine Fl. (My place of zen and peace) and I ended up making myself cry at the realization that I wasted AAAAALL my adult life spending countless hours, years, energy, MONEY, and time on unworthy people. I’ve spent hundreds of thousands of dollars at this point on people I thought I could make something work with. But I was brutally rebuffed and manipulated. (I guess i didn’t have as good a judge of character as I assumed I did) so that realization broke me down and I made a vow to myself that I needed to put that kind of love and time and energy into MY DAMN SELF! Every time I have the thought to buy myself something new and nice I instantly get “BUYERS REMORSE “ but let it be the idea to buy something for someone else, and my brain goes “ yeah let’s make it rain BIG HEADS on this UNWORTHY MANIPULATIVE NARCISSISTIC MALE” I throw bands without any remorse/regret at all. And for years it perplexed me as to why my brain functions like that. Things I need or nice things my baby wanted, I would put it off and postpone the purchase for weeks that turned into months, but if it was for a “friend” or “boyfriend” it was instantaneous. And it made me angry when I’d think about that. So like I said on 3-11-25 I made a vow to myself that I needed to make up for 41 years of self neglect and putting myself last or at the bottom of the stack. If I see something nice I want or felt I needed then I won’t put it off, I’d buy it. And tell that “Buyers Remorse” vibe to stand down. And I felt uplifted and happy with my vow. Especially the love I gave away to “friends” and “boyfriends” I needed to give that love to myself. And I understood that in this society people are not focused on relationships this society is broken. But then my friend came back into the picture and is saying he’s not going to miss another opportunity of us not being together.

Yesterday the 12th when we hung out. As I mentioned he was showering me with so much love 💗 the cuddles the kisses 😘 the hugs 🫂 it came at like every 15 min intervals it was so cute and much needed. I shared with him how mean the recent ex really turned out to be and he made his statements about him. He was understanding of what dude’s personality disorder is and then said that it is OUR time to make it work out. And I couldn’t agree more with him. So what started out as a friendly invite for a drink or two at a local jazz lounge. Has now turned into something special, that new anniversary date went from 03-03-24 TO NOW 03-12-25 (lowkey the date makes me giggle when I go to my calendar) for the simple fact that it should have been my friend this whole time and I should have listened to him when I told him over video chat I had chosen the other dude to be my man, his reply was to squash it instantly and break it off with him THAT SAME DAY. But I didn’t listen. So here we have come full circle on the same damn month as last year and it’s just the date that changed. And all is the way it should have been since ages ago. And we have both decided to make up for lost time. I’m still keeping my vow though. I need to give myself back the love I dished out to so many unworthy people from the ages of 18 to now. I’m just happy to have my friend back who’s just randomly made himself my man so he doesn’t lose me again (his words).

Funny how life turns out.

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So this is what it means to be in a relationship with me. I’m the type that will spoil my man just enough to make him feel good and happy and confident and loved and wanted and treasured and respected and APPRECIATED! I don’t have a problem with breaking bread if it means I get to see the classic shocked/surprised look on your face. Those moments are precious to me and I strive to have more of them. Everyone has experienced moments like that when he/she gifts their spouse with a gift(s) he/she wasn’t expecting…. That vibe you get when you know he/she is so floored and surprised by your gifts he/she is sitting there in silence feeling loved and special and is rendered speechless. He/she can’t believe someone cared enough about him/her to go that far with the big surprise. Your spouse starts blushing and can’t stop smiling you practically know what he/she is thinking at that very moment. Well those are the moments I aim for when I’m in a relationship. I forward the person to be prepared to get showered with mad love and affection and I don’t change up. It would be 5months or 5years down the road and I will still find new ways to surprise you and spoil you and make you feel appreciated. I’m what they call “A cheerful giver”….

So these pictures here were taken on my now ex boyfriend’s birthday last month. I spent damn near my whole check to make this day special for him, I took him out for steak lunch, got him chocó covered strawberries from that edible arrangements company. And bought him 3 different USEFUL gifts. I know a relationship shouldn’t be just solely based on physical favors and material things but it does help to express how you feel towards someone. When you feel like there’s not enough words in the Webster dictionary to describe how much you love and care for him. Gifting someone you love different random surprises keeps them on their toes and you enjoy capturing that magic moment on camera when you snap a photo of their initial facial expression and reaction. I spared no expense to make him feel good about being another year older and getting through the previous year unscathed. Shit a lot of people out here never make it to see a certain age, so when you are blessed to see another birthday and you have someone you love in your life who loves to spoil you and show appreciation…… then please for the love of all things holy and sacred just let that spouse express his/her gratitude through gifts/gifting.

Let’s just say my ex’s reaction to everything I did for him made him have to wipe his face and eyes a couple of times. 🤭🫠🤭and THOSE are the moments I be looking forward to.

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My high school homie bought this for me as a valentines gift 🎁 said the instant moment he seen it he thought of me and he knew I would like it. He’s so thoughtful and sweet, and my child likes to be around him. So that’s a plus😌 me and my dude had broken up earlier in the week so I knew I wasn’t going to get any love by the time Valentine’s Day rolled up. But at least my homie came through for me. 🥰🤭

Now I am FULLY aware that this man has a crush on me and has had one on me since high school when we would hang out ALL the time. We rolled with the same click in high school went out to clubs together etc etc…. And I knew back then he was checkin for me, he is really tall, has the charpest blue eyes, he’s a big husky guy. We fell out of touch for a long while but still stayed linked up via facebook. And at the end of last year is when we started chatting it up again. We went to the local haunted attraction together and he helped me with my son when I needed help and had to go to work. He’s been coming through clutch for me. And I appreciate it. I’m just sitting back trying to figure out how to pay him back and show him my appreciation and respect and that I’m not taking advantage of his kindness and help. I gotta make it good 😊

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I can’t stay away from him, he’s alluring and so incredibly intoxicating and addictive. This picture here I found floating around online is literally the best way to describe him and I. Only my mental and emotional scars are being shown on the outside here in this picture. The spiked crown/tiara on her head would represent the mental strain/stress he has put on me. Before I met him, before I was forced to come back to my dreadful hometown, I was happy and at peace with my life. Getting to go to theme parks with my annual pass any damn time I wanted, coming and going as I saw fit, I might not have liked being single in the general sense of the word, but I squared with the reality and overall in the grand scheme of things I was happy and at frickin peace with myself and my life. But god will find a way to make you have to start life all over again and reset your life when you least expect him to, and upon having moved back to my hometown I also end up meeting the now/recent ex. He is toxic, he is a little bit of a narcissist, he loves hearing himself talk, he thinks he’s smarter than everyone in his circle, he over powers the conversations and believes his words are the end all be all and his last word means the end of discussion and you are not allowed to say anything else or else in his eyes your being defiant and you have to have a rebuttal to everything he says and you aren’t listening and understanding him. That’s literally how that man’s brain processed anyone he fought with or tried to manipulate and control. So the male character in this picture BEST describes him to a T if our mental state of mind and our emotions could be best described in picture format, THIS RIGHT HERE WOULD BE IT! Hands down no lie! Straight up with no chaser. 💯 the spiked collar would represent the emotional block that man held up. It would represent an invisible barrier/bubble which protected him from fully opening up to a new girlfriend. The spikes used as a Mohawk, and the fire on top would literally represent his narcissism his ego and the flames itself would represent his short temper, that man could easily go from 0-100 with his nasty ass attitude if you questioned him about anything. The spikes could also represent his ego and pride. The sharp claw like nails would represent how much he would prod and provoke you to fight with him. Mass majority of the time he would be the cause of the fight, just because he was simply bored and craved chaos. The male character in this picture from every ounce of him that we can see would legit shot represent every negative aspect of how this man processed thoughts and emotions and how they were reflected and shown on the outside. It’s incredibly sad. Sure I made him improve on some things and he started to change for the better due to my influences. But it doesn’t seem like he’s going to improve on that stank nasty attitude and narcissistic personality traits. The bad awful habit of cutting people off when they are talking…..it’s just way too much and exhausting.

So then but wait!!! 🫸🏾 now with all that being said…..if the cons outweighs the pros then why do I keep getting pulled back into him? Why does my heart and brain process this man as intoxicating? Why do I end up destroying more pieces of myself to be the mediator in every debate/fight???🤔 why does the very sound of his voice soothe me and due to his height, the way he looks down at me turns me on? What is with this male that makes me feel like my brain processes his personality as toxic and rude and mean at periodic times, but I can’t peel myself away from him? He’s leaving psychological scars on me and emotional trauma. The only lesson I could take away from this fucked up yet delicious experience is how to be just…..like…..him! How to be cold hearted and give 0 fucks about a spouse’s feelings. Only thing God showed me was that I was UNNECESSARILY DRAGGED AWAY FROM MY HAPPY HOME IN THE OTHER CITY, FOR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I learned nothing new, only proved to me that love isn’t real, and there are more narcissistic people in this world than what needs to be. And that God will act just like the devil by consistently chastising you to test your faith and loyalty in him like some petty insecure man. I honestly feel like he isn’t there for me regardless of how much I spoke about him and try to follow HIS RULES and prayed to him. He still played a part in this UNNECESSARY experience just as much as the devil did. I mean let’s keep in mind GOD CREATED THE EVIL IN THE WORLD WHEN HE CREATED LUCIFER IN THE FIRST PLACE WAS FULLY AWARE HE WOULD BETRAY HIM BUT STILL ALLOWED IT TO HAPPEN!. So then in retrospect how can God get mad at how us humans act when he’s the reason why we have temptation and sin and evil in the world to begin with? I trusted God to have my back by not allowing anymore toxic mean people into my space into my aura. But yet here I am now, lighting little tea candles trying to get my old self back my life back pre boyfriend. (Also this picture is being used as the ex’s profile picture, just because it’s so fitting)

Can’t get over how much this picture best describes us. And this chingy songs also best describes us (not the first lyric where he’s talking about being a superstar obviously but)… everything else including the chorus Tyrese sings.

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I want the whole set! Where can I get this?

My shop as been restocked 🤍⛓️🦷

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I love this months product choice, I’m excited for it and can’t wait to try out the skin pudding and cleanser. And Kim chi’s setting powder.