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God please take this pain away

Please show me how to make it stay

GONE

They all have said I should have thicker skin,

Be stronger

Don’t let anyone in.

But after 35 years, believe me I’ve tried.

My skin is my skin.

But what if you love someone that doesn’t understand ?

That part of me isn’t gonna spin

Around and just change ?

Yeah it’s tougher.

I at least know how to pick myself up again.

But do I really have to believe I’ll never be loved for who I am ?

I am the biggest believer in compromise

But then why am I always the only one with tears in my eyes??

Snot pouring out like some baby that cries and cries ???

Why can’t I be different ????

Ya know what’s crazy ?

I take the screaming lectures to heart

But my guess is, your past hens rollled their eyes at that part.

I don’t care about them except for what they’ve done

To fuck you up so bad that you physically can’t let me in.

Can’t show me respect.

Can’t let yourself believe I’m legit.

Can’t let me think I’m the one.

Can’t help but tell me to leave , run!

Well guess what that does ?

Forces me to want to say fuck you and drink your rum.

The damage is done

But now here’s the trip.

I CANT do that bc I’m head over heals.

So please don’t continue this screaming verbal lashing.

Or I’ll see my future in a straight jacket

Laughing.

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mockumentary vibes

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My therapist asked me to create something “motivating” so I made these.

lol.

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Checks out

Another poetic moment, The Kiss.

Look at Jensen’s happy face.

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You guys. Ok I’ve loved following all three of these boys and their unique relationships and how each of them truly have a unique one with the others individually as well as the three together. And they always make me smile no matter how far down I am. And I’ve been very down like many of you have and can understand what I mean. Understand what I mean when I say I truly haven’t smiled or laughed for days but somehow their videos or pics or words posted in SM are the one thing that cracks my smile.

But something about this video, this specific interaction of Jensen and Misha, hit me so hard. Like, beyond just the normal “omg cockles look how sweet and adorable and fun and deep their friendship is” - way, way, beyond that. This made my body have a physical reaction in my gut and goosebumps on my skin and tears in my eyes and just. Wow. I’m so thankful for these men in my life whom I don’t even truly “know” (and they certainly don’t know me!), these men who have made such a difference in my life. From improvement of my Mental health, helping me to get off my ass and help others when I feel useless to reminding me to never give up, and showing me the possibilities for having true love among friends - that found family that are forever. This is truly a special group of people - the cast and crew and fandom included - isn’t it?

Another poetic moment, The Kiss.

Look at Jensen’s happy face.

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It got better.

Someone make an AU fan fic quick! I will make a movie trailer for it ! 😂🔥🔥🔥🔥 God these two. Err I mean three. 😜

May 2020 EW photshoot featuring Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, and Misha Collins

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Oh dear. Why do they do this to me ?

Thank you, EW, for blessing us all.

May 2020 EW photshoot featuring Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, and Misha Collins

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Checks out

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And some more !

My first attempt at a mandala with some acrylic paint markers on canvas...I did this without a ruler or protractor and I realized quickly I will not do that again without those tools!

Prayer hands and flower by request for a friends new apartment. First time on these as well.

And some of my fave Mary Oliver quotes for fun.

My art ! Some are sold already! I’m not an artist but this art therapy thing I’ve been doing has been really inspiring and I have lots and lots of ideas. Can’t help but share even though I know my art pales in comparison to real artists out there ! But boy is it fun to finally have an outlet that is super helpful to my mental health.

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Meta madness!!!

Ok so I just have one question about 5x12...

If Chuck destroyed all the worlds...

And French Mistake made our world canon in the Supernatural universe...

Did we all just get killed off?

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@winchester-reload you are a gift to this fandom! These are absolutely stunning and your art makes me feel things, always. 💙💙💙

Tattoos and time to kill💀

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“OMG! Snowwwww!!!” [source]

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I’m so very down and spiraling. Any kind words, positive vibes, and/or destiel fluff are appreciated.

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My art ! Some are sold already! I’m not an artist but this art therapy thing I’ve been doing has been really inspiring and I have lots and lots of ideas. Can’t help but share even though I know my art pales in comparison to real artists out there ! But boy is it fun to finally have an outlet that is super helpful to my mental health.

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Just in time for my mourning of Supernatural. Yessss !

He is Risen. Lucifer returns May 8th on Netflix