#//But it's 11am on a Thursday?? What the heck even??

[yumichikah]

Morning coffee time.

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

This is the second time our temp therapist cancelled on us.

For reference, the therapist we've been seeing was an intern who just graduated. December they did grad stuff & then had to reapply & do onboarding again. That means we had to see another intern in the meantime. We'll just use initials for privacy so let's call normal therapist K and temp therapist C.

C (she/her) is amazing at helping with depression, when she shows up. She has a lot of training on how depression is actually a trauma disorder and blew our mind when she changed our perspective on why depression does what it does. It's something one of our littles brought up in less sophisticated words. That's something for another post.

K (¿they/she? we're pretty sure & gonna ask when we get the chance) is amazing at helping us process trauma, and is extremely knowledgeable about ADHD and autism. They've been amazing at helping us realize when our disabilities are disabling us. They've also been very open to learning about D.I.D. to help us with it.

C was arranged to check in every week since mid December while K is unable to. The first check in was a phone call— totally fine, & they called us out 10mins in (“you laugh when you're uncomfortable or stressed. it's laugh or cry, ¿right?”). So we arranged an in person appointment (because the house we're in isn't safe so we prefer in person) & went to that one & it went well.

But the past 2 weeks C has called out sick, and we had to call and reschedule, but they're only available Wednesday & Thursday so we keep having to reschedule for Wed.

The problem with that is, we really really need therapy. Depression is at its worst in a while, and C-PTSD is back with a vengeance, and we're having relationship communication needs that we wanna run past a therapist, and...we just really need the fuckin appointments.

To be clear, I'm not angry at C for being sick. I'm upset because our therapy office *has other therapists*. They could assign someone else so we can get the help, and instead they called at 8am like ‘C is out of the office, call her office to reschedule’.

I decided to instead ask if K is back in the office & available. They were supposed to be available by early January. The front desk said they didn't know & sent me to the scheduling department, who didn't pick up. I left message to call me back.

Worst case scenario I have an appointment today to get medication (for ADHD & depression, hopefully) so I'll be physically in the office by 11am & can ask them then if K is back. But also. What the heck. :/

I was actually more worried it was the meds appointment being cancelled, which I had to schedule 2.5 months out. Therapy can be scheduled for the next week. But with the worry of not getting meds gone I'm still frustrated at the office for not being more considerate or helpful when I asked for other options.

I didn't get therapy just because; I really badly need it & not having an appointment every week is making me lose my mind. I have so much to unpack. It's not even that my routine is disrupted anymore. I just need someone professional to talk to before I explode, which was the point I got to before they assigned C (because 2 weeks without therapy does this to us; I'm overflowing and super not okay).

This is mostly just to get the swirling thoughts out of my system. I need to put it somewhere.

~Nico (he/they)

[saymypiece]

This nobody’s journal of hot, boring afternoons…

Day 21 (7.4.2020 - Tuesday)

I did not sleep through the night, again! What on Earth! On the other hand, I worked out, a little, but still a workout. As in I played with my dog. She got a hold my bro/sis old silambam belt and goes around playing with it. So grabbed on to the other end and had a tug of war with her, which was fun, until she realised I wasn’t much of a competition and got bored. :S It’s alright, I will prove to her that I am worthy of her time. I shall try again. Practice makes perfect Koko, you adorable snob! 

Day 20 (6.4.2020 - Monday)

Omgoodness its day 20! I cannot believe we have been stuck at home without a choice for so long. I keep hearing of doctors and nurses falling ill, scientists working so hard to create a vaccine. I can’t help but wonder what this virus is all about. This thing we can’t see is causing so much chaos, panic and fear in everyone. And the way I see it, it’s not going away anytime soon. But our God is God over the impossible! He is the only way this virus will be washed out. This time at home, especially during this time leading up to Easter, has allowed me to spend some time in devotion and the Bible. And what I have learnt is we are not alone. Our time on Earth, though temporary, is designed to be fulfilling and beautiful. So I’m embracing that. No matter what comes against me, it shall not prosper. For my God is for me. On the other hand, I have not been able to sleep. It’s been challenging to 

Day 19 (5.4.2020 - Sunday)

As usual, Sunday was enriching and chill. Not that every other day is not chill, but Sundays, they are quite a little more chill than other days. At 3pm, I joined a group chat with some friends from church. Fun.

Day 18 (4.4.2020 - Saturday)

After last week’s shopping debacle, I was terrified about going out there with mum again. Nevertheless, we had needs and they needed to be bought, so I got ready with my gear, the usual suspects of masks, gloves and a hand sanitiser. This time, the mall staff were even more strict. They checked body temperatures before anyone could even enter the building. And only one person per family was allowed in. So, yes, we kinda put on our inner Meryl Streeps and acted the strangers we never knew we could play so well. They believed it. Heck, at one point, even I believed it. My mom, I think, may BE, Meryl Streep, I don’t know. Anyway, no drama during shopping, everything was perfect. I even got to keep my shorts intact the whole time. No, it was a different shorts, I wash them everyday. Yes, I’ve got a whole lot of loose shorts okay? They’re comfy! What some more you want?

Day 17 (3.4.2020 - Friday)

Another Friday has come and gone. There is really nothing new happening, but today, I got to catch up with the darling! You don’t feel time passing you by until you actually do something you used to do very, very often, years ago. We used to Skype and video call all the time until work and life happened. Then suddenly, it had all come to an abrupt end. This conversation felt like such a treat. I felt like I was catching up with her entire lifetime. Well, a lot can happen in over six years. Feeling so blessed for technology and this time we get to reconnect and spend quality time with each other. 

Day 16 (2.4.2020)

Ok so, sleep lost it’s way and didn’t really get back to me, blardee heartbreaker! Didn’t do much other than write and hang around all day. So I decided, to pick up my guitar and do somethin with it. :) You Say by Lauren Daigle

Day 15 (1.4.2020 - Wednesday)

I know it’s meant to be April’s Fool today, but like the rest of the world, it didn’t mean a thing. I mean, our situation right now seems like a giant prank anyway. There is no need to scare anyone else about, anything else. The greatest prank in the world right now would be to just go up to someone who’s NOT your family, and sneeze or cough right at their faces. Once they know you’re pranking em, they’d either laugh or slap you so hard, you begin to foretell your f-f-future. Even watching old YouTube videos of interviews or clips from shows where there is some amount of coughing or sneezing involved makes me cringe so hard! And I’m not the only one. Read the comments. Once thing I am certain of, whether a vaccine is found or not, is that once this MCO is over, everybody is gonna be a germaphobe/hygiene-junkies - always washing hands and sneezing into handkerchiefs and such. Anyway, goodnight, hope sleep finds me tonight.

Day 14 (31.3.2020 - Tuesday)

Oh praise the Lord I’m alright. At least, I think I’m alright. I don’t feel fuzzy, I have no fever, no headache. I was awake super early and I decided to feed my three dogs, for the first time! Let my bro and sis sleep in a little this morning. I had no idea how to do it. I just winged it based on what I thought is normally done, and it worked. The three ding dongs listened, sat patiently, ate sweetly and gave me some kisses. And then, I put on a fan for them, coz there was no air movement out. It was so weird, it was early morning and it was so hot with zero movement in the air. Man, we really need the rain!

Day 13 (30.3.2020 - Monday)

I am so not feeling good today! My mind is racing. Was it the shopping at Tesco on Saturday? Was it the Lontong flavoured Chef noodles I had for dinner last night? What is it? I have a bad headache, body ache and my brain is a little fuzzy, like when I have a fever. When I asked my sister to check my temperature, she confirmed there is a slight fever. Paracetamol. I need it. And a good shower. Had both. Going to sleep again. Maybe I’m tired, exhausted. I’ve told everyone in the house to stay away. Lord, protect papa. And heal me. Let this not be…it.

Day 12 (29.3.2020 - Sunday)

Time for church online. Mummy made friend mee hoon and some Portuguese tarts. It was one of those quiet days. Didn’t do much today.

Day 11 (28.3.2020 - Saturday)

Nope. Zoom didn’t let me down. I let Zoom down! My frickin alarm didn’t go off, or maybe it did and I didn’t hear it, I don’t know. All I know is I wasn’t up until 11.20am! The meeting was supposed to start at 11am! #muchembarassed Thankfully they were all in conversation while waiting for me. I didn’t even have time to brush my teeth. Just washed my face, tamed my hair and appeared online. Connect was awesome though. The two newcomers were great. Kinda weird we didn’t shake hands or hug, kinda weird we literally met face-to-face, online, but it was great! Cheers to new experiences, I say. Speaking of new experiences, I have never liked shopping. Like, ever. I don’t enjoy walking around, I don’t enjoy going to shops after shops after shops. Basically, I’m most men when it comes to shopping. Today, my mom and I had to run to Tesco to stock up on some of our essentials that are running low. I wore a shorts and t-shirt but with two masks, gloves, and in my pockets, Clorox anti-bacterial wipes and hand-sanitiser. We strategised how and what to touch before entering the store. I was going to be the one doing the touching, cos I wore the gloves, and my mom, wearing one glove, was to be the one pointing out what I was supposed to pick out from the shelves. Carefully, but swiftly, we began picking out everything on our list. My heart, for some reason, was drumming like a Taiko drum in my chest. And to make matters worse, sometime during our walking through the aisles, my mom completely ditched our strategy and started touching the things on the shelves! Like, ALL things! Okay, granted, I wasn’t fast enough for her but PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE, okay? Just… keep your hands to yourself and straighten ONLY the index finger. How difficult is that strategy? Now, she’d gone and made my mind spin round and round tryna think of how the virus would travel, or get stuck on her phone (which I sanitised the moment we got out), or what her gloved hand touched and what she could and could not touch anymore not that is has been exposed. Arghh! Finally at the cashier, we more or less got in sync. Everything went according to plan, like which hand she would get her debit card out of my shorts pocket with and which hand she received it from the cashier with after the payment was made. It went pretty perfectly, with the slight risk of me losing my shorts because mummy decided to shove her hands so far down my pockets. The shorts was loose to begin with. Thankfully, with my firm grip, nothing untoward happened. We got out, got home, showered and washed all the clothes we were in. All good. Phew…

Day 10 (27.3.2020 - Friday)

Thankful for technology. It’s made life very easy. Even my mom, who is completely resistant of anything “technology” (because she thinks she would destroy the internet or something) has had to organise Zoom meets, coordinate her kindergarten teachers’ online lessons and activities - it’s been quite a trip seeing my mom grow into this technological wiz, so to speak. I joined her connect group today, had a good discussion. A little nervous about mine tomorrow morning. We will have two newcomers on board. Hopefully Zoom doesn’t let me down.

Day 9 (26.3.2020 - Thursday)

It’s the end of the day, and lo and behold, I have completed the pages I was meant to complete. Turns out, I didn’t have to do some of the last pages, so that saved me some work. I was right. I DO feel blind and like a bat after completing the job, but the satisfaction of a job completed is unmatched. The number of cases keep increasing by around 130 every day! It’s not even funny how people are still choosing to ignore this situation. We are already in day nine of the MCO and they still feel it’s alright to meet their friends and family in such a time as this. If only we all, collaboratively, stayed home for two weeks, we could actually curb this virus from spreading out. STOP GIVING IT TRANSPORT! Ugh! On the bright side, I am organising our Connect meet online.

Day 8 (25.3.2020 - Wednesday)

Quick update: Still on the project. I have managed to complete around 10 pages, mostly profiles. I am so surprised at how weirdly written everything is. On COVID-19, we are 300 cases short of 2000. It’s not looking good at all. And what’s worse, the government has extended the MCO to April 14. So instead of going back to work on 1 April, I would be jobless until 15 April. Lord, I surrender this to you. Let all that happens, happen according to your plan. I place my trust and hope in You, Lord. Amen.

Day 7 (24.3.2020 - Tuesday)

…aaaaaaadddd!!!! There are sooo many words in this, it doesn’t seem to have an end! 105 pages of THIS is more than I can bear!!! I’m gonna go nuts by the end of it, or blind! Anyway, I started on this the day before yesterday, but it has been a lot of, what my dad would call, broken focus. I just can’t seem to stay on the editing bit. I keep getting beckoned by either YouTube or Facebook or Instagram, and end the day without completing even one full page… so here we are. I have exactly two days to complete editing 103 pages of words. *takes a deep breath* RM530 is riding on this, man! Get it together and do it! I know RM530 seems little, but to me, after 5 months of RM0, it’s an upgrade I never thought I’d get. #suckitup

Day 6 (23.3.2020 - Monday)

Monday has arrived. I am refreshed, I have my mind set on the epilepsy article I am gonna write and the copy-editing project from the marketing department. I’m all set. I sent my interview questions to both the people I am meant to talk to. Under the current situation, I am not able to talk to them so email is the next best thing. Except an interview over Zoom would have been better, but they can’t seem to make it. Being researchers and lecturers and all, they don’t have much time on their hands…. unlike me. Anyway, that’s done. Now, continuing the project. Ohhhhmaaaiiiigaaa…

Day 5 (22.3.2020 - Sunday)

Oh Sunday. It was a really awesome Sunday service. It was truly something I think we all needed. The praise and worship was amazing, and allowed me to just soak in worship. Despite all the chaos and fear that I have in my heart and mind, I felt a peace wash over me. Suddenly I realised that the only reason for the fear in my heart is the unknown. But every “next step” we take is an unknown anyway, so why fear this one? I will keep praying, staying home, except during essential buys, washing my hands, working and doing pretty much everything I always do WITHOUT having fear in my heart.

Day 4 (21.3.2020 - Saturday)

What a total frickin crap-show! The numbers are increasing and I’ll tell you the truth, I’m afraid. Every time I wash my hands, I can’t stop wondering if I’ve washed them enough. There is just too much stake. My dad, his lungs are really not good and I am worried about what would happen should one of us get careless and carry this virus home from some essential grocery shopping. The only comfort I have right now is that my God is bigger. I know my God is bigger than all of this. I know my God is bigger than all of this!

Day 3 (20.3.2020 - Friday)

I know I wished for an eventful 2020, but my goodness, enough already! 

OMGIF already?? So, suddenly, the number of the infected in Malaysia hit 1000+. That is really too much! Who’s to blame? Why are there still cow dungs out and about on the roads, meeting friends and speaking their essentials words and letting their spits flow freely in the world and into each others’ ears? Don’t they know of a phone? There’s WhatsApp, Zoom, Hangout, Telegram, frickin Signal, Line, FB Messenger…heck, everything has a caller these days! *checks if Tinder has a caller* Not Tinder, thank goodness. Just…ugh…stop going out. *breathes* Meanwhile, my lovely brother gave us all his homemade Ais Malaysia and it was lovely! Like, it hasn’t properly rained in quite a few weeks now, and it is sooo hot. That Ais Malaysia was truly somewhat of a saving grace. And to top it off, my darling little sister made o-maki sushi, with the tuna and everything. Superb! Anyways, all things considered, the numbers locally are not too bad, is it? Is it? I’ll just have to keep washing my hands… “His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy, there’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti…”

Day 2 (19.3.2020 - Thursday)

#tbt like #tbeverydayforthelast5months ! 

This MCO doesn’t really make much of a difference for me since I was not working the last five months. This time around though, I wash my hands more, go out lesser, and can’t go out even if I wanted to. You know what? The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon: Home Edition is super awesome! I love it. It’s a breath of fresh air so I’ll have that to enjoy over this period. When we get out of this, I don’t think my hands will make it out “alive”. The number of times I wash my hands to the first verse of “Lose Yourself” is nuts!

Day 1 (18.3.2020 - Wednesday)

So, I started this to keep track of what is happening in this lovely, wonderful, fantastic nation during the Movement Control Order and also to me, as a… non-essential employee. Coz as long as I’m not working, I am not paid. Ok, let me rephrase that. As long as I am not present AT the office, then I’m not paid. Never been in this position, kinda worrying, but thankfully, I do have projects to complete to get me some kinda cash. Don’t know how its all gonna pan out. I am leaving all these worries to the Lord Almighty coz I know there is nothing I can do to change anything happening around me other than pray and stay home. These daily entries will be filled with dramatics and descriptive nothings, coz seriously, I can’t imagine another two weeks at home. So I AM gonna add some spice to this. Alright, so, first day was…err…normal. How’s that for spice? Whaaaat? I don’t know what to say in this okay? I am just…I just wanna remember what I went thru so…

[brokenbutblessedd]

EASY

12:11am Thursday 31st of October.

I never was the easiest person to love. Heck it’s hard enough learning to love myself. My parents found it hard to love me. People find it hard to love me.

My relationships and friendships were nothing but abuse, pain, neglect, manipulation, lies and jealousy. There are days I wish my mother miscarries me. Days where I just didn’t exists and since I do, I would just drop dead, just die.

Today is one of those days, where I wish so hard that I would just die or never exist. I feel so much pressure from the world that I live in. The people I’m surrounded by. The things I have to face. Finding a psychologist/ psychiatrist, taking action to do it. People judging me , why I’m single, why I’m w single mom and why I don’t have friends my age. Why I do this and that. People commenting on how I should a mother, what I should do in life.

I feel so lonely , even though I’m a mother and has a child that loves me so dearly. Call me selfish but I still feel so alone, unloved , judged and neglected. No one to love me or give me love, don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter and she loves me and I know that’s all that should matter but... a part of me is still missing what I’ve always needed and wanted.

Parents to show attention and give me love. Brothers and sisters that love me back and appreciate the sacrifices I do for them. A partner to have a family with, a home , goals and much more.

Instead I get a mother who has favourites , who gives no love , appreciation and attention. A father who isn’t around because he raped his own daughter and now has a new family in another suburb. No partner to shower me with love and support even for our own child because he chose to cheat and abuse drugs and be violent towards I and his child.

Friends who don’t understand me. Friends that are young , friends that are old, friends that I don’t even know if they are my friends. I do maybe have a few that I know are real with me but yet I must admit... I feel lonely.

I know , no one can love me and if they chose to stay.. they would only struggle with me. Nothing ever lasts with me. So maybe , I hope my life doesn’t last that long either. I’m breaking, I feel the pain like electricity running through my fingers and deep into my chest, so deep it’s like I’m suffocating, like I feel everything so deeply.

I don’t know why God gave me life or what my purpose here is. I tried so hard to be positive... telling everyone I’m good and had a good day because how can I tell them “no, today has been hard and so has the other days”. So instead I smile and say I’m good, my days been good :) ...

[the-elemental-sides]

Sanders Sides Punk AU Fanfic

Some of you may know of my love for @asofterfan’s Punk AU. However, it is deeply conflicting to me because I Am Not A Punk. I’ve never even asked to be part of the Punk Fam. That’s how Not Punk I am.

Therefore, I’ve written a fanfic that takes the form of a text chat between two characters that are a little more like me...Sloane and Corbin! In this AU for this AU, Sloane and Corbin are Nerds(tm). Corbin is on the bookish side of the spectrum, while Sloane is just. he’s really passionate about cartoons, ya know? Please enjoy! Warnings: swearing.

***

Monday 3:00 PM

Sloane: Hey Corbin

corbin

corbin

corbin

check your gosh freakin heck phone

Corbin: what

Sloane: Dilemma

Should i be in drama this year

Corbin: ?? you’re thinking about that?

Sloane: it sounds fun

Corbin: what about study group

Sloane: i’ll still have time for study group you absolute nerd

Corbin: don’t call me a nerd before you’ve taken those stickers off your locker

Sloane: picani gave them to me!!! it’s steven universe you don’t understand

Corbin: they’re pastel women sloane

Sloane: 1v1 me

so like drama

i might join it but i’m not sure i’ll like the people in it

Corbin: you like everyone :/

Sloane: roman’s in it

Corbin: ohhh

Sloane: so there’s no avoiding him and i’m scared

Corbin: Have you ever even talked to him

Sloane: exCUSE me have YOU ever talked to him

Corbin: of course not. he’s got tattoos and hair dye and attitude

Sloane: looking at him is like staring down an aztec god

he’s so far beyond our level

Corbin: a fair point

I saw him w patton the other day

Sloane: fuck they’re grouping

Corbin: no, patton’s the nice one

Sloane: you absolute goddamn madman how have you been fooled

he is a Punk

Corbin: maybe he’d take pity on us

Sloane: you wore crocs the other day. i SAW you.

Corbin: i ran out of socks

Sloane: the point is that we will never fit in with or understand the ways of a punk

Corbin: maybe you would if...you joined drama?

Sloane: just go do homework you nerd

-

Tuesday 2:30 PM

Corbin: ummm you’re not trying to find roman right now right?

Sloane: yeah have you seen him?

Corbin: he’s outside with logan and virgil

Sloane: FUCK THEY’RE GROUPING

Corbin: im sitting like 10 feet from them waiting for you

i’ve never been so scared

you have no idea what kind of energy these punks radiate

Sloane: I’m coming to save you

Corbin: lOGAN NOTICFED ME

Sloane: RIP

-

4:00 PM

Corbin: ok i’ve never made eye contact with someone who could literally murder me. that was traumatizing

Sloane: I told you I was in the class when logan threw the textbook at d’s head right

Corbin: do you think i would forget?

Sloane: the worst part is that he’s also a frickin genius so we can’t even use our nerd powers to defeat him

Corbin: you’d probably beat him at a steven universe contest though

Sloane: true

!!!! :D

Corbin: ??

Sloane: you remembered the name of the show!

Corbin: you were JUST talking about it to me until two in the morning

Sloane: i barely remember what i said

Corbin: something about a steffonie character

Sloane: holy shit i’m calling you we gotta talk about them

Corbin: NO

-

Wednesday 3:00 PM

Sloane: you’re gonna be so proud i just talked to roman

Corbin: are you alive?

Sloane: yes but the raw punk essence pouring off him almost flayed me

and

i was asking him what plays they’re doing this year and then virgil came outta nowhere

Corbin: i should have been there for you

Sloane: no it’s fine

it was weird though

he went up to roman to ask when he was coming over and he actually looked like chill and stuff

then he noticed me and i s2g he bared his fangs like one of those feral raccoons around my house

then roman left with him

Corbin: i had a group project with him once. he’s not that bad

he did his work but he didn’t talk to me at all

Sloane: i know he’s not trying to be elitist or anything

but i don’t get why anyone would want to look so scary

Corbin: Nerd culture is choosing the things that you can and can not understand

and we can’t understand punk culture

Sloane: word

-

Thursday 2:00 AM

Sloane: here’s what i’m thinking right

i’ll join drama

but i’ll wear camo so nobody sees me

rehearsing? camo

auditions? camo

showtime? camo bitch!!! no one will know where my voice is coming from

roman will never even look at me

genius

Corbin: go the FUCK to sleep

-

Thursday 3:00 PM

Sloane: WALK HOME WITHOUT ME IM GOIN TO DRAMAAAAA

-

6:00 PM

Sloane: im home

Corbin: everything good?

Sloane: yeah it was pretty chill

turns out that some kids from your study group are in drama

Corbin: traitors

Sloane: and we just did a readthrough of Tempest and made a time for official character auditions

Corbin: Who will you be

Sloane: i kinda want to be ariel

Corbin: nice. never seen the play

Sloane: ok well the main character is Prospero the magic dude and roman read his parts during the practice and holy FUCK

he’s definitely getting the part

Corbin: But you faced your fears, and I’m proud

Sloane: thx babe

-

Friday 6:00 AM

Sloane: and also patton was sitting in at rehearsals

Corbin: scary?

Sloane: not so bad. he recognized me

i don’t really get his style but he seems pretty happy

does he have tattoos?? how does one just walk in with a fake id to get pain needles stabbed into you. What are these punks

Corbin: i think you should ask him that

Sloane: working up to it

-

7:00 PM

Corbin: rehearsals good?

Sloane: yeah, some tattoo artist named remy came

Corbin: is he cool?

Sloane: she today, and hella

she got lost on the way here though

which was weird considering she used to go to this school

Corbin: i’ve been thinking

Sloane: SHIT

Corbin: no not that kind

Stop calling me! everything’s fine

I was just thinking what if we invited roman and patton to hang out or get food

Sloane: holy hell are you sure

Corbin: I mean, you clearly like them since punks are all we’ve been talking about for five days

Sloane: haha i didn’t notice. okay let’s change the subject

starting

NOW

-

Saturday 1:00 AM

Corbin: sorry i fell asleep

-

10:00 AM

Sloane: i guess i can do that, i’ll text roman. hang tight

-

12:00 PM

Sloane: he says yes but he wants to bring logan and virgil too

Corbin: dear sweet aristotle’s circles

Sloane: (wtf)

i’m down for it

Corbin: you know what? let’s go for it

Sloane: hell yeah, i’ll wear my Steven Universe shirt

Corbin: please. why

Sloane: tomorrow at 11AM?

Corbin: i can do that

Sloane: it’s a date

Corbin: a Punk Date

Sloane: a date with Punk Accompaniment

Corbin: Punkcompaniment

-

Sunday 10:00 AM

Sloane: hey i’m coming over. you ready?

Corbin: just pretty nervous

Sloane: it’s just a lunch thing. it’s not like they’re dangerous

Corbin: only if you get on their bad side

Sloane: who’s on their bad sides? d? i trust their reasons

-

10:30 AM

Sloane: i’m in the driveway

Corbin: all right. let’s go

you ready to befriend some punks?

Sloane: HELL yeah

stop texting and get out here, you nerd

Corbin: nerd <3

[theday]

i forgot to copy andpste the rules fuckjdjh anwyay taged by @younghyuuns and @pupcats :D thank u guys for tagging me i havent done this in ages

tagging: @minhyukwithagun (just saw ur new icon ffuck) @briwoon and @tokayhk u guys dont have to tho ily all oh also @hyunghoney and @hyungkyunnie and @minhyukt suddenly im tagging everyone u guys dont have to do it either ily toohdjh

last:

drink: water hddhh im so happie to hear everyones answer is water too stay fresh

phone call: ................ oh my mum i was gonna say i dont call ppl but she called the house phone yesterday

text message: ‘what’ jhddsjhjhsh

song you listened to: beside you by 5so/s im wheesinghs falen kdhs

time you cried: really cried??? january on a thursday aka last month i broke down in school djhhsjh schools the place i cry the most i couldnt go through one month without breaking downdjhdhs every year i have 2 cry there at least once apparently jesushdjs

have you ever:

dated someone twice: i havent even dated anyone once

been cheated on: see above

kissed someone and regretted it: see above

lost someone special: immmdmfmmdkks i guess not? in terms of friends they were special but not anymore so i guess that doesnt count

been depressed: nope

been drunk and thrown up: in this house we only drink water

in the past year have you:

made a new friend: heck yeah? i made so many good pals after revamping this blog im so happie :( 

fallen out of love: no lol i stopped having this crush on this person at the end of 2016 best decision of my life

laughed until you cried: one too many times but i cant remember any ;-/ 

met someone who changed you: falen?? but everyone has an effect on mehjd 

found out who your true friends are: well . yeah

found out someone was talking about you: idk i dont rememberjhdhjhs i dont care enough

general:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: only karissa and she doenst even use tumblr much ;-/ 

do you have any pets?: i wish i did D: but not now.. jsjd maybe when im out of this country/place

do you want to change your name?: ifjkksj not rly..??????? i just hated it for a while when i was younger bc i didnt like the nicknames that came with my namejhddh

what time did you wake up this morning: 11am fuck my life

what were you doing last night: giffing :D and then i gave up bc it started messing up so i went to bed

name something you cannot wait for: school to start bc im excited since its a whole new jhhdhsh thng? but im also terrified im learning physics theres a reason why i took biology instead man my course is called biotechnology nothhjjhhjjhsjhhf physics dont interact 

have you ever talked to a person named tom?: the only tom i know is tom from tom and jerry

what’s getting on your nerves right now: the gifs 

blood type: a emoji

nickname: when ging said her answer i lost my mind how many of you arent using ur real names tf... does ging stand for ginger also this question is about me hold onfjdhhhjshd uh egg and meggan i guess? nutfucker toojhdjhhjdh bc that was my ig name so irl ppl would call me that and embarrass me thanks or just nut because of that username too

relationship status: never dated thank god

zodiac sign: capricorn sun and taurus moon im the .optimum dirt call me soil hdjsh also i showed ayesha my chart and she lost her mind saying the reason why i say oh worm so much is bc im like 50% earth i couldnt stop laughing tumblr install a filter search function in chats i need to dig that up 

pronouns: she/her

favorite show: haikyuu i aint gonna stop loving u bitch

college: idk what this means either im not gonna tell yall my school im gonna be doing biotechnology tho trust me i dont know what the fuck that course is about im a fool all i know is that it has to do with cells [changkyun voice] well its cells

hair color: black but i like to think its brown

do you have a crush on someone: crushes and the whole. love game is cursed 

what do you like about yourself: i learn... from my mistakes i guess idk also im generally friendly .         ...

firsts:

first surgery: none

first piercing: none im a [redacted] 

first sport you joined: fucking. golf or swimming or tennis i used to be all about sports now i just. walk 

first vacation: probably malaysia

first pair of sneakers: converse which i used to deem as clown shoes ... now all i wear are converse dkhhdshj

right now:

eating: amylase 

drinking: nothing i need to drink water im thirsty hold on stay hydrated if ur reading this drink some water

i’m about to: pee i need to go, 

listening to: spotify ad time hates me. ill go back to this later oh wait this isnt a spotify ad anymore scavenger by finish ticket who r they? idk either my friend recommends me songs and theyre good but by bands ive never heard of

want kids: no iwnt animals

get married: marriage ? sounds phake

career: ive been saying this since 2016 but farmer

which is better:

lips or eyes: i hate myself i read lips and thought of l** m*nhyuk ;-/ singularity’s impact! and nojhhsjjhdh idk? fucking both i guess ??????? i dont look at peoples faces often

hugs or kisses: depends on the kiss but i love huggingjdhjhd i dont think. id be able to hug certain people tho? which is weird im fine with likejhdhjsjh hugging this person (usually happens when we’re watching movies bc djdkjjs im a [redacted] again so i have to hide my eyes) but i cant imagine myself.. hugging my other friendshjhdh??? idk itd be awkward ig 

shorter or taller: taller ! love me that height if ur below 165 cm dont talk to me

older or younger: older ???? or my age idk 

romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous im always like this with my friendsjhfhjhdh me: hey lets walk there instead my friends: ready tof ucking kill me

sensitive or loud: a ? a mediudndjs like... an in between 

hookup or relationship: preferably nothing but relationship of coursehjhd

troublemaker or hesitant: an inbetween jjdshjshd?? idk shit lads

have you ever:

kissed a stranger: nope

drank hard liquor: drank sparkling water once it counts 

lost contacts/glasses: no im so blind they always have to be on my fucking face 

sex on first date: sex never . 

broken someone’s heart: yeah but when i was kid so it probably didnt mean much 

been arrested: iddjsh i was gonna joke but i cant think of anything so no

turned someone down: jhdhhdjs yeah but mostly like hangouts?? hdjhd not like dates and shit 

fallen for a friend: let me think the first girl i liked wasnt a friend but when we became friends i was like o womrie nvm but she did help me realize im Not straight as did tumblr which even tho i constantly insult it helped me a lot fjdhjhs but my two crushes after were on my friends ;-/ my first crush unfortunately on a guyddhhs wasnt my friend either tho damn now u guys know my whole backstory :D

do you believe:

in yourself: sometimes bitch has 2 get those grades man

miracles: yes you (love live) please come home........ ... .... 

love at first sight: dam. was gonna talk abt anime again but hjhdhshj no ? i guess not maybe like wow ur attractive at first sight but thats it

if u read until the end thank u ur the realest have a good day!!!!!

[traciedemars]

Let's talk about CLOSING COSTS!   Upcoming Free (& non-promotional) Home Buyer & Seller Classes:   Until further notice, all classes are going to be held virtually due to the Coronavirus. Please email traciedemars@aol.com, or cberglender@gmail.com for a link & password to the classes.   Thank you!   Home Buyer Classes: Saturday, May 9th, from 9am-11am Saturday, May 16th, from 12pm-2pm Tuesday, May 19th, from 5pm-7pm Saturday, May 30th, from 11am-1pm Seller Classes: Saturday, May 16th, from 9am-11am Thursday May 21st, from 5pm-7pm If these class dates and/or times don't work for you, please let us know.  We understand that you have lives, and families, and work.  We will work something out that works better with your schedule.  Just let us know....       Good morning...  or afternoon?  I have lost all sense of time, and dates.  It's a weird time in our lives right now.  A few weeks ago when I wrote up the 'Forbearance and what it really means' blog, I thought that we would all be back to 'normal' by now...whatever 'normal' is...  However, I think we can all agree that 2020 is the year that time forgot, and here we were all excited about holidays falling on weekend days...   Chris & I are getting used to the virtual classes, and people seem to like them.  It is a shorter time frame though so there are things we simply do not have time to cover, and that's why I need to step these up again to at least every other week instead of just once a month as I've been doing.  Please, if you have any questions, send them over to me, and I will be happy to help!  Chris and I are both still working.  I am still showing homes, and writing up offers, but showing homes is a bit trickier right now as we do want everyone to be safe, and we have to work within the guidelines that we have been given.  Who says an old dog can't learn new tricks???   Just a quick message...  usually about now we would be having our Client Appreciation Event where we THANK YOU for your friendship, your referrals, your continued business & support...and well, just for being part of our lives!  We LOVE YOU.  Let's be honest...that's not happening this year, so be on the lookout for a little something-something from me and Chris Berg in your mailbox in the next few weeks.  When you get it you just have to tag us on the social media of your choice...Facebook?  Instagram?  ...and maybe leave us a glowing review somewhere??  We miss you!!                                                 I want to go over Closing costs this time, and 'hopefully' I will be able to get a short video out on this too.  I am working on that one...  Let me know what you think!  Closing costs are an important part of the home buying (or selling) process, but no one really knows what they are, are often how much they're going to be....and why is that?  Well, first you need to know that there are 28 people involved in the purchase/sale of a home.  You will most likely only ever see four of them.... your lender, your agent, your inspector, and your title officer at the end.  You'll hear a lot about appraisers, and underwriters, but that is a different blog.  Everyone has a job to do in the transfer of the property from the seller to the buyer....and everyone needs to get paid.  Your buyers agent is FREE  (don't get caught by 'buyers agency fees' as those are not common), but that may be the only free thing you get.  Seriously... you don't have to pay for a buyers agent!  There is your good news.  :-D     So what the heck is closing costs then?  Lots of people talk about closing costs, but most people don't understand what they are...or how they're paid. Closing costs have two separate parts really...1....the part associated with your loan, and 2...the part associated with the title company and changing the ownership of the home to you..      One thing you need to know is that closing costs are not set...in other words...one persons closing costs will not be the same as another persons closing costs.  Why?  Because ...1....every person has a different loan based on their credit scores, type of loan, amount of home buying, amount (if any) of downpayment, what day they're closing (keys) on, interest rate, APR rate, lender they're using (some have more fees than others), etc...  See how complicated that can get?     So what about the second part?  Well, that can differ as well based on the title company since not every title company charges exactly the same for their individual costs.  Then there is also the costs for the property taxes of the home, time of year you are buying based on when the taxes are due/have been paid, cost of your home owners insurance, amount of loan interest, and more.  Even more confusing, yes?         Ok...now I know you are thinking that this weeks post is pointless then, but really, I have a point!  :-)  My point is that closing costs are variable based on you, your loan, your lender, your (soon to be) new home, and on the title company.  So how do you figure that out?  Well, really no one can figure out HOW much your closing costs are going to be until you have an accepted offer on a home...then we can figure out what your closing costs will be because you will have a home to base numbers off of, a loan chosen, a lender, and the title company picked out.  Most numbers in real estate are a guesstimate until you have all the pieces in place...all the ducks in order...so to speak.      When you are getting pre-approved, your lender will base all your numbers on a guesstimate...what we think your costs are going to be.  Most times lenders, etc will guess high so that the numbers will come in smaller and more affordable for you.  It is always better to look like a hero than a zero!  :-)   I know, I know...still not very helpful is it?  I am sorry.  Closing costs are as individual as you are.  However, 98% of buyers will request the seller to pay for 2%-3% of their closing costs.  Where does that number come from though as even this number changes depending on the person, their loan, the home involved, etc.       Well, to start...  a FHA loan requires 3.5% downpayment.  FHA is the most common loan type for buyers as it is very forgiving, and easier for the majority of folks to get pre-approved for.  There are some loans, and yes, grants too, that can take care of that down payment for you....meaning a ZERO down loan for you, the buyer.  There are some additional fees to using these down payment assistance programs that is part of your closing costs.  There is also a zero down USDA loan that has other fees associated with it.   On average, the costs between title, loan, lender, taxes, interest, insurance, etc....run about 2%-3% of the homes purchase price....rarely does it run more.    When listing a home, I (and many other agents) include at least some seller paid closing costs to the sales price of the home.  This is done because so many buyers request those from the seller, and this way it isn't a surprise to the seller.  So, yes, some sellers will pay for your closing costs when buying a home...of course, that depends on if there are other offers involved.  In a multiple offer situation the seller may not pay any closing costs.  One thing you need to know though is that if you ask for 3% in closing costs, and the lender only needs 2%, you don't get that other 1%....it goes back to the seller.  You can't get cash back from buying a home....unless you are having your earnest money &/or appraisal fee returned to you...this happens if you are using a loan that covers your costs and fees.  Usually your appraisal is part of your closing costs (but paid for at time of appraisal), and your earnest money is applied toward your down payment, or your closing costs.     Again, 85% of the time a buyer will request some of the closing costs to be paid for by the seller.  The other 15% of the time a buyer will pay their own closing costs so they don't have to finance them.  Right there is the REALITY of closing costs.  The seller never actually 'pays' for your closing costs... the buyer is financing them into the purchase price of the home...adding the closing costs to their loan.  The seller is merely accepting less than the purchase price so that the buyer can do this.  If you remember ANYTHING about this email...that is what you should remember.So, if a buyer has their own down payment, the lender can also help pay closing costs, and this can be done a couple of different ways.  If a buyer is using one of the down payment assistance loans or grants, or the USDA loan, the lender can't help pay those closing costs.  The buyer can use their earnest money towards these though.  Not asking a seller for help with closing costs does make for a 'stronger' offer, but let's be honest...that isn't always an option for a lot of people.  However, if able to do so, sometimes people will use the zero down loan or the down payment assistance loans, and use the money they have for their own closing costs, but asking the seller for help with closing costs is quite common.  Really it depends on many things.   In short....buyers responsibility for closing costs are:* Lender's Title Insurance Policy* Half of the escrow fee* Home Inspection (paid for at time of inspection)* Recording fees* First year Homeowners Insurance Premium* First year Flood Insurance (if applies)* Pro-rated property taxes* Appraisal fee (paid for when appraisal is ordered)* Survey fee (if required)* HOA fees (if applies)* Pro-rated HOA fees (if applies)* Lender fees;  appraisal fee (see above), credit report, loan origination fee, pre-paid interest, private mortgage insurance  All of these fees can change depending on the title company, the lender you've hired (closing costs can differ between lenders as some charge more & some charge less), the home insurance company you are using, the home inspector you've hired, the appraisers and what they're charging (and if you need a rush), etc.. Let me see if I can't make that part a bit easier... I am going to give you 2 loans to choose from, and we are going to PRETEND that I am loaning you $1,000 for a year First loan is 0% interest.                           Second loan is 5% interest. What loan do you want?  The 0% one, right?  Most people (in the class) always choose this one, but frankly, there's not enough detail here for you choose a loan, so let's take it a step further....  I have to charge you (the buyer) closing costs.  Closing costs is to pay for all those 28 people that are involved in the purchase/sale of a home.  The seller has their own portion of closing costs to pay as well.  On 'average', the closing costs for the seller are going to be about 8%-9% of the purchase price.  Yep... there's a cost to buy a home, and a cost to sell a home too.                                                                    First loan at 0%                                        Second loan at 5% Remember...closing costs....     Bank one charges $200                                Bank two charges  $100 So, what happens a year from now?  How much of your money do I have a year from now when you come back and pay me back my $1000 that I loaned to you?  Well....let's break that down...  Remember that the original $1000 doesn't count because it was already my money.  I loaned it to you, and now you are paying it back to me...                                                                                    First loan at 0%                                                                  Second loan at 5%       Closing costs....      Bank one charges $200                                             Bank two charges  $100     Interest...  Bank one has   0%                                                        Bank two has      $50                            ----------                                                                         ------------ How much of your money do I have?                            With Bank one I have  $200                      Wit          h Bank two I have $150

So with bank one it's going to cost you 20% to borrow that money for a year, & with bank two it's going to be 15%...   which one is better now?   This is a very simplified example, but you get it.  There is a lot more to closing costs & buying a home than just interest rate.  You could have an amazing, unheard of interest rate, but the costs to get that rate could end up being astronomical, and not worth it over the length of your ownership.  Remember that interest rates are NOT controlled or governed by the lenders....it is by the GOVERNMENT.  All lenders are very close to each other because the interest rate is not in their control.  Realistically speaking it is how much they are going to CHARGE you for the loan and the interest rate that is going to matter.   as always....I am available for questions...as is Chris Berg with Cardinal Financial (cberg@gmail.com or chris.berg@cardinalfinancial.com & 503-320-0925 cell)       One last thing you need to remember is that a real estate agent is not a sales person.  It is not our job to 'sell' you anything.  We are assistants, advisers, guidance, and help.  You should not feel as if your agent is trying to sell you a home, or anything else, our job should be to help you in getting the home you want.  This being said remember that you do not get T-Bone steaks for the price of hamburger...Look ONLY at homes within your budget.  ALWAYS ask questions, and expect answers without a lot of lingo.  I was always told that if you can't explain something in a way that the other person can understand clearly, it is because you don't understand it yourself.  :-)             Information is power, and I hope that I am able to help you.  Good luck, and as always...May the odds be ever in your favor out there....  AND If you are looking for a real estate agent, I would love to be able to help you.                                                                                                                                                   As always....this is just a quick overview.... again...and I can't say this enough...please remember that your agent is NOT a salesperson, and should not be acting like one.  Real Estate is not really about houses, it is about relationships.  Your agent, and your lender work for YOU.  You drive the bus...we are merely GPS to help you get to your goals.  Like the classes, this weekly blog email is to help you with your home adventure.  The goal is to be informative and non-promotional.  :-)  We are, however, hoping you will call and want us to help with your adventure.   If you have any questions about this, or something you have heard...or if you would like me to help you with your home adventure, please call, email,  text, or facebook me anytime.  I am, as always, happy to help! Thank you again for your business and your referrals!!  ...and thank you for referring these classes to your friends, family, and co-workers.   .   ..disclaimer...if you have already purchased a home, or would no longer like to receive these emails, please let me know and I will be happy to remove you from any further mailings...   Upcoming Topics: Can you buy a home with ZERO out of pocket??What are the costs of buying a home?  ALL of them??Buyers Agency...what are they really, and do you have to sign one? Last Month:  What does forbearance really mean?   Have a great day, and I will talk to you soon, ;-D Tracie DeMars Real Estate broker Re/Max - Van Mall 360/ 903-3504 cell 360/ 882-3600 fax www.traciedemars.com traciedemars@aol.com “Interested in free and non promotional home education classes?  Go to www.learningtobuyahome.com or www.freesellerclasses.com, for local upcoming home buyer and home SELLER classes, or facebook: Tracie DeMars Real Estate for my home buyer education blog.” "Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be."   - Shel Silverstein, American poet, cartoonist and composer, (1930 - 1999).

[kansascityhappenings]

Joe’s Weather World: Snow moving through plus bitterly cold air today (SAT-1/11)

I tell you what this storm was frustrating…it has been all week and when you think you sort of have a good feeling for how things will play out…a piece of data comes in that can shake that confidence. It got to a point last night where I just said to myself…keep the forecast the same and let the cards play out on their own.

That is happening now…the snow is picking up on the KS side especially and slowly expanding eastbound. A couple of inches are likely with some getting maybe 3″ or so. Temperatures are dropping. As I type this we’re in the lower teens which is impressive and we have sub-zero wind chills as well.

I’ll be glad when this storm is toast that’s for sure. A wild ride and again, as I’ve written all week…just so much different than the winter storms last season when things played out pretty much as expected.

Forecast:

Today: Snow through about 4PM or so then cloudy skies. Cold with teens during the day. Wind chills in the negative territory.

Tonight: Mostly cloudy…IF we get more breaks we may really tank to 0° to 5° above. Otherwise single digit lows. Winds settle down somewhat

Tomorrow: Partly cloudy turning cloudy with snow showers possible later in the afternoon. IF we get some heavier showers we could see a dusting out there. When this happens the winds may pick up as well.

Monday: Better with highs near 40° with upside.

Discussion:

Well let’s start with radar…

From 11AM-2PM or so this will be the bulk of the accumulating snow. Again a couple of inches likely.

This storm has given me fits and frustrations.

In reality, at least through this minute…the storm has been well forecast. The glazing…the colder air…the impacts to the Metro roads…predicted to the hour on Thursday for what happened on Friday…but in the end we’re judged, fairly or unfairly (mostly fairly) by how much snow falls.

In the end 2-4″ would probably have been the best forecast from the get go. It’s tough to do that though when we have data that was showing so much moisture coming down during this phase of the storm. Granted it was overdone…and we knew that mostly…but when the data was pointing to 1/3rd of an inch to 1/2″ of liquid equivalent combined with the colder temperatures…that’s the recipe for more snow.

The comma-head part of the storm was the whole snow maker for us…it’s happening now as I type this…but it just wont’ be able to generate that much liquid equivalent. It will be more like half that…which cuts down on the snow amounts.

Hey…it’s snowing…accumulating and it will be more than 1″. Last night I cut the forecast to 2-6″ stressing that the 5-6″ range was the real high end…and concentrating more on the 2-4″ range of possibilities…I even showed this graphic for my confidence level of what may unfold.

So it more or less is working out.

Heck we even got the timing for the main part of the snow to work out almost to the hour from 48 hours ago.

Again though in the end it’s about the totals. 2-3+” seem to be what we’re looking at.

By no means a perfect forecast..but overall from a timing perspective to impacts…to the expected lull last night…to the accumulating snow today…to the timing of that accumulation and everything in between…right now…I’m giving myself a solid B (maybe B+). I hope you agree.

Here is the storm…

The temperatures are also impressively cold.

It’s in the teens and steady now…we’ll end up bitterly cold tonight…potentially near 0° in some areas with the dry air in place and the clearing skies. The winds should turn towards the SW overnight so that may prevent a total free fall…but this will be the coldest night of the winter season so far.

Tomorrow is another interesting day…not so much in the morning but in the afternoon.

Another disturbance will be coming this way…and it’s a small but potent one. The issue is that this storm is going to try to sweep away the moisture in the atmosphere to some extent. The next inbound one has to try and saturate the atmosphere very quickly tomorrow.

During the spring with a lot of surface moisture…this would be a severe weather set-up. The dynamic wave will generate a lot of lift as it approaches so that clouds will rapidly develop and fill in.

From those clouds…snow showers are likely…there may be some rain drops mixed in…maybe even some sleet/graupel or something weird too. This should develop in the afternoon and fly through parts of the area. Winds will be increasing as well as this approaches and moves through. IF it comes out a bit farther south…we could even see a dusting of whatever in parts of the area. Something that I’ve talked about since Thursday on the air. Need to watch this.

Then it settles down a bit but another fast moving wave may generate some rain on Monday night or early Tuesday morning.

There should be some pretty cold air coming in WED into THU…and the GFS is trying to create some ice around these parts at the end of the week as the colder air departs. We’ll see about that.

OK that’s it…I’m burned out. These storms are like I’m in a 10 round boxing match. I take them very personally…after a few rounds of rope a dope…we get settled in…then there are a flurry of body blows in the end and we see who wins when the final bell chimes.

Our feature photo is from Brittany Isabell up in St Joseph, MO.

Joe

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[little-forget-me-not]

Ughhhh….

You finally up?

Uugghhghhhhhh….

You sound like me when I’m hungover. Except your alcohol is depression.

Shut up…

How do you feel?

Like shit.

Do you know what time it is? It’s 2PM, Rei.

Uuughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……

Your bear friend is right: you need a schedule.

Yeah…

You either don’t get enough sleep or you sleep too goddamn much.

I know…

There needs to be a balance.

I know…But what about all that stuff about being flexible and living as per the day?

Yes, but the human body needs a structure and schedule to acclimatise to. Otherwise it’s all out of whack and unhealthy. I’m all free and easy but I have a set timing on when I wake up, when I sleep and eat and get stuff done.

You do?

Yeah, and that’s important. Kite’s got to be tethered to something if it wants to be free and safe to fly. Your broken ass kite ain’t going anywhere but be ripped to shreds if it ain’t tied to something constant. How you gon’ fly then, huh?

I thought you were about boats. Now kites?

Don’t diss on my analogies. Look, free and easy don’ mean no plans at all. And with your depression you know you have to set mini goals to accomplish each day.

Why do you have to keep mentioning depression…

To remind you to do something about it instead of letting it run you. So what are you going to do about it?

Ok, ok. I know we need a schedule.

Not we. You. No more sleeping for 10 hours, alright? You know you don’t sleep well in the daylIght. It just makes you sick. You don’t have to wake at 7AM or even 8AM in the morning. But it ain’t right for you to wake up past noon and feel like shit.

Okay....okay. So I gotta set a sleep schedule and a food schedule.Obviously I won’t be sleeping before 1AM.

That’s fine. Just not over 3AM. Heck, forget that. Not over 2AM.

Vot sleeps at 4AM though...

Vot can take care of himself. You apparently can’t.

Okay, fine. I could wake up about 9 or 10AM I guess. And sleep at 2AM. That’s about enough hours of sleep and night, right?

Yeah.

Don’t you wake up at 11AM?

So yeah, you need breakfast. You need 3 meals a day.

WHAT.

Nutrition is important.

I feel like...nutrition is a myth.

Rei. What the fuck.

I don’t want to argue about food today...

Okay, but at least eat 3 times a day so your body can settle into a rhythm. And exercise briefly in between those meals or something. You need to get your body to move and your heart to PUMP.

Yeah that sounds appealing...

You can get back to getting bread and tomatoes to snack on. 

...money...

If I were corporeal, I would buy it all and force feed you. But I’m not. And you need to really start looking for a job.

Can we get the schedule rolling before that?

Yeah, I think you kinda need to.

So sleep not before 2AM, wake not before 10AM, prepare snacks and food for the following day or week, eat 3 times a day, exercise in between...is that a schedule?

It’s good enough for now.

Okay.

You should also really get to setting those hangouts.

Yeah...Oof. I feel ill though. It’s like everything takes way too much energy and effort. Can’t even get out of bed, yknow?

I think that’s depression. And you can fight it as long as you have a purpose, right?

Something like that. Except what the fuck am I going to do when I wake up. That’s the main issue I have, man.

Let’s do the setting of the schedule first. Also you need to clean your room.

Ughhh......I know.

Maybe Thursday?

GOD, I don’t know. Maybe next week. We’ll see.

Gotta keep it concrete, Rei.

I know... I’ll go eat now.

Yeah you do that.

Do I have to exercise after?

...don’t do it immediately after you eat, idiot. But remember to stand up and stretch and air your ass.

Okay. Do jumping-jacks count as exercise?

It’s better than nothing, Rei. It’s better than nothing.

[g4free-stuff]

Best Time to Send Email Newsletters

The Very Best Time to Send Email Newsletters

Timing is the whole lot – proper? Properly, it can no longer be the whole lot, but it definitely topics, in particular when it comes to getting subscribers to notice and open your emails.

Excellent time to send e mail campaign

So while is the fine time to ship newsletter emails? We have a few advice and we’re keen to proportion.

First-class e mail send time: trendy advice

Those popular e-mail ship time hints are widely generic by using the email marketing community. They may be exceptional when you’re taking off, but make sure to study on and spot why they gained’t always paintings.

Sunlight hours vs. Middle of the night. At the same time as this one may be apparent, it’s commonly higher to ship out your email campaigns at some stage in the daytime. You understand, when people are awake. Not asleep.

Mad mondays. The overall consensus is that you should avoid sending out e mail blasts on mondays. Why? People are already bummed out approximately the end of the weekend. They march into the workplace and are flooded with emails they’ve accumulated during the last few days. What’s the primary thing they do? Delete the ones emails of course!

Weekends. Historically, weekends are the times whilst folks are out going for walks errands and occurring adventures. Weekends have a tendency to have low open costs, so maximum marketers avoid them like the plague.

Supply heads up for an occasion. Even as 23% of emails are opened within 60 mins after being sent, there are a few lingerers who might not check out your e mail until an afternoon or two later. To be secure, send out event-oriented emails three-five days prior to an event.

Fan favorites: tuesday, wednesday, and thursday. Tuesday, wednesday, and thursday have historically been favored days to ship e-mail campaigns, as e mail entrepreneurs are looking for to avoid the monday angst and friday’s itchy-toes. Mailchimp confirms that tuesday and thursday are the 2 maximum famous days to ship e-mail newsletters.

Nice time to ship emails

Mid-week, mid-day: the attempted-and-authentic conventional method of sending out e mail campaigns in the middle of the week and inside the middle of the day has a tendency to do pretty well. Standard understanding shows sending emails among 1-3pm (nine-11am is recommended as well). It’s safe. It’s reliable. It’s now not a horrific choice. Simply keep in mind, not anything ventured, not anything won. Mailchimp shows 2 pm as the ideal send time based totally on their statistics.

While to ship e mail campaigns

That’s the advice. Now ignore it.

The tips above are considered fashionable first-class exercise advice for e-mail advertising. But, there are numerous, many, situations which quickly undertaking the classical hints above.

Just test our personal wordstream data.

High-quality time to send emails: thursday 8 – nine am

Maximum electronic mail advertising articles would declare that eight am is too early to send an electronic mail publication, but it really works splendid for wordstream blasts – we get over 25% open prices with this time!

Worst time to send emails: tuesday & wednesday 8 – 10 am

Many would declare that tuesday and wednesday mornings ought to be incredible times to send emails, but we’ve located that tuesday mornings bring about beneath five% open quotes, while wednesday mornings have beneath 5% click on to open ratios.

Our wordstream information shows that the repute just ain’t constantly quo.

There are numerous motives why these antique classic hints don’t imply squat ultimately.

Beating the frenzy.

So absolutely everyone consents that tuesday, wednesday, and thursday are the pleasant days to ship out an electronic mail campaign. Unless your competitors live north of winterfell, they in all likelihood have heard this sage recommendation as properly. Which means that you’re facing a ton of competition by means of sending out emails on the “encouraged” days and instances.

In case you don’t want your electronic mail publication to wander off within the hustle, swimming upstream may be your satisfactory guess. Despite the fact that mondays and fridays are typically no longer encouraged, who is to mention they won’t give you the results you want?

It relies upon at the device.

Conventional “best time to send an electronic mail” numbers are being thrown to the wind as person conduct change across gadgets. The standard mid-week, mid-day makes perfect sense for desktop users who're establishing emails at work. Mobile customers, alternatively, have a tendency to be quite lively even past due in the nighttime.

Whilst to ship email e-newsletter

It’s worth noting that even though activity on cell gadgets is plentiful on nights and weekends, a brafton study suggests that 55% of customers open emails on computer systems, at the same time as only 25% open emails on cell devices. But, this examine became performed in 2013, and with customers developing more reliant on cellular devices every day, those variety could without problems exchange. I also suspect that as businesses learn to craft extra mobile-friendly emails, we’ll see greater email open prices on cellular gadgets.

Demographics: realize your target audience

Expertise your demographics is the single most vital factor you may do for e mail advertising achievement. They’re your target audience - you have to recognize their habits and cater to them.

A few examples of ways demographics override the safe “pleasant time to ship” wellknown advice:

If you’re concentrated on the younger, tech-obsessed crowd, you would in all likelihood forget about the overall tip approximately now not sending emails at night time. Nighttime emails may want to work just exceptional for more youthful audiences.

The tons-maligned friday might be a first rate desire if you’re in the entertainment industry, with parents looking for amusing things to do over the weekend.

Weekends don’t need to be off-bounds either. What in case you’re interested in reaching tech-savvy audiences in bloodless-weather climates? I guess they spend masses of time checking emails on saturday and sunday.

Don’t forget to don't forget your target demographics’ time region – you actually need to personalize electronic mail ship times depending on in which your recipients stay.

The closing solution to the “whilst to ship an email” question

The answer to “what's the quality time to ship an electronic mail campaign?” is that there may be no single “exceptional time” to ship an e mail – it depends on your audience.

I recognise, what a cop-out answer! It’s proper though. While there are sure days of the week and times that are generally recommended by means of the larger email advertising and marketing network, we’ve shown nowadays how easy it is to refute the ones claims.

Perhaps you’re questioning – come on megan, i came right here for an answer, no longer a few nietzsche-esque statement approximately subjective truth. To which i’d say satisfactory; the mid-day, mid-week motto is a exceptional area to begin and have to carry out decently sufficient.

But, if you really need to rock electronic mail advertising and marketing and ship out your e-mail newsletters on the very high-quality time for most useful opens and clicks, you need to test!

A/b test your ship instances like loopy. That is clearly the excellent manner to discover an appropriate send time for your unique target audience.

Not getting the open charges you want? Don’t blame the hour.

Awful open prices aren’t just about your send instances. If your open rates aren’t looking so accurate, keep in mind those factors as properly:

Do you have got a standout difficulty line? Problem strains are large in relation to email advertising. You may argue that concern strains are even extra vital the email copy, because it’s the subject traces’ task to get people opening your message initially. Ensure you have a saucy, enticing concern line and you are now not making commonplace subject line mistakes. Strive sorting out our submit at the first-rate electronic mail difficulty traces to growth open fees.

Are you sending too many emails? Nobody likes a blabbermouth. Could your low open fees be the end result of sending out too many emails? Perhaps you’re bugging the heck out of your email subscribers.

Is your message cellular-friendly? Your emails truly need to be cell-pleasant, cease of story.

Do you've got any tips at the best times to send e mail blasts? What works for you? What doesn’t work for you? Share your experience within the remarks! And check out our series of 35 more stats and statistics about electronic mail marketing.

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