#//suicide

[nozomi-kaizoku]

(CW: GENDER DYSPHORIA AND SUICIDE)

I fucking hate being trans so much it physically hurts.

I will never be able to wear clothing without feeling uncomfortable about it because my boobs still show under them, I can't sign any fucking papers without crying about having to put my fucking dead name, and it doesn't matter how many times I correct people, nobody will see me as a "real boy" and I fucking hate it.

If God really does exist, I fucking hate him for doing this to me. In fact I'm glad he doesn't because I would start throwing hands right the fuck now, fuck him honestly

I know damn well there's gonna be people telling me "but I believe you're a real boy 🥺", and to those motherfuckers, this ain't about you, so I don't wanna hear it here.

And the fucked up part: I don't think I'll be able to turn 18 given my mental health and the situation I'm in regarding therapy, so I'm practically stuck like this until i finally kill myself from the stress of just being alive. It's fucking hell for me.

I don't care if this comes off as "rude" or me " overreacting" or any of that shit, I can't take it anymore. I just need to get this off my chest.

That's all.

[crazyexdirkfriend]

jake the kind of guy to be like wouldn’t it be romantic if we were in love in the 1500s but i was forced to marry someone else so we had to run away together and kill ourselves so we could be together in the afterlife <3 <3 <3 and then not reply to dirk’s texts for three weeks

[raiy-yn]

Ever wonder what dysphoria is like? Well imagine that you are hearing a recording of your voice but it’s all the time over everything and it’s so bad that you wanna throw yourself off a cliff hoping the next life won’t be so needlessly cruel

[amygdalae]

Me: damn this situation I'm in sure isn't ideal, what am I gonna do about this

Suicidal Ideation Man who lives in my brain: perhaps I have a suggestion ☝️🤓

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

[brucefromfamilyguy]

[rrinnna]

the realization this brought me made me cry actual tears.. [not mine]

[mothtowers]

suprised more people havent seen the fuller context of this clip cause its way more insane

[plnkbow]

These movies made me who I am

[ooppo]

Medieval authors were so fucking funny. In "The Faerie Queene" this guy comes up to the main hero and is like "Don't go over to that cave, there's a guy inside that makes people kill themselves." And the hero is like "Bet." and goes into the cave. Then the old man (literally called Despair) is like "If you die, you can't commit sin." and can you guess what happened.

[shitbl0gger]

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[bugbashir]

When I was a very suicidal trans activist in Texas, Benjamin Sisko saying “sure, you would [die for your people]. Dying gets you off the hook. The question is: are you willing to live for your people?” changed and possibly saved my life. It’s up there with “if we are going to be damned, let us be damned for who we really are” from Picard. Star Trek not only shows us a better world, it teaches us how to make it there

[redacted-metallum]

I need to [remembers I shouldn't make suicide jokes] join a whaling crew

[patroclusdefencesquad]

no one does it like him any more

[liberalsarecool]

Republicans spread trauma.