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nullians · 1 month

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It’s actually insane how fandom in general has become so scared of making weird and dark and ugly works. Like I look at myself and see how I have also subconsciously adapted this instinct to self censor and make things “marketable” and it’s making me want to crawl out of my skin. I need to get weirder and worse and more off-putting hello

#I need to write a proper Spectra&Gus meta bc it’s been cooking me how people don’t Want to see the insanity in them #argh #d0 stuff #negative #d0 smashes the keyboard #like yes #Gus’s devotion and loyalty are extreme and these feelings make him do stupid things that he is absolutely aware of being stupid #but let’s not pretend that these feelings go both ways in their relationship #Spectra (for like. the majority of the New Vestroia except the maybe last 12 eps?) sees Gus as a convenient tool #like Yeah he is like. a person and all that but Spectra doesn’t Interact with him when it doesn’t concern his business so #and also yes. he gives Gus a level of autonomy that one might not exactly expect from how usually these relationships go but #one Has to question if it’s bc of his goodwill or bc he is safe in his knowledge that Gus would never leave him #which. fun and sick and makes them sooo compelling #I would also argue that Spectra/Keith don’t even miss Gus when he ‘died’ as a person at first #but as the second pair of hands for work #like it was quite funny to see Spectra give instructions to air only to be reminded that his minion died #but it does rise the question of why hasn’t it happened before or in any other situation #(which I must say I really dig because yes. Spectra has always been centred around his ambitions so ofc this is where it would hurt first)#but yeah. sth sth Spectra only starts his journey of Actually giving a shit about Gus and acknowledging his importance to him as a person #by the end of nv #you could still argue it was partially (or maybe wholly) motivated by convenience that Gus presents but #it really was the first time Spectra has personally expressed his tie to Gus gah #all of this to say #they are sickos; each in their own way; and I think we can really make this more sinister and insane than we’ve allowed ourselves #throughout the years so far #like yeah. can I see them as a happy couple? sure! but also can I see this as a very codependent (more so from Gus’s angle) relationship #that’s being sprinkled with Tons of manipulation from Spectra? also yes #actually sorry for this wall of tags idk what got me thinking about them again #but it’s so so biting the bars day bc these guys are so fun!! we just have to let them be and maybe read canon through less good intentions #ok uhhh

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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Wait are writing a fic for your au cause im like down to clown with that?

ehhhhhh not really, unless by some miracle genuine writing motivation/inspiration hits, which is about as rare as a lightning strike these days!

sometimes i jot down scenes or conversations & post unedited snippets, but i haven't written a full fic or oneshot in.... since February! but hey! chances are low but never zero

#HAS IT REALLY BEEN AROUND 7 MONTHS??? DAMN TIME FLIES. IT ROCKETS. IT ZOOMS AT LIGHTSPEED #like there's stuff i Want to write #like the decapitation fic & the laughingstock fic & stuff for aus.....#but geez. man. Fuck....#my writing skills have atrophied and so has my Brain!#though i am going to be proceeding to the final stage of my Big Move next month so....#maybe once all this bullshit is over ill be in a space where i Can write #(and also respond to my friends which is killing me inside but this aint about that)#bc i am down to clown as well! but the clown in me is actually a jester. and that jester is jingling miserably across the floor #rambles from the bog #the tension between me & writing/editing a full fic is thick enough to cut with a knife #but yeah i had it good for a couple years there!#i was writing at Least a fic a month! my ao3 has 53 works of batman fanfiction (in varying degrees of quality) wowee!#*loosely batman. mostly his kids. w/ some yj or supers sprinkled in for Flavor...#but Anyway i would looooove to spice things up #And Post Puppet Fic. maybe some moomin....#or even original works! or flight rising! idk! i wanna expand my inventory!#once again guiltily looking at all of my dc wips. sigh

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54625 · 4 months

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#do you ever just feel like if the colour grey was an emotion #i feel bored and empty #not entirely sure why that is but i don't think the QSMP's... everything is helping #i guess it's only natural that a source of comfort shrivelling and dying ends up making you feel a little worse #I'd be lying if i said I wasn't sad every time i open the QSMPtag and the most recent post was like 4 hours ago and there have only been #like thirty posts in the past day #either way #yeah feeling a little. ehh #dude I'll be completely honest #when i posted that most recent fanart i put my phone down for a couple hours #and when i came back to check up on how the post had been doing #and it had like 18 notes. a couple hours after I posted it. idk what I expected but in my head i was hoping for over fifty at the very least #I'd be lying if I said that didn't break my heart a bit #the post didn't end up doing terribly after that though; roughly ≈450 notes isn't. bad? but i spent 11 fucking hours on that damn thing #at least i got some really nice compliments on it #but that initial disappointment stung enough that my motivation to put effort into fanart again is. definitely absent right now #i guess i can't expect a huge turnout with how empty the fandom is now #but sometimes i see other artists in the fandom get so much attention so quickly and i wonder what I'm doing wrong #maybe it's a skill issue lmfao #whatever. feeling a little unfulfilled right now and wanted to get it off my chest. don't expect massive engagement from me #I'm not going anywhere I'm just not super enthusiastic at the moment #who knows maybe I'll find things to be hyped about and talk extensively about

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gh-0-stcup · 5 months

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My thing is that I just do not trust a single person who was involved in the show. It just seems like a lot of PR to fix their image and foster sympathy/goodwill/interest.

#i haven't seen compelling evidence that anybody actually tried to fight for canon (and reciprocated) destiel #just admissions that they played into the subtext #(which we already knew - that's why spn's been considered a prime example of queerbaiting since like 2011)#and non-committal statements about the pairing being compelling #edlund seemed to specifically say he wasn't censored/forced to rework due to the gay #yeah misha said the cw's homophobic and suggested the network was the barrier #but at least half of what comes out of misha's mouth is bullshit #like he also said they tried to pay him to stay bisexual #and as a result there's now a bunch of support being tossed out to the writers and some fans are talking about them like they're heroes #who valliantly fought against a homophobic network and were totally going to make dean and cas a couple #but were foiled by said network which is why the show ended with the gays being buried yet again #you see in the secret unreleased version...#and if we just let jensen make another season he won't let us down because of xyz vague statements #nevermind that he made a new show where cas was also never mentioned - cw censorship #nevermind the straightwashed version of soldier boy he's playing - that's kripke's fault #nevermind the statements he's made in the past about destiel and dean's sexuality - he's changed his mind #you can tell because he's said it's okay for fans to have their own interpretations about the series #idk maybe i'm too cynical and i'm being unfair #there's just too much vagueness from pretty much everybody for me to put faith in their intentions #especially if they are seriously considering attempting to revive the series - this sort of thing is great for drumming up interest #the writers being censored by homophobic execs is a familiar narrative ofc - but i don't see anything solid to suggest this is what happened #and it's not like there weren't queer relationships on tv when spn was airing - the show ended in 2020 #it isn't even like there weren't queer relationships shown on the cw during spn's run - there were more than a few #i just have so many questions #spn #destiel

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em-b-sides · 2 months

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I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

#like its so cute honestly but sometimes i wonder how hard it would actually be to like find the right color match #maybe one day... but for now probably expect oc art with this trend in it maybe 💀#the thing about it too is i have like dark eyes and idk if ive ever seen like a dark brown nail polish. beads or thread yeah but ya #oh nvm i googled. it exists i just dont pay attention ig #OH you know what i can do... i can paint pepperonis eye color on my nails.... my baby... my kitty......#dude it feels like 5 am why is it only 2 #amyways. 4 monsters was a big mistake i think... i feel quite icky...#it doesnt help i didnt eat for a majority of the day it was just monster. im really unhealthy. need water maybe #wait i was talking about nail polish how did i get here #i just want to actually do cute couple things. i must heal. im gonna be so healthy.#its fine. lmao. i just know im not ready #oh i did eat btw dont worry lmao i had. chicken nuggets #i actually have to eat more bc i need to gain back some weight or they wont let me donate plasma #my extra pokemon money..... nawr...#i dropped like 10 pounds. my current job is very physical. lots of scuttling around.#i thought about working out too? i had a short phase last year in like spring or something where i started doing workout type stuff #so like.. maybe. probably should. healtly mindset shit yk #i also maybe want some more clothes. like update my wardrobe a bit. really figure out my style.#like some cool shirts and maybe pants. cause i wear a lot of the same stuff #also again. dropped weight so. need better fitting pants.....#i want more mens pants. big pockets... gender....#anyways. nice chatting with you besties. love you guys my silly little tumblr besties.#some of you that follow this sideblog have supported me on here for a while. i see you. i appreciate you. thank you 💖#genuinely there are names that pop up and im like !! hello!!! its you!!!!!#you guys probably know who you are. go get yourself a little treat you deserve it. or like. idk what you enjoy.#play a good game. watch your favorite show. idk. be happy. love yourself.#this also goes out to those of you who are more passive on my blog. i appreciate you too!! thank you!#all my little tumblr followers.... my besties..... unles you are a bot i havent cleared out lmao #k i might have to go to bed idk im tired well see

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#for how long am i gonna wake up.. and have my first thought be him #and then wish that when i look at my phone i will have messages waiting from him #where he said gm and told me abt his day like i had every day for a while..#and then suddenly get anxiety pain in my whole chest and stomach #bc i know i dont have any messages from him. and that we dont really talk anymore #and now idek if he would want to keep message me every once in a while #am i gonna keep living off of the high from one message from him now and then?#like idk :((( it's just so painful #and it does hurt more now bc... for a long time i still hade hope that like ofc we will talk!!!!! when he's ready to talk #we will talk abt everything and it will all be fine ^-^ i really really had trust and belief in that #like i genuinely thought that would happen. bc to /me/ this is the most real and strong thing i've had #which truly i understand is also naive and unwordly of me and also im very intense and emotional abt things #so truly i cannot get mad abt it only have been the one thing to want and to wanna fight for #bc yeah.. ig it just stings a lot more than just a crush bc to me.. like i sound so silly and naive but i should just vent #bc like yeah... i dont have any friends to talk to or a therapist or anything and i need to talk T-T #it's embarrassing but to me i really felt like i had found my person.. the person who i wanted to be the closest to in the world..#felt the kind of love where i would do anything and fight for it to even have a chance.. and yeah..#ig i was very naive to have the 'certainty' that .. i was just waiting and being patient and giving him space. maybe that wasnt actually #what he needed. but w my avpd i didnt know how to be pushy or.. like how to be enough pushy like he would need #without being too intense to push him too far away from me. bc im intense.. so i know that even if he's right for me #im not right for him bc i could not give him what he needs.. :(((#but yeah.. everyday i wake up w so much sadness bc i know i wont get to talk to him all day #and now the sadness is coupled with intense dread and anxiety #bc honestly i have no idea if he'll ever reply to me again or how much we will talk if we even will at all.#and the thought of life without him and not even have him in it even a little makes me wanna die lol #idk.. idk... bc i wont get to have what i want.. which is to simply be with him. but yeah idk... idk #it pains me sm that ... we never did talk to find out whatever was between us. and regardless of intent on his behalf that does make me fee #*i* am the one who valued and cared abt our 'bond' more than he did... but it is what it is it is what it is #it just hurts... bc i found someone i both thought and wanted it to be real with. but... i never even got a chance to try or talk abt it #which also is life.. if he found someone (twice) that he did like enough to want to try with but not with me.. that's just how he felt..

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seventh-district · 3 months

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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #thinking of that post that’s like ‘u Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sick’ bc yeah thats been the vibe #wish i wasn’t so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. i’m that way with everything in my life #i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i don’t write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and that’s obviously not sustainable. but idk if it’s adhd or what but it’s So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever #i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel #nah. once i get myself in the Zone then i’m Goin’ and i can’t stop until i’m Done or i collapse from ignoring my body’s needs lmao #it’s something i should make an effort to do though bc i’d love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts #anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! 🎉#i got the follow-up to last year’s Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months #i wanted to blow the dust off the ol’ keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff #not that i didn’t put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik they’ll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck #so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that i’ll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally #the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit #and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better #so release schedule will be 1. Matt • 2. HiH Ch.3 • 3. [N]MbD small fic • 4. [N]MbD Big fic #then i’m gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then i’ll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot #i also wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again #and after/amidst all that maybe i’ll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year 😭#anyways ik i’ve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline #so don’t put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done #but god i sure fucking hope not. i’d really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy

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mechahero · 7 months

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what is your flower symbolism?

borage

borage represents bluntness and directness. it is possible you're quite dominant and tend to be a shotcaller. you value balance and mutual respect. sometimes people may see you as intimidating or loud. sometimes you may have to tone it down! compatible with violet.

#//huh #//wasn't sure what to expect but it's an interesting result?#//i want to say maybe? but i don't know?#//there are a couple of things that have me like yeah maybe? but again idk fhnjrg #boredom killer {dash games}

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kalashtars · 8 months

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current state of politics really got me swerving wildly between "yes I want to present as a man" and "oh god is this even worth it maybe I'm not even really trans" and it's bringing me to my limit

#damien.txt #sorry its like 5 am and i havent slept and wanna vent so. here inam #i really do be having a wild time bc ill have like. weeks at a time where ill be like. wait a second. what if im not trans actually #okay well. never in a 'im 100% not trans' way but in a 'maybe i shouldnt transition' way #and then ill have a day where i wake up and go. oh. i think that feeling is just coming from fear about. the current state of trans issues #because oh my FUCKING GOD am i scared like 24/7 bc of that shit #and so like. then im like. maybe i really am like. actually transmasc. fr. bc i like. literally have been feeling it my whole life.#and then i wake up a couple weeks later back at the beginning like hmm....... but..... what if....#and im so tired of not knowing!! it's fucking exhausting questioning what the fuck is happening w me every 2 seconds #and im being dramatic abt it but idk. i think its a symptom of neurodivergence or something bc im like. so so scared abt being trans atm #at a level that is. certainly unhealthy.#and it really feels like something that is inhibiting me from doing things in life which is like. upsetting y'know!#but at the same time. the concept of going thru life as my birth gender is... bad. sort of inconceivable at this point.#and this is particularly hard bc like. really going back and forth on making decisions abt taking T. bc when i get in these spirals #abt maybe not being trans. i get the urge to not take it. but like. i cant fluctuate w a medicine like that that much!#but at the same time when i go back to being like oh yeah transmasc... my brain is like cool. take T again. so. fuck me i guess.#idk man. im just like. i just want to live my life without being perceived by others actually #my true gender is no one's business <3 thanks #i am. tired.

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sammygender · 2 years

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listened to three episodes of mabel (the podcast) yesterday. SO good, holy shit. i’ve been meaning to listen for years and i get it immediately. just the first episode was so good. turns out i’m not actually that hard to get into podcasts i just haven’t been finding the right ones…

#i KNOW wtnv is meant to be good. i know i know i know. and the vibes are on peak!! i loooove the energy!!’#But nothing happens. bro. nothing fucking happens. not yet at least #im sorryyyy i need stuff to grip me!!! i enjoy wtnv when i listen to it but i can never listen consistently bc i never ever find myself #wanting to know what happens next #i mean sure i’m only a couple episodes in #but #is the whole show like this?? or does it get more….. plotty? character driven?#it’s got such a huge fan base on here but then again this is the site that can turn anytning into a fan base #same applies for. like. the penumbra podcast. idk i think i tried to start it and i was just like… don’t care. sorry #i have such an I don’t care. issue with media in general. i don’t tend to watch tv alone because i WILL just switch it off. i gotta pick #something and CHOOSE ok i am watching this for the next few weeks! and then set designated times to watch it with my siblings #its just like mehhhh. idk. im picky and i can take mediocrity and find gold in it but i have to be submerged in the mediocrity for that to #happen #but like anyway. wolf 359 is one of my favourite things ever and i thought it was funny and a cool concept at first but it probably would’ve #ended up like every other podcast if i hadn’t told my brother about it and he hasn’t immediately binged the first season #told me it was fucking amazing #and therefore motivated me to speed through until i got to the endish of s1 and went Oh yeah this is some GOOD SHIT.#so maybe i just gotta do that with more stuff???#but anyway. mabel is reaaalllly good #mabel podcast #oliver talks

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the-ark-awaits · 1 year

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it does kinda feel like everything im in is dead. all the roleplays, all the games, its all kinda. just nothing. idk it just kinda feels bad

#and i know logically why most of these things are dead #but like thats not stopping my brain from being like 'ok but actually its not cause of everyone including you being busy'#'its because everyone Secretly Fucking Hates You :)' and i like 'would you stfu you stupid pile of tapioca'#but yeah i do kinda feel like ive been really annoying folks lately between like some really insane interests lately #everyone kinda falling out of the shaed interest at once leaving the group kinda>????#and like. every time a shared interest died so does the friendgroup but also like this friendgroup existed before the interest! it just #existed w/o me cause i was the added on member who kinda just kept tagging on and wouldnt fuck off #but i dont have like. any other friends atm so thats like. concerning? idk i feel really isolated lately #i wish i could contribute more to things but i just dont have the talents required most of the time and when i do i have some sort of #technical issue or time issue that prevents me from doing it #man idk i just wanna do things again but i dont wanna bother folks #and i wanna feel like im not bothering people when i focus on weird stuff cause like im deffo bothering people rn when i spam asks n shit #im deffo bothering people when im infodumping about 2b and radioactivity and tornados n shit too but like. man idk #maybe i should take a couple days maybe a week and like. kinda just do my own thing alone for a while #play some single player games n shit watch my documentary videos and not share weird facts from them

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thethingything · 2 years

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I just spent 4 and a half hours on a drawing because I was like "hmm, drawing a self portrait sounds fun" and then I spent the whole time working on it going "this is absolutely beautiful but that is not my fucking face and I can't work out why it doesn't look right"

#personal #thoughts #art rambles #🍬 post #it really does look great but it's just not quite right and I can't pinpoint why #I just looked at it again after doing something else for a while and it looks better than I initially thought?#but there's something about it that's kind of giving uncanny valley vibes #then again I think that happens whenever we draw anything in enough detail and then after a while it stops looking creepy #actually maybe I do just look creepy. that's absolutely a possibility that I'm willing to accept. a man can be both creepy and hot #this would explain all the times Lucy has called me both ''creepy'' and ''hot'' in the same sentence #also I have no idea if I'll actually post the drawing when it's done #I still feel kind of weird posting drawings that are specifically meant to be me rather than my source #especially if there's no context to show that it's specifically an in-system thing #with the one drawing I have posted of me and Lucy there's context so it's more obvious #it feels like if it's indistinguishable from the drawings we'd normally do of my source is there any point specifying that it isn't that #even though I know that's not true and it's absolutely fine for me to draw myself and say ''this is me''#if I think about this stuff to hard I start to feel really weird about being a fictive again #I swear most of the other fictives we have don't feel anywhere near as weird about being fictives #I don't get why I have such a weird time with it compared to the rest of the system #(also I say all this as if I draw myself all the time. I've only ever drawn myself a couple of times but yeah idk)#(the thing of feeling weird posting stuff applies to other stuff like source memories or whatever)#(or literally anything that references any traits I might have picked up from my source)

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delusion-of-negation · 2 years

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a Certain Group online: "doesn't matter what you ~identify~ as, women will see you as a potential threat and cross the street if you're there because All Men are potential threats to women!!"

what the women approaching me in the street say:

#idk I don't think they see me as a threat sharon I think maybe a couple of them might actually have privilege over me maybe idk #or maybe they're calling me a faggot because they think I'm big manly man or maybe because they mistook me for a woman lol #not to sound like a conspiracy theorist but maybe some things a person identifies as are outwardly visible and get them attacked #and maybe sometimes women are the ones doing the attacking because they are human beings who are also capable of dickery #for the record also sometimes the insults aren't even related to a thing you identify as because they actually guessed your id wrong #anyway I am kinda sick of people acting like women are all these terrified angels when a whole lot of them are real nasty to people #and yeah this is just me making a post because people were yet again cunts to me in the street like why are y'all like this I'm tired

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snekdood · 3 months

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bitches prolly out here psychoanalyzing my old art on behalf of my abuser to cushion their belief that im a Horrible Person but then dont see the irony when I point out the shitty things my abuser has drawn and how I see it as clear evidence of their mindset and beliefs (of what's okay to do and how to treat people) descending and pairing that along with everything else they've done and it paints a clear picture of how this person got to the point of thinking it was okay to abuse me the way they did and then the people looking for reasons to hate me through my art will act like "they're just drawings !!!" about their art. which one is it. does someones art say something about them or not? or does it only say something about them if you hate them?

#personally I think me making fun of a douchey type of dude is less bad than drawing 'rape is fun' but yknow #ig I can just weigh the gravity of how bad each thing is accurately idk #vent #'yeah but you started to identify with the douche bag character !!' well- even before i realized I wanted to be him- the plot was #already that he was going to grow out of being a dick. him and mj were going to help eachother realize their flaws and become better #to eachother and everyone else. so by the time i DID realize I wanted to be a guy I already had in mind the mature version of him #floating around but I didn't really post about it bc I didn't want to spoil anything at the time #and it took me a LONG TIME to accept that I wanted to be snake. I was trans before that. and then when I was close to accepting it #I had that whole 'lsd' thing that made me slink back into my shell bc the people I was around made me feel like I would never be a guy #so instead I figured if I couldn't be snake then the next best thing was to be *with* him and started to self ship myself w him and he #evolved even more into an even more mature version of him that by the time I got out on the other side of feeling like I couldn't #be a guy I had this more serious and mature version of him in my mind and started to accept that I wanted to be him and basically was him #and just didn't know bc that version of snake was more like me than the one I made in 2013/14 #in 2013/14 I was only ever considering my comic in the context of some sort of comedy and just wanted to make a douchey character #to make fun of bc I had a lot of douchey people in my life who I felt like needed to be knocked down a peg and I figured the best way #to do that was to make an example out of them via the old version of snake and have him be an overly confident asshole whos hubris #often gets himself humbled even if hes too prideful to accept or admit it #at this point in time I didn't really see much of myself in any of my ocs. maybe a lil bit in mj and (mostly)peaches bc I didn't know it wa #ok to id with a guy... but even when I did subconsciously id with him here n there...i didnt relate to snakes douchey-ness like at all.#sometimes I jokingly act like a douche but again its for the same reason that I made snake a douche back then in the first place-#to make fun of people like that- to hopefully show them how foolish they are by me mirroring them or. alternatively. making people #laugh at me acting that way because pretending to act like a douche is easier to enjoy and laugh at than dealing w an actual douche #i'd do it with my ex-bestfriend all the time- I made snake such a dick because we'd laugh about it together and bc we wanted to make #fun of the dicks around us who lacked any self awareness and if not that any actual fuck about how lame and shitty they come off #what can I say. it's fun to mock people sometimes.#when I actually started to accept it my first pic I drew of him being obviously trans was in 2016... soo a couple months before I remet #my abuser...#which honestly explains why that whole relationship was so rough on me. I had just finally accepted myself and then this person comes #along and tries to smear me and gaslight me into thinking im Horrible for who I am. like. hello???????#my first time fully being myself was with them and their friend group and they all accepted me until their cult leader told them not to

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maddy-ferguson · 5 months

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People really need to read up more on surrogacy, I'm pretty sure those in favor of it just think "Well if the woman wants to do it why not" but there is so much more to it :/ It's extremely exploitative in most cases, not to mention that wombs and babies shouldn't be seen as products to be bought.

exactly thank you...so many different angles to choose from too like commodification of the human body commodification of women's bodied specifically exploitation of poorer women...like TO ME it's liberalism on an insane level

#like any one of these can be developed enough to argue against it #altruistic surrogacy is like well personally i still think that's crazy (but that's probably because i don't wanna be pregnant ever lmao)#but without the money it's different #even though obviously you can say money makes it better but like. idk does it. but like i don't care as much ig #all of this applies to other topics that are like debated in the same way (where you can argue commodification of the human body+of #women's bodies+exploitation of poorer women amongst other things and they can say it's their choice so you shouldn't be against it)#and on other topics even though at the end of the day i feel the same way i've gone back and #forth on it more than i have for surrogacy. like none of the arguments sound convincing to me like at all #and i don't see myself changing my mind anytime soon? like i Have tried i've thought about it but this is where i always end up #in french law it's prohibited because of the first thing you can't sell your organs so you can't rent them for nine months either and #like idk sounds sensible to me! i studied law for three years maybe it's my law student baggage (it's not)#people are debating it again rn and a leftist politician basically said what i said commodification of women's bodies + exploitation of #poorer women and some of the qrts of the video were like wow i don't like [his party] they're so behind on lgbt issues...excuse me what #like we're literally talking about women straight couples gay couples irdgaf i'm against it for everyone and some people are trying so hard #to make it sound like anyone that's anti-surrogacy is homophobic when like yeah obviously to the far-right (and others) it's an excuse to #be homophobic but there's another part of the population you're not considering it's literally been a feminist debate for a long time💀#the law for it in ukraine is very liberal and when russia invaded people were like nooo i have a woman who needs to give birth to my baby #there like oh my god. the exploitation of women from other countries too like it's crazy. (also applies to regular adoption in foreign #countries obviously which is why some countries were like stop. for both adoption and surrogacy for foreigners)#and i say this but it could all be like women with the same kind of money hiring each other and i would still feel the same way because #it's like the principle like i feel strongly enough about the first two. but also there's never gonna be a world where it's just that #(i'm sure tons of couples hire women that wouldn't be like on the street without surrogacy) because it's also a class thing. including the #women in other countries in that #ask

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guys things are happening

#so i met this girl at work last summer and we clicked right away and we were super close for a while #and it was really only a few months but i considered her one of my best friends #and then both of us got promoted to basically shift leads and right after that things just got really weird between us #i never figured out what exactly happened but it was just like tense and off which sucked bc the time before that was so much fun #but i just pushed it aside bc i still wanted to be friends with her and i was hoping it would just pass i gués #and THEN a couple months later she got promoted to store manager which was… shocking #i want to make it super clear i did not want to be manager and i truly was not jealous of her job #but i just did not think she was the right choice for manager bc after working super closely with her for months #i had seen her do sooo much shit that was either not allowed or just like not correct and straight up kinda dumb??#but none of the higher ups knew about it bc i would always help her fix her mistakes bc she was my friend and i wanted things done right yk #so anyway she became manager and our friendship just got even weirder bc suddenly she was my boss and i did not think she was a good manager #as much as i still loved her as a person she just got on my nerves a lot at work bc of the way she was running things #THEN a month after that annual company wide layoffs happened and i got laid off 😍 which i have vented a ton about on here bc it was awful #and the one bright side to it was that i thought maybe our friendship could start to go back to normal now that we didn’t work together #but instead she pretty much stopped talking to me completely aside from sending me a tiktok occasionally #so i was like okay this sucks but oh well i’ve got my own shit to deal with now that i’ve gotten laid off so i’ll just give her space #and tbh i was just hoping a band we both like would go on tour soon or something so i’d have a good opportunity to ask her to hang out again #BUT THEN she texted me a few minutes ago and turns out she just got fired???#which does not happen often at that job btw there’s very low turnover i think only like 2 people got fired the whole time i worked there #usually layoffs are the only time people end up leaving #and it’s weird bc i spent all that time thinking it was a bad choice for them to make her manager and she wasn’t doing a good job #but i’m still somehow surprised???#and i feel so guilty bc i talked so much shit about the whole thing with one of my other friends bc her management pissed me off so bad #and it’s not like me talking about it with someone who didn’t even work there caused her to get fired but i still feel so bad #like yeah i do think she shouldn’t have been manager in the first place but i would never wish that on someone yk #so idk i’m just like in a very weird headspace rn!!#vent #lj.txt

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