#< i am not risking shit

[stealingpotatoes]

Last week I finished star wars jedi survivor. Let me tell you something. In the third game, if something bad happens to Kata or they kill another member of the crew, I'm gonna lose it.

Kata is the cutest kid ever and is already deeply traumatized. And guess who else is also deeply traumatized? I am, by watching Cere dying (even though I already knew it would happen because I accidently read some spoilers).

So the next game better be just cal and merrin exploring planets with their little family.

LITERALLY, if jedi 3 isn't just "Animal Crossing: Tanalorr Edition" then I will be personally forwarding my therapy bill to Respawn.

[chappelroans]

TRAVIS MARTINEZ in Yellowjackets (2021-) [insp]

[stardust-falling]

Having more thoughts about Shen Jiu because of course I am.

I don’t think he has the capacity for empathy or genuine selflessness.

He spent the entirety of his formative years deep in survival mode, and because of that, he evaluates people solely based off of how they might threaten or ensure his safety and/or comfort. As far as individual people themselves with their own perspectives… honestly I don’t think he even thinks of that.

Maybe a controversial opinion, but I don’t think even YQY is exempt.

Shen Jiu doesn’t have a moral code. When every day is spent on surviving, a moral code is a luxury.

And really, he just never got out of that mode. See, the thing is, once you’ve had enough adverse experiences it only takes a little bit to trigger you back into that mindset. Shen Jiu was used to being scolded and then beaten or abused, so for him, even a simple chiding is a precursor to abuse— even if he DOES recognize that nothing more will happen, his body and mental patterns will still go into that preparation time.

So of course he never left survival mode, because even if nothing is actively happening, your mind will keep reinforcing those patterns.

For someone with a normal upbringing, as far as I can tell, empathy is something you learn and develop from those around you. Many seem to think it’s something innate and natural and if you don’t have it then there’s something wrong with you from birth. I think Shen Jiu falls into exactly this category of thought— and so he doesn’t even consider that he could try to learn and develop it as a skill he can perform, even if it doesn’t come naturally.

Of course, would he even try? He hasn’t been given any incentive. Any time he has tried to do something good, he ends up getting hurt (saving Yue Qi leading to being taken by QJL) or misinterpreted and admonished (the well ghost incident, keep in mind my earlier point about scoldings perpetuating the same patterns).

So he stays in that same vicious cycle, perpetually in survival mode and unable to escape, even in a relatively secure position (see: his paranoia).

Now, this is all relevant to the discussions of SJ’s feminism, misogyny, and/or lack thereof. I feel like a lot of discussions aren’t really getting the full picture.

SJ sees people, no matter who they are, as solely how they can affect him. Just because this isn’t exclusive to women, or because if comes from a reasonable place, does that really mean it doesn’t play into misogyny?

Let’s take another angle.

I think his abuse of LBH and other talented disciples also is rooted, deep down, in this same issue. He’s not just hurting LBH only to hurt him, his aim is specifically to stunt his cultivation. There’s jealousy at play there of course, but there’s a bit more layers to it too— SJ doesn’t think he’s capable of goodness. So reasonably, he’ll be a bad teacher. He already knows what happens when someone becomes more powerful than their oppressor. LBH may be a child now, but a part of SJ whether he acknowledges it or not sees him as a future threat that needs to be treated as such.

It’s rooted in fear— because everything is with SJ.

So does that mean it’s not actually abuse?

No. The behaviors he shows are still abusive, the reasoning just gives a lens for understanding.

Now, with his views on women— I mentioned in the tags of my original post that I don’t think he views women as people. This is based in that earlier idea of how he interprets others based off their risk and benefit to him. For women specifically, though, there’s another layer.

Shen Jiu grew up in a society where women are inherently lesser— and he grew up in an extreme version of this. He saw women being treated as property firsthand(both as slaves, as well as QJL’s views on his sister). Your worldview is shaped by the world that you view during those early years. Whether he agreed or not, SJ would still take on the patterns of his environment. This, though, is just the same as general societal misogyny and ingrained bias. I don’t think he’s any different than anyone else in this way.

But where SJ’s particular flavor comes in is that to him, women are a source of comfort. For various reasons— positive past experiences, less threatening (or at least don’t carry the dangers men do). He craves comfort— needs it really, because he doesn’t get it and his cortisol levels are always so high they’re poisoning his body. Women are the best source of that comfort for him.

It’s not that he likes them— at least, not any more than someone would like drinking water, or a coat in the winter. They’re fulfilling a survival need for him.

That is what the objectification is where SJ is concerned.

So… is it misogyny?

I’d say yes, in a way it still is. It’s not violent, and it doesn’t come from some inherent sense of “superiority as a man” but at the core of it all, he’s still not viewing women as people, and he has no interest in changing the status quo, because it benefits him to be able to go purchase comfort at a pleasure house, even if it’s not what people usually do there. The picture is bigger than just misogyny, but the traits taken as themselves are misogynistic nonetheless.

I could go into his specific relationships with women and how that informs his character, but this post is already long enough. We know that he mentally divides people by sex, and that distinction has a lot of weight in his judgment of them. Even if it comes from a place of trauma, even if it comes from a general worldview that applies to everyone, he still views women as a commodity— so on some level, and from an outside perspective, he is misogynistic.

In the end, though, it still all comes from him being stuck in survival mode. His lack of empathy, his viewing others as risks and benefits— these things themselves aren’t moral failings— it’s just a consequence of his environment. He’s a bad person because he won’t confront this, develop a moral code, and act on it, not because he doesn’t experience empathy.

But in his circumstance, there’s not really a chance for him to choose to be good. Because he’s still trying to survive, and goodness is a luxury he doesn’t realize he can afford now.

He’s scum, but pitiful, you know?

[loptrcoptr]

The blue eye samurai fandom, for some reason

[sistersorrow]

Reading God Emperor of Dune is an experience cause one moment Leto is philosophising about the nature of faith, prophecy, and government while playing 36-dimensional space tiddlywinks to prevent humanity's extinction, and then in another he's spouting the most sexist bullshit while lamenting that his dick stopped working 3000 years ago

[beelzebubsis]

before people get on tubbo's ass about roier lagging. tubbo was fully under the impression that roier's lag had stopped because he heard roier say "i can see now"

[corrodedcoughin]

Modern au where Steve notices eddie goes to sleep with earbuds even when Steve is staying over. He’s never been able to see what it is Eddie is listening to and Eddie’s never told him either. One night steve just gives up to his inner nosey bitch and leans over a sleeping eddie to unlock his phone and finds YouTube video playing called ‘SUBLIMINAL SLEEP TRACK “I AM A DRAGON” GUARANTEED RESULTS’

[apnourry]

rediscovering this gem of a pose

[itsalwaysforyou]

jay not asking coach about letting lonnie onto the team bc he doesn’t want to do anything coach might disagree with…….

[lastoneout]

Tbh I have a lot of complicated feelings about the whole OceanGate thing and I'm not really a fan of how this is being treated as The Evergiven 2, but as it becomes more and more likely that the sub suffered a critical failure and imploded days ago my main thought is that visiting the Titanic's wreck should be in the same category as climbing Mt. Everest; a pointless, unfathomably dangerous, disrespectful excursion that should not be allowed, or at least regulated and reserved for experts who know what they're doing to conduct research and/or matinance.

I mean like at this point I don't even think the average person should know where Titanic is. What is the benefit? All it leads to is death and the disruption and/or potential destruction of a mass gravesite that also doubles as a unbelievably valuable historic artifact that will not be around forever. Why the hell are people just allowed to go down there?? We don't let people go rub their hands all over the Mona Lisa, and that wouldn't even kill anyone, why can billionaires just go tromping around in far more deadly and fragile locations, especially ones where hundreds of people have already died?

But yeah idk there's no real point in adding my input to the discussion and I kinda don't want to comment on it beyond this anyway, but the whole situation sucks and def makes it clear there are simply some things people should not be allowed to do no matter how much goddamn money they have.

[imminent-danger-came]

The 1x00 AHiB -> 4x06 glowup

[kagedbird]

Hey, I don't have a car available and the bus systems are fucking WACK in my state (they are only available at 8:30 in the morning and no other times when I need to be at work at 1 pm) so PLEASE CONSIDER HELPING ME OUT!!

[torchickentacos]

ok so the general consensus about RFK's brain worm seems to be 'probably tapeworm larva(e)' (according to every article I found, no verified answer). Fascinating. Brings me to one of my soapboxes- please buy a meat thermometer and make sure your meat is cooked through. Yes, every single time, especially pork. Fellow southerners, this means that when you cook your collards or green beans with the bacon in it, PUSH DOWN THE BACON so it's being properly boiled. This goes for more than oven baking or frying! Also, wash your hands thoroughly after handling animals, especially pet reptiles. Wash your produce. Don't be the local homesteader drinking unfiltered stagnant creek water, full of runoff and leptospirosis. I promise filtered 'big water' with the 5g is gonna kill you slower than legionella will. Don't let your cat outside, like, at all, but if you do them get regular vet visits and don't let your cat's gross outdoors paws then walk on your food counter. Wipe off surfaces before cooking. All of these will help you not get brain worms <3

[averagetmntfan]

ROTTMNT hc:

Mikey aromantic hc??

(please don’t come after me💀)

[scramble-crossing]

So I've been wanting to put together an underrated fic rec list for a while since I haven't seen too many floating around as of late, if anyone's got any recommendations please feel free to send em in! I'm mostly focusing on characters and ships (both platonic and romantic) that tend to not get as much attention as well as smaller authors who've so far gone unnoticed. Send in your favs! Send in your friends! Send in yourself who give a shit!

I know this is a vague category (which is intentional, I want as many fics to go through as possible) so use your own discretion as to what "underrated" means. Anything with background/minor characters, rare pairs, or unique premises (like backstory fics or AUs) and the like is a good start, but I'm happy to look at anything EXCEPT FOR NSFW.

Thanks all <3

[sonknuxadow]

i havent seen anyone post the new sonic channel art on tumblr so i guess i have to do it myself