#‘eh fuck it I’ll probably be alone for all of them ¯\_(ツ)_/¯’

[sensitivegoblin]

Ramble

[timur1312]

“The Album” by BLACKPINK: Album Review

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　How You Like That　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Overall, I didn’t mind How You Like That, but, like most people, I didn’t quite like the production. I feel like it could’ve been improved a lot with a little bit more of a bass-filled undertone-ish thing. I was also a bit critical of the way it started out as a sort of... sad-sounding (albeit a bit plain) song... and then went into badassery. And lastly for the negative aspects, the whole cultural appropriation thing with the statue of Ganesh kind of irked me, although that had more to do with the music video than the song itself and I doubt was on the girls.

(Little rant on that: Who was like “let’s put this statue of Ganesh here” without thinking it would be a good day to know a thing about Ganesh? I’m so........)

On the upside, I loved the actual vocals and rap (especially Lisa’s part and the “Look at you, now look at me”s). I just felt like they belonged in different songs, and the production didn’t link them together. However, I really actually liked the way the chorus’s instrumental was, contrary to most people’s opinions.

7/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Ice Cream (w/ Selena Gomez)　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Eh. Wouldn’t listen to this for fun, but just because it isn’t my taste. The one thing I did like was Rose’s parts (and the way the instrumental changed during Lisa’s part was cool), but other than that... It just wasn’t my cup of 🍵tea🍵. I... Ok, there is no respectful way to say this, fuck those little whistle things in the back. They remind me of... Kahoot or some shit. Something I would make at age 9. And all the high-pitched vocals also weren’t my thing. Now that I’m thinking about it again, I kind of liked the lyrics. They weren’t as bad as people acted like they were. At least they meant something.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

4/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Pretty Savage　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

By far my favorite song off the album. The production was great, the delivery was great, everything was great although I’m not a huge fan of the “oh-oh-oh”s. Other than that, it’s all... Perfect.

10/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Bet You Wanna (ft. Cardi B)　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

This song wasn’t totally my style, but it would’ve been ok without Cardi B. I guess... She’s just a bad person. So songs with her in them are always difficult for me to enjoy. It’s cool the collab happened, but not really. I also didn’t really like her verse, it just didn’t seem right in the song. I would’ve liked the song more without it. :/

Even without the verse, this was kind of a song that reeked of potential but that wasn’t quite right. So I guess... I kind of liked it?

6/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Lovesick Girls　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

This is my second favorite song on the album probably, only because Pretty Savage was an uncontrollable bop (that word *semi-ironic sksksksksking*). The “born to be alone” seemed kind of generic, but I really liked the rap especially. The music video was also really cool. It reminded me of the “Stay” M/V.

The guitars had a nice 2NE1 style to them (so did Pretty Savage. I guess I just like the 2NE1 style a lot lol).

I also feel like even though the song wasn’t upbeat, it was a pretty complex song, and typically when those have a... I guess I call it the “clearance”, where the beat gets less complex and someone just sings in a pure style close to the closing part of the song. I’m sure there’s a real word for it. As I was saying, I feel like sometimes clearances in an otherwise complex song are not my thing, but I liked how it was done here. Also, the lyrics were pretty good.

9/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Crazy Over You　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Another favorite! The instrumental... Oh my God 😳 so many levels of amazing. I really liked the opening, it set a good scene. Also, I felt like this song was a good showcase of Lisa’s style. Really, just... Everything about this was so cool. I haven’t payed much attention to the lyrics so I can’t say this factually, but it really had a yandere vibe to it, and considering how much of a shitbag that YanSim guy is, the term “yandere” needs a new image hehehehe~

I think I was rather critical of How You Like That for having too many parts that didn’t sound like they belonged together, and while I did kind of feel that for some parts of Crazy Over You, I mainly actually appreciated the diverse styles that repeated throughout the song.

8/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Love To Hate Me　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

At first, this seemed way too generic, with the clapping sounds (is that the word? Lmfao this review has me noticing how many dumb terms I use in my heard which probably aren’t even that accurate). As soon as those sounds sped up, I was like, oh shit, it’s about to keep being generic by leading up to the generic-ass chorus with this...

But then that didn’t happen! And I really liked the way the chorus part was formed! Kind of made me visualize a sort of canyon of sound (more wack terminology) at first... I’ll admit that vision got a bit crushed by the next part, but it was cool while it lasted.

The chorus and the section around it was my favorite, and also the rap... I’m really appreciating the rap on this album, lol.

8/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　You Never Know　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

While I do feel like the album needed a song like You Never Know and I think it was a good decision to make it the closing song, I probably wouldn’t listen to this on my own time, you know? There was a lot of talent in it, but it seemed like the typical high-note-filled kind of sad bright white and pastel pink and blue (lol trans pride uwu) song... Yeah that doesn’t make sense, but hopefully anyone who reads this understands the style of song I am describing.

7/10

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　Overall, The Album　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Average score:  7.375/10. I guess this sums up the quality of the songs, but I would actually give this album a 7.5 or 8 out of ten. My little BLINK heart went crazy when I saw the tracklist poster, because although there are only 8 songs, we’ve waited a long time for this and it made me very happy and no I did not cry what are you talking about shut up.

I also really liked the arrangement of the songs, and I liked that Jisoo and Jennie had credits on the lyrics and Jennie did some of the production. 🥺

I really enjoyed the album. 🖤💟

[plow-and-propose]

Some After The Revolution thoughts, because i want to sleep but need to ramble first (huge spoiler warning)

Yet again i am left wandering around asking the universe ‘where the fuck is the rest of it’

Sooo many unanswered questions still, in fact probably more questions now

But this is what keeps us coming back so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ well played

I really enjoyed it though. As much as I’ve been left frustrated at least the stories ended positively for the most part. there are some things I don’t really get tho

Like, Touga’s whole 'separating the art from the artist’ thing when effectively supporting a known child abuser. which is a post in of itself that I will not make, but what really struck me is that I would’ve thought Touga would be the last person to do something like that? He was abused in both versions of Adolescence Apocalypse. He was abused by Akio in Chiho Saito’s original manga. Was this supposed to show that he’s distanced himself from his past so much that he no longer cares? Is this dramatic irony? Is he in denial? is he just fucked up?

“wow Saionji you’ve actually scored one point on Touga” i said out loud as he tried to call Touga out on his bullshit.

Anyway that sword fight accomplished NOTHING in that regard. Unless i missed the significance? I’ll give it a reread at some point

also Touga in there stepping on Saionji’s toes again. I get that he’s Saito’s fave but he’s had like, three backstories. I want to know what made SAIONJI such a raging dumpster fire

also I guess they’re friends again now? that’s good?

the first one probably made the least sense

the whole thing with paintings was a nice movie tie-in tho

that fucking car appeared so i guess it’s a ghost too now huh

I like how that story effectively freed Anthy for good tho. I think that in finding the painting, Utena was able to banish what was effectively the last bit of control Akio had over Anthy. She also stabbed him again, which was great.

moving on

JURY IS GAY AGAIN PRAISE FUCKING BE

I guess shiori and ruka have completely different stories tho?? there’s no way these scan with. basically any canon so. eh?

anyway I liked it. and I like that Juri enjoys fencing just in of itself. the idea that she was doing it to impress someone or prove something always rubbed me the wrong way.

I also like Miki’s and Kozue’s story! I feel like the lack of resolution really works for this one - their feelings cannot be sorted out in a single story, but it ends on a positive 'note’ (HAHAHA) so to speak. I feel that finally, finally, they can get their shit together. it’ll take a long time, but maybe they can work something out - i feel like they’ve always been the least resolved in every ‘verse

moving on

Wtf the fuck was the disaster that hurt all these children at once?

if you ask me, that’s actually Utena’s backstory. She awoke in the hospital all alone, wandered around and realised her parents were dead, then found the coffin, etc in the attached church. The others had all been in hospital at some point as children, but their memories merged with their 'dreams’ in order to lead them to Utena.

I suppose they could have all experienced the same tragic event, but honestly I prefer the idea that they’re all completely unrelated to each other, that they’ve been flung together by coincidence rather than destiny

Anyway on to Utena herself

I LIKE that she’s effectively become Dios now. It feels like the best outcome tbh, after being impaled by swords in one timeline and vanishing in another. I imagine she lives in the castle with Anthy now. I am satisfied. Partly.

i do feel as if it goes against the whole ‘leaving for the real world’ aspect, tho?

but hey they’ve escaped Ohtori, so that’s something

I like the blend of visual metaphors and legit fantasy in this incarnation

I guess this series could also support the theory that every story in the 'Utena Verse’ is a sort of reincarnation? of the characters and plot? since this ties together so many. essentially the theory is that a 'revolution’ in this case means 'a full cycle’. When one story ends, another begins, slightly different but along the same lines.

anyway, the cycles have finally ended. the 'revolutions’ have stopped. now they characters can finally move on with their lives

imo Utena didn’t meet Anthy and free her 3 times in succession, i think she probably went straight from one dream to another until she got to Miki’s. I think she couldn’t find Anthy without also helping out the others (she is a Prince, after all). Or maybe she just didn’t want to leave them. either way, she used her princely magic.

also holy fuck. the final scene. Utena saving Anthy at last. Them being children symbolising a fresh start and all that good shit. The hand reaching. the roses. at last, they shine together. i want that last page enshrined

where the fuck is wakaba?

[darling-in-the-fandom]

tag game

i was tagged by @i-am-steve-rogerss -- thanks babe ❤️❤️❤️❤️

LAST...

drink: coffee

phone call: my mum

text message: to @mrvelunvrse “fetus” ksdjfksjdf

song you listened to: iris // goo goo dolls is playing atm 

time you cried: other than right now because iris makes me emo?? uhh yesterday. because i went a whole 24 hours with no sleep and i was just a fucking wreck lmao.

EVER...

dated someone twice: i haven’t dated someone once

kissed someone and regretted it: nope

been cheated on: no. but uh. i think i was technically “the other woman” once but. that was a) online and b) the most fucked up situation i’ve ever been in so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

lost someone special: yeah

been depressed: depressed is my constant state yo i don’t remember what it was like to not be depressed

gotten drunk and thrown up: i mean, i drink a lot so i’ve been drunk, yeah, but i haven’t thrown up.

favourite colours: black, grey, green, blue, red, pink.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU...

made new friends: yess!!! @ragnarokbarnes @shegavehersunflowers @transmaschawkeye and i love them bunches

fallen out of love: nah

laughed until you cried: lmao yeah a few times

found out someone was talking about you: nope

met someone who changed you: nope

found out who your friends are: yeah

kissed someone on your facebook friends list: nope

GENERAL

how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all of them, except one guy who i’ve been bffs with for a couple years and met him through WoW but we’re talking about hanging out irl one of these days

do you have any pets: i have an italian greyhound called texas who is very cute and cuddly and energetic as fuckity and i love him a lot

do you want to change your name: nah, i fucking love my name.

what did you do for your last birthday: mum and i went and bought me some jewellery and then we went out and had pizza for dinner. then with my dad i pulled the “it’s my birthday i get to choose the movie” card and made him watch a marvel movie. we got tipsy. it was great.

what were you doing at midnight last night: getting some much need sleep after being awake for 24 hours.

what is something you can’t wait for: avengers 4 skdfjskdf

what are you listening to right now: rule the world // take that ((one of my favourite songs))

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah--my uncle, a family friend, and one of the boys in my weekend acting class

something that gets on your nerves: my dad being pissed that i’m listing sebastian stan as an inspiration on my acting school application because “you’re applying for acting school!! they’re going to be movie snobs!! they won’t know who he is!! pick someone who can act!!” it’s my application and i’ll name whoever i please as an acting inspiration thanks.

most visited website: tumblr 

hair colour: brown

long or short hair: long

do you have a crush on someone: nope

what do you like about yourself: i guess i like my eyes and my hair. maybe my humour?? skdfkdsf idk

want any piercings: no thanks

blood type: i...have no idea

nicknames: my name is saskia so i get called: sass/sassy, super sassy, sassy sausage, sassmatass, saskia violent, sassykins...and then my gaming buddies call me twinsie/twinsay and specialfred ksdjfksdjfksd

relationship status: forever alone

zodiac: cancer

pronouns: she/her

favourite tv shows: daredevil, outlander, game of thrones, buffy the vampire slayer, angel, gossip girl, skam norway, riverdale

tattoos: nope but i’d like to have one 

right or left handed: right

ever had surgery: nope

piercings: nope

sports: i played hockey at a club for a year, did swimming for 3 years, and did a little bit of football, soccer and volleyball at school.

vacation: idk if this is asking for dream vacation?? the last vacation i went on??? so uh. dream vacation would be new york ((thanks romcoms!!)) and last vacation was to my family’s holiday house in metung with my dad for a week back in january.

eating: just ate last night’s leftovers which were chicken wings

drinking: coffee

about to watch: nothing. if i was, it’d probably be “push” or “gifted” because i want to watch more of chris’ movies.

waiting for: 2019 because avengers 4

want: ...to get into acting school

get married: i kinda do but also no thanks

career: student

WHICH IS BETTER

hugs or kisses: hugs. definitely. i’d kill for a nice hug rn

lips or eyes: eyes

shorter or taller: eh either’s good

older or younger: older

nice arms or stomach: nice arms for those cuddles please

hookup or relationship: uh. i have no experience with either so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

troublemaker or hesitant: hmm. troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER...

kissed a stranger: nope

drunk hard liquor: yes

lost glasses: yes

turned someone down: nope

sex on the first date: nope

broken someone’s heart: nah

had your heart broken: yeah but not in a romantic way

been arrested: nope

cried when someone died: yes

fallen for a friend: yepp

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

yourself: yeah, i guess. 

miracles: nah

love at first sight: sure

santa claus: lmao no

kiss on a first date: why not

angels: uhh no

OTHERS

best friend’s name: @brooklynbabybucky i love you best pal 😘😘😘

eye colour: hazel

favourite movie: before we go, captain america: the winter soldier, stardust, terminator 2, interview with the vampire, the mummy, it (2017)

favourite actors: sebastian stan, chris evans, robert downey jr, noah schnapp, millie bobby brown, sam heughan, catriona balfe, charlie cox, sigourney weaver, winona ryder, david harbour, david boreanaz 

tagging: @brooklynbabybucky @shegavehersunflowers @ragnarokbarnes @transmaschawkeye @thegirlnooneknows5 @mrvelunvrse @bizexualrosadiaz

[el-d-ritch]

all evens,,

            100 character development questions           (for in depth and ooc answers, go send numbers to @somnolentis)

002. do they do anything to celebrate their birthday?

nah.

004. do they prefer being alone or with others?

i don’t really know anymore. i guess i’d lean more towards having company, but honestly the idea just makes me feel nervous now.

i know not everybody would end up thinking i’m a freak but it feels like enough would to where i probably shouldn’t even bother. i guess i could take some precautions but what’s the point of having proper friends if i can’t even tell them anything.

a lot of that is probably just baseless anxiety, i know. 

006. what sense do they most rely on?

it’s kind of hard to explain that. 

i guess my hearing used to be the best. my sight has never been that great and tbh i could probably use glasses, just never bothered to get them.

but now, it’s sort of different. there’s like a seventh sense that’s just… a knowing of things. like having a memory of something without actually having the experience. 

some things i just know. not because of sight or sound or anything i’ve learned, really. i just know.

sorry. i know that doesn’t make much sense.

008. what is their favorite fairy tale?

i really like beauty and the beast. it’s cute.

010. who they believe in love at first sight?

i don’t know. maybe. i’m not super cynical about the idea of it, anyway. but it’s been so long since i’ve felt anything even remotely like a crush that it’s hard to really say.

012. what makes your character embarrassed?

god. so many things.

i think the worst is when people make tentacle or vore jokes. it’s so embarrassing. like both for myself and for them. as if i haven’t heard them all already.

014. detail one secret shame your character feels.

everything about me physically probably. not exactly a secret. i don’t have much else to be ashamed about i guess other than how monumentally stupid i was when i was younger.

rest under read-more because this is so many fucking asks, dude.

016. what is their choice of weapon?

i used to really like swords.

but

swords in the real world is fucking dumb, so a pistol, i guess. i learned that the hard way. hands on weapons don’t mean shit when you’re going against a bullet.

that among other things i’m capable of.

018. your character wakes up to find that war has been declared. What do they do?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

become a hermit in the woods once and for all i guess.  

020. what are their hobbies?

i really like learning about space. that’s one thing about me that hasn’t really changed at all.

collecting different sorts of hats. i have every color i think. which is dumb because i wear the same one every day.

i’ve kind of gotten into photography lately, if only because there’s a lot of beautiful scenery around the forest and the city. feels like it would be kind of a waste to not document some of it, you know?

plus dave really likes coming with me whenever i decide to go on a walk around the woods. i’ve let him take a few pictures before and they all look like shit but it’s kind of endearing to look at. i put them on the fridge.

022. what is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen?

sort of relevant to the last one, but still space.

there’s something so calming about looking up at the stars and knowing just how insignificant you are. the idea used to unnerve me but now it makes me feel at peace knowing that no matter how badly i fuck up, it won’t mean shit in the grand scheme of the universe.

something really comforting about that.

024. what do they consider ugly in others physically?

bad hygiene like most other people although if blood is involved i don’t really care. i may as well be a vampire considering how used to it i am. it’s like i barely notice.

other than that, hell if i know. i don’t really have a place to judge aesthetics anymore. it’s all about the personality.

026. what do they consider ugly in others personality-wise?

unnecessary rudeness for sure. it’s super grating and not at all as cool as people think it makes them look.

on that note, though: people who can’t take a fucking joke. there is no faster killjoy than making a joke and having someone act like you just insulted their dead godmother. fuck.

someone who can’t just properly banter back and forth with me. i hate when talking is like pulling teeth. i hate having to be the one asking all the questions just to keep them engaged in a conversation. boring as fuck.

028. what makes them laugh out loud?

whenever dave does something especially stupid that i know i’m going to bring up in ten years just to embarrass him.

that’s always fun. 

it’s another benefit to liking photography, too. i can document it so he can’t say i’m lying. i think i’ll make a scrapbook.

030. do they believe in the afterlife?

eh. i did but it doesn’t really matter anymore if i do now. although i guess it’s kind of a given that i do to some extent considering i’m already a dead man walking.

i’m not going there anyway. to the proper afterlife, i mean. 

032. does your character believe in ghosts?

yes.

i mean.

gestures to myself. 

i’m a fucking zombie technically speaking so it would be pretty fucking hypocritical if i didn’t.

034. what’s their view of lying?

it’s stupid.

at least anything that isn’t a harmless little white lie, i guess. 

i don’t know. personally i don’t do horrendous stuff so i don’t really have much reason to lie myself. it’s not hard just to tell the truth.

036. how honorable is your character?

probably not that honorable. i can’t imagine anyone aspiring to me like me.

038. what bad habits do they have?

so fucking many, you don’t even wanna know.

smoking and drinking, although it doesn’t matter much because it won’t have much of an effect on me, but it’s still a bad example to set for dave. i try to avoid doing it around him at least.

uh, other than that. self harm, i guess, but it’s mostly unintentional when it happens. it’s just really easy to hurt myself.

040. what is their obsession?

what a weird question.

i don’t know, trying to be a decent brother?

042. what is their greatest achievement?

don’t really have any. i guess the fact that i’m still friends with spirit is something i’m pretty proud of.

044. what disgusts them?

not much, if anything. i’m not really a judgmental person.

046. how do they handle getting sick?

lol. i’m always sick.

048. do they have any allergies?

yes. cats. that’s all i’m aware of. idk if it still applies.

050. how does your character feel about their own mortality?

i don’t.

052. what is your character’s worst flaw?

oh, i don’t know, everything about me? have you met me?

i guess personality wise i’m pretty bearable but if you met me irl you’d realize how stupid a question this is.

054. does your character want power or authority of any kind?

no.

056. has your character ever struck someone in anger?

no. i’ve pushed someone, i guess, if that counts.

if my older brother wasn’t dead i’d probably punch him in the fucking head.

there are other people i wish i could hit, too. but they’re already gone.

058. what is your character’s idea of a perfect day?

i don’t have one, really.

060. what is your character’s attitude toward education and learning?

it’s good.

the education system sucks, though. i had a shitty time in school.

i’m really worried for dave, when he’s older. i hope he doesn’t go through the same shit i did. and if he does, i hope he doesn’t react the same way i did, too.

062. what sort of legacy does your character wish to leave behind?

i don’t really care about leaving a legacy, but

i just really want to be a good brother. someone dave will be able to look back on and actually recognize how much i cared for him.

that sounds cheesy as hell, sorry.

064. in what ways does your character annoy others?

the self deprecation probably gets pretty annoying. i’m pretty self aware of that but if i’m insulting myself, i’ll do what i want.

066. does your character prefer city life or being out in nature?

i have the luxury of being stuck in between both.

i like nature, though. i like the solitude.

and nature doesn’t judge you the way people do, either.

068. how strong is your character’s sense of responsibility? what kinds of things trigger it?

decent now, i guess. i have two jobs, i have a kid, i pay my bills. 

i used to be super irresponsible and immature but i don’t really have the choice not to be right now. so it doesn’t matter what does and doesn’t trigger it. i don’t have a choice.

070. what about your character is cowardly?

that i’d rather just stop trying rather than fix how badly some things are fucked up.

sometimes you drain yourself out so much that giving up is easier. dealing with the guilt is better than dealing with misplaced hope.

072. in a dungeons & dragons game, which class would your character be? (wizard, fighter, bard, priest, ranger, etc.)

hmmm. tough choice.

i think i’d like being a fighter. eldritch knight seems pretty fitting, after all.

074. what is your character’s favorite game?

don’t really have one right now.

i like pokemon, though. who doesn’t?

076. how do they express anger?

i’d rather not talk about that.

probably not well.

078. how emotionally stable is your character?

not.

080. how easy is it for others to read your character’s emotions?

i don’t know. haven’t been told that yet. i haven’t had a proper friend for a few years.

i used to be very easy to read in person, though. i wonder if that’s changed or not.

082. what are your character’s sleeping preferences?

anything that’s even marginally comfortable. i don’t have much for standards.

084. describe your character in one word.

complicated.

086. How would your character describe themself in one word?

and messy.

088. is your character quiet or loud?

quiet.

090. how bodily expressive is your character?

i don’t really know. it’s another thing i don’t pay attention to until someone points it out to me, and i’ve changed a lot in the past few years.

i guess i’d need an outside opinion.

092. what emotion does your character evoke in others?

fear, usually. unease, most of all.

this isn’t really me patting myself on the back. there’s an actual sort of energy that goes to it, that isn’t.. really mine. it just exists around the very nature of what i am a part of.

094. name three things most would not expect your character to be able to know.

what you’re feeling.

if you’re lying or not.

the meaning of life.

096. how do they move and carry themselves? what energy do they project?

lazily, i guess. i would imagine i look like i always want to drop dead. it’s how i feel, usually.

098. does your character like animals?

yeah. i have a cat and a dog. i love them to death. pun intended.

100. does your character dream? if so, what do they dream about?

sometimes.

of the dark and the things that crawl in it. the realm beyond ours and other things i really can’t explain.

it’s just beyond my ability to, really. it would be easier if i could just show you but i can’t.

i’m used to it. as used to it as i can be without going crazy, anyway.

but it does bleed into reality sometimes.

[old-long-john]

Currently meme

Tagged by @vowel-in-thug. Thank you! 

RULES: Answer these 85 statements and tag 20 SOME people. (Why do these things always tell you to tag an entire village worth of people?)

THE LAST

1. Drink: Tea.

2. Phone call: My big sister last Thursday. I don’t do phone calls very often.

3. Text message: A whatsapp reply to my mum saying no worries to her driving home tomorrow instead of today because she’s feeling ill. 

4. Song you listened to: Florence and the Machine - Breaking Down.

5. Time you cried: Watching a BBC programme called Ambulance when it got to the end and it said the nice man with cancer died a month later, just before his grandkid was born.

6. Dated someone twice: Nope.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Eh, not really.

9. Lost someone special: In what sense? Nobody’s springing to mind in any sense, tbh.

8. Been cheated on: Don’t think so.

10. Been depressed: Pfffft. Clinically depressed, to varying degrees, for my entire adult life. Fun times.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I’m British, of course I have.

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. Red.

13. Purple.

14. Green.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. Made new friends: I have!

16. Fallen out of love: Nope.

17. Laughed until you cried: Probably? If it happened it was either with my little sister or with @nettlekettle.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah, but not in a bad way.

19. Met someone who changed you: It was a collective effort by fandom. Good job, team!

20. Found out who your friends are: I guess? More like found out who my really special friends are, but the others aren’t bad friends just because they have enough of their own shit to deal with that making the effort to keep in touch with my isolationist arse isn’t their top priority.

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list: Not this last year.

GENERAL

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t add anyone I don’t actually know. I don’t still talk to most of them, but I’ve known them all in real life at some point. 

23. Do you have any pets: A cat and two old disabled fish that I’m thinking about renaming Long John and Blind Pew.

24. Do you want to change your name: No, I’m fine with it. It’s common enough to not be a pain in the arse (I don’t need to spell it over the phone), but my middle name is uncommon enough to make it easy to look me up amongst the sea of other Laura’s with my last name.

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Went for dinner with my parents. Rock n roll.

26. What time did you wake up: About 9.30, I think.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Lying in bed dicking around on my phone probably.

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Going to see Oslo! Sooooon!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Thursday night.

31. What are you listening to right now: The wind outside my window. It’s pretty gross outside today.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yes.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: The weather. I know it’s obscene to grumble about the British weather when there’s an actual hurricane happening on the other side of the world, but we’ve had basically no extended period of reliable summer weather this year and it’s shit. I’m old, so I like the sun these days.

34. Most visited website: Tumblr.

35. Hair colour: Brown.

36. Long or short hair: Pretty long.

37. Do you have a crush on someone: Not in real life.

38. What do you like about yourself: My eyes.

39. Want any piercings: Eh, I always lowkey want nose piercings, but I doubt I’ll ever make it happen. 

40. Blood type: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

41. Nickname: La/Lala/Craft.

42. Relationship status: Single.

43. Zodiac: Virgo.

44. Pronouns: She/her.

45. Favourite tv show(s): Black Sails, and I’ve pretty much forgotten what other tv even exists. Preacher’s good.

46. Tattoos: Big old skeleton and ‘know no shame’ on my left thigh.

47. Right or left handed: Right handed.

48. Surgery: A few.

49. Piercing: Two in my right ear, plus one closed up. Three in my left ear, plus one closed up.

50. Sport: Lol, no. I cycle sometimes, if that counts.

51. Vacation: ??? When you’re unemployed and making no real effort to resolve that, life’s one long boring vacation.

52. Pair of trainers: One.

MORE GENERAL

53. Eating: Last thing was an apple.

54. Drinking: Last thing’s still tea.

55. I’m about to: Make myself a burger, despite the fact that it’s too early to eat, because I’m home alone and bored as fuck.

56. Waiting for: My mum to come home tomorrow so we can finally watch Black Sails 4x10. I’m gonna fall apart.

57. Want: Some motivation.

58. Get married: If I meet the right person.

59. Career: Ugh, I don’t know. Museum work. Archaeology’s too physically demanding to do for long and the pay’s too shit. The only bonus is that it sounds cool when people ask what you do.

WHICH IS BETTER

60. Hugs or kisses: Kisses.

61. Lips or eyes: Eyes.

62. Shorter or taller: Taller, but not too tall.

63. Older or younger: Older.

64. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice arms.

65. Hook up or relationship: Relationship.

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant, I guess. More hesitant than me is frustrating as hell, but troublemakers send my anxiety skyrocketing.

HAVE YOU EVER

67. Kissed a stranger: No.

68. Drank hard liquor: Yes.

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t think so. 

70. Turned someone down: Yes.

71. Sex on the first date: No.

72. Broken someone’s heart: Maybe sort of? He broke his own damn heart.

73. Had your heart broken: No.

74. Been arrested: No.

75. Cried when someone died: Yes.

76. Fallen for a friend: I guess so.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. Yourself: Once in a blue moon. Occasionally I remember the things I’ve actually achieved and recognise that they’re not nothing.

78. Miracles: Nope.

79. Love at first sight: No.

80. Santa Claus: I remember believing in him, mostly because we’d leave out a mince pie and some sherry (standard British offering) and it’d be gone in the morning. Plus, the carrot we left for Rudolph had the end bitten off, so obviously the only logical conclusion was that both Rudolph and Father Christmas were real.

81. Kiss on the first date: No real aversion, but never have.

82. Angels: No.

OTHER

83. Current best friend’s name: Amy <3

84. Eye colour: Blue.

85. Favorite movie: It’s entirely out of character for me, but the 2005 Pride and Prejudice always makes me happy.

Tagging! @nettlekettle @dimplesflint @silversflint @twobrokenwyngs @reluming @annevbonny @queen-max if any of you want to do it. :)

[ace-take-the-prndl]

@emeracco

you asked for it

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? 

I’m not suprised

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

Nothing because I haven’t kissed anybody  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

If it was weed I probably wouldn’t care but any other kind yeah..

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

Nope

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Still never kissed anybody

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

No?

7. What does your last received text say?

lol

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

09. Where was your last kiss at?

nowhere

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

I saw my oldest sister like 2 days ago, I can’t remember the last time I saw my other sister. She doesn’t hang out with us anymore

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Some nice cool and refreshing H2O. Stay healthy kids.

12. Where did you sleep last night?

My bed?

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

I answered this one already

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

Nah that’s too much work. and I wouldn’t fuck with the past

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Yeah that I’m alone

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Answered this already too

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

omfg a lot of people. My middle name is unoriginal for a middle name

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

like pajama shorts

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

God I hope so

20. Does anyone like you?

idk if they do they better tell me because I’m clueless af

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

No

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

Still haven’t kisses anyone

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

there’s a lot of people I CANNOT stand tbh

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

Yes! I want a bunch tbh

25. In the past week have you cried?

Probably I don’t even pay attention to when I cry. I’m an emotional person okay.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

Mixed breed

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Both?

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

Nope

29. Do you think you’re old?

Hell no I’m still young

30. Do you like text messaging? 

Yeah its quicker and easier sometimes

31. What type of day are you having?

A chill one

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

I actually just got my nose pierced a few weeks ago! I’ve wanted it for the longest time, both my sisters and mom have theirs done.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

COLD. I hate the heat so much, I get hot easily and then I get sick. Warm weather, gross.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

eh not really

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

A relationship. I’ve never been in one and I want something meaning full in my life and not just a fling

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I can be both

37. What song are you listening to?

Also answered this already

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

Of course 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

Yeah I’m sure my friends do, I don’t keep things from them even about myself if I did it’s because I forgot to tell them or something 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

???? 41. When did you last receive a text message?

Today 42. What is wrong with you right now?

You got me buddy 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

I’d say pretty well 44. Does anyone disgust you?

Yes. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

Depends I guess 46. Are you in a good mood right now?

Yee 47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

idk my dad?  48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Like a really dark blue 49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

No I’m an opened person and I’m always ready to listen to someone even if they’re telling me I’m a shit person I’m like thank you and now I’ll go change myself so I’ll be less of a shit person and don’t cause people trouble or pain 50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

None that I care for 51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

No, I’ve never fell hard for someone

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

Nope. I know when I need to walk away to better my health I won’t let someone hold me back. 53. Do you like rain?

answered already 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Nah. Just as long as they’re not an alcoholic I’m cool with it 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Yeah. Story of my life tbh. 56. Do you like to cuddle?

YES 57. Are you shy?

eh not it depends on the situation like around adults I can be meh… But grouping outings and stuff I’m pretty out and about 58. Do you get along with girls?

yeah 59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

no 60. What do you carry with you at all times?

Money. Hand sanitizer. Chapstick. Basic shit. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

For 1 million dollars yeah, I’d fight a ghost for 1 million dollars 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

yeah 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

sadly no 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

YES 65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

I left my sister’s house and my sister texted me a minute later saying how my nephew asked were I was at and she told him I left and he goes “but i didn’t get to say bye..” I thought it was cute. Usually they hate me lmao

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

never been kissed

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?  

My nails are shit I’d rather pay. I only ever got them done twice in my lifetime so far.    68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

Leopard print     69. Do you have any stickers on your car? 

I don’t have car…    70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?  

LUKE BRYAN. I actually really love Luke Bryan don’t hate me   71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?   

Well my first smart phone was and Anroid so I’m going with that 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?

God I can’t even remember I hope it’s soon I could go for some PIzza Hut     73. Do you like diet soda?    

Ehh.. Yeah I don’t drink a lot of pop to begin with though. Like I hate pop. But I LOVE root beer 74. What color are the walls in your room?  

White   75. Are you 16 or older? 

I am 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

No but I’ve heard of it 77. Do you have a job?    

No… I need to get one. I gotta worry about school so putting a job on top of that would suck. and I have no way of transportation so..   78. What are your initials?   

JH  79. Did you ever have braces?    

I actually got denied braces a couple days ago which pisses me off because I need braces, my teeth are shit 80. Are you from the south?  

I don’t think? I’m horrible with stuff don’t ask me this. 

81. What does your last status on facebook say?

It’s just a video I reblogged, I don’t post much on facebook     82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? 

there’s a lot of kissing questions isn’t there?    83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?

I don’t like to choose though I feel more comfortable joking with my mom on some stuff. It can be a little awkward with my dad because I’m like his little girl and idk.. Sometimes it’s like or this is fine and sometimes I’m like why. It’s nothing ever addressed towards me or anything no, it’s just things you’d like tell a friend and have a laugh about you know? But also my dad does do a lot for me. So I’m close to both of them.

84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

Hell no 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?   

Kong: Skull Island  86. Do you smoke?    

No I’d literally die. Asthma my guy, I ain’t taking any chances. 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? 

Heels. I can’t walk in heels which I REALLY WISH I COULD. But I hate feet and flip flops is basically just showing you people’s feet and I just want to gag   88. Is your phone touch screen?    

Yep 89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

Straight 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

No, I’m a good noodle 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?

 I’ve only ever swam in a pool it’d be fun to swim in a river or lake. But then large body water phobia might kick in

92. Have you ever made out in a car?  

No :/   93. …Had sex in a car?    

….. No 94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

Single 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?

Probably watching videos on youtube     96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?

July 4th :P     97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

Fuck no it’s a piece of shit 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?  

No.   99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? 

Lmao no    100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?

No I ain’t no fake bitch if I hate you why would I add you on facebook 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

No 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

Probably Cannibal I don’t know why but I listened to that one a lot back in 2010 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    

No I can’t tan for the life of me. I got 2 shades Larry the Lobster and Casper the Friendly Ghost 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? 

I don’t think I’d ever wear cowboy boots lmao. I’ve worn boots with shorts before they just weren’t cowboy boots 

[bitchin-lesbian]

flower crown fairy lights daisies 1975 matte black nail polish pantone moodboard stars plants converse lace handwriting cactus sunrise oil paints overalls combat boots winged eyeliner pastel tattoos piercings bands messy bun cry baby grunge space white bed sheets old books beaches eyes 11:11 painting lightning thunder storms love clouds coffee marble >:D

:Flower crown: today

Fairy lights: will i ever fuckin Stop

Daisies: i got out of my fuckin hometown of 600 people. thank gods. 

1975: i taught my brother to dab the other day, v proud big sister

Matte: maybe i’d change a few things, but not too much

Black nail polish: eh, kinda. I want to travel to other countries, learn as many languages as i can, and meet at least 1 famous person

Pantone: my roommate is fucking great. she puts up with my bullshit and my depression and anxiety and my poor broke ass and my complaints. she's fuckin hilarious and great at drawing and is funny and beautiful and i would fuckin die for her in a heartbeat.

Moodboard: some parts were good i guess.

Stars: fuck i dont even remember the last time i cried

Plants: my roommate @iceychuu cuz she can point out constellations and other awesome shit

Converse: buddy i have an oversharing problem, literally anyone that shows an interest in me and my life will have to listen to my strife and sufferings

Lace: my friend Jonathan, he’s a good buddy of mine

Handwriting: i think it would be to my brother, i’d say something about how much i loved him and how proud of him i was, and that i wanted him to do amazing and i’d be there in ghost form to kick anyone’s ass that dared to fucking try to hurt him.

Cactus: listen. brown eyes. they’re fucking gorgeous. omg. s o pre tty.

Sunrise: ‘Aut viam inveniam aut faciam’ ‘i will find a way or i will make one’- not exactly a quote, but close enough since im too lazy to find one of my faves right now. im gonna fuckin push my way through any struggles i have whether i gotta go down a given path or beat my way through.

Oil paints: ‘I Got 99 Problems and I Am 87 of Them’ or ‘Allow Me to Seduce You with My Greek Mythology Knowledge’ or ‘You Probably Think I Can’t Get Any Lower, but I’m Taking That as a Challenge, Bicth’

Overalls: pay off my tuition, make myself financially stable, make the family members i care able financially stable and pay off their tuition, make my friends financially stable and pay off their tuition, and probably just make people’s fuckin day by buying clothes or food or things people need for people that need it. maybe id build a fucking monument flipping off Donald Trump.

Combat boots: im so fucking forgiving its ridiculous. sometimes i wish i could be less forgiving.

Winged eyeliner: Buddy listen, you’re bi. yes, girls are hella pretty, and yeah sometimes guys are okay when they aren’t fucking terrifying or stupid as fuck. this is normal, relax. also, fuck everyone in town, they don’t matter. quit basketball, focus on yourself. dont try to die. harrison is not as perfect as you think he is. dedicate your life to weightlifting, you’ll feel badass and strong. cut your hair, you’ll be amazed at the difference. don’t be cringey. you’re cringey. you’re a fucking loser, so is everyone else. pink is a good color, and makeup is cool too. let girls be girls. don’t try to die, lol.

Pastel: i think i’m more punk? idk i don’t really like many pastel colors very much...

Tattoos: i fucking love tattoos and piercings? i want them so bad and i think they are very fucking attractive.

Piercings: no, makeup is expensive and I've got 0 clue what the fuck im doing. also id rub it all off. and it kinda irritates my face.

Bands: Bring Me the Horizon was my favorite band for a long ass time because their songs made me think ‘holy shit this is a normal feeling; other people feel alone and tired and sad and shitty like me too, someone understands’ and yeah

Messy bun: We are destroying the human race and the planet with Donald Trump, Mike Pence, and the others that are trying to destroy shit, and we need to fucking get our shit together. Or, Stop killing off the LGBT+ characters.

Cry baby: I've been to two Jonas Brothers concerts and one Demi Lovato concert. i dont think i was older than 11 for any of them, and holy shit i was in rapture.

Grunge: Dwayne the Rock Johnson. He could literally write ‘what’s up’ and i’d probably frame it and look at it every day

Space: not really, i’ll work anywhere as long as i’m comfortable

White bed sheets: get pajamas on, get in bed, get on computer until i wanna sleep

Old books: that i kinda hate them lol 

Beaches: im thinking a pink color, or maybe a dark ass purple or blue? keep it styled how it is now, longer on the top, shorter on the sides, whatever.

Eyes: my roommate, my friends Josh, Nicole, and MJ, and @dxrk-sxxls​ and as for where, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ wherever the fuck we decided i guess lol this would be an Adventure

11:11: stability, death, and the death of Donald Trump and Mike Pence

Painting: SO IN FUCKING 6TH GRADE I MADE MYSELF INTO A CEREAL KILLER. I WAS A BOX OF CEREAL WITH A BLOODY MACHETE AND NO ONE UNDERSTOOD MY COSTUME AND I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED AND SAD.

Lightning: *finger guns* sucked a dick. i was kinda in a horrible mindset and was hoping he was one of those dangerous strangers that would kill me but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i am still here.

Thunder: hurt my brother.

Storms: this is vague, like the song/person would be there ALL THE TIME, or just whenever i wanted to listen to music or interact with a human being? Mr. Brightside or my roommate

Love: nope, lol

Clouds: i already rock short hair

Coffee: legit i just get a caramel macchiato or a cascara latte, i dont even care who orders for me, even if it gets fucked up as long as theres no mint in it i do not care

Marble: surviving

@dxrk-sxxls i did it bicth