#➵ letting go (meme answers)

[nonbinarylesbianherb]

All this markhelly, markgemma, markhelena shenanigans… it’s too complicated you know,

what if we just get rid of mark and make an extremely complex relationship with just helly/helena and gemma true

[sualne]

my sillies

[personostient]

don't know if this is what you meant in your post but here's a customized bingo card for your monster art. it's not super well balanced but i did a backscroll through your blog to try and get things that are at least semi common, and everything on here shows up in at least three of your works. uhhhh i hope you like it!!!! also i love your art!! thank you for making cool stuff!

Ey, ima cry fr, thank you. Yes this is exactly what i meant- Three fucking times?!? You really scrolled through the whole tag and complied this, that's really impressive! EVERYONE. LOOK AT THIS BINGO CARD RIGHT NOW.

[cupcakewebkinz]

vrroommm vrroommomoommmmm VUHROOM

Dandy is not fucking off and is absolutely getting the weed whacker treatment, according to this guy. I believe it. /silly

[supercantaloupe]

omg so my adopted volunteer grandpa asked me today if i was in a choir because i was able to read notated gregorian and i was so excited to say yes i was in a choir 😭 we don’t rly do early music but who’s gonna tell him 😭

CHOIR 💪💪

i hope you get a chance to sing early music at some point tho even just renaissance. renaissance polyphony is quite possibly my all time favorite era of choral music to sing it's SO much fun

[ask meme]

[umbral-stigmata-unbound]

Character Headcanon Meme | Open

@sixvisxpacem asked: For the character meme: Vincent, Sephiroth, Genesis, and Cloud~~

Thank you! Here we go! Now of course these are headcanons so, this is what I read and semi want from the characters, while recognizing it's likely not the intentions of the creators.

Vincent

Sexuality Headcanon: It took years of growing up in fandom of course to come to this conclusion, because you grow up with the conditioned straight-by-default assumption, and his only canon subject of his romantic love being Lucrecia, I just labeled him as straight, even as I began roleplaying as him officially on here. But the more I interacted with Roleplayers, and let my more natural state of bi/pan until otherwise confirmed mindset I have with characters now, and honestly more especially thanks to @skadren getting me into Strifentine, I have come to full accept that he is pan. My usually experience when writing him is he knew around his teens about his inclination towards men, but felt the weight of expectations and he just didn't really explore it. At least not on his own. Now when the right man would present himself, it's harder to ignore (*cough cough* Veld *Cough*). But absolutely Pan, for me.

Gender Headcanon: Cismale, personally.

A ship I have with said character: STRIFENTINE, STRIFENTINE, STRIFENTINE. Sorry, ahem. But yeah, that is the TOP ship for Vincent for me. Though I haven't been able to explore it in my own writing, VinVeld is right up there. As is Vinesis. Those are probably my top ships for Vincent. I have other ships, too, but they're lesser or more random due to RP. Honorable mention, VincentxReeve, because Dirge era.

A BROTP I have with said character: Reeve and Vincent are a fun brotp, and I'm extremely fond of their dynamic due to Dirge, and just the layers given their past with the company. Other than that, I don't see him vibing close with many apart from Cloud, but I always see them with ship lens lmao. But they work as really good friends, too, as they can generally be perfect support. I like the idea of him having a dynamic with Tifa, too. It wouldn't be as deep as the others, but perhaps they could relate on unique levels, he could give sort of mentor vibes, and she could be a gentleness (they totally gossip about Cloud). Maybe I could see a unique buddy thing that'd be funny, with Cid? But for me it's not strong enough to be BROTP worthy.

A NOTP I have with said character: Cid/Valenwind. No offense to shippers! I understand the appeal! But it's just not for me, for OG Cid reasons, and just because it's not my vibe. Beyond that, I guess Lucrecia x Vincent, for the reasons stated above. It's fun to explore in it's toxicity, but I'd never actively ship it.

A random headcanon: I don't have many that aren't shared by most heavy Vincent fans, so I'll just throw my recent one. Connected to the Rebirth encouraged headcanon, thanks to the decoration of Vincent's coffin, that the cerberus emblem from Dirge is a Valentine family crest, I sort of had another idea one day. Just watching clips with him using Cerberus and wondering when he got it, because he never got that gun in OG to my memory, but he has it by the time Advent events happen, and still has it going into Dirge (and which the game is named after), where did he find it? He doesn't have all the emblem shit in AC, save for the keychain, until dirge. So when did he get Cerberus? with the crest idea, it feels like it had to be intentional so would Vincent have taken time to commission and purchase a gun? Or what if Grimoire commissioned it before he passed, and after he and Vincent had been estranged for some time. Vincent's thriving as a Turk, and surely Grimoire kept enough tabs to know his specialty. Perhaps he was looking for the day he could make amends, and Cerberus was going to be a part of that. A gift with the weight and legacy of the Valentine name, a reminder of the legacy but the love there, but fitted to the life Vincent had chosen? Of course, he never got around to giving it. Perhaps Vincent found it, realized it for what it was, and lowly started implementing the crest more for various reasons (like bitch got it on his phone. him and Cloud both, wearing their canine symbolism and the weight that comes with it).

General Opinion over said character: Good god, that headcanon took up too much space so I don't wanna overload you guys but FUCK I LOVE HIM. I loved him when I was younger for the simplest, vibiest and superficial reasons and every year I got older, I came to appreciate him for more and more layers. I love his tragedy, I love his layers. The trauma, the otherness he is stuck with, the spook vibes, his relationships with others, his humor, his attitude, his wit. I just adore him. He is such a full character. There's too much to say about him honestly.

Sephiroth

Sexuality Headcanon: Gay/Demi/Ace spectrum, I've never really settled. There is not a lady lover layer in Sephiroth, except loving his mother. But yeah, it's homosexual in his inclination, but I don't see him feeling sexual desire or attraction without depth of relationship and either deep trust, or something just as intense but more twisted.

Gender Headcanon: Eh? Is that a gender? He is what the company told him he was, that's really where his mind is on that matter. It doesn't matter to him. He presents male, he accepts such pronouns, isn't generally inclined to they or she/her pronouns, but he doesn't feel like he's JUST Cismale. He's beyond that, is all I can say?

A ship I have with said character: Sefikura and Sephesis are constantly sitting upon the same pedestal XD for a few years Sefikura had the spot alone, but Sephesis has been claiming more room, but it's awkward sharing at this point XD I explore random or crackships through roleplaying sometimes, but these are the ships I'm most passionate about for Sephiroth, and the ships I think have the most depth. I did ship SephxAerith off and on for a while, and I flip flop between adoring the doomed lab sibling dynamic and the romantic layered version of that, but it's not high up there, and it's the only acception RARELY and not much anymore to the 'not a lady lover' rule. OH! And Seph and Zack, some delicious tragedy.

A BROTP I have with said character: Aerith and Sephiroth, k. Lab siblings, and what if they were able to remember and reflect on their past while being two sides to the same tragic coin? Zack and Seph are great, too, even if very sad because it feels like most of their friendship is just a stand in for what they both lost. I won't list Genesis and Angeal because though they are his friends, his dynamic with them is so complicated and beyond bros. I've also always wondered (before the Glenn layers) what his dynamic would've been with Rufus, if they ever interacted? I wouldn't call them bros XD but like, ShinRa's twisted and locked away heir, and their shining weapon acting as their puppet? Would've been interesting. So I enjoy the interactions in Rebirth.

A NOTP I have with said character: Sephgeal. Sorry? ^^; I mean, I see it. I could have shipped it a little before, but due to just the real layered character Angeal is and how actual story telling tells one story and fan content depicts something else, active shipping doesn't interest me. Same with SAG, or the addition of Zack and Cloud in there alongside the other two. Maybe that dynamic can be done well, and i found it fascinating when I started getting into the rp and fic community of this fandom but not much anymore. Beyond that, not sure I have any others. at least none I've heard of lol

A random headcanon: The man needs a trustworthy dom in his life. This is sort of silly, and yes it applies sexually, but can also apply in other situations. Like, someone that could fulfill that position in a healthy fashion, encourage him to take initiative where he needs to and where ShinRa trained him not to, but to give him an outlet to just...give up his power and be taken care of, for him. To be told what to do, but for his own comfort, and satisfaction. Not for the greed of others. Not for pain or power or anything like that. It would likely be a process, to even admit that it would do him good and tha the could enjoy it, much less him getting used to given in like that. He's used to being under orders, and he's used to the power he's allowed. Post-The Crisis shit, he's also going to extremes to BE the ABSOLUTE power, to be beyond the control of ShinRa and their lies among other things. So yeah, it wouldn't be easy. But I think it'd be beneficial.

General Opinion over said character: I adore him, almost as much as Vincent. My understanding and love has grown over the last decade, and he has become such a treasured muse and character. I love his humanity, his flaws, I love his cruelty, his unhinged fate, I love the tragedy of him just...wanting to hold tight to his friends and to survive what they were going through, only to be left behind. He's so fucking complicated, and yes he's absolutely the villain, but he's also the villain as a result of others. ShinRa, Hojo, Jenova and her influence, and the little mistakes of others that pushed him. He is absolutely wrong for the devastation he caused and continues to be willing to cause, and yet also he has never did anything wrong and even if he did, he deserves to, so there.

Just gotta say, a disclaimer with these next two, I may not have fully developed ideas, nor confidence and experience like the two characters previous answers, given my lack of writing them, but still, here we go!

Genesis

Sexuality Headcanon: Gay gay gay. Maybe Demi a bit too? But definitely not a layer of lady loving there.

Gender Headcanon: Male, generally. I do see and sometimes adopt the transmasc/transmale headcanon, but only when it applies in a healthy, proper fashion--as others have said, it's fucked up when it's only applied in a sense of trying to say he's feminine for racist or other screwed up reasons. He at the very least, for me, is never bound to stupid societal expectations of male expression.

A ship I have with said character: SEPHESIS. Absolutely. I have so many tears over these two, man. I hurt. I love. I also enjoy the idea of him with Vincent. I enjoy the idea of him with Cloud. I deeply enjoy the idea of him with both. Beyond that, I don't know that I've shipped him with many others? For some reason Reno is popping up, at least for crack shit lmao. it wouldn't last

A BROTP I have with said character: Vincent. The vibes, the drama, the scholarly vibes. Their likely shared immortality and ties to the planet. I'd love to see him vibe with a Turk, I'm just not sure who would be most fitting XD Zack would be interesting, too, ya know, after main events if they could've both survived.

A NOTP I have with said character: Angeal and Genesis, and the poly ship mentioned with Seph. Just not my vibe for him.

A random headcanon: This borders on Sephesis-shippy and I've expressed it before, and it's nothing Genesis would be aware of, but in my lil brain, Sephiroth is just about as in awe of Genesis as Gen was/is of him coming into ShinRa. Seph's awe develops over time, but I also imagine it being more and more rapid. Just...Genesis is so fucking skilled, and I imagined fairly self-trained before joining. Sure, he's got a lot to learn going into the SOLDIER program, and yes I'm aware his origins amplify his potential to some degree, but Genesis is very self made. I imagine he taught himself to sword fight a little bit before joining. I imagine he taught himself magic and continued to do so outside of how ShinRa trained it, because he's one of the few to seem to weild materia elements more expressively than simple attacks. He's an absolute mage. His brilliant, his well read, he has so much potential and I just....see Sephiroth looking at him, and himself, and recognizing, he himself was FORGED into the weapon he is by ShinRa, meeting their standards and mostly staying in their set boxes. He is amazing, because he has to be, and he just did as he was told. But Genesis...? He CHOSE to became what he is, he chose his skill, he chose how to mold himself and he did so. And he stands out from all others. Sephiroth would likely keep it to himself, except when it would seem beneficial to offer commentary, but I really do believe Sephiroth would be absolutely amazed by Genesis (and smitten before he realizes it, and never gets around to doing anything about before the training incident).

General Opinion over said character: I adore him. I did not appreciate him the way he deserves until recent years, but thank goodness I've surrounded myself with brilliant fans that have broadened my awareness. Because fuck, I love him. His chaos, his revenge (that was far more deserved than what Sephiroth ended up doing, even if it still went too far in ways). His mind, his skill, his style, his beautiful fucking visage, like fucking hell. He is just amazing, and misunderstood, and wrongfully hated, even by some fans that say they're fans of him. God I lost braincells against some real haters in a facebook comment section on some Sephiroth art that had the banora white in the pic. people villainizing and mischaracterizing him...fuck, I think really made me realize how in love i'd fallen with the character, was in having to defend him from such rampant stupidity.

Cloud

Sexuality Headcanon: Bi/Pan, but also Demi. Has to really develop bonds before much can develop, though there can be occasional attraction without connections. I do believe he is attracted to and can love female characters, and in another ask, I detailed my complicated opinions about my headcanon version of his dynamic with his main two female love interests (i say headcanon because despite it seeming obvious to me, the canon intentions say otherwise). but i also see him being attracted to and falling for men feel like he has a longer potential list for man-crushes than he does women.

Gender Headcanon: Eh. This is one of those situations, like Gen, I'm not as versed in him beyond fanfic portrayal to be feel super experienced but. Through my perception of him and suggestions I've percieved from RP partners, I see him as male for the most part. He's not in the don't give a fuck, i exist beyond gender mindset of Seph. But I feel like he's somewhere between male and agender? Can express himself, or might have desire to express himself, beyond societal norms of male expression but also hasn't been in a state of his own mind to feel himself enough to have chance to express it.

A ship I have with said character: STRIFENTINE STRIFENTINE STRIFENTINE. Obviously. Sefikura was the first, and the big one, and I still ship it pretty hard but....Strifentine just sort of wins out lmao. Also ship him with Gen. Ship him with Zack on occasions. I don't actively ship him with females, beyond usually crossing paths with content or seeing stuff play out in canon, but it's not very active. The most active I get with Cloti is on my shippy mothers' behalf.

A BROTP I have with said character: Vincent, if not shippy. I kind of like the change of dynamic and the deepening of his bond with Barret. Zack, obviously. Also like the idea of him having a dynamic with Reeve, too. Aerith is his personal gremlin. Tifa is the original friend but that's all so very complicated that it's hard for me to define it as bro level friendship? Also, in a world where he survived and lived a new unusual life, Kadaj. I just feel like there's a lot they could talk about, when Kadaj isn't causing mayhem not to mention his height, some of the way he fights recklessly, his percieved age being 15/16 like the same age as the trooper that ended Sephiroth, just makes him feel like if a shred of sephiroth became a hater and idolized Cloud.

A NOTP I have with said character: Um, not sure I really have a notp for Cloud, other than the SOLDIER poly thing? Because Aerith and Tifa aren't exactly NOTPs, I'm just not inclined to them.

A random headcanon: Cloud helped Vincent get his phone, and may or may not have been influential in convincing him to accessorize his stuff. Cloud needed to purchase a new one to replace the one laid to rest with Aerith (aaaaa, the symbolism I never considered there), so might as well help No-Phone Vincent. And of course, they would then be the first numbers entered in to one anothers new phones.

General Opinion over said character: The only limit to my love for Cloud, is that it has not crossed the precipice into 'I must become what I love' as it has for other characters. But I adore him. I adore him. I adore him. He's so flawed, he's so real, he's so relatable. The hero that wasn't meant to be, but is anyways. The one to always stand against Sephiroth. The delivery guy. Claudia's boy. The ex-SOLDIER. The lone wolf. The family man. The man who became too many, when he lost track of himself. I love his strong moments, I love his fucking snarky attitude. I love his soft moments, his awkwardness. The tragedy of his struggle with identity, his toxic tie with Sephiroth. I love seeing him fall apart, I love seeing him put himself back together. Cloud is just an amazing character, and ya know roleplaying multiple muses that have strong feelings towards him just layers that XD

Thank you again for the ask, sorry this was so long!!

[azaracyy]

[For my dearest Elise!!] ／人◕ ‿‿ ◕人＼ "Do you want to make a contract with me to become a magical girl? I can grant you any wish your heart desires!"

sorry for taking so long to answer this ask ein afasdjflsf pls accept these humble scritches

"my bad, i didn't think you're already under a contract with someone."

[loki-cees-all]

Dramatized re-enactment of actual events.

[ashton-ryder]

Rumour has it Jer is in a relationship with Sada

"..and? Who he has relationships with is none of my business nor my right to butt in, he's his own person, he can do what he wants with Sada." @jeremiah-rose @sadavang

[impinged]

@hollowfaith: ‘ it’s all over, siffrin. relax. ’ / the house with a clock in its walls.

OVER?

What a funny word. You hate that word. It's not over. It's never over. You don't want it to be over.

What a terrible cycle! It's not over, but it never will be, but it's going to be, and you don't want it to. So it repeats. And you let it. Even if it makes you miserable. It's better that way. You can suffer so long as it never ends! You can make it all so perfect and change the end to be the way you want to, right?!? It doesn't matter. It matters a lot.

All that really matters is that he can't tell you it's over. That's not his job.

IT'S ONLY OVER WHEN YOU TALK TO HER !!!!!!

But she's not here. You do not want her here. You don't think you could take any more of her broken, failing, rotting words. Your words do enough of that on their own now.

Your head is spinning. Round and round. Haha. Over and over! Oh, that's so funny!!!! You're hysterical, in more ways than one!!!! Urgh.

"And how do you know that?" Really, like saying so will put an end to your internal anguish? Please, you could monologue yourself into a spiral any day of the week. Just because you're somewhere else doesn't mean your torture hasn't seeped itself into your very personality. Anything can agonize you. Everything can agonize you! Case in point: SOMEONE TELLING YOU IT'S OVER !!!

Okay you have to breathe you can't just be angry you have to breathe!!! Innnnn, and ouuuuut. Pheeeeeew! Okay you can be angry again.

SERIOUSLY. What gives? You get a few words of pity and that's supposed to make you feel better? IT DOESN'T. It used to, maybe! But now it all feels so manufactured. No one can really be genuine if you force them to feel bad for you. You deserve this, right? That's why everything that happens to you has happened. You deserve it. You committed the horrible act of wanting without asking, and now this is your punishment. What a nice blessing, Universe! Thanks so much!!!

Okay whatever. You're over this and over him and that's the only way it's really """OVER"""" okay? Good.

"If anything's over, it's your head." Because there's not a chance in the Universe he could ever come close to getting it.

[mechahero]

@idolsummons asked- ✨️ mash 'em up mix up

//Robot popstar!! Kind of! Ignore the organs crammed inside.

[absolutebl]

Thai QL 2023 Favorites Tag Game!

@waitmyturtles tagged me, I kinda did it quick but Wait made it QL instead of BL so I guess I’ll play again

Because I get overwhelmed easily I need to confine myself to only things in 2023. 

HERE WE GO - Thailand ONLY, 2023 ONLY 

Favorite 2023 Thai QL: 

My School President - I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOR

Favorite Pairing: 

On the basis of Moonlight Chicken as well as MSP I have to pick GeminiFourth but for high heat I really loved NetJames in Bed Friend 

Most underrated actor: 

Lee Long Shi

I’d say Noh Phouluang but so far he hasn’t been in anything this year. Damn it. 

Favorite Character: 

Ken in Chains of Heart

I KNOW. I HATED the show, but man what a fucking fantastic idea for a main character. Tough as nails, rebuilt himself from the foundation up, total bass ass, persistent fucker. Plus Haii is stunning to look at. It’s not his fault they fucking squandered the gift he gave them. 

Favorite Side Character: 

Easy one: Chot - Step By Step

Favorite scene in a QL: 

Between Us:

Favorite line in a QL: 

Hit Bite Love

Most Anticipated QL (& why): 

Twins the series - Not Me + HIStory 2 Crossing the line, it looks like golden trash.

Healthiest relationship in a QL: 

Destiny Seeker babies side couple:

Most toxic relationship in a QL: 

The Promise - I don’t wanna talk about it

Guilty pleasure series: 

This year? Certainly Destiny Seeker

Most underrated series:

Frankly, probably Destiny Seeker, since no one has seen it and I actually quite enjoyed it. 

Maybe Make a Wish? Another solid show that no one saw. 

Of those that people saw, I think the Never Let Me Go Our Skyy installment was GREAT and pretty underrated. 

It’s only July so of course this is subject to change without notice. 

If you follow me... and I find something I love... you’ll notice. 

Thai BL I watch so Far This Year: 

La Pluie - 9

My School President - 9

Step By Step  - 9

Bed Friend - 8

Between Us - 8

Destiny Seeker - 8

Make a Wish - 8

Moonlight Chicken - 8

Never Let Me Go - 8

Our Skyy 2 - mixed 7 & 6 

Cutie Pie 2 You special - 7

Future the series - 7

609 Bedtime Story - 6

I Will Knock You - 5

Remember Me - 5

Tin Tem Jai - 5

Pastsenger - 4

The Promise - 4

Cafe In Love - 3

Chains of Heart - 3

Hit Bite Love - 3

Senior Love Me - 3

The Luminous Solution - 3

My Blessing - 2

House of Stars - dnf

Till the World Ends - dnf

[somelonelywordmonger]

NOT MY DAD THUMBS-UPPING MY PAINED SIGH OF "i'm use to it tho"

Dad, please :sob:

such a dad thing to do LMAO

[thatswhatsushesaid]

ooh what's my Thing? (I have a strong feeling I already know what you'll say but it's always fun to be told)

- asking regarding @yunmeng-jiang, this is my main lol

jiang cheng stanning, naturally. 🤝

[twodiamondhoes]

YOU SHOULD KNOW BY NOW THAT THERE IS NOT A SINGLE ACADEMIC PAYWALL I WILL NOT FIND A WAY TO NINJA MY WAY OVER FOR YOU

Shoutout to my partner for barely even waiting for me to go "They won't let me read the article 🥺" before finding a version I can access

Every time 💕

[mel-loly]

-“Oh, school has to be something serious, especially this year/something like that!”

The things I did when I was at school (especially in computer class):

TW: cigarette

I have a lot of memories, and this is certainly one of the most important/best/funniest in my life. I'm really going to miss everything... and I'm already crying lol..