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ressjin · 1 year ago
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tenía esto guardado hace tiempo jksidjr
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cometlevi · 1 year ago
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I ADORE him so much
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he’s so pretty, that’s my baybee <3
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tojiscrack · 5 months ago
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i just spent the past 3 days reading through liar liar and now idk what to do with my life 💔💔 ur writing is actually really good though, and im glad i found your page <33
liar, liar masterlist here:
oh, bless 😭
i always direct my readers to the super hidden (but not really hidden ‘cause it’s on the masterlist page) q&a section of LL here :)
i’ve attached all the questions i’ve received for LL over the past 11 months — nearly a year since its release omggg! — and additionally, the fun little trends our lovely readers have gotten up to while i was sitting on my ass doing anything but writing 💀
more recently, everyone’s decided to only tell me now that they’ve all got a wonderful talent of drawing?? 😭 and all their pieces are genuinely so good, i’ve attached them at the bottom of the q&a post!
and there’s more art sitting in my inbox too! so keep an eye out for that :) i can’t respond to those now ‘cause i’m a little busy but i’m getting to it, i promise!
‘ur writing is really good though, and i’m glad i found your page’ — UGH
🫨💕🔫 😙🫰
^ you shooting me in the chest with heart-shaped bullets
i’m so glad you found my page too 😫💞
WELCOME TO THE LL FAMILY 🥳
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meidiary · 6 months ago
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if you receive this, you make somebody happy! send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. if you get one back, even better! ♡♡♡
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HANAEEE!!!! this is so cute tyyyy 😭🩷
HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?!!! and aaahh your acc is so pretty 🤧🤧 the purple and pink together are just 👌
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lu-dao-writes · 2 years ago
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ANGEL ON MY SHOULDER.
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✧ PAIRING: gojo satoru x reader, geto suguru x reader (hinted) | 5k words
✧ SUMMARY: ghost!reader, major character death, jjk manga spoilers, so much angst bc you literally die lmao, longing, mutual pining, suppressed feelings, everyone sucks at love, some fluff, banter, might be slightly suggestive, lots of hinted feelings (read: suguru), arguments, overall this is painful so read if you enjoy angst !!
✧ RHEYA'S NOTE: this idea randomly came to me before i went to bed a few days ago and in the spirit of halloween, i figured why not? i live off of angst and need to share the pain with everyone lmao oops. this is late for halloween tho my bad !!
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i. 2007
satoru brings one more flower than he did the day before. morning glories again, of course, but an extra one. he had added one more to the the bunch every day since the day you died. the first day, he brought three, wrapped with a cheap blue ribbon that he found in his desk drawer. it was hardly a respectable bouquet, but those three flowers were the ones he'd grown for you, so it only seemed fitting.
he didn't care much for gardening. but one day you asked shoko what her favorite flowers were so you could give her some on valentine's day. she asked you what yours were so she could return the favor.
satoru never forgot morning glories after that day.
he's not even sure if morning glories are appropriate to bring to a grave, but he knows you'd like them.
you would tell him it didn't matter anyway.
ii. 2007
(suguru did not cry when you died. satoru watched, intently, because there was nothing in the universe that his six eyes couldn't catch. he waited for it, even a sliver of emotion that would betray suguru's bleeding heart, but he gave nothing. he just stood in front of the stone that marked the end of your life with a deep stare. something had settled there in his eyes, cold and resolute.
a few months before you died, you had told satoru that there was something wrong with suguru. you said that he'd been distant, somewhere far away, and you worried for him. you always did, so open with your affection for him.
"don't want him to get lost." you had hummed, your shoulder brushing against satoru's as you raise the mango ice pop he brought you to your mouth. satoru watches your lips out of the corner of his eyes, his stomach flipping eagerly even as he keeps his face impassive.
"he said it was just the summer heat," he answers, ignoring the sweet mango juice dripping down his knuckles. "should be nothing."
you don't look all that convinced, turning your head to look up at him with meaningful glance. "you sure?"
he stares at you for a lengthy second, cerulean eyes darting over your facial features, before he reaches up and knocks his knuckle against your forehead. "yeah. he'll be fine." he assures, and your shoulders relax as you continue to eat the ice pop.
you were right about it all. four days after you die, suguru massacres an entire village.)
iii. 2008
satoru shifts in his bed, grunting quietly he begins to stretch his stiff joints. his eyes crack open, still heavy with sleep as he waits for his dark ceiling to come into focus. except it doesn't, because all he can see are a pair of very familiar looking eyes. unsaturated, but still so obviously the color he once knew. his own eyes snap open, all traces of sleep gone as he finally makes out someone who looks exactly like you, perched on his stomach with a confused and slightly panicked expression.
he shoots up, and you pull back a little. it looks like you're on his lap, and yet he can't feel you on him at all. he gulps.
"hey toru." you say quietly, and his stomach drops. the same eyes, the same voice. gods above.
"you're dead," he says simply, trying not to betray the way his pulse is jumping at even the smallest glimpse of you again. "you're not real."
"i'm dead," you confirm, nodding your head as you look down at your translucent palms. "but i'm here somehow."
he sucks in a breath, reaching out a hand as if to touch you. the disappointment he feels when it passes through your form is sickening.
you smile shakily, shrugging your shoulders as you attempt to make light of the situation.
"guess i couldn't stay away."
he stares at you for minutes without saying a word and you stare back, equally silent.
iv. 2007
(nanami had carried your body back, his teeth gritted as his blonde hair fell over his eyes. satoru never brought it up, but he knew that nanami remained bothered by it for the rest of his life. your death was bad timing, especially after they had just lost haibara a few weeks prior.
nanami had no reason to blame himself though. if anything, it was satoru's fault you were gone.
shoko had called him from the infirmary, her voice hard and pinched as she spat out three words: "get down here."
when satoru saw your body, he didn't say a word. just took a few long strides until he was at the table where nanami had placed you down. your eyes were shut, face resting in a way that seemed so unnatural. he opened his mouth to ask shoko something, but felt like he was choking on air, so he stopped himself.
then he grabbed your limp fingers, squeezed them gently. they were still a little warm, but not as warm as you usually run. shoko didn't say anything, just stood there with her hands clenched, short brown hair falling over her dark eyes.
satoru remained there for the next thirty minutes, waiting for you to sit up and laugh at the prank you were no doubt pulling. as if your blood wasn't still dripping all over the table.
shoko was the one who finally pulled a sheet over your body with shaking hands. she didn't look satoru in the eye, and didn't spare a glance when suguru burst into the room ten minutes later.)
v. 2008
it takes satoru a while to get used to the fact that you're not physically there. he has to bite his tongue when he moves to bump your shoulder or flick your forehead only to find that his skin goes right through yours. you always give him that same little rueful smile, and he sighs to himself.
he doesn't make an effort to figure out why you're there. he figures it's similar to how jujutsu users can come back as curses due to strong feelings. when he thinks about it though, guilt lodges itself into his throat, because the first thought he had when he heard you were entering death's door was no, don't you dare die.
every day he wonders if he's the one who cursed you to stay.
you act like it doesn't matter, hovering around him as he busies himself in his empty room. at first you're quiet, as though you've forgotten how to speak to him in your incorporeal form. but then you start asking him questions, and it's one question that satoru dreads to answer that you finally bring up.
"where's suguru?"
he's not stupid. he knows there's more you think of suguru than you've ever revealed. of course you'd want to know. but that doesn't mean he wants to be the one to tell you. you had died with nothing but a good impression of geto suguru. you'd probably died with your feelings for him still intact too.
it'd be selfish of satoru to ruin that.
"nothing, don't worry about it," he dismisses, voice clipped as he busies himself with preparing dinner. he knows that won't deter you.
you huff, moving to hover in his line of sight. you cross your arms as you glare at him seriously, and satoru hates how nostalgic your expression makes him feel. he tongues his cheek before sighing.
"he's gone." satoru answers simply. he tries to keep his tone even but it comes out bitter and strained. he can hear your quiet gasp, and feels your form move closer to him. if you were alive, he'd be able to feel your breath on his skin now.
"what do you mean, gone?"
satoru sighs again, turning to look at you completely. he hated everything about this. "he left school. went crazy. killed a bunch of people, including his parents."
he would've laughed at the comical way your jaw dropped if you didn't look so hurt. you sputter over your words as he picks up his bowl and moves to the table, trailing after him and demanding more information.
he doesn't hesitate to share, because he's always hated keeping secrets from you. you had this uncanny ability to see straight through him, and it never failed to make him feel unsettled. so he tells you everything that happened in the few weeks after you died. suguru leaving, their confrontation in shinjuku, his plans for non-sorcerers. he leaves nothing unsaid.
when he's done, he finally looks at you, trying to gauge your reaction. but you're just staring at his food with a bitter expression, brows pinched and lips pursed. satoru says your name once.
you glance at him, and it's too quick for him to look for any accusation in it. doesn't matter though, because he's ready to own up to his mistakes.
"you were right back then. about suguru." satoru admits quietly, turning to his food. he doesn't want to look at you anymore, because he's scared you'll show him how disappointed you are with him.
you don't say anything in response. but you sit down at the small dining table and watch him eat with soft eyes, one bite at a time. satoru doesn't admit it, but the whole time he imagines that you're gently rubbing his shoulder, and he thinks he hasn't missed you more than in that moment.
vi. 2007
(it was satoru's fault you died. if he hadn't been so selfish, you'd still be next to him, shoulder brushing his as the two of you walked through the streets of tokyo.
you had knocked on his door that morning before you had left for your last mission, rocking on your heels. he opened it groggily, still half asleep.
"you going on a mission?" satoru had yawned, drowsy eyes trailing over your uniform. you nod with a grin.
"mhm, with nanami. there are two separate areas with curses though, so we'll split up when we get there. should be simple enough." you shrug, toying with the collar of your uniform jacket.
satoru decides to be annoying. "then why are you here disturbing my sleep? get out." he groans dramatically, peering at you with narrowed eyes. you smack his arm, scoffing. you've stopped questioning why he keeps his infinity down for you do those things to him.
"i was gonna ask if you wanted to come with," you hiss, crossing your arms defensively. "but i'm taking it back, asshole."
he grins. "what? can't stay away?"
you roll your eyes, shaking your head with a sarcastic laugh. "don't flatter yourself."
satoru pauses for a second. "i was gonna go back to sleep." he admits, feeling a little guilty. he had just come back from a mission the night before, and he doesn't feel like leaving again. he doesn't know how to say that to you though.
but you see right through him, like you always do.
"you've been going on missions a lot lately," you smile earnestly, patting his shoulder. "no wonder you're tired."
"'m the strongest, i don't get tired." he protests, crossing his arms with a scoff. you roll your eyes again, sticking your tongue out at him as you heft your weapon over your shoulder.
"keep it up and you're seriously gonna fry your brain or something," you say with a shake of your head, eyes betraying your concern for him. he notices it, and tries to smother down the way it makes his stomach flip. "i'll be fine. you can come on my next mission with me."
fair enough, he thinks. he hadn't gone on missions with you or suguru in a while. he should remember to ask yaga to let him go on your next one. just the two of you. you and him. maybe he'd buy you a mango ice pop on the way back.
"fine." he acquiesces easily, not even thinking to protest. he'll see you later anyway, so he'll talk to you more when you get back.
you smirk a little, motioning to his bedhead, before gently kicking his shin. "go back to sleep then, stupid."
he rolls his eyes, reaching up to knock his knuckle against your forehead like he always does. "whatever. bring me some sweets on your way back, yeah?"
the laugh you give him as he shuts the door is the last thing he ever hears from you.
he should've gone with you.)
vii. 2012
satoru hates the way you're looking at him right now.
it was a stupid little mistake. he had gone to see little megumi and tsumiki earlier that afternoon, and as usual, you had tagged along with him. you'd watched him raise up the two kids over the last few years, never failing to tease about his newly acquired fatherhood, or how much he seemed to care about them despite his efforts to hide it. he didn't ever think to say that you'd helped him raise them up too. even in your incorporeal form you'd always been around to tell him what meals he could prep or to remind him that megumi liked black forest cake for his birthdays.
he'd gotten so used to you being around and he slipped up once. that afternoon when he had walked megumi home from school, teasing and poking fun at the kid, he'd made a stupid joke. megumi had rolled his eyes and told him to shut up.
and then without thinking, satoru had turned to you as you hovered next to him and groaned your name out dramatically before whining, "this kid is so mean to me!"
your eyes widened immediately, and if you were alive he'd probably see the color drain from your face. his stomach had sank and he couldn't tear his eyes away from you, even when megumi glanced at him with a raised brow.
"who are you talking to?" he asked, and satoru gulped, shaking his head as he broke eye contact with you to look down at the kid.
"nobody." he had answered.
he tries to ignore the meaningful stare you pin him with for the rest of the afternoon, hoping that you'll just forget about it. but as soon as satoru has left the kids and he's back in his own room, you're on him. he busies himself with making a cup of hot chocolate, even though he feels sick to his stomach.
"satoru you have to figure out how to get rid of me!" you plead, eyes so sad it makes his stomach churn. "i'm gonna drive you insane!"
"i'm fine!" he snaps back, shaking his head as he takes a sip from his mug, the warmth distracting him from whatever it was you were trying to remind him of. he places it down on the table in front of him and crosses his arms defensively. "it was a stupid mistake. won't happen again."
you shimmer in and out of focus, manifesting in front of him with a glare, though your eyes are still the same. wounded and hurt. "it wasn't and you know it! you can't keep living like this. i've been haunting you for years, toru!"
"well who asked you to go ahead and die?!" he yells without thinking, and it's like he sees your hurt bubble forth in slow motion.
"i went and died because i made a stupid mistake on a mission! quit blaming yourself, you dumbass!" you shout, voice raised higher than he's ever heard it.
satoru's mug shatters against the wall.
the two of you immediately turn to look at the mess with wide eyes, before slowly turning to each other to ensure that it really did happen.
"how'd you do that?" satoru asks quietly, his voice strained as he takes a few long strides towards you. you look down at your hand, the same one that you had lifted to swipe at his mug during your fit of rage. you look back up at him with wide eyes and parted lips. satoru's head is pounding, some kind of sick hope stirring within him. "you had to have touched it."
"i don't…" you trail off, voice filled with awe and a bit of fear. satoru reaches up a hand, ignoring the tremble in it, and moves to touch your face. he will never admit to the amount of times he begs in his head, please please please.
his hand goes straight though your skin, and your eyes soften. satoru lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding, hiding his disappointment as he takes a step back and turns away.
viii. 2006
(satoru thinks gardening is ridiculous. plants are so fragile, needing to be constantly monitored and cared for like children. he can't understand why anyone would choose to garden as a hobby when there were less stressful things to do in spare time.
even the process was time consuming, he realizes as he scoops out piles of dirt into the small pots he had set out on his windowsill.
he thinks back to the silly little grin you had on your face as you answered shoko's question.
"morning glory," you had said, leaning against her shoulder. "i like the way they open in the morning and close at night."
shoko hummed, staring at the sky even as satoru quietly eavesdropped. "you got a favorite color?"
"the blue ones," you answered. "they're the prettiest."
your voice echoes in his head as he places the seeds into the soil, and he sighs heavily. why he was doing this for you was beyond him.
the thought makes him annoyed, and he huffs in frustration the entire time he plants them. gardening had to be the stupidest hobby ever.
and yet when three blue morning glories bloom against his windowsill, he can't hold back his grin.)
ix. 2017
satoru's grateful that you don't watch him kill suguru.
he tells you to go, and you give suguru a long stare, face pinched and sour even though your translucent eyes are shining. it's a shame suguru can't see you though, because satoru thinks you look so pretty. suguru would've been lucky to have you be the last thing he ever saw.
you turn away and disappear without a word, and after one last exchange, satoru finishes the job.
it's only after he watches rika's final goodbye to yuta does he realize the extent of what a goodbye even means. he'd said one to suguru, and yet he can't help but miss him as he walks back home. he wonders if suguru wouldn't have had to die if you were still around.
satoru had never gotten a goodbye with you though. you're somehow still with him, but he misses you so much. it puts an ugly feeling in his gut, twisted and dark. it weighs down on his shoulders as he finally opens the door to his room, heavy and overwhelming as he sees you sitting on his bed, face vacant.
he says your name, and you don't move. he takes a seat next to you, and something about your sad expression makes him so unbelievably angry.
"quit being sad about it," he finally spits out, the truthful extent of his feelings coming out. "it's not like you're even alive that you'd be able to see him."
you scoff as you give him a sidelong glare. "what's that supposed to mean? one of my closest friends just died and you expect me not to be upset about it?"
"at least he'll find a way to you!" satoru hisses, clenching his fists so hard that his nails leave crescents in his skin. "you two can have fun together for all of eternity."
there's a tense silence that follows as he grits his teeth, turning away from you. he's so disgusted right now. with suguru, with you, with himself.
"i'm all by myself." satoru mutters bitterly, the words so foreign on his tongue as the truth hits him.
god he misses you so much.
he suddenly feels a sharp thwack on the back of his head and he's turning around with wide eyes.
"don't you dare forget about shoko!" you hiss, tears in your eyes as you glare at him, hand raised. "i'll never forgive you!"
his throat goes dry, because the smack you just gave him was the first time you'd touched him since the day you died. there's a storm in his throat that threatens to break free, but he tries to keep it lodged in his throat. even with your teary eyes, he thinks you look just as pretty as you did with life flowing through you.
he misses suguru. he knows you do too, because there are translucent tears dripping down your cheeks and he has never ached to touch you more. but he can't because you're dead.
you remain in front of him all night, barely saying a word in between your sniffles. he doesn't say anything either, just watching you.
he doesn't know what there is to say. the only thing he ever wishes he got to say to you was goodbye. but you're here, in front of him, so a goodbye seems pointless.
when the sun comes up, you wish him a merry christmas, and he swears you never left him.
satoru says it back to you. you smile sadly.
he misses you so much.
x. 2007
(satoru had cleaned out your dorm room three days after you died.
he didn't really understand why he was doing it so early. shoko had frowned when he told her that he planned to pack away your things, frowned in a way that made her look like she disagreed.
well even if she did disagree, it didn't stop her from sitting in your desk chair, chewing on her nail quietly as she watched satoru fold your clothes. he didn't even understand why he was doing this.
maybe it was because every time he walked past your empty dorm room he felt sick to his stomach. there was a twisting feeling in his gut when he realized that you'd never curl up in that bed again. never sit by the window with a grin watching him and suguru bicker as they threw playing cards on the floor. he figured the faster he got rid of your remnants, the quicker the feeling would go away.
that's what he's hoping anyway. but when he picks up your jujutsu uniform he feels something claw at his throat, and he unconsciously digs his fingers into the fabric. he hears a sigh from behind him and then shoko is at his side, wordlessly easing the cloth from his hand. she lays it on the bed, smoothing out the wrinkles before folding it carefully. when she places it into the box, satoru thinks her hands shake a bit.
there's a bitter expression on shoko's face that he's never seen before, and it makes his stomach twist.
they work on your room for the next few hours, until the sun has disappeared behind the horizon and the cool evening breeze bullies its way into your old space. neither of them say anything, save for the occasional nostalgic hum as they remember something that you did or they're reminded of the story behind one of the trinkets in your room. otherwise it's silent, and for a second satoru feels like he can hear your laugh.
it isn't until night has completely fallen that they are interrupted.
"what are you doing?"
satoru turns around just as shoko looks up, both of them finding suguru standing in the doorway. he hadn't taken a step in yet, eyes still trailing over the emptiness of your old room from behind an uncrossed line.
"cleaning." satoru answers, his voice oddly clipped.
"it wasn't messy…" suguru mutters back, his lips slanting in such an unusual way. there was an uncharacteristically determined look in his eyes, as though there was something in him that was struggling to burst forth. satoru didn't understand what it was.
"never said it was." satoru replies noncommittally. he hears shoko inhale deeply, shifting in your old chair as she watches the two of them stare at each other. there's a tense silence as he notices suguru frown.
satoru can't remember the last time he even had a full conversation with suguru. he remembers seeing you leave for your last mission, and he wants to kick himself for not asking earlier to be sent on group missions with the two of you.
even now, he doesn't really know what to say to suguru. all he can do is tighten his fingers around the edge of the box with your stuff neatly packed in, and watch his best friend sigh.
suguru wets his lips, eyes darting over your desk. there's an odd expression on his face, and his brows pinch as he notices something. then suguru reaches out to pick up an old polaroid, and satoru knows exactly which one it is. your arms slung around suguru's shoulders, smile so wide your cheeks probably hurt. suguru's expression was uncharacteristically gentle.
satoru remembers it so well, because he's the one who took the picture.
suguru looks at the polaroid without a word, rubbing the corner between his thumb and forefinger, and his expression suddenly mirrors the gentleness in the picture. his eyes remain stormy, deep and unsettling as he reaches conclusions that satoru will never understand.
the three of them stay quiet for a few minutes, even though satoru has so many questions that he can't figure out how to phrase. shoko toys with a cigarette between her lips, leaving it unlit because you've always hated the smell of smoke. suguru just stands there, silently eyeing your unfiltered smile through the lens of a camera.
satoru wonders if suguru's trying to say goodbye to you. he doesn't ask, and suguru doesn't say.
only after something had clicked in suguru's eyes, did satoru realize something was over. he couldn't help but feel like he had just buried you in that cardboard box with all your things, and he swallows hard.
then suguru clenches his fists, veins flexing as he looks around your room, almost like he was committing it to memory. satoru didn't understand why; it's not like suguru couldn't come see your room anytime he wanted.
then he turns away, hand lingering on the doorframe heavily, without another word.
just as suguru walks away, satoru thinks he hears your voice whispering in his ear.
"don't want him to get lost."
xi. 2018
something is wrong. something happened. something is wrong.
satoru knows he needs to wake up. but he's so tired, so exhausted from carrying on all by himself. he suddenly remembers the taste of frozen mango, sweet and chilled, and he wants to keep thinking about it for the rest of eternity.
but something is wong. he needs to wake up.
the minute satoru forces his eyes open, he can ignore the taste of blood in his mouth because you're there.
you're kneeling at his side, sunlight shining behind your head in a way that makes you look almost angelic. he'd believe it if you said you were an angel, because you've been dead for so long now.
you'd been a ghost for so many years, hovering around him and getting him through everything that had come his way. isn't that what guardian angels were supposed to do, guiding humans through their own trials? isn't that what you were doing to him since the day you died and came back to him?
you'd been a ghost. you'd been his angel. you'd been haunting him.
you'll always haunt him.
you seem to know it too, because the expression on your face is understanding, soft and yet so sad.
for what seems like the millionth time in his life, satoru aches to touch you.
he tries to move his hand but finds that he can't. synapses misfire. he can't feel his body anymore.
he wants to touch you. gods above, he wants to touch you so badly. please just this one last wish.
your translucent forms shimmers in the sunlight, and satoru can't tell if he's hallucinating or not because you suddenly seem to become fully physical. the particles of your form solidify, slowly filling with more color until you don't look quite so dilute. the saturation of your eye color comes back, and satoru can't look away because he's never seen a ghost so pretty before.
his breath hitches as you gently cup his cheek in your palm, warm and gentle. the melancholic look on your face makes his eyes sting.
"it's good to see you." he says with a weak smile, ignoring the metallic taste on his tongue. his breath is short, mind racing because your skin is on his again. finally, after so many years. you're so soft, just like he remembers.
"you weren't supposed to join me this quick." you sigh, eyes shining as you smile down at him ruefully. your thumb brushes over his bottom lip, and satoru's cerulean eyes flutter.
no. no more waiting. he'd missed you too much. he doesn't have it in him to stay away from you anymore. he'd done it long enough. your fingers tremble against his skin and he almost laughs.
no more haunting.
there's a resolute part of him that knows you'll be the first thing he sees when he gets to wake up again. he decides that, when he does, he'll get you a mango ice pop and plant some morning glories with you.
his eyes fall shut with a sigh.
"guess i couldn't stay away."
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trustingofwinds · 2 years ago
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Are you doing okay? I haven't seen you on my dash in awhile
aw !! yes !!! I'm doing good actually, just a bit more tired than usual with it being summer and all - I also get a lil more lethargic due to my seasonal depression but I've been good overall <3 thank you so so much for checking in on me !! muah
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wishgrub · 9 months ago
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the-orion-inexpirience · 5 months ago
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lu-dao-writes · 2 years ago
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Seen | Getou Suguru
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Content: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Depression, Depressed Getou Suguru, AU: No Curses, AU: Modern Setting, Established Relationship, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping, Not Beta Read, Suicidal Ideation, Suicidal Thoughts, Reader-Insert
Pronouns: None
Reblogs: Let me know that you enjoy my work and want to see more, so don't forget to like and reblog (and comment in the tags. I love seeing people’s rambles in the tags)!
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Depression was like being underwater. 
And not like those pretty, fantastical dreams where you can breath fine and explore freely. 
You're being pulled under, deeper and deeper. The pressure is getting stronger, your ears are popping. Your chest is crushed, but your limbs are too heavy to even grasp at it. And it hurts, and hurts and hurts. but you can't do anything. Your mind is numb, and your eyes are closed.
And within these depths of despair. 
You sleep
Or rather
You drown.
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Sleep seems to be the only thing Suguru is capable of doing lately.
Everyday for the past few weeks after returning home from work, you've found him in bed, curtains drawn, even breathing despite clenched fists tucked underneath the pillow.
And today was no different.
Returning home from yet another uneventful workday, you found the rest of the home untouched, unfeeling, and cold. Even as you wandered deeper within, hand resting against the chilly doorknob. After the third day, you stopped checking the microwave to see if he had touched the food you had left in there.
Once again, for the 19th time, you found him swept up underneath the wave of the covers. The curtains were still in the same position, and his hands were tightly balled against his chest, brows furrowed despite the slow raise and fall of his chest.
You watched him a bit longer, gaze lingering at the dark circles that seemed to get deeper everyday before ushering yourself to the bathroom for a long bath.
You sat in silence as the unused shower head wet your face from your eyes in fat rolls. You just accepted it in stride, making sure that the sound of the water was a quiet as possible and buried your head in your hands. Then once everything was composed, you exited the bathroom and joined him underneath the waves, making sure that your head was above water.
Because who would save either of you, if neither of you could reach out a hand to ask for help?
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Despite your gentle dissuasion,  Suguru refused to miss the get-together that Satoru was hosting. 
"He would be so disappointed if his best friend didn't show up." Is what he told you, but you knew he was more worried about not making an appearance and having the others worry about it. 
As long as he showed up, everything would be fine, right?
Wrong, because Satoru was still Satoru after all. 
"Suguru, are you eating well?" Satoru asked, leaning over to eye his friend. 
Suguru chuckled, veiled without mirth. "I'm eating as I have been"
"You're lookin' a little skinny!" He chortled at his own joke before waltzing over to make him a plate, piling it up and placing it in front of him. 
There were a lot of meats, some sides and few cookies wrapped up in a paper towel. Even you wouldn't be able to stomach this monstrous of  plate.  You caught Suguru's nose crinkle in disgust for just a moment before he gave Satoru a closed eyed smile and thanked him. 
Satoru nodded at you, "Make sure he eats." then walked away, off to go bother another group of people. Or maybe get away from the dark cloud that surrounded the two of you. 
Satoru was still Satoru after all, and despite those absolutely stunning blue eyes that seemed to see right through you, he still couldn't truly see his best friend. He saw the man who he wanted the see, which was not far from who he actually was, but that was still disregarding a major part of him.
No matter how weak Satoru thought it made him.
You excused yourself for a moment, going to grab two canned drinks and an empty plate before returning to your spot besides Suguru. You placed one of the drinks in front of him, then started picking off his plate.  You made sure to eat slowly, keeping your eyes else where, but your focus was on him. A wave of relief washing over you when he began picking at his plate.
After a few bites, he muttered "This tastes like shit."
You didn't force him to eat more than he was comfortable with and when he began rolling his food around, you wordlessly collected his plate and tossed it with yours. Settling back beside him and placing a hand on his thigh under the table. After a while, his slid under yours hand. He didn't try to entwine them, just relished in the grounding weight of that small bit of yourself.
The two of you stayed like this until it was a socially acceptable time for you to leave the function. Bidding your time, and politely engaging conversations with those who would wander your way (with you dominating the discussion). The drive home was quiet, music playing lowly in the background. Your eyes were focused on the road, and Suguru's were closed in a uncomfortable sleep. 
Once home, you readied yourself for bed while he carelessly stripped down to his underwear and slid under the covers. You didn't scold him, even though the hamper was in the corner of the room and he could have easily stripped there and tossed them inside, you didn't scold him. Just put the clothes in there yourself and joined him in bed. 
Because you understood, you understood that desperate feeling of *needing* to get under the covers as soon as humanly possible. To hide yourself away from everything else and just be.
But you still couldn't escape everything. Because you escaped right into the arms of it. That sinful whisper that tells you that everything is better, safer with it under the covers, then traps you with what it called warmth. 
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You were, unfortunately, getting used to returning to a cold home. An untouched plate still waiting in the microwave, a show-room-esque living room. Suguru trapped beneath the bottom of the ocean,  body still too numb to reach out for help. 
Today was different, however.  
Today you were greeted by the low hum of the television, a rerun of a show the two of you enjoyed together played. His gaze was on the screen, but his attention was far off elsewhere. He must be getting tempted again, you stopped the whispers before it could persuade him any further. 
"Have you started any of the new episodes?" You asked softly as you came up behind him. He shook his head no and you took his head in your hands, tilting it back, so that you could place a kiss on his forehead. "Let me shower then and we can watch an episode or two."
An episode or two became the whole season, not that you watched it all. You fell asleep on maybe the 8th episode, or at least that's what Suguru told you. You were the first to doze, which prompted Suguru to adjust the convertible sofa into a bed using fresh linen from the closet instead of the ones on the bed, and made it nice and cozy for the two of you. He also said that you snuggled real close to him, your face planted firmly against his neck  
"It's like you were afraid that I was gonna disappear on you." His voice was light, but there was distress behind his eyes.  He knew how bad it was getting, but he hadn't realize just how bad it was affecting  you as well. 
The two of you often talked about simply not existing and how it would be to no longer have to bear the the weight of the living while also firmly agreeing that despite these thoughts, neither of you planned to take your own life.  
But this...this reaching the cusp of that, and yeah, it did scare you. 
It terrified you.
But someone had to stay afloat to help him from the depths. 
"I think I was just really comfy." Was your lackluster response, before you stood, stretched and headed off into the kitchen. 
Upon entering, you eyes caught the single plate and fork that sat, dripping in the drying rack. As nonchalant as possible, you grabbed a paper towel and a few cookies.  It wasn't out of the ordinary for you to heat up your cookies before eating them, so using that as a cover you opened the microwave. 
It was empty. 
Then, as that was going, you check the trash, dusting off your cookie crumbled hands.
There was no food, or any sort of signs that food had been buried further. 
He had finally eaten a whole meal.
The relief that flooded you almost made you cry on the spot, but you couldn't because you had to stay afloat.
His head was above water, but only barely.
But his hand was extended out towards you.
And you were ready to grab it once he was in ready and in reach.
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I freshly just finished the first bit of JJK S2 and it made me want to write this.
This is after me saying that I was too scared to write for this fandom because I didn't think I'd be able to portray the characters right.
Fuck that, I got shit to say.
And the shit I had to say was kinda dark actually. I guess this is what happens when you write instead of going to sleep lol.
Anyway, I have no idea if this will go any further than this tho. (Be still my SuguSato/Reader Heart)
Oh, and yes. Satoru did say skinny in the way that you're thinking.
Edit: Oh, look! A proper Masterlist!
Ko-Fi | Commission | Masterlist
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cautumligth · 6 months ago
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Together they soared, spiraling through the air, two figures of frost and magic entwined in the currents of the night.
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@therentyoupay @callimara
OH MY GOSH! WHAT AN AMAZING STORY! FROM BEGINNING TO END! 😭💖💖💖💖💖
Girls, you are incredible, I mean it, you are! 💖
This last chapter was truly wonderful, beautiful, a balm for the soul.
The whole story was a rollercoaster, always going up and fearing the descent, yet the excitement and ecstasy were palpable. I felt so many emotions while reading and have no words to express how happy it made me to read it and my gratitude.
So, I hope this drawing can finish expressing it for me. 🥹💕
Seriously, girls, you're amazing, I'm so happy to still be a part of this fandom after 11 years and that there are still fanfic writers, illustrators, and Jelsa shippers in general!!!! 🤧💕
I'm glad to be a part of this.
En fin, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! 🥹💕💕💕💕
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waffleslover72 · 2 months ago
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I desperately needed some little nightmares in my sketchbook :3
Mono has paper ship 🥺
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+ Bonus sketch ↓↓↓
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I love it when Six is drawn with one of her eyes visible :33
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danicloth · 8 months ago
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Day 24 Stop Motion Film 🎃
We’re simply meant to be… 🎶
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dawdlecentric · 1 year ago
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Every time Nijika says Daijoubu / 大丈夫
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diodellet · 4 months ago
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cw: still not feelin 100% with my writing but here's smth to celebrate valentine's day 🤧💕 unbeta'd and cheesy, established relationship fluff
"jamil, would you call yourself the sentimental type or the practical type?"
"why do you ask?" he doesn't look up from his homework.
you make a noise, something between lightly dismayed and exasperated. "…humor me for a bit, won't you?"
he sighs at your petulance. "you know that anything flashy is an automatic 'no.'"
"i know that already! these are the casual options, so are you feeling sentimental or practical?" you sidle up to him, knocking your shoulder against his. flipping the cover of his textbook shut for added measure.
he meets your expectant gaze. there's a very real temptation to play coy, to see what you'd do without his input. but in the last few seconds, you have - once again - managed to stir his heart with easy sincerity.
which was unforgivable, really.
unforgivable how you chipped away at his carefully-crafted nonchalance, how you could elicit that persistent sense of curiosity with the littlest of gestures, how your consideration for him - his position and all that baggage - only intensified the little surprises you brought him.
there's a dangerous temptation to leave it up to you, but that hypervigilant part of him absolutely refuses - in spite of your many good intentions - to have a surprise going sideways.
"if you're thinking of gifting flowers," jamil starts. "you'll have to do it before classes start for the day."
"i'm saving flowers for another special occasion, so stop dodging my question!" and now you were swiping his textbook before slipping away.
of course, he has to give chase.
all it takes is one graceful - dare i say, serpentine - lunge that sends you both sprawled out onto the floor of his dorm room. while pinned under his weight, your arms are vainly stretched away to keep him from reclaiming his stolen book. "i'm not giving it back until i have an answer!"
this only leaves you vulnerable to attack, his fingertips skirting up against your sides, eliciting a shriek that you try (and fail) to tamp down.
"fine. whatever gift ideas you have - " he makes sure to emphasize the plural in that, because if there's anything he's certain about, it is that you aren't rolling up to this valentines' day without at least one gag gift. " - i will only accept if they're discreet."
"okay! okay! i promise i won't embarrass you - mercy!" he lets up. the risk of accidentally getting bludgeoned by his own textbook is too big to ignore.
he doesn't need one of those grand show-stopping gestures. but there's nothing quite as warming as that sort of reminder, that you found him special.
(come the day of hearts, you pass him a small red pouch. there's a mess of ribbons inside all entangled around… a white tube? he undoes the overly-detailed bow and a laugh of disbelief bubbles up from him as he sees what it is.
a menthol inhaler.
there's a small gift tag attached to the ribbon with a note warning against hay fever. in tinier letters, he can almost make out the actual letter. it's a sappy thing that he finds himself rereading at the end of a tiring day, along with a small stack of notes and letters he stashes in a hidden compartment of his nightside table.
of course you'd find a way to make even a little joke sentimental.)
what he doesn't expect is the ten other little gifts you deliver to him throughout the day. but it's safe to say that this was a good start, right?
tagging: @viperwhispered @crystallizsch @twstgo
@sillystr1ngs @bakedgrape @mama-m1na
(lmk if you wanna join the taglist for jamil writing in the replies!)
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kamiraaah · 3 months ago
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Bom dia Kah finalmente temos alimento🙏🏻🙂‍↕️
Olha ele pequenininho cheio de bolsa indo alimentar a veia🤧🤏🏻
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💞💕🧡💓💗💝 🤧🥺RUGGIE BUCCHI NOSSO MENINO DE OURO!!!!!!!!!💓💘
🤏🥹 TAO PITITICO!!!! TODA APARIÇÃO DELE ME TRAZ TANTA FELICIDADE QUE VC NÃO TEM IDEIA!!!!!!!!!🥺😭💞
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reallyunluckyrunaway · 1 year ago
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Nooooo, but why is this so accurate though?! 😂😅😅😅🤣
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