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mythicalcoolkid · 2 months

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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side

#m/cc #mine #I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges #and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like #a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with #there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example #or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone #*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have #I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side #for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others #for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me #and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public #and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist #that's why there's so much awareness happening for it #but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people

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darkacademiboy · 4 months

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crybabydaydream · 8 days

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really bugging me how all this conversation and discourse about polyamoury is cropping up and I'm not seeing anyone use the word

amatonormitivity

If you don't know this word you should learn it, its a really relevant concept to this conversation

#im just very tired of seeing queer people brush off amitanormitive issues as 'straight ppl issues' yk?#polyamoury #that is a problem that is deeply baked into our society and it touches queer communities too pls be so for real with me #heteronormitivity is just a small fraction of amitanormitivity 🙃 learn this word its important #sorry im so sick rn and i wish i had better words to explain why this annoys me but what i can do is point it out at least #like amitanormitivity is one of societies biggest tools of oppression and no one even knows the word its frustrating #deeply annoyed with myself for misspelling the word I'm trying to point out the importance of like 8 separate times #but some shit you just gotta let go and forgive yourself for ugh

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theangrypomeranian · 4 months

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I just want my passion back man idk why that's so much to ask for

#pom ponders #personal #my favorite part of the day used to be any extra time i had to write #i desperately miss the days where i woke up early all on my own excited because it meant extra time to write #now even just thinking about writing can make me so tired and drained #i can't write anymore and I'm so upset about it #I've spent the last four months sobbing because it's basically ruined for me #i was so happy...i want it back #i still have stories to tell and i love them so much #but trying to get them out has turned into a chore and i feel like I've lost a part of myself #some days i feel so sick over it that i can barely eat #I've lost so much sleep over this #it's not fair...i didn't do anything wrong...#I'm still being punished for doing what was ultimately the right thing and i don't understand #i want to want to write again #delete later

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menlove · 3 months

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as a card carrying terf I don’t think trans ppl are disgusting and neither does any radfem i’ve ever met, vast majority of us dgaf about trans people specifically; we want single-sex spaces to exist and btw trans people need those single-sex spaces too. trans women deserve to have spaces for Just trans women and cis women deserve spaces with Just cis women etc etc. i highly recommend doing some actual research into radical feminism instead of repeating the "theyre all conservatives who hate gnc people and find trans people disgustinf and want to kill them" that is simply not true lmao. you may be surprised a what you learn! sincerely a gnc lesbian and proud radfem

I have in fact done much research into radical feminism babe! trust me I have spent hours in yalls spaces! and you simply cannot speak for every single terf just as I can't speak for every trans person. you can't say "come on NO ONE IS SAYING-" just like I can't say that either. do you know every terf? have you seen every blog? have you been a trans person (particularly a trans woman) on the internet trying to just exist in peace? no? then you don't get to say "no terf is SAYING-" because yes, a lot of you are!

"no terf thinks trans people are disgusting" cool so when I was 19 and hadn't touched testosterone a day in my life and had she/they in my bio one of you coming into my ask going "I can tell by looking at you that you'll never be a woman lmfao" bc I'm latine w a shitton of body hair and non-eurocentric features, THAT was out of love for ✨women✨.

when yall (not you specifically but your group you associate with) get on twitter and pick apart the selfies women post telling them they're ugly and following it up by saying you KNOW they're "men" and it turns out 9/10 you've just harassed a cis woman who just doesn't meet eurocentric beauty standards, that's so totally cool and awesome and out of love for cis women and a want for separate spaces right?

when yall go into trans people's asks and tell us to kill ourselves, call us pedophiles, call us rapists, call us ugly... that shit just doesn't happen, right? and yes I'm Aware yall get death and rape threats too. you shouldn't, it's gross on both sides, but really it's not proving your point here.

it's fucking infuriating. you're infuriating. because radical feminism could be something worthwhile (and funnily enough I've met a lot of older ex radfem lesbians who have veered away from it bc of how fucking vitrolic yall are towards trans people). but instead, it is steeped and inseparable from the mire of hatred and disgust that you parrot. you don't give a single shit about women, whatever sex.

I'm an assigned female at birth lesbian who has only ever slept with other people with vaginas (consensually anyway). I can't tell you the amount of hate I've gotten from yall. just for being trans. even though I meet your definition of being a woman and being a lesbian. it doesn't matter because your hatred for people you deem as degenerate outweighs actually fucking advocating for feminism.

I'm not even going to argue with you on how useless single sex spaces actually are bc despite their best attempts there's always going to be problems (namely: fun fact cis women can be awful too AND how the fuck are you going to check and enforce this rule? what is your end goal?).

but what I AM going to say is no, sorry, that's NOT what a lot of you think. that's what YOU think. that's why YOU'RE a terf. but actually fucking look at the people around you. go on a trans person's blog or twitter who's receiving harassment and fucking try and tell me it's to promote "uwu safe spaces" like.... be fucking serious with me right now lmfao

you're not conservatives! but you are a bunch of fucking assholes who care more about harassing trans people than building a feminism that might actually have teeth. if you're using those teeth to attack a group more vulnerable than you, you're just an aggressor.

tldr you don't speak for all of them, go fuck yourself, etc

#this is so funny lmao 'just do some actual research'#girl you have no idea the amount of research I've done #I'm sick and tired of liberal feminism but you guys are NOT any better #I'd rather align myself w the group that's Not focused on blind hatred 90% of the time #and crazily enough there's other trans feminists who also want feminism with teeth!#we're here! we flock together! you don't need to hang out w terfs to get a feminism w teeth #and by radical feminism being worthwhile I mean the foundational idea #that sexism is something that is radical and is steeped in every facet of life and society that we need to fight #which is a very true thing! and could make for some interesting politics!#instead yall wanna sit there and go EWWWWW NO ONE IN THIS CLUB I DONT LIKE AND WOULDNT FUCK :(#like man fuck off entirely if that's how you want to take that issue

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sherlock-is-ace · 1 year

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fandom will see the most interesting deep and nuanced character and reduce their entire plot and portrayal to "slutty sexy slut needs to get railed" and it's honestly so tiring

#tiring is too mild of a word... it's SO FUCKING EXHAUSTING #dfgkjdfg #you can write fanfic you can draw fanart you can have conversations about sex and characters but BY GOD there's more to media and to life #i'm so sick of allos #angel talks #personal #yes this is about ofmd but it's also about everything esle because you can't escape them lol #anyways i am having a blast enjoying fandoms by myself lately which is very very good :')

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thegeminisage · 10 days

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one time when we were watching tng i said, apropos of absolutely nothing, "i know somebody gets pregnant in this episode and i hope it's riker" and then 30 seconds later saying "i don't actually hope that and i don't know why i said it." voyager's version of that is when harry kim entered the deadly nebula and started swooning and i thought he was about to puke and i said "oh he's got morning sickness." he doesn't actually have morning sickness. i don't know why i said it. he is from south carolina though

#personal #star trek blogging #voy lb #both times i was extremely sleep deprived and then laughed almost until i made myself sick #i think i'm so online that when i get really tired i forget (cis)men can't get pregnant

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sysig · 3 months

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Wake up somewhere better, maybe (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Harvey Dent #ZEX #Blood #Ask to tag #Stepping back even further - I'm sure you can understand needing a little extra time on this #For multiple reasons haha #It took such a while to finish the first one and not just on an editing front! Honestly that didn't take very long at all haha #There's a frame somewhere that's bothering me - I ''animated'' that movement frame-by-frame myself so if it's a bit strange it's my eye #At least it's mostly like what I wanted! Mostly like what I saw in my head! The three overlapping and then drawing back to show the depth #It really was such a strong mental image for me - it's amazing how simultaneous things can be despite being described separately #The dog - Harvey - ZEX - all moving at their own pace! A split second can be so expanded like a slow-mo shot ah #It's honestly a very beautiful medium #Hhhh ZEX's death was very affecting to me ;; I so very much wanted him to go out the way he wanted to #Befitting his Admiral status - strong and confident and surrounded by his crew #But by that point he was so tired and ready to rest - it would have been sadder to watch him continue to barely scrape by #Not even killed by his Beauty! Just one good chomp from one big sick dog :'0 #The others trying to protect him - they didn't know him just out of whatever empathy they had for their fellow!#Zero was a hero so that kind of character is easy enough haha but even Harvey! Even after ZEX made him uncomfortable with his long looks lol #He was still willing to help in whatever way he was able ;; And it still ended the same #His last word being just ''pain'' hhhwehhh ;;#It is always the saddest-saddest to me to have such an articulate and eloquent witty verbose and silly character reduced to singulars #Something so simple and still so expressive hh </3 ZEX dearest hweh #But loving also means letting go! Death was a release he needed even if it's sad #I'm a real sucker for Meet Me In The Afterlife kind of stories so I may or may not have batted that around as an idea down the line #He has plenty of loved ones that have seen the other side - even from the Institute specifically!!#It's not exactly a happy ending but it's something <3

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smhalltheurlsaretaken · 8 months

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Just emptied my queue, so don't be surprised if there's much less activity on this blog. You can still message me + send asks (esp my Christian mutuals and my other pals) and I'll get back to you but I'm just tired of tumblr

#this isn't the person I want to be #I'm sick and tired of constantly subjecting myself to garbage for the sake of an empty dopamine rush #For years I was staying around for the good stuff but it doesn't outweigh the bad anymore #Idk if it ever did #Praying for you all <3 #I haven't said it nearly enough because I was afraid of alienating people but I believe in Jesus Christ #And he loves you guys more than I ever could say #So if you know me from fandom posts but wanna talk about faith hmu

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disdaidal · 8 months

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I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3