From someone I thought I was in love with to just friends to now almost complete strangers.
You once said that sometimes people grow apart because that's life. And I said that when someone really wants to make things happen, they make a way.
I'm tired of being the only one making an effort. Of being the only one who gives a $h1t about what we had.
It's easy to blame that people grow apart when you are the one pushing people away
So I'm done. I need to heal and live the amazing life that I know it's out there for me. I really hope that you learn how to treat people well before it's too late and you are left all by yourself. I really hope you find someone who makes you see that being vulnerable might bring incredible things that outweigh the risks.
I wish I had real friends. I wanna hang out in someone's bedroom. I want someone to randomly call me. I want to get a text when I'm bored at home that they're parked outside my house. I want to be surprised on my birthday. I want to be taken to a random parking lot in the middle of the night when we're getting rowdy. I want to be invited to lunch on weekends. I wish I mattered that much to anyone.
"Your heart must be like the moon, so sad and alone.. forever to wander heaven with no home. Your heart needs to be caressed, arms to envelope your chest.. I would love to bear hug you, so your heart would be a little more like the sun and a little less lonely than the moon."
I wonder what it's like to wander the stars forever and never once have a soft hand touch you? It sounds sad, this is what the moon does but it is no less beautiful - eUë
[In today's world, we don't find enough lamb sandwiches. And all those lonely nights down by the river. Brought me bread and water, water in. But though I tried so hard my little darling.]