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A-anime?
you know, sometimes I forget that Twst is actually an isekai that starts with the protagonist getting run over by an inexplicable horse-drawn carriage. and every time I'm reminded is a delight because that's AMAZING.
also. look. okay. there's a lot of very fun stuff in the trailer but I am obsessed with that Crowley surprised pikachu face. me when I spend all my keys and gems literally hours before they announce overblot SSRs and drop the anime trailer:
#twisted wonderland#twst anime#<- gonna use that for anime stuff in case anyone wishes to filter it#this is the point where i once again have to admit that i have not really read the manga#(i've liked what i've seen but it's very hard for me to keep up with stuff a lot of the time)#(the anime may actually be easier for me to absorb it in :')#god i GOTTA draw the manga yuus#i kept meaning to when yuuna got revealed but i didn't get around to it before 7-13 ate my brain 😭#anyway the bits they chose for the trailer are pretty interesting to me!#like i think chances are good it was mostly from that one sequence because given the timeline#they probably don't have a ton of 100% finished post-comp footage yet so they probably just took what they have#but also i'm thinking back to how deliberately vague all the game promo stuff was#and...okay again i don't really know how they did it in the manga but i am reminded of how overblotting was actually like. a twist.#a twst twist#like we were introduced to it in the prologue with the mine phantom#but riddle's overblot was an actual SURPRISE and like. an instant reveal that okay THIS is what the story's gonna be about#so i'm just kinda wondering if the anime promos might also like...actively try not to spoil everything#or if they're gonna go full anime-intro 'here's all the super spoilery scenes you can expect to see :)'#basically is the marketing gonna skew towards new viewers or established fans. both valid i'm just curious!#also excuse me for a moment as i reveal myself as a hugely pretentious snob but#oh my god the backgrounds actually have some texture and shape and are taking style cues from the game backgrounds#oh my god the castle exterior actually looks illustrative and fantastic and isn't just a 3d model they plopped in#it's hard to tell at this point how consistent that'll be since most of the trailer is in the mirror chamber#but i'm just SO happy to see it! hopefully this means they weren't crunched to fuck and are able to really go ham#(the pre-isekai scenes all look more generic modern anime so like...is that a conscious artistic choice they made)#(because that would be incredible. holy shit.)
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been tux painting that mob psycho
#i drew something#i love those silly brushes in tux paint . I think i'll be drawing here more. also bc in serious programs i haven't been able to draw a line#idk tryin to make smth ''good' has made drawing a lot more draining than it's supposed to be and the results weren't even +#anyting i could be proud of. So lately i've just been trying to have fun creating things again#I don't think i'll be posting anything super rendered finished or detailed for a while. I just wanna get comfortable with drawing again man#so using silly programs like this one that make noises whenever you use a brush and that are really limited do help +#a lot to take away that pressure +#that i've started to relate to it and just remind myself that this is smth I do bc it makes me happy yk#man i love rambling in the tags#mob psycho#mob psycho fanart#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 shigeo#mp100 fanart#mp100 ekubo#ekubo#mp100 dimple#teruki hanazawa#shigeo kageyama#dimple#mp100 teruki
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned

#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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BBC Sherlock, The Final Problem (x)
#every time I see this scene I want to make life more difficult for lestrade :\#sherlock is caring for a baby. john's daughter. and he doesn't even look remotely disgruntled about the caregiving.#he has grown so much throughout this show i'm crying#to other fandoms we seemed to have gotten what a shipper could possibly wish for but did we?#DID WE?#no. instead we are driven mad by that damned glowing skull and that damned sliding vase and a thousand other damnable enigmas#bbc sherlock#sherlock bbc#sherlock#sherlock holmes#john watson#johnlock#sherlock s4#sherlock season 4#the final problem#tfp#parentlock#gifs#my gifs#(also happy 100 posts to myself)#buckingham-ashtray
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before it felt like a sin, ch. 3
ch.1, ch.2
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 2300
summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
a/n: this is how I wish the duel could have gone in the game...😇🙏
I also want to reiterate that this fic is REALLY CANON DIVERGENT!!!!! I will NOT be following the game’s plot at all really with this (it really starts to diverge around chapter 6/7 maybe I don’t remember), and I don’t see Eloise as the game’s MC either.
Eloise was being woken up altogether too soon for her tastes. Something soft was hit her face, and she sat up groggily, pushing it away. She blinked as she looked around, not recognizing her surroundings. It was disorienting not knowing where she was, although, as she rubbed her eyes, it was slowly starting to come back to her…Something happened yesterday, she thought. I…
“Come on, sleepyhead!” exclaimed Imelda, throwing more clothes on top of Eloise. “The house elves left these last night at the foot of your bed while we were sleeping. If you don’t hurry up, there won’t be any more food left for breakfast. And, you know that the first day of classes is the most important…”
As she continued rambling on, Eloise got up and started putting on her school robes. A dark grey tartan skirt with dark green and silver stripes, a cream button-up with puffy sleeves that she tucked into the skirt, a black ribbon to tie around her neck, and her Slytherin robes on top. She didn’t know how to feel about the day that was ahead of her; she felt a strange mixture of elation and apprehension.
“…you’re taking too long. I’ll wait for you in the common room,” Imelda concluded, giving Eloise one last look before striding out of their dormitory. All of the other girls had already gotten ready and left for the morning, which wasn’t really a surprise to Eloise. As soon as her head hit the pillow the second time, she had fallen into a deep sleep and hadn’t heard the bustle of the girls preparing themselves for the day.
She finished lacing up her boots, and after one last glance in the mirror to make sure nothing was out of place, headed out to find Imelda.
When Eloise walked into the atrium, she was struck by how different it felt in the morning. It was truly as beautiful now as it had been eerily peaceful the night before. Once again, light piano music playing in the background - Eloise smiled to herself, recognizing the Gymnopédies by Satie. Her piano lessons had been the only bearable classes at the muggle school, and she had excelled at the instrument, often practicing during her free time.
The piano music blended in with the murmurs of students standing or sitting in small groups around various tables filled with breakfast foods and scrolls of parchment. The greens and blues coming through the windows felt refreshing, and the whole room was glimmering under the reflections of the water playing across various surfaces. She could see plants swaying under the water, with schools of fish weaving between them. It felt…magical.
Eloise’s eyes were drawn to Ominis and she started walking to him, standing by the same window where they had been sitting earlier. Instead of being in shadow, however, he was now illuminated by the rays of sun shining through the water. He was smirking to himself as he listened to the two first-years next to him. As she got closer to them, Eloise heard them speculating about the possibility that they would get to see a mermaid.
“Oh! I think I just saw one!” one shouted at his friend, pointing out the window. “Oh, wait…it was just algae.”
Eloise walked up to Ominis, smiling despite herself.
“Is this your idea of a good time?” she asked him, while he was simultaneously asking her how she had slept. They both paused as soon as they heard the other start talking, and then both started speaking at the same time after an awkward pause.
“Oh…I’m sorry. I…I slept well,” Eloise said, blushing. “And you?”
“As well as I ever do,” he replied. She noticed that the dark circles under his eyes were still very prominent, although they didn’t look eerie in the morning light. He indicated the first-years with a jerk of his head, changing the topic. “I doubt mermaids find us that interesting. I rather think they purposefully avoid our common room so as to not be treated like creatures in an aquarium.”
Eloise laughed at that and tilted her head playfully. “And just where did those two even get the idea that they might see a mermaid?”
“That, my dear, is a mystery. I surely have never seen one before,” Ominis said, standing up straight and taking his wand out. “I have been hearing a lot of chatter about you this morning, you know. It seems like reality has been mixed with fantasy in the tales of your journey here, and nobody knows the full truth.”
“Except for you,” Eloise pointed out, stepping into place next to him as they walked through the common room. She spotted Imelda, supervising some students playing chess and instructing them on the moves they should be doing. Imelda looked up and saw Eloise, and interrupted her own advice mid sentence.
“Eloise!!” Imelda bellowed as she practically ran across the room. Was this girl ever not purposeful in everything she did? The students around them looked up from what they were doing to watch her, and maybe get the chance to hear a first-hand account of what actually happened to Eloise. “Why didn’t you tell me that you were attacked by a dragon last night?”
“Oh, er…” Eloise couldn’t figure out how to respond to the other girl. Imelda didn’t seem worried or scared about what Eloise had gone through the previous day; rather, she seemed indignant that she hadn’t been told about the attack. Beside them, Ominis was laughing.
“It must have been terribly exciting,” Imelda went on, ignoring any response Eloise may have started giving. “A real dragon and all. I wish I was with you guys, I’ve actually prepared for what I would do in that very situation. I would definitely have diverted its attention away from you on my broomstick, and actually the best strategy would have been to…”
“I doubt you really would have been able to do anything,” Eloise interrupted. “It was terribly frightening, but at the same time the whole thing was over so quickly that I haven’t had time to process it yet.”
“Well, you can tell me about it on the way to breakfast. Maybe once you learn how to ride a broom, we can practice what to do together. You have first-hand experience, after all!” Imelda looped her arm through Eloise’s. She shot a look to Ominis. “I hope you don’t mind, but I’m taking her now. We have a long day ahead of us, lots to do you know. The usual. Anyway, Sebastian’s coming over so it’s not like I’m leaving you completely alone.”
Before Eloise could even react, she was being marched up the spiral staircase that led out of the Slytherin common room and they were off to breakfast.
“Duelists, take your mark,” Professor Hecat said to the two students standing on top of the platform in the middle of the room. The duelists in question looked at each other warily, steadying their wands. Eloise was exhilarated. This was the type of class she had been daydreaming about while she sat wasting her time embroidering landscapes.
Professor Hecat hadn’t wasted any time putting the students to work. Although at first, many of them had scoffed at the thought of Leviosa being a useful spell in combat, Eloise listened attentively and focused on the correct wand movements. Maybe it didn’t actually matter, but she was determined to make sure that nobody would think that she didn’t deserve to be there. She had a lot of catching up to do, but between the books Professor Fig had given her and the knowledge she retained from reading from her family’s library as a child, she already knew a lot. She was quite pleased when the feather levitated as soon as she said the incantation, as there were other students who struggled to get theirs to even twitch in an upward direction.
Now, Eloise gripped her wand tightly in her hand, shifting a bit as she stared Sebastian in the eyes. He had said that she would get ‘a proper Hogwarts welcome’ and she was looking forward to it.
If the rumors she had heard before class were true, Sebastian was the best duelist in their year, and quite possibly at Hogwarts. Although she felt a little apprehensive at the thought of facing him, she hoped that he wouldn’t hold back on her just because she was new. Even if she had fought the guardians yesterday in Gringotts, she wanted to prove to herself that she could keep her wits about her in the heat of battle.
Maybe her stance was a little too stiff, her movements too by the book. But that could only be changed with experience.
Sebastian smirked slightly to himself, no doubt thinking that this would be an easy victory. In the background, Eloise heard Professor Hecat say they could begin, but she was more focused on her opponent’s face. As soon as she saw him raise his wand and begin to open his mouth, she shouted “Protego!” and the shield blocked the spell he attempted to send shooting her way. His eyebrows raised in surprise - apparently he hadn’t been expecting her fast reflexes.
Quick as a whip, she shouted out “Levioso” and Sebastian was in the air. She hit him with a few more curses before he fell to the ground, breathing heavily. He pushed himself up quickly and went back into position. Wand out, now more wary of her capabilities. He blocked her next attack and went in for one of his own, which hit her shoulder. Eloise hissed in pain and immediately shot out a volley of quick jabs in his direction, a few hitting their mark before he put up a shield.
Sebastian was grinning as they circled each other, looking for an opening. The rest of the class surrounded the platform they were on, cheering them on. Both continued to attack and put up shields, without any clear winner in sight. It was obvious that they were very evenly matched.
“I’m pleasantly surprised,” he said as they were catching their breath between attacks. “I haven’t had a fight this good in a long time.”
Eloise just grinned in response, before shooting off another spell in his direction. It was expertly blocked with a flick of Sebastian’s wrist; in response he volleyed off a jinx towards her.
Eloise crumpled to the ground, yelping as she grabbed her ankle. Sebastian was immediately at her side, crouching down and looking at her with concern.
“Eloise? Are you okay?” He looked down at her ankle and then abruptly looked up and back at her face, a faint pink redness dusting his cheeks. He may have been dueling her, but it was distinctly different to be so close to her like this.
In response, Eloise grinned mischievously and quickly levitated him off the ground, getting to her feet at the same time. With a few quick curses sent his way, soon Sebastian was lying sprawled on the ground outside of the little arena Professor Hecat had erected.
“Not fair,” Sebastian exclaimed, rushing to his feet. He looked at Professor Hecat, who was looking between the two with a pleased smile.
Eloise smirked at him, only responding with, “Slytherin.”
Sebastian laughed and ran his fingers through his hair, making his brown curls even unrulier than they had become in their duel. He held his hand out to her and she shook it formally. “Good duel. You can definitely hold your own and I won’t underestimate you again.”
Professor Hecat clapped her hands together to get the attention of the class. “I hope you all paid attention to these two. Ten points to Slytherin for an excellent demonstration of what we learned today. On Wednesday, we will continue with practical application of the techniques learned during this class. I expect to see flawless wand work and concentration. I demand excellence from my students as I know you are all capable of achieving it. Class dismissed.”
As Eloise was gathering up her things, Sebastian sidled up to her. “Really, that was quite impressive. You seemed stiff at first, but it would seem you have fought before. You definitely give as good as you get.”
Eloise blushed and tucked some strands of hair that had come undone behind her ear. “Well, really, I had only read about the techniques before. Haven’t really had much time to put all of that theory to use yet.” She smiled shyly ad Sebastian, who was looking at her with his jaw open. “You fight really well, too. I had to use all of my focus. It’s kind of exhausting, actually.”
“But exhilarating, right?” Sebastian asked eagerly. The two of them started to head out of the classroom together, dwindling behind the rest of the students. Entirely absorbed by their conversation. “Everything else goes out of focus and the only thing in the world is you and your opponent.”
“Yes! Exactly that,” exclaimed Eloise. “I’ve never experienced anything like it.”
“Well,” Sebastian said slowly, dragging the word out as he thought. “You know, there might be a way. To continue. I normally would never do this, but…you know…”
“Know what?” Eloise prompted as Sebastian trailed off.
“You’re a really good duelist. Intuitive. There’s a certain exclusive club of sorts, one that may or may not be unsanctioned, where you can continue to hone your dueling abilities.”
“Exclusive and unsanctioned?” Eloise asked with a smirk. “You can count me in.”
“Excellent,” Sebastian replied, smiling broadly. “Sometimes, to make the most out of your experience at Hogwarts, you need to bend certain rules. They’re more like guidelines, anyway.”
“Merlin, Sebastian,” said Imelda, walking up to them and crossing her arms. “Don’t let yourself fall into any of his schemes. That boy is in detention practically every other day.”
“Or maybe,” Eloise said, “he’s just not good enough at avoiding getting caught. I, on the other hand… Come on, Imelda. Let’s go to lunch.”
She laughed as they walked away, leaving behind a dumbstruck Sebastian. He shook his head in disbelief and headed off to his next class.
next chapter
#only 2 more chapters and then the story gets very canon divergent🙏🙏#I was simultaneously so happy to not have to watch YouTube videos of these scenes to see the dialogue#and sad bc now I 100% rely on my imagination😭😆#I was actually rereading it starting from chapter 17 (I just randomly choose chapters sometimes) and I was like 😳😳 omg what comes next…#(the benefits of having an awful memory & writinf something for myself😆)#I’ve really been enjoying these illustrations and posting here thouch🥹🥹🥹 I hope you guys like these chapters/updates I post !!!!!!!#updated here as soon as I have my next illustrations…but that is an inconsistent thing bahahahahahahahahha#(sorry)#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart#hogwarts legacy fanfic#hogwarts legacy fic#omg ALSO IM SORRY FOR DOING TWO POSTS SO CLOSE TOGETHER…idk I don’t want to be annoying#but I just want to post this and move on to the NEXT illustration bahahahahahaahhahaha I have 22 chapters already posted#& I’m almost done with the next one…
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I've been reading the Percy Jackson books for the first time over the past two weeks! Just finished "The Battle of the Labyrinth" last night (which btw is my favorite of the series so far!!)
I have now gained a new obsession but it might not be what you think

#like i swear to god i did not expect to be absolutely enthralled by the protagonist's mom kahskahfjkaja#she's just so fascinating to me#she's so kind and smart and she has given EVERYTHING for her son okay#like her staying married to an abuser for years to protect him omg she deserves the world#like when Poseidon called her a queen in the first book he was 100% right alright she is a queen#the woman murdered her abuser with a monster's head LIKE THAT'S SO AWESOME#also i cannot explain how obsessed i am with her relationship with Poseidon okay#like. do i want her to still have feelings for him? yes. do i need poseidon to pine and long for her from the distance?? ABSOLUTELY YES.#like realistically it's more likely that be does not but I need it okay#like at first i wanted them to be reunited because you know. of course i did.#but i am perfectly content with her finding love and happiness with a mortal man and Poseidon pining for her from the distance#like listen. this woman is amazing and she deserves to have an immortal all powerful god unable to get over her alright SHE DESERVES IT#but the way he just showed up at Percy's birthday party and called her as beautiful as ever????? omg??? BECAUSE YES SHE IS#and she blushed??? be still my beating heart#kahskahfksja honestly laughing at myself right now like I'm just over here watching a Sally Jackson tele novela in my head#AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE#percy jackson#no spoilers please if you see this post i know very little about the story and I'm thoroughly enjoying myself that way#also jsut as an fyi i am also a little obsessed with Percy and Annabeth kajakshdjshsha they are too cute and intense#sally jackson#percy jackson and the olympians
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Got Aventurine in 60 pulls!
He’s so auxhuehuche I’m so happy I have him now
#This is actually from 10 days ago but i forgot to post it so#I started on the 20th and i just got to equilibrium 3#Im at the part where we should leave luofu but we visit a few friends we made along the way or smth#Im so happy hes my first limited 5 star i love him#Hes my second oshi after dan heng or maybe even my first#I want to change the voicing to english for aventurine but i cant bring myself to abandon ito kento as dan heng#Maybe i can just change it to en for most of penacony and change it back when jing yuan and dan heng somehow appear#Ugh im still regretting missing out on jing yuan voiced by cyyu#But Ito kento#But i also like english dan heng too omg#Oh i also want to hear eng dr ratio bc he acts slightly differently towards aventurine compared to like jp#Like he sounded much more uh passionate in the aventurine keeping up with star rail video and i was living for it#hsr#hsr aventurine#honkai star rail#Aventurine#aventurine hsr#star rail aventurine#Hm idk im not sure if i should skip all 4 characters in 2.2 and after that (firefly and jade etc)#I have almost 100 tickets saved rn but like im not rly sure ab pulling for any of them#Idk im not really attached to any of the characters rn#Maybe i should wait for ruan mei? I don’t particularly love her tho shes inhumane but pretty idrc#Firefly and robin are apparently rly good but i feel like im baiting myself everytime i read another reddit thread and watch another video#Like idk the only 5 stars i have are yanqing dr ratio and aventurine all e0s0 and i dont feel like pulling for topaz either (boothill idk)#im really tempted to pull for jingliu but im probably going to pull for dhil maybe next year when he reruns just bc i like him so again idk
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Uugghhhhhhhhhhhh why do autism evaluations have to be so complicated
#idk i started looking into them#at this point in my life im not going to like. idk die if i dont 100% know if im autistic#if anything im p sure its both adhd and autism#im also ocd so#either way. i finally accept i am neurodivergent. I know my body i know my mind#but itd be nice to not second guess myself yknow#i heard the waiting lists r crazy#and the priv assessment costs r crazy#keep hearing horror stories abt biased doctors#its all just so#my friend whos diagnosed can so easily say she doesnt vibe w self diagnosis#her family was thankfully v accepting and supportive#im so happy for her#but my family is not like that ...... i slipped thru the cracks very easily lol#she told me to go get assessed and like ofc. i want to. id love to!#sjajdkdkwkd idk#brain stuff#minnie post#99.9% sure im audhd like#how can i not be looking back on my Entire Fucking Life
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so like, something that bothered me was: when i was describing my kid and her personality to a group of parents, and how it was similar to my personality, and there was a parent who just kept saying "have you been assessed for autism? it sounds like autism." and i was like, no, ha ha, we don't have autism. and she kept asking me -- gently, not haranguing, with good intentions -- "are you sure? seeking a diagnosis can be very helpful. she could have help in school." and i'm like yeah i know, my mom is an educator who has worked with sped, we don't need it though. and she just kept going like: "but i mean, being sensitive to things, the way you describe it, it sounds like autism." look. i get it. i'm glad there's an expansion of an awareness of autism. i might even be mildly on that spectrum, and my kid might too. but a diagnosis is only helpful as far as its ability to open up connections, accomodations, etc. i have my own little method of doing things that works really swimmingly. and here's the thing: i was really good in school. i crushed tests, worksheets, creative projects, public speaking, group work, independent work, participation, navigating conflicts, school plays. and -- i should note -- it's also not an "overachieving" thing. i was happy being an "As and Bs" student. i firmly regular-achieved.
so sure, i'm an odd duck, i'm sensitive, i'm erratic, but i'm also super social, energized by other people; i have my odd little ways of doing things but they're not set in stone routines. i crave novelty and have issues with impulse moderation. these things + sensory sensitivity and etc etc all fits a pretty firm diagnosis of ADHD. BUT i'm not even married to that diagnosis. like i'm fine just saying, you know what, i am who i am, i operate in this funny little way, but i've figured out how to do things in life, a lot of people love me, i'm very successful and very happy. no further accommodations needed (at the moment). so why hang my hat on my previous diagnoses, or any other diagnosis? literally, like... social services are stretched so thin, please let those services go to someone else. not me, whose biggest "problem" is that i have a special interest that is sometimes a money sink (slow fashion). but that's basically just a hobby. people have hobbies. i'm not in need of therapy for being this way.
i have a blog, ok. other people find my fixations funny and useful!
#some might say this is cope#but also ... if i'm highly social successful happy and capable of regulating myself when i'm under or over stimulated... is there a problem#my kid will announce 'i need alone time now!' and will go to her room to read a book or do worksheets#just like little me :)#anyway i did an online autism test just to mollify that parent#and i showed her the results which said i am fairly sensitive to things but like 100/100 social skills#and she was like oh hm. probably not autistic then#which brings me to my previous post#like... if i was masking in social interactions... there would have to be so many layers of masks#for the amount that i love social interaction and performance and eye contact and etc
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AAAAWAWAWAWAWA NEW ICON SPOTTED 👀👀👀👀
Eheh YES I said I was gonna draw myself a Halloween icon and I did 😌 pretty happy with myself I find lately I've been struggling to actually finish a sketch I start so to get this done + a bit of rendering is nice!
I wanted to draw Riku in a Halloween costume and thought what would be dress as for Halloween and then thought that's a dumb question there is only one answer 💀
#asks#misty-wisp#thank u for noticing misty it makes me happy when you notice :3#i'll be 100% honest im not super sure about posting the icon...#i have banned myself from working any more on it because otherwise i would have been there forever changing stuff#but im like. not 100% happy. i'm satisfied i would say#and yeah idk i also just dont feel the need to#id be happy to show people if they really wanted to (even via dms) but yeah#also yeah shout out to teddy who within like 30 mins of me posting i should draw an icon any suggestions#was also like draw him as dante#they were so right he actually looks sooo good in his fit
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classic scenario i fear

#turning this post into being about eva bc i finally started that but#the conversation shinji has w misato before he runs away just hit a liiiiittle too hard#where he's like yeah if i don't do better i'll die but it doesn't matter bc i Can't do better anyway#so whatever. but i will Say im gonna do better Sorta to get this authority figure off my back#while still making it very clear tonally that i am doing horribly and that i don't expect them to care about that#in a like. 'we're stuck w each other + your need me to do it but im Not gonna be happy about it or good at it' way#i have had. Many many conversations like that#idk why everybody hates him he's just like me fr. viewing himself as completely lacking in agency to cope with#the incomplete but very much present powerlessness he experiences. 👍#(as far as i can tell. again im like 6 episodes in)#whatever anyway im thinking about it and (like always) the breadsword g.urren lagann video essay#and the problems with being a shinji kinnie so to speak. very fun watching this and realizing that about myself#and not Getting Mad. truly i have learned nothing#looking forward to rewatching that after eva though. feel like that'll add to it bc so much of that is a comparison to ttg.l yknow?#anyway#maybe i will get mad someday. i hope so#also i 100% recommend that essay it's one of the best ive ever seen. fucking peak from a peak creator
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daron's ref plus a sketch icon! i was gonna hold these off until i finished their page but im impatient :3
#my dated signatures used to be the date that i posted the piece but im changing it to the date that i finished it#its more convenient and useful for me bc of archiving. date posted on social media isnt that much relevant tbh#im in a downer mood and my grades on college are bad so im gonna have to study my ass off to recuperate them -_-#which means the drop of motivation i can sometimes squeeze out of myself for art is practically one in a hundred bc of the studying#all that which helps me. not.. finish their character page. yay :(#ended up just making their coat have a gradaient in the middle bc i couldnt figure out what else to put there to balance the contrast#im also not like. 100% happy with the tail bc it kinda bothers me that the stripes dont start anywhere but its consistent with the ears so.#ch:sona#furry#character design#anthro#furry anthro#furry character#<im putting him out in the public bc everyone deserves his grace. teehee#my art
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just a short notice that i'm not a very number person. this means that likes + reblogs (with no comments), although appreciated, are not as favoured as people commenting or letting me know what they think.
#someone can be like 'oh did you know ur post exceeded 100 notes!' and i'll be like 'i cannot count up to 100' LOL#but tangent i do love it when people interact w/ old posts#like the chungyon fic which i didn’t even know gained 30+ notes until i checked it recently#i was just happy it appeared in my notifications again and ppl still liked it!!#me too i wish i cld get chapter 2 written faster. hotao appears#i think one reason why i moved blogs was also bc i felt having so many followers was useless#i rather have a smaller community if it means i get to be personal and hear their comments too#anyways the things i post are not really 'normal' gi fics like i dont write for anyone but myself so having a larger audience#is nerve-wrecking esp since i dont know what people think and i dont want people to consume it as just an ordinary fanfic bc#it's not ordinary TO ME. call me selfish but yeah#q ed#.s
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Sometimes I remember I traded my copy of black 2 to GameStop back in 2018 for like. Five bucks. Why did I do that. Sobs it's well in the 200 dollar range now
#i traded it so i could get Y. FUCKING Y????#i also traded my pokemon ranger games WHY WOULD I DO THAY#never ever sell old games you will regret it#i have pokemon white 2 so its not like i cant replay that game#but Man. why would i do that shit#one of these days ill buy white and black 2 as a treat to myself#or when i feel comfortable dropping 300 dollars on these games for the sake of collection#i have a japanese copy of black 2 tho which is neat i think#cant play it bc i dont have a japanese ds. but its still cool#crow rambles#nintendo rerelease bw/bw2 and i will never say anything mean about you again (lying)#like even just having it available on a modern day console would make me happy. bc they're damn good pokemon games#and its a shame that theyre so hard to get your hands on#while i 100% support emulation not everyone (sadly) feels comfortable doing so#me personally i just dont really like playing ds games on a laptop so i dont do it very often#like ive done it a handful of times for gba fire emblem games. but it really is not my favorite way to play these games#that and with pokemon a lot of the draw is being able to transfer your pokemon to current games#i transferred a serperior I've had for over a decade into scarlet and it geniuenly made me choke up a bit#anyways sorry for the pokemon posting (no im not) i just love pokemon sm wahhh#one of these days I'm gonna buy a cheap 3ds to mod i swear#i would mod my current 2ds but i would sob if i managed to brick it#same with my current dsi#that dsi has been through hell and back with me#i have spilt at minimum two glasses of tea on it dropped it on concrete more times than i can count. ive sat on it shook it tapped the#screen so hard im surprised it didnt break. it is almost 14 years old and STILL runs like a champ. the switch could never
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save me t4t4t gay polycule save me
#it(s about ocs i haven't created yet and#i have to stop me...#for now!!!#i have to many wips and stuff but when i'll be done with most of them i will work and that silly idea#it mixes everything i love.. (homosexuality weird trans methaphor fucked up relationship and reunionese culture!! :))))#btw i went from almost 300 wips to “only” 100 in 6 months im super proud yeayy#i used to draw 10 sketches a day and be like “i'll finish later” and at the end i finished it a year later because i had 200 other wips#i hated that!!! that's why i've been stopping me from starting to many drawings since 6 months..#i allow myself to start a new drawing each time i finish 5#also that doesn't count colored sketches and quick drawings that i finish all at once#that really wasn't the point of the post at first what was i even talking about#about t4t polya gay people lmao..#anyway happy pride month ig
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Oh fuck I forgot to take 18 months post op pics of my chest! It was a few weeks ago! Gotta remember to take some
#still just. obsessed with my results :)#like my chest makes me so euphoric i cant even believe it#i always knew i wanted top surgery 100% but i also knew that results arent entirely predictable#but my surgeon. literally made the chest i imagined. i still can't believe that happened#like i think ive mentioned this before#but when i got to see my chest at the post op appointment for the first time. i was just so at peace.#like i was happy and excited and anxious to see it and then when i saw it i was just like. ya exactly. yes thats my chest. there it is :)#i still have that reaction ill just lift up my shirt sometimes and look and smile#my negative self talk habits will try sometimes to find something to make myself unhappy with any part of my chest and it's just impossible#:)#sorry for rambling all in the tags lol
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