i’m happy for Lewis going to Ferrari and that he's leaving a toxic environment and i am so so excited to see him in red, in a team that wants him, but then sometimes i see a sad edit of him leaving and it’s just truly devastating.
how he always said that Mercedes is his family, that it’s the place where he wants to retire from, that he cannot imagine not being a Mercedes driver. he was so loyal, he gave everything he had to that team and somehow, it just still wasn’t good enough. they didn’t listen to him, they excluded him, made him feel unwanted and alienated, didn’t prioritize him at all. it’s been so clear that he wasn’t part of their future plans, which was just heartbreaking.
and when he decided to take back his career and go to a team that clearly appreciates him for all that he’s achieved, they spin this whole narrative around, going completely against him. suddenly everything was an issue and a problem, his age, his attitude, his commitment and determination.
and still, he didn’t say a single bad word about them, always expressing how hard of a decision it was. the hardest he ever had to make. he makes sure they know how grateful he is, how proud he is of their journey and shared history, that he'll miss them tremendously and it just doesn't feel reciprocated at all.
and i can’t imagine how drastically the situation must have worsened for him to decide this over winter break, in such a short period of time. he was always so full of hope regarding the team, no matter how horrible the situation was. something broke his unwavering support and hope.
he built a legacy way bigger than any world champion in the sport, he built a legacy that is bigger than f1. and it still wasn't enough. he felt like he had to leave first, before he got left behind. and that is just gut wrenching. he's the most successful formula 1 driver in history and they just couldn't appreciate him.
Mercedes was his family. until it wasn't.
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The way I see Pokotho and Paul's relationship really can be summed up that way:
Pokotho : "I could have chosen anyone else, yet I chose you" (frustrated) (affectionate) (condescending) (angry) (questioning his life choices)
Paul : *Blowing up yet another meteor*
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more HCs:
Aegon is very protective of Daeron, in a way, cause Daeron doesn't age in his mind, Daeron could be 3 times his size and he'd still just be a little baby in his mind. Aegon's also not great at being a good big brother in the traditional sense, but in the clumsy, sometimes counterproductive, borderline concerning way. they're fine (when Aegon's being particularly broody, Daeron's like one of those kids holding an 🆘 sign against the window on the highway, he needs protection from the overprotective and frankly nonsensical mother henning)
for example, if Daeron had been at the Driftmark petition, Aegon would have grabbed his whole head like a helicopter mom trying to cover his eyes and ears at the same time, almost instantaneously. was he himself too dissociated to tell what was happening? maybe. did that stop the protective big brother instinct from activating? no, no not at all (he was smothering him, Helaena had to tug his arm away so Daeron could breathe)
another example. Daeron asked to go to a brothel, which should have been right up Aegon's alley, but instead he gasped, mouth covered and all, before scolding him. he knows his logic about which siblings are allowed to do what makes no sense. it doesn't matter. Daeron's just a little guy and doesn't belong in a whore house.
Aegon feels like he's going to stroke out watching Daeron on Tessarion, cause they're nimble and young and wild. he and sunfyre are no better, he's just dramatic.
one night when the siblings ran off to flea bottom, Daeron showed some of his zest when someone tried to hassle Helaena. he called them a cunt. Aegon gasped, covered his mouth, then Daeron's, told him to wash his mouth out, before continuing to cuss the person who started it all.
as they traverse through flea bottom, he keeps tugging Daeron close and covering his eyes to shield him from the profane. Daeron tried to argue that he had taken Aemond and Helaena to silk Street when they were younger than him and that he didn't shield there eyes, but he's quickly hushed.
will show something along the lines of "how dare you do/say/etc. such a thing in front of my sweet sweet baby brother" at the most random things.
anyway. my point is simple; Aegon being an overbearing and mushy big brother to his baby brother, who is an overly affectionate drunk, and mother hen's his brother to death, is the only agenda to be had.
Edit: continuation here
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re: the tags on the post you just reblogged; would genuinely Love to hear your take on the themes of homestuck. because so many of its themes are at odds with each other and the reader that it truly does become an ouroboros by the end. and that’s fascinating and heartbreaking at the same time
I really can't phrase it better than "eats itself alive by the end," honestly. Once the Beta Kids scratch their session, you can feel how tired and frustrated the author is. It's like he starts hating his own work and how massively it blew up, when he never planned for it to be a project that lasted so long.
And thus it feels like he starts turning on his work's own themes.
Sburb (the game) was abusive and traumatic, but seemed to be trying to make the kids ""grow"" by some unknown philosophy. Figuring out what Sburb (or its creators) were trying to accomplish was a theme.
Only for the author to get frustrated at the idea of there BEING such a motive, seeming to suddenly pivot to Sburb just being a universe-generating mechanism
The theme about motives, being "pawns" in a greater game and uncovering the mystery, thinking critically about authority figures including the GAME ITSELF is unceremoniously discarded for a "Nothing matters actually" conclusion
Another theme was change and growing up, dealing with your mistakes as you make them. How even in a world with time travel, trying to use metaphysical shennanigans to avoid your fuckups just backfires. Eventually you have to face the music, and you'll be better off for it.
But then the author becomes brutishly cynical. The main casts' worst traits eat them alive on the trip to the new session, we learn the Beta trolls ruined their own playthrough and now painfully slog through their afterlives, the Alpha kids are aimless and trapped in a doomed session.
The theme about growth and facing your own mistakes becomes about stagnation and inevitability.
But honestly I think the most telling change in the author's mindset comes from looking at the Alpha Trolls vs the Beta Trolls.
Like, the way that the Alpha Trolls ALL got a full personality, several interactions with the main cast, and through fan input started evolving into characters that had little traits of the fandom at the time
Homestuck was always a story with a crass tone (and it's kind of incredible how quickly the lingo changed, making early HS look a lot edgier in hindsight than it was at the time) but it felt like there was a lot of love for how these characters had kinda been forged together.
Then you get to the Beta Trolls in a dream bubble, basically all tossed into a high-production walkaround minigame. Several of them just direct, joyless jabs at the audience, less of them relevant.
For me it's really the turning point on the themes, the later acts have always felt super dissonant from the early acts because of that
So in my mind I see it as two big "parts" and examine them together as what I feel was a weak synthesis.
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