#* james ft. jules

[springbreezc]

"oh, come on, you couldn't have expected anything else from me!" james was a bleeding heart romantic, after all. and all that she wanted for jules was for her to have a happy ending that rivaled those that were seen in fairy tales. it was not her friend's fault that james' heart had been set on their happy ending. her cowardice had kept her from ever confessing, and now she was reaping the consequences of that. all she could do was continue to smile through everything, no matter how every word uttered was another stab to her heart. "come on, whenever have you been traditional?" since the proposal too had felt so left-field. "there's nothing that you have to do other than be happy in this moment! and i am honored that you want me to be part of it!" she reached forward to grab both of jules' hands, the bump of her engagement ring yet another stab. "i would be honored to be your maid of honour! of course i'll do it."

"that's so fucking cheesy, james, of course you would put it that way!" though, despite the diverted way of accepting the compliment, jules actually felt her cheeks turn red. james was the singular person who mattered the most to her in this world, so to receive her praise, she knew she'd made the right decision. "shit. i didn't even think about all of the things i have to do now," so much responsibility for some stability, "obviously, my sister has to be in the bridal party. god knows what she will have to say about all of this... am i supposed to do this in a more formal way? i know people usually do elaborate gifts or something, but i also want to ask you to be my maid of honour right away. is that too taboo?"

[heartandmusic]

fuck it ik i made fun of the 20 favorite songs playlist literally like yesterday but i kept thinking about what songs i would pick so im posting it here cause no ones gonna read it lol.

Mr. Chu - Apink

Retrospect - Vistas

Atlas - COIN

Aficionado - BB Brunes

I Like It - Enrique Iglesias ft. Pitbull

Animal - Neon Trees

Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Stockholm Syndrome - One Direction

Save My Life - Niall Horan

Out of Sight - The Beths

Pour que tu m'aimes encore - Céline Dion

Emmenez-moi - Charles Aznavour

Chanson des jumelles from Les demoiselles de Rochefort

It All Fades Away from Bridges of Madison County

It's Always You - Chet Baker

You've Got a Friend - James Taylor

Being Alive from Company

Lascia ch'io pianga - Sissel Kyrkjebø

Méditation de Thaïs - Jules Massenet

Amore mio aiutami - Piero Piccioni

Honorable mentions:

The Beths entire fucking discography im so serious rn

Que reste-t-il de nos amours - Charles Trenet

She's So Gone from Lemonade Mouth

Misery Business - Paramore

That's the Way it is - Celine Dion

An Everlasting Love - Andy Gibb

Super Shy - NewJeans

Back to Before from Ragtime

Talk that Talk - Twice

Mamma Mia - ABBA

English Love Affair - 5 Seconds of Summer

Vincent - Don McLean

It's a Lovely Day Today - Ella Fitzgerald

Aime moi - Henri Salvador

Theme from Somewhere in Time - John Barry

Big Time Rush - Big Time Rush

If I Loved You from Carousel

Run Away With Me from that one Kerrigan/Lowdermilk musical or song cycle or project i think they changed the name a few times? i literally forgor oops

Till There Was You from The Music Man

Quando Quando Quando - Engelbert Humperdinck

Nessun Dorma

Mon coeur s'ouvre a ta voix

Mesícku na nebi hlubokém

Carnival of the Animals: The Swan - Saint-Saens

Souvenir d'un lieu cher (melodie) - Tchaikovsky

[chrancecriber]

Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (August 04, 2023)

23:57 The Ocean Piano - Piano Mi Camino (Blue Wave Mix) 23:52 Mirage Of Deep - Cloudless Sky 23:48 Klangperlenspiel & Puzzls - Kyoto (Wish You'd Move On) 23:42 Christopher Von Deylen - Euphoria 23:37 Rodg - Life Is Life (Chill Mix) 23:33 Glockenbach Ft. Clockclock - Brooklyn 23:29 Blank & Jones - Twilight Moon 23:23 Massive Attack - Spying Glass 23:20 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 23:18 Nightcall X Henri Purnell Feat. Eke - When The Morning Breaks 23:10 Boris Pillmann - Love You 23:03 Edx - Conundrum 22:56 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 22:52 Jens Buchert - 1000 Miles 22:46 Sirius & Nyla - Infinity (Remastered Remix) 22:41 Nora En Pure - Tears In Your Eyes (Extended Mix) 22:38 Dj Antoine & Flip Capella Feat. Evelyn - Dark Love 22:35 Dimitri Vegas - Pull Me Closer 22:31 Lenny Ibizarre - Pretty As You Feel 22:29 Dj Antoine Feat. Ablai - My Corazon (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 22:24 Passenger 10 - The Lonely Boy Who Wanted To Make Friends 22:19 Tukka & Rauhfuss - Flamingo Road (Sans Souci Remix) 22:15 Daniel Portman - Vulnerable 22:08 Bay Area - Dolphin Rider (Pianodreamsession) 22:02 Boris Dlugosch Feat. Risn Murphy - Look Around You (Original) 21:55 Röyksopp & Jamie Irrepressible - The Next Day (Mind Against Remix) 21:52 Robin Schulz & Alle Farben & Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow / What A Wonderful World 21:46 Zelensky - Sunset (Andy Lime Remix) 21:43 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 21:40 Lost Frequencies Feat. James Blunt - Melody 21:37 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jake Reese - Need You Now 21:34 Wave Wave Feat. Evie - Real 21:29 White Elephant - Sir John 21:27 James Carter & Ofenbach Feat. James Blunt - Can't Forget You 21:23 Ck West & Sassi K - C Song 21:20 Rag'n'bone Man - Human 21:16 Nora En Pure - Tantrum 21:10 New Age Kings - Illusion (Instrumental Remix) 21:05 Alle Farben - Sonoro (2018 Rework) 21:02 Kamrad - I Believe 20:57 Worakls - Caprice 20:52 Teri Richardson - Shadows Of My Love 20:49 Viva La Panda & Finding Molly - Bring It On (La La La) 20:46 Deep Chills Feat Emma Carn - Blinded 20:42 Emily Burns - Im So Happy 20:38 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - Adios Ayer 20:34 Frank & Friedrich Feat. Duncan Woods - Coming Home 20:31 Colorblast - Message In A Bottle (Colorblast Version) 20:29 Buchs Feat. Nokyo - Cheverolet 20:26 Wankelmut & Emma Louise - My Head Is A Jungle 20:23 Zaz - Demain C'est Toi 20:20 Alle Farben & Fools Garden - Lemon Tree 20:15 Chromatics - Lady 20:09 Tinlicker Feat. Roos Jonker - Come Back Home 20:06 Lstn - Sïstër 20:01 Moby - The Sky Is Broken 19:55 Mahmut Orhan - Way To Life (Boral Kibil Remix) 19:51 Lost Frequencies Feat. Flynn - Recognise 19:48 Junge, Junge Feat. Jamie Hartma - Wicked Hearts 19:44 Schiller Feat. Jael - Tired (Live) 19:42 Troels Hammer - Azur 19:39 Vievie - Sea Roses 19:36 Kygo, Paul Mccartney & Michael Jackson - Say Say Say 19:32 Guardner - All Right 19:26 Hakan Kayis, Furkan Sarikas, Cinar Gedizlioglu - A Night In Alacati (Original Mix) 19:21 Rìfìs Du Sol - Alive (Anyma Remix) 19:17 Jazzamor - Song For Maggie 19:12 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 19:09 Sum Wave - Milkyway 19:03 Bent - I Love My Man 19:00 Laniia - Fireflies 18:55 Boozoo Bajou - Lava 18:53 Gil Glaze Feat. Dante Thomas - West La 18:50 Tiësto & Karol G - Don't Be Shy 18:46 Alejandro De Pinedo - Raindrops 18:43 Together Alone - Ain't Nobody 18:40 Audax Feat. Ron Caroll - Falling For You 18:36 Consoul Trainin - Take Me To Infinity 18:34 Minelli, Filatov & Karas Remi - Rampampam 18:26 Atb - No Fate 18:22 The Alan Parsons Project - Lucifer 18:19 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 18:15 Sofi Tukker & John Summit - Sun Came Up (Radio) 18:10 Kate The Cat - I Was Made For Lovin You 18:06 Scotty & Wilcox - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (Wilcox Extended) 18:02 Gitano & Deep Josh Feat. Koo - Residence Lounge 17:57 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Embracing Love 17:54 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Josha Daniel - Oscillations 17:48 Morcheeba - Trigger Hippie 17:41 Boral Kibil & Gulec - Lost Language 17:38 Mousse T. - Boyfriend (Alle Farben Remix) 17:33 Mari Boine - Gula Gula (Chilluminati Mix) 17:30 Nora Van Elken - Sumatra (Lstn Remix) 17:25 Dreamerproject - Horizons (Glenn Main Remix) 17:22 Sans Souci Feat. Pearl Andersson - Sweet Harmony 17:18 Blank & Jones - High Fly 17:14 Dvine - Ever After 17:10 Ypey - Life Time 17:07 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 17:05 El Profesor - Busy Bye Bye 17:00 Schiller - White Nights (Don't Let Me Go) 16:58 Ofenbach & Ella Henderson - Hurricane 16:55 Mike Perry Feat. Shy Martin - The Ocean 16:43 Monkey Safari - Hi Life (Cheeky Bold Cover) 16:40 Melokind - Tiefgang 16:34 Mads Arp Featuring Julie Harrington - Alive 16:31 Dj Antoine Feat. Craig Smart - Good Vibes (Good Feeling) (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k19 Mix) 16:25 Monolink & Zigan Aldi - Fidale (I Feel) Vocal Version 16:19 Themba & Nico De Andrea Feat. Tasan - Disappear 16:13 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 16:08 Schiller X Tricia Mcteague - Miracle 16:02 Schiller Feat. Eva Mali - Ein Schöner Tag (Live) 15:59 Nora En Pure - Enchantment 15:54 Derrick - Love Away 15:48 Banderas - This Is Your Life (Easy Life Mix) 15:46 Gamper & Dadoni - My Lovin' 15:42 Blank & Jones - Grown Minds 15:39 Dj Antoine & Dead-line - Shout 15:37 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 15:32 Atb With Enigma - Enigmatic Encounter 15:25 Beyhude - Akasha 15:16 Christopher Von Deylen - Heaven Can Wait 15:12 Depeche Mode - Goodnight Lovers 15:07 Anrey - We Are The Mirrors (Extended Mix) 15:04 George Geccoo Feat. Maik Pinto - Dolce Vita 15:00 Schiller & Schwarz - Avalanche 14:56 Elderbrook & Bob Moses - Inner Light 14:50 Schwarz & Funk - Savannah Sunset 14:46 Sum Wave - Malin's Song 14:42 Tom Novy & Dan Le Blonde - Let's Dance (Tom Novy Remix) 14:38 Lexy & K-paul Feat. Enda Gallery - Peilschnarte 14:35 Brando - Don't Call Me (Galantis Remix) 14:28 Le Roy - See The Light Ahead (Extended Mix) 14:23 Massive Attack - Sly 14:20 Alan Walker X Hans Zimmer - Time (Alan Walker Remix) 14:18 Kamrad - Feel Alive 14:13 Morcheeba - Slow Down 14:10 Above & Beyond - Is It Love? (1001) (Original Mix) 14:06 Jelly & Fish - Appreciation 14:02 Alan Walker & Gavin James - Tired (Kygo Remix) 13:59 Lucy Neville - Ransom 13:54 Aakarshan - Tantra Café 13:51 Mike Candys, Sb Mont & Salvo - Turned To Dust 13:48 Sons Of Maria - Always 13:45 Clangusar - I Promised Myself 13:41 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You (Frankey & Sandrino Remix) 13:38 Alle Farben & Flynn - I Need To Know 13:33 Maestro & Cabal - Clifton Bay 13:29 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 13:24 Enui - Adieu (Arielle Lb Remix) 13:21 Klingande, Stevie Appleton - Sinner 13:18 Blank & Jones - Swept Away 13:15 Schiller - Once Upon A Time (Cahill Remix) 13:10 Croquet Club - Awake 13:07 Blank & Jones Feat. Mick Roach - Magnolia 13:03 Kygo Feat. Ella Henderson - Here For You 13:00 Twopilots - Take My Breath Away 12:58 Nora Van Elken - I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me) 12:51 George Holliday - Never Gonna Grow 12:46 Rìfìs Du Sol - Next To Me 12:43 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 12:37 Cinemascope - The 7th Dream 12:33 Sum Wave - Beach Memories 12:30 Dizkodude & Dj Antoine - Your Eyes (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Summer Mix) 12:24 Noraj Cue - Story At The Campfire 12:21 L'imperatrice - Peur Des Filles (Montmartre Remix) 12:15 Blank & Jones - Coh 12:09 Steen Thottrup - El Alba 12:06 Möwe - Bad Intentions 12:01 Laila (Feat. Tiefblau) - Yin And Yang 11:57 Eli & Fur - Come Back Around 11:53 Bolier & Arman Cekin - Fade Away (Feat. Rhi'n'b) 11:47 Depeche Mode - When The Body Speaks 11:45 Nora Van Elken - Heaven Is A Place On Earth 11:42 Nora En Pure & Lika Morgan - In The Air Tonight (Sons Of Maria Remix) 11:35 Wd2n - Sultans Of Swing (Original Mix) 11:32 Filous - Let It Snow (Original Mix) 11:29 Dennis Kruissen Feat. Liza Flume - Another Soul 11:25 Paul Kalkbrenner - Part Eight 11:21 Sons Of Maria - Elevate 11:18 Topic Feat. Nico Santos) - Home (Alle Farben Remix) 11:12 Schiller Feat. Sarah Brightman - The Smile 11:09 Bolier - Another Blue 11:04 Lux - Secret Fish 11:01 Shapov & Avian Grays Feat. Kifi - Light Up The World 10:57 Undressd - Forever Young 10:51 Afterlife - Makes Me Feel 10:47 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Angel Taylor - Make It Right (Trinix Remix) 10:40 Avira & Diana Miro - The Worship (Mark Knight Extended) 10:36 Nebu Mitte Feat. Jaselle - With You (Oriano Remix) 10:33 Mike Candys & Séb Mont - What's On Your Mind 10:27 Beyhude - Terso 10:23 Aromabar - Winter Pageant 10:20 Fedde Le Grand Feat. Vince Freeman - Devils 10:16 Lstn - Thoughts 10:11 Schiller - Mittelerde 10:04 Doyeq & Jay Medvedeva - Break Into My Walls (Armen Miran & Hraach Remix) 10:00 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Void 09:56 Kidsø - Fir 09:51 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 09:49 Zonderling Feat. Josh Cumbee & Damon Sharpe - Lifetime 09:46 Alok & James Arthur - Work With My Love 09:43 Kygo With Avicii & Sandro Cavazza - Forever Yours (Tribute) 09:40 Syn Cole Feat. Caroline Pennell - Californication 09:31 Dino Lenny Feat. Artbat - Sand In Your Shoes 09:27 The Alan Parsons Project - Old And Wise 09:23 Lemongrass - Comme Toujours 09:20 R3hab, Timmy Trumpet, W&w - Distant Memory 09:17 Sunnery James & Ryan Marciano - Let It Lie 09:14 Gabriel & Castellon - Es Vedra (Touch & Go Radio Mix) 09:07 Beyhude - Alabora 09:00 Tosca - Dave Dudley 08:57 Tomas Skyldeberg - Chillin With You 08:52 Mandala Dreams - Mirror Lake 08:47 Ingo Herrmann - Sundown 08:44 Mike Candys - Sky (Club Mix) 08:34 Moby - Too Much Change 08:31 Milky Chance - Stolen Dance 08:28 Lost Frequencies, Zonderling & Kelvin Jones - Love To Go 08:25 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 08:22 Spike - The Golden Eye (Original Mix) 08:18 Maxim Lany Feat. Freya Alley - Anymore 08:15 Robin Schulz - Above The Clouds 08:07 Gerrit Van Der Meer - Solaris 08:02 Mr.da-nos - San Francisco 2k20 07:59 Bedouin Soundclash - Brutal Hearts (Flicflac ) 07:54 Faithless Feat. Nathan Ball & Caleb Femi - I Need Someone 07:50 Gibbs & Code X - Close To Your Heart 07:47 Kygo & Selena Gomez - It Ain't Me 07:39 Boral Kibil - Never Again (Bobby Deep Mix) 07:37 Lunax & Zana - Gone Tomorrow 07:33 Kygo Feat. Sandro Cavazza - Happy Now 07:30 Sanah - Invisible Dress (Maro Music X Skytech Remix) 07:22 Maxim Lany - Riding The Wave (Extended Mix) 07:19 Lydmor - Money Towers 07:16 Zoe - C'est La Vie 07:14 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 07:10 I Will, I Swear - Long Days 07:08 Above & Beyond - Quieter Is Louder (Original Mix) 07:05 Robin Schulz - Sugar (Feat. Francesco Yates) 07:02 Feder & Ofenbach Feat. Dawty Music - Call Me Papi 06:57 Schiller - Free The Dragon 06:53 Kygo Feat. Valerie Broussard - Think About You 06:50 Kai Schwarz, Cayus & Yass - My Love Is Your Love 06:47 Munich Monstrs - Shine 06:41 Nova June - More 06:37 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - We're All We Need 06:33 Swedish House Mafia & The Weeknd - Moth To A Flame 06:25 Justin Martin - The Sad Piano 06:19 Good Guy Mikesh Feat. Filburt - Place Of Love (Mp Edit) 06:17 Wave Wave Feat. Lena Sue - Repeating 06:11 Airstream One - Southern Light 06:04 Hraach Feat. Iveta Mukuchyan - Sarer Jan 06:00 Ashcome - Vitamin Sky (Original Mix) 05:58 Dize Feat. Aurii - Wenn Ich Nicht Mehr Weiss 05:51 Goldfish - Love Everlasting (Extended Mix) 05:46 Schiller - Tiefblau 05:43 Elderbrook - I Need You 05:39 Above & Beyond - Out Of Time (Original Mix) 05:33 Fous De La Mer - Ocean 22°e 05:30 Pirra Feat. Lindstrøm & Prins Thomas Remix - Limousine Lies 05:25 Cecilia Krull - Agnus Dei (Benny Benassi & Bb Team Remix) 05:22 Jelly & Fish Feat. Amiaz & Tina Welzel - Appreciation (Radio Mix) 05:19 Pulsedriver & Tiscore Feat. Anna Grey - We Are 05:16 Parov Stelar - Fire 05:12 Agron - Love My Soul 05:07 Lamb - Wonder 05:03 Justin Robertson Presents Revtone - Love Movement 05:00 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 04:56 Brendon Moeller - Emerging 04:53 Mark Brown - The Journey Continues (Acoustic Version) 04:49 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 04:46 Neptune & Moonnight - I Need A New Love (Original Mix) 04:42 Nightmares On Wax - Les Nuits 04:39 Edx & Amba Shepherd - Off The Grid 04:36 Nora En Pure - Wetlands 04:33 R Plus - Summer Dress 04:31 R3hab X Lukas Graham - Most People 04:20 Cell - Above The Clouds (Live Version) 04:17 Sixth Finger - If I Can't Have You 04:12 Blank & Jones - Sunshines Better (Feat. Mick Roach) 04:06 Depeche Mode - Home 04:00 Shkoon Feat. Fruiterama - Napauken 03:54 Christopher Von Deylen - Free 03:50 Eelke Kleijn - Mistakes I've Made 03:48 Felix Jaehn & The Stickmen Project Feat. Calum Scott - Rain In Ibiza 03:44 Clément Leroux - Memories 03:39 Phil Mison - Just Landed 03:32 Miyagi, Sascha Braemer, Dan Caster, Jan Blomqvist - Woodpeckers Love Affair 03:27 Two Lanes - Pièces Froides: Ii. Danses De Travers 03:24 M22 - Good To Be Loved 03:21 Loud Luxury Feat. Morgan St. Jean - Aftertaste 03:17 Audien - Blue 03:10 Enfant De Luxe - La Tete Dans Les Nuages 03:05 Anrey - The Forgotten (Extended Mix) 02:58 Richard Grey - Need Your Lovin (Murjd Remix) 02:54 Panama, Satin Jackets - The Future 02:48 Kid Massive, Yuji Ono, Dtale - Pray (Wolf Krew Remix) 02:42 Max Manie - Laura 02:40 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 02:35 Monolink - Harlem River 02:32 Robert Manos - With No End 02:29 John Summit & Hayla - Where You Are 02:25 Milkwish - From The Earth To The Moon 02:19 Jody Wisternoff Feat. Sian Evans - The Bridge (Chicane Rework) 02:15 Portishead - Revenge Of The Number 02:13 Sam Feldt & Sam Fischer - Pick Me Up (Vavo Remix) 02:08 Ohm-g - Hulectric Soul 02:05 Nora Van Elken - Honshu 02:01 Rank 1 - T.t.c. 01:58 Winona Oak & Robin Schulz - Oxygen 01:49 Armen Miran Feat. Jivan Gasp - Lost Memories 01:45 Jasmon - Sanpo Suru 01:38 Armen Miran & Hraach - Gravitation 01:35 Alex Breitling - Faith 01:30 Jaques Raupe, Stereoact, Peter Schilling Feat. Peter Schilling - Terra Titanic 01:23 Monolink - Don't Hold Back 01:20 Tinlicker & Helsloot - Because You Move Me 01:16 Klingande Feat. Daylight - Losing U 01:13 Moby - My Only Love 01:10 Klingande & Bright Sparks - Messiah 01:06 Emmit Fenn - Lost In Space 01:04 Amely & Lvndscape - Losing My Mind 01:01 The Alan Parsons Projekt - Eye In The Sky 00:59 Srtw & Mave Feat. Sønlille - Last Train Home 00:54 Arden - Open 00:51 Regard - Ride It 00:48 Blank & Jones Feat. Kyle Pearce - All Of Me 00:41 Hraach - After Dark 00:35 Schiller - Das Glockenspiel (Live Aus Der O2 World Berlin) 00:32 Backstreet Boys - Chances (Instrumental) 00:29 Hypnosis - Pulstar 00:22 Nora En Pure - Birthright (Club Mix) 00:15 Armen Miran - Nani Jan 00:12 Sans Souci - Condor 00:05 Alex Cortiz - Enter The Matrix 00:00 Röyksopp Feat. Susanne Sundfør - If You Want Me

[julesisashifter]

just saw this and it is ADORABLE 🥹 okay, let’s go! thank you @shaysplanet for the tag! 🤍

J …ust the way you are by Bruno Mars

U …nbelievable by Why Don’t We (rip to that band fr)

L …ose you to love me by Selena Gomez

E …vermore by Taylor Swift

S …hut up and Drive by Rihanna

I …wanna be yours by Artic Monkeys

S …ay you won’t let go by James Arthur

A …ll I need by Within Temptation

S …alvatore by Lana Del Rey

H …appier Than Ever by Billie Eilish

I …know by Big Sean ft. Jhené Akio

F…orever Young by Alphaville

T…he Boy is Mine by Brandy, Monica

E…xes by Tate McRae

R…ight Here by Chase Atlantic

these were all off of the top of my head and recommended to me by Spotify!

feel free to do this if you see this!

— jules <333

Username Song Title Game

Choose a song title for each letter of your username and tag the same number of people

Thank you for tagging me @desert-fern! 💖

Fair warning: half of my picks are from the 90s because that was my formative era. I like stuff I can sing to or play the guitar to, so there’s a lot of rock and pop…

Drop Dead Gorgeous [1997] – Republica Just a Girl [1995] – No Doubt A Thousand Years [2011] – Christina Perri Ready Now [2019] – Dodie Iris [1998] – Goo Goo Dolls November Rain [1992] – Guns N’ Roses Speechless [2009] – Lady Gaga - Creep [1992] – Radiohead You Could Make a Killing [1995] – Aimee Mann All Along the Watchtower [1968] – Jimi Hendrix Rumour Has It [2011] – Adele Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down [2010] – Alicia Keys

Now for the usual totally unnecessary commentary on my choices:

We’ve got four British artists on there (well, I did grow up here), but it’s mostly stuff from across the pond. That said, ‘Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down’ was never released in the US, but it was over here, and it was huge (hence it’s on my Spotify master playlist!).

There are songs from four soundtracks (Scream, Twilight, City of Angels and Cruel Intentions), proving that movies make my brain remember songs better.

Also, I’m currently rewatching Battlestar Galactica, so I had to include Hendrix 😎.

Hmm, who to tag... okay, 12 of my loveliest moots coming up:

@ak-vintage @bitchwitch1981 @burntheedges @cas-readsandwrites @fromthedeskoftheraven

@ishabull @joelalorian @magpiepills @mermaidgirl30 @saradika

@secretelephanttattoo @sixhours

TAG! Okay, it’s your turn 💖

[bloodofasteria]

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 synastry overlays as couples pt. 2💕

7h synastry

❤️‍🔥 soulmate vibes; feeling like you found the ultimate person for you

❤️‍🔥 could even be enemies to lovers trope tbh (or vice versa but you get it) or could have just disliked each other at first

❤️‍🔥 putting one partner on a pedestal; they think very highly of each other and WILL defend one another

❤️‍🔥 could initiate the relationship via going into business with each other, could even own a business together (it’s giving bob and linda from bob’s burgers)

❤️‍🔥 sharing everything lol even the same fork or blanket on the couch

❤️‍🔥 rose colored lenses on for each other; can even be in denial of the other’s flaws just to keep them perfect in your head

❤️‍🔥 marriage is a goal to accomplish to them, they want to commit so badly to one another

🥀 always forever by the cults

rue bennett & jules vaughn (euphoria)

8h synastry

❤️‍🔥 intense relationship; they are very drawn to each other, like 12h it feels fated

❤️‍🔥 the kind of couple to date for 3 months then move into a place together bc they can’t get enough of each other and want to be around the other 24/7

❤️‍🔥 s*x is phenomenal; it’s as if your souls are merging. s*x could be a very important aspect in the relationship

❤️‍🔥 probably have joint bank accounts lol

❤️‍🔥 one partner could financially support the other or one could be a “stay at home mom/dad/care taker”

❤️‍🔥 very touchy with one another lol the type to not give a fuck about engaging in pda; love language is most def physical touch

❤️‍🔥 couple having a mysterious vibe to them, it’s like no one knows how they got together and/or they just don’t talk about their issues with each other to other people

🥀 lost in the fire by gesaffelstein (ft. the weeknd)

chuck bass & blair waldorf (gossip girl)

9h synastry

❤️‍🔥 traveling the world together

❤️‍🔥 their love language is learning different things together

❤️‍🔥 could have met through school/university and/or a place of religion. could also have different backgrounds/faiths, albeit they love the differences of the other

❤️‍🔥 could also be a long distance relationship!

❤️‍🔥 impulsive decisions together; getting on an airplane or going to the grand canyon bc you just wanted to (april and andy from parks and rec is another good couple example)

❤️‍🔥 being each other’s teacher and student; they always have something to learn/teach the other

❤️‍🔥 hard to keep your relationship a secret; it’s as if the public has all eyes on you two

🥀 fairytale by milky chance

alyssa & james (the end of the f***ing world)

10h synastry

❤️‍🔥 met through work possibly, could have even met through parents’ (specifically dad) work place

❤️‍🔥 marriage is a topic that’s on the table after stability has been reached

❤️‍🔥 an aesthetically pleasing couple to look at; they just somehow fit together like pieces to a puzzle

❤️‍🔥 people probably knowing them as a couple instead of separate individuals (ie. justin bieber and selena gomez when they were a thing)

❤️‍🔥 building a future together that’s going to please them financially

❤️‍🔥 doing taxes together and calling it a date; spending their money on things that could benefit them both

❤️‍🔥 people can’t really see them splitting up, they seem like they will last forever

🥀 positions by ariana grande

leia organa & han solo (star wars)

11h synastry

❤️‍🔥 friends to lovers trope; were friends first then gradually became a couple

❤️‍🔥 doing everything together bc y’all probably have the same hobbies/interests lol

❤️‍🔥 if you aren’t a couple yet people probably mistake y’all for one; y’all probably tease/flirt the shit out of each other

❤️‍🔥 not knowing if you’re platonically into them or romantically for a minute bc you’re so close

❤️‍🔥 literally everyone (including your families) wanting you two to get together because you,,, just look good together

❤️‍🔥 inside jokes & constant laughter when you’re with one another

❤️‍🔥 probs have the same friend group (or met through mutual friends); probs ditches/cancels on them for each other bc they have a partner and bestfriend in one another

🥀 you get me so high by the neighbourhood

theodore “laurie” laurence and jo march (little women)

12h synastry

❤️‍🔥 know each other for better or worse

❤️‍🔥 somehow always knows what the other is thinking/feeling

❤️‍🔥 deja vu, a sense of familiarity like you’ve met each other before

❤️‍🔥 feelings might be obvious to you/them but others just can’t see it and/or don’t want to.

❤️‍🔥 this could be a secret relationship (at least for a while anyways) and/or kept on the DL so others can’t interfere

❤️‍🔥 big on spending time alone together; they can do their own thing in the same room (ie. read different books while cuddling)

❤️‍🔥 could feel like a fated relationship or like you’re “meant to be.”

🥀 attention by wyatt

anne shirley & gilbert blythe (anne of green gables / anne with an e)

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PART 1 -> 🍒

[fific7]

Let You Know

Logan Delos x Reader

A/N: Inspired by the song Let You Know by Flume ft English Grammar. It does not exactly follow canon as I’d never have ditched his character.

Summary: Logan had decided to remove himself from your life, but now it seems he just can’t get you out of his mind.

Warnings: 18+ NSFW due to sexual content, including oral and unprotected, between consenting adults* in some chapters. Drinking and swearing.

*Irl, please be careful out there.

(My photo edit)

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You wanna let me know

Now that you've let me go

Life is better still

And I guess somehow

You'll just keep on coming back

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Juliet’s hand hovered over her phone for a few moments, then she squared her shoulders and picked it up. Logan wouldn’t do it, that was for sure. But she couldn’t watch her beloved (but infuriating) brother suffer in silence any longer. He was four months out of rehab and she was petrified that he’d relapse. If she could just help him along a little bit with this, then she would. She didn’t intend to meddle any further than this phone call, she’d take a step back and it would be up to Logan after that.

She peered out into the garden, a big lawned area with a pool and flowering shrubs running down to the edge of a bluff and with a stunning view out to sea. She was glad Logan still had this place at Malibu. He seemed to relax here. She looked fondly at her brother’s lanky frame sprawled out on the sun lounger, looked back down at the phone and hit a contact number on her speed dial.

It rang for a few moments before it was answered by a woman, her voice saying “Juliet?” with a puzzled tone in it. Juliet took a deep breath and started speaking.

The call ended maybe 10 or so minutes later, and Juliet felt slightly more optimistic. She’d at least elicited a “Maybe” from her. She looked back out to where Logan was now sitting at the end of the lounger, hands dangling between his knees and gazing out at the ocean. She saw a sigh lift his shoulders slightly, and knew he was thinking about the woman she’d just spoken to.

She in turn sighed. I mean, the whole situation was entirely down to him, the stupid big fool, she thought. It was all his own damn fault.

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You shut off your phone and placed it thoughtfully on the coffee table.

Well that was unexpected, was the thought which ran through your mind as you looked at the phone lying on the shiny surface. It had been at least two years since you’d had any direct contact with the Delos family. You’d seen various articles on the internet during that time, but you’d made a point of not reading anything except whichever headline had caught your eye in the first place. More recently, you’d seen something on a financial site stating that James had retired and Jules and Logan were in joint charge of Delos Inc. You’d also gleaned enough from the articles to know that Logan had been in rehab, Jules had divorced William who’d been ousted from Delos, and she’d been locked in a battle to secure full custody of her daughter Emily.

You’d let the information fly over your head, as you were still hurting from the breakup with Logan. Maybe breakup wasn’t quite the term to use, but it had felt like it at the time. In your mind you returned to that time….

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You’d found yourself dating the high-profile playboy millionaire, much to your initial disbelief. You’d met on a corporate investment seminar where Delos had been looking for partners to take Delos Destinations forward, and Logan had pursued you determinedly until you agreed to go to dinner with him. Before you agreed, you’d told him in no uncertain terms that you wouldn’t be sleeping with him as you were well aware of his reputation. A lazy, mischievous smile had played over his lips, “Well, okay then. But if you know my rep, you’ll also know that by taking that stance you’re missing out somewhat.”

You’d laughed out loud and said you’d live with that. His barking laugh had rung out in return and he’d said he still wanted to take you to dinner. So you’d agreed, and you had shared numerous dates over several months with Logan after that. Nothing too serious to your mind as you just didn’t think Logan was a one-woman (or man) guy, so you’d also kept your word and hadn’t slept with him, despite him doing his best to seduce you into his bed. However he’d finally given up trying so hard, and you and he had just had some really enjoyable dates talking about this, that and everything. Just enjoying each others’ company, and eventually starting to share some deeper things with the other.

Then Logan had gone to Westworld on a trip, taking his soon-to-be brother-in-law with him. And promptly disappeared off the radar to all intents and purposes. You’d tried to call him when he should’ve been back some days previously from the trip, but you got no reply to your calls or texts. Just his voicemail. This continued for weeks, and you were left wondering what you’d done to deserve to be ghosted. The silence continued for another few weeks until you happened to see a photo of Logan and a woman arriving at a charity gala in Beverly Hills on a gossip site. “Logan Delos spotted out and about with yet another new woman on his arm!” screeched the headline.

Uhuh. Okay then, you thought, looks like I’ve been well and truly kicked to the curb.

You’d also seen several more stories over the coming weeks, Logan out with different women each time.

You’d firstly felt really hurt and then angry and also jealous, although you weren’t sure you were really in a position to feel that way. After all, you and Logan had been… what? Friends? You couldn’t even attach ‘With Benefits’ to that description, and that had been your choice. You and he had never discussed exactly what your relationship had been, let alone set out parameters for it. No declarations of intent on either side, no promises of exclusivity. But you’d loved spending time with him mainly because you’d got to know the Logan behind the public persona a little more, and you admitted to yourself that you’d maybe have liked it to become something more.

And then he’d ghosted you. So you’d eventually decided to suck it up, chalk it up to experience and get on with your life. You’d locked away the pleasant memories of the time you’d spent with Logan in a box marked “Questionable Decisions” in your head, and just got on with the things in your life that you could control.

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And now this phone call, from Logan’s sister. You tried to figure out how she’d got your number - you’d only met her once when he’d picked you up from work to go for dinner and Juliet had been with him, as she’d hitched a lift downtown. You’d chatted for a few moments before she’d got dropped off, and you’d liked her. Now here she was, calling you out of the blue and asking if you’d be prepared to come over sometime soon and meet up with Logan.

You’d asked her why she was suggesting this, because for the life of you, you couldn’t think why. She’d been quiet for a second, then said hesitantly, “Well… I… uhh, I think there are some things that maybe Logan might want to explain to you.”

You’d replied that you’d give it some thought, and she’d given you his number - a new one - and said that she really did hope you’d give him a call.

Now you were wondering just exactly what Logan might want to explain to you, of all people. Frankly, you were surprised that Logan had even recalled who you were.

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I wanna let you know

Now that you've let me go

Life is better still

And I guess somehow

Everyone says you're coming back

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Juliet made her way down to where Logan sat, still gazing out to sea. She sat on the sunlounger behind him and placed her hand on his back, in between his shoulder blades. He sent her a little smile over his shoulder, and she said quietly, “I called her, Lo.” Now he twisted round to her, “You did what?!” “You heard me. I got her number outta your phone and thankfully she hadn’t changed it. I can’t bear to see you beating yourself up about this… but doing fuck all about it.” He swung back round, looking out on the ocean once more. He said nothing for several moments, then, “What did she say?” Juliet noticed that he couldn’t quite keep a hopeful tone out of his voice.

“She said she’d think it over,” she answered, and heard a small huff from him, “Well you know what that means, don’tcha? It means… no.” She put her hand back on his shoulder, “Now, you don’t know that for sure, do you? I gave her your number.” He shook his head, “Wish you hadn’t done that, Jules. She won’t call.” Now she was irritated, “You keep saying that but you’ll just have to wait and see, won’t you. And you wouldn’t call her so I just thought that I’d fucking do it or else nothing would ever happen!”

He sighed, “I just didn’t think she’d want to hear from me.” Juliet frowned, “Honestly, Lo? After the way you behaved, she probably wouldn’t. But you at least owe her an explanation if nothing else.”

Logan looked at her over his shoulder again, “Yeah. I agree with you on that… I do. If there’s even an outside chance she wants to hear it.”

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Boy I let you know that you fill me up

So now you try to call me up

Let me know what you're thinking of

And now these words are all I have

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You were still mulling over whether to call Logan or not a few days later. A text dinged into your phone while you were making tea in your kitchen area, and you made your way to your coffee table to check who it was from. “Unknown Number” said the notification but something made you open it anyway.

Unknown: Hi, this is Logan. Firstly, sorry that Juliet called you the other night. I didn’t ask her to.

You stopped reading right there. So glad I didn’t call him! you thought, infuriated. You were just about to angrily delete it without replying, when you thought you might as well see what else the big douchebag had to say, and started reading the next paragraph.

Logan: But then again I’m glad she did because I’d like to meet up with you to talk, if you’re OK with that. Would you be? Please let me know.

Oh. Okay. It was a strangely sterile message, nothing like the jokey, flirty texts you used to receive from him. You hesitated. Was there really any use reopening old wounds? But you had to admit you were intrigued to know what on earth Logan wanted to say to you.

You: Hi Logan. I’m not sure what you can have to talk to me about but yes, okay I’ll meet you.

Logan: Thanks for agreeing… would you be able to come over to my place? You remember where it is?

You: Yes, I do.

Logan: Great, when would you like to meet up?

You: Saturday lunchtime?

Logan: Fine by me. About 2? See you then.

You closed the message app and shut off your phone. Well, that was a bit odd. It just didn’t sound like the Logan you knew. At all.

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Boy let me know that you're thinking of

So now you try to call me up

Let me know just what you're thinking of

And now these words are all I have

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He’d texted you on Tuesday, so now you had three days’ worth of wondering what this was all about. You found it hard to focus on your work, and wished you’d suggested meeting him on Wednesday evening instead. You tried to tell yourself not to be so invested in the situation; you still couldn’t contemplate why Logan was suddenly so keen on speaking to you. Even if he had decided - although god knows what the reason could be - to tell you why you’d been ghosted, what possible outcome could there be? He hadn’t wanted to see you for all this time, so you couldn’t imagine he intended to try and pick up with you where he left off.

And who said you wanted to, anyway? Yeah, he was a very good-looking, entertaining, rich guy - but who said he wouldn’t just drop you on a whim again? No, you didn’t think you fancied going through that again. You let yourself feel a tiny bit of that hurt-anger-jealousy triad you’d experienced at the time. He had upset you, that much was obvious if those feelings were still there, no matter how deeply you’d buried them. No… you weren’t going to go back there again.

The days ticked by, and finally Saturday morning dawned and you got up bright and early. You strolled through to your kitchen to make coffee and toast and as you got there your phone, back in your bedroom, dinged with a text message. Tutting in annoyance, you hurried back through as a little thought entered your head - was this Logan cancelling your meetup? You wouldn’t put it past him, quite frankly.

You’d entered Logan’s number in your Contacts by this time, and you felt your heart sink a little as you saw his name on the screen. You opened his text:

Logan: Morning… you are still coming out here today, aren’t you?

Relieved, you texted a reply that yes, you were still intending to drive out to his place.

Logan: Perfect, I’ll have a glass of wine waiting for you

You: Okay, thanks - see you around two

Putting your phone back on your bedside table, you couldn’t deny you were relieved he hadn’t cancelled but you still felt unsure who you were texting with. This just wasn’t the Logan you knew. Had he changed so much over these past couple of years? You almost felt like he was angry at you or something.

Later on, showered, dressed and prepared to face this seemingly ‘new’ Logan - you got into your little sports convertible and took off in the direction of the Pacific Coast Highway, destination Malibu.

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Logan shut off his phone and tossed it onto his bed. Thank the lord she hadn’t changed her mind, he thought, but I’m also as nervous as hell.

He walked back onto the terrace and regarded the table which he’d laid himself, and fiddled with the cutlery, the glasses, the plates and the bud vase with a single white orchid in it. It didn’t need adjusting, but he had to find something to do with his hands. He’d prepared a big seafood salad, and he was going to grill some fish to follow. She liked this kind of food, he knew, and had decided on the menu as soon as she’d said she’d come to lunch.

Should I say what I need to say over lunch? he pondered. But what if she throws her glass of wine into my face and storms out when she hears what I’ve got to say to her? Or would she be okay with it?

He was veering between being grateful to Juliet and being furious at her for calling this woman, who’d admittedly been inhabiting his dreams for months on end. He knew he needed to clear the air with her but to what end? He felt a cloud of doubts swirling around in his head.

What would he actually achieve by doing this?

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You turned into his drive and parked outside the double garage. Taking a moment, you tried to still the nerves jumping in you at present, but you still felt really apprehensive without being sure of quite why. I mean, it wasn’t going to be anything bad, was it? Was it?

You got out and walked up to the front door but as you raised your hand to knock, it opened and Logan stood before you. Well… at least he looked as nervous as you felt. He looked really good, the lush hair swept back, the dark eyes gazing intently into yours, a black shirt open at the neck, white linen trousers, bare feet. You suddenly became aware you were studying him head to toe and looked back up quickly, face pinking up. You managed to say, “Hi, Logan.”

He smiled at you, “Hi, angel,” he replied, “you look… wonderful.” He swung the door open wider, “Come in and we’ll get lunch.”

You stepped over the threshold, following Logan as he headed for the terrace. You’d only been here a couple of times before, and very briefly - on your way out to lunch or dinner with Logan. You reacquainted yourself with the place as you walked through it - open plan, white, stone and grey decor, very tasteful. You saw a beautifully laid table as you arrived onto the terrace, and realised that you were actually quite hungry.

Logan pulled out one of the chairs for you and you sat down, picking up your napkin and shaking it out. “Be right back,” you heard and turned your head to watch him going to the kitchen area. He returned a few moments later with a large serving dish and a bottle of wine in a cooler. Busying himself with serving up the delicious-looking seafood salad and then pouring wine for each of you, it dawned on you that neither of you had actually said anything to each other yet. Apart from inane smalltalk comments.

Finally he sat down too, and you clinked glasses with Logan before taking a few mouthfuls of the salad. Still nothing was said apart from “This is really good” and “Glad you like it” kind of stuff.

Was Logan ever going to get around to saying what he wanted to say? you wondered, as the meal progressed to the main course, beautifully cooked rainbow trout.

Taking a sip of your wine, you looked at Logan across the table from you, meticulously studying his fish as he separated the meat from the bones.

“So, Logan,” you asked in a measured tone, “what exactly is it that you want to say to me?”

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You won't see what everyone can

Did I make you feel like less of a man?

I heard you drive past my house again

Over again, over again

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Logan’s stomach dropped. ‘Oh hell… okay, well here goes’ he thought. He sat back from the table a bit, crossing his long legs and trying to relax.

He cleared his throat, “Ah… yes. Well. I… wanted to explain to you what happened when I .. I… uhhh…” She looked straight at him, a little sardonic smile on her lips, “Disappeared on me?” Logan shifted uncomfortably in his seat and nodded. “Yeah. Yeah, that.”

She just kept on looking at him, saying nothing more, so he finally said, “I know it wasn’t the best way to go about things, but.. well… something went down in Westworld, something bad. And when I got back, I started spiralling. Really spiralling, and I knew I didn’t want to drag you down with me so I just… disappeared on you, like you said.” She was still staring at him, and eventually she said, “What happened in Westworld, Logan?”

He felt himself smiling, “I knew you’d cut right to the chase, angel.” He sat back, sipping his wine. “I can talk to you about it now, a while back I wouldn’t have been able to.” He sighed, still not entirely comfortable with talking about it.

“In my infinite wisdom, I decided to take William on a pre-wedding visit to the park.” He gave a bitter laugh, “Boy, was that a mistake. Figured I’d loosen the stiff little fucker up a bit. Which I managed to do… to the extent that he decided he’d leave me there to die.”

She looked shocked, “What? What do you mean, Logan?” “We took part in a couple of narratives, I was having a great time, let me tell you. Along the way, one of the hosts - Dolores - managed to capture William’s attention and not in a good way. He became obsessed with her and convinced that she was human, not a host.” He shook his head, “Crazy bastard. Then he jumped me, tied me behind his horse and took us all the way out to the outskirts of the park.”

He watched as her face remained frozen in shock as he recounted the rest of the whole sorry tale, from being left out in the badlands by William to eventually being found by park security. How he’d really thought he was going to die. How he’d spent a couple of weeks in hospital at the Mesa because of the condition he’d been in when they found him. Then he took a deep breath and told her all about his subsequent excesses as he tried to forget about what had happened. The drugs, the booze, the promiscuity. All of it. And the problems with his father and Juliet - how they hadn’t believed him about William and what he’d got up to in the park.

He took a short pause, before continuing, “I knew I was on the way down. Deep down, all the way to the bottom. I knew I’d drag you down with me if I didn’t cut ties - I mean, Jules found me a couple of times, overdosed and half dead - so that’s what I did. Cut ties.”

He couldn’t quite interpret her expression now, some shock still there but also something else. What? Irritation? Disbelief? He wasn’t quite sure. He felt much less anxious now that he’d told her the whole story but he was unsure of her reaction. And not even sure what he expected - or hoped - that to be.

He took a large sip of wine. He’d better let her speak now.

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You were aware that you were just staring at Logan. To be honest, you weren’t sure exactly what to say. You were horrified to hear about what William had subjected Logan to and his later downward spiral. You were appreciative of the fact that he’d shared this with you but unsure what he expected from you. What was his motive for telling you this?

The silence stretched on and on, and finally you managed to say, “Well… ummm… I never imagined for one moment that all that had happened to you, Logan. I saw you on some gossip sites out with different women and just assumed that you’d ditched me for a better prospect.” You saw him wince, “No.. no,” he protested, “…I mean yeah I had… but not for that reason. And they were hosts.” You knew you sounded surprised and disbelieving as you replied, “Really? Outside the park?” He nodded, “We were doing a lot more development on them by that time. William even brought Dolores to my father’s retirement party - that’s what sparked the divorce.”

You gawped at him, “You’re joking!” He shook his head, smiling at you, “Nope. I told you the little fucker was obsessed with her. I tried to tell Jules about it when I came out of the park but she wouldn’t believe me, went ahead and married him. Much to her regret.” “You didn’t say ‘I told you so’ to her, did you?” He shook his head, a lock of hair falling over his forehead which he swept back with a hand, “I really wanted to but she was crushed as it was, so no - I didn’t.” “Good,” you said approvingly.

But now you had a couple of things you needed to ask him. Would you get honest answers? You took the plunge, making eye contact with him.

“Why didn’t you just explain it to me, Logan? If you’d wanted space, I’d have given you it.” He shook his head, “I just couldn’t. I knew I was a train wreck and if I’m honest, I was too ashamed. I really enjoyed spending time with you and I didn’t want you to see the state I was in. Or try to talk me out of it, as I knew I was on a ride I couldn’t hit the stop button on.” You were still contemplating him, and knowing Logan as you did, you felt he was being honest. Logan was rarely anything else.

“Okay,” you nodded, “I hear you.” Taking a deep breath, you carried on, “So… what’s the reason behind you telling me all this now?”

Logan looked down at his empty plate, pushing it away from him. “I told you I liked being with you. It was refreshing, I could be myself. No act, no public persona. All this time, I’ve never stopped thinking about you, even when I was in rehab. And I want to have that again.” He looked up, dark eyes wide and gazing into yours, “I missed you so much.”

Your heart felt like it missed a few beats and you opened your mouth to reply, however you didn’t know what to say.

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So now you try to call me up

Let me know just what you're thinking of

And now these words are all I have

And now these words are all I have

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Logan watched her struggling to come up with a reply, and felt his heart sink. She obviously didn’t want anything to do with him.

“Is there someone else?” he heard himself blurting out. Ooh, uncool! he thought, but listened eagerly for the reply nevertheless.

She sent him a strange look, “We weren’t dating, Logan… were we?” He heard the querying tone in her voice, but before he could reply she continued, “I mean, we were just hanging out, no? But since you asked, no - I’m not seeing anyone at the moment.”

“Did you see anyone else while we were… out of touch?” Her eyes widened and she raised an eyebrow, and Logan held up his hands, “Sorry, sorry!… none of my business.” She smiled, “No, it isn’t.” “But did you?” he asked again, with the trademark mischievous Logan grin. Now she laughed, “I dated a few guys.” “Were they frogs?” he asked cheekily. “No! Most of them weren’t in actual fact. But no-one I could see myself with long-term.”

There was a small silence, then Logan made himself ask the question he really wanted to.

“Could you see yourself long-term with a recovering addict? Who isn’t always the best at communicating his feelings?”

She laughed again, “And would that be you by any chance?” “Might be,” he grinned. “Logan, what I don’t understand is that we were never officially a couple to begin with. So now… what? You’re saying you want us to be one?”

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He sent you a small, almost-shy smile. “I guess I am.”

“Wow,” you said, “…talk about a bolt from the blue…!” He nodded, “I know. And I’m sorry - I know it must seem a bit strange after all this time. But I mean it, I never stopped thinking about you, I swear. Things were so easy between us and I really missed that. Missed you.”

“But you don’t really seem like the committed relationship type, Logan,” you said, determined to find out how serious he was about all this. He frowned, “Yeah, yeah…I know the press didn’t really make it look like that, did it. I was trying to fill a big void at that point, y’know? And I soon found out all that shit doesn’t work. In any way, shape or form. I think I probably should’ve held onto you with both hands instead of letting you go.”

“But you weren’t going to do anything about it, were you?” You weren’t going to let him off the hook too easily. He laughed, “No, I can’t deny that. If Jules hadn’t called you…. but I just didn’t think you’d want to hear from me again. So I chickened out, yeah. But she knew I was moping around the place because I was missing you, and decided to jump in. And I’m glad she did.” He gave you a beaming smile, “Even if this is all I get, I’m grateful she did.”

You felt that Logan was being sincere. But how did you know he wouldn’t do the same again or if he started going off the rails again?

What should your decision be?

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Driving away from Logan’s place a little later on, you felt satisfied with what you’d eventually said to Logan about the two of you.

That you were happy to get back onto your old footing with him, meeting for lunch or dinner or whatever. Nothing more than that… for now.

Logan had been very pleased indeed - jumping up and grabbing your hand, whirling you round the limited space of the terrace in a crazy tango-like dance before kissing your knuckles lightly and whispering, “Thank you, angel.”

Now, you thought, this is more like the Logan I know.

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And so basically you and Logan picked up from where you’d left off years ago. Meeting up regularly to eat out or go for walks, getting reacquainted. You, sharing what had been going on in your personal and work life; him, filling in some blanks with more details. You made sure it was taken at leisurely pace, Logan keener for more meet-ups however you slowed things down. If Logan suggested meeting up the next day after you’d met for lunch for instance, you would move it out to two or three days later. You got the impression he knew exactly what you were doing, but he took it with good grace.

The first time Logan kissed you, he took you completely by surprise. You’d been walking along the beach together side by side after lunch one day, when you’d spotted a seagull making a kamikaze dive into the ocean after a fish. You’d turned quickly to Logan, “Oh, look!….” you started to say but found yourself being pulled into Logan’s arms and his lips were on yours. That was enough of a surprise - until then, you and Logan had shared hugs and chaste kisses on the cheek, nothing more - but the passion of the kiss really surprised you.

His lips left yours, then they were next to your ear and he whispered, “I want you.” He kissed your ear softly, “So much.” Another kiss, below your ear this time, “Will I ever have you?” You leant your head backwards and looked up at him, “Maybe. Maybe, Logan,” you replied with a shy smile. In truth, he’d caused your legs to go to jelly. He smiled back, “Okay… I guess I’ll have to settle for that right now.”

You knew only too well that you wanted him too, but you were still wary of this whole thing between the two of you. And so things continued as they were, except that you did allow some more intimate kisses than before when you were leaving or he dropped you off. You were in fact quite impressed with how reserved Logan was being, sure that he would’ve been far more forceful in his pre-rehab days.

A couple of months later, Logan called and asked you to dinner at his place, adding tentatively, “You could stay over… if you like…?” You hesitated and then made a decision you hoped you wouldn’t regret. “Okay, Logan… that’d be nice.” You heard a slight intake of breath, then his voice, “Fine… that’s fine. I’ll… ummm… get the guest room made up for you.” You smiled at his attempt not to put pressure on you, “Ah… I don’t think that’ll be necessary, Logan… unless you feel it is, of course?” “Oh, no, no, no..” he replied super quickly, “I… uhhh… yeah, fine, that’s fine. Absolutely fine!”

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Logan stroked your face, kissing your cheek, your nose, your neck. You opened your eyes and sleepily smiled at him, very happy to be waking up in his bed for the first time.

He’d been like a cat on a hot tin roof the night before at dinner, and of course the elephant in the room was the fact that you’d tacitly agreed to spend the night in his bed. He’d eventually leapt up out of his chair, his long legs carrying him quickly back and forwards along the terrace as he paced in front of you. “Okay… I’m done!” he’d exclaimed, “I gotta ask you something, angel. Guess you know I haven’t thought about anything else tonight except what you said on the phone to me earlier. I gotta know… did you actually mean you’ll sleep with me… or did you mean you’ll have my bed and I’ve gotta sleep in the guest room?!”

You’d laughed out loud, “Oh, Logan… you idiot! Of course I meant I’ll sleep with you!”

Logan’s bright-as-sunshine smile had lit up his face, and he’d swooped down on you as you sat at the table. He’d picked you up out of the chair with the greatest of ease and carried you to his bedroom. He’d stripped off his clothes and stood still for a moment, giving a delighted you your first sight of his lithe, athletic frame, with its light sprinkling of chest and body hair. You admitted to yourself that you’d always wondered what Logan was packing in his trousers, and you were undeniably impressed when he’d unzipped and revealed a very healthy erection. Your reaction must’ve shown on your face, as Logan had virtually preened before smirking at you, “Like what you see, angel?” and advancing purposefully towards you.

However, you’d been gently undressed and he’d proceeded to make love to you in the tenderest way possible, kissing every inch of your skin and whispering that you were his very own heavenly angel as he’d climaxed. Logan had slid himself down your body, his head disappearing between your legs and his extremely talented tongue and fingers had then made sure you had a second stupendous orgasm within moments. He’d pulled you close to him and wrapped you in a loose bear hug, kissing you occasionally and telling you just how damn happy he was right now. You drifted off to sleep in his arms, really quite surprised how gentle and tender Logan had been.

Almost as if he’d read your mind, you heard Logan say in a low voice, “Don’t worry, angel, things will get a little wilder round here as we get to know each other better. Y’know, get more relaxed… get to know what each other really likes?” You laughed, “Okay, Logan. I’ll hold you to that.” You got a trademark wink and a grin, there was a long kiss on your lips and then he was asleep.

Now you looked up into Logan’s sparkling dark eyes, as he smiled and wished you good morning. “Gonna make you some coffee, angel,” he added, folding back the bedcovers and standing up next to the bed. Desperately trying to keep your eyes on his eyes, you watched as he stretched and laughed down at you, “You’re allowed to look now, y’know, angel… touch if you like. Whenever you like!” You felt your face pinking up and your eyes - of their own accord - travelled south before racing back up north, so to speak. Yes, he was proudly sporting a ‘morning glory’ and looking very pleased with himself about it too.

He leant back down and kissed you on the lips, “We’re a couple now. You can’t deny it, angel. So get used to all of this…” he waved a hand around between the two of you, “…cos this it’s how it’s gonna be in future.” “Is it indeed, Mr Delos?” you snarked, and he tipped your chin up for another kiss, smiling at you, nodding his head.

“Yeah. It is, angel.” He smiled and kissed you again, “…thought I’d better let you know.”

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@obscurilicious @paracosmenthusiast

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[sophiechoir]

Artists I Like

(Listmaking is totally a creative exercise, right? Right? If that’s true then this is the longest running creative exercise I’ve ever indulged in lol)

Gerda Wegener - fashion & lesbian art nouveau/deco

Harry Watrous - enigmatic paintings of sophisticated women

Helen Frankenthaler - abstract expressionist paintings

Sergio Toppi - italian illustrations & comics

Dan Hillier - contemporary spooky angelic ink/print/collage

Mike Binge - 70s sci fi art

Gustave Dore - highly detailed wood-engravings prints, dante

Paul César Helleu - numerous portraits of beautiful society women

Roberto Ferri - making the old masters cool again

Gustav Vigeland - weird figure sculptures

NC Wyeth - one of america’s greatest illustrators

Andrew Wyeth - melancholy realism painter

Frank Frazetta - best fantasy & pulp artist

John Buscema - conan comics artist

Jose Luis Garcia-Lopez - wonder woman comics artist

Parker Hagarty - landscapes & figures

Henry Patrick Raleigh - star of golden age of illustration, high society drawings

Paul Lehr - 70s future-fantasy pulp illustrations

Stanley Meltzoff - 50s scifi/pulp cover illustrations

Alphonse Mucha - art nouveau

Kawase Hasui - japanese woodblock prints

Edmund Dulac - delicate detailed book illustrations

Makoto Takahashi - vintage shoujo manga

Harry Clarke - super detailed & dark art nouveau/deco illustrations

Sophie Lecuyer - contemporary spooky illustrations

Wassily Kandinsky - abstract geometry

George F. Kerr - book illustrations

Beatrix Potter - book illustrations

Mary Bauermeister - eclectic sculptures & drawings - geomancy

John William Waterhouse - Pre-Raphaelite paintings

Alexandre de Riquer - gorgeous mucha-esque posters & illustrations

Gianpaolo Pagni - patterned graphic designs

Giovanni Boldini - dynamic paintings/portraits, “Master of Swish”

Erté - art deco fashion ladies (new orleans!)

Cicely Mary Barker - fairy illustrations

Dorothy P. Lathrop - beautiful childrens book black n white illustrations

Kay Nielsen - glittering golden age illustrations

Coles Phillips - “fadeaway girl” golden age illustrations

Gustav Klimt - gold 💋

Koloman Moser - patterned art nouveau

Konstantin Tarasov - contemporary colorful & detailed digital drawings

Carlo Dolci - soft & dramatic chiaroscuro baroque religious portraits

Trung Le Nguyen aka Trungles - deviantart digital artist, colorful golden age mixed with anime illustrations

John Everett Millais - Pre-Raphaelite paintings

Arthur Rackham - English golden age illustrations, muted colors

Syd Mead - industrial & sci fi concept art

Mario Garbuglia - Barbarella set design

Henri Patrice Dillon - dreamy fadeaway muted illustrations/paintings

Frantisek Kupka - later Czech painter who began in representational art and evolved into pure abstraction

John Bauer - classic nordic fairy tale/myth illustrations

Aya Takano - superflat/anime but make it fine art

John Singer Sargent - heavenly portraits

Winslow Homer - masculine largely marine landscapes

George Barbier - art deco illustrations

Edward Okuń - polish art nouveau & symbolist painter

Robert Anning Bell - paintings & illustrations

Thomas Cooper Gotch - sorta preraphaelite paintings, portraits of girls

Jules Chéret - colorful french posters

Kaarina Kaila - dreamy soft children’s illustrations (almost kitsch)

Helen Hyde - japanese woodblock prints but actually they’re american

Melchior Lechter - paintings and book designs. “His hieratic, symbolic, decorative style combined gothic elements with art nouveau”

Jan Mankes - gentle unlined dutch paintings

Amrita Sher-Gil - contemporary indian paintings, mostly of woc

Sydney Long - australian watercolor landscapes

Carlos Schwabe - freaky religious/mythological symbolist paintings

Bob Pepper - groovy 60s-80s pulp illustrations

Frank R. Paul - scifi illustrations

Chéri Hérouard - La Vie Parisienne french illustrations

John Berkey - scifi illustrations/concept art

Aubrey Beardsley - fin de siecle black and white illustrations

Charles Caryl Coleman - pretty still lifes & landscapes, flowers & capri

Erich Schutz - Austrian illustrator of children's books, Schutz was influenced by Art Nouveau, and specialised in painting fairies and mermaids

Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec - French painter, printmaker, caricaturist and illustrator

Eleanor Fortescue-Brickdale - lush detailed paintings of richly dressed figures and scenes

Anne Claude de Caylus - not sure if he actually made them but print illustrations of peasantfolk

Friedrich König - Austrian prints & paintings, Klimt contemporary

Georges Barbier - french illustrations like erté

Betty Jiang - contemporary pretty pearly & dark digital art

Stephan Sinding - marble sculptures of lovers

Heikala - contemporary soft & sweet watercolor & ink illustrations anime inspired

Paul-Albert Besnard - french prints & paintings in between academic & impressionist

Henry Ossawa Tanner - biblical realism paintings

Norman Lindsay - etchings with lotsa great figures

Michael O’Toole - colorful landscapes

Caspar David Friedrich - moody Romantic paintings

Gian Lorenzo Bernini - iconic baroque marble sculptures

Francois Schuiten - french detailed architecture comic art

Adrienne Gaha - colorful contemporary half-abstract paintings

Tradd Moore - trippy silver surfer comic art

tono/rt0no (on tumblr) - super cute illustrations of victorian cats ;-;

Nanaco Yashiro - pretty colorful contemporary illustrations

Ramiro Sanchez - contemporary traditional painter, director of painting program at Florence Academy of Art

Isabella Fassler - contemporary colorful illustrations

Florence Harrison - art nouveau childrens book fairy tale illustrations

Shahzia Sikander - contemporary Pakistani-American visual artist

Atelier Heinrichs - trippy colorful collage covers for sci fi pulps

John Macallan Swan - pretty kitties

JC Leyendecker - our fave dapper gents

Frederick Sandys - pre raphaelite paintings

Stepan Kolesnikov - realist yet stylized russian paintings

Okumi Iyo - embroidered illustrations

William Henry Barribal - colorful art deco paintings

Ilya Glazunov - russian historical/orthodox paintings in the time of communism

Igor Karash - spooky illustrations

Daud Ahkriev - his drawings of fishermen

Seiichi Hayashi - pretty, contemporary japanese manga & illustrations ft women

Nola (nolawon.art) - pretty, detailed takashi murakami-esque illustrations

Harrison Fisher - classic american illustrator, pretty women

John Austen - gorgeous black n white detailed hamlet illustrations

Gustave Moreau - fantastical & aesthetic french paintings admired by proust

Ceri Richards - welsh abstract paintings of people indoors

Otto Mueller - highly textured angular colorful paintings with bold lines

Henri Privat-Livemont - Art Nouveau posters

Giovanni di Paolo - prolific painter and illustrator of manuscripts, including Dante's texts

Ben Reeves - contemporary painter, moody & blue-heavy collages of colors

Alex Niño - amazing abstracted comic artist

Ludovic Alleaume - dreamy french paintings

Yoshiko Fukushima - unsettling figures with strange colors, superflat paintings

Zinaida Serebriakova - kind realistic russian paintings of pretty women and children

Harold Robert Millar (H.R. Millar) - famous Scottish graphic artist and illustrator of the late nineteenth and early twentieth centuries

Alice Marshall - delicate illustrations of fairies on black background

Stanislaw Kamocki - colorful Polish landscape paintings

Bertha Lum - American version of Japanese woodblock prints

Raphael Kirchner - art deco fashion illustrations

Tamara de Lempicka - highly stylized art deco portraits of ladies, polish

Phil Greenwood - bright pop-y floral landscapes

Rose Cecil O'Neill - vintage illustrations & cartoons

John Rush - great use of color in figure drawings

Jean Delville - otherworldly paintings

Paul-albert Besnard - monochromatic prints

Helene Schjerfbeck - modernist subtle portraits

Heinrich Lefler - beautiful detailed narrative paintings/illustrations

Maximilian Liebenwein - art nouveau illustrations

Franklin Booth - detailed pen and ink drawings

Ulla Thynell - dreamy contemporary illustrations

Jun'ichi Nakahara - japanese graphic artist, early manga

K.F.E. von Freyhold - playful German book illustrations

Beth Billups - contemporary abstract painter

William McGregor Paxton - interior scenes of woman like Henry James depicts them

Ida Rentoul Outhwaite - Australian illustrator of children's books. Her work mostly depicted fairies

Ernest Biéler - Swiss painter, draughtsman and printmaker

Junko Ogawa (@junk_junk_junk on ig) - surreal anime style drawings

Marianne Stokes - Austrian painter, one of the leading women artists in Victorian England

Lee Mullican - abstract paintings

Rae Klein - creepy surreal paintings

[fruitcoops]

Blink In Sight

Part 2 of the Coops smut series, ft some Cap loving as requested! Credit for Coops/ Sweater Weather goes to @lumosinlove!

TW for blowjobs and more mid-sex laughter

Contrary to popular opinion, the kitchen was Remus’ favorite room in the house. It wasn’t even a room, technically—one little island separated it from the adjoining entryway and an empty doorway led to the main hall. The island was the perfect height for him to sit on and drown in kisses from his fiancé, too, which was just an added bonus.

“Are the sandwiches almost ready?” Sirius muttered against his mouth.

Remus leaned to the side to look over his shoulder at the stove and squinted in the light from the hanging bulbs after having his eyes closed for so long. Small wisps of steam curled around the pan’s lid. “Probably. You want to check?”

Sirius heaved a heavy sigh, but released his waist and grabbed the spatula from the countertop. He made a pleased noise when he flipped the sandwiches and Remus smiled to himself; he loved the little moments like this, sitting in a quiet kitchen together. “Ta-da!” Sirius presented the sandwiches with a flourish and nearly tipped them right out of the greased pan. “Oh, shit!”

“Do we need plates?” Remus asked even as he carefully took one out with his bare fingers. The buttered bread was hot, but he was brutally hungry and practically inhaled it. Between winning their game, the accompanying adrenaline rush, and (in James’ eloquent words) getting railed by his fiancé, it was a miracle he had lasted this long without food. “I love you.”

“Because I make grilled cheese?” Sirius asked around half a sandwich. When Remus nodded, he pumped his fist. ”Nailed it.”

“This might be the only thing you can cook, but it’s so fucking good. Can you make another one?”

“We’re out of bread.”

Remus’ shoulders slumped and he hopped down off the counter, wincing slightly at the dull ache in his legs. He had to start doing more squats for a variety of reasons, and tonight had only proved that. The blast of cold air from the fridge made him shiver as he sifted through Tupperware containers from previous dinners. “We’ve got leftover lasagna, some of my mom’s cake, and there might be some canned soup in the cupboards.”

“That’s it?”

“Well, I’m not really in the mood to cook.” Remus grabbed the lasagna pan and stuck it in the microwave while Sirius took two forks out of the drawer. “My lower back is killing me.”

“I must confess, I still believe,” Sirius sang under his breath. “Still buh-lieve.”

He turned to him with a wide smile. “When I’m not with you I lose my mind, give me a sign!”

“Hit me baby one more time!” they both shouted at the top of their lungs. I love you, Remus thought as the microwave pinged and Sirius took the pan out. I love you wildly. Do you know that?

“Sirius?”

“…yes?” Sirius looked mildly concerned at the sound of his actual name. Remus drummed his fingers on his hipbones and pressed him against the kitchen island, kissing him deeply for a few hertbeats. “Is that a request for round two?” He looked a little dazed—Remus kissed him once more, chaste and quick.

“Nope. I just love you a lot.” His mouth tasted like coconut and honey. “Are you wearing chapstick?”

“Uh-huh. Lips were dry from the cold air.” Sirius took another two seconds to collect himself before passing Remus a fork and scooting over to make room for him. “Tonight is supposed to be celebrating you, you know.”

“It is.” Remus knocked their hips together lightly. “Making you feel good makes me feel good, plus there’s the fact that you also scored two goals and led the team to victory, oh great captain of mine.”

The corners of Sirius’ eyes crinkled as he stuck a forkful of lasagna in his mouth. “Playing hockey with you might be my favorite thing ever, but this is a close second.”

“What, eating lasagna straight from the pan like responsible adults?”

“Yup. It’s so normal.”

Remus thought for a moment, tapping the base of his fork against his lips. Sirius was right—they did not lead very normal lives at all, and being able to come home after playing sports in front of thousands of people cheering their names was refreshing to say the least. “Yeah, it is. I like being normal with you.”

“I like being normal with you, too.”

They ate in comfortable silence, bumping elbows, shoulders, or forks every once in a while. It had been over a month since their engagement and Remus still felt his stomach flip every time Sirius’ ring caught the light just so. They had been through hell and back together, and he was looking forward to many, many more years of well-deserved peace. “We should start decorating for the holidays soon,” Remus mused.

“I don’t have any decorations.”

“Really?”

A faint pink flush spread across Sirius’ cheeks, and it wasn’t the sexy kind. “I didn’t really have anyone to put them up with before, so I just…never saw the point.”

Sometimes, Remus made the mistake of forgetting just how alone Sirius had been, and it always hit him like a Mac truck whenever a reminder popped up. “Well,” he said around the tightness in his throat. “We’re changing that. We’ll pick up a tree and I’ll teach you to make Christmas cookies and we’re getting some stockings for the mantle.”

“You want to do that?”

Remus set his fork down and nudged him gently with his shoulder. “As long as you do.”

“Could we invite your parents and Jules over for Christmas?” Sirius asked.

“I bet they’d love that.” Something caught his eye and he craned his neck to see further around the corner. “Is that…my shirt? Over there by the front door.”

“What?” Sirius’ deeply thoughtful look vanished and he followed Remus’ sightline, letting out a delighted laugh. “It is! Merde, that means mine is definitely still on the stairs.”

“Do we clean now or later?” Remus looked down at the empty lasagna pan and frowned. “I don’t really want to do the dishes.”

“Well…”

“Wait until tomorrow?”

“Wait until tomorrow.”

“Living room?”

“Living room!” Sirius grinned and Remus backed him down the hall, both of them stumbling a little over their own feet in the darkness. They had had the foresight to put away all the clean laundry, so there was plenty of free space for Remus to push him down into the couch and slide his fingers beneath the band of his sweatpants as he straddled him. When he leaned back to catch his breath, Sirius’ smile turned devious.

“What?”

“How’re your thighs doing?”

“My wh—Sirius.” Remus smacked him on the arm.

“Should we switch?”

“Oh, my god!”

“Can you stand up?”

“One time. One time and you’re giving me grief for it.”

“Are you sure you’re—” Sirius broke off into giggles as Remus began tickling his sides mercilessly. “I’m sorry!” he gasped. “I’m sorry, I take it back!”

“Really?”

“Yes!”

Remus crossed his arms and looked down at Sirius. “Hmm.”

Hope lit up his face. “Round two?”

“The puppy eyes are impossible to deny,” Remus said wryly as he made his way down Sirius’ body and plucked at his sweatpants.

“Re—”

“Do you want me to?” Remus asked.

“Well, yeah, but this is Loops appreciation night.”

He licked his lips and began pulling Sirius’ sweatpants down his thighs. “I promise I feel very appreciated. Can I please blow you now?”

“Absolutely, but it’s your turn after…” Sirius’ sentence trailed off as Remus pressed a series of openmouthed kisses down his half-hard shaft. “After, uh, this.”

He hummed his agreement and goosebumps broke out along Sirius’ thighs, spreading all the way up his chest and arms as well. Remus took his time; there was no rush, no competition, just pouring out his love for his fiancé in a way that happened to include taking his dick further and further into his mouth.

Strong, calloused dingers threaded into his hair as he sank down and short whimpers spurred him on. Remus swallowed and the hands tightened, which sent a wave of tingling warmth all the way to his toes. “Is that good?” Sirius panted above him. Judging from the fast-twitching muscles in his thigh and the slight strain in his voice, he was doing everything in his power to keep his legs steady for Remus.

“Very good,” Remus said, leaning his cheek against Sirius’ inner thigh and grinning. He rubbed the heels of his hands down Sirius’ legs and traced small circles in the dips of his ankles just the way he liked it, and Sirius arched his back. “Can I try that thing I did the other day?”

“Fuck yes.” Sirius’ answer was carried on the tail end of an incredulous huff and Remus placed a line of quick kisses up his inner thigh before sliding his mouth down over the tip and going until his eyes stung. God, he’s so hard, he thought as Sirius keened and pulled lightly on his hair again. He pressed the back of his tongue underneath the head of Sirius’ dick, making him shudder. “Re—sweetheart, I’m so close, move if you don’t want—”

Remus hollowed his cheeks abruptly and the salty liquid that had been leaking into his mouth was suddenly replaced by thick ropes of come; he swallowed as much as he could and carefully pulled off, stroking Sirius through the aftershocks before pulling his sweatpants up and straddling him once more.

“How are you real?” Sirius wondered aloud as he automatically reached out to smooth his hands from Remus’ hips to his knees. He looked like he had had an epiphany, like an angel had appeared and whispered some long-awaited secret to him. “We were talking about having your parents over for Christmas and then you just fucking…” he trailed off and shook his head as Remus wiped away some spit that had gathered on his lips. “You and your magic mouth.”

“It’s a talent that I can’t put on my resume,” Remus teased as Sirius flipped their positions. “I have to do something with it. Plus, you sound good.”

Vibrant red—the sexy kind, this time—highlighted Sirius’ cheeks and he rested his forehead on Remus’ stomach to hide his smile. “You’ll be the death of me.”

“Not yet. Maybe later, if you’re good.”

Sirius looked up and quirked an eyebrow. “Who’s the one with a praise kink, here?”

“You tell me,” Remus shot back playfully. His back muscles relaxed as Sirius ran a firm hand over the bulge in his sweats and he settled one arm over his head to make a little more room for his shoulders. Their couch was fantastic for cozy cuddles, but just slightly too narrow for them to comfortably lay flat without hanging over the edge a little.

His head tilted instinctively as Sirius pressed his mouth to his dick through the fabric, surrounding him in sticky heat that sent zaps of electricity up his spine. “You really are a Lion, aren’t you?” Sirius laughed when he traced Remus’ ribs.

“Hmm?”

“You purr.” Sirius propped himself on his elbows and tapped his sternum. “Right here, when you really get going, you start to hum a little bit. It’s cute.”

“Really?” In the midst of his internal crisis about just how long he had been doing that, Remus’ brain suddenly snapped back to the present as Sirius pressed his tongue to his slit and closed his mouth around the head. “Oh, fuck.”

His calves were settled over Sirius’ shoulders—when did they get there again?—and his eyes fell shut in pleasure before he could get a proper look at Sirius’ face. Unrelenting pressure enveloped his dick on all sides and a clever tongue flickered along the shaft as Sirius sucked him off in sure strokes. Most of his muscles were still sore from the game, but the extra burn was a welcome distraction that kept him from coming the second Sirius’ hand cupped his balls.

“You—you—unh.” Remus’ brain went foggy and he pressed his heels down on Sirius’ shoulder blades, urging him deeper. “Please.”

Sirius moved to hold his thighs down, which was probably for the best considering Remus wasn’t sure he was entirely in control of his limbs at the moment, and pulled off, moving to map out the veins on Remus’ dick with his lips and tongue. He shushed him softly at one point and Remus clenched his jaw around the whines that came out on nearly every breath.

He teetered on the edge for long enough that he only had a half-second of clarity to tap Sirius on the shoulder before he was dissolving into bliss. The sensation around his dick did not diminish until he jolted with sensitivity, and only then did he realize Sirius was peppering his face with small kisses. “Welcome back,” Sirius said, just smug enough that a thrill raced through Remus’ belly. “That was for your first goal.”

“I’ve still got one more to cash in, right?” He kissed him lightly and the salt on both their lips made his heart pound.

“Mhmm. Water first, then bedroom?”

Remus had no idea how he was going to manage another orgasm tonight, but the look in Sirius’ eye as he pulled him off the couch by his hands was plenty of incentive to at least give it a try.

[jungleindierock]

Jungle Indie Rock Playlist - December 2020 

Jungle Indie Rock Playlist, December 2020. Featuring 100 songs released this year by artists from 20 different countries: Argentina, Australia, Belgium, Canada, Colombia, Denmark, France, Germany, Greece, Hungary, Ireland, Italy, Luxemburg, Mali, Norway, Russia, Spain, Sweden, UK, USA.

This playlist was curated by Mar, Rebjukebox, Dao and Daloja. Cover art by Evripidis Sabatis, musician and illustrator featured in this playlist with the song The Reason (#39).

Mar has mixed the playlist like a DJ session. We recommend you to play it in order.

Tracklist

Vision Video - In My Side (Greece); Dao

SURE - Morrows (France); Mar

Polly Scattergood - Red (UK); Daloja

Touché Amoré ft Manchester Orchestra - Limelight (USA); Rebjukebox

The 1975 - People (UK); Daloja

Sea Fuzz - Monster Party (Spain); Mar

Fatima Push - Pray (Colombia); Dao

Medusa Box  - Bending Time (Spain); Dao

Haerts - It's Too Late (Germany/USA); Rebjukebox

New Order - Be A Rebel (UK) ; Rebjukebox

Nothing But Thieves - Moral Panic (UK); Mar

Caribou - Never Come Back (Canada); Daloja

Kasper Bjørke (ft. Christian d'Or & Toby Ernest) - Seabird. Tensnake Remix  (Denmark); Dao

D'baldomeros (ft. Sylaia) - Skyline (Spain); Dao

Tom And His Computer (ft. Roxy Jules) - Future Ruins (Denmark); Dao

Circe - Ten Girls (UK); Mar

YGGL - Strange Life (France); Mar

Margarita Quebrada - Luces (Spain); Mar

VVV [Trippin'you] - Invierno Nuclear (Spain); Daloja

Boy With Apple - Green Eyes (Sweden); Daloja

Angelo De Augustine (ft. Sufjan Stevens) - Santa Barbara (USA); Daloja

Kari Rueslåtten - Savn (Norway); Rebjukebox

Josephson - Chemo (Australia); Rebjukebox

Balthazar - You Won't Come Around (Belgium); Rebjukebox

Yukon Blonde - YGTT (Canada); Mar

J.E. Sunde  - Sunset Strip (USA); Dao

Bryan Estepa - Admit Now, Pay Later (Australia); Mar

GRAZER - Joe's Sad Song (Australia); Daloja

Girl in Red - Two Queens In A King Sized Bed (Norway); Rebjukebox

Anna Of The North – Lovers. Home Made (Norway); Daloja

Tiny Fighter  - Going Home (Australia/Sweden); Dao

Ane Brun - Take Hold Of Me (Norway); Mar

Japanese Breakfast - Essentially (USA); Rebjukebox

Sundara Karma - Kill Me (UK); Rebjukebox

Yumi And The Weather - The More I Hear The Less I Believe (UK); Rebjukebox

Overcoats - Apathetic Boys (USA); Rebjukebox

Hinds - Riding Solo (Spain); Daloja

Indigo Days - Wait And See (UK); Dao

Evripidis and his Tragedies - The Reason (Greece/Spain); Mar

Easy - Day For Night (Sweden); Dao

Delta Spirit - Better Now (USA); Mar

Beans On Toast - The Family Tree (UK); Rebjukebox

The Silly Toys - Strangers (Luxemburg/UK/France); Daloja

Cherry Blossom Kids - Julia (Denmark); Rebjukebox

Aaron Lee Tasjan - Up All Night (USA); Mar

James Dean Bradfield - Without Knowing The End (Joan's Song) (UK); Mar

Amy Macdonald - The Human Demands (UK); Mar

Jake Bugg - Rabbit Hole (UK); Daloja

The Lathums - I See Your Ghost (UK); Rebjukebox

Ded Rabbit - Gotta Get Outta This Place (UK); Rebjukebox

Black Honey - Beaches (UK); Daloja

Biznaga - 2K20 (Spain); Daloja

Alison Darwin - Todo Se Derrumba (Spain); Dao

Iñigo Soler - Nuestra Mejor Versión (Spain); Dao

Monteavaro - Nuevas Dependencias (Spain); Mar

Marem Ladson - Círculos (Spain); Mar

Belau (ft. Kirstine Stubbe Teglbjærg)  - Rapture (Hungary); Dao

We Melt Chocolate - Blue Hair Girl (Italy); Dao

Fontaines D.C. - I Don't Belong (Ireland), Daloja

Drab City - Troubled Girl (USA/Germany); Daloja

Le Couleur - Oiseaux Sauvages (Canada); Mar

Sleepy Gonzales - Sally On The Avenue (Canada); Rebjukebox

Future Islands - For Sure (USA); Daloja

Dizzy - Sunflower (Canada); Daloja

Ailbhe Reddy - Looking Happy (Ireland); Mar

The Jacques - Do Me For A Fool (UK); Mar

NewDad - I Don't Recognise You (Ireland); Rebjukebox

Ornament - Synonymous (UK); Dao

The OBGMs - All My Friends (Canada) ; Rebjukebox

Teenage Wrist - Taste Of Gasoline (USA); Rebjukebox

Amor En La Isla - Cariño (Argentina); Dao

Ender Bender - Honey Lavender Girl (USA/Italy);Dao

The Crab Apples - Open Your Mind (Spain); Dao

The Sounds - Things We Do For Love (Sweden); Daloja

Everything Everything - Violent Sun (UK); Daloja

Anamolí - Look Around (Argentina); Mar

El Tee - Good (Australia); Mar

Bear's Den + Paul Frith - Napoleon (UK); Mar

Tunng - Eating The Dead (UK); Rebjukebox

The Wolfhounds - Can't See The Light  (UK);  Dao

Tableraz - Mad (France); Rebjukebox

Thrillsville - The Fever (USA); Dao

JARV IS - Must I Evolve? (UK); Daloja

Mow - Drown (Spain); Mar

Ballerina Black - Evelee (USA); Rebjukebox

Smith & Burrows - All The Best Moves (UK); Daloja

Songhoy Blues - Badala (Mali); Rebjukebox

The Chats - AC/DC CD (Australia); Rebjukebox

No Age - Sandalwood (USA); Daloja

Látigo Mantra - Dispuesto a Renunciar (Spain); Dao

While Walking - A New City For The First Time (Spain); Dao

The Clods Band  - She! (Spain); Dao

Motorama - The New Era (Russia); Daloja

Hospital - Collapsed Light (Russia); Rebjukebox

Phoebe Bridgers - I Know The End (USA); Mar

Rosie Carney - Bullet Proof ... I Wish I Was (Ireland); Mar

Michael Stipe & Big Red Machine - No Time For Love Like Now (USA); Daloja

Catherine Anne Davies & Bernard Butler - The Breakdown (UK); Daloja

Hōō - Blow Up (Spain); Dao

BAOBAB - For The Money (Spain); Dao

[sweethomesweethome]

my february playlist for you ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

• Hoizer — in the woods somewhere

• Hoizer — cherry wine

• Haley Klinkhammer — can't help falling in love

• Hoizer — from eden

• Cassadee Pope — easier to lie

• Jules Larson — you know it's true

• James Blunt — carry you home

• Haley Klinkhammer — all time low

• Hoizer — like real people do

• Voxhaul Broadcast — if i run

• Emerson, Lake & Palmer — lucky man

• The Elders — too late to change

• The Box Tops — the letter

• Mike Oldfield — shadow on the wall

• Uriah Heep — lady in black

• Deep Purple — hush

• Supertramp — the logical song

• Ponderosa — hold on you

• The Luka State — 30 minute break

• My Chemical Romance — the sharpest lives

• Young Guns — bulletproof

• Fall Out Boy — centuries

• PVRIS — you and i

• Cilver — i'm america

• Normandie — white flag

• You Me At Six — room to breathe

• My Chemical Romance — famous last words

• My Chemical Romance — welcoming to the black parade

• Fall Out Boy — light em up

• Twin Wild — willow tree

• Stars in Stereo — the broken

• Tonight Alive — world away

• Twin Wild — control

• The Weeknd — secrets

• The Weeknd — save your tears

• Charlotte Lawrence — talk you down

• The Weeknd — love to lay

• Griff — black hole

• Purple disco machine ft. Sophie and the Giants — hypnotized

• Maroon 5 — maps

• B. O.B.ft Hayley Williams — airplanes

• Madcon — beggin

• Madonna — sorry

• Natasha Bedingfield — pocketful of sunshine

• Iggy Azalea — team

♡

and here it is: playlist

what is your february music?

you can find a link to all playlists in my bio. hope you like it!

like or reblog, please. thank you.

[fireproofheart]

Vollstrecker: A chronology of Caleb via playlist Spotify Link x Youtube Link x Cover Art x Ps. The official spelling is bad so I’ve elected to ignore it PPS. This is like a Living playlist so it might change occasionally, particularly the spotify version. 

Legible track list under the cut

1. Everybody Wants To Rule The World, Lorde 2. Natural, Imagine Dragons 3. Arsonist’s Lullaby, Hozier 4. We Have It All, Pim Stones 5. Ashes, The Longest Johns 6. Mars, Sleeping At Last 7. Foreigner’s God, Hozier 8. Control, Halsey 9. Mad World, Gary Jules Ft. Michael Andrews 10. I Hurt Myself Today, Monica Lopez 11. Guilt, Hurts 12. Youth Daughter 13. First Defeat, Noah Gundersen 14. I’ll Be Good, James Young 15. Blindness, Metric 16. Hurricane, Thirty Seconds To Mars 17. Long Nights, Eddie Vedder 18. Sinners, Barns Courtney 19. The Mask, Matt Maeson 20. Little Lion Man, Mumford & Sons 21. Silence, Gavin Mikhail 22. Zero, Imagine Dragons 23. Scared of the Dark, Lil Wayne, Ty Dolla $ign, XXXTENTACION 24. Ashes, Caleb Hyles 25. Ancient Mars, The Zolas 26. It’s Alright, Mother Mother

[medusinestories]

Black Sails Confinement Challenge - Prompts

Here it is! The list of 50 prompts to inspire confined fic writers to write about confined characters. Here’s how I broke them down:

The General (G1 - G25) prompts only contain ideas for settings and sometimes simple plot ideas. They can be used for any ship or character. Please fill these prompts as closely to the general idea/mood as possible.

The Specific (S1 - S25) prompts tend to be more detailed and contain a ship request. If you choose a specific prompt, please write the ship/main characters requested in these prompts, whose names you have been bolded for your convenience.

Tomorrow I’ll be posting a form to let authors claim prompts. Prompts can be claimed anytime during the challenge but prompts are granted on a first-come, first-serve basis (this list will be updated to reflect which prompts are currently claimed). Specific prompts can only be claimed once. General prompts may be claimed several times AS LONG AS the writers are working on different characters/ships (they will be asked who they plan on writing in the submission form). There is no deadline or minimum length, but authors must make some progress within one month of claiming the prompt (ie, at least an outline and a few paragraphs). Prompts for which the author has gone radio-silent or made absolutely no progress in one month will be put back up for grabs. Authors can fill as many prompts as they like, on the condition that they claim one prompt at a time and finish each prompt before starting working on another.

As always my inbox or PMs stay open if you have any questions about this challenge!

And now, without further ado, let yourself be inspired by these prompts and choose your favourites (1 main, 2 backup) for signup tomorrow! (write down the FULL code, fx G5 or S22)

GENERAL PROMPTS (any ship/character)

G1 Place: inside a whale Reason: the whale swallowed them Mood: banter, done with this shit, crack-y

G2 Place: a subaqueous lab Reason: the inaccessibility of the lab Mood: UST and a tinge of horror Extra: the heater is malfunctioning and they have to huddle for warmth

G3 Sexy times feat. character 1 being tied up and waiting for character 2 who's left them alone for a while.

G4 Place: a safehouse  Reason: they're in witness protection  Mood: sexual tension, banter, funny?  Extra: Character 1 is in witness protection but hates it, thinks it's unnecessary and is trying to leave. character 2 is personally responsible for their safety.

G5 Place: at the Oglethorpe plantation Reason: fear of disease Mood: bittersweet

G6 Place: a part of the ship Reason: punished by the crew Mood: cracky, ust. Extra: there is only 1 hammock

G7 Place: an elevator in an office building Reason: it broke down, nobody's responding and it's Friday night Mood: banter, arguing, enemies-to-friends-to-more? Extra: one of them isn't feeling well because of a medical condition (can be claustrophobia) but is trying to hide it

G8 Place: at the top of a Ferris wheel Reason: power cut Mood: funny, bickering

G9 Place: a supposedly haunted house Reason: the door is mysteriously stuck Mood: creepy, funny, possibly UST/smutty

G10 Place: a closet/wardrobe Reason: they're hiding from someone Mood: ust/smut

G11 Place: a tent Reason: it's pouring with rain Mood: first time, smutty

G12 Place: a store (grocery, book, clothes, you decide) Reason: they got locked in after closing Mood: funny, cracky, fluffy

G13 Place: a ship Reason: becalmed Mood: angsty, delirious, desperate

G14 Place: Miranda's house Reason: someone is sick/wounded Mood: angsty, hurt/comfort, confession (no death please)

G15 Place: mysterious Aztec/Mayan/Inca ruins Reason: they were looking for the Eldorado and got lost/trapped in the ruins. Mood: adventure, friendship, maybe hurt/comfort Extra: there's a jaguar lurking about

G16 Place: the Otherworld (heaven, limbo, hell… you choose) Reason: the last thing they remember is getting hit on the head. Mood: thoughts about the Afterlife. Could be as dark or as cracky as you like. Extra: The Good Place AU?

G17 Place: a library Reason: someone dared them to stay in after closing time  Mood: fun, cracky, adventurous

G18 Place: two houses far away Reason: quarantine Mood: longing, lonely, horny, smutty Extra: they're writing/texting/talking on the phone to keep in touch but It's Not Enough and it's driving them nuts

G19 Place: a steampunk Jules-Verne-ish submarine Reason: there's a giant squid outside Mood: spooky, adventure

G20 Place: a lighthouse Reason: a terrible storm with crashing waves Mood: intense, passionate

G21 Place: a cabin in the middle of nowhere Reason: zombie apocalypse (or other supernatural invasion/pandemic) Mood: horror, tension Extra: Character 1 arrives at the cabin after having fled the monsters, thinking it's empty. It's not, and Character 2 isn't all that happy about the intruder.

G22 Place: Skeleton Island Reason: marooned or left for dead Mood: spooky, angsty, paranoid

G23 Place: a hut on Maroon island Reason: Hurricane Mood: ust, angst, comfort

G24 Place: the Fort in Nassau Reason: they took the fort but now they're besieged Mood: bickering, going stir-crazy

G25 Place: a room in the brothel Reason: they're hiding from someone/something Mood: pining, ust Extra: everyone is having sex around them but they're not (yet) and it's driving them nuts

SPECIFIC PROMPTS (specific ship/character)

S1 Ranger trio is stuck in space prison and have to try to escape ft. Space ship Captain Vane, Anne with blaster shooters (or maybe a lightsaber if it’s a star wars au) and hacker Jack. Mood: Funny.

S2 Thomas and Silver are stuck in James' flat... without James. They're stuck there separated from James until the shelter in place order is lifted (pick your poison - pandemic? Bad storm? Dangerous escaped convict on the loose?). Sexual tension ensues.

S3 Inspired by S4: Madi and Eleanor are confined together in the hidden cellar of Miranda's house when Spanish troops are invading the island (and this time they don't get assaulted/killed). Unresolved sexual tension, unresolved sibling-like rivalry. Bonus: just some angry ✂️✂️✂️ 

S4 Eleanor is imprisoned in England and thinks about Max. Mood: angst, broken heart, angry.

S5 Silver is stranded at Miranda's house, could be with or w/o the captain. Reason: suspect outbreak on the Walrus, Silver can't go back on board, Flint doesn't want his map wandering around Nassau. Mood: funny, smutty, up to the writer.

S6 Israel Hands + character of your choice. Place: a ship, in a locked room Reason: misbehavior? crew shenanigans? Mood: writers choice.

S7 Utley pisses off a superior officer and gets locked in with Flint. Place: the cell in the fort. Mood: ust, smut!

S8 John Silver and the companion of yr choice. Place: an island. Reason: marooned by a pissed off crew. Mood: up to the writer (not too tragic?)

S9 Flint is stuck on shore and runs into someone he knew (and liked) in his old life. Place: a terrible tavern or a room above. Reason: too stormy to return to ship. Mood: friendly to smutty? I just want Flint have a little bit of happiness.

S10 Miranda comes to meet Flint but gets stuck at the brothel as things get dangerous on the streets. Reason: some kind of unrest, riots. Mood: fluff or smut or anything as long as Miranda is not miserable.

S11 Modern au first meeting Silver & Miranda. Place: Elevator. Reason: breakdown. Mood: up to the writer.

S12 Muldoon is sick and no one knows what with. Silver is worried and Flint extends a rare offering of comfort.

S13 It's 1721. James and Thomas are still incarcerated at the plantation but at least they live together in a separate little cabin. With smallpox spreading from Boston to the rest of the colonies, Oglethorpe shuts down work for a few days and has everyone shelter in place.

S14 Silver showed up on Flint and Thomas' doorstep and the reunion isn't going well. Just when Silver is about to leave in a huff, they get stuck indoors (b/c weather, plague, authorities looking for Silver, etc) and Thomas is stuck with Flint and Silver's angry/awkward UST. He knows the only way to resolve this is in bed, and starts dropping less-than-subtle hints. 👉🏻👌🏻 Mood: funny, smutty.

S15 A scientific research station in space (Solaris AU but with a happy ending!). Flint is sent to investigate a space station after receiving some weird reports. Silver is one the few remaining members of the crew. An incident make them unable to leave without some major repairs. Angsty, slow burn, where Flint slowly accepts to move on after the death of Miranda&Thomas. 

If you're not familiar with Solaris (book or movie) check wikipedia but: the space station is doing research on a mysterious planet covered with an ocean; but that ocean gives the crew some strange "side effects". Their secrets/fears/guilt take a material (often human) form. Flint sees Miranda (or Thomas, or both, as you prefer) for example. As Flint learns to deal with the loss of his loved ones he grows closer to one member of the crew, Silver.* Their bond help them break from the planet's melancholic influence, give them motivation to repair the station and finally leave together. *That could be a great opportunity to write about Silver's (probably very dark according to the BS writers) past!

S16 Silver / Flint - modern era, fake dating for some reason, now they're stuck together for a long time. Place: Somewhere travel related like a hotel room. Reason: quarantine like we're in now. Mood: angsty, UST.

S17 Flint's cabin on the Walrus. Silver is recovering from the leg amputation and discovers Flint has locked him in the cabin. Mood: angsty, angry, fluff if you want?

S18 Flint and Silver captured by the Spanish and Flint learns the truth about Silver’s past. Place: The plantation. Reason: Took control but hit some problems. Mood: Hurt/comfort or angst with happy ending.

S19 Silver & Flint reunion fic – they are stuck together in the room because of the snow and there is only 1 bed. Place: an inn. Mood: UST

S20 horror movie au (not really scary) silver & flint spend the night at a scary cabin after reading one too many ghost stories. Reason: someone locked the keys in the car and there's no signal. Mood: cracky.

S21 Silver and Flint in a magical au get stuck together by either a spell gone wrong or a curse and they find this frustrating in every possible way but have to get on the same page to reverse it.

S22 Flint and Silver are neighbours, but haven't spoken before. They both have gardens and can see each other through gaps in the fence. During the lockdown (because of a disease), Silver and Flint become aware of each other in close proximity but separated by the garden fence. So begins an odd flirtation involving sunbathing and topless gardening and water fights. Mood: Sexual tension. Flirting. Maybe voyeurism?

S23 Place: a house with large backyard (probably farmhouse?) Reason: Snowstorm for a week. Snowstorms happened and they had blackout in the house. Silver doesn't like darkness and he keep clinging to Flint. Flint doesn't like Silver's but he had to because Flint doesn't remember their house (floor plan, I mean) and ended up spending their time in other bedroom. Mood: sexual tension, confession, first kiss and first time.

S24 Silver and Flint bicker about emergency prep and then make up. Place: modern apartment. Reason: some disaster.

S25 Silver is talking to Flint, Flint is avoiding De Groot and so Silver finds himself manhandled into a very small compartment he'd never noticed on the Walrus. Mood: silly, ust

[julienschuester]

AIN’T TOO PROUD TO BEG

WHO: @ivystjamess & julien schuester (ft. @davisgools )  WHERE: the lima community theater WHEN: thursday, 12/17 — moments before opening night WHAT: Julien has had enough of this ‘broken up’ business. In a moment of uncharacteristic bravery, he storms into Ivy’s dressing room and demands that she hear him out. His big speech leads to a kiss, but their reunion is cut short by one Davis Goolsby walking in on the action.

JULIEN: It was safe to say that Into The Woods had snuck up on Julien Schuester. Between the musical, sectionals, hockey, the holidays and all of his recent relationship drama, he felt like he was in a never-ending state of unrest. Things were off. Plain and simple. Under “normal circumstances,” meaning if his heart hadn’t been absolutely stomped on by Ivy St. James, maybe he would’ve been able to juggle everything. But that wasn’t the case. So, come opening night, Julien was panicking in his dressing room, pacing back and forth while his understudy watched him curiously. He knew ‘giants in the sky’ like the back of his hand, he knew he had it in him to nail the performance, but if he caught even one weird energy exchange between Ivy and Davis while he was on stage? He wasn’t sure he’d be able to recover. “Fuck this,” Julien muttered to himself, the uncharacteristic curse earning him a wide eyed stare. With a huff, Julien exited his room and beelined it to the one across the hall and pushed the door open without knocking.

“Ivy, I need to talk to y—“ he announced, but the person he was looking for wasn’t alone. While Ivy stood by her vanity, Julien’s eyes narrowed in on the girl he recognized as Amber from Vocal Adrenaline. The one he’d seen at the Carnival talking to her and likely scheming with Davis to get her to transfer. “Amber,” Julien greeted curtly, feeling his face redden, “I need to talk to Ivy alone.” Despite Ivy glancing at him, her new teammate seemed to take no notice. Was he really that invisible? No. Not today. “Hey, I’m talking to you,” he said again, this time loudly, “get out.” A pause. “Please.” He clenched his jaws and glared at her, stepping into the room and holding open the door. That did the trick and she got the hint, hesitantly making her way out. Thank God. Julien closed the door behind him once she was out and turned to face Ivy. Of course, she immediately launched into some rant, but Julien didn’t care. He’d come to her dressing room with a purpose and he knew he was going against all of the advice he’d gotten, but again, he didn’t care. It took all of five seconds for him to cross the room, put his hands on either side of Ivy’s face, and crash his lips into hers in the middle of whatever sentence she was uttering. He knew he’d have to explain himself and say something eventually, but first he needed to kiss her. As he slowly pulled away and opened his eyes, for the first time in weeks, things felt right. “Hi,” he said quietly, scanning her face to try and get a read on where she was at before he launched into his speech.

IVY: If Ivy was asked to do one thing under all the pressures in the world, she would hope it was to perform. Usually she was blessed with a calm disposition before opening nights and worked magic on the stage, but with all the turmoil that had shrouded her personal life as of late, she'd be lying if she said those St.James nerves of steel had softened. It left her stuck in her head, miserable as she sat in front of her dressing room mirror, touching up her make up every few minutes or standing up and doing vocal warm ups. Amber, one of her new friends on Vocal Adrenaline and a member of the chorus for this production, had been like a savior to get her out of her head. The girl had brought her a tea with some honey and a pep talk she had hardly been expecting. Having someone around who was removed from both her old life and her newfound Davis drama did wonder for all the nerves building their way up from the pit of her stomach up to the top of her head. She was feeling ready to tackle the night. When she glanced in the mirror, she was no longer critical of the way her hair was falling incorrectly or how the dirt smudges on her face didn't look real enough. She radiated confidence, and not the deep rooted sadness that lurked beneath the surface. The heartache that could consistently be traced back to her break up in McKinley's hallways a little over a week ago. Feeling more comfortable in her own skin, Amber and Ivy chatted, laughed, and enjoyed each other's company. That was until the door swung open.

Amber didn't seem to pay much mind to Julien, but a million looks crossed her expression as he came in with his demands. Confusion, fear, anger, longing. It was emotional whiplash to say the least, but the more stern he grew in the way he spoke with Amber had Ivy's chest racing up and down as she breathed heavily and the tips of her ears turned red. Her Vocal Adrenaline buddy said an awkward goodbye and Ivy wasted no time to give Julien a peace of her mind. Was he trying to ruin the show by throwing her off? What didn't he get about respect my choices? Couldn't he see she was trying to keep his pain to a minimal? Before she could choose her words carefully, Ivy was pointing a finger at Julien and huffing, "Okay so for starters that was like so rude, we were talking you can't just storm in here and talk to my friends like that, Jules, that's totally not cool!" her tone reached it's typical shrill heights while she ranted at the speed of light, and while she was very visibly bothered, it didn't keep her from speaking her mind. "I told you to like respect what I was saying and you're doing like the total opposite! I am a smart girl who can make her own choices and--" Before she could comprehend all that had happened, Julien had crossed the room, cupped her cheeks, and latched his lips to hers. It made Ivy weak in the knees. The movement of his lips against her own had her wanting to cry, yell, and kiss him more all at the same time. Still stunned in the position she had been when Julien had made his way over to her, Ivy's hands were raised midair when he pulled away as she silently stared at him as if she were a dog waiting for it's bone. For once, no words passed Ivy's lips as she stared at him expectantly. He'd successfully rendered her speechless as Ivy tried to decide how she wanted to present herself to him. Though her prominent sorrow fought it's way to the surface as she mustered up a pathetic, "hi."

Her gaze briefly flicked to his lips as she wished she could rewind a couple of seconds to where things weren't so complicated and they were just a boy and a girl sharing a special moment that didn't need to exist outside of the walls of this dressing room, or within the context of the real world. Ivy reluctantly moved on and took one look into those sad eyes of his. Stupid Idea Ivy a pang radiated throughout her chest, causing her to turn away from him and plant her hands firmly on the counter that sat below the mirror in the dressing room. Sucking in a breath and therefore the sobfest she could feel coming on, with her back turned to him, she forced out an oddly meek, "What do you want?"

JULIEN: What do you want? Julien stood behind Ivy, breathless from their kiss, as he stared at the back of her head and let his arms drop to his sides again. That was a loaded question, but no matter how he broke it down, it always boiled down to one very simple simple answer. “You,” he said quietly, shedding all the toughness he had walked into her dressing room with. “Look at me,” he told her, finding some of that stern energy again as he made eye contact with Ivy in the vanity mirror and placed a hand on her arm, urging her to turn around. He could tell she didn’t want to and he could see very clearly that this wasn’t as easy for her as he previously thought, but that made him even more certain that he’d done the right thing by storming in. Once she was facing him again, their eyes connected and he held her gaze bravely. He wasn’t going to look away, even if it hurt, even if it was hard.

“I know you’re smart,” he started, feeling the tips of his ears and the back of his neck getting hot as his his stomach began to twist into nervous knots, “and I know you’re right about a lot of stuff…” Julien gulped, swallowing his fear as he squared his shoulders and straightened out his posture, “but you’re wrong about this.” He said that with his whole chest. He knew it to be true. “We go together,” he said, taking a step towards her and causing her to bump up against the edge of her vanity,  “and I do know you, legs.” It was so obvious to him. He knew her, just like she knew him. “I know you’re kind of a really bad driver, that you watch Saved By The Bell whenever you’re sad, and that you rub your lips together whenever you’re nervous...or when you’re flirting.” Anyone who spent enough time with Ivy would eventually be able to pick up on those things though. Knowing those things just meant he paid attention, but they didn’t mean he knew her heart. “You talk a big game but you’re actually like…a really tender person,” he said quietly, closing some of the distance between them as his hands gripped the edge of the vanity on either side of her, fencing her in. “You might be tough like Buttercup on the outside, but deep down you’re a Bubbles. You care what people think and you’re sensitive. I know that tonight when you go out there and totally kill it and stuff, it’s going to mean everything to you when your parents tell you what an amazing job you did. You care so much about making the people you love proud.”

What did Davis know about Ivy that Julien didn’t? What did he capitalize on that had Ivy so convinced he knew her better? As Julien stared into the big, sad blue eyes of the girl he loved, he finally dropped his head and averted his eyes. “I know that you’re a force to be reckoned with, Ivy,” he admitted, slumping his shoulders, “you like to win and you probably do fit in better with those Vocal Adrenaline kids. They can probably keep up with you a lot better than any of us ever could.” It sucked to admit, but it was true. Ivy was built differently than a lot of the people in the New Directions or the Trouble Tones. She was so talented it made Julien’s brain hurt sometimes. “You are a powerhouse.” A pause. “But you know what?” he started, feeling his cheeks redden again as he brought a hand up to gently pinch her chin and angle her face upwards so she was looking at him, “that’s not all you are. You’re hilarious and blunt and so sweet and fun.” Julien felt himself starting to smile as he spoke, reflecting on the years and years of experience he had with Ivy. “I’ve loved you since I was like…fourteen or something…” he admitted, shrugging as he dropped his hand from her chin, “and I want to be with you. I don’t care if you’re on Vocal Adrenaline. You mean so much more to me than show choir and musicals and stuff. So…” he let out a deep breath as he neared the end of his rambled speech, “ball’s in your court, legs. I just…I needed to tell you. But if you want me to go away forever and stuff, I’ll respect that.”

IVY: Julien didn't need to give this large grand speech to make Ivy want to be with him. She wanted to be with him many times in her life, but she never wanted to be with him more than she did as she left him stranded by a locker in the hallways of William McKinley High School. There was no denying Julien. Not long term at least. And not for Ivy. They'd both seen how that worked out after a summer of Ivy ignoring him, cutting him out, protecting her heart. And even now it was painfully obvious how difficult placing a wall between them was. As Julien gently turned her around, with a quivering bottom lip, Ivy refused to look at him. She was walking an emotional tightrope, on the other side was getting away from this incident tear free. Below sat Julien, waiting for her to run into her arms and pretend everything was okay again. Her balance was obviously wavering as he struck chord after chord, each one hitting her deeper than the last. Ivy had been foolish to say Davis knew her better than Julien, but Ivy often said stupid things in an emotional haze. That wasn't a new development. While his hands gripped the vanity counter behind her, Ivy could feel his breath on her neck as she looked away from him and at the floor. Each time she thought he was going to let up, free her from this breathlessness, and inner anguish, he continued speaking, reminding her how he loved her so.

There were plenty of reasons for Ivy to be conflicted, again, her sister was sounding in her ear telling her to protect her heart. The issue of Julien essentially being a human doormat wasn't lost on her, though this firm display had her wondering if there was hope. She didn't know. All of this came back to Ivy not knowing. Not knowing if she was doing the right thing, not knowing how to cut Julien out pain free. But then again, was there a painless way to cut off someone who was just as much apart of her as her blue eyes or pinky finger? Probably not. With her hands trembling, Ivy sucked in another ragged breath and forced herself to stare back into those favorite brown eyes of hers. It killed her. The look on his face and the words he was saying were too much for Ivy. All this came back to Ivy not knowing.Not knowing how they wound up here so quickly, not knowing why doing what she deemed the right thing could feel so wrong. Conflict played out across her face as clearly as a movie on a screen. 'ball’s in your court, legs. I just…I needed to tell you.' through this entire exchange though, the one thing Ivy did know was that she loved Julien Schuester. Even though they weren't together, Ivy loved Julien in the breathless, head spinning, want to be near you always, kind of way. A sad adoration clouded over her gaze while fear was painted on her eyebrows. It wasn't apparent to Ivy just how to share her vast range of feelings, so instead she stared at him in the silence for an insufferable five seconds before closing the minimal distance between them and urgently pressing a kiss to his lips. Was this the smart thing to do? Probably not, but her heart told her this was the correct course of action. Ivy was strong, but not strong enough to hurt Julien for the benefit of the feelings of hers she wasn't entirely sold on.

So Ivy did the only thing she could think, kiss him. Kiss him suddenly and desperately and in a way that said I love you. Because while there were a lot things about this situation she didn't know, there were two things she did; that she loved Julien and kissing him was the best feeling in the world. Her hands rested on his chest and just to be sure he got the message, Ivy briefly pulled away to weakly whisper, "I love you." before bringing their lips together again. This wasn't the smartest of Ivy's plans, but it also wasn't one of the stupidest. She'd deal with the real world consequences later when she couldn't feel Julien's heartbeat beneath her hand and they weren't sheltered by the walls of the dressing room. For now it was just them, and for now Ivy didn't think she needed to know. While Julien didn't relent with his verbal message, Ivy didn't relent with her physical one as she held herself close and kissed him like opening night wasn't awaiting.

JULIEN: In this moment, Julien and Ivy were just two kids who loved each other, who were in way over their heads and searching for answers in each other’s eyes. He held his breath as he waited for her to say something—anything. If only this could be easy. Couldn’t it be easy? With each agonizing second of silence that passed, Julien grew more anxious. “Ivy…” he started, determined to fill the quiet with more words or more begging or reasoning, but her name was all he managed to get out before she closed the distance between them. Julien’s lips melted against hers as his hands found a place to rest on her hips. Little by little and piece by piece, things started clicking back into place. His heart was bouncing in his chest under the weight of her hands as she took the lead and deepened the kiss. This was good right? This meant that she still…

I love you. He knew it. “I know,” Julien responded breathlessly, and just like that, their lips were connected once more. Julien had come into this situation wearing his heart on his sleeve and getting the verbal and physical confirmation from Ivy that he wanted only confirmed that it was the right call. In one swift motion, he snaked his arms around her and without breaking their kiss, hoisted her up on to the surface of her vanity so that he was standing in between her legs. The last time he’d kissed her had been before sectionals, so they were no doubt making up for lost time. He let his hands wander until one of them eventually a home in her hair while the other settled on and squeezed her thigh. Kissing Ivy was the only thing that mattered. He was so lost in the moment that he forgot where he was and that there was an audience surely settling into their seats in the auditorium and a cast doing vocal warm-ups and playing theater games in the green room. None of it was important. All he cared about was this.

That was, until he heard the sound of a knob turning and a door swinging open. Julien’s eyes widened as he pulled his lips away from Ivy’s and caught a glimpse of their intruder in the mirror. When his eyes landed on none other than Davis Goolsby, he saw red. “Ever heard of knocking?” Julien shot at him, not moving from his place in front of Ivy but instead just turning his head to look over his shoulder. If he was being honest with himself, as annoyed as he was that Davis had interrupted them, he was also glad he was seeing this. Contracts be damned. Everyone had been quick to tell Julien that Ivy was into Davis and that there was something going on between them, but he knew it in his bones that they were wrong. Ivy loved him, she’d just said it herself. So this moment, as messy as it would surely be later, felt like a victory.

DAVIS: Davis was thanking every single god in existence that opening night was upon him. It was hard enough trying to participate in something so closely tied with the student body of William McKinley High School, but having to practically court one of the members of the cast to ensure a solid performance? He was fucking exhausted. But alas, the show was promising enough. He was sure his father wasn’t going to be in attendance for the night (or any night, really) but he was going to perform like the entire audience was filled with important people, not stupid ‘townspeople’. The perfect way to get into his star mindset? Linking his mind and energy with someone that had started feeling more like his platonic soulmate than anything else - Ivy St. James.

 If he were honest, Davis’ interest in Ivy had come as easily as him realizing who her father was. Once he knew that, he was sold that she in the wrong place. It was fate that that was corrected and she was finally on the side of Ohio that she belonged - with him and with Carmel. She would flourish with him at her side, definitely far more than being tied down at the freakin’ Titans torture school. He won and in turn, he was pretty sure that Ivy would too. It was why he opened the door to the dressing room with such a confidence.

 But something was off.

As soon as he peered inside and saw the unmistakable disaster tragedy of a mop head human being in front of Ivy? Davis questioned just how much he had won. Ivy was still seeing Julien freakin’ Schuester. If Davis had been more focused on maintaining their friendship from the start, he might have realized the signs of her toying around with the Schuester, but he had been blinded by his own selfish deeds - typical. Fair game, Julien Schuester. 

 “Apologies, I didn’t realize I was walking into the filming location of a porno,” Davis said with a light smile as he locked eyes with Ivy. He wasn’t upset with her by any means, but it did make him question a lot. Perhaps she had a little bit more of her mother in her than he had pegged her for. “There’s fifteen minutes until curtain, so I was wanting to talk with Ivy. I see she’s busy. Julien,” Davis greeted before he was staring down the cocky looking boy before him. God, he was a level of pathetic that Davis hoped he would never stoop to. “My apologies.” His words were softer now, knowing that if he was going to spin this in the proper way? Julien would have to stand before him, baffled as ever, and questioning as ever. “I’ll catch you guys later then,” he said with his tone sounding sadder before he was closing the door and turning to be on his way. It was evil, he knew that much. The look he conveyed was one he had seen a thousand times on his step mothers face trying to act as if they’re not hurt by seeing his father screwing another woman. He was acting before the curtains even rose - he was playing the part of a secret lover scorned. God, he was good.

THE END.

[abundanceofsoph]

SkyFire 3: Chapter 4

A week of the Late Late Show: May 2017      

Word count: 4.1k

SkyFire 3 MASTERLIST

Sorry it's been 3 weeks since the last chapter but I'm back at work and with Christmas approaching I can't promise I'll upload frequently although I do have a lot planned out for the rest of this story. I'm going to aim for monthly chapter updates.

The songs written by Aurora and mentioned in this chapter are Perfect Color - SafetySuit, I'll Be There - Jess Glynne, and Feel Good - Gryffin ft. Daya.

Hope you enjoy and always please don't forget to comment and share :)

Aurora and Harry were smiling as they climbed out of their hire car and were instantly greeted by James Corden and ushered into his home. They had driven straight from the airport, not even taking the time to drop off their luggage at the Malibu Mansion where Tony had lived before relocating to New York after building the tower and meeting Steve. James led them inside where his wife Jules immediately pulled them into hugs and the children ran around their feet excitedly. It had been a few months since they had seen them, and Aurora was shocked by how much they had grown in such a short time. Max had recently turned 6, while little Carey was nearing her 3rd birthday and the pair were such perfect combinations of their parents that they melted Aurora’s heart. As soon as Jules released Rori from their hug, Max grabbed her hand, tugging her into the playroom to show her his new toys. She happily sank to the floor, crossing her legs underneath her and smiling enthusiastically as Max handed her one toy after another, chattering away excitedly about where he got them, and which ones were his favourites. Harry joined them a few moments later, Carey resting on his hip as she also babbled away happily. The young couple gave their full attention to the children for the net hour until Jules declared it time for bed. Both children were reluctant to leave the room but after both Aurora and Harry pinky promised that they would be in town all week and would definitely visit again soon, they finally allowed their mother to lead them upstairs to their rooms.

They joined James in the kitchen where he poured a glass of wine for both himself and Harry and some of Jules’ homemade iced tea for their wives. It was a nice late spring evening and they ended up sitting out on the back patio with their drinks as the sun was slowly sinking into the horizon. James asked about the album launch and the show they had played the previous night in London and Harry launched into an animated recount of the show. Jules joined them shortly after they sat down, sighing as she sank into her seat and announced that the kids were successfully asleep.

As the boys started discussing James’ plans for the following few days on the show, Rori turned to Jules, asking about what she had been up to in the last few weeks since she and James had attended the wedding. Aurora had always loved kids and was especially soft when it came to Max and Little Carey, so she happily hung on every word as Jules recounted stories of silly things the kids had said or done. Aurora laughed as Jules spoke about Carey’s new favourite saying, ‘I do it’; apparently, she had entered into her independent phase and was wanting to do everything for herself, much to the exasperation of her parents. It was stories like these, and the afternoons spent playing with the kids that made Aurora dream of the time when she and Harry would be ready to start having children of their own. She was in no hurry, knowing that now, at the beginning of Harry’s new solo career, was the absolute worst time to try for a baby. Despite not wanting children for at least a few more years, she was so incredibly excited for their future family, a sentiment she knew her husband shared with her. They stayed until well after the sun had set before saying goodnight and driving down the coast towards the Stark family mansion on the Malibu cliffs. Rori smiled as they stepped into the large foyer and was greeted by a flood of memories of summers spent there with her parents and late nights sitting down on the beach.

xXx

The following morning Aurora woke early to make breakfast for Harry, knowing that he would be feeling a little nervous about the day ahead. He smiled softly at the blueberry pancakes placed in front of him as he took his seat at the kitchen table.

“Thanks babe,” he said, kissing Rori’s cheek as she sat down next to him with her own plate of pancakes. They ate together, talking about their days ahead, and all the segments James had planned for the week ahead. Once breakfast was finished, Aurora walked Harry to the front door and kissed him goodbye and good luck before he climbed into the hire car to drive into the city to the CBS studios. The moment Harry disappeared at the end of the drive, Aurora headed back into the house, busying herself with cleaning up the breakfast dishes and then watched impatiently as the clock slowly ticked away the minutes, eagerly waiting for JARVIS to announce the arrival of her guest. As soon as James had invited Harry on the show, Rori had decided that she would make the most of the opportunity, given how infrequently they were able to spend time on the west coast. She let out an excited squeal as JARVIS announced the car's arrival and she was out the front door by the time it parked out the front of the cliff top mansion. The moment Louis stepped out of the car, Aurora had her arms around him, only letting go long enough for him to retrieve the gorgeous 16 month old from the back seat.

“Oh my goodness, look at you!” Aurora cooed excitedly as soon as she saw Freddie in his father's arms. “You just keep getting cuter and cuter.” Louis chuckled at her reaction, immediately offering his son for her to hold and she happily took him into her arms, bouncing him on her hip as she led the way back into the house. “You’ve gotten so big!” she told the baby. “Gonna grow up big and strong and handsome just like your dad.” She wasn’t lying when she told Freddie that he had grown given that she hadn’t seen him since a few weeks before his first birthday, when his mother had graciously flown over to the UK with him when Louis' mother had passed away. Aurora had made sure to sneak many cuddles with him during his visit and had immediately become obsessed with the little baby who looked so much like his father.

“I’m so glad the timing worked out for this,” Rori said as she lay on the floor a little while later, playing with Freddie. “Wish we could get out here more often to see him, you know?”

“I actually mentioned that to Bri when I picked him up this morning and she said you should visit when you’re back in town on tour. Don’t always need to have me around to go see him.”

“Are you sure?” Rori asked. “It wouldn’t be weird?”

“Course not love,” Louis scoffed. “You’re his family, I mean Harry’s his bloody godfather. Besides I know Bri liked you the couple of times we all hung out together so I’m sure she’d love to get together for a coffee or something.”

“We’ll in that case I might have to find more excuses to fly out here.”

Louis put Freddie down for a nap on the large sofa, with plenty of pillows surrounding him to make sure he didn’t roll off, and then he and Aurora make coffee in the kitchen and chatted about the upcoming tour and what Louis had been up to. After Freddie woke up and it started getting closer to dinner time, Rori text Harry to see how late he would be home.

◊Aurora: How’s it going babe? Lou and I were just starting to think about dinner, and I wanted to check in on your plans.

◊Harry: Wanna get Lou to drive you in and we can all get something to eat around here?

Aurora looked up from her phone to repeat the question to Louis. He quickly agreed and they headed out to the car, loading Freddie in his car seat before making their way into the city.

They pulled into the CBS lot about an hour later and after texting Harry to let him know that they had arrived, he quickly met them outside. Harry was just as excited to see his godson as Aurora had been and happily climbed in the back of Louis car to sit next to the little bub as he babbled away.

The three friends chatted excitedly throughout dinner, always happy to be back together again even if only for a short time. Freddie spent most of the meal in either Rori’s lap or Harry’s since neither wanted to miss out on a single moment with the adorable little boy.

“How long you in town for Lou?” Harry asked towards the end of the meal.

“Just till tomorrow evening,” Louis replied. “Rori and I are gonna take Fred to Griffith Park and take him on the miniature train and then I’m flying out after dinner to head back to Donny.”

“We’ll have to try and catch up over summer before the tour kicks off,” Harry replied. “Feel like we’re not gonna see you otherwise.”

“Absolutely,” Louis agreed. “When you flying back?”

“I’m heading to Manchester after the Troubadour show Saturday night and Rors is spending next week in New York before meeting me up there. Back in London in few weeks for a gig on the 10th.”

“Everything ok with Robin?” Louis asked, noticing the way Harry didn’t seem excited to be heading home for a few weeks like he usually would be.

“Mum said he’s not doing well,” Harry admitted, his voice soft and edged with the threat of tears. “Wanna try and spend as much time as I can with him.”

“You let me know if you need anything, yeah?” Louis said. “You guys were incredible for me last year, so anything you need and I’m there.”

“Thanks Lou,” Rori said.

“Anyway,” Louis said, obviously trying to change the topic in the face of Harry’s dark mood change. “What’s got you heading to New York? Just seeing the family?”

“I’m actually gonna be in Vogue,” Rori replied. “They interviewed me last week and the photoshoot is next week.”

“That’s awesome!” Louis replied. “What’s the story about?”

“Marriage in the public eye. Touring with a disability,” Rori answered. “Just kind of a bit of a bio piece on my life, I guess. I’m honestly not entirely sure. We talked about all sorts of things, so it’ll be exciting to see what they put together for it.”

Unfortunately, Harry’s mood didn’t recover as they finished the meal, and they didn’t stay much later, all heading to their cars and saying goodnight. Harry remained quiet as he drove along the Malibu coast and Aurora decided to leave him to his thoughts, her fingers laced with his as their hands rested on her thigh and she squeezed his hand occasionally as a silent reminder that she was there if he needed her.

“Been a long day,” he mumbled when they arrived back at the house. “Think I might just head straight to bed.”

“Ok,” Rori agreed. “I’ll be up soon.”

xXx

Harry seemed back to his energetic self the following morning as they shared breakfast once again before he left for the studio and Aurora got ready for her day out with the Tomlinson boys. Louis picked her up midway through the morning and the pair laughed and sang along to the radio as they drove to Griffith Park. Rori smoothed out her yellow sundress as she climbed out of the car after Louis parked, slipping a pair of sunglasses on and throwing her handbag over her shoulder. She scooped Freddie out of his car seat while Louis unfolded the stroller, cuddling the toddler close and tickling him while he giggled adorably. They headed into the park and the moment Freddie spotted the trains he began wriggling in Aurora’s arms, desperate to be put down so that he could run over to them. Louis laughed as he pulled his son into his arms after watching Rori struggle to maintain her one handed hold on him for a few moments.

“Easy mate,” he told the little boy. “We’ll get there in a minute.”

Rori took over pushing the stroller, watching fondly as the father and son interacted. She didn’t often get to see Louis as a dad, but the past few days had shown her just how perfectly he fit into the roll. She wasn’t at all surprised, given how protective and caring he was towards his sisters, but it was nice to be able to witness his parental side.

They rode the trains for a while, before settling down at a picnic bench for lunch and Freddie quickly fell asleep for a nap in the stroller, exhausted from all the excitement.

“He really loves trains,” Rori chuckled.

“Obsessed with the bloody things,” Lou replied. “Started bringing him here every time I’m in town and he just goes mental for ‘em.”

“Do you wish you spent more time out here with him?” she asked softly.

“Yeah,” Louis sighed. “But if I moved out here permanently, I’d miss my family and I’m all over the place for different gigs. I see him as much as I can now and when he’s a bit older maybe he can come stay with me for summer’s or something.”

“You’re amazing with him.”

“He makes it easy,” Louis scoffed. “You’re pretty great with him too. You and Harry feeling ready yet.”

“No,” Rori replied quickly. “We talk about it every now and then, but with the solo career just starting it’s not a good time. Maybe in a few years everything will be a  bit more settled.”

“Glad you’re both on the same page,” Louis nodded. “You’ll both be great parents.”

xXx

Following their day in Griffith Park, Louis drove Aurora home, arriving shortly before Harry returned and the couple sat down to dinner together out on the back patio looking out over the ocean.

The next morning after breakfast, Aurora joined Harry on his drive into the city, spending the day in the studio with him before they went back over to James and Jules’ house for dinner again. The kids were excited to see them again and they spent some time running around the back garden with them before sitting down to dinner.

“I’ve got to say Rori,” James said as Jules cleaned away the dishes from dinner, “it was great having you hang out at the studio today.”

“I had a lot of fun,” Rori agreed.

“Should have spent the last two days with us too,” James joked.

“Sorry but little Freddie made me a better offer.”

“I guess I can’t really argue with that,” James laughed.

“I’m looking forward to tomorrow though,” Aurora added. “I absolutely love Carpool Karaoke. Pretty sure it’s my favourite segment.”

“You know Harry actually mentioned that yesterday and I’ve been meaning to talk to you about it all day. We got a lot more filmed today then we thought we would so we’ve got a bit of extra time up our sleeves tomorrow and I was wondering if, after we film Harry’s Carpool, maybe you’d want to do one too and I can save it for an episode in a few weeks’ time. I always like to have a spare segment tucked away in case of emergency.”

“Really?” Rori asked, her face lighting up excitedly and causing Harry to chuckle. “Yeah, I’d love that.”

xXx

The following morning, after Harry climbed out of the black SUV, a large grin splitting across his face, Aurora bounced excitedly on the balls of her feet as James changed his shirt and prepared to film the second carpool segment. She was wearing a simple purple dress, her long dark hair curled softly and fanning out over her shoulders.

Aurora found herself a little nervous as she climbed into the car, smiling and chuckling as James thanked her for helping him get to work and asking if she minded if he played some music while they drove. She smiled excitedly as he queued up the first track for them, having no idea what 5 songs he had picked out and she was eager to see what he had pulled together, confident that Harry had also played a hand in picking the line-up.

The first song to play through the cars speakers was one that she had written many years ago and she let out a startled chuckle as the opening notes played out.

“I’m going to want the story behind this when it’s over,” James commented right before the lyrics began.

Yellow nice to meet you Do you know that you just blue my mind? It was the perfect conversation, I think that I red about one time And I told a white lie when I told you

I've never been green with envy, you You're the perfect colour

“Ok, so tell me,” James said as soon as the track came to an end. “I’ve been told the story behind this song is a good one, so spill.”

“Well years ago, when I used to join the lads on tour,” Rori began, smiling at the memories of touring with One Direction and how much fun they all had together during her summer breaks from Columbia. “On the days off in between shows, we’d often go grab dinner at a local pub and have a few drinks and we’d play this game where one person would come up with a challenge and on the back of a napkin we’d each write a verse or a chorus using the theme picked out and then we’d pick a winner. It could be anything like having to use a certain word or phrase, or not being able to use the letter A. One night the challenge was to use a different colour in every line, and I won the round with that chorus. Then while we continued on the tour, I couldn’t get it out of my head and eventually turned it into a complete song.”

“Did any other songs make it out of that game and out into the world?” James asked.

“Maybe a few,” Rori replied with a cheeky smirk, “But I’m not telling you which ones.”

“Spoil sport,” James huffed before moving on to the next song.

As Jess Glynne’s voice filled the car, Rori swallowed thickly around the lump in her throat and joined James in singing along. I’ll Be There had been released only a little over a month ago and had been a staple on every radio station since. When she’d first heard the final recording of the track, Aurora hadn’t been able to hold back her tears as she listened to her own words sung back to her so beautifully, but now after countless listens, she was able to listen without the overwhelming emotions and simply enjoy the track.

When all the tears are rolling down your face And it feels like yours was the only heart to break When you come back home and all the lights are out, ooh And you're getting used to no one else being around

Oh, oh, I'll be there When you need a little love, I got a little love to share Yeah, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna come through You'll never be alone, I'll be there for you I'll be there, I'll be there for you I'll be there, I'll be there for you Oh, I swear, I got enough love for two, ooh, ooh, ooh You'll never be alone, I'll be there for you

They sang the first verse and chorus before allowing the song to fade out and James looked across to where Rori was sitting next to him.

“You know this is one of my favourite songs at the moment,” he said, “and I think I was signing along to it for about a week before I found out it was one of yours.”

“Really?” Rori laughed.

“Really,” James echoed. “It’s too bloody hard to keep track to be honest. At this point I should just assume every hit is one of yours unless told otherwise.” Rori blushed deeply and giggled awkwardly in response to his glowing compliments. “I’m always so interested in the stories behind songs and I know your fans are always eager to hear, so what inspired this one?”

“Ummm…” Rori mumbled. “I actually wrote this one back around New Years for Louis,” she admitted, instantly knowing that Twitter would explode at this revelation. “For as long as I’ve known him, music has always been this beautiful way for us to have the conversations that are sometimes too hard to have and like the chorus says I just wanted him to know that through all of it, I’d be there.”

“And it really is a beautiful message,” James agreed, recognizing that Rori didn’t want to sit in these emotions any longer and he quickly segued into the next track and away from the painful memories of losing Jay. “You have such a way of putting so much emotion into your lyrics and I honestly think this next one is one of my favourites and I selfishly picked it because I’ve always wanted to hear you sing the final chorus.”

Rori’s smile returned as the acoustic version of Feel Good by Gryffin and Daya started up and she happily sang along, breathing deeply and reaching for the very high notes towards the end of the track. Causing James to fall silent as he watched her belt out the notes until the track finally ended.

Take my hand in the middle of a crisis Pull me close, show me, baby, where the light is I was scared of a heart I couldn't silence But you make me, you make me feel good I like it

“So, like I was saying, there’s always such emotion in the songs you write,” James reiterated. “Do you find it difficult to trust other artists with songs about things that are so personal?”

“Sometimes,” Rori answered. “Every song comes from something in my life whether it’s something amazing or terrible and you leave a little part of you in your work, so it can be scary to give that away to someone else and trust them to take care of it, but I also love seeing what other people do with my lyrics. Sometimes they take it in a completely different direction and apply their own story and feelings to the song which changes it slightly and I always find that fascinating. Sometimes the song’s just too personal and I have to hold onto it for myself or Harry.”

James nodded as she spoke before queuing up the next song and happily joining Aurora in belting out the familiar lyrics to Fleetwood Mac’s Seven Wonders.

If I live to see the seven wonders I'll make a path to the rainbow's end I'll never live to match the beauty again The rainbow's edge

After a quick chat about how she was looking forward to the upcoming tour with Harry, they played the final song and Rori couldn’t keep the cheek splitting grin of her face as she sang along to Infinity. Harry’s voice filled the car and she joined him in the chorus as they both belted out the high notes.

How many nights does it take to count the stars? That's the time it would take to fix my heart Oh, baby, I was there for you All I ever wanted was the truth, yeah, yeah How many nights have you wished someone would stay? Lay awake only hoping they're okay I never counted all of mine If I tried, I know it would feel like infinity Infinity, infinity, yeah Infinity

By the time they pulled back into the studio lot, both Rori and James were a mess of laughter and giddy grins, climbing out of the car to be instantly greeted by Harry.

“How did go?” he asked as he wrapped his arm around his wife’s waist and walked them back inside.

“She was better than yours,” James joked.

“Don’t doubt it,” Harry agreed before placing a kiss on Rori’s temple. “Bloody talented this one. Can’t believe she’s settling for being in my backing band. Could be on a world tour of her own if she wanted to.”

“But she doesn’t want to,” Aurora added. “She would like lunch though.”

“Then lunch she shall have,” Harry laughed.

xXx

That night the final episode of Harry’s week on the Late Late show aired and the following evening he and the band played a gig at the Troubadour. Saturday afternoon the young couple said their goodbyes inside LAX before boarding their separate flights, one bound for Manchester while the other headed for New York.

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[salvajismoo]

DEX VARNHAM; a playlist with songs that remind him.

Hear Me by Imagine Dragons / Marble Skies by Django Django / 42 by Coldplay / Losing My Religion by R.E.M. / Down by The River by Milky Chance / Wrong by Depeche Mode / Running Up That Hill by Placebo / Eyes Without a Face by Billy Idol / In the Shadows by The Rasmus / All These Things That I've Done by The Killers / Mad World by Gary Jules (ft. Michael Andrews) / Dream by Imagine Dragons / Unsteady by X Ambassadors / Everybody Hurts by R.E.M. / High Speed by Coldplay / Demons by Imagine Dragons / A Bad Dream by Keane / Lost! by Coldplay / Monsters by Ruelle / Ghosts by James Vincent McMorrow / Hurricane by MS MR (Adventure Club Remix) / Ghostcity by Thomas Azier.                                                 /     @whmemories    /

[streetsolo]

Soundtrack of My Life

Rules: Open your music library. Put it on shuffle, press play. For every question, type the song playing. 

Tagged by: @dacianamusik23 (I didn’t get any Wednesday either!!) 

Opening Credits: Don’t Believe the Demons - Roxy Jules

Waking Up: Eyes on Fire – Blue Foundation 

Daydreaming About Someone Scene: Let The Flames Begin – Paramore

Average Day: Safe and Sound – Taylor Swift ft. Civil Wars 

Spending Time With Friends Scene: Let the Mystery Be – Iris DeMent

Driving Scene: Lip Gloss and Black – Atreyu

Bad Day: Believe – The Bravery 

Fight Scene: Devour - Shinedown 

Mental Breakdown: Spaceship – Kesha

Life Is Okay: What’s Up? – 4 Non Blondes 

Graduation Scene: Snuff – Slipknot 

Party Scene: Retrograde – James Blake

Longing For Love: What If We Could – Blue October 

First Glance/New Crush: Re-Education Through Labor – Rise Against

Secret Love: Bloodstream – Ed Sheeran

Mellow Love Scene: Busy Earnin – Jungle

First Date: Bat Country – Avenged Sevenfold 

Falling In Love: Mr. Jones – Counting Crows 

Love Scene: All I Need – Within Temptation 

Breaking Up Scene: Nothing Else Matters – Metallica

Sad Scene: Alive – Avalon 

Long Night Alone: I Miss Those Days – Mixi 

Moving On Scene: Never Let Me Go – Florence + The Machine

Wishing For Love To Return: Young God – Halsey

Fighting To Get Him/Her Back: Baby Love Child – Pizzicato Five 

Get Back Together: My Silver Lining – First Aid Kit 

Regret Scene: The Stone – Ashes Divide 

Heartbreak Scene: Into Dust – Mazzy Star

Nostalgia Scene: I’m in Here – Sia 

Lesson Learning Scene: Ballad of a Politician – Regina Spekter 

Proposal: Fine Again – Seether 

Wedding: Living is a Problem Because Everything Dies – Biffy Clyro 

Reflecting On Life: I Know Places – Taylor Swift 

Reflecting On Love: Kiss the Sky – Shawn Lee’s Ping Pong Orchestra ft. Nino Mochella 

Death Scene: You Call Me a Bitch Like It’s a Bad Thing – Halestorm 

Closing Credits: Oats in the Water - Ben Howard

Tagging: @steelandquill @slytherinwinchester37 @reyanakin @justanothercinemaniac @fangirlmeetsfilmnerd @vadasspotlessmind @qualitymoonsuit @patricwithnok and anyone else who wants to do this.