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byulsgrease · 3 years

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if you arent too busy, can you write a idol!hwasa x idol!reader, wherein they both have to practice with each other for a special stage. However on the first meeting they become starstruck and cant believe somethings are real, but soon warm up to each other?

i'm not terribly busy but this still took a while anyway oops - sorry this took so long anon! here you go :D

if anyone has requests for the other members hmu cuz I've got 2 more hyejin reqs after this one (not that I'm complaining)

"who says we can't do something on our own?"

(hwasa x idol!reader, ~1.2k words)

cw: food + alcohol mention (y'all know how it is)

I named someone Minjeong - it's not Aespa's Winter, idk anything about 4th gen gg's - 민정 is my Korean name so it's just what came to mind

"Hey, wake up. You've gotta see this. GET UP," a voice piercing through the fog of your sleep.

What a rude awakening. Your shoulders being shaken vigorously by a pair of small hands meant they belonged to none other than Minjeong, your youngest group member. You rolled over to glare menacingly at her with one eye open, trying to pull your brain out of the slumber. All you could see was the bright light of her phone shining in your eyes - a video of some kind. But then you heard the audio:

"Have you seen the clip?" asked the interviewer.

"Yes, my members and many MooMoos made sure I saw it"— Moos? Oh, it's Hwasa. WAIT. Both your eyes flew open as you sat up and snatched Jeongie's phone out of her hand to stare at the video. Your mind immediately flashed back to the interview you did last week - they asked who you most wanted to collaborate with, if there were no limitations. Your ears started to heat up at the sheer thought of the flustered mess of an answer you gave - of course you said Hwasa. Both of you debuted relatively close to each other, within a year, but never interacted much over the years. Mamamoo as a group was a force to be reckoned with, but there was just something about Hwasa specifically. You mostly just admired her unique singing voice and undeniable stage presence, and her relentless drive to always be herself in an industry constantly trying to fit women into a box.

Finally snapping out of re-living that embarrassment, your attention turned back to the phone in your hand. The interviewer must've asked her to send a message in response to you, because you couldn't believe that she was waving and saying, "How haven't we gotten to know each other better over all these years? I'd love to work with you on something sometime," curtly dipping her head in a slight bow.

"SEE? You needed to see that," Minjeong rushed to say, full of energy. "And close your mouth, your jaw's on the floor," jokingly pointing.

You side-eyed her and shut your mouth. "Is this what Loco felt like when she called him during Hyena on the Keyboard?" you wondered aloud.

"At least she's not calling you while on camera," she commented, knowing full well that you'd probably embarrass yourself again if she did. "But hey, at least she noticed you! Can I have my phone back now?" It would be a dream come true to collaborate with her, but cross-company collabs... always a pain. that couldn't be helped. The fantasy abruptly ended with demands from your rumbling stomach. Done with your what-if's, you placed the phone back in your maknae's outstretched hand to get up and make breakfast.

~~~~

With award show season rolling around, the crazy scramble of rehearsing for special live stages without leaking sets and collabs began. Checking your email that morning showed a schedule to record the backing track for a special live stage, but that was it. With who? You texted your members a screenshot, but they all told you that block of time in their schedule was empty. A solo stage? The solo mini-album you released this cycle did relatively well, the title track got a music show win, but not a multi-week chart-topper by any means. Possibilities turning over in your mind, you stepped out from your place to head to the company, totally in the dark about what was in store.

The recording studio always smelled the same along with the couches, a comfort for all the insanely long nights and crack-of-dawn early mornings over the years. With a bit of time to kill, you plopped down on one and gingerly patted the worn cushions as some kind of symbolic thank-you for supporting you (literally).

A hesitant but loud knock sent your gaze directly to the door. Watching it slowly open, you leaned forward to see who it was. Needless to say, your jaw fell to the floor again as you clapped a hand over your gaping mouth, eyes widening. Like a soldier obeying a command, you immediately stood up as straight as possible and bowed profusely at Hwasa, sporting a very similar expression on her face (which you failed to notice, your mind running a million miles a minute).

After a series of frantic bows and miscellaneous utterances to each other, she spoke. "It's nice to finally meet you," she said with calm, surveying your frenzied state. "I guess we're granting that collab wish from your interview, huh?"

The red-hot embarrassment leapt to your face. "I...I definitely made a fool of myself answering that question. And our maknae showed me your interview clip too, which was cool, but never did I think it would actually happen," you stammered. I should probably stop talking.

"Well, here I am," she half-smiled coolly. "Let's get started, I'm really looking forward to finally work with you on this," a gleam in her eye and a hint of excitement in her voice.

The studio suddenly felt a lot smaller with her in it, despite there only being your managers, the producer, and the both of you - less people than you and your members alone. Both of you remained relatively quiet the whole time, rather unsure of what to say or talk about. You watched enough MMMTV to know that all the members on their own were shyer than together, and Hwasa knew the same was true for you. But the work basically took care of itself, seamlessly taking turns in the recording booth, witnessing each other's work style and process. The both of you knew your way in front of a mic, seasoned professionals by now. Upon wrapping up, you bowed politely to each other after a quick exchange of KaTalk info, a short and sweet goodbye.

That was... anticlimactic. I mean, it's finally happening - I can't believe it. But maybe I was too idealistic about maybe creating a meaningful relationship with her outside of work... What does she think of me?

~~~~

In the days leading up to the collab stage, you kept going back and forth on whether to reach out or not, despite now being in possession of her contact info. What would you even say? Thoughts of a witty one-liner or relatable meme came to mind, but maybe she'd assume the worst - that you were clout-chasing, or something. Anxieties abuzz, your phone vibrated in your pocket. The KaTalk notification sprawled across your screen. Speak of the devil, it's her.

"Hey, awards season has me stressed. I know you must pretty busy right now too, but I somehow get off early tomorrow if you wanna grab dinner after work?" You had to reread that one. Oh, what? She's inviting me?

Trying not to be weird about responding too quickly, you typed out, "Wow, yeah, that sounds great! ^^ wait, your company doesn't care about you going out to eat during award season?"

"nah, they stopped having that kind of control over us a while ago, we are the money-maker of the company, after all 😏"

"so I guess this means they don't check your phone either ㅋㅋㅋ"

"nope :)"

You proceeded to set a time and place to meet, someplace with meat.

In the process of feasting on an inordinate amount of gopchang imbued with a splash of beer, you learned a fair amount about each other. You talked career, professional aspirations, the weird habits of your members, and more. What surprised you most was the amount of things she already knew about you, having admitted to watching some of your behind-the-scenes content after seeing your interview clip.

"Ah... I'm sorry if I came across as distant during that first recording session," she confessed, pausing to sip her beer. "I honestly didn't know what to do with myself, I felt a little star-struck."

"Oh what?? I felt the exact same, so no worries - and sorry if I came off similarly distant," you rambled back. A bit of silence fell between you, acknowledging the mutual sentiment. You spoke up after a bit, "Thanks for inviting me out tonight, I didn't realize how much I needed this."

"Thank you for making the time, I had fun getting to know you better," she articulated with a smile. "Maybe it'll make the collab stage better," she added on jokingly. You responded with a nod and expression of mutual affirmation.

~~~~

After that, messaging each other became a regular occurrence, that gopchang outing having broken the ice. Honestly, you tried your best to talk about anything besides work, but the baseline of shared understanding connected you in a way that came more naturally than it did with your non idol friends.

You stood across the way from her at the sound check for the final stage, dressed in joggers and slides. Funny to think that you'd be recording this for real in a couple hours, making eyes with the blinking red light on the cameras surrounding you. It sucks that fans wouldn't get to experience the energy and atmosphere of the performance - Hyejin alone is one thing, but adding someone else into her stage presence? Unmatched. There's nothing quite like a live performance - and while you knew everyone in the industry dealt with the consequences of the pandemic, it certainly took a toll to perform and not feel the energy from fans. But realistically, nothing you could do about it. The sound check went over smooth like butter. The stage chemistry came flowing naturally between you both, even when bare-faced and dressed in just sweats.

And when the time came for the actual filming, you both absolutely killed it, an upbeat mash-up of TWIT and your title track. At the very end came a sliver of hesitation before throwing your arms around each other with a big smile for the ending fairy, proud of the work you accomplished together, and a mental fist-pump to yourself for making friends with one of the industry's finest.

Once again walking to a restaurant that served mostly meat to celebrate, you playfully proposed, "We... should do that again sometime." A little puff of air came out her nose in amusement.

"Yeah, we should. Too bad we're gonna have to wait a whole cycle before we can release anything else together again," she sighed longingly.

"Who says we can't do something on our own?"

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pixie-cocaine · 4 years

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ATEEZ Reaction To: Having a wet dream about you

yourusernames: Omg can I request ATEEZ reaction to having a wet dream about their friend? (Who would start developing a crush, who would want to have a one night stand and who wouldn't care at all?) Thanks!!

A/N: These reactions are based solely off of what I think they’d do, I am in no way, shape or form, telling you that this IS how the members would handle this scenario. Like shit, I dunno the guys :/. This is a gender neutral reader reaction btw :)

(This is very explicit, you have been warned!!!)

Hongjoong ♡:

• It felt like the actual thing

• Your lips; sweet like pink lemonade and eyes staring into his with a soft sparkle that originated from his bedside lamp

• but what felt more real than anything was you

• Your scent, your taste

• Your touch...

• It was all overwhelming in the sense that he found himself breaking out of his dreaming state, breath heavy as if he’d been sprinting for hours, and a lusty sheen screening his mind from acting with any sense of rationality

• He was horny horny, dawg 💀

• I feel for that man, it’s tough...

• He could already tell that he had an...accident, before he pushed the duvet off his body due to registering the last couple twitches of his restricted cock in his shorts

• No wonder he could ‘feel’ everything so well

• He wasn’t able to sleep the rest of the night.

• Couldn’t help but begin to feel a crush blossom for you

• As y’all already know, the man gets attached to the ones he spends the most time with

• You’re no exception

• Would end up telling you about his feelings. It was eating him up inside to keep it to himself

Seonghwa ♡:

• He has no right looking this good, dawg. It literally makes me so mad lmao

• Lemme lick your face, I bet it tastes like expensive concealer and everything I’ll never have >:}

• Anywhore

• He felt feverish, even inside his dream

• It was odd; he could feel you, but he couldn’t feel you. He remembers the surreal sensation of warmth under his palms as he grabbed onto your bare ass whilst you bounced you on top of him, panting hard and clutching at his damp hair to pull his head back

• He groaned, and just as he went to switch positions, he was snapped out of his dream

• Was like “Fuckin pardon?” when he realised where he was; his empty bed, alone in his own room, no sign of you

• Frowned, pushing the covers off of him because dawg, he was heating up OwO

• Then realised the large wet spot at the front of his sweatpants

• “What the...”

• Was never the same™

• Everytime he saw you, he couldn’t help but feel that same heat in his hands, and he felt guilty about it.

• Didn’t know how to approach you about it at all. What was he supposed to say?

• “I nutted in my pants because I dreamt about doing the dirty with you”

• Just wouldn’t bring it up

• Good chance he’d catch feelings. Seonghwa builds bonds with the people he knows, it’s very easy to tell that when he cares, and he would care dearly for you. Once the chance that anything intimate between you two arises, I’m sure he’d begin to think of you romantically once you’re shown in said light.

Yunho ♡:

• Now wouldn’t a flustered Yunho be a sight? Damn...

• He loved looking down at you

• The way you smiled at him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders and pulling his bare chest into yours as you whispered how good he felt inside you, cooing out words of praise and encouragment

• It was hazy, but he can still vaguely remember how you kissed him so sweetly. How your fingers smoothed his bangs away from his eyes, and how you moaned into his ear softly with each thrust

• It was only when you cupped his cheeks and spoke, did you break him out of his dream;

• “Wake up.”

• His eyes shot open

• Only a blue ceiling stared back

• “Mmm...?” Yunho sits up and rubs his eyes roughly, already aware of the blush that paints his cheeks and nose because he can feel the heat in his face

• Said ‘What the fawk 😃’ when his brain caught up with what he just experienced, as well as the stickiness that clung to his inner thighs when he moved to go get some water

• This bitch was contemplating his whole life after that

• Is ‘UwU’ with you from then on cuz a babie caught butterfwies ;(

• Rlly bad at hiding his feelings lol, you’d catch on eventually

Yeosang ♡:

• It was messy, to say the least

• Kitchen island sex? Yup :D

• The dream wasn’t at all put into play with any sense. You guys were just... in the kitchen, when you confessed your feelings and made a move on him

• A deep kiss mixed with the pounding of nervous hearts all put Yeosang in a fever outside of his dream

• ��Say you like it,” You panted, using the hand on the back of his head to push his forehead against yours while the other kept you from laying onto the island

• “I like it.. Fuck, I like it”

• “Yeah?” His hips stutter when you clench your walls around him, and in turn, he lets out a choked-off gasp

• “Y一Oh my god一Yeah...”

• Damn... he was FEELING it lmao

• Funny thing is that he slept throughout the entire dream and woke up only when his foot did a little mid-sleep spasm

• Stared at the wall while frowning for soooooo fucking long

• Whole time he said ‘ya know wot, that’s real interesting 🤔’

• Then was like “Prolly just horny 😃. oh well, time to change my underwear”

• And that’s what he chalked it up to in the end. Would maybe make a joke about it to you next time y’all hung out if he’s feeling loose enough and doesn’t mull over it for too long

San ♡:

• HEATHEN

• Hold on, lemme get a half-assed feel for the man... yes... mm-hm... ah, I see... OK!

• So, from what I can tell, San would distance himself from you slightly. Maybe.

• That night, as he lie in his bed, breath coming faster with each motion that went on in his head, he saw you in a way that he never thought would happen.

• Skin, slick with sweat and eyes like burning coals as they focused on him. There wasn’t much to remember before it was already fading, but he could still make out how much his stomach lept and spun, heart oh-so thunderous in his chest. Whatever you did with him in the dream... it sparked something inside him.

• San was in a daze as he woke up, his body not quite cooperating with him when he tried to sit up, and instead, falling limp with the next couple of attempts.

• WHEN I TELL YOU THE SOUL WAS SUCKED FROM THIS MAN AISDIUBFADEBI-

• Really just stared into space with the look of a dead man

• What did he do when he finally saw you again?

• ✨ pretend he didn’t see shit ✨

• Not the masked uncomfort-

• Depending on whether you’re one for confrontation, he might just cave if you press him about his weird behavior enough, but be fast, because I’m sure he could push his feelings down succesfully if he tried hard enough.

Mingi ♡:

• Dude... the fucking happiness of the dream...

• Silly giggles when you’d accidentally bonk eachother while switching posititons, bright smiles when you stared at eachother after a long time, random compliments, and nothing too serious that you couldn’t find playfulness in. Even when you’d both stop smiling to let out small moans and feel the moment together, it was always lighthearted.

• FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK IM SO ANGRY-

• It was some shit you’d see at the sundance ;(

• Then he woke up-

• You were the first and only thing he thought about as he gained conciousness. He wanted you... you, you, you, just you.

• He’d never wanted anything so bad. A sudden longing that made a lump form in his throat and an overwhelming feeling of how much he’s always wanted you.

• So, like Mingi does, he strived for that goal >:D

• He made an effort to see you as many times as he could and whenever you were free to hang out. And finally, one night when you both lie in his bed and gazed thoughtlessly at the ceiling, he told you.

• “I had a dream about you, you know.”

Not me basically making a summary of a could-be fic-

Wooyoung ♡:

• Now believe it or not, this bitch is hard for me to get a grasp on. All I can say with confidence is that he has the sex appeal of a milf stripper and is kinda stubborn-

• Hmm.... bothered.

• That is the feeling it would pull from him.

• Hungry; frequent patterns of warm breath against sweat-slicked skin, mumbled curses past wet lips, nails dug into his stomach deep enough to draw blood yet barely acknowledged through animalistic films over both your eyes, and teeth furrowed into the flesh of his shoulder as you scratched at the blank canvas of his back.

• It was all raw sexual aggression from both sides. So much so, that you both practically fought during it.

“I hate you. I hate you like you don’t even know, Wooyoung,” You speak, breathless, and reach up to weave both fists into his hair, “I love you so much that I fucking... hate you.”

• Then...

• Gone.

• Just like that, the dream was replaced with the sight of familiar bedroom walls as Wooyoung opened his eyes, a sigh escaping past his lips when he finally pieced things together.

• “As if I wasn’t already stressed enough...,” He murmurs, staring down at the new stain on his sweatpants.

• From that point on, it’s a new habit for Wooyoung to catch sight of you and keep his gaze there; just staring when you’re not looking, and feeling terrible afterwards. He feels like he violated you somehow, and with that ball of dread in his stomach whenever he sees you, he becomes distant.

• It’s not catching feelings so much as it is a new desire.

Jongho ♡:

• Jongho, Jongho, Jongho... whatever will we do with you?

• Upfront about it, surprisingly.

• He caught feelings. How could he not when you’re one of the most breath-taking people he’s ever had the pleasure of knowing?

• That face of yours, along with your voice so soft and encouraging in his ears, was enough for him to cave.

• “Just like that, baby... Just like that.”

• He doesn’t even remember the details of the dream. Just your words and kisses, which still make the touched skin of his body heat with excitement whilst he blinks down at his hands.

• He clenches them; one, twice, then lets them fall back to his sides. He doesn’t need to look into his pants to know that he’s soiled himself.

• He feels kinda... empty? After the dream. Lmao just as exhausted as San was, really, but both at the fluttering his heart when he thinks of you, and the dream itself, so cleans himself up real quick before going back to sleep.

• The fluttering doesn’t go away the next morning.

• So... he tells you :D

• As soon as you walk through the door, holding a bag of snacks and drinks for preparation to crash at Jongho’s apartment for a little bit, he sits you down on the couch, much to your confusion at the serious face he has.

• “I know that this kind of thing can ruin friendships and I don’t want that. At all. But, I had a... dream, about you last night and now I can’t really stop thinking about you...”

• Not the pounding of his heart making him dizzy :*

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shyneanon · 3 years

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There is only one bed with red

I bet you thought I was never gonna respond to this one, huh, anon? Nope! I just had to rewrite it like five million times before I felt like it was actually not terrible. lol

Hope you enjoy this even though it’s been foreeeeeever.

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“Well. Lookit that.”

You stared at the single available bed in the single available room, pretty immaculately kept.

“There’s only one bed,” said Red, leaning against the wall. “How unfortunate.”

You stared at it for a while, then looked back at him. He was flashing his gold tooth at you in a smug grin.

Nope.

“It’s fine,” you said. “I can sleep on the floor.”

His smile vanished.

“Hey,” he said, “hold on, sweetheart. I c’n sleep on the floor.”

Actually kind of nice of him to offer, but as much as he annoyed you… no. “It’s cool, I can do it.”

“Nah, it’s gonna make me feel like trash if I letcha sleep on the floor.”

“Well, ditto.”

He grinned. “Ooh, I gotta solution. How ‘bout we both sleep on the floor?”

You held in a laugh, trying your best to give him a deadpan look. Don’t laugh, don’t laugh….

He waggled his brows at you.

And you let out a snort.

You started to set your things down and move onto the floor but Red shoved you towards the bed. “No,” he said, “I don’ wanna feel like an asshole.”

“You are an asshole,” you said.

“Sure but I don’ wanna feel like one…!”

“OK,” you said, “fine.” Whatever, his loss. You climbed into the bed and got under the covers, and you turned a bit as Red lay down on the floor.

… Dammit.

You sighed. I’m going to regret this.

“Red,” you said.

He turned with an oddly soft smile. “Yeah, beautiful?”

Your face turned warm. His nicknames are more effective than they should be. “Just get in the stupid bed.”

“Oh?” A brow rose, and the soft smile was gone. “Feeling bonely?”

“Don’t,” you said, moving over. “You just look so pathetic on the floor, I can’t do it.”

“Sure, sure.” He moved the covers aside and slid under them with you. “You tell yerself that.”

“I will shove you back onto the floor, Red.”

He shut his mouth (figuratively speaking), and you shut your eyes. He was surprisingly warm for a skeleton, perhaps due to wearing a jacket all day. Since he didn’t have the jacket on, though, you were far more aware of the fact that he was literally just… bone. You could feel his actual spine… It was kind of weird, but not weird enough to keep you up. You were just glad he wasn’t getting handsy. Though the truth was that him getting touchy hadn’t been your main concern. In reality, you tried to avoid having to share a bed with anyone. There was a, um, bad habit of yours that people had informed you of.

But hopefully you wouldn’t do anything crazy tonight.

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Red was awoken by the feeling of something lying across his whole body.

What the hell?

He was on his side, and he attempted to push it off, but it didn’t budge. Groggy and annoyed, he awkwardly twisted and wriggled until he was on his back and could see what the fuck it was….

It was you.

He squinted, thinking he might be insane, but yeah. It was you. You were lying on top of him. A bit awkwardly, one of your legs was pointing in the direction of your side of the bed, but your head was where the crook of his neck would be, and you were breathing softly.

Red’s face lit on fire instantly.

“Sweetheart?” he mumbled, even though he was pretty sure you couldn’t hear him. When had this happened? Had it happened in your sleep? Had you done this on purpose?

You sighed in your sleep.

Oh… oh my God.

What if she likes me?

Had you instinctively cuddled up to him in your sleep because you… liked him? Or… maybe you liked his smell, or the way lying on him felt… Red was a bit embarrassed to find that he felt giddy, but the giddiness overrode the embarrassment.

“Sweetheart,” he repeated softly, gently wrapping his arms around you. You snuggled closer and he felt his soul start to hum.

We’re… so close….

She’s so cute when she’s asleep….

“You are the most adorable thing,” he said. He knew you couldn’t hear. That was the nice part; he could say whatever he wanted. He started to readjust your stray leg with his own, and his face warmed up even more when you curled your leg around his. He let out a small sound of surprise.

“Baby, you’re uncooperative…. Hah….”

Not that he, uh, minded… having your legs like this….

“Aren’t you just the sweetest,” he purred, pulling you closer. His soul was picking up. While you were asleep he felt no need to maintain his tough guy persona, so he cooed. “Yer cute as hell.”

He nuzzled you, holding you close.

He never wanted to let go….

“Don’t worry,” he said softly, lifting one finger and stroking your cheek. “I’ll keep you safe.” He closed his eyes, relishing the feeling washing over his soul while the two of you were so near each other. “Jus’ stay right here… with me, yeah?”

One hand tangled in your hair and he sighed. It was so soft…. You moved closer to him, making a soft hum, and Red’s grin widened, his soul melting into a puddle.

This was the best night of his life.

—

When your mind started to barely lift out of its unconscious state, the first thing you noticed was that it did not feel like you were lying on the mattress.

The second thing you noticed was that a pair of arms were around you. What the… Red? Why was he…

Oh. Oh no.

I climbed on him in my sleep, didn’t I?

It was a weird habit you’d never would’ve known about were it not for the unlucky victims who had told you about it. You had never woken up on top of someone before— you always woke up next to the person in the morning, in the same spot where you’d fallen asleep, and then they would tell you about how they’d woken up in the dead of night to find your entire body lying on top of them. It also apparently took a lot of effort to push you off, especially since attempts would usually result in you immediately trying to climb back onto them.

Red, uh, didn’t seem to be making any attempts to push you off, though.

“Hah, sweetie… You look so stupid when yer asleep….”

Did he know you were awake? Judging from his low volume, you were pretty sure that no, he didn’t.

His finger wiped the side of your mouth and then immediately withdrew, and you heard him laughing as quietly as possible. Yep, he was trying not to wake you up.

“Gross!” he whispered, and you heard the sound of his hand brushing against the fabric of, presumably, his clothes. “You drool in your sleep!”

More quiet laughter. If you blushed visibly you’d give yourself away, so you just buried your face in his collarbone. Embarrassing.

“... Ah… doll….”

A hand was gently placed on your back.

“I wish we could do this all the time,” he said softly. If he thought you were asleep he wasn’t saying this to flirt with you.

He meant it, then?

“Why’ve you gotta be so damn adorable, huh? M… My soul’s going crazy over here….”

A hand ran through your hair. He was being unusually gentle….

“Then again, that happens a lot when I’m with you.”

Your face got hotter; thank goodness he couldn’t see it from this angle.

His teeth pressed against your forehead. A kiss?

“I wish… I had the guts tah tell ya how I feel.”

Huh? Not… not like… romantically, right?

“You make me feel amazing. Like… really amazing, I… I dunno how t’put it in words cuz I’m real bad with words. S’why I can’ bring myself to tell you, I wanna tell you but every time I open my goddamn mouth all I say is somethin’ suggestive.”

Some silence. Should you tell him that you were awake? You were basically eavesdropping right now.

But at the same time…

“‘N, admittedly… I wish I was good fer you. Which I’m not, I’m… I’m fuckin’ me.”

Why did your heart suddenly ache?

“I’m lazy, I’m sleazy, I dress stupid, I act stupid, I can’t communicate like an adult to save my damn life…. An’ I… I’ve done a lotta bad things. Y… ya should get with some sweet guy who’s responsible ‘n shit.” He muttered: “Lookit me, fuckin’ swearing while I’m tryna talk about my feeli— Fantastic, I did it twice.”

It took all the effort you had to not giggle.

“I wish I was good for you. Ah, sweetie, I’d… I’d take such good care of you, I really would. Or, I’d try. Tryin’ is… really all I could do, t’be honest.”

Trying is all anyone can do.

“... Too bad I suck, yeah?”

Your heart ached again. Red didn’t suck, he was a good guy…. It was probably best to tell him that you were awake before he spilled any more personal information.

“You don’t suck,” you mumbled, turning your head.

“‘M sorry, dollface, did I wake you up with my rambling? I’ll be quiet.”

“No, I’ve been awake for a while.”

His whole body froze up.

“... Ya have?”

“Yeah.”

“H… How much of what I was just saying did you—“

“All of it.”

There was a long, awkward silence.

“I’m sorry,” you said, “I should’ve said something—“

“Fuck,” he said, and you lifted your head. His eye sockets were squeezed shut.

“No, Red, it’s OK—“

“No it’s not, I’ve been makin’ a sappy ass outta myself an’ now I prob’ly made you feel guilty—“

“You didn’t make me feel guilty—“

“Jus’ please don’t say that we should go on a date cuz I know you’re only doing it to make me feel better ‘bout myself—“

“Shut up, Red.”

His eye sockets opened and he looked down at you. You could see the two red lights standing out in the darkness. “... Huh?”

“Stop wallowing in self-hatred and listen to me.”

He said nothing. You would take that as cooperation.

OK, he was listening. So, uh… what should you say?

You actually didn’t know.

So you just kissed him.

Initially he just froze up, but after a moment his arms wrapped around you and he pulled you close, kissing back. W… Wow, this feels really good…. You moved into a better position and felt your hair spill down onto him.

“Sorry,” you said as the kiss parted.

“Sorry?” Red cupped the back of your head and gave you a second fervent kiss. “What the hell for? Ya just kissed me.”

“My hair is kinda touching you.”

“Oh no,” he said in monotone, “how awful. Kiss ruined.”

You snickered and leaned down to press your forehead against his. He looked up at you with fuzzy eyelights.

“I don’ deserve your love,” he said quietly. You smiled back.

“Nobody deserves love, Sans. That’s why it’s so special when someone loves us anyway.”

“You deserve love,” he said, “from somebody better than me.”

“That’s awfully vague.” You kissed his cheek. “And besides, I don’t want love from this person you call ‘somebody better than me.’”

He smiled.

“I want love from you.”

“Hah,” he said, and you saw his eyelights change… They were like hearts now. “Sweetheart, trust me, you already have all my love.”

Your face heated up. “That’s really romantic,” you told him.

“... It is?”

A giggle escaped you. “Yes, Sans.”

You kissed his nasal ridge.

“So?” you said with a smile. “You gonna ask me out or not?”

His eyelights got fuzzy again. “Ya think maybe we could go out sometime, beautiful?”

After kissing his cheek, you said, “I’d love that.”

“So, uh…” He looked at the way you two were positioned. “You think… we could do this more?”

“Absolutely.”

You lay your head down on his ribcage.

“We should fall back asleep,” you told him.

“Sure thing, angel.”

Drifting off took no time at all.

#such a classic trope #kinda tempted to do it with our boy regular sans too #I feel like the awkwardness of it would be really emphasized #or the 'oh no I like them' thing that this trope often leads to #I dunno #fanfic #fanfiction #reader-insert #self-insert #x reader #sans x reader #fell sans x reader #underfell #fluff

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galactic-magick · 3 years

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Remember Me: Agnes/Agatha Harkness x Reader

Request: Ok so I have this idea for a wandavision fic. Agatha had a wife prior to westview, and the wife comes looking for her and gets zapped into the hex. The wife loses all memories prior to westview so when she sees Agnes for the first time she’s like head over heels in love with her all over again. Agnes of course absolutely recognizes her and remembers everything and decides to woo her wife into marrying her again. Of course shenanigans ensue. Also Agatha doesn’t want to just give her wife’s memories back cause she wants to protect her. I also think the wife’s personality is pretty opposite to Agnes’s, I see her as more quite and innocent, but still bubly and positive. I know this is a lot lol but I just think it would make a great fanfic!

Summary: You and Agatha have been married for years, but a rough fight causes you to take a break for a while. When you’re ready to try again you go looking for her, but accidentally get sucked into the hex in the process and lose all your memories.

Words: 3.6k+

Warnings: spoilers, some angst

Author’s Notes: This fic got pretty long cuz I just kinda ran with this amazing idea, hope you enjoy!

Taglist: @nyx-aira @midnight-lestrange @thestrangeundoing @dreamydanvers @sleep-deprived-athlete @dr-robotnik-said-hella @fallingfor-fics @p-nymph @thelanawinterrs @sunproud

You feel…lost.

It’s as if something was at the tip of your tongue, something extremely important was on your mind a few minutes ago, but you can’t think of it for the life of you.

You’ve always struggled with directions, so you know you probably took a wrong turn. You remember driving into a town called Westview, and you’re pretty sure you’re here now, but your mind feels fuzzy. You can’t recall anything that happened to you before driving here. Your body feels like it got ripped apart and put back together, if that’s even possible.

You try your best to shrug off your concerns, and you start to feel more and more at home here. You know what, you have been here your whole life. You grew up here, you have friends here, and you never want to leave.

Despite that, though, you have no idea where your house is. You drive around, searching for anything that looks familiar, to no avail.

You see a woman picking some flowers outside, so you pull over and get out to talk to her.

“Good afternoon!” you wave. “I don’t believe we’ve met, I’m Y/N,”

“Hello!” she smiles. “I’m Wanda. Are you one of my neighbors?”

“Oh, um, yeah! I’m in the neighborhood,” you nod. “Those flowers are beautiful. Is there a special occasion?”

“Yes, actually! It’s me and my husband’s anniversary today! I’m planning a romantic evening to surprise him when he gets home. One of my other neighbors gave me some ideas and tips,” she laughs. “Oh there she is again!”

You turn around to look at the house next door, and see the most beautiful human being you’ve ever seen in your life. There’s something familiar about her, like a distant memory. She waves at Wanda, but when she sees you she stares. She can’t take her eyes of you, like she’s seeing a ghost.

“Agnes! Come here a second!” Wanda calls her over. “This is Y/N, she also lives around here. Have you met?”

“Oh…”

She’s wearing a gorgeous yet simple plaid dress, and her smile is captivating. There’s a gleam in her eyes that’s magical, and you find yourself falling a little too hard for someone you just met. You’re not usually the type to lay your heart down so quickly, but something about her is different.

“Oh, no! I don’t think we have!” Agnes snaps out of her trance and shakes your hand. “I’m Agnes,”

“Y/N,”

“Lovely to meet you,” she momentarily turns her attention back to Wanda. “Now, is there anything else you need for tonight? Extra candles, more magazines, makeup?”

“Some more candles would be amazing, thank you,”

“Great, I’ll drop them off in a bit,” Agnes glances at you again. “Would you like me to walk you home, darlin?”

“Sure,” you start walking together down the sidewalk. “I’m sorry if this is weird, but I feel like I know you from somewhere,”

“Do you now?”

“Maybe you just have one of those faces,” you sigh. “Anyway, I honestly can’t remember where my house is. I’ve always been bad with directions,”

“Did you just move here recently?”

“Maybe?” you scratch your head. “I…think I’ve always been here, but maybe I left and came back. Is it weird that I can’t remember?”

“Not at all,” she smiles. “Is this it?”

You look, and there’s a house just a few down from Wanda’s that you can almost swear wasn’t there before. But it looks like home, it looks familiar.

“Yes! This is it!” you race up to the door, and find a key that fits perfectly in your pocket. “How’d you know this was mine?”

“I just had a feeling,” she says.

“Well, thank you very much,” you reply, about to close the door.

“Wait,”

“Hmm?”

“Would you like to get some ice cream tomorrow?”

You nod, a bit surprised she’s so interested in you, “Sure,”

You meet up again at the ice cream parlor the next day, and you’re shocked when you get there that Agnes has already ordered your favorite, and a couple scoops are in your grasp within a few minutes.

You sit down together and start eating it, “How’d you know this was my favorite?”

“Oh…um, you just seem like that kind of gal?” she takes a spoonful of her own.

When you’re both done, you take a walk around town, waving to other people you think you’ve seen in the neighborhood. It feels a little strange that you’re hanging out with Agnes for hours as if you’ve been friends for years, but at the same time it feels so right. It’s almost like she knows everything about you already, yet everything is still a mystery.

Later in the afternoon you attend the talent show together, and you find yourself laughing especially at Wanda and her husband Vision’s performance. Some of their tricks fool you enough into thinking they might be real, but how could they be? Magic is all just a trick on the eyes, isn’t it?

You say goodbye to everyone and turn in for the night, and you have a strange dream.

Agnes is there, but she looks different. Older? Younger? You’re not sure.

She smiles at you, and takes your face in her hands. She presses a kiss to your lips, and doesn’t let you go until you can’t breathe.

You continue to see snippets of you and her together, each time in a different place, maybe even a different era. You’re happy, it seems, the love is deep and strong, something so good you didn’t think it could exist.

Until the last one.

You’re yelling at each other, but you can’t make out the words, not even your own. You can almost feel tears streaming down your cheeks, and Agnes takes her bags and leaves. You fall on the couch, completely miserable. You can’t tell what happened, but the aching in your chest is enough to tell it was the worst thing you’ve ever experienced.

When you wake up the next morning, you don’t remember anything.

The world is now in color, but you honestly can’t recall what it looked like yesterday, so it doesn’t seem strange to you.

You get a call from Wanda telling you she’s pregnant, and you congratulate her excitedly. She asks you to keep it under wraps except for close friends, which makes sense since it’s so early on.

Even though you have plenty of time before the baby arrives, you decide to go out to the store and pick out some stuff you could give her. You’ve never had children of your own so you’re not sure exactly what she’d need, but you know the basics, like clothes, teething toys, and blankets.

You look through the racks and piles, picking out a few things you think would be cute.

“Don’t tell me you’re pregnant now too, hun,”

You jump, and you see Agnes behind you.

“Oh! Agnes, hi!” you exhale quickly. “No, no, I’m not. I’m just picking up some things for Wanda. Maybe we could plan her a little baby shower or something?”

“I’m just kidding, hun. And that’s a great idea!” she pushes her cart forward a bit. “I’ll catch up with you later, okay?”

You nod as she hurries away.

As you’re walking home, you see Agnes chatting with one of your other neighbors, Herb. You don’t particularly hear or care what they’re saying, but you stop in your tracks when you see something purple coming out of Agnes’s fingers.

Herb’s eyes roll back for a moment, and then they carry back on in conversation. After a few minutes Vision runs out of the house and talks to them a bit, then they all go their separate ways.

Maybe you were just seeing things, but something about that interaction was really weird.

You catch up with Agnes down the street, saying hello and asking how she is. She doesn’t seem to know you saw what happened, so you decide to ask yourself.

“What was that purple stuff coming out of your hands?”

“What?” she chuckles, scoffing as if you’re crazy. “What are you talking about?”

“I was walking by Wanda’s house earlier and I saw you talking to Herb, and there was something coming out of your hands. Maybe it was just weird light or reflections or something-“

“Oh, yes, that must be it,” she pats your shoulder. “Say, how about we grab some dinner or something?”

“Really?”

She raises a hand and strokes your head and hair, and it feels like a wave of calm rushes over you. She murmurs some words you can’t understand, and you forget what you were going to say.

“What was that for?” you giggle, cheeks flushing a bit at her tender touch.

“Oh, there was just something stuck in your hair, dear,”

“Agnes,” you say, after taking the last bite of your dinner. You’ve had a wonderful night, you don’t think you’ve smiled and laughed so much in your life, and she makes your heart feel like it’s transcending to peak happiness.

“Hmm?”

“I really love hanging out with you,” you’re too nervous to say the actual words you want to say, and you desperately hope she understands.

“I love hanging out with you too,” she reaches for your hand. “I’ve missed you,”

You cock your head, “What do you mean?”

“Oh, nothing,” she laughs. “It’s just…been awhile since I’ve had someone in my life that I care about so much,”

You sigh as she squeezes your hand, “Do you believe in soulmates?”

“I might,” she grins. “Why?”

“I just…I know it’s so weird, but I feel like there’s something between us that’s beyond our control, you know?” you talk fast, hoping getting all the words out quickly will help you to say what you’ve wanted to say since you first met. “Maybe we were together in another life, another universe, I don’t know, it’s just…it’s not just me, right?”

She shakes her head, and you can almost see a tear in her eye, “No, it’s not just you,” she kisses the palm of your hand. “I wish I could tell you everything, I really do,”

“What do you mean?”

“But I can’t,” she stands up and waves her hand in front of your face, all memories of your conversation slipping from your mind. “It’s for your own protection sweetheart, I promise. Once I figure out how all this is happening, we can be together again,”

Agnes walks you home that night, but you don’t want to leave. You’ve had such a wonderful time with her, and you can’t bear for it to end.

“Do you want to come inside?” you ask.

“Oh, honey, I don’t think I should,” she laughs.

“Please,” you beg. “Just for a little bit? I have some tea and cookies,”

“Alright,” she sighs. “Just for a little bit,”

You start boiling the water and arrange some cookies on a plate as Agnes sits down on the couch.

“What kind would you like?”

“I’ll take anything,” she says.

You return with a cup and plate for her and plop down on the cushion, “You know I should probably apologize,”

“For what, dear?”

“I just feel like I’ve been a bit forward, which is weird since I’m normally super reserved and shy, but I just feel so comfortable with you, ya know?” you sip your tea. “I feel like I’ve said or done something wrong. I can’t remember what, but I definitely did,”

“Oh darling, no,” Agnes shakes her head. “You’re perfect,”

“Really?”

“Yes, just as you always have been,” she lifts your chin and leans in, capturing your lips. “My everything,”

You never knew what head over heels felt like until now.

You wake up smiling, barely able to contain your emotions. You kissed Agnes last night. You kissed Agnes last night.

You. You did.

You head over to Wanda’s that morning, wanting to meet the twins and give your gifts. When you walk in they’re crying very loudly and Wanda and Vision look stressed out of their minds.

“Hey, Wanda!” you give her a hug. “Baby troubles?”

“Yeah, they just…won’t stop crying,” she sighs in exhaustion.

“Do you need any help?” you ask. “Also, I got you some stuff,” you hand her the gift bag.

“Oh! Thank you so much!” she smiles in appreciation. “And yeah, could you? I’ve tried everything, but if you have any ideas on how to calm them down go for it,”

You start to rock the cradles a bit, when you hear the doorbell ring.

“Hiya kids!” Agnes strolls in. “Hey hun,” she winks at you.

“Oh Agnes!” Wanda says, relieved to have yet another person to help with the situation. “Oh, Y/N, could you actually grab some milk for them? There’s some formula on the counter in the kitchen,”

“Yeah, sure!” you smile at Agnes, your heart pounding a bit before you turn around to make the milk.

As you’re stirring, you hear Vision escalate into a panic, and then it falls mysteriously silent.

“Do you want me to take that again?” you hear Agnes say.

What?

“You want me to hold the babies, should we just take it from the top?”

You hear Wanda laugh and the conversation continues on normally. You finish mixing up the milk and head toward the living room, but you meet Agnes running in to look for some liquor.

“Agnes! What do you think you’re doing?” you whisper.

“What do you mean? I’m just trying to help with the kids, just like you!”

“Yeah, but, you’re acting really weird,” you shake your head, staring at her in disbelief. “What were you talking about in there? Taking it from the top? What does that even mean?”

“Oh, honey, don’t worry. I’m just a little jazzed up today!” she kisses your cheek.

“Y/N! AGNES! The kids are gone!” Wanda gasps.

You rush in, and all of your turn around towards the stairs to see two definitely not baby boys in front of you.

“Ah, kids. You can’t control ‘em, no matter how hard you try,” Agnes chuckles, taking a sip of her drink.

Are you the only one that finds it strange that the twins randomly grew older right in front of you?

That evening you go on another date with Agnes. She doesn’t bring up anything that happened this morning, but she does mention the tragedy of Wanda’s family’s dog passing away. You feel awful, especially since they got him recently.

For the most part it’s a normal date, you’re still very much in love with her and you have an amazing time.

But by the end of it when you’re heading back home, the eerie feeling returns, and you can’t keep ignoring it. You need answers, and you need them now.

“Something’s not right here, Agnes,” you observe. “Everyone here acts weird, especially Wanda and Vision, and even you sometimes. I don’t get it,”

“Darling-“

“No!” you snap. “Every single time I’ve brought up feeling weird with you or in this town in general you distract me so I forget about it. You know something Agnes, I can tell you do. Why won’t you be honest with me? If we’re gonna do this relationship thing, we need to be honest with each other,”

She takes a deep breath, “I can’t,”

“Why not?”

“I can’t now, but I will,” she says. “This weekend, Halloween. Meet me at my house and I’ll tell you and show you everything,”

“Do you promise?”

“Yes, I promise,” she nods, then leans in to kiss you. “I just have to do a few more things first,”

She walks away.

You stand outside her house on Halloween just as she asked, dressed in a cheap witch costume you found in your closet.

“Oh, look at us!” Agnes opens the door, eyeing you up and down and grinning. “We match!”

You laugh as she takes you hand and leads you to her car.

Before she pulls out, she turns to you, a glaze of fear in her eyes.

“Are you sure you want to know everything?”

“Yes,” you nod.

“Okay,” she presses down the pedal and drives.

She passes by all the familiar streets, into the neighborhoods you’ve never seen. There’s people outside that are barely moving, and the farther you go, the more frozen they become. It begins to scare you a bit, but you trust Agnes to explain everything to you when you get to your destination.

She finally stops the car at the last stop sign on the edge of town, and everything ahead looks like an empty field.

“You don’t remember how you got to Westview, do you?” she asks.

“No,” you shake your head. “I think I’ve been here a while, but my past is fuzzy,”

“But somehow you have memories of me?”

“I…” you search your thoughts. “I felt like I recognized you when we first met, yeah. But I don’t think they were actually memories,” you look into her eyes. “Why, do you think they’re real memories or something?”

“I know they are,”

“You mean, we were together before?”

“Yes,” she nods, and her gaze falls to the floor, unable to look at you. “But it didn’t end well. I made a lot of mistakes, and you asked me to leave, so I did. I’ve been all over the place, and I ended up here. Then all of a sudden, you were here too,”

You can’t believe what you’re hearing, “How come I don’t remember any of that?”

“Wanda created and controls this town. She wiped and changed your memories,”

“Wanda?” you scoff. “How would she even do that? And even if someone could do that, why would they? She’s so nice, you really think she’s controlling me?”

“I don’t know how she’s doing it, that’s what I’m trying to find out. But I know it’s her. She’s the only other magical being in this town, and she got her powers from an infinity stone. Maybe it’s just that, maybe she’s a mutant, maybe it’s chaos magic, I don’t know. But she’s the one,”

You shake your head, almost giggling at how ridiculous it sounds, “Agnes, no, you’re not making any sense. Magic? Infinity stones? Mutants? Are you serious? Come on, just tell me the truth,”

“I am telling you the truth,”

“Stop lying to me!” you storm out the car door, walking back towards town. Agnes calls after you, but you keep going. “I can’t be with you if all you’re going to tell me is complete bullshit!”

“Y/N!”

Your feet lift off the ground and you spin around, flying through the air towards her. You scream, and you see that same purple smoke coming out of her fingers that you saw before. She pulls you against her, one arm wrapped around your waist and another cradled around your head.

“It’ll all make sense now, sweetheart,”

She whispers a spell and all the memories flood back into your mind. Your real first meeting, your first kiss, your first date. Your wedding day, your first house. You see every moment, the good and the bad, the way she looked at you like you’re an angel every single day. You relive every anniversary, every holiday together, every tradition you shared, and finally the last moments together, and the day you decided you wanted your beloved wife back.

“Agatha?” you whisper.

“Yes,” she crashes her lips to yours, taking in everything she loves, everything she missed. You wrap your arms around her neck, kissing her deeply, a smile escaping every so often. You don’t care that it’s messy, you don’t care if your teeth get in the way, you’re in love and you never want to let her go again.

“I’m so sorry, darling,” she exhales, breathless.

“No, I’m sorry,” you say between more kisses. “I can’t live without you Agatha. I can’t,”

“It’s okay, we’re together again,” she slithers her fingers into your hair.

“But what now?” you wipe your teary eyes. “If you’re right about Wanda using magic to control everything, what do we do?”

“I’ve been dropping clues to make Vision suspicious, and I’ve been trying to get her to crack,” she says. “I have a feeling she might make it all crumble on her own. If it’s chaos magic like I think it is, it’s unpredictable and she might lose control if she keeps it up much longer,”

“Do you…think she’s doing it on purpose?”

“She has some consciousness of it, yes, but I don’t think she’s trying to hurt anyone,” Agatha replies. “But at the same time, I don’t think she’d hesitate to hurt anyone either if someone threatened her,”

“Oh,” you fall back in her arms a bit so you can look up at her. “How come you didn’t return my memories when we first met again?”

“I wanted to protect you. I was afraid you might get targeted if Wanda found out you remembered who you are, I doubt she’d hurt you but I couldn’t risk it,” she runs her thumb along your cheek. “Plus I thought it might be fun to fall in love with you all over again,”

You laugh, “It was kind of fun,”

She pulls you in for another kiss, “I love you, sweetheart,”

“I love you too,”

She holds you close, making up for all the lost time. You’re not sure what will happen or what you’ll have to deal with next, but you’ll do it together. Always, no matter what.

#agatha harkness x reader #agnes x reader #agatha harkness #agnes #wandavision #wandavision x reader #wandavision spoilers

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darksapphire29 · 4 years

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Imagine #5

Peter being afraid of needles.

Warnings: blood, needles, inaccurate description of wound-fixing (basically; don't copy how the reader fixes Peter cuz idk what I'm doing)

You pumped your legs harder, faster. Your heart pounded in your ears. Your limbs ached with every swift movement and you had a stitch in your side. Your pursuers followed with an energy you had left in the camp.

“This way!” Peter hollered from in front of you. He turned suddenly, your exhausted brain making you nearly ram into a tree. Luckily, Peter had slowed to grab your hand. He dragged you along through a thicker and darker part of the forest. After a minute, he pulled you around behind a tree. He pressed his back into the bark, his arms wrapped over your stomach as he clutched you to his body.

The two of you stood immensely still, huffing and puffing, sweat dripping down your back.

The pirates ran right past you.

The stupid men hurried off into the woods, and when their grumbles were out of earshot, you slackened against Peter. A relieved laugh bubbled up in your chest. Peter’s chest shook behind you. His angelic giggles filled your ears, and soon you were both trembling with mirth.

Not 10 minutes earlier, that codfish Hook had somehow found his way into camp. But it didn’t matter. You and Peter and the Lost Boys were prepared and hungry for a fight. Before you ran off to play tag, half of them were bleeding on the ground. It was grand fun. It still baffled you how they ever thought they could win.

“How many… did you get?” He gasped from behind you. You were still laughing, ignoring your ever-worsening stitch.

“E-Eleven.” You turned to face him, and he was grinning, his eyes sparkling with joy. It was a rare and beautiful sight. But then, he winced, and your laugh caught in your throat.

“You alright?” You took his hand, feeling familiar tingles from his skin on yours. It gave you butterflies, but something was wrong.

“Yes, I’ll… I’ll just walk it o—” He cut himself off, collapsing into you. You caught him, you hand touching something warm and wet on his side. He cried out.

“Peter! H-Hang on, we need to get you b-back…” You looked around quickly, trying to remember where you were. You had never been to this part of the forest before. You looked back down at Peter. The side of his shirt was soaked in his blood, and some of it dripped onto the leaves.

You lowered him onto the floor, peeling back his shirt to look at it. A long line of his skin was split open, blood leaking down the sides and staining his paling skin. It wasn’t too wide, but it was deep. You guessed he had been sliced by a sword. It was a clean cut. Easy enough to fix. But that didn’t make it easy to look at. Against your wishes, you started to tear up.

“Oh my gosh…” You whimpered, staring down at the red in shock. “A-Alright. L-Let me see if I h-have anything…” You searched your pockets. Normally, you would bring supplies for something like this. You were basically Neverland’s doctor. But you hadn’t, this time.

“Peter, I-I don’t have anything!” Your hands were shaking. Peter grabbed them.

“(Y/n), it’s okay…” He croaked. He closed his eyes, frowning a little. Suddenly, he was lying on a cot, and you were kneeling beside him in your healing chambers.

“Oh, Peter, thank you.” You scrambled to your feet and ran to the cupboard. Gathering ointments and disinfectant and stitches and bandages while Peter groaned in response. You placed everything on the table beside the bed, gathering some cloth and a bowl of warm water.

“Okay. This is gonna sting, so, on three?” Peter nodded; eyes squeezed shut. You breathed out slowly. “One…” Peter’s breathing sped up a little, and your chest tightened. “Two…” You got some scissors and cut open his shirt so you could get to the wound. “Three.”

You dabbed gently on and around his cut. You swiped away any dirt and washed the cloth in water a few times when it filled with blood and grime. All the while Peter squirmed and grunted and whimpered. It broke your heart to know you were causing him this pain.

"For Neverland's sake, Peter!" You grumbled, washing out the cloth for the third time. "Were you running even... even with this?"

How could the poor boy even move with such a wound, let alone run around in the forest?

Peter shrugged while lying down, which you weren't afraid to admit looked really weird.

"What could I say?" He smirked. "You were having such a good time, after all. It was fun... you don't smile like that often." You shook your head.

"For the record, Pan, you hardly smile at all." He laughed, but his eyes showed his pain. Both physical pain and emotional.

There was one speck of dirt that wouldn’t budge, you using the corner of the cloth to try and move it. Peter squeezing the mattress, you finally got it out.

When you finished cleaning, you rinsed off the cloth again. Your hands were a little red. You gagged at the sight. There was so much of Peter's blood; on your hands, in the bowl, on his shirt, on his skin, on the cot... it worried you. And it had to be fixed up before he lost any more.

“Peter.” He groaned again, opening his eyes to look at you. There were swollen and misty. “I’m going to need to stitch it together.” Peter’s eyes widened. He recoiled into the bed.

This was always the part you and every Lost Boy hated most. You just hoped Peter wouldn’t kill you; on purpose or accidental.

You’d had stitches before, and it sucked. The only difference here was, you were all out of poppy seeds, and Peter wasn’t about to fall asleep any time soon. Besides, he was the lightest sleeper on the whole of Neverland. So, you were going to give him a needle.

He seemed to read your mind, and you saw he was trying to prepare himself. You gathered your things, dabbing disinfectant around the wound. But when you brought out the needle, he was stiff as a board. “You okay?”

“Of course.” He said a little too quickly. You giggled.

“Are you afraid of needles?” He glared at you, trying to look intimidating. You waved the needle in his face. He flinched.

“Aw, Pan, it’s alright. (Y/n) will be gentle with the scary needle.” You teased.

“Just get it over with.” He growled. Your gaze softened.

“Really, Pete. It’ll be alright. Loads of people are afraid of needles.” You tried calming him down, the playful mood dissipating faster than it appeared. Peter scoffed.

“I am not afraid of needles.” You smiled softly. It was cute that the tough and intimidating Peter Pan was afraid of needles, but it was a pretty big needle. You weren’t about to mock his pride. Not again, anyway.

“Wanna hold my hand?” You held out your other hand for him to take. He looked away from you before he (somewhat begrudgingly) grabbed it. You smirked.

“Shut up.”

You positioned the needle over his skin, and he looked over into your eyes. His gaze steering clear of the small but sharp object.

“Ready?”

“No.” He grinned sheepishly, before it was replaced with a look of fear. He gulped, clutching your hand. Just before you pushed the needle through his skin, a vase nearby exploded. You and Peter jumped, a few shards of glass flying across the room. One of them nicked your cheek while another got your arm.

"(Y/n), I'm so sorry! Are you alright?" You shook a little, the needle still in your hand. You looked over to where the vase used to be, little pieces all over the table and ground. Some were even sticking out of the wall behind it.

Lucky for you, th vase was on the other side of the room. So aside from a scratch here and there, you were fine.

You looked back down at Peter. "Uh... yeah! Yeah, let's just finish this."

He didn’t move while you injected him. And to your relief, nothing exploded this time. He watched you with guilt in his eyes.

He fell asleep almost right away, and you went to work sewing him up. When it was done you washed the blood off his and your skin, taking off his shirt completely and putting him in a fresh one. Then, you sat in a chair with a book and waited for him to wake.

When he finally stirred, the first thing he searched for was you.

“(Y/n)?” You heard, and you put the book down.

He was looking around the room for you, eyes blinking slowly and his arms stretching above him. It was adorable.

“I’m here.” You smiled. His head turned slightly to the side, finding you. He smiled lazily.

“Come here.” You sat on the bed beside him, he not even bothering to sit up yet. Which was good, since it would ruin your human needlework. He grabbed you shirt and tried pulling you down. But he was still weak from sleep.

“Oh, stop it, Pan.” You giggled, taking his hands away. He just linked his fingers with yours. “Your still injured, and there isn’t enough room, anyway.”

Peter pouted. “You know you… want to.” He tried, but then yawned slightly. You laughed at his attempt to seduce you. He frowned.

“You’re tired. Get some rest.” You kissed his forehead, standing up to walk away. But his hand was still holding yours.

“I just was resting.” He argued, going to sit up. You quickly grabbed his shoulders.

“Don’t!” He stopped. “You’ll hurt yourself. Pop the stitches I was working on for hours.” He chuckled.

“My hero.” You ignored the sarcasm, forcing him to lie down.

“And as your hero, I am ordering you to go back to sleep.” He rolled his eyes, letting go of your hand and sighing (rather dramatically).

“Only if you stay with me.” You thought about it for a second, biting your lip. You weren’t a sound sleeper. What if you touched his stitches? Or took all the blanket? Or rolled on him? Or pushed him out of bed? Or—

“Just get in, (Y/n)!” He laughed at your thoughts, and you gave up. You climbed under the blankets next to him.

He went to roll on his side to face you, wanting to hold you. But then he winced and stopped himself. Instead, he put his arm under your neck and tucked you into his side. You laughed at the awkwardness of it all.

“Happy, now?” You giggled. He smirked at you.

“More than happy.”

***

“So, All-Powerful Pan… wanna talk about your fear of needles?”

“Shut up.”

You laughed.

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thinkaboutdobrik · 5 years

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First Kiss → David Dobrik

Requested by Anon: After a few weeks of meeting the reader (usc student?) and she’s hanging w the vs and slowly people go home until it’s just them and they end up talking all night and after a couple weeks of casually hanging and making excuses to see each other he tells her he likes her it’s Readers first kiss ever and David’s really sweet and understands her qualms about moving too fast and it’s just fluffffyyyyyyyy :)) love your work smmmm❤️❤️

a/n: i hope you like it! I switched it up a little bit, but not much. This was sooooo fun to write. thank you for requesting, dear anon. <3

It was finally friday night and you were hanging out at Davids house after he invited you to hang out with everybody, which you gladly accepted after being being exhausted from all the stuff you had been doing the past week.

Hanging out with him and the rest of the group was always fun. You felt so lucky to know them and enjoyed every single second spent with them. They were your best friends, and honestly, the best of friends you had ever had.

"We gotta get going. Trisha has an early glam session in the morning." Jason announced and turned his wrist to look at the time.

“K, see ya.” David replied before they headed out the door.

You, David, Josh and Jonah were laying on the couch. The muffled sound of a tv series you previously had been watching played in the background as you and the guys were chitchatting.

You laid on your side, cuddled up next to David with one hand on his chest and one leg tossed over him. He was laying on his back, relaxing as he held your hand on his chest, rubbing small circles with his thumb. His other hand was wrapped around your neck, allowing you to rest your head on it, as he played with your hair.

"I'm gonna fall asleeep.." you mumbled into David's sweater, feeling his fingers moving up and down your scalp.

David chuckled and smiled. "You could just stay the night if you want."

You closed your eyes and smiled. "I'd love that."

Your eyes closed slowly, making your eyelids feel heavier by the second. Unable to keep your eyes open, you felt yourself falling asleep to David's heartbeat and his slow, relaxed breathing as you felt his warm hand on top of yours.

Falling asleep next to David always made the best sleeping spot. You felt safe next to him. Calm. Loved.

You and David had gotten along very well recently. He had been texting you alot and made random phonecalls here and there whenever he could just to chat with you. Most of the time you’d end up talking for hours on the phone. He’d often call you at night just to ask about your day, which resulted in falling asleep to his voice everytime. He was always caring, doing whatever he could to make you feel better. Whenever you had your down days he'd be the first you'd reach out to

It worked both ways. Whenever he was exhausted from all of his work, he’d often end up at your place. Your place was calm and quiet allowing him to really focus on his editing when he needed to. You didn’t mind. You always offered to help, whether it was with the editing or running out for a snack. It wasn’t rare that he ended up crashing at your place. You shared beds, and he'd always curl up to you to cuddle you at night.

This wasn’t new to his friends either. Everybody knew you and David had a thing going on. Both of you cared immensily for eachother and it showed. It showed whenever the two of you were away from eachother. It showed when you hadn't seen eachother in a while. And it showed when you finally got together.

"Hey.." you felt somebody stroking your shoulder. Slowly and carefully you opened up your eyes only to be blinded by the lights coming from the ceiling.

“Wake up.” the voice whispered.

After allowing your eyes to adjust to the sudden brightness they were focused on David’s big brown eyes looking at you.

“Everybody left. Do you wanna just sleep here on the couch, or do you wanna get in bed?” David asked as he sat down next to where you were laying on the couch.

You rubbed your eyes before stretching your arms out as far as you could as you let out a big groan from waking up your body. You were laying on the couch, surrounded by pillows, with a fuzzy blanket that had been thrown over you after you fell asleep.

“Wait, everybody left? When?” you asked in confusion as you sat yourself up.

“Yeah, after Jason and Trisha left Josh left after, like, half an hour, and Jonah just walked out the door.” he explained as he gazed into your tired eyes.

“Oh...” you shrugged. “Well, that sucks 'cuz now I’m not even tired anymore.” you complained and threw your hands in the air.

David let out a small chuckle and ran a hand through his hair.

“Wanna watch a movie or something? Or are you going to sleep?” you asked, now wide awake after your nap. You looked at the time. 01:32 am.

Guessing from the big smile that fell onto David’s face at your suggestion, you figured it wasn’t too late to watch a movie. David was always down to watch a movie. Your iconic comments every now and then, the way you laughed, the way you would curl up to David whenever you watched a scary movie - those were only a few reasons as to why David loved spending time with you, and only you.

Being able to crash at David’s house whenever you felt like it was the best. Not only were you able to show up at the house, unannounced, without him or Natalie caring too much about it, you and David had developed a special relationship. After a few weeks of being around eachother, whether it was during the day time for some filming or randomly showing up at eachothers doorstep in the middle of the night just because you missed eachothers company, a spark had developed between the two of you. You loved being around David, and him you.

“Okay,” David sang as he crashed onto the couch next to you, bringing two bottles of water along with him. “What are we feeling?” he asked, picking up the remote control to scroll trough the different genres on Netflix.

“I don’t know. Comedy?” you suggested.

David started scrolling through several different movie titles, naming a few of them and shrugging. “Grown Ups?” he asked as the title appeared on the screen.

“Ahh, yes. The iconic Grown Ups. I love that movie!” you cheered.

He pressed play and scooted closer to you, shimmying his way under the blanket that covered your body and sunk down into the couch as he rested his head on your shoulders.

“I’m super comfy now.” he smiled. You smiled in return and rested your head lightly on top of his as the TV screen lit up, starting the intro to the movie.

Half an hour passed filled with giggles and silly comments from the two of you. David was now sitting upright on the couch and his hand was draped around your shoulders as you were leaning your full body weight on his side, cuddling up to him, sharing bodyheat underneath the fuzzy blanket.

You felt your eyes drooping down again, lids getting heavier as your were rested up against his chest. A light nudge to your side sent a small wave of shock through your body. “Hey, don’t fall asleep again.” David whispered as he looked down at you.

“I’m not.” you whispered, peering your eyes at the screen.

You felt David’s gaze still on you and turned your head to look up at him.

“Thanks for always being so... nice.” he complimented as your eyes landed on his.

You smiled at him with a slight quizzical expression on your face at his random compliment.

“Y-yeah, you’re welcome?” you chuckled.

“No, but like, you’re by far one of the best people in our friend group.” David assured you.

Your eyes widened as you raised your eyebrows and smiled at him.

“I mean.. you’re so sweet, a-and so kind and just... so great. And I love being around you. You always make my day ten times better, no matter what.” he continued.

His gaze fell down to your lips, looking at them for a few seconds before landing back on to your eyes.

“Thank you, David. That’s really sweet. I love being around you, too.” you smiled, eyes no where near focusing on the movie.

“This might be very random, but I just have to say it. I really like you. Like, I really, really like you, Y/N. And not just as a friend. I mean, I-I like you as a friend too, but.... I don’t know.” he sighed. “You make me feel things nobody else makes me feel.” David confessed shyly, stuttering at almost every sentence, trying to use the right words.

You pulled away from him, sitting more up right, and smiled at him as you felt your cheeks blush. Looking at eachother for many seconds without saying anything you felt your heart beat a little faster, many thoughts running through your head. You leaned forward, eyes still glued to David’s. “I like you too, Dave.” you whispered.

“Would it be weird if I kissed you right now?” David asked while fiddling his thumbs, shocked at his own words.

You let out a small sigh as your eyes darted from David to your hand resting on top of David’s thigh. “I- uh..” you stuttered.

He furrowed his eyebrows as his face turned into confusion, unsure if he had made the right move or not. “Sorry, I-I shouldn’t have. I’m sorry. Forget I asked-” he stuttered.

“No, no. I’ts not that.” you quickly said, placing your hand on his chest. “It’s just that.. You want to be my first kiss?”

“Your first?” David asked in confusion. “Your first kiss? You’ve never kissed anyone before?” he smiled at you as a small giggle escaped from his mouth.

You felt your cheeks blush again and smiled into your palms that were covering your face as you shook your head.

“It’s okay. I just thought I’d ask. We don’t have to do it. Just forget I asked.” he assured you and smiled before returning back to the TV.

“No..” you firmly said. You boldly looked up at David who had turned his face towards the TV again, and placed your palm on his cheek to turn it towards you. “I want to do it.”

David’s eyes widened and a big smile fell onto his lips. He placed both his hands on your cheeks, cupping them. His warm hands felt good against your flushed cheeks as you looked into his beautiful brown eyes. He leaned forward, his nose barely touching yours, as he smiled into your eyes. His eyes wandered from yours and down to your lips as he licked his. Your heart was beating faster by the secound, almost skipping a beat even as you felt a swarm of butterflies in your stomach. Finally, he pulled you closer and placed a soft, warm, loving kiss on your lips. A spark sent shivers up and down your spine as you smiled happily into the kiss.

The kiss lasted a few seconds before David pulled away to look at you, smiling widely from ear to ear. “How was that?” he asked excitedly to hear your response, but more excited knowing he was your first kiss.

“Good.” you smiled and giggled as you looked at him.

You turned back to watch the movie, returning back to the cuddle position you were previously in. You rested your hand on David’s chest before looking up at him, smiling. “I really, really like you, too, Dave.”

#david dobrik #david dobrik imagine #david dobrik fluff #david dobrik blurb #david dobrik x reader

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feenyreadscomics · 5 years

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Rosaries, Part 2

Part one has been published! Rosaries is a fanfic feat. Steve Rogers (MCU) and Matt Murdock (comics adjacent). In this they exist in the same world, no dimension hopping required. Enjoy!

Matt was having a bad day.

No, bad day was an understatement. It was terrible. The worst.

Firstly, yesterday involved fighting the Hand. Which always sucked. (It would be so much easier if the ninjas would just. Stay dead.) During that fight, Matt got stabbed. Nothing major, but ya know, Matt didn't like feeling like a jelly donut. And the Ramirez case was turning pear shaped. And Karen called in sick. Which. Ugh. It would mean Matt needing to do more research, which...if the courts were actually willing to be ADA compliant, it would be far easier than it actually was. And Matt can't exactly sue the entire justice system.

Then Stilt man showed up. Stilt man isnt exactly a problem, just...Stilt man. Like, Matt has to stop him, but Stilt man doesn't do damage. Today he was attempting to rob a bodega. A bodega.

And just when Matt thought today was done, that maybe he could get a good night's sleep for once, frog monsters, and consequently, the Avengers, showed up.

Tall, blond(?), and handsome(?) included. Or at the very least, tall and loaded with muscles. Which possibly posed a problem. Matt doubted saying he had a twin would work, if Steve put the pieces together. So it goes.

The frog monsters themselves were giving him a hard time. They had quite the jump, and Matt's best hope of killing them was to grab onto a leg, and smack it with a billy club.

This was slightly more effective then hitting them with a pool noodle.

The day of suckitude culminated with Matt losing his grip on one of the frogs, and falling into a dumpster. With Hawkeye. But at least Hawkeye was useful, and just using the dumpster as cover, and "could one hundred percent get out, I just prefer to have protection on all four sides." Clint's heartrate spiked a bit. Lies from the archer man.

On the other hand, it's not like Matt was being super helpful as is. So he sat and waited. This is dumb. Why can't the Avengers keep their intergalactic weirdness to themselves? Matt was snapped out of his sulking by Hawkeye.

"Hey, Diablo! Can you check and see if Stark is coming over here."

"Can't you?"

"I'm a little busy!" Hawkeye fired a few exploding arrows.

"Fuck my life," Matt muttered.

"Is Stark coming in or not? Cuz I'm almost tapped out!"

Matt grabbed Hawkeye by the waist and threw him out of the dumpster.

"What the shit, Daredevil!"

Matt didn't respond, but vaulted himself over the side of the dumpster, grabbed Hawkeye's wrist, and ran.

The duo zigzagged, narrowly avoiding being squashed, when Matt smelled a distinctive smell. One of radiation, testosterone, and bananas. One of... a rare smell. But unmistakable. Steve.

Matt turned around, nearly ripping Hawkeye's arm out of his socket. Steve had a shield, and would most likely be able to direct them to safety. Assuming Steve wasn't in the middle of a fight. Or got hurt. Matt tried not to think too hard about the second one.

Matt, of course, had the luck of a broken mirror. Steve was down, unconscious. "Hawkeye, can you support Steve's head while I pick him up and walk?"

"On it." Steve was picked up and draped over Matt's back. Hawkeye cradled Steve's head.

"Can you contact anyone?" Matt hissed.

"Nope. Comms are down."

"Ok, I've got a burner phone in my right pocket, can you grab it?" Hawkeye obliged.

"Dude I think your phone is broken. The screen won't turn on."

"Take Steve, be careful not to jostle his ribs, he has a few broken ones on his left, give me the phone, I'll make the call."

"How do you even..." Hawkeye grunted as Steve's weight was placed on his shoulders.

"Phone." Hawkeye handed it over.

"Hey Claire, I have an injured friend- no we cant get to a hospital, there are mutated frogs- he has broken ribs and a sprained ankle- I know you have to work the night shift, I don't know who to ask- see you in a few." Daredevil moved his attention to Hawkeye. "Follow me."

After some finagling, a two block sprint, and a long multi floor walk, the trio arrived at Claire's apartment.

Clint knocked.

"Come in!" The door swung open. Inside were two women. One of them was extremely pale, with shoulder length black hair. The other was dark skinned, and had her hair pulled back.

"Lay him down on the couch," one of the women instructed Matt. "Linda, can you get the icepacks?" She must be Claire.

The pale skinned, dark haired woman, hurried to the freezer, and grabbed the ice packs.

"Ok, now tell me, what were his injuries again?"

"Cracked ribs, dislocated shoulder, probably a concussion, and a sprained ankle."

"When you found him, was he conscious?" Claire asked.

"Nope," Daredevil responded.

Linda, Claire, and Daredevil settled around Steve. Claire would give orders to Daredevil and Linda, moreso to Linda. Daredevil was able to give a large amount of information on Steve's injuries to Claire, which Hawkeye was both grateful for and disturbed by. Daredevil shouldn't be able to tell Steve was injured (especially the twisted ankle...how the hell could he tell Steve twisted his ankle? they didn't see him walk or anything) but could.

Once most of Steve's injuries were treated, Linda turned to Clint.

"Is he injured?"

"Nope," Daredevil replied.

"Ok. Since I'm not going to get an answer as to wheather or not you are injured. Shirt. Off."

"My dear, I save that for the second date." Daredevil smirked.

"Fine. Go die in a ditch. See if I care." Linda began making tea. "Tea?"

"Sure." Daredevil responded.

"I'll take one as well," Hawkeye also said.

"A tea here," came a voice from the living room. "I'm also want to try to wake your friend up. How would I do that?"

Clint piped up. "I'll do it." He walked over to Steve. He gently shook Steve's shoulder. "Steve, wake up. We need you up Steve. Steven! Steve!" Clint gradually got louder, and the shoulder shaking more violent. Clint then had an idea. "Can I get a glass of cold water?"

Linda got a glass. "Ok everyone, stand back." Clint threw the glass of water over Steve's face. He woke up violently with a shudder, and was just about to smash Clint when he looked around, and stopped.

"Where am I?" Cap slowly lowered his fist.

"You're safe, you're in one of Daredevil's friend's houses. We carried you over after you got concussed."

"Ah. And who are the two fine ladies here?"

Claire stepped forward. "My name is Claire. I'm a surgeon. My roommate, Linda, is a nurse."

Steve moved to stand up, but Claire quickly walked over and shushed him down. "Steve, you have a concussion. You are not getting up from this couch until I know you have somewhere to go. I, or possibly Double D, will fight you." Steve laughed.

"As if either of you can take me," Steve countered.

"Considering I dragged your ass here, and you have a concussion, I think I can take you," Daredevil smirked.

"Language!" Steve paused for a bit "I'm so...tired."

"That's why we gotta stay here, and you have to stay awake!" Hawkeye interjected.

"Can I get Tony to pick me up?" Steve asked.

Claire sighed. "Look, I would prefer to not have a bunch of superheroes knocking on my door. I know Linda dosen't care, but we already have Double D and Luke Cage coming through here, and now a few of the Goddamn Avengers have shown up-"

"I typically get treated at Stark Tower-

"And I would like some privacy, please and thank you. So no official Avengers, please."

Steve snapped his fingers. "Sam? Would he be fine?"

"Who's he?"

"Falcon?"

"Fine."

"Ok. Can I borrow someone's phone? I need to make a phone call."

About fifteen minutes later Daredevil started helping Claire and Linda clean up. Thirty seconds later there was a knock at the door. Linda opened it.

"Hello! You must be Sam! I'm Linda. Your friend is back here. She started guiding him to the couch. Hes gonna need help walking for a bit, but should be fine. Talk to Double D if you need help. He will be able to contact us if needed."

"Steve, ya ready to walk?" Steve grunted back.

"Ok. Hawkeye and Sam are going to help you, ok?" Steve nodded, then grimaced.

Clint and Sam took an arm each, and lifted him to his feet. "Thank you so much. We wont bother you again," Clint said.

"It was no trouble," Linda replied.

"Daredevil, ya coming with?" Sam asked.

"No. I'd prefer to stay off Tony's radar."

"Understandably. Have a good day!"

Sam, Clint, and Steve shuffled out. They loaded up, and Sam started driving.

"That Daredevil is a weird one," Steve proclaimed.

"Yeah. I think he's a religious nut. He had me go for his phone when he was carrying you, and I think I felt a rosary in the same pocket. Also, his phone was kinda broken" Clint chimed.

"Wait... what?"

"No way. The Catholic church tends to frown on pretending to be the devil."

"I know it sounds crazy, but it's true. I felt a crucifix and everything."

"Huh. If he is Catholic, I wonder what kind of priest he has, considering he seems to think that dressing up like the devil is ok, morally speaking." Steve continued to ponder this. Daredevil looked familiar, but he couldn't tell if he had actually seen Daredevil as a civilian, or if it was based on those YouTube videos.

But it's not like Steve had gotten a good look at Daredevil's face. Still...Catholic?

Steve wondered if he could invite Daredevil to Mass. Daredevil couldn't be practicing, as no priest would condone that costume. And what was with the phone?

Steve pondered it, as he started to nod off.

Thank you for reading! A few things for explanation: 1. Claire Temple in the TV show is a mashup of Claire Temple, doctor and love interest to Luke Cage, and Linda Carter, nurse and aid to various superheroes. I figured having the comics version, where they are two separate people, made more sense, as a. If someone got stabbed, a surgeon would be able to treat it. A nurse wouldn't. And b. Having two people on call would be easier on them than one person. (I made Claire specifically a surgeon, as far as I'm aware that isnt canon). 2. The broken phone thing. Since Matt is blind, he has accessibility features on his phone. He also doesn't need the screen to be on, so he turned it off in his settings. This saves his battery, but makes it inoperable for Clint. Tommy Edison has a video on how he uses a touch screen phone, and Matt has the same features enabled (Matt likes having his phone like this also because sighted people struggle to use it. Foggy can, but that's pretty much the only sighted person Matt has instructed on how to use his phone.) There will be a part 3, and Steve will eventually figure it out.

#rosaries #fanfiction #matt murdock #steve rogers #catholic

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Tokyo Trip/Kurenai Enishi October 19-21, 2018

Wow look who procrastinated writing a blog post for this for 2 months (me). I made a mini-post when I got back but I didn’t really explain everything I saw and did in my 48hrs there so I’ll do that here. More pictures and me rambling about Tsukista below~

I only went on this little weekend trip because my friend and I had gotten tickets to see Tsukista’s 6th Stage Kurenai Enishi. I would’ve stayed longer but I wanted to save my vacation days for next year :P Luckily, my friend was able to meet me in Tokyo from the area of Japan she currently lives in and stayed with me for the weekend to watch the show.

I arrived Friday evening and checked into the hostel. It had the best prices for the area and was super clean and easy to check in and out - I would definitely stay there again! After that I met @lavendermintrose at Animate since I wanted to buy a penlight and shop around for a bit. We then made a spontaneous visit to the karaoke place with the Tsukista drink collab~

My other friend arrived at the hostel later that night, and we ate a late-night meal and were up until like 2am drafting fan letters on our phones to write onto stationary the next day.

On Saturday we went to Harajuku for breakfast (see first pic at the top) and scoped out the Tsukipro Harajuku Shop. We had timeslots to enter on Sunday, but we passed by it to take a look at how it was set up. After that we tried to get to the train station as fast as possible in order to get to the theater in time for the merch queue to start but Takeshita Dori was looking like this:

which is sooo much worse than Times Square so we were crawling at a snail’s pace back to the station. After the trainride, we got off in Shinjuku where the theater was and it was a bit complicated to find since Google Maps had us cross through and mall and back outside to find the theater (that’s also connected to a movie theater). The line had only opened up 5mins before we got there but there were already so many people ahead of us:

(the entrance is a little past that white sign board with colored rectangles). The wait didn’t feel too long ince they opened sales a bit earlier than the scheduled time and it moved pretty quickly.

My and my friend’s matching tsukiusas (+ my Sing Together Forever usa). I don’t do itabags so I at least brought these little guys.

The merch form~ They got stricter with the purchase limit for this stage (like one copy of each CD per person). (+ check out that girl's Aoi and Yoru itabag in the background)

The hallway to the merch sale tables/entrance to the theater was lined with Kurenai Enishi posters with art of the nenchuu by Jiku-sensei. They matched the red walls nicely lol.

(My face looks really weird in this pic so I covered it lmao) but I was super excited in line 😂 After buying all of out stuff there was a little over an hour until the show started so we got some food and the food court next door and started writing our letters:

My friend wrote one for Yuusaku and gifted local omiyage from her region. I wrote one for Yuusaku and one for Yuusuke. Technically my friend wrote it for me since my handwriting absolutely sucks and we were pressed for time (I would’ve taken forever to write the kana) but I wrote the whole message and she just copied the Japanese onto paper. I handwrote the English I included at the end and also signed it. I included some gifts I brought with me from NY to give to them as well.

We got to the theater as doors opened and placed our letters and gifts in the boxes then picked up the premium seat bonuses (2 group bromides and a shrine charm in the 3rd pic from the top). The charm was one of six color combos depending on which day it was and luckily for me that day was the Rui/Iku colors! Ours were in the 6th or 7th row off to the right. The stage was very wide and we were right in front of the little side-stage area where the actors come out from.

I won’t spoil the plot but I will say that people cried during one of the more dramatic scenes. I wouldn’t say it’s as sad as Yunemigusa though lol (I saw ver. Red btw). It was really cool seeing the new cast for the first time, and I think they all did a fantastic job!

The Mutsuki-kun higawari had Gaku (Haru’s actor) as some evil guy trying to defeat Kakeru who is trying to become a stronger ninja. At first it was just a pair of sunglasses talking while Gaku did the voiceover from backstage but then he appeared on stage in a white lab coat. It was really funny, but I can’t put my finger on what exactly his character was supposed to be referencing lol. Also random note: there was a reoccurring mushroom joke that I also found really funny lol.

The songs in Kurenai Enishi weren’t my favorite per se (I’m not a huge fan of slow songs) but they matched the mood and tone of the show very well. However, I do love the theme song since it’s catchy and makes me want to chant along with it lol.

Since I watched the Red version with Procellarum as the focus, the dance live was their group songs and solo character songs from the 2nd season of CDs. The background dancers were the Six Gravity counterparts from the same age group. Rui is my fave and Yuusaku was soooo cute performing “Oh… Yes!” Ryoki did a great job as Iku, and his dancing looked so pro I was amazed. I was really bopping to You’s “Manatsu no Summer” and he went into the crowd for fanservice as usual lol. For the entirety of Yoru’s song, I was just staring at Yuusaku’s face cuz he’s so bright and sparkly~ He had a big smile on just like Tani’s Yoru and looked like he was having fun. During Kai’s “Beast Master,” I was on the side Haru was mostly dancing on, and let me just say Gaku went IN on the hip movements and overall risqué dance moves lmao. Can’t wait to see that again on the DVD 😂 Taka had big shoes to fill as Shun, but he was great throughout the play and dance live (sasuga idols) and his Shun voice was even super similar to Tomoyuu’s.

At the end they performed “Tsuki no Uta” with both groups which was a lot of fun. I was debating whether or not to change penlight colors at each verse but it would’ve been too difficult lol. I had them on Rui and Iku for the whole duration of the song, but did all the name-yelling fanchants which was fun to be a part of (this was my first time at a jp live event). At the end when everyone runs back and forth on the stage waving goodbye, I was sitting close enough to the stage to tell who in the crowd they were looking at, and I got waves from Iku (who probably saw me frantic waving my green and brown penlights) and Kai! Kai also did a finger gun shoot to the girl 2 seats away from me (sitting next to my friend) since she had a Kai uchiwa and she was crying tears of joy all after that lol.

The closing message for that performance was from Yuusuke, and I could tell he was a bit nervous trying to get words out but he looked genuinely happy to be up there on stage. (Honestly, stan Akiba Yuusuke, he’s adorable).

After it was over, I wanted to watch it again, it felt so short! But we met up with Lavender for some more Tsukista collab karaoke and talked about the show and fangirled over stuff. I kept getting Shun coasters when buying the collab drinks, but in the end I ended up with a Rui at least so all was well. I need some more Growth fans to karaoke with so we can all harmonize on the songs 😂

On Sunday, we went to the Tsukipro Harajuku Shop, but I’ll include that in a separate posts since I hit picture limit in this one already. Overall, I had a fun time and I’m super glad I was able to fulfill one of my goals which was to watch a Tsukista show live! I landed back home at 8pm on Sunday and thankfully I was able to wake up in time for work the next day (due in part to me sleeping most of the plane ride back). 10/10 would do a weekend trip (or longer) again for a stage play or concert 👍

#my digressings #tokyo trip 2018 #tsukista #kurenai enishi

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lastoneout · 5 years

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My chronic pain is in such a weird place rn.

Like I'm mostly ok during the day as long as I t do anything too strenuous, but when I try to sleep it gets worse and bugs me all night, and when I wake up my knees just hurt until I get going.

And its still bad enough during the day that I havent been able to take the dogs out on walks which isnt good for me or them cuz it's usually the only kind of exercise I get, plus I've barely been able to do more than half an hour of chores.

And I'm drinking soda again even though I tried to stop since given that I don't get a lot of activity I've been gaining weight and my teeth already suck so soda is Bad but the new pain meds they have me on make me super fucking nauseous even when I eat and the only thing that helps is ginger ale and I cant afford the expensive healthier stuff so I'm stuck drinking Canada Dry which is terrible for me but I cant just be nauseous all day so idk I guess I'll die.

Plus I found out that my mom, grandma and my aunt are all really sensitive to most anesthetics so when my pain management specialist does the weird 'stick big ass needles into my knees' thing I likely will have to be awake and I'm fucking terrified of needles and they wont let my boyfriend come back with me so I'm legit worried I'm gonna faint which idk at least I'll be out for it but ugh

And tbh I kinda hate my primary for a lot of reasons but when he refers me out to places he keeps sending me to these clearly franchised for-profit clinics which dont really give off the vibe that they particularly give a shit about me so on top of my primary being a sexist pos who is about a month away from totally giving up on me I have to deal with these impersonal doctors who just wanna shove pain meds at me and call it a day. I mean they legit just asked if I wanted pain meds. I thought my doctor was supposed to look at my chart and help determine what would be the best course of action for my particular problems but no she just asks what I want to do despite the fact that I am not a medical professional and then just does whatever I suggest while half-heartedly chiming in with weird ideas I've never heard of. Like that is not??? What doctors are supposed to do??? I thought?????

And my primary is legit about to just give up on me. Like it took me years to get someone to take my pain seriously and now that he's sent me to a handful of specialists who have quickly decided that they can't help he bascially just shrugged and asked 'what my life would be like if they never could figure out what was causing the pain' and I'm like?? Bitch Im only 23 and you, without determining the cause, are completely comfortable with condemning me to a life of pain??? Like the pain management thing legit feels like a death sentence. It feels like end of life care and it's so disheartening to go there and have them solve hydrocodone in my face and call it a day like the solved any of my problems. I do not react well to opioids and so I cant take them and then go to work. It doesn't even fully get rid of the pain! So I'm just supposed to spend the rest of my days suffering in a drug induced haze doing nothing because even sitting in a normal chair for more than an hour hurts like hell??

Plus the social security office denied my disability claim despite my doctor bascially giving up and saying I'm disabled and all of the people I called who are supposed to help me appeal it either said they were too busy or legit said that since I'm so young it would be too hard to prove I cant work so its not even worth the time to try.

So what I'm too young to be suffering like this but I'm also apparently old enough that my doctor is willing to give up on me. Wtf am I supposed to do then???

Like lord this whole process has been a neverending nightmare and I'm so fucking tired and I dont want my life to be over I don't want this to stop me but if no one is willing to help I don't know how I'm supposed to manage. I want to go to school but I dont have a car and it's too hard to take the bus everywhere when standing for more than an hour or two hurts. Even if I got a wheelchair I would still have to push myself around and the closest bus stop is up big hill covered in gravel and sand that isnt exactly accessible.

Like...what am I even gonna do.

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hehemylifestories · 4 years

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Gosh Darn Breakup

I know break ups are hard but dang, never knew they were that bad. It’s like you're lying there in pain and wanting to be with that person. But you can't, they're gone, they aren’t with you anymore. You yearn for them, yet they are the one you're crying about…

You know that feeling when you miss someone so much and you know that you will never see them again. More specifically see them the same way. That feeling when they were your everything and now they aren’t. That feeling when you both had plans for the future with each other and you know they won’t happen. Dates you had planned together for when they were going to come back over and see you. You got rid of them because you were both tired physically and mentally of the long distance. And the fact that he wouldn’t be able to concentrate and keep his scholarship, which means not achieving his goals. So you broke up with them in the hopes that they are more able to better themselves. Because u jus’ knew that u were the thing holding them back. And now that they are without you, you are proud of them for growing, but disappointed in the fact that you made the decision to not be there with them through their growth. But u don’t want them to see that you miss them. Not like they can anyways, they’re so far away. You miss everything about them. You miss their contagious smile, the random noises they make when they’re bored or stressed, the “flirty” wink, the little scars all over their legs from when they were younger, their smell, their fav food binge sessions at 2 in the morning not caring how loud they are, their baggy clothes, their ur mom jokes at the wrong moment. Their love for the game of basketball, their love to learn, how their eyes light up when they talk about becoming a doctor for NASA with you. You knowing the whole time you won’t make it with them. U miss their quirky things. Their tendency to walk and talk flawlessly all the time except for when they start skipping. Where they then have a tendency to trip and face plant or another time ( which is even funnier) when they can’t say a single word because they are so excited so it just comes out as a blur of words.

Long distance relationships sucks butt. You only get to see them so often, and when you do it’s only for a short amount of time. To top it off you have strict parents that don’t know about the relationship. So u have to act normal all the time, clear insta and iphone messages and calls clear emails and deliveries to u. U have to act okay when you miss them or something happens between you, when u get excited or think about them, u stomach down the emotions. Your love for them and excitement has to be kept a secret to all, even the closest of friends in the hopes that no one will know or find out and tell your parents. Even more so, they won’t talk to you now because times are messed up and you broke their heart. His friends won’t answer you, his instagram page hasn’t been active for the last 2 months, his parents don’t even know about him cause they don’t care, his teachers haven’t seen him in their classes because of the corona, etc. You start to get worried, even though you aren’t together anymore you still worry about them. You still love them. That’s how you know a relationship was a healthy one. You both miss the shit outta each other and it feels like ur heart is dying when u break up with them.It kind of feels empty on the inside, like something was legit just ripped out. And no one else understands because most haven’t had that feeling before. But you know it’s going to be better for them if you seperate.

Moments I miss with them:

The late night talks

The date watching the stars in the random field/trees

Hide and go seek in Walmart

Buying each other random socks that were cool

Riding around town with them with the windows down

Almost getting killed cuz he just had to move the hair out of ur face while driving

Laughing so hard when u both pulled all-nighters for school work

Testing each other’s knowledge in languages

Random nicknames that sound cool in other languages but in all reality are words like chicken nugget

Me being his “bishcotti” or some crap which supposedly meant chicken nugget in greek

Their eyes when they look at you how they sparkled but at the same time u could sense the love coming from them. U could see the sorrow in them but how when they looked at u everything else faded away

Calling him rain checker cuz he took so many rain checks on ft calls cuz of him being tired from school work

The deep stares you give each other meaning that you are each other’s worlds

Knowing that life without them will be difficult

Both eating our hearts content and not giving a fuck about what we might feel like afterwards

When u feel sick and they ft u the whole day through classes and everything to make sure that you are ok

writing a love letter and when he got nosy u ate the sheet of paper so he wouldn’t see... almost choking because he was tickling u to try and get it out of ur mouth from laughing

Only fighting once and that was on the day of the break up

Not fighting because you understood that fighting is dangerous, so instead if you get mad u talk about it and work it out

Learning to love ourselves more and grow stronger with each other

His laugh when he was tired

How his accent changed from a deep southern accent to a thick greek boi accent

Having thick offs at 3 in the morning

Pulling all nighters to talk to each other

Discussing things that hurt us in the past and how our kids won’t have the same thing

Knowing that his parents hated him and having to mom him every now and then

Complimenting him on looking good and handsome because he did, but more so he needed that confirmation

Wearing his clothes while he was away

Having him send my things and his hoodies over to his friends and having them give them to me so that we wouldn’t get caught

Loving each other with everything we had

Knowing that we had been through friends deaths together, seen too many things then we should have and continuing to push through

Both having to deal with mental disorders because of shit we’d been through in the past

Days where we would go out looking like hot trash together

Doing modeling shoots together

Playing basketball at random gyms to see who was better

Debating on who was better at playing basketball, who was smarter, who looked better in what

Wearing a sports bra and him strangling u to put on his hoodie because “he couldn’t take me in just a sports bra and spandex”

Not wanting each other for sex

Wanting each other for the relationship, for love, to put the best in each other’s lives

Growing in every aspect of our lives

Style changing from hoe to bro

Finding who each other looked like P

LAYING/DANCING IN THE RAIN

The night where I got stuck i the mud and couldn’t get out, and you stood there laughing your tushee off instead of helping

Making jokes about that night for forever

Him ordering food in the drive through and us changing seats and him moving to the back to see what their reaction is

Laughing our butts off when we go people watching

Learning that love is a choice and u have to keep pushing for more because you become addicted

Corny pickup lines

Corny nicknames only when we are around each other and no one else

Loving the little mistakes the other one makes because they remind us that they are human too every now and then

Him wearing your hoodie and it looking better on him than you

Him stretching your favorite shirt and buying you another one because he felt bad

When he got drunk the night after his parents hurt him so u had to take him to one of his friends houses and stayed the whole night with him to make sure he was ok and didn’t have nightmares. He also drunkingly kissed you without paying attention and said i love you so purely. Then saying “shit, that was too early in the relationship wasn’t it.” Him not remembering a single thing in the morning except for what his parents did to him, and waking up next to you shaking

u waking up to him shaking and rubbing his back and talking to him, telling him that everything was going to be okay

How he always slept with a knife in his hand and when u tried to move it he gripped it tighter, so u had to talk to him and tell him it was you and he would slowly lose his grip

Waking up in his arms after a nap and not wanting it to end

Debating which dessert was more delicious

Baking together and making huge messes

Icing getting all over each other’s faces and just kissing it off

Trying to bake cool stuff and failing gloriously

Going to random stores and trying on clothes and acting how models aren’t supposed to

Risking getting arrested over stupid stuff

Climbing those electric eiffel towers and watching the sunset/sunrise

Falling off of things because u were goofing off

Trying to sing to a song because i love it and u just sitting there admiring my “talent”

Dressing up like i’m going to one of my model shoots so that you can show me off to ur toxic friends and mean exs

Wrapping ourselves up like tortillas with blankets and wobbling to the bed and flopping on and laughing because we look so stupid

Watching the stars and talking about our goals in life

Talking about weird dreams we had and what they might mean

Talking about how God puts us in certain situations and loving how He gave us each other

Sleeping with each other’s fav stuffed animals

Play fighting in public and we both ended up on the floor laughing

Playing basketball with each other and u bear hugging me so i can’t score

When we played basketball that one day and i scored in your face, and started to leave but u said “hey come here”, and u pulled me in hugged me and said “i’m gonna miss you too” hugged me tighter i looked up and u kissed me on my forehead then u said “i love you”

afterwards we texted the whole night

Not being able to drop u off at the airport or say goodbye because life happened and u calling me the whole time and telling me it was going to be ok

Sweet talking to me in greek

Learning french together because ur both such nerds

Both of us having glasses because we stayed up too late as kids to read books in the dark

Doing morning devotionals together

Managing school work and life together

Discussing plans for each other’s week, who was staying in better shape, etc.

Talking about how each other were doing and answering honestly

Asking for advice on how to keep going when life got rough

Him cussing out old teammates because he would get so mad.. Like jus to me not to them

Never going on a roller skating date because we both didn’t want to get hurt or have to pay for the trip to the ERRRRRR

Never going on local dates so no one would see us and recognize who we are

Getting a pet fish together and taking care of it, naming him bob and bob was too well taken care of; both of us crying when bob ross da fish died

Having a mini funeral for bob

Watching romantic movies for comedy because they are so pathetic

Laughing at how pathetic sex was in movies and what we would do if we actually did it

Playing strip or dare

Him trying to teach me how to do my hair and makeup

Him laughing at me for being such a tom boi and not having any idea how to dress up

Picking out outfits for each other

Trusting each other to be around the opposite gender and not having to worry

Allowing the other to have girl best friends and not care because he was loyal like that

TRUST

Praying together

Only three of his friends knowing about me, and telling me how much he thinks about me and what he thinks of me

Learning how much he’s sacrificed to reach his goal

His friends calling me after we broke up and telling me how much he missed me, me explaining to them that I was what was holding him back. Them disagreeing and telling me that i was what kept him alive most nights when his depression got bad

Learning how to calculate the time distance and waking up at 2 in the morning so that we could talk.

Giving up so much time to talk with each other about EVERYTHING, every lil’ thing from what we ate that day to how our breath changed just slightly in math

Him making fun of me for not being able to understand simple math because i over thought it like usual

Helping me with basic high school stuff, and how to get an easy A his way

Climbing random things

Running through random parking lots

Running together

Getting high off of dopamine and endorphins and saying the stupidest things and laughing… then later making inside jokes off of how high we were

Hitting the wall as they say after running for so long, and just sitting there laughing in the middle of this neighborhoods road

Making christmas cookies together and having to make a whole new batch because we ate all the cookie dough

Icing the cookies and getting icing all over each other and the kitchen..

Wiping it off by hosing him with the kitchen sink sprayer. His reaction being to take his hoodie & shirt off saying “dang, u could’ve just asked me to take it off.”

Him grabbing me and just holding on tight

The long lasting hugs after not seeing each other for long periods of time When I was sick and him coming to school to see the “bros” but in all reality coming to see me

When i fell asleep scared after THAT night, him taking his hands through my hair telling me he would always be there for me, him getting ice and trying to help the bruise go away, staying the whole night w/ me and reading stories to me until I went back to sleep. Waking up shaking and him talking softly and rubbing my arms until I calmed down. Making me dinner because I hadn’t eaten that whole week to make sure my brother had enough food for lunch. Making me eat. Helping me calm down everytime I started crying cuz of the stuff that happened.

After THAT night, he always checked in on me when he heard I was acting funny. If he ever saw me flinch at a sudden movement he would apologize and help me calm down.

HE HELPED ME COPE W/ MY ANXIETY & DEPRESSION

If he ever noticed a bruise he would persist to ask where it came from

Growing over my fear of swimming with him lovingly forcing me to swim with him at first in his arms going slow then eventually to where i went on my own

#urwannabeotpidekfandomsumsumtiggitytag #otp #ship #love #bftohoefriend #lovehim #misshim #don't tell him I miss him #cute

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surveys-at-your-service · 7 years

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Survey #72

hey ya’ll, kinda conflicting moods in this survey; the earlier, dreary-sounding answers, please do not worry about them, as i took this over the course of longer than a week. i was hospitalized this past week and am currently home safe again. i just don’t feel like going back changing answers, lol.

are you currently distressed about anything? yes, quite a bit. i found the gem to the ring jason gave me, but i can't find the ring itself... i really wanna fix it and wear it. i'm pretty damn upset about the situation, considering how much i cherish anything i've ever had from him. do you like your pop tarts toasted or cold? i like them how they are in the package. do you like sitting in the front, back, or middle of the classroom? i prefer the front, 'cuz i can see better and i feel more obligated to engage. what’s your least favorite flavor of candy? orange do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? no. which is worse: living where there’s lots of tornadoes or lots of hurricanes? tornadoes, definitely. i live where there are plenty of hurricanes, and the last one we had that was truly devastating was floyd, and that occurred when i was a very young child. tornadoes, meanwhile, are more immediately dangerous. have you ever seen a black rose? no, but i would loooove to... do you like pie? no, actually. if you died right now, how would you feel about your life? it was a nightmare. do you have any morbid interests? gore and guts. bones. death itself, kinda. if someone were to ask you if you were okay right now, are you? no. i'm currently waiting for the suicide hotline's online chat room to open up. i've been a wreck all evening and google searched something i shouldn't have; google gave me the number to the hotline as well as the option to chat online. i broke the fuck down. i've been waiting for a spot to open for like ten minutes... have you ever thrown up from working out? no, but i know i've been close. do you have any gay family members? i think i have an uncle who is? would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? fuck yes i would be. (new day.) would you date someone who still lived with their parents? uhhh, why wouldn't i...? would you have to sleep with someone before marrying them? nope. would you enjoy a night of playing video games? very much so. would you watch a porno with your partner? absolutely not. would you be okay with your partner hanging with their ex as friends? errr... i hate admitting this, but no. it's suspicious. coffee or tea? i have a strong dislike of both, really. when was the last time you climbed a tree?  never; nc doesn't really have climbable trees, just pines. what clubs do/did you participate in at school?  i was in the art club and shit, what was it called... it was for honors students... what is something you and your best friend say/do that seems strange to an outsider?  act gay as hecke do you like to sleep near the wall, the middle, or the open side of the bed?  open side. what’s the strangest rumor that has ever been spread about you?  a rumor started in high school that jason and i had had a baby. a rachel is who told the person who told me, soooo i'm not stupid. i know which rachel started it. how involved were you in the drama of your high school? not at all. do you like to cuddle while you are sleeping? all night, no. when jason and i were dating, i would usually begin sleeping cuddled with him, but would pull away during the night because i got hot. what are you favorite places to be touched?  i'm guessing you mean sexually? personally my breasts are very sensitive to touch. do you like lip biting? again, in a sexual context? sure. describe your first date. jason took mom and me to see "ghost rider 2." i personally thought it was very cute that he wanted mom to come, too. what really goes on in your head? memories, poisoned with remorse. i'm always looking back and missing how things used to be. death and decay goes on in my head. passions pass away, and the darkness that i try so hard to keep in the back of mind envelops its entirety more and more each time i weaken. i don't mean to sound all dark or poetic, it's just... how i describe things. i wish just one person would understand exactly what's happening up there. do other people’s opinions mean anything to you? sometimes. have you ever just wanted to run away to see who would follow? i have run away, and nearly got the police on my ass. have you ever had a hamster as a pet? multiple times. all were assholes. who do you really need in your life? jason. yet he's not here. way down in there’s any part of you sad at all? all parts of me are sad. what’s your favorite type of insect? i really love butterflies, moths, dragonflies, ladybugs... is there anything worrying you right now? if so, have you talked to anyone about it? when am i not worried... i'm so scared jason won't come back. the last person i talked to about it was virginia, his mom. i was suicidal last night and was very, very sincerely contemplating killing myself, and i wanted to talk to him, because i feel like he's the only one who can talk me out of it. so i found their number and called their house past midnight. i talked to virginia; jason had just gone to bed, and she didn't want to wake him up. she's such a sweet woman... she tried so hard to help, but it was all in vain. apart from sleeping, what do you plan to do tonight? cry, i'm sure. does anyone see you as a role model? i'm certain that's a no. what is something that you’ve recently learned? it's very likely i have bpd. what is your most expensive possession? the laptop jason gave me... but it's broken right now. what’s the worst sickness you’ve ever had? aside from mental illness, the worst physical illness was just a REALLY bad stomach virus. i've never even had the flu. are you excited to pick out your wedding dress one day?  if i ever get married... then yeah. it's one of my fairytales. what kind of music do you tend to like? heavy metal, some harder rock. do you have any mental disorders? and they're going to kill me. do you believe everything happens for a reason? fuck that. do you know anyone who married their high school sweetheart? yes. do you live in the moment? i live in the past. how many more minutes until you will next eat? i should've eaten an hour ago. but i'm too upset to be hungry. what do/did you normally get detentions for? i only ever got detention for too many tardies. what do you currently hear? "i don't love you" by my chemical romance, my typing, my sniffling, and my heart pounding in my head. do you ever worry about what the world will be like when you have kids? i won't have kids anyway. i don't even know why i'm spending my time doing this survey. i'm procrastinating on looking for any sleeping pills in the house. i'm done. do you like the band a skylit drive? i like their cover of "love the way you lie" who’s someone you want to see right now? jason. he could stop this. i know he could. have you ever been stung by anything? no, i haven't. have you ever parked in a handicapped spot when you weren’t supposed to? no, i fucking hate people who do that. are you paranoid? only always. (next week) are you currently learning from anyone how to play any instruments? nope. would you rather be able to teleport or freeze time? which one seems best? hmmm. teleport, i guess. do you like soda pop? if so, which is your favorite and least favorite? i sadly do. i loooove mountain dew, and i really hate pepsi. does it annoy you when surveys ask questions about controversial topics, or do you like arguing your point? i like controversial questions, honestly. i like making a point. are there any specific piercings you would never, ever get done? the only piercing i would never get, even for a ludicrous amount of money, is around my private area. nope. assuming you had sufficient funds, would you be capable of living alone, paying bills and looking after yourself properly? honestly, no. probably not. do you know anyone who had to have tubes put in their ears as a baby? meeee! were either of your parents baptized? idk the last concert that you were at, was there a mosh pit? ha ha omg, a mosh pit at an alice cooper concert in north carolina... that'd be a sight to see. does your bathroom have a theme to it? nope. when you are eating fast food, do you tend to get burgers or chicken? burgers, almost always. are you self-conscious of your smile? yes, because my eyes squint. what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? writing. sometimes drawing. what color do you really want to dye your hair? GRAY. mom won't let me. :( sunrise or sunset? sunset is prettier, imo. what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? i love some of the petnames colleen calls me, honestly. it's just sweet. what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. socks suck. period. i avoid them at all costs. have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? how flexible you think i am, fam? do you play the wii? very rarely. be honest, did fifty shades of grey arouse you in any way? i didn't read/watch it, and i have no plans to. do have faith in yourself? lmao did you parents know what gender you were before you were born? i'm not sure, actually. i do know, however, everyone first thought i was a boy; i always had my legs crossed in the ultrasound. mom, however, "knew" i was a girl. does your mother still take care of you if you get ill? not really. like i guess if i called her to get me some ginger ale or something, she'd do it, but i kinda just take care of myself. is there a certain topic that you struggle to talk about, because it makes you feel uncomfortable? not really. if you’re not in college, why? because i mentally cannot handle the stress it causes. do you try to avoid burping in public, or are you open about it? after all, it is a normal bodily function. i'm very discreet about it normally, just because of social standards. around family and very close friends, i don't give a shit. do you like regular peppermint candy canes, or do you prefer different flavored ones [fruits, bubble gum, cinnamon, etc.]? i like the fruity flavors. what do you think is the dumbest / tackiest piercing? i don't really know. have you ever requested a song on the radio? no. would you ever dye your hair black? i have before and i loved it. when did you last see the person you love/like? when will you next see them? i saw him yesterday... and i probably never will again... is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind atm? do you think that person will be thinking about you too? he always is, and i can absolutely guarantee he's not thinking about me. do you know the star sign of the last person you kissed? he's an aquarius, like me. what’s the naughtiest thing you’ve ever done, and you got away with it? got sexual on my parents' bed, i guess. who was the last person of the opposite sex to make you smile? are you attracted to that person? jason, and yeah... do you currently have any medicine in your bag / purse / etc? if so, what kind? no, i'm not allowed to. i overdosed the other day. what do you like on your pasta / noodles? sauce, butter, grated cheese, etc.? sauce, always. are you weary of displaying signs of affection for your significant other around adults? why or why not? no, because love should be very openly celebrated. do you think teenagers can be in love? absolutely. i was and still am now from the same relationship as an adult. how fast does your mood change? 0-100 real quick, boo. at this moment in time if you HAD to have someone’s name tattooed on you who’s would it be? uhhh... literally no one's. i just wouldn't. well uh, i guess if it was life or death, uhhh... probably jason's, honestly?? but realistically, i never would get anyone's?? what’s your all-time favorite COMEDY movie? hm. maybe "white chicks" or "rush hour 2" how old is your most recent ex? he's 23. how many keys are on your key chain? two how does your hair look right now? it's all big and suuuuper curly!!! chelsea did it. :D does your house have a white picket fence? nope. do you wear bracelets? no, never. when was the last time you had sex? never. #regret do you have a wild side? only j's seen it, honestly... heh. what is your favorite thing about going to your grandma’s house? literally. nothing. who did you last have an alcoholic drink with? chelsea. good day. where do you plan on living within the next few years? probably the same 'ole north carolina. do you have an addiction? debatably the internet, but i honestly consider it more of a dependence. if you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2016, absolutely. do you believe you should change who you are for the person you love? to a degree, sure. when you’re home alone, do you still keep the door closed when you shower? the bathroom door is open, my room door is closed. do you currently have a hickey? i wish ha ha. now your cell phone, what color is it? black. how many times have you gotten into a argument with the last person you kissed? plenty of times. what color is your hair? ruby red, with redder highlights and brown roots coming in. your parents are divorced/married/separated? divorced have you ever let someone be your everything? and i'm a broken person because of it. do you think that you’re good enough for the one you like? no. he made it clear i deserve to suffer for giving up. have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? ahhh, yes. (: have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend who was depressed? no. do you like sitting on the inside or outside of a restaurant booth? inside. feel safer/cozier. have you ever had sex or something like it? something like it, sure, but not actual sex. have you ever worn fishnets? i don't think so... but maybe for dance? do you always wear your seat belt? yep. have you ever liked someone much older than you? not seriously. are there any diseases/health problems that run in your family? oh god. heart disease, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, asthma, cancer, depression, bipolarity, more shit i'm forgetting... do you have asthma? no. are tongue piercings slutty? ... no? last person to take off your pants, besides you? jason. when you get colds, do you use nasal spray to help get your nose unstuffy? yep. what’s your second favorite color? pink, probably. how many times have you been so drunk you didn’t remember the night before? never. what sexual kinks do you personally enjoy, if any? i actually had to look up some kinks bc idk if some things are considered kinks or not? evidently even something as common as spanking is, and i'm into that very mildly. anr (i think that's be abbreviation, probably wrong...) is something that's like guaranteed to turn me on. i also like feeling/acting sexually submissive in general, but i deeefinitely wouldn't consider it to the point of the dom/sub kink. ever faked an orgasm? no. own some type of work out machine? not anymore. ever wanted to be a vet? i did as a child, yes. ever flashed someone you liked? i maybe have to jason, while alone with him, but even then i'm not certain i ever have. ever had a job? if so, what and for how long? first job i had for a month or two. second, like, four days. do you have a favorite sexual position, even if you’re a virgin? missionary is all i've ever tried and i'm fine with that. ever done oral? with how many people? yes, one. what condom brand do you use? i don't use them because i don't have sex. on the one occasion jason bought condoms just to be safe in case we chose to, i'm not sure what brand he got... do you use flavored/scented/glow-in-the-dark/neon/ribbed condoms? again, i don't use them, but also once more, on the one occasion jason bought some, they were just normal. what about facebook - do your grandparents use facebook? my maternal grandmother does. do you have any text messages from your ex, or have you deleted them all? no. the phone i've had i got after the breakup, so. tell me 3 facts about the first person you had a relationship with. i've "dated" three people, but i've definitely only had a romantic relationship with one, so i'm using him in this question. he loves games of all kinds, he's a huge joker (particularly heath ledger's) fan, and he's studying computer engineering/he's in his last semester. think about your last ex. do you still find him/her attractive? he's very handsome, yes. do you regret kissing the last person you kissed? i never will. have you ever wanted to be a teacher? nope. if someone were to ask you out right now, would you say yes? the only person i'd say yes to would be jason. what was the last thing you took medication for? my tremors. if someone offered you sex right now, how would you respond? again, i'd only yes to jason. do you think you’ve found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with? i don't think i found the person, i know i did. yet i can't. be honest, what do you want more than anything at this moment in time? i just want to cuddle with jason. have you had any conversations recently that made you feel uncomfortable or upset? i talked to jason, face-to-face, two days ago to assist me in gaining closure. very long story short, i was quiiite upset after he left. what’s the farthest away from home you have ever been? michigan the last person you had a thing with calls wanting to hang out. what do you do? say "of course!" in probably the most excited voice ever. what is your favorite shade of blue? hmm. navy, i assume. what ozzy lyric describes you best? a suRVEY QUESTION REGARDING MY FAVORITE ARTIST??? HELL YEAH!! anyway, i've felt a resonance with "you don't have to leave the lights on; i'm so used to being blind" from "tomorrow" for many years. what was the most important decision you made that screwed up your life the most? giving up on just that: life. what is love really about? it's science, but also something inexplicable. it's the perfect combination of your brain's "happy hormones," and only that one person can achieve that certain mixture. granted, there are different kinds of love, and each one is unique. what metallica lyric most describes your life? wHO FUCKING WROTE THIS, ANOTHER QUESTION W/ ANOTHER FAVORITE ARTIST??? I WANNA MARRY THE SURVEY MAKER PLS. um anyway let's see, i could really list a few. first, i wanna say i feel a VERY strong connection to "the unforgiven ii" as a whole; all the lyrics mean very much to me. but if you want a particular lyric, these couple mean the world: "how can i be lost, if i've got nowhere to go? / and how can i blame you, when it's me i can't forgive?" from "the unforgiven iii" omgggg i could keep going on ;-; ever been to ozzfest? girl, I WISH. what's the most illegal thing you've done? just downloading music. wait actually, probably downloading an expensive program illegally. ever have a tornado in your town? i don't think so. what percentile of your class were you in? idk about numbers, but the very top. i got an award for it. idk what ever happened... can you name every place you've ever had sex? i've never had sex, but i've gotten sexual on my bed, his bed, the floor, the couch, the chaise... what forms of birth control have you used? abstinence is... pretty flawless. handcuffs or rope :D? errr, i'm guessing you're addressing being tied up sexually? i'm... kinda into the idea of being handcuffed to something, maybe. *shrugs* ever grown any plants before? what were they? habaneros, zinnias, sunflowers... how many times did you intentionally start to commit suicide? three. i was going to slit my throat on two occasions, and on the last, i overdosed. what is your favorite cover song? "hurt" by johnny cash. "another brick in the wall" by korn is a close second. ever raise a child that wasn't your own for more than 3 months? nope. strangest medical procedure ever performed on you? idk, i guess just getting tubes put in my ears. if you ever got a tattoo, where would you get it? i already have three and want loads more like... everywhere. most specifically though, i think sternum tattoos are drop-dead gorgeous. could you ever go vegetarian? no. i enjoy meat too much. how do you fall asleep? [i.e, listening to music, reading, daydreaming…] just thinking... have you ever been chased by bees? omg no. what is your opinion on homosexuality? it's a mutation, but that does not make it wrong. what is your biggest fear in life? being alone in life. not being able to function properly in the "real world" is a close second. when was the last time you kissed someone? 2015 are you sick quite often or hardly at all? hardly at all. proud of that 'ole immune system. has anyone suspected you of being a different sexuality? apparently. do you like chocolate or vanilla cake more? chocolate, definitely. does it bother you to have blood drawn or not so much? no, but i actually have noticed something: it began to bother me ever so slightly more after jason passed out from me getting my blood taken that one time. i think it's because of how i look up to and see him in general, seeing him react to something like that, a part of my brain wants to believe "omg that has to be dangerous then." but in general, i don't really have issue with getting my blood drawn. who would you say is your best friend at the moment? colleen. always. how long have you two been best friends? over two years. do you sometimes think you aren’t as fortunate as others? it's not something i dwell on, but i know i'm not. have you ever tried opening your eyes under water? i have, and i'm bad at it. have you ever been admitted to the hospital? only six times. what would you say is your favorite type of flower? tiger lilies, i think. how old is your pet? teddy is ten, cali isss... three, i think, bentley's not even a year, and lexi is around two, probs. do you listen to artists who consist more of guys, girls, or both? i seem to prefer male artists. what’s your first tattoo? a semicolon butterfly on my right wrist. what song do you listen to when you’re sad? "perfectly flawed" by otep is common. hence my tattoo. <3 is there a person in your life that can always make you smile? not anymore. are you scared about the end of the world? not really, because i don't think i'll be around to see it. will you ever get a tattoo? i have three and want more. my next tattoo will be an adaptation of "denialism" by deviantart's tatchit. look it up, it is honestly a phenomenal work of art. when you get yelled at, do you yell back or let it go? well first, i get triggered. yelling triggers memories of my parents fighting so much. odds are, i'll yell back, but it really depends. do you share a computer with your siblings? nooo. do you have mood swings? badly. do you have any bruises on you? yes, from getting my blood drawn so much recently. the iv left a good one. have you had sex today? girl, i wish. has the last person you kissed ever made you cry? plenty of times. be honest with yourself, are you proud of your actions? some yes, some no. it just. varies. for the most part, i guess so, like i can't deny i'm a fighter, but i just feel weak sometimes. if you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? honestly, i would get a tiny heart on the side of my face if it wasn't for societal standards and the strong odds of unemployment for having a tat on my face. what is something you find romantic? flowers, picnics, walks in the park, oh man, i could go on for HOURS. you can make SO many things romantic. what makes you attracted to the person you like right now? his personality. what, if anything, is too serious to be joked about? rape is #1 for me. just don't. would you rather live in a castle or a spaceship? castle, hell yeah!! has someone ever made you a build-a-bear? OMG NO I WOULD DIE THAT'D BE PRECIOUS what are your initials? bmd, or bmcd if you want my catholic name. what is your definition of “having sex”? penal-vaginal penetration. who was the last person you were “in a relationship with” on facebook (including anyone you may have put “in a relationship with” for a joke)? jason. do you think a relationship with a 16-year-old girl and a 35-year-old man would work out? do you think age differences like that (when they’re under 18) should be legal? they should absolutely not be legal. just... no. i don't support big age gaps like that. what do you think of open relationships? if your partner suggested it, what would you say? HA. no. and if he suggested it, i'd leave his ass. would you ever date out of your race? mhmm. have you ever had a reptile for a pet? i've had one lizard, two snakes. what kinds of alcohol do you like? only ever tried mike's hard lemonade and smirnoff, and both are fine. did you have a swing set when you were a kid? yup. state you most want to visit? utah. fucking gorgeous. were you popular in high school? definitely not. would you rather be blind or deaf? blind, definitely. i once asked jason this and he said blind, too, "because i have to be able to hear your voice." ;;;-;;; where do you want to live when you are old? in the mountains, in the woods, in the chilly weather, pls. have you ever been in love? absolutely. with reckless abandon. have you ever caught a fish? many many times. what was your most recent ex’s middle name? alex. do you put anything weird on your scrambled eggs? (like syrup) just hot sauce. what is your states minimum wage? $7.25, save us.

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chelsorz07 · 6 years

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you know it’s not forever

I think I’m gonna stop doing these soon, since it’s been at least a year since I started the series and I have to have repeated some already. But for tonight I have nothing else to do. Also for anyone who actually cares I’m working on a fic...it’s not my first but it will be the first one I finish and publish so keep an eye out in the next couple days, Dean/Cas fans ♥

2010/2018

What's one of your locked text messages? a line from a justin bieber song that sarah sent me haha Don’t have any. This phone doesn’t delete shit apparently. Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now? at this very moment i would grow a left nut just so i could give it away if it gave me the opportunity to kick it with mah weskimo. Texas. Do you think your last ex deserves to die? i don't think about him, one way or the other. I definitely do not think that. He thinks that. And I try to convince him every day that he’s wrong, just like he does for me. Who was the last person you slept in the same bed with? david. Dave but he’s been gone for two weeks. Would you be mad if your best friend dated the person you like? probably, considering the person i like is my boyfriend. If my best friend dated my husband, yeah that’d be an issue. She never would though. She doesn’t even like him as a person lol Is anyone over- protective of you? my parents used to be but i think they've decided to chill for the most part. Nobody cares that much about me. Plans for tomorrow? babysitting, and hopefully walmart to get shirts to tie-dye for the summer set. Laundry, Netflix, hopefully finishing the story I’m writing. I really suck at dialogue. Have you made a mistake in the past week? i make mistakes by the hour. Constantly. I don’t recall a specific one though. Do you know anyone named Joshua? yeppp. A couple. Nobody I’ve spoken to in years. Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? more than likely. I’d like to hope so. If my marriage falls apart in the next four months I will most definitely kill myself. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? for sure. I’d do it for free. What were you doing at 7:00 AM? sleeping. Watching TWD and playing solitaire on my phone. Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months? it's been almost a year. Oh my god. Do you think two people can last forever? perhaps. I have yet to see it happen. Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever? nah. No, yesterday sucked. Work was dead and with nothing to do my feet hurt like hell, even with medical grade compression socks on. Did you ever kiss someone with a tattoo? yeah. Yup. I would never go near that person again. I was 19 and stupid and he was a filthy liar. What did you do today? watched maranda, cleaned up the house a little. that's pretty much it. Slept mostly. Picked up the living room. Watched tv. Looked at real estate listings. Talked to my dad. It was a decent day. Last time you laughed super hard? no idea. i laugh all the time. Can’t remember. I tend not to laugh really hard when I’m alone. Which I usually am. Do you find smoking unattractive? nope. but it sucks being around all my friends who smoke when i quit two and a half months ago. It probably is but I’m a chain smoker so I don’t really care. How many people do you fully trust? haha...well...used to be one. now i'm not sure i can completely trust anyone. Still one. Although the person is different. Nobody will ever have my back as much as my dad does. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? i doubt it. Um...randos at the Pittsburgh airport. Did anyone call you pretty recently? ehh...don't think so. The last person to call me pretty was me. But Mike agreed so I guess him lol Do you look decent when you wake up? depends how my previous night went. That’s a valid answer. I look shitty without makeup no matter what. If my makeup from the previous day isn’t all fucked up after I sleep then I still look good. Are you afraid of falling in love? no. If I was it’d be way too late. Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? i'd probably feel exactly the same way i felt when i woke up from a really bad dream about him yesterday morning. There would be violence involved. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? um...i don't believe so. I don’t drink anymore. There are a couple bottles of whiskey in my freezer that haven’t been touched in years, that’s about it. when was the last time you were at the beach? never. Still never. Think back to September, were you in a relationship? yep. I’ve been in a relationship for the past eight Septembers. Almost nine. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? i wouldn't. Last half of 2010, first half of 2011. Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand? most people. Fucking BARB. A lady I work with. She’s so irritating. I’ve even had customers complain to me about her voice, saying they want me to check them out instead. Who was the last person to give you a hug? maranda. Dave. What was the first thing you thought this morning? aksdfmkaoiewhfjdnf;h. ��Wtf time is it?” It was actually almost 3pm. But I don’t go to bed till the morning so. What is something that you disliked about your day? uh. everything. The fact that I was pain free most of the day and now I’m not. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a B? How many? nope. Not that I recall.

What about T? How many? no. Nope. What do you currently hear right now? commercials. Carl Grimes. And my cat snoring. Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? many times. Yep. Awkwardsauce. Who was your last text from? chele. My dad. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? no. Nope, just a voicemail from my pharmacy. Would you rather be able to control the weather or control traffic? weather. Ooh...those are my two biggest fears sooo...Idk if I could pick. Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer? computer. Computer for sure. Even with Swype. If you won a trip to a nude beach would you go or give the trip away? i wouldn't go that's for sure...but i'd figure out a way to make money off of it. I stand by that. In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? love. of course sometimes when i say i hate someone, it's just because i don't know how to tell them i love them. and furthermore, feeling like i hate someone can make me love them even more. Love. I don’t have the energy for hatred anymore. But I’ll never stop loving what I love. Would you rather sleep for 3 days, or stay awake for 3 days? sleeeeeeeep. Honestly...I don’t know now. I do love my sleep. And I’m lucky to do it for three hours at a time, let alone three days. But I’m also the world’s biggest night owl and am most productive when I should be sleeping. What time did you go to sleep last night? 5am this morning. Like 9am? I don’t remember. When was the last time you had starbucks? never have, never will. I broke my vow and had it exactly one time, a couple years ago. But I refuse to pay five dollars for coffee ever again. Timmy Ho’s and Sheetz are better and half the price. If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for? i don't believe in wishes. Money. What's the tenth text in your inbox say? "is nellie home?" from my mom. “I’m just happy you actually did something about it. Suppose I should return the favor and look into this now.” From Dave, about our respective health issues. Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss? for some reason i always do, even though he's only an inch taller than i am. I must have broken that habit somewhere along the way, because no, I didn’t. Do you like the same person you did a month ago? i've liked the same person for two years. That will never change. Would it be weird if the last person you kissed called you? yeah, cuz he's at work. and he almost never actually calls. He doesn’t call unless something is wrong. Kissed somebody whose name starts with a C T D or J? d. First name D, last name C, middle name J. All different people. Do you ever think about the past? i think about past, present, and future. Always. Do you believe exes can be friends? sometimes. They most certainly can. Do you currently have a hickey, if so where? i've never had one. Only guy who ever gave me a hickey was a complete tool and I only liked him for his southern accent. He came along a few months after the last time I took this survey, when I was on the rebound. Last night you felt? meh. Bored and in pain. What's your favorite thing to do when you're bored? play solitaire. Read fanfic or watch Youtube. In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence? yup. I haven’t. It’s been months since I even drank a beer. Does anyone know your password besides you? no. Dave knows a couple of them. What're you wearing right now? pajamas and a hoodie. Lilo & Stitch pajama pants, Supernatural Day 2017 shirt. The Hot Topical makes a lot of money from me. What were you doing when you found out Michael Jackson was dead? don't know, don't care. i never liked michael jackson. That. Do you want to see somebody right now? yes. Several people. When's the last time you cried? daily. Um...a couple days ago at work because I was in pain. And probably the same day because I was watching Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life and it always makes me cry. Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people? i'd do both. I don’t want to do anything in front of that many people. But I could sing better than I could dance. Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math? both. I sucked at both. I was strictly an English and Art kinda gal. Will you regret your next kiss? no. they're so few and far between i can't regret them. not that i would anyway. No way in hell. I relish the ones I can get. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? yeah but he doesn't ever seem to care. All the time. Everything makes me cry. Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? hopefully i'll get to see him tonight or tomorrow night when he gets done working, since i won't see him on his day off this week. Sometime between the hours of 4 and 7am next Thursday. Your boyfriend buys you flowers, you say? he's not that stupid. he knows i hate flowers. Still true, except he’s my husband now. Do you understand football? understand it and love it. The fooseball is life. I’m so freaking excited for the draft tomorrow. Is the last person you kissed mad at you? he'd have to care to be mad. Our last conversation was about travel and home buying so probably not. The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care? shut up. i'm terrified of that more than anything, because he seems to like to do dumb shit that could get him killed. and i've been having tons of dreams about it lately. What the hell kind of question is that? I’m not a sociopath. Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them in a car? yes. Our first kiss was in a car. Well not the first kiss but that’s what we spent the entire rest of that night doing lol...There have been many car kisses since then as well. Have you kissed more than ten people this year? one person. Just one. Would you ever date someone who was gorgeous but they had a conceited attitude? no. looks don't matter as much as personality. I didn’t know he was conceited at the time but no, I never would again. Like I said, dude was a tool. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended? more like proud. I AM a bitch. I own it. Do you know a few people that smoke weed? a few? i know less people who DON'T smoke weed. Everybody smokes weed anymore. Except like my parents. Was this the best summer of your life? it hasn't happened yet. but last summer was the best so far. For the record, the summer of 2010 was the worst of my life. And last summer was really good for the sole reason of my birthday week, where I met All Time Low and got to spend it back home with my family and friends. Do you think relationships are even worth it? some are. Hope so. Medicine, fine arts, or law? arts. Same. Have you been through driver's ed yet? safety ed...like six years ago. i still don't have my license though. We didn’t have “driver’s ed”. Safety ed was like six weeks of basics but there was never any practice driving or anything like that. I didn’t get my license till I was almost 23. What do you think about people who party a lot? i think i want to be invited? If they’re my age, they need to grow the hell up. If they’re my sister’s age, I’m sure most of them will get sick of it eventually like I did. When was the last time you dyed your hair? almost a year ago...i've been really lazy with it lately. A little over a month ago? It’s orange with black ombre. I like the concept but next time I’m getting it done professionally. Is there a movie you've seen countless times? more than one. Several. I tend to watch most things I like over and over again instead of watching new things. What do you need to go shopping for? i need to stop shopping. Haha...that’s a good answer. But I do need some more compression socks. Have you ever read Twilight? no. Yes, and dammit, I liked it. I still curse myself for that. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yeah. Nah, I’ll talk about anything. I’m pretty self-centered. If Britney Spears came to your town, would you go see her concert? hell yes i love her. I’d be there with bells on. Meet anybody new this week? nope. but i'm going to on wednesday. Idk if customers at work count. I don’t leave my house unless it’s for that. Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time? everyone. Yeah, the cunt that thought it’d be cool to cheat on her boyfriend with my best friend and then screw him over as well. Any up coming events you're excited about? the concert on wednesday, and my birthday. Going home next week and house shopping. Does anyone hate you? sure. I guess so. Don’t matter to me.

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snowydawn17 · 7 years

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I just had a really weird dream & im writing it here cuz twitter has a character limit

Warning for long text wall, I'm on mobile and can't put it under a cut sorry So things were normal at first, I think? Time kinda jumped around but basically it was a normal day turned apocalypse. Looking back on it it was like a weird parody of devil survivor 2. Anyways. So there were these..3...4 kids? Idk there looked like 4 in this one scene where they played dead and like, rolled into a fancy coffin (this replayed itself like twice? Idk) but in later scenes there was an emphasis on two (an older sister that I'd say was probably 17ish and a younger brother who was maybe 14? Idk low teens at the oldest) and there was some other people, like a lot of people, there were two groups I think aside from the kids? Anywho it went super RPG with random monsters around that were like, OHKO pretty much. There were some SUPER strong ones that if you saw you GTFOd your way out and prayed they didn't follow you. One was a giant squid. It was in a river next to like, the one small fish. One guy went back there a few times to catch the fish and a frog, which always managed to ambush him. The hunting sections were extremely video game like, there was a tutorial and targeting and stuff. It was weird. Also, people sucked at hunting. Like, really sucked. The one character I went POV for was myself, I guess? I don't remember who I was with but I was with three other people, when I was around. Anyways I was trying to keep my goldfish alive in an inflatable ball that kept getting air holes in it and deflating, taping the new holes was annoying. And then a tiger like, broke through the back door (said tiger was one of those oh FUCK GTFO enemies and I reached around it to grab this goldfish (I don't even own a goldfish IRL, priorities) and we somehow got it out? No one died, somehow. And then a lion squeezed in (not of the GTFO variety) and sat on the couch and everyone was freaking out but me? I was cool with this random ass lion just chilling, it was probably gonna kill me in my sleep but yknow. Whatevs man. I like, had an existential crisis in my dream for a brief second. What even. Anyways with the other group of adults, this one dude got separated from his girlfriend in the initial apocalypse happening stuff (which I'll get to in a bit, it's the most fuzzy rn) and I can't remember what he did but he somehow helped out whoever was sending in the monsters? And asked about getting let out of the lockdown - moreso getting his girlfriend out, or being able to get to her - and they laughed at him and said NO ONE gets out of the lockdown. And then my brain jumped back to me with my group and I somehow knew this dude and that convo and some lady asked about "the lists" of ppl who could leave and I said, like "he got it. Everyone's on it." "???" "Everyone's gonna die" (this is where the existential crisis happened) and I don't remember much about those two groups aside from that ANYWHO with the kids. There's supposed to be an adult with them from the weird "hide in a coffin" scene but I don't remember her outside of that so. Probs dead. Idk. Anyways in that scene there was the older sis, younger bro, a set of twins, and a baby. Idk where the twins and baby went. I thought "'no wait, there's a baby, the baby's gotta be here too" a few times, so like..I knew it was a dream but not really? Oh, and they were apparently psychic? The powers never really showed up aside from a mention of them not being able to gain superpowers one way cuz they were among the last of their kind (the adults were referred to as "Hiders". Lowkey feels like that's supposed to be a completely different show.) Anyways the brother and sister got separated, and the younger bro was running around with a group of friends that was pretty big actually? Idk my dreams don't give visuals on people a lot. Anyways a bunch happened to them but I mainly remember running into a random building and there was a pool? With a monster that looked kinda like a lapras? And it shot fire and we all almost died but a random older dude turned it into wood for a sec and that cancelled the magic? We kept running and the thing unfroze and I was positive we were gonna die but it didn't attack? And the dude said they're peaceful in the day, only attack at night. Then there was a series of tunnels, and this boy kept leaving hints for his sister (who's name is Jess, that feels right) and then they bunkered down and waited? Not sure but then one of Jess' friends and another dude and the dude from before I think? Were there and talking like they had been the entire time. It gets fuzzy but I think the friend killed the two dudes for some reason? Something about backstabbing before you get backstabbed. And then she died from something? Not sure, but there was magic bs going on. Jumping to Jess, she was doing some running around and other stuff but I mainly remember one scene where she goes to sleep and wakes up in a coffin surrounded by...sand? Idk it looked like sand. And there were other ppl but they were either passed out or dead so they don't matter. But there WAS this demon like guy Jess seemed to know? It sounded like they had talked before - she def knew who he was. Anyways he kept telling her to go back to sleep and she'd be fine, but something about what he said gave her the idea she could do something to help everyone and when she asked he (hesitantly) explained that, yes, she was in a place that controlled the big GTFO monsters, and she could prevent more from being unleashed, but she would die. They talked for a bit about options (Jess asking, he answering) while Jess fiddled with bottles strewn about in the sand she woke up in (she was mainly asking about what the bottles did, I think, and then she asked about getting up.) Naturally Jess gets up and searches and finds a series of levers (the first is R, though everyone keeps saying the monsters are named after Greek letters? Idk) and she pulls and bends the lever, preventing it from being used again, and my brain kinda skimmed over her shutting down the next few. And then Jess has an army of kids and teens running with her, disrupting the bad dude's plans, and she's shredding this orb thing to pieces and giving those pieces to the kids to further shred. Idk what this thing was but if they got all the pieces again they could put it back together and that'd be BAD. Also Jess managed to break everything except this one last event, which was a bomb raid? Which jumped over to the bros side, and why they ran into that building I think. Anyways, Jess keeps running, and I think she got captured? But my brain jumped to her in the tunnels her bro had left messages in, and she gets to their bunkered down position but he's not there (it's a weird mix of parallel dimensions and time travel, it made sense in dream) but she knows he's SUPPOSED to be there, they just can't see each other and so she leaves her own message. The first is a pic of her in a weird costume with some dude (this happened earlier in the dream, I guess, but I don't remember it?) but she's afraid he won't know what that means so she leaves another saying "it's me, ___, it's Jess" (don't remember the bros name) and these just kinda appear near the bro and he reads them and starts crying (I feel like *I* was crying But I was asleep, so) and he realizes she's gone. Not sure how those conveyed that but they did. The dream ended thereish, but over the course of writing all that I remembered some other stuff: So at first it looked like a city, but a main beginning scene I remember is a group of older folks (like, 60s at the youngest) running from this weird vehicle and if it ran you over you like, turned to mush and melted a hole in the ground. The back tires passed over your mush self and you and the hole were gone. Some people died from this, some people came back like a respawn. Those older ppl plus some others made up the two non-Jess and bro groups later. They kept referencing a married couple who died (last name started with a C I think?) who for some reason had been a major threat to whoever was running this? And another couple, who seemed to be the leaders, were a similar but weaker threat. I'm not sure how, but probably magic. At one point I ran into a building and got separated from my friends in the crowd, ran into the women's bathroom (for some reason the men and women bathrooms ended up connecting in the back) and I sat down against a wall with my phone and 3ds (accurate, sadly no goldfish :c ) and then my grandpa was there holding out a hand to me with a small smile. Nothing really came of that so...yeah. Anyways yeah, that's most of what I remember. There's some other details (I think hunting dude hunted with his brother? And they were part of my group? *shrugs*) but i can't remember them clearly so screw it. TL:DR don't let Snowy sleep, she gets REALLY FUCKIN WEIRD DREAMS

#why do my dreams always involve random monsters and death #ok that's a lie we all know why #weird dreams

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