#1.18

[baijingting]

THE FIRST FROST 难哄 (2025) dir. Chu Yu Ning — If you think saying these kinds of words is too pretentious for you, then I'll say them from now on.

[scoobydoodean]

“Why didn’t Dean just eat the spaghetti-o’s. Why did he throw them away?"

Because it wasn't about having to go hungry. It was never about rationing the food. It was about getting to be a kid for once.

[soft-pine]

spn20rewatch: 1.18 something wicked

say your desk is covered with a pile of paperclips. something wicked is the magnet you drop in the middle and then they all stick to it; they're all connected.

it's all here. the parentification, the neglect, the way john treats dean which sam doesn't witness, the extreme likelihood that john was using his kids as bait, and the intentional, specific, glorious, lovely ways dean has specifically chosen not to be like his dad.

in the flashbacks, we see dean is in charge of feeding and looking after sam for (at least) three days in some random motel room with the shades drawn. he's not even supposed to go outside. he doesn't have a number for john, just the instruction that if john's not back by a certain time, he's supposed to call pastor jim.

we see john giving dean instructions and responsibility (and criticisms) which he's not giving to sam.

dean is at most 11 years old (ep takes place in 2006. dean says the case from when he was a kid was 16-17 years ago (1989/1990). john's journal places it in 1988; dean was 9)

crucially, even as an adult, dean barely talks to sam about what he remembers of the case when he was a kid. he lets go of little bits at a time and absolutely necessary to the case. but he does not want to process what happened. even when he's so torn up that he breaks down and explains what happened, he doesn't want to talk about it. in part, of course, because he's ashamed of failing to kill the shtriga. but also because dean keeps john's secrets (9.07). and even when he doesn't, sam is not who he tends to process with.

but it's deeply impactful to have an episode where we get to see how dean was treated as a child versus how he treats the kids he meets.

dean is so kind to children throughout season 1, from lucas in 1.03 to lily and charlie in 1.05 to michael here. there is something so great about the way he is both clear that the bad things aren't these kid's fault, while also understanding kids have agency and insight.

i know dean is torn up about using michael as bait for the shtriga but feels he doesn't have much of a choice in order to stop the thing. but the conversation he has with michael is so thorough it really gets me.

DEAN: This camera has night vision on it so we'll be able to see clear as day.... Are we good? SAM: A hair to the right... There, there. MICHAEL: What do I do? DEAN: Just stay under the covers. MICHAEL: And if it shows up? DEAN: We'll be right in the next room. We're gonna come in with guns. So, as soon as we do you roll off this bed and you crawl under it. MICHAEL: What if you shoot me? DEAN: We won't shoot you. We're good shots. We're not going to fire until you're clear ok? Have you heard a gunshot before? MICHAEL: Like in the movies? DEAN: It's gonna be a lot louder than in the movies. So I want you to stay under the bed, cover your ears, do not come out until we say so. You understand? DEAN: Michael, you sure you wanna do this? DEAN: You don't have to, it's ok, I won't be mad. MICHAEL: No I'm ok. Just don't shoot me. DEAN: We're not going to let anything happen to you. I promise.

what a specific contrast that is with

DEAN hesitates, terrified. As he does JOHN bursts through the front door, gun raised. JOHN: (Shouting) Get out of the way! DEAN ducks and JOHN shoots the shtriga multiple times with his hand gun.

something wicked is up there with monster at the end of the book for episode titles that'll make you crazy if you think about it too much.

some other thoughts are just, the first time i watched this scene i thought i was going to explode with love:

DEAN: Yeah well, first of all, I'm not going to open fire in a freakin' pediatrics ward.... Second, wouldn't have done any good, because the bastard's bullet proof unless he's chowing down on something. And third, I wasn't packing, which is probably a really good thing cause I probably would have just burned a clip in him on principle alone.

moral compass boy i would die for you a thousand times and get up and gladly do it again.

and nothing - i mean nothing - hits like dean's voice cracking over the "if it means anything sometimes i do too." like i could actually go insane.

also watching supernatural is how you fill up a computer disc with pictures of dean looking ever so beautiful. like. look at him!! ethereal!!

also also ilu microaggression michael. they should have brought you back in the finale, king.

[aliusfrater]

i'm at the library. i've been trying to find out as much as i can about this shtriga.

supernatural, something wicked [1.18]

[amberheardnet]

AMBER HEARD | Criminal Minds (2006)

[spockvarietyhour]

Robert Carlyle as Nicholas Rush in Stargate Universe's "Subversion"

[blushingguy]

My cute cake theme this year vs last year~

[ellenatural]

1.18, Somebody's Watchin'

[samdeancrimespree]

1.18 will never stop hurting me. john placing a loaded shotgun on the floor so it’s easier for his child to reach. shoot first, ask questions later, recited in the tone most kids use to say please and thank you. john clapping his ten year old son on the shoulder and saying “that’s my man.”

the look, barely a step below hatred, on john’s face when dean fails him and sam gets hurt. dean gets one sentence out before he stops arguing, realizing his father is right, he has no excuse. john cradling sammy like the baby he is and petting his hair while dean stands in the doorway and watches, knowing he has no right to even approach them. maybe thinking about the last time he was held like that, if he can even remember it.

the fact that sixteen years later, dean hasn’t forgiven himself. won’t even let sam try to comfort him. It’s all just excuses, like dean had given back then, but sams voice is drowned out by john’s, i told you not to let him out of your sight. he sees this order from john not as a punishment, but a chance at retribution. dad will never forgive me, but maybe he’ll hate me less.

[theflyindutchwoman]

You called me “Boot” so many times, I get triggered when I go shoe shopping.

| HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU • CHENFORD EDITION Calling the other by an affectionate pet name

[onespncap]

s01e18 -- "Something Wicked"

[baijingting]

THE FIRST FROST 难哄 (2025) dir. Chu Yu Ning

[scoobydoodean]

Dad knew who you really were. A good soldier and nothing else. Daddy's blunt little instrument. Your own father didn't care whether you lived or died. Why should you?!

Supernatural | 1.22, 1.18, 1.01, 3.03, 1.08, 1.20, 1.09, 1.12, 3.10

[roadburns]

[aliusfrater]

[leiandcharles]

Why wouldn't Regina and Daniel run away that night?? Like clearly a few days have passed at least maybe even a week or more for Cora to comment on how close Snow and Regina have gotten so some time has passed since Regina saved Snow and Snow found out about Daniel so why wouldn't they leave that night like yes Cora has magic but they could've at least hopped on a couple of horses and gotten pretty far found a ship or something to take them away idk at least tried it or Regina couldve tried to find something that Cora has that could help them, some kind of portal or concealment spell or wand idk

Also Regina couldve spoken to her father he would understand and would probably help her like yea he couldn't do much but at least distract Cora or help them escape somehow

Or alternate option! pretended to end things to marry the king and Daniel goes with them to the castle and works in the stable and they have an affair not like thats unheard of and at least they'd be together and the king travels so they'd have all that time together when he's not there

Idk I just feel like they shouldve known that Cora would not let Regina just walk away from the King and to take the situation more seriously than they did if they really did want to get away together like they know she's cruel is it really crazy to assume she wouldn't do something to hurt Daniel or send him away like?? Maybe fight for your love more