#11/2023

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🅻 🅾 🆅 🅴

𝙻𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛. -𝙰𝚕𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚝 𝙴𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚒𝚗 (𝙶𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚞𝚜)

𝚃𝚘𝚖 𝙻𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚘𝚗 🫶🏽

𝙺𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚁𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚋𝚢 𝙰𝚛𝚝 𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝, 𝙰𝚚𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚞𝚜 𝙷𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚗 🎧

[gloomyjulliette]

🩸𝙸 𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚐𝚕𝚎 𝚕𝚊𝚖𝚙 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚢𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝙲𝚕𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚜 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚎:

[m-rantsandrambles]

Something I didn’t like about today is how I can’t remember what I did from like 1 pm to 5:30 pm. I wanted to watch anime but I piddled away my time online, completely lost in the black hole that is Instagram and the such. This I will change. Get simple good clarity and move on. Don’t overthink. For a lot of my life, I’ve been either underthinking or overthinking, extremes, and neither work, do they (they do not).

\\ The Steps: *

Something I’m grateful for is that I have a newer friend that is such a kind soul, who seems to genuinely care about me 🥹. Today they messaged me and told me I can rant or vent or talk whenever I need to… genuinely I was stunned and didn’t know how to process that. I think I am used to being abandoned, and feeling lonely & unloved. But A cares, and knows I’ve struggled with loneliness. (I would like to share more about this). But… I don’t super know how to open up and just ask for help (I struggle much more than the average American due to mental disorders and a really bad living situation, AKA isolation + constantly being around a toxic person that emotionally, verbally, and also physically abused me my whole life), nor do I know how to just be myself anymore— to be fun, to laugh, to be authentically my shining, kind, rambunctious, curious self. I had it for a moment, in 2021 at with Z, others, at W. But anyway. I’m grateful to have met this friend… and I hope to grow with them, and make memories, appreciate them fully, treat them right, and finally feel loved, too. They truly seem like somebody who cares. And who is emotionally healthy. // I need to keep reaching out to them and talking & spending time with them more! This person is a gift of a person, and there’s therefore importance in reaching out.

\\ The Steps: *

Something I remembered today, is that I am capable of doing deeper reflection, as well as just living through the minute, hours, and days, in a different state of mind, different from this apathetic, dopamine-craving one I’ve been living in for a lot of 2023. It’s crazy how CHANGE CAN HAPPEN— life can be good if you remember that, and take the steps to get there. Don’t doubt that. Don’t overthink it. SD knows this, and instead of compulsively checking if it’s true, think practically instead :)! That’s how you’ll truly see the truth. So back to the main point here— retrain the brain to look at life with a focused eye. This is vital self-help work!

\\ The steps: *

[d-wntherabbithole]

It’s true what they say, for you to fully move on from a love you thought you would have forever something within you has to die.

I can only confirm this because it has finally happened.

[skamielina-z-koszalina]

Na Świętego Marcina pyszne rogaliki z Koszalina ;)

Składowe obecne: ciasto francuskie, biały mak, orzechy włoskie, skórka pomarańcza, migdały, lukier.

Dziękuję Zjawiskowe Torty

[kirstenguevarra]

1 year since I left

I remember the last week I was in the Philippines. The last week before I had to fly to Canada. I planned a little get-together with my closest friends, something small and simple. We drank beer, smoked cigarettes and reminisced. We talked about everything we possibly could in one night. 

At some point, I drank too many beers and started crying. I saw my friends laughing, realizing I wouldn’t have this for a while. The last week I was home, I was in denial about leaving, but at that moment, reality suddenly hit. I am not going to have this for a long time, I might never have it again.

“We’ll call you! We’ll text!” They said to me, rubbing my back, comforting me. Their warmth gave me enough strength to leave. They will call. They will text. And for a few weeks, they did. But we all suddenly got too busy. The time suddenly became a struggle to keep up with. School was overwhelming, work was exhausting. 

It seems as if everyone moved on. Moved on to another semester in college, moved to another apartment, moved to another job. And it seems like I am the only one who stayed.

I watch everyone go on about their lives, I send them texts. I tell them I miss them. There’s nothing else I can do. 

I wake up in a country too cold for my body, I go to a job that I despise, I watch the snow fall and the trees go from green to golden, and I watch my friends live their lives. I don’t belong there anymore, but I don’t belong here either.

I try to find the same warmth I had with the people from home from the people I met here, but I can’t. I feel so lonely in the company of other people. I feel like an intruder. I do not belong here.

Conversations with people are always full of “I miss you” and “I can’t wait to see you” but it always ends with that. I don’t know when I can go back home again. I miss my dog, I miss laughing till my stomach hurts, I miss the sun, I miss how hot it gets in the summer. I miss everything being so close to me, I miss my friends. I miss their voices. I miss my old tiny room. I miss it all. 

I want to go home.

[i-merani]

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[card-of-the-day]

Today's Card Is: Swablu

[crawfishcomic]

Good Deeds

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ΣΣҜ PΣΩPLΣ

𝗙𝝠𝗡𝗖𝗬 𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗖𝗥𝗘𝗣𝝠𝗡𝗖𝗬 ⚛️

𝗗𝗘𝗟𝗨𝗫𝗘 𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗦 ☣️

𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗦 𝗠𝗬 𝝠𝗦𝗦 ☢️

𝗠𝗬 𝗠𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗦 👽

𝗣𝗨𝗡𝗞𝗦 𝝠𝗥𝗘𝗡’𝗧 𝗗𝗘𝝠𝗗 ☠️

𝗠𝝝𝝝𝗗 𝗕𝝝𝝠𝗥𝗗 / 𝗣𝗨𝗡𝗞𝗦𝝠𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗗𝗘𝝠𝗗 / 𝗟𝝝𝗩𝗘 & 𝗟𝗘𝗧 𝗟𝝝𝗩𝗘 / 𝗟𝗜𝗩𝗘 & 𝗟𝗘𝗧 𝗟𝗜𝗩𝗘 / 𝗞𝗘𝗘𝗣 𝗜𝗧 𝗦𝗜𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗘 𝗞𝗘𝗘𝗣 𝗜𝗧 𝗥𝗘𝝠𝗟 / ​𝗡𝝝 𝗚𝝝𝗗𝗦 𝗡𝝝 𝗠𝝠𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗦 / 𝗣𝗥𝝝 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 𝗠𝗙𝗭 / 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗖𝗞 𝗧𝗛𝝠 𝗦𝗬𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗠 / 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙 𝗬𝝝𝗨, 𝗬𝝝𝗨 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙𝗜𝗡 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙 / 𝗜 𝗗𝝝𝗡’𝗧 𝗚𝗜𝗩𝗘 𝝠 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗖𝗞 / 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗧𝟰𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗡 / 𝗙𝝝𝝝𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗚𝝠𝗥𝝝𝗨𝗡𝗗 / 𝗧𝗥𝝠𝗦𝗛𝗠𝗘 / 𝗧𝗥𝝠𝗦𝗛𝗖𝝝𝗥𝗘 / 𝝠𝗡𝗗𝗥𝝝𝗜𝗗𝝠𝗥𝗧 / 𝗘𝗘𝗞 𝗣𝗘𝝝𝗣𝗟𝗘 / 𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗖𝗛 𝝝𝗥 𝗗𝗜𝗘 / 𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗖𝗛 & 𝗖𝗥𝗬 / 𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗖𝗛 𝗠𝗬 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘 / 𝗕𝝠𝗟𝗖𝝝𝗡𝗬𝝠𝗥𝗧 / 𝗘𝗡𝗘𝗥𝗚𝗬𝗦𝗨𝗖𝗞𝗘𝗥𝗭 𝗡𝝝𝗧 𝗪𝗘𝗟(𝗟) 𝗖𝗨𝗠 * Greyson Wesley

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Soundtrack: How Much Is The Fish? by Scooter 🛵

[gloomyjulliette]

🩸 𝚂𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎 𝙸 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚢 𝚘𝚗 𝙸'𝚖 𝚊𝚏𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚍

[arinqiart]

Brother's Betrayal :(

Maskles ver below!

[pigeonneaux]

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[blyszczopies]

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[ralfmaximus]

the widely criticized practice is aimed at encouraging gay or lesbian minors to change their sexual orientation and transgender children to identify as the gender identity assigned to them at birth. Washington is one of 26 states have barred or restricted such therapy for minors, the state’s lawyers say.

The court’s decision not to take up the case means the [ban] remains intact.

Major win for transgender kids and their families, as Washington State's ban on conversion therapy is affirmed by SCOTUS. This ruling protects similar bans in 25 other states too.

A surprising but welcome result from these conservative jackasses.

[mortalkombatsource]

Why does fate seem always to conspire against us?