#2017 {jinx's birthday}

[awolfnamedluna]

ugh so tired today

[ateez-amanda]

Jinx Friendship

summary: basically amanda friendship w/ my other ocs bc why not?

masterlist

taglist: @skzfairies, @3nhyp3nn [send an ask if you want to be on/off the taglist :)]

Jinx is a friendship group consisting of 3 fictional female 00 liners from different co-ed kpop groups; TXT’s Yuki, ATEEZ’s Amanda, and SEVENTEEN’s Vivi

TXT’s Yuki

Contact Name: Yukz🌚🐱

she first met yuki at hanlim after amanda transfer in 2017

the two were seatmates so they were literally inseparable in school

often have sleepovers at the each other dorms when they were trainees under the excuse of doing “homework”

due to busy schedules the two don’t get to meet up often

but the two are always keep in touch and even mention the other in interviews and livestreams

they give yeonjun and wooyoung a run for their money tbh

now when they do meet up they usually go on food dates mostly bc amanda is making sure yuki is eating and taking care of herself

similar personalities, food taste, etc.

moatiny calls them soulmates for how alike the two are

iconic moment: amanda has mention that neither of them initiate physical touch so the first time they actually hugged each other was backstage at kcon 2019 after not seeing each other in a long time. both said that the hug was sweet but it was really awkward after bc they realize they never had hugged before

SVT’s Vivi

Contact Name: Viz🌝💦

vivi has been friends w/ yuki for years after meeting her through their friends in i.o.i

yuki was constantly telling amanda that she should met vivi bc she thought they would get along

and ofc amanda wanted to bc she loves svt and especially vivi but everytime they tried to, plans always fall through

but two eventually met w/o yuki's help as vivi played a little role in helping amanda and jeonghan finally get together 👀

they later texted a pic of them together to yuki

tan duo

one looking like a softie and the other looking mean when it's actually the opposite

vivi always invites amanda to go see haunted houses, scary movies, etc.

each other safe place as they both understand the harsh criticism for not fitting into korean beauty standards

iconic moment: when amanda called vivi to wish her happy birthday but she didn't know vivi was on vlive and said "happy birthday bitch!" the second vivi picked up

The Trio Overall

friendship name came about as all the girls had been called jinx by many kneitzen bc they were thought to bring bad luck/ruin their groups for being the only girl member

it hard for the trio to meet up due to hectic schedules but when they do they usually go out for drinks

basically alcoholics

venting to each about the struggles of being the only girl in their groups

constant innuendos and cursing at each other

convo usually end up w/ them mixing between languages (korean, english and spanish) and they don’t even realize they are doing it bc it’s so normal for them

vivi always reminding the two she their sunbaenim even though she the youngest of them

going to each other concerts

you know girls supporting girls

they became a such popular friendship group in the kpop industry that they were invited to perform a special stage at the 2020 kbs song festival where they performed a melody of kpop gg songs

and even later debuted as a group in 2021

Their Role in the Group

Yuki - The Chaotic 4D Yet Responsible Mom

Amanda - The Blunt Sarcastic Dad

Vivi - The Bubbly Rebel Baby

© ateez-amanda — all rights reserved. do not copy, translate, or repost my work.

[moorheadthanyoucanhandle]

42 FOR THE SHOW

Monday night The Wife and I betook ourselves to Chase Field...

...where, in the company of a gang from The Day Gig, we observed Jackie Robinson Night, the anniversary of Robinson's debut with the Brooklyn Dodgers in 1947.

Our beloved Diamondbacks were taking on the Chicago Cubs. It was a beautiful night for baseball, and it was great to see 42s on everybody's backs...

(Excuse the lousy cell phone pictures.)

Alas, what we didn't see was much offense from the hometown team. Despite a solid start from pitcher Merrill Kelly and some fine scoring opportunities, the Snakes lost, 2-3 in 10 innings. The Wife's long, discouraging streak as a jinx--the D-bax seem to contrive to lose whenever I talk her into going--annoyingly continues.

That's in the regular season, that is; they did manage to win the preseason game against the Cleveland Guardians to which she took me a couple of weeks ago on my birthday. But I think the last time she's seen a regular-season win was in 2017, when The Kid was with us, and we saw them defeat the Miami Marlins and clinch a playoff spot. The Kid, with me and with friends, has a much better win-lose record.

Anyway, hail Jackie Robinson!

[survivor-marieta-islands]

Cast Reveal #3 - Antigua - Old School

JINX | SHE/THEY/VERS | 28 | ST. LOUIS | MEDICAL MARIJUANA AGENT

First Survivor Season: TS Montenegro (June 2019)

Intro: 28. zilennial. enfj. begrudgingly a morning person and a glass half full person. is happiest cuddling & sleeping in bed or on a roadtrip. writer & poet. humanistic spiritual interpreter. professional ipad baby. the most taylor swift hating taylor swift listener. happiest zero vote finalist. moved cross country recently and is still adjusting to being in CST after a lifetime of PST. cries pretty easily after a lifetime of repressed emotions so don't take it personally. a little pretentious about how much they love music but definitely not in music taste. in a perpetual state of grief & love. misses the beach.

Three Words to Describe You: Effervescent, passionate, creative

Hobbies and Passions: Writing, collaging. Playing online Catan and some video games like Overwatch, Mario Kart, etc. Reading tarot and astrological charts. Pointless debates. Finding humor in everything (genuinely). Going on long drives. Going to the beach. Making playlists for people I love.

What You're Most Proud Of: Myself and how far I've come after all I survive and keep surviving.

Why You'll Win: I think 3rd time may actually be the charm!

MADDISON | SHE/HER | 27 | TEXAS | MARKETING DIRECTOR

First Survivor Season: Stings Tierra del Fuego (July 2020)

Intro: Howdy party people, my name is Maddison and I’m super excited to (potentially) play with all of you! This is about as exciting as my tinder profile, so I’ll notably mention my love for basketball and being a plant mother. I’m a 26 y/o lil bisexual and I work in marketing (thrilling!)

Three Words to Describe You: silly, goofy, cowboy

Hobbies and Passions: listening to live music, watching women’s sports & anything outdoors!

What You're Most Proud Of: Leaving my small, rural hometown and building a life for myself that feels authentic and open to possibility.

Why You'll Win: I can win this game because I am open, adaptive and flexible to others gameplay.

RAFFY | HE/HIM | 23 | NEW JERSEY | ADMIN OPERATIONS SPECIALIST

First Survivor Season: Athena Azores (July 2017)

Intro: I'm Raffy. I wasn't planning on playing a game so soon after, but it is Jay hosting and I love them. So here I am again to make a fool of myself.

Three Words to Describe You: Prideful, Sentimental, Bold

Hobbies and Passions: Reading, writing, and playing video games

What You're Most Proud Of: I am most proud of my senior thesis I wrote in university. It taught me a lot about where my skills as a writer lies and the joy of research. I’m actually working towards creating more analytical essays on some of my favorite TV shows and video games (though I still have to get around to it)!

Why You'll Win: Because I am headstrong and determined to do my best in everything!

STEVEN | HE/HIM |26 | FLORIDA | LINE COOK

First Survivor Season: Supreme Madagascar (February 2016)

Intro: Hey y’all! I’m Steven and I’m a Florida guy without the Florida vibes. I work as a line cook and love Pokémon, board games, and reality tv. It’s also my birthday month so please be nice to me

Three Words to Describe You: Optimistic, competitive, opinionated

Hobbies and Passions: Watching reality tv, Pokémon, and baking

What You're Most Proud Of: That I am able to always push myself to overcome what scares me and grow as a person from it

Why You'll Win: I know what I am successful at and hopefully can balance the things I struggle with to make my way to the end

ZO | SHE/HER | 26 | TORONTO | GRAPHIC DESIGNER

First Survivor Season: TS Kiwayu (March 2015)

Intro: Hi kids it’s everyone’s fave elusive icon back from the grave to play again! Currently using she/her pronouns and am a fresh crispy 26 years of age! Unfortunate facts about me include that I’m a swiftie, I identify as a slytherin in ironically, and i’m mentally stuck in 2004! 🫶🏼 Excited to dust off the ole brain cells and play again with everyone!

Three Words to Describe You: Kooky, Kwazy, and Kunty (can i say that?)

Hobbies and Passions: Spin/the gym in general, reading, and arts and crafts 🫶🏼

What You're Most Proud Of: My fiancé and I recently bought property in the year 2023 and we never thought that would happen so that’s probably my most proud moment 💅🏼

Why You'll Win: Because I’m funny but also snakey and everyone loves the mean one with the good one liners

[dimonds456]

its disability pride month and i'm going through it. vent. check the tags on this one.

sorry there's been so many of these recently, I'm really, really trying not to be this negative, but... man.

something out there wants me dead. bad.

first it was water. then it was depression. then it was anxiety. then it was trauma. then it was graves disease. then it was trauma. then it was adhd. then it was summer in general. then it was maybe autism. then it was trauma. then it was nervous system failure. and now it's an eating disorder.

like not all of those are life-or-death (though adhd can feel like that sometimes lmao) but i've had so many fucking brushes with death that i'm not even afraid of it anymore, i'm just fucking frustrated.

i feel like Mugman from Casino Cups, honestly. "Death is so sudden, it could happen at any moment... everything could end at any moment... and I wouldn't even realize it...

[...]

"I've moved on, I'm not mourning, it's a part of life, but... the unpredictability of it... it's... it's not even SCARY, it's more INFURIATING!! One day, I'll disappear, and... never see where we'll go... never do anything I could have done! I HATE being at its mercy..."

the only difference is that he's died and come back 527 times. i will only die once and then that'll be that.

i've always had a weird fascination with death. maybe it was getting diagnosed with graves disease in middle school that started it (seriously who the FUCK picked "GRAVES" as the name for a disease, did they WANT to freak people out??), maybe it was the realization I'd have it for the rest of my life and now I would have to take pills forever, or maybe it was that first time I almost drowned in elementary school, or the other six times after that. I really don't know.

but i've made it. somehow, some way, i'm still here.

y'know, i wrote an entire ode to death and recorded audio of me reading it. i wanted to put it on youtube but i havent found time to make a video for it. maybe one day. that ode means a lot to me.

i don't know.

the only thing i know is that I want to make the best of the time i've got, which isn't a lot. i don't know how much time i have, but it's less than 20 years i can tell you that right now. if i reach my 40th birthday i will eat both of my shoes AND my hat. i don't mean that in an "i am depressed" way i mean that in a "death and i have a rehearsal at least twice a year and brother i do not know how to dance" way.

i try so, so hard not to be negative online. i really do. i don't want people to remember me as the one who only ever complained, or the one who got angry at everything, or the anxious one who never said anything original or worthwhile, or the one who only ever talked about politics. i want to be a good memory. it's the quote i live by. i want my memory to be a good one.

and i'm failing.

you, right now, reading this. i'm failing you. and i'm sorry. i just... don't know what else to do.

i've realized now that the reason i've been so bent out of shape as of late is because i will never feel safe. even if i moved to the kindest community in the world, even if all the world's political shit got fixed overnight, even if my anxiety and depression suddenly vanished... i can never feel safe because i live in this body. this long-suffering vessel that always, always has something life-threateningly wrong with it.

this eating disorder i have now is only the latest in a long line of shit. each new threat just gets more and more dire. i'm terrified to find out what the next one is. i almost wanna bet money on appendicitis or something but i also don't wanna jinx it, ha.

i'm sorry.

"Someday we will all just be a memory for some people. I just want that memory to be a good one." - Camila Cuevas (Glitchtale, 2017)

i'll keep trying. i'm going to pass with a smile on my face. that WILL be the last thing i do. i promise.

[bananagrin]

I like how every iteration of Gladstone has a different inner demon. They share many of the same themes, but there’s always one Achille’s heel that’s emphasized the most.

Carl Barks’ Gladstone’s biggest fear is of work. Rosa’s Gladstone also despises work, but it’s rather more like part of his pride, and he doesn’t cry over it. Barks’ Gladstone will not do anything if it seems too difficult, including “wishing too hard.” I don’t recall any stories where this guy was brought down to luckless, but I do remember that one infamous time he broke down after admitting that he took a job once.

Don Rosa’s Gladstone’s biggest flaw is his ego, obviously. Pretty much everything he does is tied to it. If he’s lazy it’s because He Doesn’t Need to Work Like a Peasant. He constantly shows off his winning streak, and he doesn’t handle losses well at all, regardless of what was actually at stake. His biggest shame was his jinxed birthday luck, to the point where he actually feared being exposed more than being injured or worse.

Topolino Gladstone is an odd one out for how much work he’s actually willing to do, and he isn’t as conceited as the previous two. In fact, his theme isn’t really a flaw: when things aren’t just happening to him, he’s usually propelled by dissatisfaction, in the form of loneliness or his desire to not be this lucky.

DuckTales (1987) Gladstone’s episode focused on the gullibility caused by relying entirely on his luck. He’s not selfish and he’s not malicious, but his carefree attitude and avoidance of forethought left him open to Majica’s manipulations; and of course, he didn’t learn a thing by the end of the story.

DuckTales (2017) Gladstone is also too dependent on his luck, but instead the problem he ends up with is his inability to do anything for himself or to cope without it. He also has a twisted definition of “reality,” and this tends to make him come off as jerkish. Being luckless was his worst nightmare.

[thesecretattic]

Festive Edit ✨ 🌙

This is more of a personal post than a “blog” article, I haven’t received any deliverables to advertise all the products that I have listed here, hence this is not a paid promotion.

“I believe in Evil Eye 🧿 and jinx, there was a time when we would go to Aza & Ensemble and I had a Sabyasachi Patiala set in my fav Coral shade, it was entirely embroidered in net/mesh fabric…”

*I have shared a few shocking things over here*

I still remember we were having a really hard time in 2017, we had literally gone bankrupt and as a family we were surviving on change, we were collecting change from old purses to pay for food, I still remember a friend who was constantly nagging me to join some digital marketing course inspite of being aware of my situation by saying it’s barely for 10k (you should’ve seen the condition of that “class”) after refusing several times she started taking revenge and all, this is exactly why I don’t have friends :/ she was anyway very cheap… and this is probably why girls like me are alone for the longest time while such girls are constantly surrounded by people. Anyway, coming to the main topic by the end of 2017 when we finally got some money, my brother decided to spend it all (cuz he was tired of living on scraps) and I started collecting it, that was my trauma-response… I have been collecting since then ie. December 2017, as guessed we didn’t even have any clothes for Eid that year and my mom got a Kurti from some stall (they’d hosted one mini exhibition at Infinity, Malad) and although they had extremely beautiful clothes over there we had to compromise on the lowest priced kurti, like I said I take a lot of care of everything that I own so I had 2 salwar and dupattas which I’d taken when I was 15 (one was cotton silk and the other was in silk organza) I never had the chance to wear them so after 7 years I finally matched them with that Kurti and no one could make out how inexpensive it was, the salwar and dupatta were also not pricey, in fact to be honest I was okay with everything, it actually doesn’t matter… all people want is acceptance, care & some love for who they are instead of these superficial things, you know how much I love fashion and style but certain things are far more important in comparison. After that whenever I was given money for Eid or New Year’s or even my Birthday I would save them in my “saving’s box” this year, I saved the Birthday money and Ramadan was only a month away so I bought something for Eid… I believe in Evil Eye 🧿 curses and jinx, there was a time when we would shop at Aza & Ensemble and I had a Sabyasachi Patiala set in my fav Coral colour, it was entirely embroidered in net/mesh fabric and it had a full sized net Odhni (I’d rather call it that than dupatta) in the same shade… I had taken it for just 27k, I was probably 19, there was only one piece left in my size at Aza, Altamount, I loved going to Sabyasachi’s flagship Boutique in Fort, I would even go to the old one… when we went there we realised that it was all sold out, they only had the grey-beige colour left and I was glad I got my fav colour, I wanted to try it (the coral one when we had gone to Aza) but a lot of customers were asking for it so we headed straight for billing…I had matching Kundan earrings with that (they were those “inexpensive” budget buys) when I shared my pic on Facebook, a lot of people were eyeing it, they were leaving snide, flippant remarks in a sly shrewd “sugarcoated manner” which made me realise I had to get rid of them, they would constantly stalk me and they were too materialistic, so they were coveting all my stuff and I found that very intimidating, that’s usually the case especially in India, people equate sophistication with luxury & a “rich lifestyle”, they don’t see that some people just want quality stuff or they like a certain style/look/design whatever, they only see things ostensibly for their label and brand names. I still remember when the geyser bursted right before my eyes… back then I was 17, I saw the flames reflecting on the tiled wall as I lurched out of there, we immediately pulled the main tripper and used the faucet to douse it, that same morning my ex “best friend” (who would bully me a lot I’ve shared about her in my tweets/twitter @TheBigBadBook) had stalked me & accidentally hearted one of my photos, she was always jealous of me even though she was from Dubai, people can have money but no one can buy your style 🤷🏻‍♀

You might think I’m connecting her with this incident but guess what? The same thing happened again, she again stalked me using another friend’s ID who was also very envious of me, they left me several scathing remarks by saying I’m a “loner” with imaginary friends… I’m this-that, the same day… one of the pipes/water spray bursted into my face with flaming hot water (I was again in my teens) I instinctively covered it but my hand was burnt (that too luckily not much, God saved me) the plumber said it was “impossible” for that to happen cuz the pipe wasn’t even connected to the heater but my mother told him that the water was boiling hot and there was steam everywhere… like I said I do believe in getting jinxed, we probably even had a financially tough time because of that, you might think something was wrong in the bathroom lines but trust me, even though it was our common bathroom both the times, no one else but me, I was present in the bathroom and she had stalked me (on the both the days) that too not with any good “intention”, moreover, the geyser wasn’t even connected to that faucet and they don’t go off on their own… it turned on remotely (and then immediately bursted) how?

Some people are very materialistic and gluttonous and they covet everything you have, I have shared more on twitter in my “BigBadBook” you’ll have to wade through a lot of sad posts though… coming back to my Eid shopping, usually designer dresses start from 25k; you won’t get Sabyasachi anymore in that range because he has grown extremely successful now and he’s my fav when it comes to traditional wear, I love his colour palette - he uses a lot of jewel tones for his classic “heritage style” trousseau. I was given a budget by my dad so umm my mom told me to find a dress within that amount and there were outfits ranging from 25-35k but one of them had a flouncy A-line cut and I don’t like that shape at all, I picked a Chanderi Dress, the Kurti which was for 5900/- & Palazzos - which were more like slim trousers + dupatta were all sold separately, it was great but their sizes run large, even the XS was sounding huge almost like Biba… I also liked the other striped dress (for casual wear not for Eid) it reminds me of novelty wrapping papers, the metallic stripes and floral embroidery is so cute, I’m referring to the second photo. The first pic has the pink trousers I was talking about, they had matched it with a Kashmiri style Kurta, it was quite plain and simple and the whole beauty was in their (Chanderi) odhni but realistically speaking, I feel all this should look equally appealing in real life, the images have been significantly enhanced, the embroidery was great but it didn’t have any zari work or sequins, nothing of that sort so they were quite simple, the other one had a beautifully buttoned lapel collar with metallic thread embroidery but it was again more minimalistic… I wanted something fancier like Doris around the sleeve and 3/4 sleeves, pretty frills or borders, etc. much like Karachi style, these were quite masculine, maximum designer wear that you get in India is like that, they have big cuffs and straight lapel collars, nothing delicate or feminine… I like the second one though, it’s quite unique. I love the scalloped hem and multicoloured flowers and even the metallic stripes are looking gorgeous, they’ve matched it with a tissue dupatta. The last peach coloured Kurti is a clear reminiscent of the 90s, they had such kurtas back then, some of them used to come with jackets if you remember… I was a toddler but I have a very good memory. I don’t like the palazzos though :/

I’ll tell you what I had in mind… so I was looking for something more Middle Eastern than ethnic since it’s for Ramazan Eid, I was looking for something similar to what you get in most Islamic countries, had it been Diwali I would’ve opted for Jewel tones or Royal Rich shades, this was supposed to be more of Karachi or Kashmiri-Pathan style… the reason why I included this “inspiration” over here is because in India (although I never wanted to believe or even acknowledge this) but over here, Muslims are still treated as minorities, I don’t want to get communal but even though most brands are aware that even Hindus look for Karachi style outfits on many occasions, it’s like a craze… they are not ready to budge from their Tribal Aztec prints, according to them it has to be strictly ethnic, even their colour palette corresponds to that and this prejudice or whatever is so deeply etched in their minds that every year during Eid they’ll add big banners (online/real life) to appear inclusive and secular but never have anything dressy or festive, everything will be dreary and dull… the fabric that they use for most ghararas is always cotton, the product code will have “Gharara” for namesake but it would be a typical Kurta-Choli, they will always add that tiered “cotton skirt” which they wear in villages and regional areas… just because they don’t want anything which would reflect Islamic culture. I’m not objecting because I’m a “Muslim”, I like celebrating all kinds of festivals, I love Diwali cuz it’s a Festival of Lights and my name also means Light so that’s obvious, I love the decorations… all those dazzling lights and diyas, our househelp used to get Diwali treats for me and my brother when we were very small, she would prepare it for her children and their friends/family so she would get some for us too cuz I was always curious about their pakwan and it was such a sweet gesture, you don’t get such people anymore… I always used to wonder why we never had anything for Christmas in India and I was very happy when they started with gingerbread cookies & pound cakes everywhere, now you even get nativity sets and Christmas decor… *finally* earlier, I used to get all that from high-end supermarkets, had to emphasise on “high-end”, I’m not being cynical but like I said, some people find all these things very swanky and luxurious, they see sophistication as something “opulent” or posh… this article is getting very candid but since its a journal entry, I guess I’m entitled to that much freedom. As a kid when I was once going through Tanishq’s eclectic catalogue I saw different kinds of brides, there was a Bengali bride, a Muslim bride sitting for her Nikah, a Marathi Kokani bride with Nathani & green bangles and a Modern bride with a Diamond necklace… I thought the customs would depend on my future husband and we’ll probably have to hold two weddings cuz I never wanted marry someone from the same religion, I always thought it would be boring, like I’ve said I wanted to have another culture in my house… when I saw those looks I was like, I want to be each one of them haha they are so beautiful. This is nothing, one of my grandfathers had married a Japanese woman and shifted to Japan… when I was 7 I had done a Japanese dance in a Kimono on the song Saayonara and everyone in my family said I reminded them of him.

That’s Anushka from Sultan, I have always admired this look, it incorporates a blend of both Karachi & Konkan… I am born & brought up in Mumbai and my grandparents were also born here, in fact my great grandfather had a two storey spice shop in South Mumbai where they would sell expensive spices and condiments like saffron but he lost them cuz he would bet on horses lol it has become a family joke now, we would’ve been very rich today… like I said although we hail from South Mumbai, my genealogical roots trace back to Konkan.

I love the sharara trim & chanderi lehenga, the length of the kurta is also sharara style and the signature green bangles and ghungru on her sleeves reminded me of Kokani brides

I was not keeping well so it was hard for me pick something, I had a panic attack and my pressure has been down since the past two days, my bp kept falling I don’t know why… anyway I tried my level best to put something together, I was looking for something specific so I had to narrow down my options; I had taken a lightly embellished (faux) silk kurti from some online store long ago for 2019 Eid, it was very cheap, hardly for 1000/- bucks but the fit is great and it looks really pretty, I had matched it with a beautiful net dupatta in the same shade and some palazzos. Speaking of traditional wear, I still have my Sabyasachi dress, I also have an Emerald Green Pathani dress, it has lots of beautiful embroidery on top, it’s a Cotton Silk Kurti with satin palazzos and a georgette dupatta… but other than these, I don’t have much in Indian wear. When I went online, I remembered my teenage years, everything resurfaced right from all those designer shops in Colaba & South Bombay to my favourite hidden gems, I recalled Ogaan, Curio Cottage, Amrapali, Aza & Creo to name a few. I remembered Lion’s Gate and the Sabyasachi boutique at Fort, I had tried his Sari Lehenga when I was just 16 and I had told my mom I’ll wear something like when I’ll get married, it was a net Mermaid cut sari-lehenga (something unusually modern for Sabyasachi) it was fully embellished but not heavy at all, it was easy to carry and what I loved the most was the dual toned ombré colour palette, it had this beautiful Champagne nude gold colour on top which would bleed into a beautiful mauve purple towards the hem and it was around 90k this was almost 10 years ago so the prices were not that high.

Lol This was clicked when I was 3 years old, look at the Sharara fringe, I was at my grandmother’s old house in Wadala, since I always loved Street food my nani used to buy me Dabelis & Wada pavs from Dadar and Prabhadevi which were famous for it and when I was in my teens, whenever we would go to South Mumbai, we would always stop at Babulnath

Hmm… I was looking for something particular and I also wanted to break the norms of islamophobia, so I tried my level best.

I was too tired to buy jhuttis but that’s the only thing which is left now, umm I got a necklace + earrings (I still have to finalise the latter) a Gharara set & batua bag + another choker necklace (I love them and I’m glad they are back in style, I would see my mom and aunties wearing beaded chokers at weddings and all, it’s sooo 90s) I was particularly looking for a choker necklace and Gharara or palazzos… I came up with these two looks, I like the embroidery and overall look of the Aubergine one, especially that fringed “sharara border” on their dupatta, it’s from my fav brand. I got the beautiful Kundan choker for 2655/- thanks to sale/offers and an additional 10% discount… it can easily amplify any outfit

I anyway didn’t have anything for weddings because I never had any friends so I’ve never attended any wedding as an adult, it’s been extremely sad, you know how my friends were, I’ve shared that in the beginning of my post… so here’s my final look, I got this batua - there was only one piece left + another necklace this one’s designer and earrings (I haven’t ordered the earrings yet) The whole look is very simple yet elegant, I’ve added this necklace to bring out the soft gold colour of my Gharara. I love such muted tones and sophisticated colours, they can make your entire traditional outfit a lot more contemporary… The Gharara set has a beautiful dori at the back & it is made in pure Silk Organza, it’s for 5252/- after discount, I was looking for something exactly like this, light and beautiful at the same time.

So I got those two Kurti Sets, 2 Necklaces, one Batua, one Gharara set & One more Kurti Set, I’ll be adding one pair of earrings either these or the Maroon ones and matching this choker with some other earrings (or anything minimalistic) I’ll have to get the jhuttis next time…

Xx Zara Sauleh

[wherethingscomebackx]

Top 25 Larry fics of 2019

It’s that time again!

You may be familiar with these lists:

Top 25 Larry fics of 2016

Top 25 Larry fics of 2017

Top 25 Larry fics of 2018

As always, I read a lot of fic and the majority of it is Larry. I like making lists and I like Larry so I thought I’d do some minimal research of the top 25 larry fics published/completed in 2019 in order of least to most kudos (with links). All of these fics are top notch so you should all check them out! 

25.) Foolishy Laying Our Hearts on the Table by @runaway-train-works (11k)

“You think Harry wants that?”

“Dunno. Maybe. Wanna make him happy.” Harry takes advantage of the red light he’s pulled up to turn and look properly at Louis’ face. He’s not even looking in Harry’s direction though, focused instead on something out of his side window, head drooped, mindlessly playing with the string of his hoodie between his fingers, lost in his own world somewhere. For some reason, it makes Harry’s spine straighten.

“Because he’s your best mate?” Harry questions carefully.

“He’s my boyfriend.”

He couldn’t have heard him right. “What?”

Louis releases a deep breath, still not turning around. Harry wonders who he thinks he’s talking to right now. “He’s so pretty. Want to kiss him all day long. And buy him a big house and give him presents and marry him.”

Or

The one where Harry is in love with his best friend Louis but doesn't think he stands a chance until some wisdom teeth and a rather unusual confession might just change his mind.

24.) Tainted Saints And Velvet Vices by @toomanydreamers (126k)

A self-fulfilling Hogwarts AU in which Louis is new to seventh year and Harry is the resident devil-may-care Slytherin set to make his entire experience a living misery. Due to less than favourable circumstances they're forced to forge an unwilling, tentative relationship for their own survival. Repressed emotions, decidedly unromantic ballroom dancing, Triwizard Tournament tasks, creative jinxes and twilight flying above the Forbidden Forest ensue.

23.) all we can do is keep breathing by @avocadolouie (310k)

“Harry, I-I’m so sorry…” Louis stutters out, trying to keep his voice level and even, to portray a depiction of strength, but with the way Harry is looking at him, staring at him like he has a personal passage way straight to Louis’ soul, it’s so hard, nearly impossible.

That simple opening phrase, that short introductory acknowledgement that is often rushed out so easily, painlessly, at a safe distance. Giving a doctor the ability to portray empathy without true emotion, without feeling the full brunt and sheer force of the underlying pain itself.

But Louis feels it, he feels the crushing agony laced behind the phrase, he feels the weight of the painful words slipping from his lips, the cause and effect that the three-word expression holds. The distantly empty “I’m so sorry” that doctors throw out in self-preservation, isn’t at all empty for him. Louis recognizes it, he understands it, he feels it.

--

a fated story of two broken and battered boys who barely survived the unimaginable and how the love of one little brave girl defies all the odds and somehow puts them back together.

22.) Raise a Glass to the Four of Us by @2tiedships2 (25k)

Louis stared at his luggage.

Well. Apparently not his luggage, because the clothing he was looking at currently was a: worth more than everything he currently possessed, b: not his size at all, and c: more suited for a fancy ass lawyer than a holiday in NYC with his best mates.

“Ooh, nice loafers,” Niall said as he pulled one out of the suitcase. “I love the rainbows.”

“Okay,” Liam began. “What do you want to do first? Eat, shop for new clothes, or spend hours on the phone with the airline?”

Louis continued to stare at the luggage.

21.) You Have to Retreat to Advance by @2tiedships2 (18k)

“What am I going to do, Perrie? I can’t go on this retreat by myself. My boss literally said he wants to meet my omega.” Harry paused. “Okay, not literally but he definitely expects me to be bringing him.”

“Don’t people go on these things by themselves?” Perrie asked.

Harry shrugged. “Of course but that’s not the point.”

“What’s the point?”

“My boss is expecting to meet my omega! I don’t have an omega!”

“Is this a paying gig?” Perrie asked.

“You mean paying an omega to spend the weekend with me? I’m sure the resort has nice amenities. Does that count?”

“I take that as a no,” Perrie said with an eye roll. “It’s okay, Louis might be willing to do it for free.”

“Who’s Louis?”

Or the one where Harry is expected to bring his longterm omega to the company's mountain retreat. Since he hadn't told anyone that they'd broken up months ago, he now has to find someone willing to play the part.

20.) A Darker Shade of Love by LittleSpoonStyles94 (750k)

Louis is a 30 year old multi-billionaire with a very dark past. He is violent and is a sadist with a taste for pain. Harry Styles is a 19 year old student who sets out to London after being kicked out by his homophobic father to follow his dreams. He wants to go to the best University to study but he needs a lot of money so he starts to work as a part time stripper at a gay club to support his studies and his life. The club he works at, Garland's, is part owned by Louis Tomlinson. When they meet, its life changing for the both of them.

19.) You Still Make Sense to Me by @amories (37k)

Harry, Louis, and their family navigate life together through the years.

18.) Like Water Over Fire (Like Water On Fire) by @mcssymon (119k)

“I’m sorry your highness, I think I misheard you, did you really say that you are hoping to meet your husband?” Oh god, Louis panicked. Was Prince Harry gay? Was he even allowed to be gay? Surely he wouldn’t be allowed to have a selection from a group of men, right?

Prince Harry looked partly like he wanted to laugh, but also very, very nervous about what he had just admitted, “Yes, sir, you heard correctly”

Or Prince Harry has 46 men and 13 weeks to find the husband of his dreams, Louis has a limited amount to time to live out a royal fantasy. They might just be exactly what the other needs.

17.) waiting for the tides to meet by @nauticalleeds (59k)

Louis lets out a deep breath, thinking about Harry’s soulmate. Thinking about how Harry’s soulmate is probably as beautiful as Harry, some person that Louis cannot compare to, and how the universe has chosen them to be Harry’s. Fuck the universe. “Fuck you,” he calls out to the universe. He’s aware of how crazy he sounds.

Maybe he is crazy, with how he’s falling for Harry. And fuck that, too.

Soulmate AU. Everyone is born with heterochromia — one eye is their own eye colour, while the other is the colour of their soulmate's. It's only when they meet their soulmate for the first time that their own eyes match properly. After a hazy night at a frat party, Louis wakes up to blue eyes and the shocking realization that he had met his soulmate, without any sober recollection. Seven years pass where Louis comes to terms with the fact that he'll never know who his soulmate is. Then one fated summer, a beautiful green-eyed photographer arrives at Louis' workplace, with promises of endless laughter and a familiar feeling in Louis' heart.

Featuring a lovely cup of OT5, a road trip down the coast, and a scene where Harry eats a whole head of lettuce. Don't ask why.

16.) Call Answered by @vondrostes (249k)

The day after his 27th birthday, Harry Styles attempts suicide. Louis is flown to his bedside to unravel the mystery of why he did it after a flash drive is found with a note attached, addressed to Louis. On it are a collection of 78 songs, all written for different dates from their past.

15.) Counterbalance by @louandhazaf (44k)

Harry Styles loves two things: teaching ballet and racing motorcycles. Those two worlds collide when his greatest rival on the track, Louis “Tommo” Tomlinson brings his tiny siblings to Harry’s class.

14.) Everywhere and Nowhere by @2tiedships2 (16k)

Niall took a seat and said, "Apparently Louis' downstairs neighbor is a fan of giving Louis creepy gifts. Maybe I should go introduce myself and tell him that Louis actually prefers food."

"What has he given you?" Liam asked.

Louis shrugged as it were no big deal. "There was a rabbit's foot keychain on the door a little after he left from introducing himself and there was a small teddy bear sitting by my door tonight. Obviously I can't prove it's from him, but they seem to have his scent. I could be wrong though."

"Wow," Liam said, looking deep in thought. "That's old school."

"What's old school?" Niall asked. "Giving creepy gifts?"

"I've never known an alpha to do it, to be honest, but he's courting you."

Louis couldn't contain his look of disbelief directed at Liam. "He's courting me. Like some sort of romantic shit they'd do in the 1800s or something?"

13.) Swallow The Knife by whoknows (76k)

“You came,” Louis says, still breathless, clinging to Harry, uncaring that his sweat is getting all over Harry’s presumably clean dad shirt, or that he’s making Harry hold up all of his weight.

“Of course I came,” Harry says. He shifts, one arm curled underneath Louis’ arse, the other spreading wide in the middle of Louis’ back. “If I ignored you every time you pissed me off we would have stopped being friends a long time ago.”

Louis already knows that, of course. It doesn’t do anything to stop the pleased squirm in his belly every time Harry proves it, though. They fight like nobody’s business, both of them too stubborn to pull their punches when they’re arguing, and it used to get them in trouble, but they always make up.

Adrenaline makes Louis loose-lipped, and they both know it. He tightens his arms around Harry’s neck, buries his face in his hair. “I missed you,” he confesses, quiet. “Doesn’t feel the same up there by myself.”

12.) and oh, all of your saturdays could end up in woe by ihavetoomuchfreetime (70k)

a fic in which louis' in a long-term relationship with an abusive asshole, niall, zayn and liam are so far but not really, and harry is that all too friendly guy who works in sainsbury's.

11.) thinking about the t-shirt you slept in by @absoloutenonsense (52k)

Harry's alpha fraternity donates to a local thrift shop (because of Liam's latent crush on a cute beta in his lecture). Louis' financial situation (and confusing omega instincts) lead him to make some interesting fashion purchases. Lots of pizza, feelings, and not-really-lying.

10.) Consequences by @allwaswell16 (78k)

Two years ago Harry let his powerful family come between him and the love of his life, something he deeply regrets. Louis has tried to move on from their devastating break up. Sometimes, he even thinks he has. It only takes one moment to freeze them back in time.

An amnesia au

9.) Strawberries & Cigarettes by @dimpled-halo (76k)

Harry looks up and immediately freezes. Next to Ms. Archie stands the boy from just the other day. The boy with the leather jacket and chipped black nails, that might or might not be sketched in the very book Harry has just placed on the table in front of him. The leather jacket is missing today, probably because they aren’t allowed as part of their required uniform attire, but Harry can still see the fading black nail polish on his nails, and eyeliner around his eyes. Harry’s mouth goes a little dry. This boy is so intriguing to him.

“Ye-yes, Ms. Archie?” Harry tries to play it cool, but he’s almost positive that his cheeks are burning red, and he’s relieved neither of them can tell how fast his heart is beating in his chest.

The boy seems to also recognize Harry, because his lips curve into a knowing smirk.

“Harry is at the top of his class. He’s your best bet at getting familiar with things around here.” She explains.

Louis nods, his smirk still very prominent on his face. “Thank you Ms. Archie. I’ll be sure to take advantage of young Harold here.”

*

Summary: Two stories, eleven years, and the two boys that never stopped loving each other.

8.) Pain makes people change by Deidei (113k)

An organization called Canis Lupus existed solely for changing humans imprisoned in their wolf form back to their human form. Some people after experiencing some traumatic event can only ‘’protect’’ themselves from the pain by forgetting everything. To do that, to feel safe, they shift into their wolf form.

Which they'll be stuck in forever should no one intervene.

Louis Tomlison went through a traumatic experience at the age of twelve in which he lost his mother, to make the pain go away he shifted into a wolf and fled. He survived in the wild as a wolf for five years until Canis Lupis caught him... Though he wasn't alone, he had a pup at his side.

7.) Pretty Please (With Sugar On Top) by @angelichl (113k)

Harry is a sugar baby omega who cons rich alphas for a living. Louis is a rich alpha with too much self-control.

6.) Enemies with benefits by ssii8 (267k)

Where Harry is captain of basketball team and Louis is captain of football team and they hate each other. But somehow this doesn't stop them from having sex.

And everything is perfect until they start to feel something more.

5.) Ready To Fall by whoknows (21k)

“Ninety and rising,” Nick says triumphantly, as though making Harry’s heartbeat pick up by thrusting an obscenely attractive person in front of his face is any kind of success. “Louis Tomlinson has just walked into our control room and suddenly our dear Harry Styles has lost all ability to speak. Could this be some kind of strange coincidence?”

“I hate you,” Harry hisses, forcing his eyes back into Nick’s direction, uncaring that the mic must have picked it up. “I thought we agreed that you were going to play fair.”

“I’m sure I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Nick denies, except he’s holding up a picture of Louis’ face now, sharp cheekbones prominent, soft lashes nearly sweeping against his cheeks as he looks down, and his fucking mouth –

“A hundred and two!” Nick crows, all but clapping his hands together in glee. “The highest it’s ever been!”

“To be fair, I did bend over the desk on purpose,” Louis’ voice comes crackling in the headphones. Harry practically breaks his neck whipping his head around at the sound of it, gaping at him through the glass panel. “You can’t really blame him for getting a little excited about that, can you?”

4.) Close to Nowhere by @angelichl (34k)

“I will kill you in your sleep,” Louis threatened as he quickly stepped out of his jeans.

“I don’t think that would work very well baby, seeing as you talk to dead people all the time.”

“I’ll kill you in your sleep and ignore your ghost. And don’t call me that.”

Louis and Harry are psychics who kind of hate each other. They go to Tennessee to investigate a haunting.

3.) Play Pretend, Find a Friend? by @angelichl (40k)

They had to pull back for air. Louis surveyed the guy’s face, in awe of his blown pupils and sharp jawline, the way their shared spit glistened on his lips.

“Hi,” he breathed. He blinked, and came back to himself a little bit, blushing at his own boldness. “Sorry. Is this okay?”

The stranger removed his right hand from the curve of Louis’ waist in order to cup his jaw, tilting it up to the angle he desired. He pressed their lips together, murmuring, “Definitely.” And then he kissed harder.

When Louis sees his ex-boyfriend kissing a random girl at a party, he acts out of blind jealousy. He kisses the first guy he can find. It turns into a thing.

INSPIRED BY CLOUDS.

2.) Let Me Feel Your Heartbeat by @angelichl (34k)

Harry is 98% sure Louis hates him. So he feels like his bewilderment is justified when the omega offers to help him through his rut.

1.) All My Colours by IceQueenRia (267k)

Green… yellow… red. Red! RED!!!

Some people were born Dominant and others submissive. Sixteen year old Louis Tomlinson was a submissive and was proud to be so… until he was forced to his knees for the first time. The man before him was every subs nightmare, an abusive Dom, the kind who didn’t believe in the colour ‘red’ unless it was in the form of blood.

There were others, but Louis was the ‘favourite’ and he was the one the Dom liked to ‘play with’ the most. In fact, when the rescue team arrived, Louis was the one currently providing ‘service’ to the Dom.

Or

Louis, Zayn and Niall are abused subs. Liam Payne is their devoted new Guidance Counsellor who just wants to make Niall smile and hear Zayn speak. As for Louis, he knows his guidance won’t be enough to help the boy heal. No, Louis Tomlinson needs something very special and very specific. He needs Harry Styles.

[irradiated-izzy-90]

Tagged by @primswan thank you so much for the tag 🥰

Name/Nickname: I have so many, which are: Izzy, Jinx, Starfire, Sailor Mars, Honey Lemon, Momo Yaoyorozu, Harley Quinn, Supergirl, Nebula

Gender: Female (she/her)

Height: 5'58 ft (1.70 mts)

Time: 6:16/18:16 PM

Favorite Bands: ZHIEND, Girls Dead Monster, How Low Hello, EXID, Maroon 5, Hex Girls, Mystik Spiral, Fifth Harmony, SWEET BULLET, Carole and Tuesday, D-Selections, ClariS, Little Glee Monster

Favorite Solo Artists: LiSA, Dua Lipa, Camila Cabello, ASCA, ReoNa, Eir Aoi, Angela Carpenter, Flora, Sumika, RADWIMPS, Mayasuki Suzuki, Sam Smith, Shawn Mendes, Carlos Rivera, Sebastian Yatra, Aimer, Katy Perry, Halsey, Naya Rivera, Ellie Goulding, Zara Larsson, Minori Chihara, Sia, Sigala, Sabrina Carpenter, Sofia Carson, Melanie Martinez, Ricky Martin, Hailee Steinfeld, Olivia Olson, D-Selections

Song Stuck in my Head: Still Into You- Paramore, Endless and The Tower-Carole and Tuesday

Last Movie You Watched: Mean Girls

Last Show: The Day I Became a God

When I Create this Blog: I think it was in 2017 or 2018

What do I post: I normally post edits when it is the birthday of one of my waifus and I explain how that waifu change my life

Last Thing I Googled: SWEET BULLET, because I never write correctly the name of Nodoka Tohoyama idol band and I just checked if it was correct

Other Blogs; I have my own Blogger and I write about the animes I see, I have my tumblr and I share edits, I write on my Instagram stories about LiSA and animes

Why I Choose my URL: Well, it all started when Suicide Squad was almost out and I play a game in which you create you own logo and it also gave you a name and the game gave me the name of Irradiated Izzy and since then I start using this name to every social media I have and I only add the 90, because I always had a connection with that number

Following: 26

Followers: 29

Average Hours of Sleep: 7-8 hours, well I have a really messed up sleeping schedule, beacuse I have trouble sleeping and I always sleep 30 minutes or one hour late or I see what is in the different social media and sleep late and also I have to wake up early for school

Instruments: I used to play the flute in middle school and I know the basics to play the guitar

What am I wearing: My Pijamas

Dream Job: Film Director, DJ, Idol, Superhero, Reporter, Actress or Botany

Dream Trip: Japan or Canada

Favorite Food: Chocolate

Nationality: Mexican

Favorite Song: Wagamama Cait Sith, Aijo, Prisoner

Do I Get Asks: No, I don't ask questions and they don't ask me

Last book I read: The Perks of being a Wallflower

Top Three Fictional Universes I'd like to live in: Fairy Tail, Marvel and SAO

Tagging: @frikiguardian @danytheknight

[holidaywishes]

It Had To Be You XXXVIII

Chapter Thirty Eight: Sad Song

  Summary: Fast forward six months and the new Preseason is just about to start. After a rough playoff loss, Tyler wants this season to be better and he has some ideas on how to make everything go smoothly.

  Warning: I guess because this song is so cheesy and sweet, there’s going to be a lot of fluff in this chapter, this one’s also got a few time jumps as well.

  Author’s Note: I don’t really know where I’m going with this series anymore. I think I’m trying to stretch it out to 50 chapters but it all depends on how I’m feeling obviously. Just know that I have a thing with odd numbers. That is to say, I will only end on an even number or a multiple of 5 (45, 50, 55, etc.) But this one will be another short chapter (and I’ll admit this is really not my favourite) but I’ll probably put two out back to back since I have something in my head and I’m literally not doing anything else, so why not? Anyway, I hope you like whatever comes from the rest of this series, ENJOY!

  P.S. This chapter took a little longer than I thought it would but I have some clearer ideas of what the next like four-ish chapters are going to be so that’s exciting.

  P.P.S. I wanted to update the timeline because this chapter has a lot of time jumps as did the last chapter. So here’s a quick recap of the whole series:

  Part I: September 2013

  Part II: November 2013

  Part III: January 2015

  Parts IV and V: May-June 2015

  Part VI: June 2015/January 2016

  Part VII: January 2016/June 2016/November 2016

  Part VIII: November 2016

  Part IX: December 2016

  Part X: January 2017

  Part XI: February-August 2017

  Part XII: September-November 2017

  Part XIII: mid-November-December 2017

  Part XIV: January-February 2018

  Part XV: March-April 2018

  Part XVI: April-June 2018

  Part XVII: July 2018

  Part XVIII: July-November 2018

  Parts XIX, XX and XXI: December 2018

  Parts XXII: December-January 2019

  Part XXIII, XXIV, XXV and XXVI: January 2019

  Part XXVII: late January-March 2019

  Parts XXVIII and XXIX: March 2019

  Part XXX: late-March/April-May 2019

  Part XXXI: May-November 2019

  Part XXXII: January 2020

  Part XXXIII: late January 2020

  Parts XXXIV and XXXV: August 2020

  Part XXXVI: October-Early November 2020

  Part XXXVII: March 2021

  Part XXXVIII (this chapter): July/September 2021/January 2022 (yup I did that)

  Song Credit: Sad Song -- We the Kings & Elena Coats

  masterlist

  the other masterlist

xx

  After the whole quarantine last year, and the season being cancelled, Tyler wanted the next to be better but after being knocked out in the first round he wasn’t in the best mood for a few months. He spent every waking minute training during the summer, except for his seemingly annual trip to the Bahama’s with the guys.

  “Are you sure you don’t want to come?” he asked when you said you’d stay behind and watch the dogs

  “I’ve gotta work,” you replied, pushing yourself up to wrap your arms around his neck and press your lips to his, “plus, I think you need some time with your boys to let loose. As long as you don’t let loose too much...”

  “Don’t worry, babe,” he replied, pecking your lips between words, “we’ll really just be playing a lot of golf. You know how it goes..” You sent him off with one last kiss and sent him an ‘I love you’ text before he got on the plane. You felt completely secure with Tyler lately but maybe that had to do with the fact that two of you had survived four months in self-isolation together. Whatever it was, you weren’t nervous about spending a week away from each other.

xx

  Tyler’s week away proved to be just what he needed to get his spirits up but as soon as he was back in Dallas, the two of you decided to head up to Brampton to see his family but it was over just as quickly as it began and it was time for the preseason to start. It was a pretty easy start to the season with the Stars winning 7 of their 8 preseason games which left Tyler with a huge grin on his face and he told you he was very positive for the rest of the city.

  “I have a good feeling about this season, you know?” he said, rinsing the dishes as you washed down the counter, “I feel like this could be our year.”

  “I think you guys are looking good out there but--” Tyler put his finger in front of your mouth to stop you from continuing

  “Don’t jinx it. We’re looking good and we’ll continue to look good because we’re in this for the long run.” He said, raising his eyebrows intensely so you got his point and you just smiled before nodding and walking away. You were happy he was so confident about the season especially after everything that happened and seeing him so excited made you excited for the season.

  “Hey, Ty,” you called from the couch, “you’re turning 30 in January. How do you want to celebrate?”

  “That’s a while from now, I haven’t thought about it..”

  “Well think about it!” you laughed, “I know the season will be like in ‘full swing’ or whatever, but maybe we can do something during Bye Week? It’s a big year you know?”

  “Yeah, another year older..” he sighed and slumped next to you on the couch, “I’m getting to be an oldie. I’ll be vintage soon...”

  “Oh stop,” you nudged, “vintage? I have a hard time thinking you’ll ever be vintage. It’s just a birthday. If you don’t want to celebrate it, we don’t have to. But I’ll have you know, men get sexier as they age.” you said, moving towards him to kiss his neck, “It’s actually very annoying.” He kissed you back

  “I’ll think about it,” he smiled and you tucked yourself into his side, “but for right now, let’s figure out something to watch.” As the two of you settled in and started some action movie you were sure you wouldn’t pay attention to, you caught yourself looking up at Tyler for the billionth time, “what?” he laughed

  “What?” you responded

  “I can feel you staring at me,” he continued, still not returning your gaze, “do I have something on my face?”

  “No,” you smiled, “I just like looking at you.” When he finally looked at you, your stomach filled with butterflies and you felt the need to bury your head in his chest; looking back up at him just in time to see his smile stretch across his face.

  “I like looking at you too.” He said, leaning his head down to capture your lips in a soft kiss. You reveled in it for a minute before finally saying anything

  “I’ll never get tired of that” you giggled and he smiled against your lips before continuing to kiss you.

xx

Tyler’s P.O.V

  You hated that you couldn’t be with (Y/N) and the dogs on your birthday again this year, especially because things seemed to be going so well, so you figured out a way for her to be with you in

  “Boston?” she said, a hint of confusion in her voice over the phone

  “That’s where we’ll be on my birthday,” you replied, “there are some great spots though.”

  “I went once,” she said, nonchalantly, “it was beautiful. But I mean.. Bruins fans run rampant” she laughed and you knew then that she would meet you there.

  “So you’ll be there?” you asked

  “If I get to see you, I’ll be wherever you ask.” You could hear her smile over the phone and your smile grew in return

  “Good,” you laughed, “I’ll see you in a couple days. Love you”

  “Love you, too.” You ended the call only to turn around to your teammates waiting to chirp you

  “Ooooh, Tyler and (Y/N) sittin’ in a tree,” they started, “k-i-s-s-i-n-g, first comes love, then comes marr--”

  “Alright, alright. That’s enough guys.” They laughed and you smiled as you found your way back to your seat beside Rads and Jamie.

  “She’s coming to spend your birthday with you? That’s sweet” Jamie said

  “Well...” you hesitated, “I’m thinking of proposing to her!”

  “On your birthday?” Jamie asked and Rads gave you a sideways glance

  “Yeah...” you answered, “I mean we’ll already be out to dinner and I love her, so..”

  “You think you’re ready?” Rads asked and you took a second to answer

  “Yeah”

  “What if she says no? Then your birthday is like forever tainted by that” Jamie challenged

  “It’s still my birthday, it won’t be tainted. Forever.”

  “She’s a great girl and you seem really happy with her,” Rads interrupted, “I like her and I like her for you. But just make sure, if you feel weird about it, don’t do it.” You took a second to think about what he was saying but you couldn’t stop thinking about how she’d be in that moment and what the rest of your life would look like with her.

 “Thanks Rads,” you finally said, “it’s alright though. I want her in my lie forever. I can’t imagine a day without her there.”

xx

  You showed up at the Boston airport and waited for instructions from Tyler when he sent you a text with directions to his hotel

  “Am I suppose to get my own room or find my way to yours?” you replied as you got into the cab and told the driver the address

  “Don’t worry, I got you a room but it’s close to mine” he said

  “Sounds good, it’s under my name?”

  “Yes. I’m heading to practice, so I won’t be there when you check in but I’ll call you when I’m out. I made reservations at 6 so you’ll have to be ready”

  “What kind of place is it? What if I didn’t pack anything fancy?”

  “I have something for you. I’m always prepared”

  “Well you’re lucky. I figured you might do something like this so I brought a dress”

  “Thinking ahead, I like it” he joked and you rolled your eyes

  “I have to or you’ll get me something wayyyy too revealing”

  “The amount of revealing it would be is debatable.” You let him go after that by sending him an eye roll GIF and he sent back a laughing emoji. A couple hours later, you started getting ready for whatever Tyler had planned, deciding whether you should curl or straighten your hair when he called you

  “Hey babe,” he said happily, “you almost ready? I’m just about to jump in the shower so I wanted to check in”

  “I’m almost ready. I’ll be ready by the time you’re out of the shower so I could meet you in yo-”

  “NO” he blurted out, “I want to pick you up.”

  “Fine,” you laughed, “I’ll be ready soon. Go take your shower, I love you.”

xx

Tyler’s P.O.V.

  You finished getting ready, making sure to do a quick pep talk to yourself in the mirror.

  “You got this dude. You love her, she loves you.” You smiled and made sure you had everything you needed, careful not to forget the ring, and headed over to (Y/N)’s room.

  “Just a second!” she called after you knocked on her door, fidgeting with your suit jacket while you waited. When she opened the door, your mouth dropped at the sight of her in a beautiful blue dress and she smiled before spinning around for you to get a complete look at the outfit, “what do you think?”

  “You look.. stunning,” you smiled, “guess it’s a good thing I didn’t pack anything for you isn’t it?” She smiled to herself, shaking her head as she grabbed her purse. The two of you laughed and she took your hand as the two of you headed to the car.

  “What do you have planned?” she asked as she put on some music

  “A nice dinner, I’ll take you to some of my favourite places in the city,” you said, intertwining your fingers with hers to kiss the back of her head, “nothing too crazy.” She smiled at you and tried, the whole way to the restaurant, to guess where you were taking her or what you were planning. You pulled up in front of the restaurant and a valet opened her door

 “Oooh,” you smiled as you heard her speak to the valet, “isn’t this fancy?” You met her on the sidewalk, thanking the valet and tipping him before taking (Y/N)’s hand to go inside. When she sat down, she browsed the menu and you tried not to give away how nervous you were about what you had planned for later in the night.

  “Anything look good?” you asked about the menu

  “Still looking..” she smiled. You ordered her favourite drink when the server came by to grab your orders, “ahh I get it” she said as the server left

  “What?” you said suddenly

  “You’re trying to be ‘the big man’ tonight. Coming to a fancy restaurant with valets, ordering my favourite drink,” she smiled and you let out a sigh, “who you trynna impress, Seguin?”

  “Only you,” you answered, “always you.” The rest of the meal was filled with smiles from both of you; you watched as her eyes lit up when she talked about her job, her smile shine when you talked about how you felt about the team and the way the season was going and listened to her laugh that you couldn’t imagine not hearing everyday. You kept Rads’ words in the back of your head though, ‘just make sure, if you feel weird about it, don’t do it.’

  “Would you like a dessert menu?” the server asked when he noticed there was a break in the conversation. You were prepared for her to say no, or to defer to you, but instead she said yes and that was the moment you knew she was comfortable with you. It was a small moment, a small thing, but it made everything so much clearer. You paid the bill and thanked the staff, guiding (Y/N) out to the car by placing your hand on the small of her back. You took her to the aquarium and watched her eyes follow the fish and tried to catch her as she chased the manta rays before eventually stopping in front of the shark tank.

  “We may be slightly overdressed for this place” you laughed, noticing the stares the two of you were getting

  “Do you ever wonder what they’re thinking?” she said, completely ignoring your statement

  “What?” you asked

  “Like are they sad? Do they know where they are? Do they wonder where their friends are? Or their families? Do they like it here? Are they happy?” You smiled at her thought process, “did you know that Sharks adapt to fit their environment? So like if there was a Great White Shark here, it would only grow to fit comfortably in the tank but in the ocean it would grow much bigger. That’s why you hear of like 30ft sharks.” She finished, eyebrows raised when she looked at you and you smiled while your eyes danced between hers.

  “Is any of that actually true?” you asked and she smiled at you

  “I don’t know,” she confessed, “it could be. It sounds like it should be, doesn’t it?” She grabbed your hand, intertwining her fingers with yours and continued walking, “and,” she added, “who cares if we’re overdressed.” She winked at you, as if to say ‘I’m always paying attention,’ and you shared the smile that she gave you. There was one last place you wanted to go before it got dark and it was the perfect spot for the proposal. A park with a beautiful river running through and a clear view of the Boston skyline. Sure, it was public but it wasn’t overly crowded so it had just enough of people for (Y/N) to have at least one picture of the proposal without feeling overwhelmed.

  “Wow, Ty,” she said lightly, “this place is beautiful. Thank you for bringing me here.” She smiled at you and, with her hair blowing in the wind and the sun beginning to set, you knew it was the perfect time.

xx

  “(Y/N),” Tyler said when your back was turned, “I need to get this out so don’t say anything until I’m finished okay?” You giggled at his statement but slowly turned around to face him, surprised when you saw him on one knee

  “Ty, what are you doing?” you said

  “I love you,” he started and your eyes grew wide, “ When we first met, I was so focused on being the best for Dallas, to start fresh after Boston, that you were just some girl. I didn’t think of you really that way, until I saw you with James; I just wanted to see you happy because you deserved that, I just hated that it had to be with him. But now here we are, having chosen each other after all the crap we’ve been through. Together and apart. I know we’ve had some rough times but you’ve always been the person I want to be with. The one I want to wake up next to. Every time we’re apart, whether I’m on the road or your visiting Chris in Calgary, I feel like I’m missing something because I am. You. You’re my favourite part of me and I can’t imagine a day without you. (Y/N) (Y/M/N) (Y/L/N), will you marry me?” You stood in front of Tyler for a few minutes, in a state of shock that left you silent when you noticed a few people start to huddle around you and Tyler, who hadn’t moved at all

  “Yes” you whispered, a smile starting to grow on your face

  “What?” he said jokingly, a smile dancing on his lips

  “Of course I’ll marry you!” you exclaimed and he slid the ring on your finger before picking you up and kissing you, you breaking the kiss only to laugh at the round of applause the two of you got. He put you down and waved to the crowd as you buried yourself in his chest out of embarrassment.

  “I love you”

  “I love you too,” you said, tucking yourself into his side while the two of you continued to walk through the park, “I can’t believe you actually proposed.”

  “Why?” he asked, in fake shock

  “I don’t know.. I guess I just never thought you were the marrying kind” you admitted

  “I wasn’t,” he said, kissing the top of your head, “until you.”

  “Well, happy birthday Mr. Seguin” you joked

  “Thank you,” he replied, “and thank you for saying ‘yes’ on my birthday. The guys were convinced that if you said no it would’ve tainted the day forever”

  “I’m surprised you did it on your birthday. I mean, the guys are right. It’s a risk.” You laughed and he shrugged his shoulders

  “It was worth it.”

[awolfnamedluna]

ugh so tired today

[ateez-amanda]

♕ Amanda’s Masterlist ♕

✵basics✵:

∥ Profile ∥ Background ∥ Facts ∥ Style ∥ Just Amanda Things ∥ Song Credit ∥ Mic & Ear Piece ∥ Dorm Room ∥ Incorrect Quotes ∥ Inside Her Phone ∥

✵relationships✵:

∥ w/ ATEEZ ∥ Outside of ATEEZ ∥ Family ∥ Crushes ∥ Love Life ∥ Jinx ∥

✵iconic amanda moments✵:

∥ pt. 1 ∥ pt. 2 ∥

✵throughout the eras✵:looks,lines,etc.

✵scenarios✵:[in chronological order]

2016

∥ Destiny? ∥ The Deal ∥

2017

∥ A Surprising Discovery ∥ A New Hangout ∥

2018

∥ Bonding ∥ Late Night Chats ∥

2019

∥ Not Alone ∥ 00 Leader ∥ Opening Up ∥ Memories ∥ Distractions ∥ Time For A Break ∥ Little Reminders ∥ Home Again ∥ No Way ∥

2020

∥ The Plan ∥ Set Up ∥ Consequences ∥ Fashion Advice ∥ Intentions ∥ Awkward Meeting ∥ Girl Talk ∥ Official ∥

2021

∥ Chaos ∥

2022

∥ Interrupted ∥

✵filmography✵:[in chronological order]

Mixnine

tba

Treasure Film

∥ Leap of Confidence ∥

Fever Road

tba

Kingdom

∥ Episode 1 ∥ Episode 2 ∥ Episode 3 ∥ Episode 4 & 5 ∥ Episode 6 ∥ Episode 7 ∥ Episode 8 ∥ Episode 9 ∥ Episode 10 ∥

Immortal Songs

∥ Black Cat Nero ∥ Anyhow ∥ It’s Raining ∥ Right Now ∥

Wanteez

∥ Episode 1 ∥

RaRa’s Records

∥ Adios ∥

Miscs

∥ 3rd Year Anniversary Party ∥ showterview w/ jessi ∥ After_zzZ ∥ ATOM December 2021 ∥

✵articles✵:

∥ Temporary Hiatus ∥

✵social media✵:

∥ Twitter ∥ Birthday Post ∥ TikTok ∥ #amandeen_insta ∥

[corhore]

What are some good comics to read for she-hulk

Aight so i want to be as thorough as possible so this is gonna be a bit long so here goes. 

Sensational She-Hulk

Classic shit. Hilarious fun stuff. 

She-Hulk by Dan Slott

Also really fun stuff with more Lawyer and character development stuff. 

She-Hulk by Peter David

A more serious take on Shulkie, but good none the less.

She-Hulk by Charles Soule

Probably the most well written Book Jen has had. The art takes some getting used to, but its really good. Only problem is that its too short. 

Hulk (2017)

NO

She-Hulk #159-163

These are the last good She-Hulk comics since the Jason Arron dark age. Its shows Jen recovering from her trauma and going green again. 

Avengers by Jason Arron

NO

Not even gonna show a picture cus its so bad.

Avengers by Roger Stern

She’s a regular member on one of the best Avengers runs and it has Monica Captain Marvel as well so its worth checking out. 

Fantastic Four by John Byrne

She becomes a member of the FF about half way through Byrnes run and this is one of the best FF runs ever next to Stan and Kirby’s run. 

FF by Matt Fraction

Some good stuff as weel, but also really short. 

Mighty Avengers by Al Ewing

Its Al Ewing so yeah its good. 

A-Force

An above average team book with Shulkie. 

Totally Awesome Hulk

The first volume of Pak’s Totally Awesome Hulk is a fun, decent read. It also had art by Frank Cho so thats a plus. 

Hulk (2008) #1-9

Jen fighting Red Hulk and the forming of She-Hulk and her lady Liberators. How is thas not its own book?

She-Hulks

Jen team ups with Lyra the daughter of Bruce and Thundra from another universe. Nice. 

Guardians Team up #4

Gamora meets She-Hulk. Nuff said. 

She-Hulk Cosmic Collison

She-Hulk IN SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACE

She-Hulk Sensational

A one shot celebrating the 30th birthday of She-Hulk. Its great. 

Also marvel didn’t do anything for Jen’s 40th birthday so they suck

She-Hulk Annual #1: Acts of Evil

The last and most recent good She-Hulk story. Jen finds her body switched with Bullseye and high jinx ensues. 

Thats about it. Happy readings. 

[immortalfailures-archived]

Young and Sweet

Oh how the year passes so fast when you have friends to distract you.

June third arrived and left, just as it had every year. Reme was out of town so she couldn’t be there, but she hand wrote a fifty four and a half page apology letter to Jinx writing in excruciating detail how bad she felt. And then there were at least four pages that just repeated the words ‘I’m sorry, don’t hate me.’

Jinx hadn’t minded though. All she cared about was that it wasn’t as big of an event as they made it out to be last year. Yes she appreciated it and thought it flattering that her friends would do that for her, but she was never one for huge parties in her honor. Instead she kicked Lex out of the house and let herself relax. She ran a bath and soaked in the scented bubbles, surrounded by candles and herbs. After that she indulged in a “small” shopping trip.

She bought yards upon yards of fabric so she could make summer clothes for the three of them, along with some fabric just to have in storage. She purchased tea, candles, bath bombs, scrubs, bubble bars, soaps, etc. She went all out to make the day a self care day.

When she returned home and dropped her bags, the first thing she noticed was a poorly wrapped blue box on the counter tied up in a silver ribbon. Lex was so predictable. Without hesitation she opened the box, it was no bigger than the palm of her hand.

Removed the paper and top revealed a pink ribbon with a little silver moon charm. She recognized it immediately as the item she used as a collar for Estrella so many years ago. Where did he find this? It had been lost for years!

But she then noticed a trunk under the table. There was a note on top that read:

“Wait until I get home for this one. I want to see your reaction. -Lex”

But Jinx was never one for listening. She pulled out the box, with much difficulty, and pried it open. It was badly singed and damaged by weather. The bottom looked like it had molded due to excess water damage, and the (possibly previously gold?) rims had been worn out and dulled.

She finally managed to unhook the latch. In it were… Toys? The inside of the trunk looked completely untouched compared to the outside. It had painted walls that looked like a six years old’s attempt to paint space. There was a dark blue plush bottom that looked like it was been repaired considering there used to be a rip in it from when Jinx shoved a toy a little too forcefully into it… The memory came back to her in a rush.

This was her old toy box! She shuffled through everything quickly. With every toy she removed was another tear that ran down her face. Out came a pair of battered wings made from an old leather jacket, a toy sword with plastic gems glued onto it and gibberish painted on the side, and a toy ship that had been broken and glued together multiple times. Next was a broken broom stick that had been glued and taped together many a time with only an indigo ribbon to cover the ugly taping method. She continued further to find a ghost doll that was made from a white piece of cloth and a string. She hugged the doll close and placed it carefully on her lap.

After that there was old baby books that she hid there because they were her favorite, a box of colored pencils that went along with a sketchbook filled with “clothing” designs, a few articulated dolls like barbies, and of course her favorite stuffed animals. Soon, once it was empty, Jinx was quick to pull up the plush bottom. There, sitting neatly in the middle, was a folder. It was decorated in bright glitter and gell pens. She reached in and carefully removed it, running her hand across the surface and watching the little specks of loose, faded glitter fall on her skirt.

Without another moment of hesitance she opened it up. And there they were. Pictures, both drawn and photographed, of her and her family. There was a picture of her and Estrella playing in the water at the lake their family vacationed to often. Another was a group photo of them in bathing suits in front of the lake. Laurence (her father) held a newly nine year old Jinx on his shoulders while her mother and sister (Helena and Amelia) laughed at them. Another showed a tiny baby in homemade dragon wings running around and chasing little Amelia while Jinx stood in a battle ready pose holding a toy sword. Laurence was on the ground pretending to be dead with his tongue sticking out.

There were at least twenty more. All these memories she thought perished in a fire seven years earlier. She couldn’t believe she was seeing this, that this chest had managed to make it through all that. It was impossible.

“I knew you wouldn’t wait.” Lex was leaning in the doorway of the kitchen watching her with a half smile on his face.

Jinx whipped around, startled. She quickly wiped the tears from her eyes and stood. “Where- Where did you find this? In such amazing condition? I don’t… it’s not possible!”

“Mom liked to put protection charms on the important stuff. Luckily this was one of them.” He moved towards her and knelt by the box. Longingly he looked at the photos and felt a pain in his chest from seeing his parent’s faces. “What I wouldn’t give to see them again…”

There was a pause, long, but not uncomfortable. It was like time had stopped completely. Finally, after what seemed like years Jinx spoke, “You saved these… From the house… Didn’t you?”

Lex nodded, his eyes not moving from the pictures. Jinx slowly sank down next to him. She let her head fall on his shoulder whilst tears began to fall again. “You never fail to amaze me, Lex.”

He let out a breathy laugh and put an arm around her. “Anything for you, little sis.”

fin

[staarblaster]

Bad Moon Rising

Without dreams and phantoms, man cannot exist. - Olive Schreiner

I don’t own Julie and the Phantoms, but I do own my OC Jinx, and I will say as a friendly reminder, Jinx uses they/them pronouns. Alright, let’s begin!

Chapter One

Trouble on the Way

October 12th, 2017

6:45 am

It was an unusually cold day in Pasadena California, the sharp smell of rain still lingered in the air, it was the weekend and I was in my room as per usual. It was oddly comforting, as I was getting sick of the hot sun on my face. Within my phone went off with a solid buzz. 

Hey there unlucky!-W

Haha funny 🙄 We’re still going to that party right?

Mmm, I kinda wanna go skating, but I’ll meet you after?-W

Don’t stay out too late Wiiillliam

As I put my phone down I heard a knock from outside, 

“Yeah?”

A head poked into my room, to reveal my stepbrother, Malcolm,  he had the same shaggy brown hair and comforting grey eyes as per usual his hair looked a bit unkempt but comforting nonetheless. 

“Come on Ju-inx we need to go to school! Mom said we can’t be late again. The bus is coming! And you haven’t had breakfast”

“Mal it’s fine, Will is giving me a ride and everything’s going to be fine.”

He turned and gave me a serious look, before ruffling my hair

“You know you’re a terrible liar. Just promise me you’ll go to school okay and hey we could celebrate tomorrow. I know Willie and  I know what they call you but you can’t let it affect you too much”

I frowned before eventually nodding,

"Yeah Malcolm. I promise I'll go to school today. "

October 13th, 2017

2:55 am

The walk back from the party was daunting, I wish I was exaggerating, but it was another birthday. See there’s a reason why Malcolm struggled with my name, it’s Jinx to put it plainly. Ever since I was a kid, bad luck followed me like a magnet. From slipping on ice and spraining my ankle to just getting sick every school picture day. I never have caught a break in the luck department.  For some reason, it just seems to spike, especially on my birthday.  I checked my phone, no texts from Willie, but as I went to check my phone to see if Willie had texted me since I had left the party.  Absolutely nothing.

Just gotta get home you’ll see Willie in a few hours, Happy Birthday Jinx, another year of bad luck and misfortune tailing you like a black cat yet again. 

I sighed popping in my headphones, singing along and drumming to the beat

”I see the bad moon rising, I see trouble on the way”

I continued to walk, waiting for the bus, I didn’t want to take any chances with ubers and the chance of my step-dad seeing the lights it was better if I just took a bus.

I continued to walk before feeling something hit the back of my head. My vision started blurring before feeling that hit to the back of the head yet again, and as I touched the back of my head I felt blood. I was seeing my blood. 

“Hey what the hell!” But it sounded slowed like my head was underwater, I was struggling to even stay conscious.

---

October 10th, 2020

Willie sat patiently waiting for Alex, did he pass on, did Caleb find him and the others, his head racing with thoughts, his leg moving up and down nervously.

He’s fine, he’s fine. Not like them. He wouldn’t risk going back to Caleb, and the Orpheum how co-

And then he was there in a small flash of golden blonde.

“Willie hey! I’m so sorry I was late but I have great news”

Willie didn’t wait a single second before hugging him.

Alex melted into his arms smiling into the hug instantly.

“Hey.  Is everything okay?”

Willie nodded, pushing back the tears that were slowly forming in his eyes. 

“So, I take it that wasn’t your unfinished business.”

Alex sighed, slowly pulling away, 

“Yeah but listen, no more stamp! Julie, the lifer, she saved us!”

At this point Willie was still hugging Alex, he felt so warm, so safe. Skating had always been a solace sure, but this was different. 

Alex stopped hugging  Willie for a moment, 

“Is everything okay?”

Before Willie could answer his phone started blaring an all familiar song, Bad Moon Rising by Clearwater Revival. And as he checked it was a notification plain and simple, a text notification, with two simple words with a ghost emoji and black cat emoji

Miss Me? 👻🐱

[darkdata]

Halloween Google Doodles (2009 to 2017 )

Starting from the top...

Halloween 2009 - The Click or Treat Doodle (In the Doodle archives clicking on this does nothing for me).

Halloween 2010 - A static image showing the Mystery Machine (from the popular cartoon Scooby Doo) in the background.

Halloween 2011 - This is a snapshot of a video of Google staff carving giant pumpkins to spell GOOGLE. Searching for this shows a ‘behind the scenes’ on how they did this.

Halloween 2012 - A snapshot of an interactive Doodle. Clicking on the doors reveals monsters shaped in the traditional Google Doodle fashion. Accompanied by growls and moans of the monsters. Note: I could not hear this very well even with speakers turned up.

Bram Stoker’s 165th Birthday - A still Doodle that speaks for itself.

Halloween 2013 - Another interactive Google Doodle. Click on the witch, then choose items to put in her pot. Combinations of two of the items reveal a small game to play. There are 6 combinations of items, thus six games to play.

Halloween 2014 - A semi-dynamic Doodle that appears to randomly choose one of 6 gifs for every visit of the page. There is the pumpkins as depicted above, a happy scarecrow that waves, a witch stirring a cauldron, a ghost chase, zombies in a graveyard ‘garden’ and a final gif of a werewolf letter ‘O’ scaring the rest of the Google letters.

Halloween 2015 - An interactive flappy bird style game were you control one of four teams of ‘quidditch’ witches to fly through as much candy as possible. Scores appear to be tallied based on the teams other users choose, giving a worldwide tally of candy captured for each team.

Halloween 2016 - A fairly advanced game where the player (who is a black cat) has to rescue their Halloween friends from ghosts by drawing the symbols shown above ghosts heads before they bite you. Waves of ghosts get tougher to beat as more symbols have to be drawn before they reach you to kill them.

Halloween 2017 - A video of a ghost called Jinx who decides what to wear for Halloween.