#6 months depression

[zialinart]

My submission for the fan book for Black sails tenth yeah anniversary

Thank you so much @tobys-walrus-crew for organising this ! Can't wait to see the book !! Also thank you @myfavoritespotonthecitadel for doing the text

[sleeeepy-demon]

part 7 of bg3 memes i drew on paint except its all my Tav. Sorry.

part: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15

(if you wanna know more about them ⬇)

dhfliskdj f I am insane. about him. His name is Melodic Black Metal, they/he pronouns and they are obviously a bard. Lawful good. Romanced astarion cuz my friend @snaso102 said it would be the hardest to do while playing a good character and now i am insane about them together too. The hooded figure is Melo's sister, she can see a bit of the future.

PLEASE lets talk about them lets make our Tavs meet and have a party or whatever. I WILL talk about them even if you dont so, yea, ok, yea, ok, ok, yea, ok,

[elialys]

i just received an email from my future school, i passed the entry exam, I AM IN GUYS!!! 🥳

[polarmoon]

on my grind

[crimeronan]

Just pictured Luz finally retired from being Empress and getting to rest for 14 months straight except Hunter falls right into the same ‘cheery prep’ archetype as his canon self in Thanks to Them and keeps being like “Hey do you want to go watch the birds at 5AM? How about a nature hike?” and Luz is torn between being relieved that Hunter wants to do things for himself and asks for things he wants and being repulsed by the idea of leaving her bed ever

GOD. HELP. YEAH

hunter is like what a wild and inconceivable freedom.... to be able to walk around outside without worrying about you getting shot..... did you know there are a ton of native birds on the isles....? i'm gonna go get woodland creatures to eat out of my hand and tame a slitherbeast just by having extremely chill vibes you should join me :D

and luz is like [pulling the pillow over her head] i'm currently exercising my own wild and inconceivable freedom. to be in the quiet dark. for as long as possible. thank you.

.....you Should bring me back a muffin, tho.

[thoodleoo]

suffering from a variety of chronic ailments is fun because something starts acting up youre like alright. which one of my humors is out of balance this time

[ohio-thestate]

I have an unending hatred for those microwave dinners like why are the bbq ones the only ones that taste like anything

"spaghetti and meatballs" oh you mean starch noodles with tomato water and flavorless pieces of meat?

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[sga-owns-my-soul]

personal rant under the cut

it has been the longest two weeks of my life and i'm SO FUCKING TIRED. i kept having to fight my job about missing pay (which FINALLY got sorted out today thank god) which put me drastically behind on my bills. my relationship is falling apart, although i think there might be a chance to salvage it? we're both hurt and angry and there's a lot of trust issues going on right now but neither of us want to let go of what we have and we actually had a halfway decent conversation today about it and he agreed to go to therapy with me and i almost started sobbing at work out of relief (and also a little bit bc i was Very Overwhelmed)

i didn't realize how badly i was spiralling or how bad the depression fog was until it felt like i was no longer making my own decisions and i was hurting the people i love because of it which is such a fucking horrible thing to realize/go through. my brain doesn't work properly and now the people i love are suffering bc of it and i know suicide isn't the answer but goddamn it sounds easier right now. it's not an option tho so i got back on antidepressants (for the first time in about 7 years) and i'm seeing my therapist again on tuesday (for the first time in about 6 years)

being an adult sucks. it's fucking hard and i'm exhausted and i don't want to have to keep doing it. i will, because i have to and dying would hurt people even more but jesus fucking christ i wish i could catch a break

[the-spooky-children]

Can't stop thinking about unhealthy co-dependent teen!fireskulls..

[th1smf]

guys this is actually him calling will !!! (cannon)

[bunnighost]

[moonspirit]

Well. It's 2024 where I live ._.

Happy New year to everyone ._.

[angelic-waffles]

Idk headcannons or summ (it has my alt twitter username just go with it)

[applejongho]

:/

[notjanine]

me a week ago: i love my job!!

me now, after having a mid-year review that amounted to you’re doing an excellent job and you bring such a valuable perspective to our practice but i don’t have the ability to give you a raise right now but don’t worry bc i just hired a new CFO to try to figure out money so we can maybe give you a raise later this year: *breaks into a cold sweat as i crack open indeed dot com*