#9 1 1 s8

[schrijverr]

A snippet of my Chris finds Eddie's HS diary fic that I will finish soon, I swear and then I'll post it. I'm trying to keep it under 70k, but idk how successful I'm gonna be lmao... maybe I should be somewhat realistic and say under 75k

~~

Chris gets assigned Beowulf for English and hates every moment of it, despite the fact he usually likes reading well enough. The old English they’re given just doesn’t compute in his brain though and it takes ages to get through it.

He texts Buck about it, but he cites dyslexia and leaves him to his own devices, which is rude. He could ask grandma. She used to read to him, he remembers, but he doesn’t like having to ask her for help. It always makes him feel a little incompetent.

Another person he remembers reading to him is mom and he misses her all over again. Why did he have to inherit dad’s talents and weak points in school subjects? Why doesn’t he have pieces of her there?

Everyone always tells him how much he looks like his mom and he’s tried to find her so many times, smiling into the mirror in the hopes of seeing her, but he never really did. He can’t find her smile or the eyes that dad mentioned, doesn’t see the resemblance that Marisol had commented on after seeing a picture of mom.

And here he is once more, lacking a connection to her.

Usually he’d be more okay with it, the grief of missing her so familiar and well worn it’s almost comfortable. However, today Mr. Smith called him Eddie by accident. He does that from time to time, ever since the first class actually. It has always annoyed Chris, but today it hurts.

He finds himself in front of a mirror now, trying to find what Mr. Smith sees. What about his face calls to mind his dad for the teacher. He makes all sorts of expressions, frowning and scowling, even looking constipated and surprised. He leans in and zeroes in on his eyes, his brows, his mouth. Looks at the shape of his face.

Nothing.

Chris doesn’t see it. And he is glad for it. Despite wanting to know more about why dad became like this and loving him through the anger and mistrust, Christopher never wants to become like his dad. He’ll struggle through Beowulf if that’s what it takes.

Edit: now finished

[fandomofisolation]

I'm not ready to believe that Buck and Tommy are done for good.

I'm just spitballing here, but I think I have some good reasons for that.

Here's why:

1.

Tommy agreed to go to Maddie's wedding with Buck and showed up still in his turnouts and covered in soot after a grueling 24 (?) hours of fire-fighting because he did not want to go back on that promise. And he kissed Buck in the middle of the hospital and allowed Buck to go into Chimney's hospital room with soot all over his face and met all Buck's family and friends.

Tommy was always talking about the 118 as a family and how he wanted to be a part of that.

Tommy took care of Buck when he dislocated his shoulder and slept over at Buck's place.

Tommy gave Buck a present for their six-month anniversary.

It's not giving "someone who doesn't think this is going to last". It's not giving "someone who is just here for a good time". What it IS giving is "someone who takes this relationship seriously". "Someone who just might be falling in love."

Here's what I'm thinking.

Tommy had just found out that his Buck is the half-her-age himbo that his ex-fiancée Abby dated after he broke off their engagement and "went a little crazy". Now, what we know about Tommy right now is that he has done a lot of work on himself, that he has grown a lot, and that he is a good person. I think it's safe to assume that he feels badly about breaking Abby's heart.

We've seen him talk about his past before, like on their first date or in Buck's loft when he made the "God I hope so" comment but he never really goes in depth. I think he's trying to shield Buck from his trauma. So yeah, when he talked about Abby, he's not gonna give Buck all the ugly details about his own journey. And of course the scene with Josh supports that with the comment about scars.

So Tommy is confronted with a visceral reminder of the woman he hurt. And he probably cared about her. And he probably feels bad. But that happened at a time when he was figuring himself out. He had just left the 118. He was dealing with some shit. He was doing the best he could. What's important here is that he was just embarking on the journey of embracing his sexuality. And for all we know, he might have been right around the age that Buck is right now.

So Tommy sees Buck as his former self. And all that guit comes back and turns into pure panic. Because if Buck is past-Tommy, then Tommy is past-Abby. And Tommy is not gonna let Buck do to him what he himself did to Abby.

But it's not about Buck. Tommy is projecting. This is Tommy's own regret and insecurity.

2.

There are some very important parallels in this episode that I would like to draw your attention to.

7.05: Buck and Tommy have their first date at a restaurant, which ends with Tommy leaving Buck standing in front of the restaurant alone because he doesn't think Buck is ready

8.06: Buck and Tommy have their six-month anniversary date at a restaurant and have a conversation that begins a chain of events which ultimately leads to Tommy breaking up with Buck because he thinks that Buck will break his heart

7.05: Eddie asked Marisol to move in with him, then freaked out and thought that he was going to have to break up with her but ultimately was persuaded that that was not the best course of action. (The fact that everything got fucked up when Kim came into the picture is later and has nothing to do with this. Marisol and Eddie were doing well after he asked her to move back out.)

8.06: Buck asked Tommy to move in with him and Tommy freaked out and "broke up" with Buck.......

7:05: Eddie is dealing with rediscovering a faith that he didn't think was still important to him, because the girl he is dating used to be a nun-in-training

8.06: Eddie is dipping his toe back into the pool of practising his faith and runs into the priest he confessed to at a juice bar, where said priest arguably may have been flirting with him

7.05: Eddie shows up to Buck's apartment because he doesn't know what to do about Marisol. Buck tells Eddie that he and Tommy were on a date but Tommy "dumped" him. Eddie convinces Buck not to give up and tells him to call Tommy. Buck convinces Eddie not to break up with Marisol.

8.06: Buck shows up to Eddie's house because Tommy just "broke up" with him............

3.

This show has a an established pattern of couples + second chances. Maddie even does a whole speech about it at one point.

Let's review:

- Buck thinks that Abby's complicated life is too much for him and tells Bobby that he thinks he's going to break up with her. Bobby convinces him not to and that relationship becomes the best and most transformative relationship of Buck's life...until now.

- Bobby and Athena start dating then have a fight about how Athena is ashamed of him and Bobby doesn't want to be a secret but Michael (Athena's GAY ex-husband..ahem..) convinces her not to give up on it.

- When Athena asked Bobby to move in with her (ahem), Bobby freaks out (AHEM) and we think he's going to break it off but he actually ends up proposing.

- in a flashback, we see that Hen and Karen broke up earlier in their relationship but Chimney once again got involved and got them back together by convincing Karen to try again.

- Hen full on CHEATED on Karen with her crazy ex (I know, we don't like to talk about it) and Karen moved out. But Hen fought for her and she came back. Now they're better than ever.

- Eddie and Shannon were separated for a long time, but they eventually got back together

- Maddie and Chimney were really good friends and falling in love but Maddie wasn't ready. And Chimney was sad but he understood. (2.08) Then Maddie decides to divorce Doug and asks Chimney out. (2.11)

- After Doug almost kills both Chimney and Maddie, they try to pick up where they left off but whatever they were about to have is gone and they're not getting it back. (2.14) But Maddie still won't give up and suggests that they try to have something else. (2.18)

- Buck and Taylor hooked up but fought about Taylor's journalistic ethics. However, they eventually reconnected and end up dating.

- Buck kissed Lucy and freaked out and asked Taylor to move in with him. When he told Taylor that's what happened, she was PISSED but they worked it out and she stayed.

- After Maddie went to Boston, Maddie and Chimney broke up because they grew apart, or grew while they were apart. BUT they continue coparenting amicably, have a one-night stand and buy a house together. And of course, get engaged and eventually married!

- Natalia learned about Lucy, Taylor and Kameron all in one night and decided that Buck's life was too full and too complicated for her. But she came back after realizing that Buck was worth it and the fullness and complexity was a good thing.

- We've already talked about Eddie and Marisol and Buck and Tommy the first time.

---

IN CONCLUSION, DO YOU SEE THE VISION??

I think that Eddie, once again, is going to help Buck gain some perspective and convince him not to give up on Tommy. I think Buck is going to fight for Tommy and Tommy is going to work through some stuff and realize that he was acting out of fear. And I think they're going to get back together!!

---

Note: This could work for bucktommy OR buddie end game.

Of the couples I mentioned in my list of second chances, the three main couples all stayed together, eventually getting married. But Eddie and Buck have each had 2-3 instances (Shannon and Marisol, and Abby, Taylor and Natalia, respectively) where their relationships seemed like they were going to end (or did end) but they worked through it, AND THEN LATER actually did end anyway for a completely different reason.

So what I'm saying is that Buck and Tommy could end up like Bathena, Madney or Henren, or they could go the route of Buck's and Eddie's previous relationships and eventually end, which would be very sad but okay as long as it were for a good reason.

[fandomofisolation]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

8x06 stills - Buck's loft

[stolenkissesdiaz]

i hope buck, eddie and shannon are haunting helena through chris rn. i hope when chris rolls his eyes and snarks back helena freezes reminding her damn well who his father is. i hope when chris bites the inside of cheek and is suddenly really interested in his hands when he’s nervous about something helena scrunches her eyebrows in confusion bc she swears she’s seen it before and her eyes widen as she recalls eddie’s friend, the same friend who was there when they picked up chris, having the same mannerisms when eddie and his team came to texas. i hope when chris asks for the ice cream from the store 45 minutes from their house near the park and he picks rocky road helena swallows roughly bc shannon would do the same when she missed eddie and/or was sad. i hope she’s violently reminded no matter how much she pretends, that child will never be hers in the way she’s so desperately been trying to make it be for years. i hope she’s reminded of her damn place in chris’ life.

[noecantsleep]

the way things are looking rn itll be buddie becoming canon lmao

we will get another november 5th but its symbrock becoming canon(and then maybe dying). and then kamala will win the election and thank venom in her speech

[theoncologistof911dispatch]

[911gif]

9-1-1 (2018 - present)

[merthurians-prat-and-idiot]

9-1-1 season 9 is actually just a full series of Eddie, Karen & Maddie trying different ways to jailbreak the 118 & Athena after they all get arrested for this whole thing.

[ifmagicexists]

something about how tommy being buck's "most transformative relationship since abby" is something that's not only stated in the show by buck himself, but also something the narrative emphasizes over and over. like. buck spent a season with abby, falling in love, and the next entire season pining after her. and its the same with tommy! a season together and now pretty much the whole of season eight pining after him, with one key difference: tommy keeps showing up. over and over, a defining trait in their relationship at this point, buck asks for him and tommy is there: buck wants his attention and tommy shows up at his door; buck asks for a second chance at a date and tommy shows up and agrees; buck throws a bachelor's party for chimney and tommy shows up despite a shift; buck asks him to be at his sister's wedding and tommy fights fires to get there; buck gets sick/cursed and tommy is there; buck wants a funeral for a long-dead outlaw and tommy is there; buck needs a diversion against the fbi and the army and tommy is there, no questions asked

and i just think there's something so beautiful about that journey for buck, going from pining after someone who's long left him behind (multiple someones, it can be said), to pining after someone who can't stay away from him. and the journey from repeatedly being told both times not to reach out and to just move on, where with abby it wouldn't have made a difference either way, with tommy its only keeping them apart longer, because tommy will show up for him; he just has to ask.

[schrijverr]

I'm so close to being done with the Chris finds Eddie's HS diary fic, I swear this time. I promise I'm keeping it under 80k (I always said 80k, right? haha...)

~~~

July 31, 2007

Happy birthday to me… I guess. Papi didn’t make it home until evening, so he missed the cake. And he didn’t get me a bat and a glove. I don’t know if he remembered. I reminded him before he left, but I guess it was a dismissive grumble. I should have known. Besides, money doesn’t grow on trees.

I know Adri is turning 16, so she’ll have her license soon and she’ll need a car and Soph has been begging for dance classes. Plus, the sink broke a while ago. Mom called the plumber, because papi wasn’t here, so that cost a lot. Next time, I should see if I can fix it before she does to spare costs. Still, I’m a little sad about not getting the bat and glove. Maybe he meant Christmas, since technically it’s not a year now? I hope so. I’ll just continue to borrow Cody’s glove or one from school for now. The tshirts were nice too, I shouldn’t complain, with the way I’m growing, I needed new shirts. I got three and two are actually okay to be seen with in public.

Also Soph spilled her drink over her slice and cried about it, so mom made me switch with her. That sucked. Juice flavored chocolate cake and soggy whipped cream isn’t as nice. But that is bound to happen, maybe she’s less clumsy when she’s ten. And those dancing classes might help. Maybe mom will let me have an extra cookie to make up for it.

Edit: now fic'ed

[fandomofisolation]

Obviously, I'm really not happy with the bucktommy breakup. I LOVED bucktommy. I thought their relationship was so sweet and easy and fun. And Tommy's reasoning for breaking up with Buck just doesn't seem fair. It feels patronizing. It feels like he doesn't trust Buck to know himself.

I ESPECIALLY object to it because of my own story. I myself realized that I'm a bi woman at 23 while I was dating a man. At 24, while I was still with that man, I met a woman. I ended up leaving that man for her. We fell in love and got married when I was 25. That was five years ago. I have no doubts at all that this is right. This is good. She was my first AND my last.

Buck is like, what? 32? So Tommy's his first. So what? Tommy could be his first AND his last. I trust that Buck, at this stage in his life, knows what he wants. I don't think it's fair that Tommy isn't trusting him with that.

It's not cool and it's not fair, writers.

[jackwhiteprophetic]

No it's actually setting in now that we are going to go the whole summer with Eddie canonically apart from Chris. He's gonna go home to an empty house and he's gonna burn food with no one there to tease him and his calendar is gonna be fucking empty and when children are injured on calls he's gonna wake up in the night and go to Chris' room and he's not there and he's gonna think this was inevitable and that he tried for nothing. KILL ME NOW.

[ravi-is-my-beloved]

Let me be really real with y'all.

Chimney and Eddie have both been called abusive on the fandom over and over again whereas Bobby and Buck have had the fandom brush off their physical outbursts because y'all understood why they reacted out of anger like that. Chimney and Eddie can't seem to escape what they've done no matter how many years have passed by while you don't even think about what Bobby and Buck have done most of the time.

And you're telling me it's not because of racism (or at the very least bias)? Really?

Eddie didn't even hurt Buck! He just got in Buck's face. He was the least violent out of the four of them.

[grapejuicegay]

2x03 | 8x14

[stolenkissesdiaz]

i’m actually sooooo normal about this lolllll <- lying

[1doesnotsimplyhavejust1fandam]

Can you imagine telling season 4 Ravi “I’m not really with them. I barely know these people” Panikkar that in a couple years he’s going to be just as ride-or-die as the rest of the A shift, and he’ll be out there risking domestic terrorism charges for Chimney? I know that man did not want to get sucked into the horrors of the 118 A shift but alas, he’s stuck with them forever now. He tried his hardest to escape their crazy, and now he’s out here risking criminal charges with the best of them.