#ALSO MY DRIVING ISNT THAT BAD

[moeblob]

Me, too, Blade. Me. Too.

(I am taking donations to buy a gigantic $250 stuffed cheeseburger. It's giant. I want it. I will never obtain it. I saw it in a shop window and..... wow. Big.)

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

[generalsdiary]

bestie wake up new blade lore dropped

[hauntswitch]

Im so sorry but the L word is absolutely fucking hilarious - none of these women have an ounce of morality between them and yet they're all somehow still loveable characters. Despite the atrocities. And the bad 2000s haircuts. And the deeply questionable fashion choices.

[most-definitively-a-human]

Were any other autistic people so divorced from their own feelings wants and needs that they simply Acted without thought? As in. The idea of 'am I enjoying this' or 'I am going to take a deliberate action to do something' was just absent.

Personally it really feels like I didn't develop free will until fourteen or so. Until then I Existed and Reacted to Things and Was Vaguely Pleasant about all of it but that was it. I never reacted to my own thoughts or wants. I didn't disagree because I didn't have enough time to think about my own preferences. All my interests were given to me by other people. If it wasn't a stated option I didn't consider it an option.

Probably just really bad alexithymia combined with trauma but I would like to know if this is an experience anyone shares.

Also: sending a hopefully helpful message to those who need it. You are allowed to stop watching things you dislike. You can put a book down If you dislike it or try a different food. If you currently dislike what you are doing it is a good idea to figure out what your preferences are and if you lack them to try and cultivate them.

If you'd like, try new things and find what excite you. If you want things to stay the same that's great too. You're more than allowed you're encouraged to do what you'd like. It's alright to exist - I promise it is even if it doesn't feel like it.

Hugs and fishes 🧡🫂🐳🐠

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

[deep-space-lines]

I need to kidnap a neurosurgeon and hold them captive in my basement and force them to perform a surgery to remove the part of my brain that tells me my stupid little fanfiction isn't worth sharing with the world unless it's written with a level of skill, artistry, and depth that puts Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky to shame

[llumimoon]

(me sitting here seething) ITS FINE its fine ITS FINE . I'LL GET MY LICENSE SOON ITS FINE

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

[arielluva]

i just followed my cat down the hall to pet her, while all the lights are off (its 2 in the morning rn) and get suddenly reminded of my visual snow! trying to pet a black cat in a very dark hallway is already hard enough, forget the fact that ive got static everywhere making everything swirl around and straining my eyes... even once i got back to my room where i have a lamp on its still. eurgh. i feel like i need an adjustment period after being in the dark like that

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

[crescentfool]

some draws of a friend and i's ocs!!! kipper and minatoast are friends now...

[xamaxenta]

It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way

This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow

but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month

None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion

[hyvee]

Just scheduled a second interview for a full time position🕺

[girlwithfish]

i want a lumbar support pillow for sleeping saur bad